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Cveni nacnobebidan an Tayvanismcemeli, da imden nayins gvTavazoben xolme, romerT kvirasac ver moerevi.warmomidgenia, rogor gikvirs, Cems asakSi rom Tayvanismcemlebzevlaparakob. samwuxarod, Cvens skolaSi es gardauvali senia. rogorc kiromelime biWi uflebas mTxovs, velosipediT saxlamde gamacilos, me ukve vici,rom xsenebul biWs TavdaviwyebiT vuyvarvar da Tvals ver maSorebs. mcire xnisSemdeg siyvaruli uneldeba, gansakuTrebiT maSin, roca arafrad vagdebSeyvarebulis gamoxedvas da mxiarulad vatrialeb pedalebs. zogjer Tu vinmeZalian miwyalebs guls, velosipedze odnav Sevtortmandebi, CanTa mivardeba, dazrdilobiani ymawvili iZulebulia velosipedidan Camoxtes. sanam CanTasmomawvdides, gonzec modis. aseTi Tayvanismcemlebi yovlad ucodvelebia, magramarian iseTebic, romlebic haerovan kocnas migzavnian da Tavs mabezreben. CemTanamgvari ram ar gadis. maSinve Camovxtebi velosipedidan da warbSekrulivucxadeb, rom mis gverdiT yofna ar msurs, ase vTqvaT, Seuracxyofili var davurCev Sin wabrZandes.ase, Cemo kiwi! Cvens megobrobas safuZveli Caeyara! xvalamde!kvira, 21 ivnisi, 1942Zvirfaso kiwi!mTel Cvens klass cieb-cxeleba sWirs: pedagogiuri sabWo karze mogvadga.naxevarma klasma sanaZleo dado — vis gadaiyvanen da vin darCeba. me da mip deiongi siciliT vkvdebiT Cveni ori mezoblis Semyure, romelTac naZlevSimTeli jibis fuli waages. `gadagiyvanen, dagtoveben, xo, ara...~ ase grZeldebadilidan saRamomde. Cveni mezoblebi verc mipis mavedrebelma mzeram moiyvanagons da verc Cemma energiulma aRmzrdelobiTma RonisZiebebma. me rom mkiTxon,naxevari klasi dasatovebelia, iseTi zarmacebi arian. marTalia, maswavleblebiyovlad Wirveuli xalxia, magram, vin icis, iqneb Cvenda sasikeTod arianWirveulni.me kargi urTierToba maqvs yvela maswavlebelTan. sul cxramaswavlebeli gvyavs, Svidi kaci da ori qali. batoni kepleri, moxucimaTematikis maswavlebeli, erT dros Zalian gabrazebuli iyo Cemze, radganganuwyvetliv vybedobdi. man araerTxel gamafrTxila da bolos damsaja —damavala, damewera Txzuleba Temaze `ybedi~. hm, ybedi! aba ras dawer amaze?magram didad ar Semiwuxebia Tavi. davalebebis rveuli CanTaSi Sevinaxe davcade pirze klite damedo. saRamos, roca sxva gakveTilebs movrCi, keplerisdavaleba momagonda. avtokalams vRrRnidi da vfiqrobdi, ra damewera. raRacisdawera da striqonebis aWreleba yvelas SeuZlia, magram didi xelovnebaa,monaxo damajerebeli sabuTi ybedobis sasargeblod. vfiqrobdi, didxansvfiqrobdi da uecrad goneba gaminaTda. mocemuli sami gverdi sulmouTqmeladgavavse, saqme gaiCarxa. sabuTad is moviyvane, rom ybedoba qaluri Tvisebaa,magram me, cxadia, Sevecdebi Tavi Sevikavo, rom dedaCemic CemsaviT bevrslaparakobs da rom memkvidreobiT gadmocemuli Tvisebebis aRmofxvra,samwuxarod, TiTqmis SeuZlebelia.baton keplers gaecina Cems axsna-ganmartebaze. magram roca gakveTilzeisev gavabi laqlaqi, meore Txzulebis dawera damavala: `gamousworebelilaqlaqa~. es davalebac Sevasrule da or gakveTilze sanimuSod viqceodi.mesameze kvlav metismeti momivida: da ai, anem isev miiRo sasjeli — Txzuleba:`yi, yi, yi, froilain yiyina~. mTelma klasma gadaixarxara. mec gamecina, TumcaCemi SemoqmedebiTi niWi laqlaqTan dakavSirebuli Txzulebebis weraSiamowurulad mimaCnda. unda mepova raime axali, originaluri. Cemma megobarmasanem, SesaniSnavma poetma, leqsis dawera mirCia da daxmarebac aRmiTqva. meaRfrTovanebuli viyavi. keplers undoda abuCad avegde, magram me mas ormagad,sammagad gadavuxdi samagieros, Tavad gavxdi sasacilod.leqsi daiwera da didi warmateba xvda wilad. gavleqse deda batis, mamagedisa da sami Wukis ambavi; mamam Wukebi bevri yiyinis gamo sasikvdiloddakortna. sabednierod, kepleri mimixvda xumrobas da leqsi xmamaRla waikiTxa

komentarebiT CvenTanac da sxva klasebSic. mas Semdeg Tavisuflad SemiZliavilaqlaqo. kepleri aRar msjis, magram xSirad damcinis amis gamo.anaoTxSabaTi, 24 ivnisi, 1942Zvirfaso kiwi!autaneli sicxea, yvela qSinavs da oflad iRvreba. me ki am papanaqebaSisul fexiT davdivar. mxolod axla davrwmundi, Tu ra sasiamovno ramaatramvai, gansakuTrebiT ki Ria vagonebi. magram es siamovneba ebraelebisaTvisaRar arsebobs. ra gaewyoba, sakuTari fexebiTac iolad gavalT. guSinSuadRisas, Sesvenebaze, kbilis eqimTan unda wavsuliyavi, ian-liukenstraatze.Cveni skolidan sakmaod Sorsaa. gza qalaqis baRs mihyveba. ise daviRale, rombolo gakveTilebze kinaRam CameZina. kidev kargi, keTili adamianebi bevriaqveynad, wyals mainc mogawvdian. kbilis eqimis asistenti qali ebraelebisadmiTanagrZnobiTaa ganwyobili.Cven ufleba gvaqvs visargebloT mxolod erTaderTi transportiT, pataranaviT, romelic iozefizraelskadesTan dgas. rogorc ki vTxoveT menaves,maSinve meore napirze gadagviyvana. ra holandielebis bralia, ebraelebi romaseT dReSi varT. netav skolaSi siaruli ar mWirdebodes! saaRdgomoardadegebze velosipedi mompares, dedaCemis velosipedi ki mamam nacnobebsmiabara Sesanaxad. sabednierod ardadegebi axlovdeba, kidev erTi kvirac daaRaraferi miWirs.guSin diliT iseTi ram moxda, rac Zalian mesiamovna. roca im adgilsCavuare, sadac Cveulebriv velosipedi medga, viRacam damiZaxa. movtrialdi dadavinaxe simpaTiuri ymawvili, romelsac wina saRamos Cemi skolis amxanagTan,evasTan, Sevxvdi. ymawvili odnav darcxvenili Canda, Tavisi gvari da saxelimiTxra: hari goldbergi. cota ar iyos gamikvirda, ver gamego, ra undoda. maleyvelaferi gairkva. skolamde surda gavecilebine. `Tu gza aqeT gaqvs, wamodi~,vupasuxe me da gverdiT gavyevi. hari ukve 16 wlisaa da SesaniSnavad yvebaaTasgvar ambebs. am diliT isev melodeboda, amieridan, albaT, ase gagrZeldeba.anasamSabaTi, 30 ivnisi, 1942Zvirfaso kiwi!dRemde ver movicale SenTvis, mTeli xuTSabaTi nacnobebTan gavatare.paraskevs stumrebi gvyavda da ase grZeldeba aqamde. me da hari am erT kviraSidavuaxlovdiT erTmaneTs. man bevri ram miambo Tavis Tavze. Turme martoCamosula holandiaSi bebiasTan da babuasTan, mSoblebi ki belgiaSi hyavs. adrehari erT gogonasTan, fanisTan, dadioda. me vicnob fanis. Tvinierebisa damowyenilobis gansaxierebaa. magram mas Semdeg rac me gamicno, hari mixvda, romfanis gverdiT lamis CaeZinos. etyoba me gamovacocxle. arasodes ar ici, visraSi gamoadgebi!SabaTs iopim CemTan gaaTia Rame, kviras ki lisisTan wavida. saSinladmowyenili viyavi.saRamos hari unda mosuliyo. eqvsze damireka.— hari goldbergi gaxlavarT, Tu SeiZleba sTxoveT anas.— ana var, hari.— saRamo mSvidobisa, ana, rogor xar?— gmadlobT, kargad.— samwuxarod, am saRamos ver moval, magram SenTan salaparako maqvs.SegiZlia aT wuTSi dabla Camoxvide?— kargi, Camoval.tansacmeli swrafad gamovicvale da Tma gaviswore. Semdeg kifanjarasTan videqi da vRelavdi. bolos hari movida: moxda saocari ram — kibekisristexiT ar Camirbenia, mSvidad videqi da velodi, rodis darekavda zars.

