Zbornik Mednarodnega literarnega sreÄanja Vilenica 2004 - Ljudmila
Zbornik Mednarodnega literarnega sreÄanja Vilenica 2004 - Ljudmila Zbornik Mednarodnega literarnega sreÄanja Vilenica 2004 - Ljudmila
Szilárd Podmaniczky The old man was sleeping peacefully in the bed; he was warm enough to have pulled the bedclothes lower down off himself. I perched on the side of the bed, and all I could think of was that time should roll on and the doctor come as soon as possible. My eyelids were drooping, and I thought to myself that I could do with a spot of shut-eye, so I cautiously snuggled back next to the old man. It must have been after noon when I woke, but I was no longer alarmed; I was partly reconciled to my position in that I had managed to gain some control over things and I had a plan for deliverance. Dusk was drawing in; the fire had burned down to embers, so I went out to chop wood. The dull axe blade had trouble splitting the thick logs, and in the gloom I was fumbling in the earth in the hope of finding something on which to whet it when my hand came to a halt. I sensed that someone was watching me. I raised my head. A shadowy figure was standing behind the garden gate. I tried to make it out in the twilight. Blow it, I thought to myself, I’ve overplayed my hand and come unstuck. Tossing the axe to the ground, I went over to the gate. After a few paces I could see that it was a woman, her oval face glistening in the light that was filtering out from the kitchen window. Good evening, I said. Good evening, she replied. May I come in, she asked. Of course, and I opened the gate. In the kitchen I offered her a seat then went to fetch another chair from the next room. She was mopping eyes alarmingly red from weeping. At first I thought she must be the old man’s daughter, but because she did not seem to want to see him, and did not even ask after him, I quickly dismissed that notion and trusted I would be able to carry on coolly playing the role of the son - at least until the morning. The woman could hardly have been over forty, and if one discounted the eyes swollen and a mouth-line puffed-up from crying, I would go as far as to say she was pretty. She began by saying she didn’t even know where to begin. I listened to her for about an hour as it meanwhile grew quite dark. She was in a big jam: everyone in the village looked on her as a city tart, because she was pretty, and round there they hated outsiders; they were all supposed to marry someone from that village or, at worst, the next one over. Her husband drank like a fish; he had plenty of money, farming a few hundred hectares with his workers, but he now did little else except hit the bottle. She could not leave him, because he would go after her and kill her, he had promised as much; either that or her husband’s brothers would kill her, for what difference that made. She did not have the nerve to kill herself, and since I too was a stranger there, maybe I would understand. I clutched my head in my hands. Somehow I felt unable to trot out that if only she would give me some money, I would not be seen for dust. That was clearly not going to solve the problem for her. Come with me: bring some money from home, and we’ll make ourselves scarce, I said. It’s impossible, because they’lI be after me, she replied, and from the way she said it I too sensed that it was too big a price 334
Szilárd Podmaniczky to pay for my liberty, I ought not to take it upon myself. We fell silent; she stopped crying. I did my best to help: what if she were to kill him, I said. That’s impossible, I’ve already thought of that, it would be the end of me, she said. But maybe if you were to do it. My expression froze totally at that. Oh no, I responded, not that. I would pay you; he keeps loads of money at home, a million or so. I said nothing for a while. I can’t do anything like that..., I said. He’s pegged out at home, out of his skull even as we speak. Come with me, please, I beg you, help me. She stood up, opened the door wide, and waited for me to go with her. I didn’t have the heart to leave the wretched woman to her own devices; I thought to myself, if I were to go and have a looksee, she might calm down, at least until tomorrow. I grabbed my jacket, and off we went. Her husband was pegged out in the front room, his arms dangling from the settee, his mouth wide open. The woman studied me curiously to see what I would come up with. She glanced from me to the fat, dead-drunk pig to whom she had pledged her tooth... And what if it were made to look like suicide, I whispered. I don’t know; I don’t know anything about that sort of thing, I’m all mixed up, she said. One could torch the house on him, let’s say, I said, and I began spilling out ideas, each better than the last, but with a callousness that even I found surprising, as if I were just tossing them around in a brainstorming session. Torch the house on him, I said. Or bury him in the garden. That’s not suicide, the woman said. True, I replied. Or stick him into his car and trundle it into a lake. There is a lake here, the woman said, just over a mile outside the village. Then what are you waiting for, I asked. Help me, she pleaded. We