Zbornik Mednarodnega literarnega sreÄanja Vilenica 2004 - Ljudmila
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Daša Drndić looks at Johann the house-painter. He is smiling. He is leaning against a silver handled cane. It is an expensive cane. His suit is too large. I am a psychiatrist, says doctor Gross, I know when people confabulate. This man has a vivid imagination, he’s seeing people and events. This man should be treated. On winter nights they’d leave us halfnaked on the balconies. We would die slowly. I haven’t died. They gave us shots and sedatives and first we would shiver on those balconies, then we would fall asleep, then we would catch pneumonia. Gross remembers nothing of his past. The trial is stopped because doctor Heinrich Gross has no memory, no one’s memory, neither his nor that of his patients, nor that of history. He dwells in a false fugue, in a fugue of hypocrisy or dementia, no one knows which, and no one will ever find out. Without memory it is impossible to bring back the past. There is evidence, there are tiny pieces of memory stored in the skulls of those who no longer exist. For sixty years that mummified evidence has floated in formaldehyde, but it is not sufficient evidence. The court psychiatrist of the accused former SS psychiatrist Heinrich Gross, from 1950 to 1988 also his wellpaid colleague, an active neuro-paediatrician with dozens of research papers on the deformities of the brain, proclaims the doctor senile. The judge, Karlheinz Seewald, acquits him. Doctor Heinrich Gross will die a natural death as an innocent and free man. I am Waltraud Haupl. I have the healthfile of my sister Annemarie from the year 1943. She was admitted to Spiegelgrund because of rachitic changes on her bones. Doctor Gross included her into his programme of euthanasia of mentally retarded children. The file holds the doctor’s therapeutic starvation diet: coffee with milk and a piece of bread once 110
Daša Drndić a day. My sister died aged four. She weighed nine kilos. They haven’t given me her brain yet. I’d like to have it. I’d like to bury that brain. The hospital Am Steinhof (Otto Wagner) is located in a beautiful park with pavilions in Art-Nouveau style. Until 1945, in it works and experiments the cream of Austrian and German medicine. Built in 1907, it has for a long time been considered the largest and most modern hospital in Europe. Some thirty years later, in 1940, it becomes one of the forty centres for the implementation of the Nazi programme Aktion T4 – the programme for exterminating physically and mentally handicapped patients of all ages, hypocritically named The Euthanasia Programme. Programme Aktion T4 was named after Tiergartengasse 4 in Berlin, where there used to stand a beautiful villa with the Fuehrer’s headquarters. There, a team of monstrous and sickbrained people then in power, had planned how to eradicate the pathological human gene, how to control the hygiene of the human race, how to cleanse those they found unfit to live. But, for truth’s sake, eugenic theories, ideas on the sterilization and euthanasia of handicapped people, for the first time appear in the United States and in Sweden during the twenties of the last century. The Nazis »only« adopted them and then brought them to realization. I‘m Friedl’s mother. We lived in a small town some one hundred kilometres from Vienna. The Russian troupes were already in Austria. It was raining heavily in April 1945, it had been raining for days. I wanted to see Friedl. He had already been in Spiegelgrund for two weeks, in Spiegelgrund they said, come in three weeks. They said, Friedl has pneumonia. I didn’t want to come in three weeks, I returned in two weeks, on the 20 th of April. They were celebrat- 111
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Daša Drndić<br />
looks at Johann the house-painter. He is<br />
smiling. He is leaning against a silver<br />
handled cane. It is an expensive cane. His<br />
suit is too large. I am a psychiatrist, says<br />
doctor Gross, I know when people confabulate.<br />
This man has a vivid imagination,<br />
he’s seeing people and events. This<br />
man should be treated.<br />
On winter nights they’d leave us halfnaked<br />
on the balconies. We would die<br />
slowly. I haven’t died. They gave us shots<br />
and sedatives and first we would shiver<br />
on those balconies, then we would fall<br />
asleep, then we would catch pneumonia.<br />
Gross remembers nothing of his past.<br />
The trial is stopped because doctor Heinrich<br />
Gross has no memory, no one’s<br />
memory, neither his nor that of his patients,<br />
nor that of history. He dwells in a<br />
false fugue, in a fugue of hypocrisy or<br />
dementia, no one knows which, and no<br />
one will ever find out. Without memory<br />
it is impossible to bring back the past.<br />
There is evidence, there are tiny pieces<br />
of memory stored in the skulls of those<br />
who no longer exist. For sixty years that<br />
mummified evidence has floated in<br />
formaldehyde, but it is not sufficient evidence.<br />
The court psychiatrist of the accused<br />
former SS psychiatrist Heinrich<br />
Gross, from 1950 to 1988 also his wellpaid<br />
colleague, an active neuro-paediatrician<br />
with dozens of research papers<br />
on the deformities of the brain, proclaims<br />
the doctor senile. The judge, Karlheinz<br />
Seewald, acquits him. Doctor Heinrich<br />
Gross will die a natural death as an<br />
innocent and free man.<br />
I am Waltraud Haupl. I have the healthfile<br />
of my sister Annemarie from the year<br />
1943. She was admitted to Spiegelgrund<br />
because of rachitic changes on her<br />
bones. Doctor Gross included her into his<br />
programme of euthanasia of mentally<br />
retarded children. The file holds the<br />
doctor’s therapeutic starvation diet: coffee<br />
with milk and a piece of bread once<br />
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