xolo roca zaris xma gavigone, dabla Cavedi. hari ise Semovarda saxlSi, romkaris gaReba arc ki macala.— momismine, bebiaCems miaCnia, rom Sen CemTan SedarebiT bavSvi xar.meubneba, lursebTan unda iaroo. etyoba mixvda, rom fanisTan urTierToba aRarminda.— ratom, gana Sen da fanim iCxubeT?— ara, piriqiT, magram vuTxari, rom erTmaneTisaTvis Seufereblebi varTda xSirad SenTan yofna ar minda, vuTxari isic, rom SegiZlia Tavisufladiaro CvenTan stumrad da zogjer me gestumrebi-meTqi. garda amisa, me megona,fani sxva ymawvilebTanac megobrobs, magram Cemi varaudi ar gamarTlda da axlabiZaCemi meubneba: bodiSi mouxadeo. me ki ar minda, amitom gadavwyvite, sul aRarSevxvde. bebiaCemi mainc mTxovs fanisTan viaro da ara SenTan, magram maTTanloliavisaTvis ar mcalia. moxucebs zogjer dromoWmuli Sexedulebebi aqvT.marTalia, me damokidebuli var bebiaze, magram ramdenadme isic arisdamokidebuli Cemze. oTxSabaTobiT Tavisufali var, bebias da babuas hgoniaT,xelobas vswavlob, me ki sionistTa krebebze davdivar. Cven sionistebi aravarT, magram mainteresebda gamego, ras warmoadgenen sionistebi. bolo drosraRac ar momwonan da aRarc vivli maTTan. ase rom, SegviZlia oTxSabaTs daSabaTs dRisiTac SevxvdeT erTmaneTs da saRamosac, kviras ki naSuadRevs,SeiZleba ufro xSiradac.— mismine, hari, Tu Sens bebias da babuas Cveni Sexvedra ar surT, Sen arunda eurCebode maT!— siyvaruls win veravin aRudgeba!Cven wignebis maRazias gavcdiT da quCis kuTxesTan gavuxvieT, iq davinaxepeter veseli viRac or biWTan erTad. ardadegebis Semdeg ar menaxa da Zalzegamexarda. me da harim ramdenjerme SemoviareT mTeli kvartali. bolosSevTanxmdiT, xval saRamos Svids rom xuTi wuTi daakldeba, mis saxlTandavelodebi.anaparaskevi, 3 ivlisi, 1942Zvirfaso kiwi!guSin CvenTan hari movida Cemi mSoblebis gasacnobad. viyide torti, keqsida tkbileuloba. davlieT Cai, magram me da haris saxlSi jdoma mogvbezrda dasaseirnod wavediT. cxris aT wuTze ukanve momacila. mama saSinlad gajavrda,gvian rom davbrundiT. ebraelTaTvis rva saaTis Semdeg Zalze saxifaToa quCaSisiaruli. piroba miveci, rva saaTisaTvis mudam saxlSi viqnebi-meTqi.xval harisTan var dapatiJebuli. Cemi megobari iopi ganuwyvetlivdamcinis haris gamo. me sruliadac ara var Seyvarebuli. nuTu ar SeiZlebamegobari gyavdes. ra aris cudi imaSi, rom megobari, anu rogorc dedaCemiambobs, kavaleri gyavdes. evam miambo: amas winaT hari yofila masTan da evasukiTxavs, vin ufro mogwons, fani Tu aneo. mas upasuxia: es Seni saqme araao. amTemaze meti aRar usaubriaT, magram wasvlisas haris uTqvams: ra Tqma unda ana,magram nuravis etyvio da oTaxidan gavardnila.me vamCnev, haris TavdaviwyebiT vuyvarvar da mravalferovnebisaTvismomwons kidec es ambavi. margom Tqva: `kargi ymawviliao~. mec ase mgonia. ara,kargze ufro metia. deda aRfrTovanebulia: `mSvenieri axalgazrdaa, sandomiani,zrdilio!~ mixaria, hari rom mTel ojaxs moewona, masac moswons yvela.mxolod esaa, rom Cemi megobari gogonebi bavSvebad miaCnia da amaSimarTalicaa.anakvira, 5 ivlisi, 1942Zvirfaso kiwi!paraskevs gimnaziis wliuri aqti Cinebulad Catarda. Cven Semdeg klasSigadagviyvanes. cudi niSnebi ara maqvs. mxolod erTi `susti~ mirevia. xuTi myavs

algebraSi, or sxva saganSi eqvsianebi, danarCenebSi Svidianebi da bolos orirviani 1 . ( 1 holandiis skolebSi aTbaliani sistemaa. 10 saukeTeso niSania.) Cvenebikmayofilni darCnen. Tumca Cemi mSoblebi sxvebs ar hgvanan. maincdamainc didyuradRebas ar aqceven kargsa da cud niSnebs, upiratesobas `wesier~ qcevas,janmrTelobas da keTilganwyobilebas aniWeben. oRond aq iyos yvelaferirigze, danarCeni TavisTavad mova. me ki piriqiT, guliT mindoda, kargi mowafevyofiliyavi. me pirobiT mimiRes liceumSi, radgan montesoris skolisukanaskneli klasi ar damimTavrebia. raki moxda ise, rom yvela ebraelimoswavle ebraelTa skolebSi unda gadasuliyo, direqtorma xangrZlivimolaparakebis Semdeg me da lisi pirobiT migviRo. ar minda imedi gavucruo.niSnebi Cemma dam, margomac moitana, rogorc yovelTvis, brwyinvale. jildo romarsebobdes, uTuod miiRebda da Semdeg klasSi qebis sigeliT gadavidoda, iseTiWkuis kolofia!bolo dros mama xSiradaa saxlSi, kontoraSi veRar dadis.saSineli grZnobaa, roca uecrad zedmeti aRmoCndebi. `travisi~ Caibarabatonma koophoisma, xolo batonma kralerma firma `koleni da kompania~,romlis Tanamonawile mamac iyo. amas winaT, roca me da mama erTadvseirnobdiT, `TavSesafarze~ Camomigdo sityva. miTxra, rom cudi dRedagvadgeba, Tu mTel qveyanas movwydebiT. vkiTxe, ratom ambob amas-meTqi. — Senici, — miTxra man, — rom ager erTi welia, rac tansacmeli, aveji da sursaTsanovagenacnob-megobrebTan gadagvaqvs. ar gvinda, germanelebma miiTvison Cveniqoneba da miT umetes ar gvinda, Cven TviTon CavuvardeT maT xelSi. amitomTavad gaveclebiT, sanam Segvipyrobdnen.mamas iseTi seriozuli saxe hqonda, rom SemeSinda.— rodis?— es nu gawuxebs, Svilo, mova dro da gaigeb. manamde ki isargebleTavisuflebiT.es iyo da es.ah, neta Sors, Zalze Sors iyos is dRe!anaoTxSabaTi, 8 ivlisi, 1942Zvirfaso kiwi!kvira dilidan dRemde TiTqos wlebma ganvlo. imdeni ram moxda, TiTqosdedamiwa ayiravda. magram, kiwi, jerjerobiT cocxali var da, rogorc mamaambobs, mTavari swored esaa. diax, me jer kidev varsebob, magram nu mkiTxav, sadda rogor. dRes, albaT, sruliad ar gesmis Cemi. amitom jer imas mogiyvebi, Tura moxda kviris Semdeg.sam saaTze (is iyo hari wavida da mogvianebiT isev unda mobrunebuliyo)zari darekes. me araferi gamigonia, radgan aivanze nebivrad movikalaTeSezlongze da wigns vkiTxulobdi. uecrad karebs SeSinebuli margo moadga. —ana, mamas gestapodan uwyeba mouvida, — miTxra man CurCuliT, — deda batonvan daanTan gaiqca. me SiSma amitana. uwyeba... yvelam icis, ras niSnavs uwyebismiReba: sakoncentracio banaks... Tvalwin warmomidga cixis sakani — nuTu mamaiq unda gavuSvaT! — ra Tqma unda, mama ar wava, Tqva margom mtkiced. Cven ukvesastumro oTaxSi visxediT da dedas velodebodiT. deda van daanebTan wavida,unda gadawyviton, gadavalT Tu ara xval `TavSesafarSi~. CvenTan erTad vandaanebic wamovlen. sul Svidni viqnebiT... irgvliv siCume sufevda. laparaks vervaxerxebdiT. vfiqrobdiT mamaze. is cuds arafers moelis, ebraelTaTavSesafarSia wasuli davrdomilebis sanaxavad, romelTac mfarvelobas uwevs.velodiT dedas... sicxem da sulierma daZabulobam sruliad dagvamunja.uecrad zari darekes. `es haria~, wamoviZaxe me. `ar gaaRo~, SemaCeramargom, magram SiSi amao aRmoCnda. Cvenamde moaRwia dedisa da baton van daanisxmam, romlebic haris elaparakebodnen. hari male wavida. deda da batoni vandaani ki saxlSi Semovidnen da karebi gadarazes. zaris yovel darekvaze me da

