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2 agvisto - 5 seqtemberi 2013<br />
yaros moTviniereba ufro iolia, vidre<br />
xaSurisa da mayvalam SeZlo, am patara,<br />
yru da pirquS qalaqSi Tavisi<br />
wili poezia aeyvavebina...<br />
mayvalas patara binaSi TiTqmis mTeli<br />
xaSuris inteligencia ikribeba.<br />
aravis ulxins, iseTi droa, magram adamianebs<br />
erTmaneTis naxva da erTmaneT-<br />
Tan yofna jer kidev uxariaT. mayvalasTan<br />
TiTqmis ganuyrelad aris mzia<br />
maRaldaZe _ xaSureli poeti da mxatvari.<br />
ar vici, romlis ideaa, me mgoni,<br />
ufro mzia maRaldaZisa, magram erTxans<br />
es jgufi spiritualizmma `gaitaca~:<br />
TefSs atrialeben da arian erT ambavSi...<br />
mec, <strong>Cemi</strong> meocnebe naturis gamo,<br />
msgavsi ambebi Zalian mainteresebs da<br />
arcerT `TefSis trials~ ar vakldebi,<br />
Tan gulwrfelad rom giTxraT, am<br />
yvelafrisa Zalian meSinia. magram<br />
rogor ginda cdunebas gauZlo, roca<br />
mzia maRaldaZe Cabnelebul oTaxSi, ar<br />
meti arc naklebi, ilia WavWavaZis suls<br />
gamoiZaxebs da idumali xmiT hkiTxavs:<br />
rodis gaTavisufldeba Cveni tanjuli<br />
qveyana dampyroblebis marwuxebisagan?<br />
uceb tortmaniT daiZvreba sanTliT<br />
gaxurebuli lambaqi, jer m-sTan miva,<br />
mere a-sTan, mere l-sTan da bolos e-<br />
sac rom miadgeba, mTeli es spiritualuri<br />
sazogadoeba SvebiT amoisunTqavs:<br />
`male!~<br />
marTalia, yvelas erTmaneTze<br />
epareba eWvi, rom TefSs swored is, sxva<br />
atrialebs, magram saboloo sixaruli<br />
imdenad didia, rom yovelgvar eWvs<br />
aqarwylebs: Cven didi ilias suli<br />
dagvelaparaka da gviTxra, rom male<br />
gavTavisufldebiT.<br />
xolo iq myofTagan me mainc imiTi<br />
ganvsxvavdebi, rom sxvebis garda, Cems<br />
TavSi ufro mepareba eWvi. dResac ara<br />
var darwmunebuli: iqneba imdenad<br />
viyavi monusxuli ideiT, rom lambaqs<br />
im wuTas saWiro asoebisaken swored me<br />
veweodi...<br />
faqti is aris, rom mec maTTan er-<br />
Tad gaxldiT CarTuli am yovlad mistikur<br />
saqmianobaSi, romelsac agdebiTa<br />
da iumoriT mxolod gogi gogolaZe<br />
da Tamaz lacabiZe uyurebdnen.<br />
gogi am yvelafers, saerTod, komentaris<br />
Rirsadac ar miiCnevs, Tamaz lacabiZe<br />
_ xaSuris mxareTcodneobis<br />
direqtori _ ki ironiulad gvekiTxeba<br />
saqmis detalebze. raio, mere ilia<br />
maRaldaZem? _ ikiTxavs da eSmakurad<br />
apaWunebs Tvalebs...<br />
erTxel, TefSma, roca saqarTvelos<br />
bedisweris gamo amjerad sulxansabas<br />
suli SevawuxeT, CvenTvis yvelasaTvis<br />
gaurkveveli sityva `mToema~<br />
dagviwera. vkiTxeT, es ras niSnavso da<br />
sulxan sabasave leqsikonis stiliT agvixsna:<br />
`ese ars ocnebai sanukveli, male<br />
axdenili~....<br />
mokled, Cvens sixaruls sazRvari<br />
ar hqonda da me, eTer tabataZe da daTo<br />
wiqariSvili erTmaneTs gadavexvieT...<br />
xolo `mToema~ Cveni koduri sityva<br />
gaxda mamulis TavisuflebisaTvis imperiul<br />
elementebTan uTanasworo<br />
brZolaSi...<br />
Tamazi ki isev icinoda: raio,raio,<br />
sulxan saba maRaldaZem?<br />
Tamaz lacabiZe, marTalia, spiritualizmisagan<br />
