kaos

Editorial
The cult of Chaos conjoined with Babalon
An explanation for my long absence is called for. I left the occult “scene” in 1989 after
what has become known as the kaos-babalon working, after editing KAOS for five
years. Despite the intensity of the working, and the sense of triumph I felt and expressed
in KAOS 13, I knew even then that I would be leaving, for in the wake of the working
I sensed but could not then quite express that despite this triumph I had ultimately
failed in the occult task set me, simply because no-one understood me, no-one was
ready for what we had done, or few were, not enough at any rate. Or sometimes I even
felt that I had been betrayed by the occult force that had led me… up the garden path
it seemed by a series of ever more seductive illusions. It appeared only a handful of
people really understood the complex matters I was dealing with, which, in turn, were
expressed from various states of inspired demonic madness.
A girl called “Amodali”—her magical and stage name—was Babalon, I was Chaos.
Looking back over KAOS 13 recently it dawned on me that even though she was the
muse for that issue I never actually wrote much about her. For the sake of documenting
underground occult history it occurs to me it is time to make good that omission.
Amodali, who I lost touch with after kaos-babalon in 1989 and who is still known by
that name, is now “Mother Destruction” with her partner Patrick O’Kill (formerly of
the band “Death in June”), a goth band working with the Norse Seidr, a seething
shamanic sexual trance gnosis. In early 1988 Amodali wrote to me in London from
Amsterdam, where she had picked up some issues of KAOS, and asked me to forward a
package to Nema in the US, prophetess of the Ma’at current. Her covering letter to me
was written on the back of a colour xerox of a photograph of herself naked, on all fours,
her body hand-tinted emerald green, third eye headband, and a couple of strands of
black hair against her white-powdered face. She later admitted that this photograph
was intended as a spell to totally captivate me. It worked. She identified herself by the
number 156, the number of both Babalon and Chaos by Hebrew gematria. I was
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