margo Cumad miviparebodiT dabla, rom gvenaxa, mama xom ar movida.gadavwyviteT, sxva aravin SemogveSva saxlSi. me da margo oTaxidangagvistumres. van daans pirispir surda dedasTan saubari. rodesac oTaxSimarto davrCiT, margom miTxra, rom uwyeba mas mouvida da ara mamas. margoTeqvsmeti wlisaa. nuTu am xnis gogonebi marto unda gaasaxlon?.. sabednierod,Cven mas arsad gavuSvebT. ase Tqva dedam, mamac uTuod amas gulisxmobda, rocaTavSesafarze melaparakeboda.TavSesafari! sadaa netav? qalaqSi, soflad, romelime SenobaSi Tu qoxSi,rodis wavalT, ra gziT, sad? ufleba ara mqonda am kiTxvebiT mimemarTavinmesTvis, magram gamudmebiT miRrRnida tvins.me da margo SevudeqiT saskolo CanTebSi yvelaze saWiro nivTebisCalagebas. pirveli, rac xelSi momxvda, es sqelydiani rveuli iyo. Semdegyvelaferi uwesrigod airia erTmaneTSi: bigudi, cxvirsaxocebi,saxelmZRvaneloebi, savarcxeli, Zveli werilebi. vfiqrobdi, rogordavimalebodiT da, RmerTma icis, ras ar vyridi CanTaSi. magram ar vnanob,mogonebebi CemTvis kabebze ufro Zvirfasia.xuT saaTze, rogorc iqna, mama dabrunda. mamam baton koophoiss daurekada sTxova saRamos Semoevlo CvenTan. batoni van daani mipis mosayvanad wavida.male mipi movida. fexsacmelebi, tansacmeli, paltoebi, cota TeTreuli dawindebi CemodanSi Caalaga da Segvpirda, saRamos isev movalo. saxlSi siCumeCamowva. arc erTs ar gvSioda. jer kidev Zalian cxeloda da yvelaferi metaducnaurad gamoiyureboda.Cvens zemoT didi oTaxi daqiravebuli aqvs vinme baton goudsmits.colTan gaSorebulia. ocdaaT wels iqneba mitanebuli. etyoba kvira dRes saqmear hqonda da aT saaTamde ijda CvenTan. verafriT ver movicileT. TerTmetsaaTze mipi da henk van santeni movidnen. mipi mamis kontoraSi 1933 wlidanmuSaobs da igi da misi axladgamoCekili qmari, penki, Cveni erTguli megobrebigaxdnen. mipis CemodanSi da penkis Rrma jibeebSi kvlav gauCinardafexsacmelebi, windebi, wignebi da sacvlebi. Tormetis naxevarze mZimeddatvirTulni gamogveTxoven. ise daviRale, rom arafris Tavi aRar mqonda.Tumca vicodi, rom ukanasknelad vwvebodi sakuTar sawolSi, mainc imwamsveCameZina. meore dRes, eqvsis naxevarze, dedam gamaRviZa. sabednierod,guSindeliviT aRar cxeloda. mTeli dRe Tbili wvima scrida. oTxivem iseTbilad CavicviT, TiTqos macivarSi vapirebdiT Ramis gaTevas. magram Cven racSeiZleba meti tansacmeli unda wagveRo Tan. Cvens mdgomareobaSi veravin gabeda,mZime CemodnebiT datvirTuli gamosuliyo gareT. mecva ori perangi, ori wyviliwinda, sami qveda sacvali, kaba, zed gadacmuli qvedatani, Jaketi, sazafxulopalto, Cemi saukeTeso fexsacmeli, botebi, mexura qudi, zevidan kidev Sali daraRac-raRacebi. kinaRam saxlSive davixrCvi, magram CemTvis aravis scaloda.margom saskolo CanTa saxelmZRvaneloebiT gatena, velosipedze dajda damips CemTvis ucnob Soreul mxareSi gahyva. me jer kidev ar vicodi, romelisaidumloebiT aRvsili adgili Segvikedlebda... Svidis naxevarze CvencgamoviketeT kari. erTaderTi, visac gamovemSvidobe, Cemi sayvareli patara katamorheni iyo. igi axali kargi patronis, Cveni mezoblis, xelSi rCeboda. batongoudsmits amasTan dakavSirebiT baraTi davutoveT. samzareuloSi, magidaze,katisTvis erTi girvanqa xorci davdeT. WurWeli aulagebeli dagvrCa, sawolebigausworebeli. yovelive es iseT STabeWdilebas tovebda, TiTqosTavqudmoglejilni gaviqeciT. CvenTvis sul erTi iyo, ras ityodnen sxvebi.mxolod is gvindoda, droze gavclodiT aqaurobas, mSvidobianad migveRwiadaniSnul adgilamde.danarCens xval mogwer!anaxuTSabaTi, 9 ivlisi, 1942Zvirfaso kiwi!

ase mivrbodiT TavsxmaSi mama, deda da me, xelSi TiToeuls piramdegatenili portfeli da xelCanTa gveWira. adrianad samuSaoze mimavali muSebiTanagrZnobiT gviyurebdnen. saxeze etyobodaT, rom wuxdnen da vebralebodiT,radgan amdeni tvirTi Tavad unda gvezida, transportiT sargeblobis uflebaki ar gvqonda. yvelas TvalSi xvdeboda yviTeli varskvlavi, rac sakmarisadmetyvelebda Cvens bedze. gzaSi mSoblebma dawvrilebiT miambes, rogorSeimuSaves gaqcevis gegma. Tveebis manZilze saimedo adgilas gadagvqonda Cveniaveji da tansacmlis nawili. axla yvelaferi mzad iyo da 16 ivliss TviTonvevapirebdiT gaqcevas, magram uwyeba aTi dRiT adre movida da unda SevrigebodiTim garemoebas, rom Senoba jer ar iyo saTanadod SekeTebuli. TavSesafari mamiskantoraSia mowyobili. gareSe pirTaTvis es Zneli gasagebia, amitom ufrodawvrilebiT agixsni. mamas mosamsaxureTa mcirericxovani Stati hyavdayovelTvis: batoni kraleri, batoni koophoisi, mipi da eli voseni, — ocdasamiwlis stenografisti. Cveni adgilsamyofeli yvelam icis. saidumlo ar gavandeTmxolod elis mamas, romelic sawyobSi muSaobs da mis or xelqveiT muSas.saxlis gegma aseTia: pirvel sarTulze didi sawyobia, aqveasaeqspedicioc. sawyobis karis gverdiT saxlSi Sesasvleli karia, romelicormagia da patara kibemde miyavxar. Tu am kibes ahyvebi, miadgebi mqrqalminiankars, romelzedac odesRac Savi asoebiT ewera `kontora~. es mTavari kontoraa,Zalze didi da Zalian naTeli, mudam xalxiT gaWedili. dRisiT aq muSaobenmipi, eli da batoni koophoisi. gasasvleli oTaxis gavliT, sadac dgassxvadasxva zomis karadebi, didi bufeti da seifi, moxvdebi naxevrad bnel ukanaoTaxSi. aq adre baton kraleri da batoni van daani isxdnen, axla ki mxolodkraleri darCa. am oTaxSi derefnidanac SeiZleba Semosvla minis karismeSveobiT, romelic Signidan advilad iReba, garedan ki gaWirvebiT. kralerisoTaxidan derefans gahyvebi, oTxsafexurian kibes aivli da saukeTeso oTaxSiaRmoCndebi. esaa direqtoris kabineti muqi, didebuli avejiT, noxebiT mofenililinoleumgadakruli iataki, radiomimRebi, Zvirfasi, moxdenili lampebi,yvelaferi saukeTeso xarisxisa da iSviaTi naxelavia. kabinetis gverdiT, didifarTo samzareuloa, sadac dgas Tbili wylis rezervuari — `titani~ — dagazis ori qura. iqvea sapirfareSoc. aseTia pirveli sarTuli.grZeli gasasvlelidan xis kibiT adixar wina oTaxSi, romelic derefanSigadadis. marjvniv da marcxniv karebia. marcxena kari uerTdeba Senobis mTavarnawils, sadac sawyobis saTavsoebia, sakuWnao, mansarda da sxveni. meore mxridanSenobas aqvs kidev erTi grZeli, metismetad cicabo, namdvili holandiurikisrismosatexi kibe, romelic quCis meore mxares gamavali karisken gagiyvans.marjvena kari Cveni TavSesafrisaa. aravis mouva azrad, rom am ubralo,nacrisfrad SeRebili karis ukan amdeni oTaxia ganlagebuli. erT safexursaivli da maSinve TavSesafarSi aRmoCndebi. am Sesasvlelis pirdapir cicabokibea. marcxniv momcro derefniT Sedixar im oTaxSi, romelic frankebis ojaxissasadilo da sawoli iqneba. gverdiT kidevaa erTi, SedarebiT patara oTaxi.frankebis ori norCi mandilosnis sawoli da samuSao oTaxi. kibidanmxarmarjvniv ufanjro oTaxia, sadac mowyobilia pirsabani da calkegamoyofili sapirfareSo. am oTaxsa da me da margos sawols Soris kariadatanebuli. roca kibes zeviT ahyvebi da kars gaaReb, gakvirvebs is ambavi, romam Zveli saxlis ukana nawilSi aseT did, lamaz da naTel oTaxs waawydi. amoTaxSi dgas gazis qura da WurWlis sarecxi magida (Cvens gadmosaxlebamde aqfirmis laboratoria iyo). axla aq iqneba samzareulo, sasadilo da vandaanebis kabineti da sawoli oTaxi. pawia, gasasvlel oTaxs peter van daanidaeufleba. rogorc saxlis wina nawilSi, aqacaa sxveni da mansarda. ai, ukvegagacani mTeli Cveni TavSesafari.anaparaskevi, 10 ivlisi, 1942Zvirfaso kiwi!