went out into the garage, inspected the car, and I showed her how to set the accelerator, the gear and the clutch. But you have to do it, I said. The car had not been used for years, the tyres were flat. I snatched the pump down from the wall, and though my head was reeling from it all, did not waste a moment. When I had finished on the first wheel the woman gently grasped my neck and stroked my face. No, I said, I told you you have to carry it through. She vanished whilst I was pumping the next tyre, and all at once it had come down to me: there was I, pumping up the tyres of the car of a total stranger, in a completely unknown place that I had no idea how I had fetched up in, with the old chap croaking back there, whilst here I was helping to send a lousy creep to his maker. I’ll scarper before the woman gets back, I thought to myself. Except there was nowhere to scarper to; it was bitingly cold outside, and the fog was closing in, and she would follow me to the old man’s house. By the time the woman had returned, I had filled all the tyres. In her hand was a bundle of money, which she stuffed into my jacket pocket. Eight hundred grand, she said. For fuck’s sake, I yelled, get it through your head: No! The woman pulled down the garage door. Pipe down, they can hear you. Afterwards you can do with me whatever you want, she said. Oh no, not that, I said in a more hushed voice, but the anger was undiminished, and I sensed the anger was somehow alleviating my hangover. If I 335
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Szilárd Podmaniczky<br />
to pay for my liberty, I ought not to take it upon myself.<br />
We fell silent; she stopped crying. I did my best to help: what if she<br />
were to kill him, I said. That’s impossible, I’ve already thought of that, it<br />
would be the end of me, she said. But maybe if you were to do it. My<br />
expression froze totally at that. Oh no, I responded, not that. I would pay<br />
you; he keeps loads of money at home, a million or so. I said nothing for a<br />
while. I can’t do anything like that..., I said. He’s pegged out at home, out<br />
of his skull even as we speak. Come with me, please, I beg you, help me.<br />
She stood up, opened the door wide, and waited for me to go with her.<br />
I didn’t have the heart to leave the wretched woman to her own devices;<br />
I thought to myself, if I were to go and have a looksee, she might<br />
calm down, at least until tomorrow. I grabbed my jacket, and off we went.<br />
Her husband was pegged out in the front room, his arms dangling from<br />
the settee, his mouth wide open. The woman studied me curiously to see<br />
what I would come up with. She glanced from me to the fat, dead-drunk<br />
pig to whom she had pledged her tooth...<br />
And what if it were made to look like suicide, I whispered. I don’t know;<br />
I don’t know anything about that sort of thing, I’m all mixed up, she said.<br />
One could torch the house on him, let’s say, I said, and I began spilling out<br />
ideas, each better than the last, but with a callousness that even I found<br />
surprising, as if I were just tossing them around in a brainstorming session.<br />
Torch the house on him, I said. Or bury him in the garden. That’s not<br />
suicide, the woman said. True, I replied. Or stick him into his car and<br />
trundle it into a lake. There is a lake here, the woman said, just over a mile<br />
outside the village. Then what are you waiting for, I asked. Help me, she<br />
pleaded.<br />
We went out into the garage, inspected the car, and I showed her how<br />
to set the accelerator, the gear and the clutch. But you have to do it, I said.<br />
The car had not been used for years, the tyres were flat. I snatched the<br />
pump down from the wall, and though my head was reeling from it all,<br />
did not waste a moment. When I had finished on the first wheel the<br />
woman gently grasped my neck and stroked my face. No, I said, I told you<br />
you have to carry it through. She vanished whilst I was pumping the next<br />
tyre, and all at once it had come down to me: there was I, pumping up the<br />
tyres of the car of a total stranger, in a completely unknown place that I<br />
had no idea how I had fetched up in, with the old chap croaking back<br />
there, whilst here I was helping to send a lousy creep to his maker. I’ll<br />
scarper before the woman gets back, I thought to myself. Except there<br />
was nowhere to scarper to; it was bitingly cold outside, and the fog was<br />
closing in, and she would follow me to the old man’s house.<br />
By the time the woman had returned, I had filled all the tyres. In her<br />
hand was a bundle of money, which she stuffed into my jacket pocket.<br />
Eight hundred grand, she said. For fuck’s sake, I yelled, get it through your<br />
head: No! The woman pulled down the garage door. Pipe down, they can<br />
hear you. Afterwards you can do with me whatever you want, she said.<br />
Oh no, not that, I said in a more hushed voice, but the anger was undiminished,<br />
and I sensed the anger was somehow alleviating my hangover. If I<br />
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