Sors dgas da amdenad,<br />
CemTvis iseTi saintereso ar aris,<br />
rogorc vTqvaT, mzia maRaldaZe an<br />
eTeri tabataZe, magram cudi adamiani<br />
namdvilad ar eTqmis. Cven Soris yvelaze<br />
myarada dgas miwaze, magram Tef-<br />
Sis trialisa ar iyos, TiTo axireba<br />
yvelasa aqvs da misi gataceba imxanad<br />
momravlebuli Jurnal-gazeTebis Segroveba<br />
da akinZvaa.<br />
paralelurad, didi rudunebiT<br />
ikvlevs xaSuris raionis istorias da<br />
dimitri yifianis cxovrebasa da moRvaweobas.<br />
`spiritualistebs~ albaT<br />
yvelas sulis gamoZaxebas gvapatiebs,<br />
dimitri yifianis sulis Sewuxebis garda.<br />
ucoloa da xaSureli lamazmanebi<br />
misTvis dnebian, is ki xaSuris istoriul<br />
warsulzea Seyvarebuli da axlandelic<br />
mxolod imitom ainteresebs,<br />
rom aris perseqtiva _ momavalSi isic<br />
literaturuli gazeTi<br />
warsulad iqces...<br />
Cems das xandaxan TbilisSi sabuRaltro<br />
angariSebi aqvs Casatani da amitom,<br />
Cems Tavs, rogorc yvelaze sando<br />
adamians, swored Tamaz lacabiZes<br />
abarebs: cud asakSia, mainc yuradRebiT<br />
iyaviT, araferi daaSavoso.<br />
Tamazic, Sesvenebaze gamoiqceva da<br />
mamowmebs, skolaSi var Tu ara da iseTs<br />
xom arafers vafuWeb, _ magaliTad, sigarets<br />
xom ar vewevi.<br />
amis Semowmebis metad originaluri<br />
meTodi aqvs. skolis ukan gamixmobs da<br />
mkiTxavs: raRac, papirozi ver viyide<br />
da Sen xo ara gaqvs, erTi Reri rom momawevino!<br />
hoda, mec aba, Tamazs sigaretiT<br />
gamaspinZlebaze uars xom ar<br />
vetyvi....<br />
xandaxan, gakveTilebis Semdeg<br />
muzeumSi avyavar da iq erTad vsadilobT.<br />
* * *<br />
biZa<strong>Cemi</strong> meZaxis, givi Zia, sinamdvileSi<br />
mamas biZaSvilia, magram rakiRa<br />
erTmaneTTan axlos cxovrobdnen, amaT<br />
ufro uyvardaT, mgoni, ZmebiviT erTmaneTi.<br />
axlac <strong>Cemi</strong> mSoblebis sikvdilis<br />
Semdeg sul givi Zia da naTela Zalo<br />
irjebian. dRe erTia da aTjer meZaxian.<br />
xan naTela Semova da Semoitans Tavis<br />
gamomcxvar ugemrieles nazuqebsa da<br />
SoTis purebs, xan givi Zia Semoabotebs,<br />
rogora xaro, damxedavs. sul mamaCemze<br />
melaparakeba. aTjer mainca maqvs mosmenili,<br />
rogor gaabriyva ori kaci `vi-<br />
Rac cignis qalma~.<br />
sofelSi boSebi mosulan. mama<strong>Cemi</strong>saTvis<br />
oqros beWdebi SeuZleviaT iafad.<br />
iafobazec fuli saxlSi ar aRmosCenia,<br />
dauZaxia givi ZiasaTvis: `patiosani qali<br />
Cans, Turme uWirs da iafad unda gayidos<br />
amisTana oqrouli. modi, xelidan<br />
nu gauSvebo... givisac gamoutania sami<br />
Tvis danazogi samasi maneTi, CauTvlia<br />
`cignis qalisaTvis~ yalb oqroSi da venaxidan<br />
Sin mobrunebuli naTela ZalosaTvis<br />
uxarebia: naxe, inguSam ra pativi<br />
mca, ra iafad mayidina amdeni ganZio!~<br />
naTela gagiJebula: `is cignis qali<br />
gzaze Semxvda da gana ara! _ gamikvirda,<br />
ras garbis aseTi farTxafurTxiT,<br />
Tan ukan-ukan ras ixedeba-meTqi da,<br />
Turme <strong>Cemi</strong> ojaxi ar dauqcevia! movides<br />
aqa lili, mag inguSas aCvenebs seirsao!~<br />
inguSa mama<strong>Cemi</strong>a. sinamdvileSi ilo<br />