iqneb saSinlad mogabezre Tavi Cveni TavSesafris gauTavebeli aRweriT,magram xom unda icode, sad gamomriya talRam! da radganac jer yvelaferi armiambnia, ganvagrZob. mivaRwieT Tu ara prinsengraxtamde, mipma maSinve agviyvanazeviT, TavSesafarSi, kari mogviketa da martoni davrCiT. margo velosipediTgacilebiT adre mosuliyo da ukve gvelodeboda. ara marto Cveni, aramed sxvaoTaxebic ZvelmanebiT movaWris sakuWnaos gavda. SeuZlebelia amis aRwera!mTeli muyaos yuTebi da Cemodnebi, romlebic Tveebis ganmavlobaSi aqgadmohqondaT, uwesrigod eyara irgvliv. patara oTaxi Weramde aevsoTsawolebiT da qveSagebliT. Tu saRamos wesierad gawyobil sawolebSivapirebdiT Zils, axlave unda SevdgomodiT dalagebas. dedas da margosarafris Tavi ar hqondaT. gunebamowamlulni iyvnen da leibebze miwvnen. me damamaCemi, Cveni ojaxis ori `damlagebeli~ maSinve SevudeqiT saqmes. bargigavxseniT, mivalag-movalageT, vferTxeT, vwmindeT, vrecxeT da saRamossaSinlad daRlilebi mkvdrebiviT daveyareT sufTa sawolebze. mTeli dRisganmavlobaSi cxeli saWmeli ar Cagvsvlia pirSi. Tumca es arc iyo saWiro.dedas da margos zedmeti nervulobisagan Wama ar SeeZloT, me da mamas kiamisTvis ar gvecala. samSabaTs dilidan kvlav saqmes movkideT xeli. elim damipma Cveni sasursaTo baraTebiT raRaca gviyides, mamam SuqSeniRbva moagvara,bolos jagrisiT movrecxeT samzareuloSi iataki, erTi sityviT, yvelanidilidan saRamomde vmuSaobdiT. oTxSabaTamde sruliad ar mqonda dro mefiqraim did gardatexaze, romelic Cems cxovrebaSi moxda. TavSesafarSi mosvlisdroidan mxolod oTxSabaTs vcade pirvelad gavrkveuliyavi mTel am ambavSi,meambna SenTvis yvelaferi, rac SegvemTxva da rac SeiZleba SegvemTxvasamieridan.anaSabaTi, 11 ivlisi, 1942Zvirfaso kiwi!mama, deda da margo verafriT ver SeeCvivnen vesterturmis zaris rekvas,romelic yovel meoTxed saaTSi gaismis. me ki SeveCvie da momwons kidec,gansakuTrebiT RamRamobiT rogorRac mamSvidebs. albaT, Zalian ginda icode,rogor momwons Cveni TavSesafari. marTali rom giTxra, jer Tavadac ar vici,ase mgonia, aq verasodes ver vigrZnob Tavs ise, rogorc saxlSi. amiT imis Tqmaki ar minda, rom aqauroba Semzaravi da uRimRamoa. zogjer iseTi grZnoba maqvs,TiTqos raRac saocar pansionSi aRmovCndi. TavSesafris aseTi aRqma ucnauria,ara, Sen ras ityvi? Tumca saxlis is nawili, sadac Cven vimalebiT, idealuriTavSesafaria, ra vuyoT, rom nestiani da cota mibrecil-mobrecilia. aseTmoxerxebul samalavs verc amsterdamSi ipovi da albaT verc mTel holandiaSi.aqamde Cveni oTaxis kedlebi sruliad SiSveli iyo. sabednierod, mamasmTeli Cemi kinovarskvlavebisa da peizaJebis koleqcia wamoeRo da funjisa dawebos daxmarebiT kedlebi avaWrele. axla Cveni oTaxi Tvals axarebs. roca vandaanebi movlen, sxvenze dawyobili ficrebisagan ganjinebsa da sxva saWironivTebs gavakeTebT.margo da deda Tavs ukeT grZnoben. guSin dedam pirvelad gadawyvita,muxudosagan wvniani moemzadebina. magram qveviT Cavida, laparaks Sehyva dasadili sruliad gadaaviwyda. wveni amoSra, muxudo danaxSirda, verafriT veramovfxikeT qvabidan. mwyins, rom Cvens maswavlebels, keplers, am ambavs vervuambob... memkvidreobis Teoria!guSin saRamos yvelani kabinetSi CavediT. gvindoda inglisisradiogadacema mogvesmina. me saSinelma SiSma amitana, megona romelime mezobeliSegvamCnevda da vemudarebodi mamas, isev zeviT avsuliyaviT. deda mimixvda daisic gamogvyva. saerTod, yvelas gvawuxebs is ambavi, rom SeiZleba vinmemdagvinaxos an Cven saubars mohkras yuri. pirvel dResve SevkereT fardebi.sinamdvileSi es mxolod sxvadasxva formisa da feris nakuwebia, romlebic meda mamam SevakowiweT. Cveni iSviaTi naxelavi knopebiT fanjrebis CarCoebzedavamagreT da, sanam aq viqnebiT, ar CamovxsniT. Cveni saxlis gverdiT didi

