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By Edward Winter
Men, Rose Petals & True Balance
On the 3rd of July one year ago I was seated around a
glass table outside on my girl-friend’s patio. There
were exactly five people, including myself, seated
around the table.
One of them I knew and the other three I was meeting
for the first time. The stranger that was seated
opposite me, staring at me with a goofy/stalker smile,
would become the greatest love of my life, my fiancé
and the reason why I lost faith in affection and gained
belief in love. The young couple on the edge of
engagement would separate a few months later and
almost never talk to one another again. Finally, the
lady that was the reason for me meeting them would turn against me and do awful things
just to get her way in life.
It is astonishing if you take a few moments from your day just to try and remember or
notice the changes around you and those changes that affected you directly. How you use
to think and the dreams and ideals you use to have. I use to believe in a love without
faults or arguments, I use to believe that relationships lasts forever and I use to believe
that friends are always around.
Truth is, even though those beliefs and dreams of mine might seem childish I still consider
them a possibility – because nothing is truly impossible.
On the 23rd of November 2011, my fiancé and I separated and I
had to go and live with a friend of mine for a week or two just to
find my feet in life. A life where I solemnly believed that I would
be without him forever and that is exactly how I started to plan
and live my life. Friends came and went as my life progressed and
I kept on building. Loneliness took hold and sympathetic
relationships fell into place. Those were relationships that rose
and fell because of an un-solid foundation. How can you build a
tower to reach heaven, when your heart is not in the foundation?
I never bothered to care about who came and went because no
one could hurt me more than the pain of missing him hurt me every day.
It was about two months ago that I had finally given up on the thought of ever being with
him again, seeing that it had been two months since he had terminated and blocked