hqvia, magram raWveli papis, erastias,<br />
Serqmeuli saalerso saxeli mTeli cxovreba<br />
SerCa. is ki ara, <strong>Cemi</strong> debidan<br />
zogi dabadebis mowmobaSic ki inguSas<br />
asulad weria...<br />
mama vis ar uyvars, magram marTla<br />
iSviaTad SegxvdebodaT aseTi keTilSobili<br />
adamiani. saerTod, ar maxsovs misi<br />
xmamaRali sityva. ijda TavisTvis, saqmianobda<br />
da uxaroda da uyvarda yvela<br />
da yvelaferi...<br />
`ra moxda mere, kaco!~ _ Cailaparakebda<br />
xolme TavisTvis, roca viRacaze<br />
gagulisebulebi rames mouyvebodnen.<br />
Zalian maRali iyo da Sinisaken momavals,<br />
saxlidan rom gavxedavdi, Soridanve<br />
davinaxavdi xolme.<br />
deda<strong>Cemi</strong>, lili, ki misi sruli antipodia:<br />
tanmorCili, mkvircxli, sixalisiTa<br />
da sicocxlis siyvaruliT<br />
savse.<br />
inguSas flegmaturi bunebis fonze<br />
is namdvili mexia da vai imas, visac Tavs<br />
daatydeba. qarTuli enis TiTqmis dam-<br />
Srali nakadulebi lilis bageebidan<br />
uSreti CqefiT moedinebian. is namdvili<br />
sityvis ostatia da am ostatobas moferebisasac<br />
da brazisasac Sesabamisad<br />
iyenebs.<br />
axlac tyuilad ki ara daimuqra<br />
naTela Zalom, movides jera lilio!<br />
marTalia, mamaCemTan, ZiriTadad,<br />
siyvaruliT ganiaraRebulia xolme, magram<br />
aseT SemTxvevaSi sityvas mainc<br />
gadauSxivlebs.<br />
hoda, naTela ixsenebda: `movida<br />
meurneobidana lili, movuyevi es ambavi,<br />
ai, ase damaqcia Senma qmarma-meTqi da<br />
imana kideva, gana <strong>Cemi</strong> oqroebi iwuxa, ase<br />
miTxra: ra vuyo, qalo, marto inguSas<br />
SeiZleba egonos cignis qali patiosanio!~<br />
aba, maSin ki gaigiJa lilim Tavi, givim<br />
da inguSam Tqveni sabZeli rom gadawveso.<br />
eg rogor iyo-meTqi.<br />
me ar maxsovs eg ambavi da naTela<br />
Zalo sul keTili RimiliT mirakrakebs:<br />
`truba egdo aqa, Cven saxlTana.<br />
givisa virTxa Seumwyvdevia Siga. hoda,<br />
visTvis una daeZaxa. mouxmia inguSai.<br />
ra vqnaTo da ar vici, romelma<br />
moifiqra, magram uTqviaT: modi,<br />
virTxasa cecxli mivunToTo! gana patarebi<br />
arian _ daojaxebulebi arian,<br />
mara Wkua mainc arcerTs ara aq<br />
TavSi. hooda, amouglesiaT trubis<br />
cali piri, dausvelebiaT Cvari, miunTiaT<br />
cecxli da miukidebiaT<br />
virTxisTvina. imasaca uwivlia da ro<br />
ganwarebula, gaungrevia trubis<br />
amolesili piri, udurTia Tavi da Sevardnila<br />
pirdapir Tqven sabZelSi.<br />
agvistos Suaa da bze gvaq yvelas<br />
axali dabinavebuli. ro moedo am<br />
Tqven sabZelsa cecxli, veRaravin veraferi<br />
gaawyo. xuT wuTSi daiwva. sab-<br />
Zels viRa Cioda, guli gviskdeboda,<br />
saxlze ar gadavideso.<br />
lilic gamwarda, mara bzes da sab-<br />
Zels ki ar Cioda, mTeli sofeli imas<br />
iZaxda: giJia es qali, qmars eubneboda:<br />
virTxa ar SegecodaT, mxecebi xom<br />
ar iyaviT? cecxli rogor waukide-<br />
To?!<br />
ui, moispos amisi Tavio! _ gadaxedavs<br />
givi Zias, _ es ari, rac ari, Tore<br />
mamaSeni magas rogor gaakeTebdao...<br />
naTela da givi, ZiriTadad, sul<br />
erTad dadian. amitom mniSvneloba<br />
ara aqvs, romeli Semova pirvelad<br />