kontoraa. marcxniv avejis saxelosno. am SenobaSi samuSao dRis damTavrebisSemdeg aRaravin rCeba, magram xom SeiZleba xma gavides. margos, romelicsaSinlad gaciebulia, Rame daxveleba avukrZaleT. sabralom dausrulebladkodeini unda ylapos.maxarebs is ambavi, rom samSabaTs van daanebi gadmovlen. ufro myudrodviqnebiT, aRarc aseTi siCume iqneba. siCume Zalze manerviulebs, gansakuTrebiTsaRamoobiT da RamiT. ras ar mivcemdi, erT-erTi Cveni mfarveli rom CvenTanaTevdes Rames. ver SevCvevivar im ambavs, rom sruliad ar SegviZlia quCaSigasvla, meSinia. iseTi grZnoba maqvs, TiTqos aRmogvaCenen da dagvxvreten.amgvari fiqrebi guls miRrRnis. dRisiTac Zalian Cumad unda viyoT. arSeiZleba bakuniT siaruli da Cveni xma rom dabla, sawyobSi ar gaigonon,TiTqmis CurCuliT gvixdeba laparaki. viRac meZaxis!anaparaskevi, 14 agvisto, 1942Zvirfaso kiwi!erTi Tvea, xma ar gamicia SenTvis, magram raime axali da mniSvnelovaniyoveldRe ar xdeba. camet ivliss van daanebi gadmovidnen. Tumca pirobisTanaxmad ToTxmetSi velodiT, magram germanelebi im dReebSi sul ufro daufro met ebraelebs iZaxebdnen. saerTod, didi areulobaa. amitom sabediswerodagvianebas amjobines erTi dRiT adre gadmosuliyvnen. diliT, aTis naxevarze,roca, Cven jer kidev vsauzmobdiT, peter van daani mogvadga. 16 wlis ymawvilia,sakmaod mosawyeni da morcxvi, romlis mezoblobisagan bevrs arafers veli.naxevari saaTis Semdeg gamocxaddnen col-qmari van daanebi: colma saqudeyuTiT Ramis qoTani moitana, ramac saerTo mxiaruleba gamoiwvia. `ar SemiZliaam WurWlis gareSe arseboba~, ganacxada man da saWiro sagani maSinve sawolisqveS moaTavsa. marTalia, qmars Ramis qoTani ar moutania, magram iRliaSidasakeci magida hqonda amoCrili. pirvel dRes yvelani erTad visxediTmyudrod, sami dRis Semdeg ki iseTi grZnoba gvqonda, TiTqos mudam erT didojaxad gvecxovros. TavisTavad cxadia, im erTi kviris ganmavlobaSi, romelicvan daanebma adamianebs Soris gaatares, bevri ram ganicades da yvelaferigviambes. Cven yvelaze metad gvainteresebda Cveni binisa da baton goudsmitisambavi.batonma van daanma gviambo: — orSabaTs, dilis cxra saaTze, goudsmitmadamireka da mTxova Semevlo masTan. maCvena baraTi, romelic Tqven dautoveT(werdiT, visTvis mieca kata). goudsmits Zalze eSinoda saxlis gaCxrekis,amitom magida avalageT da iqauroba odnav movasufTaveT. uecrad frau frankissaweri magidis kalendris furcelze raRac warweras movkari Tvali.maastrixtis misamarTi aRmoCnda. me imwamsve mivxvdi, rom es Segnebuli`daudevrobaa~, magram gakvirvebuli saxe miviRe da SeSinebuli vemudarebodibaton goudsmits sabediswero kalendris furceli daewva. sanam iq viyavi,mxolod imas vuCiCinebdi, rom araviTari warmodgena ar mqonda Tqvensganzraxvaze. da uecrad, TiTqos es-esaa movisazre, raSia saqme, veubnebi: `batonogoudsmit, mivxvdi, visicaa es misamarTi. daaxloebiT naxevari wlis winaTCvenTan kontoraSi Semovida gavleniani germaneli oficeri, romelic batonifrankis bavSvobis megobari aRmoCnda. dapirda, Tu aq SenTvis saxifaTomdgomareoba Seiqmneba, dagexmarebio. am oficris samxedro nawili maastrixtSiidga. SeiZleba dapireba Seasrula da frankebis ojaxi belgiaSi gadaiyvana,iqidan ki maT naTesavebTan SveicariaSi. es ambavi SegiZliaT gaandoT frankebisyvela karg nacnobs, Tu maT moikiTxaven, oRond gTxovT, maastrixts nuaxsenebT~. me male wamovedi. axla es ambavi Tqveni nacnobebis umravlesobamicis. am versiam Cemamdec bevrjer moaRwia sxvadasxvanairad.van daanebis naambobma aRtacebaSi mogviyvana, gulianad vicineT, ras arwarmoidgens xalxi. Turme erTi ojaxi amtkicebda, TiTqos dagvinaxa, rogormivqrodiT dilaadrian yvelani velosipedebiT. xolo viRac qalbatoni imasacki yveboda, TiTqos SuaRamiT samxedro manqanam wagviyvana.

anaparaskevi, 21 agvisto, 1942Zvirfaso kiwi!Cveni TavSesafari namdvil samalavad iqca. baton kralers brwyinvaleazri daebada, amogveqola kari, romelic Cveni saxlis ukana nawilSi gamodis dawinidan rame migveSenebina. am bolo dros velosipedebs eZeben da xSiradCxreken saxlebs. gegma batonma vosenma ganaxorciela: gaakeTa moZravi Taro,romelic erT mxares kariviT iReba. cxadia, amis gamo misTvisac unda gagvendosaidumlo da axla mzadaa, yvelaferSi dagvexmaros. roca qveviT Cadixar, jerunda daixaro da mere gadaxte, radgan safexuri moxsnilia. sami dRis Semdegyvelas saSineli kopebi gvajda Sublze. daxra gvaviwydeboda da SubliT dabalkars vexeTqebodiT. bolos karis Tavze burbuSeliT gatenili baliSi mivaWedeT.vnaxoT, ra samsaxurs gagviwevs.cotas vkiTxulob, jerjerobiT isic ki gadamaviwyda, rac skolaSimaswavles. cxovreba aq erTferovania. batoni van daani da me xSirad vCxubobT.misi azriT, margo Cemze ufro sandomiania. deda ise meqceva, rogorc patarabavSvs, me ki amas ver vitan. arc peteri uqnia RmerTs. baiyuSia, mTeli dReusaqmurad goravs sawolze, Cxirkedelaobs, xandaxan raRacas Tlis da mere isevTvlems. namdvili Zilis gudaa! amindebi Tbilia da sxvenze gatanilSezlongebze vnebivrobT.anaoTxSabaTi, 2 seqtemberi, 1942Zvirfaso kiwi!batonma da qalbatonma van daanebma saSinlad iCxubes. aseTi ram jer arminaxavs cxovrebaSi. deda da mama arafris gulisTvis ar Seuyvirebdnen aseerTmaneTs. Cxubis sababi imdenad umniSvnelo iyo, rom amaze laparakic ki arRirs. Tumca yvelas erTnairi xasiaTi rodi aqvs. peterisTvis or cecxls Suadgoma saSinelebaa, magram mas angariSs aravin uwevs, radgan zarmaci dazlozniaa. guSin ena mTlianad gaulurjda, saSinlad aRelda, magram silurjemmale gauara. dRes ki yelze sqeli Sali Semouxvevia da ambobs, Wvlebi maqvs,filtvebi, guli da Tirkmelebi mtkivao. ras ar moigonebs es biWi, namdviliipoxondrikia (mgoni, amas ase hqvia, ara?).qalbaton van daans verc deda ewyoba maincdamainc: saamisod uamravimizezi aqvs. Tundac erTi magaliTi: TeTreulis saerTo karadaSi qalbatonmavan daanma mxolod sami zewari Cado yovlad keTilSobiluri ganzraxviT, romCveni TeTreuli exmara da sakuTars gafrTxileboda. erTob gaukvirdeba, rocagaigebs, rom dedam mis karg magaliTs mibaZa. qalbatoni ganuwyvetliv javrobsimis gamo, rom mis WurWels vxmarobT da ara Cvensas, sul imis cdaSia, Cvensfaifurs miagnos da warmodgena ara aqvs, ra axlos zis masTan! servizi sxvenzeSevinaxeT sxvadasxva reklamebis qveS. da sanam aq viqnebiT, isic iq ideba. Zalzemarcxiani xeli maqvs. guSin maTlafa gamivarda. gacofebulma qalbatonma iyvira:`o, frTxilad! meti araferi gamaCnia!~ magram batoni van daani ratomRacmelaquceba.am diliT deda Wkuas didxans marigebda. amas ver vitan. CveniSexedulebebi Zalze gansxvavdeba erTmaneTisagan. mama sul sxvanairia, Cemiesmis, maSinac ki, roca xuTiode wuTiT gamibrazdeba.wina kviras erTi ambavi moxda. sababi qalebze dawerili wigni... da peteriiyo. saWiroa icode, kiwi, rom margos da peters ufleba aqvT waikiTxon yvelawigni, romelic baton koophoiss biblioTekidan moaqvs, magram am wigniswakiTxvis ufleba arc erTs ar misces.cxadia, peters cnobismoyvareoba aReZra, albaT, fiqrobda, ra undaeweros wignSi, romlis wakiTxvasac ukrZalavdnen. wigni Cumad mopara dedamissda nadavliTurT sxvenze daimala. or dRes simSvide sufevda. dedamismayvelaferi gaigo, magram ar gasca. uecrad saqmeSi mamamisi Caeria. gabrazda,

