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goes to great lengths trying to explain the unexplainable. Their agitation and fear were
caused by our Silence, which balanced it in a way that I simply can’t explain with ease. It
seems that silence is conserved, much as is energy, and nature abhors a vacuum. That’s
as close as I can get. It was sheer madness, and made perfect sense, all at the same time.
Whether or not this identified myself as a “Master”, I suppose, is beside the point. I
can only state that under the circumstances that night, I was capable of playing the part.
There is more to the tale, and you shall soon enough hear the rest. I will add here that
I now believe, as of my last review of the data, that whatever the rupture was that led to
“The Black Lodge of Santa Cruz”, it “came down” here, in Orinda, in the heart of that
“madness” of the 19 th Æthyr.
It is with no little difficulty that I can connect this with Her Holy Name, logically.
But that is my experience. It does seem to work, as I think you have proven for yourself.
Perhaps Babalon is, in a sense, the containment vessel of all things, even Choronzon.
I’m still writing on the Orinda working, and perhaps more will fall out in the process.
I am not at all surprised to hear of the influence 418 had on your experiences in
1988, “intersecting with my experience” is a perfect description of my experiences as
well. When I had largely rejected Crowley (the Vision of the Demon Crowley is an
apparently universal stage of progress), The Vision and the Voice was the only work I
could not reject. Its meaning for me, even then, was just too great. So I sympathize with
your being forced to re-evaluate Crowley in light of that document. 418 has had a
profound impact on my life and my work. It is, in many ways, the framework of my
experience and the lens through which I view matters spiritual.
I have a xerox of Tallqvist’s “Maqlû” text. It was rumored to have had disruptive
effects, back when I first copied it for David Jones. It’s an Assyrian transcription of a
Sumerian text, and contains an invocation of the god Sin (thus Jones’s reason for wanting
it). It is rumored to be one of the sources used for a portion of the Simonomicon. Since
the “lilitu” come out of Mesopotamia, I’m wondering whether they’re in that text. Little
reluctant to dig it out and look, but I suspect I will. The translation is into German, and
aside from a few half-remembered phrases, my Deutsch isn’t that good.
I also have a musty old reprint of Forlong’s A Cyclopedia of Religions (London, 1906).
Under “Lilith” it reads, in part:
According to Talmudists, Lilith sinned in refusing to be submissive to man, saying that
she was created with Adam, and that he should not rule her. She learned the holy “name”
(of Yahveh), and so obtained wings, and flew from Paradise: angels found her hovering
over the Red Sea. She refused to return to Adam, and the curse on her was pronounced
to be that every child she bore should die in infancy… She snares youths with amorous
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