ezoSi, male iqve meorec gaCndeba,<br />
TiTqos gverdze sokosaviT amoezardao.<br />
givim icis yvelaze myrali gineba<br />
mTel sofelSi da Tavis codnas<br />
umTavresad naTelas uziarebs orSaurad,<br />
magram uerTmaneTod mainc ver<br />
Zleben da naTela Zalosac ise aqvs<br />
givis ginebaze yuri miCveuli, rom<br />
mgoni, Tavisi qmari daviT mefsalmune<br />
hgonia.<br />
me ki ra mogaxsenoT.. radgan Cvens<br />
ezoebs mxolod erTi orRobe _<br />
`vanos gza~ hyofs, givis gineba mesmis<br />
24 saaTi da ver getyviT, rom Zalian<br />
msiamovnebs...<br />
* * *<br />
xinca CvenSi, rogorc sofelSi amboben,<br />
yvelaze `eSmakia~, anu yvelaze<br />
gonieria da moxerxebuli, me saerTod<br />
gulubryvilo var da amitom, bavSvobaSi<br />
Zalian iolad mabriyvebdnen.<br />
wyali dRemde miyvars, maSin xom<br />
mdinareze vgiJdebodi da daTbeboda<br />
Tu ara, fronidan veRaravis amovyavdi.<br />
erTxel, swored am xincas waqezebiT,<br />
TebervalSi tansacmlianad vibanave<br />
mdinareSi. raRacnairad Tbili<br />
Tebervali ki idga, magram xaSuris<br />
pirobebSi xom warmogidgeniaT, mainc<br />
ra sicive iqneboda. ubralod mzem<br />
daaWiata erT dRes da Cvenc mdinareze<br />
Casulma meore Tu mesameklaselebma<br />
gadavwyviteT, barem aq varT da vibanavoT<br />
kidecao.<br />
sxvebma tanT gaixades, me ki, ar<br />
vici, Cavvardi Tu veRar moviTmine da<br />
wyalSi tansacmlianad gadaveSvi. karga<br />
xans viyurWave, magram etyoba wylis<br />
susxma momafxizla da napirze rom<br />
amovedi, pirveli is gavifiqre, saxl-<br />
Si momklaven-meTqi. tansacmeli gavixade,<br />
gavwure da askilis totebze<br />
mivafine. TviTon ki riyeze Camovjeqi<br />
da <strong>Cemi</strong> WkuiT, sveli svitrisa da Sarvlis<br />
gaSrobas velodi. bedad, romeli-<br />
Raca mezobels davenaxe, CvenTan<br />
asuliyo da <strong>Cemi</strong> debidan umcrosi dis-<br />
Tvis, irmasaTvis, romelic im wuTas Sin<br />
daxvedroda, eTqva: Seni Zma riyeze<br />
tintrikela gdia da tansacmels iSrobso.<br />
<strong>Cemi</strong> da maSinve gamoqceuliyo<br />
da Tvali Soridanve movkari, riyeze<br />
Camoqanebulma, rogor Seatexa iq amosul<br />
tirifebs wkeplis ramdenime<br />
toti.<br />
aba, wkepla egre ar undao, tansacmeli<br />
mivatove da soflis Saraze gavi-<br />
Canawerebi<br />
7<br />
Weri. win me mivrbivar da ukan <strong>Cemi</strong> da<br />
momdevs wkeplis qneviT. mTeli sofeli<br />
Semovarbenine, sanam sabolood qanci<br />
TviTonve ar gamiwyda da saxlSi ar<br />
Sevvardi.<br />
dRemde maxsovs, im bavSvuri sircxvilis<br />
grZnoba: rogor gavrbodi soflis<br />
gzaze sruliad SiSveli da ara Tu<br />
maxsovs, es ambavi zogjer axlac ki mesizmreba.<br />
saerTod, Zalze susti bavSvi viyavi<br />
da xSirad avadvmyofobdi, magram ma-<br />
Sin, Cemebs rom egonaT, filtvebis an-<br />
Tebas ver gadaurCebao, araferi dammarTnia.<br />
SeiZleba imis gamo, rom soflis<br />
gzaze sirbilma gamaxura da<br />
sircxvili ki vWame, magram snebas gadavurCi.<br />
bavSvobaSi <strong>Cemi</strong> debidan yvelaze<br />
siRrmiseuli Sinagani kavSiri, swored<br />
am mexuTe dasTan, irmasTan mqonda. ma-<br />