peters wigni waarTva da amiT sakiTxi amowurulad CaTvala. magram man vergansazRvra, Tu rogorma cnobismoyvareobam Seipyro misi vaJi. peteris azriT,mamis energiuli moqmedeba sruliad ar niSnavda imas, rom sakuTar ganzraxvazexeli aeRo. daiwyo fiqri, Tu rogor Caegdo kvlav xelSi `idumalebiT savse~wigni. qalbatonma van daanma dedaCems rCeva hkiTxa. dedam uTxra, es wignimargosTvisac Seuferebelia, Tumca sxva wignebis sawinaaRmdego araferi maqvso.— qalbatono van daan, margosa da peters Soris didi gansxvavebaa, —ganagrZo dedam, — jer erTi, gogonebi metwilad biWebze ufro adremwifdebian, meorec, margo Zalian bevrs kiTxulobs da icnobs Rrma, seriozulnawarmoebebs, xolo mesame, margo peterze ufro ganaTlebuli dagonebagaxsnilia. margom TiTqmis daamTavra liceumi.principSi qalbatoni van daani daeTanxma dedas, magram mainc ganacxada,rom araferi saWiroa, axalgazrdebs igive wignebi mivceT, romelTac ufrosebikiTxulobeno.wignis xelSi Casagdebad peteri mxolod xelsayrel SemTxvevas eloda.meore saRamos, roca mTeli ojaxi direqtoris kabinetSi ijda daradiogadacemas usmenda, peterma wigni moipara da sxvenze aZvra, cxrisnaxevarze dabla unda Camosuliyo, magram kiTxvam ise gaitaca, rom drogadaaviwyda, da sxvenidan im dros CamoZvra, roca mamamisi oTaxSi Sevida.SegiZlia warmoidgino, ra ambavi atyda... mogvesma gamayruebeli silis lawani,xelis kvra, wigni magidisaken moisroles, peteri ki, albaT, oTaxis kuTxisaken.col-qmari marto gamovida savaxSmod. peteri aravis mohgonebia, uvaxSmoddatoves, mSieri unda dawoliliyo. gadavediT dRis wesrigze, e. i. SevudeqiTvaxSmobas. uecrad moisma yurTasmenis wamRebi stvena. gavqvavdiT, gafiTrebulniSevyurebdiT erTmaneTs, dana-Cangali xelidan gagvivarda. magram am drosRumlis milidan mogvesma peteris xma:— tyuilad ggoniaT, rom dabla Camoval.batoni van daani wamovarda da WarxaliviT gawiTlebulma iyvira:— ara, es ukve metismetia!mama baton van daans xelebSi swvda, eSinoda peters cudi araferidamarToso da zeviT erTad avidnen. gaSmagebuli winaaRmdegobisa da saSinelixmauris Semdeg peteri Zirs Camoiyvanes da Tavis oTaxSi Caketes. gulkeTildedikos surda SvilisaTvis buterbrodi gadaenaxa, magram mamamisi ulmobeliaRmoCnda.— Tu axlave bodiSs ar moixdis, sxvenze daiZinos!Cven yvelam protesti ganvacxadeT da vamtkicebdiT, rom uvaxSmoddatoveba sakmarisi sasjelia. sxvenze SeiZleba gacivdes, xolo aq eqimsac kiver moviwvevT.peterma bodiSis moxda ar indoma da sxvenze avida. baton van daans Taviise eWira, TiTqos Svilis dardi ar hqonda, magram meore diliT darwmunda, rommis vaJiSvils sakuTar sawolSi eZina. Svid saaTze peteri isev sxvenze avida.mamamisma xangrZlivi Segonebis Semdeg, rogorc iqna, daiyolia, ZirsCamosuliyo.sami dRis ganmavlobaSi yvela moRuSuli dadioda da jiutad dumda.Semdeg yvelaferi Zveleburad warimarTa.anaoTxSabaTi, 21 seqtemberi, 1942Zvirfaso kiwi!dRes yoveldRiur wvrilmanebze minda giambo. qalbatoni van daaniautanelia. yovel wuTs mTaTxavs imis gamo, rom bevrs vlaparakob. raRacasmoigonebs da sicocxles gvimwarebs. xan ityvis WurWels aRar gavrecxavo da Tumainc garecxa, qvabis Zirze darCenil saWmels CvensaviT minis TefSze ki aramoiRebs, aramed Sig tovebs, afuWebs. amis gamo margos orjer meti WurWlisgarecxva uxdeba da am dros es qalbatoni eubneba:Cemo margo, Sen marTlac bevri saqme gaqvs.

me da mamam SesaniSnavi TavSesaqcevi movnaxeT. vadgenT Cveni ojaxisgenealogias da drodadro yovel winaparze raRacas miambobs. me maTTanerTgvar kavSirs vgrZnob. yovel or kviraSi baton koophoiss moaqvsgogonebisaTvis gankuTvnili ramdenime wigni. aRtacebuli var `iop-ter-heulis~seriiT, amasTan erTad Zalian momwons cisi fon maksfeldis nawarmoebebic.`mxiaruli zafxuli~ ramdenjerme wavikiTxe da axlac vicini, roca sasaciloadgilebs vawydebi. kvlav SevudeqiT swavlas. yoveldRe xuT uweso zmnasvizepireb da saRamoTi mondomebiT vswavlob franguls. peteri inglisursCasCiCinebs da xvneSis. miviReT axali saxelmZRvaneloebi; rveulebis, fanqrebis,warwerebis, saSlelebisa da amdagvaris maragi saxlidan gamogvyva.xSirad vismen `oranes~ gadmocemas. axlaxan laparakobda princibernhardi da gamogvicxada, rom ianvarSi isev elodebian memkvidres.yvelas ukvirs, ratom miyvars ase holandiis samefo ojaxi.ramdenime dRis win vsaubrobdiT imaze, rom jer kidev bevri ram maqvssaswavli da amitom gaorkecebuli gulmodginebiT Sevudeqi zuTxvas. aba rasaxalisoa momavalSi yvelafris Tavidan dawyeba. aRiniSna isic, rom am bolodros xeiriani araferi wamikiTxavs. deda axla kiTxulobs wigns, romlissaTauria `batonebi, qalbatonebi da mosamsaxureebi~. am wignis wakiTxva CemTvisar SeiZleba. jer iseTive ganaTlebuli unda gavxde, rogoric Cemi Wkviani,niWieri daa. visaubreT agreTve filosofiaze, fsiqologiasa da fiziologiaze(rom vicode, rogor iwereba es Zneli sityvebi, leqsikonSi Cavixede), razedacjerjerobiT araviTari warmodgena ar maqvs. imedia, momaval wels cotaTi maincSevavseb am xarvezs!Cemda samwuxarod aRmovaCine, rom zamTrisaTvis mxolod erTigrZelsaxeloiani kaba da sami Salis Jaketi maqvs. mamam neba damrTo cxvrisTeTri matylisagan puloveri momeqsova. matyli Tumca uxeiroa, magram Tbilia.Cven uamravi tansacmeli gvaqvs gabarebuli nacnobebTan, magram misi wamoRebamxolod omis damTavrebis Semdeg SeiZleba da isic Tu raime gadarCeba.swored im dros, roca qalbaton van daanze raRacas vwerdi, igi oTaxSiSemovida. dRiuri, ra Tqma unda, maSinve davxure.— oh, ana, wamakiTxe Tu SeiZleba!— ara, qalbatono van daan, ar SeiZleba!— Tundac ukanaskneli gverdi?— ara, arc ukanaskneli!Zalian SemeSinda, swored am gverdze ewera arcTu ise sasiamovno ramqalbaton van daanze.anaparaskevi, 25 seqtemberi, 1942Zvirfaso kiwi!guSin isev avedi zeviT, `vestumre~ van daanebs, waviWoraveT. zogjermaTTan yofna sasiamovnoa. mivirTviT `naftalinis keqsi~ (keqsiani kolofi idotansacmlis karadaSi, sadac blomad eyara naftalini) da limonaTi davayoleT.vlaparakobdiT peterze. vTqvi, rom xSirad Tavs mabezrebs, me ki es armomwons, radgan ver vitan biWebs, romlebic `xelebs afaTureben~. maT, rogorcmSoblebs sCveviaT, mkiTxes: xom ar visurvebdi ufro metad davaxloebodipeters, radganac aSkarad Zalian movwonvar. `rogor ara~, gavifiqre me, magramvTqvi: `o, ara~. peteri morcxvi da mouqnelia, rogorc yvela biWi, romelsacnaklebad uvlia gogoebTan.Cveni samalavis `iatakqveSa komiteti~ Zalze moxerxebuli aRmoCnda. yuridamigde, ai ra gamoigones am vaJbatonebma! Zalian undaT, batonma van diikma,`travisis~ firmis mTavarma warmomadgenelma da Cvenma kargma nacnobma,romelsac bevri ram mivabareT, miiRos Cvengan raime cnoba. am mizniT ziuivSflanderniserT meafTiaqes misweres werili, sadac raRacas ekiTxebodnen.pasuxisaTvis werilSi Cades konverti, romelsac mamam sakuTari xeliT daaweraCveni firmis misamarTi. roca es werili ukan mova, meafTiaqis pasuxs amoiReben