Sin Zalian didi meCveneboda, sinamdvileSi<br />
ki 7 wliT ufrosia Cemze da miuxedavad,<br />
zemoaRwerilis msgavsi, perioduli<br />
sadamsjelo operaciebisa,<br />
Cven mainc yvelaze kargad gvesmoda<br />
erTmaneTis.<br />
garda amisa, irma erTaderTi iyo<br />
<strong>Cemi</strong> debidan, vinc bavSvobaSi araCveulebriv<br />
leqsebs werda da etyoba,<br />
poeziis siyvarulic gvaerTianebda,<br />
romelsac maSin, rasakvirvelia, ver<br />
vacnobierebdi.<br />
amas garda, swored irmasgan vicodi<br />
bevri ram, rasac ufrosebi saguldagulod<br />
mimalavdnen. magaliTad,<br />
imas, rogor sruliad alalbedze<br />
viyavi gaCenili.<br />
saqme isaa, rom deda<strong>Cemi</strong> Cemze 41<br />
wlis asakSi dafexmZimda. es axlac da<br />
miTumetes maSin, sofelSi did sircxvilad<br />
iTvleboda. amitom didxans<br />
males es ambavi da bolos, dedam xaSurSi<br />
wasvla da muclis moSoreba gadawyvita.<br />
gamoewyo Turme erT dResac da<br />
is iyo Sinidan gasvlas apirebda, rom<br />
WiSkars zeda ubanSi mcxovrebi qali,<br />
olika qadagi mosdgomia.<br />
olika qadagi me ar maxsovs, amitom,<br />
ZiriTadad, irmas gadmocemiT vici,<br />
rogori iyo. jer albaT is unda iTqvas,<br />
ras niSnavs am konteqstSi `qadagi~.<br />
Cems bavSvobaSi sofelSi cxovrobda<br />
ramdenime qali, romlebic amtkicebdnen,<br />
rom wminda giorgim an romelime<br />
salocavma airCies msaxurebad da<br />
Tanasoflelebs am salocavTa nebasurvils<br />
amcnobdnen.<br />
es moxucebulic swored aseTi qadagi<br />
yofila, atocis wminda giorgis<br />
rCeuli da xeldasxmuli.<br />
irmasgan vicodi, rom ise Cveulebrivi<br />
arafriT gamorCeuli qali<br />
iyo, magram roca wminda giorgi alaparakebda,<br />
sul sxvanairi xdeboda: xma<br />
ecvleboda da saxe unaTdebodao.<br />
hoda, dauZaxia olikas WiSkris<br />
iqidan Tavisi xmiT, magram ezoSi Semosula<br />
Tu ara, qadagad davardnila da<br />
deda<strong>Cemi</strong>saTvis uTqvams: me wminda<br />
giorgi vlaparakob! axla orsulada<br />
xar, apireb, muceli moiSoro, magram<br />
eg ar qna, Torem daisjebi! biWi geyoleba<br />
da Cems saxels daarqmevo.<br />
dedas Zalian SeSinebia, radgan misi<br />
fexmZimobis ambavi mama<strong>Cemi</strong>s garda<br />
aravis scodnia, da olika qadagis sityvebi<br />
uzenaes WeSmaritebad miuRia.<br />
ukve gamowyobili, xaSurSi ki wasula,<br />
magram eqimis magivrad, mamidaCems<br />
midgomia da yvelaferi uambnia. Tamara<br />
mamidas uTqvams: aba, ra sisulele<br />
dagipirebia. gaaCine eg bavSvi da Tu<br />
kidev gogo geyoleba, me wamoviyvano!<br />
an gogos vin gamoatanda, magram<br />
deda ukan daimedebuli mobrunebula.<br />
es ambavi rom daijero, sakuTari<br />
gamorCeuloba unda irwmuno. aqedan<br />
fsiqiatriul saavadmyofomde ki erTi<br />
nabijia. amas axla vacnobiereb, magram<br />
kargi is iyo, rom gadmocemis mistikur<br />
mxares bavSvobidanve distancirebulad<br />
vuyurebdi da yvelaferi, Tu<br />
mTlianad irmas fantaziis nayofad<br />
ara, mis mier xatovani aRweriT gamkve-<br />
Trebulad mainc mimaCnda. SeiZleba imitom,<br />
rom olika qadagi Cems moCitvamde<br />
gardacvliliyo da aRar maxsovda.<br />
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