da mis magivrad mama Tavis werils Cadebs. ase gaigebs van diiki, rom mamacocxalia. arCevani SeaCeres zeelandze. romelic belgiis sazRvarTanmdebareobs da amitom iq advilad SeiZleba werilis kontrabandiT gagzavna.anakvira, 27 seqtemberi, 1942Zvirfaso kiwi!dedasTan usiamovneba momivida da es ukve meramdened am bolo dros! CvenxSirad ar gvesmis erTmaneTis, verc margosTan vaxerxeb saerTo enis gamonaxvas.Cvens ojaxSi, ra Tqma unda, arasodes ar gaimarTeba iseTi scenebi, rogorczeviT, magram me arc Cveni urTierToba momwons. me sul sxva xasiaTi maqvs,vidre dedas da margos. zogjer ukeT mesmis Cemi megobari gogonebis, vidresakuTari dedis. o, rarigad mwyins!qalbatoni van daani kvlav ucnaurad iqceva. cdilobs, rac SeiZleba metigadamalos da Caketos im nivTebidan, rac ojaxs sWirdeba. kargi iqneba, dedacrom aseve moiqces!..etyoba, zogierT mSoblebs gansakuTrebul siamovnebas hgvris ara martosakuTari Svilebis aRzrda, aramed nacnobebisac. swored aseTebi arian vandaanebi. margos aRzrda ar sWirdeba. igi siyvarulis, sikeTisa da gonierebisgansaxierebaa. magram is, rac mas Warbad aqvs, me Zalze maklia. CemTvisaraerTxel mouciaT SeniSvnebi sufrasTan, me ki Tavs ver vikaveb ukmexi dagamomwvevi pasuxebisagan. mama da deda mudam Cems mxarezea, ar vici, rameSveleboda uimaTod! `zemourebi~ Zalian xSirad misayvedureben, bevrslaparakob, yvelaferSi erevi, Tavmdabloba gakliao, magram me mainc ZvelSecdomebs vimeoreb. mama rom ase momTmeni ar iyos, me albaT didi xaniadavkargavdi gamosworebis imeds. Tumca is, rasac Cemgan Cemi mSoblebimoiTxoven, Zneli gansaxorcielebeli araa.bostneuli ar miyvars. Tu bevr kartofils da cota bostneulsgadmoviReb, van daanebi, amas `ganebivrebas~ aweren da saSinlad javroben.— cota kidev daimate bostneuli, — meubneba im wamsve qalbatoni vandaani.— ara, gmadlobT, me marto kartofili minda.— bostneuli Zalian margebelia, xom xedav dedaSenic amasve ambobs,gadaiRe kidev! — daJinebiT moiTxovs igi da ase grZeldeba manamde, sanam mamaar Caereva.— CvenTan unda ecxovra, — ambobs gacxarebuli qalbatoni, — CvenTanaseTi ram ar gauvidoda! es ra aRzrdaa! ane saSinlad ganebivrebulia! CemiqaliSvili unda yofiliyo!sayvedurebis niaRvars mudam am sityvebiT amTavrebs. ra bednierebaa, rommisi qaliSvili ara var!davubrundeT isev aRzrdis sakiTxs. guSin, roca qalbatonma van daanmaenis tartali moaTava da dumili Camovarda, mamam ai, ra uTxra:— me mgoni, ana kargadaa aRzrdili. imasac ki mixvda, rom jobia TqvengauTavebel qadagebas yuradReba ar miaqcios, xolo rac Seexeba bostneuls, memxolod erTi ram SemiZlia vTqva: `Vice versa!~ 1 ( 1 piriqiT (laT.))axla ki gvarianad moxvda qalbaton van daans. Vice versa imas niSnavda, romTviTonac cota bostneuls miirTmevs. Tavs imiT imarTlebs, Zilis win bevribostneuli mawyinariao. rac unda is qnas, oRond Tavi damanebos! sasaciloa,roca xedav, ra advilad wiTldeba qalbatoni van daani. me es ar momdis daamazec javrobs.anaorSabaTi, 28 seqtemberi, 1942Zvirfaso kiwi!guSin bevri ram mqonda kidev dasaweri, magram iZulebuli gavxdiSemewyvita. minda mogiyve erTi Cxubis ambavi, magram manamde ai, ra unda giTxra.

me mezizReba da Tanac ar mesmis, roca ufrosebi xSirad, raRac umniSvnelowvrilmanebis gamo, uecrad aReldebian da Cxubs iwyeben. aqamde megona, Cxubimxolod bavSvebis saqmea da ufrosebs ar axasiaTebs. Tumca zogjer marTlacarsebobs Cxubis mizezi, magram gamudmebuli kinklaobis atana SeuZlebelia.kacma rom Tqvas, aqamde unda SevCveodi am ambavs, radgan Cxubi maT ojaxSilamis Cveulebrivi movlenaa, magram araferi gamomdis. `diskusiebi~ (aseuwodeben aq Cxubs) mudam Cems irgvliv trialebs. yovelmxriv maqiaqeben,yvelafers msjelobis sagnad xdian, Cems xasiaTs, qcevas, TavdaWeras. yvelafersmikritikeben da miwuneben. adre me ar vicodi, ras hqvia uxeSi sityva dayvirili, axla ki yvelaferi unda avitano. me es ar SemiZlia. fiqradac armomdis daTmobaze wavide. me maT vaCveneb, rom ane franki is aRar aris, racguSin iyo! SeiZleba Tavad mixvdnen amas da ena gaaCeron. aRsazrdelebi TviTonarian da ara me. maZrwunebs amgvari usaqcieloba da sibriyve (qalbatoni vandaanisa), magram male amasac SeveCvevi da maSin ki, icocxle, vetyvi CemssaTqmels. nuTu me marTla ise uzrdeli, cnobismoyvare, abezari, briyvi dazarmaci var, rogorc `zemourebi~ amtkiceben? me kargad vici, rom bevri naklida susti mxare gamaCnia, magram `zemourebi~ mainc usaSvelod aWarbeben.rom icode, kiwi, rogor miduRs SigniT yvelaferi ganuwyveteli lanZRvaginebisagan,magram rodisme Cemi boRma gadmoinTxeva.SeiZleba Tavi mogabezre, magram mainc unda gadmogce erTi sainteresosaubari, romelic sufraze gaabes. sityva Camovarda pimis (mamis saalersosaxelia) did Tavmdablobaze. es imdenad naTelia, rom yvelaze briyvi adamianicver uaryofs. uecrad qalbatonma van daanma, romelsac yvelaferi Tavis Tavzegadaaqvs, ganacxada: mec Tavmdabali adamiani var, Cems qmarze bevradTavmdabalio! baton van daans undoda Seerbilebina misi SeniSvna da Zlierwynarad Tqva:— me arc minda zedmetad Tavmdabali viyo, radgan Tamami adamianebi metwarmatebas aRweven cxovrebaSi.mere ki me momibrunda: — nu iqnebi zedmetad Tavmdabali, ana, dagacilebiT met warmatebas miaRwev.dedam baton van daans dauWira mxari, magram qalbaton van daans xom undadaesxa cecxlze navTi. amjerad me aRaraferi miTxra da Cems mSoblebsmiubrunda.— rogor eqceviT anas, amgvari araferi minaxavs. Cven ase ar gvzrdidnen.aseT rames, garda Tqveni Tanamedrove ojaxisa, axlac versad SexvdebiT.mxedvelobaSi hqonda dedaCemis Sexedulebebi aRzrdaze, razedac xSiraddaobdnen. qalbatoni van daani WarxaliviT gawiTlda. roca moTminebidangamodixar, advilad marcxdebi.dedas, rogorc yovelTvis, undoda bolo moeRo kamaTisaTvis da mSvidadTqva: — qalbatono van daan, mec im azrisa var, rom zedmeti Tavmdabloba arvarga. Cemi qmari, margo da peteri zedmetad Tavmdabalni arian. marTaliaTavmdabloba arc Cven gvaklia, magram Tqven, Tqveni qmari, me da ana Tavs aravisdavaCagvrinebT!— me Zalze Tavmdabali adamiani gaxlavarT, qalbatono frank! rogorSegiZliaT amis uaryofa?deda: — me ar miTqvams, rom sruliad ar gagaCniaT Tavmdabloba, magramar SeiZleba iTqvas, rom zedmetad Tavmdabali brZandebiT.qalbatoni van daani: — minda vicode, rodis maklda Tavmdabloba. me romaq Cems Tavze ar mezruna, albaT, SimSiliT movkvdebodi. me swored iseTiveTavmdabali var, rogorc Tqveni qmari!am briyvulma Tavisqebam deda gulianad gaacina, `sabralo~ qalbatonivani daani ki ise gajavrda, rom gaCereba veRar SeZlo da sul laparakobda.bolos sakuTarma mWevrmetyvelebam daabnia, saTqmeli veRar moaTava,Seuracxyofili wamodga da wasvla daapira. uecrad me gadmomxeda. samwuxarod,roca igi wasasvlelad Sebrunda, me TanagrZnobiT da ironiulad Tavi gavaqnie,ufro Cemda uneburad, vidre ganzrax. igi ukanve Semotrialda da msuqani, beberi

meTevzis coliviT sazizRrad da uxeSad ayvirda. saintereso sanaxavi iyo. xatvarom SemeZlos, swored am saxiT ukvdavvyofdi am Cia, sasacilo models. erTiram SemiZlia giTxra: Tu ginda adamiani gaicno, erTxel mainc unda waeCxubo,mxolod amis Semdeg SeZleb mis Sefasebas.anasamSabaTi, 29 seqtemberi, 1942Zvirfaso kiwi!CvenTan yovelTvis xdeba raRac iseTi, risi moyolac Rirs. aq Cven abazanaara gvaqvs da varclSi vbanaobT. qvemoT kontoraSi (ase veZaxi pirvel sarTuls)Tbili wyali modis da Cven Svidive, rigrigobiT CavdivarT dabla. radganyvelas sxvadasxva xasiaTi gvaqvs, erTi ufro morcxvia, vidre meore, amitomsabanao adgils yvela Tavisi gemovnebis mixedviT irCevs. peteri banaobssamzareuloSi, Tumca mas minis kari aqvs. banaobis win yvelas afrTxilebs dasTxovs, naxevari saaTis ganmavlobaSi karebTan nu gaivliTo. mamamisi zeviTbanaobs, sakuTar oTaxSi; oRond myudrod moewyos da Tbili wylis zeviT atanaar ezareba. qalbaton van daans aqamde ar ubanavia. igi jer sabanaodmoxerxebul adgils eZebs. mama kabinetSi ibans tans, deda — samzareuloSi,Rumels amofarebuli. me da margom didi kontora varCieT da saabazanodvaqcieT. yovel SabaTs, nasadilevs, fardebs CamovuSvebT da naxevrad bneloTaxSi vbanaobT. erT-erTi Cvengani banaobs, meore ki fardebs Soris darCeniliWuWrutanidan gareT iyureba da erToba gamvlelTa sasacilo manWva-grexiT.magram gasuli kviridan es sabanao oTaxi aRar momwons da ufrokomfortabelur adgils veZeb. peters kargi azri mouvida: winadadeba momca Cemisabanao mowyobilobiT gadavbargebuliyavi did sapirfareSoSi, romelickontoras ekuTvnis. sapirfareSoSi marto viqnebi, CavrTav sinaTles, davketavkarebs da wyals sxvis dauxmareblad gadavaqcev. dRes sazeimod gavxseni axali`saabazano~ da Zalze kmayofili davrCi.guSin saxlSi wyalsadenis ostati movida. qveda derefanSi unda SeefuTamilebi, romlebic Cvens wyalsadens da sapirfareSos uerTdeba. es aucilebladunda gagvekeTebina, rom milebi ar gayinuliyo Tu Zalian civi zamTaridadgeboda. am kacis stumroba CvenTvis arc ise sasiamovno iyo, radgan vercwyals viRebdiT da verc sapirfareSoTi vsargeblobdiT. iqneb amis Txrobasasiamovno araa, magram mainc unda giamboT, ra movigoneT, gansacdeli romTavidan agvecdina. me ara var imdenad morcxvi, rom aseT rameze laparakimiWirdes. me da mamam winaswar vizruneT da yoveli SemTxvevisaTvis qilebimovimarageT. axla gamogvadga, mxolod esaa, rom mTeli dRe oTaxis kuTxeSigvedga. magram es kidev araferi, gacilebiT Znelia mTeli dRe Cumad, xmisamouReblad jdoma, gansakuTrebiT iseTi enatartalasaTvis, rogoric me var.Cven xom isedac mxolod CurCuliT vlaparakobT. magram Cumad, gaunZrevladjdoma TiTqmis autanelia. sajdomi gamibrtyelda, ise momeTela, rom sami dRemtkioda.saRamos vivarjiSeT. aman gviSvela!anaxuTSabaTi, 1 oqtomberi, 1942Zvirfaso kiwi!guSin usazRvro SiSi ganvicade. rva saaTze zari darekes da me yvelazesaSineli ram warmovidgine — Sen ici, razedac vlaparakob. yvela marwmunebda,zari quCaSi moxetiale biWebma darekeso da me nel-nela davmSviddi.dReebi duned miizlazneba. dabla, samzareuloSi muSaobs farmacevti,batoni levini, romelic firmisaTvis qimiur cdebs atarebs. es kaci mTelisaxlis ganlagebas icnobs da zogjer gveSinia, zeviT, yofil laboratoriaSiamosvla ar moisurvos. Cven Zalze Cumad varT. vin ifiqrebda sami Tvis winaT,rom mousvenari ane saaTobiT ijdeboda erT adgilas da xmas ar gaiRebda.

29-Si qalbaton van daanis dabadebis dRe aRvniSneT. didi zeimi armogviwyvia. mivarTviT yvavilebi, umniSvnelo saCuqrebi da sadilad sagangebokerZi. qmarma wiTeli mixakebi uZRvna — ojaxuri tradiciaa. marTla, mindaraRac giTxra qalbaton van daanze. mudam imis cdaSia, rom mamaCems gaearSiyosda me es saSinlad mabrazebs. rogorc ki SesaZlebloba miecema, an loyazemoucacunebs xels, an Tavze gadausvams. siamovnebiT aCens Tavis `lamaz~ fexebs,enamaxvilobs, erTi sityviT, yvelafers akeTebs imisaTvis, rom pimis yuradRebamiiqcios. magram pims igi arc lamaz qalad miaCnia da arc sasiamovno adamianad.misi kurkuri sruliad ar aRelvebs. me veWvianob, ubralod ver vitan aseTrames. amas winaT pirSi vuTxari: `me mgonia, deda, Tqvens qmars ar ekeklucebameTqi~.peteri zogjer Zalian sasaciloa. orives gviyvars gasarTobadtansacmlis gamocvla da amiT Tavs viqcevT. amjerad dedamisis viwro kabaCaecva, Tavze ki qalis qudi Camoefxata. me misi kostiumiT gamovcxaddi damisive qudi davixure. ufrosebi siciliT ixocebodnen da Cvenc aranaklebvimxiaruleT.elim me da margos maRaziaSi qvedatani gviyida. qsovili metismetaduxarisxo da Zviria. samagierod Zalze sasiamovno rame gvelis. elim margo, meda peteri stenografiis dauswrebel kursebze Cagvwera. momaval welsSesaniSnavi stenografistebi viqnebiT. urigo rodia aseTi `kriptografiis~codna!anaSabaTi, 3 oqtomberi, 1942Zvirfaso kiwi!guSin isev saSineli Setakeba moxda. dedam mamas mTeli Cemi codvebigadauSala da Tanac Zalze gaazviada. deda tiroda, cxadia, mec vRrialebdi.saSinlad amtkivda Tavi. me mamikos gamovucxade, rom yvelaze metad miyvars.pimma mipasuxa, momavalSi yvelaferi Seicvlebao, magram me es ar mjera. dedasrom mSvidad velaparako, Tavs Zala unda davatano. mama moiTxovs dedasmovuaro, roca Tavs cudad grZnobs, magram araferi gamomdis.mondomebiT vswavlob franguls da vkiTxulob `La belle Nivernaise~. 1 ( 1`mSvenieri nivernezeli qali~, alfons dodes romani.)anaparaskevi, 9 oqtomberi, 1942Zvirfaso kiwi!dRes bevri usiamo da samwuxaro ambavi gavige. bevri Cveni nacnobi damegobari ebraeli daapatimres, gestapo maT ar eloliaveba. dapatimrebulebssaqonlis gadasazid vagonebSi yrian da ebraelTa sakoncentracio banakSi,vesterborkSi mihyavT. saSineli adgilia. uamravi xalxia Tavmoyrili, arcdabanis saSualeba aqvT da arc fexsadgilebi hyofniT. amboben, banakebSi tevaaraa da kacebs, qalebs da bavSvebs erTad sZinavTo. gaqceva SeuZlebelia.patimrebs advilad scnoben gadaparsuli TaviT Tu wminda ebrauli garegnobiT.Tuki holandiaSi ase cudadaa saqme, ra saSineleba eliT maT iq, sadacmierekebian. inglisis radio iuwyeba, rom maT gazis kamerebSi amoaxrCoben. iqnebes mospobis yvelaze swrafi saSualebaa. mipi saSinel ambebs gviambobs daTviTonac Zalze Relavs. amas winaT misi saxlis win koWli dedaberiCamomjdara. dedaberi gestapos manqanas ucdida, romelic gzadagza krefdaxalxs. moxuci qali SiSisagan caxcaxebda.sazenito qvemexebi quxda, proJeqtorebis Suqi sibneles apobda, inglisisTviTmfrinavebis gugunis gamoZaxili saxlidan saxls exeTqeboda. mipma vergabeda dedabris saxlSi Seyvana. germanelebi amis gamo mkacrad sjian yvelas.elic mdumare da mowyenili dadis. misi megobari germaniaSi gagzavnesiZulebiTi begaris mosaxdelad. eSinia bombardirebis dros ar daiRupos.ingliseli mfrinavebi milionobiT kilogram yumbarebs yrian. me Zalian

uadgilod da uxeSad mimaCnia amgvari oxunjoba: — oh, mTeli milioni mas xomar moxvdeba, — anda: — erTi yumbarac ikmarebs. marto dirki xom araa am dReSi,cxadia, ara. yoveldRe axalgazrdebs vagonebSi yrian da germaniaSi agzavnianiZulebiT samuSaoze. zogi gzidan garbis, zogi droze imaleba, magram aseTebiZalze cotaa.Cemi sevdiani simRera jer ar damTavrebula. gagigonia raime mZevlebisSesaxeb. germanelebma daxvewili wameba moigones. ufro saSineli, vidre sxvayvelaferi. udanaSaulo moqalaqeebs ganurCevlad apatimreben da cixeebSiamwyvdeven. xolo roca sadme `sabotaJs~ aRmoaCenen da damnaSaves ver ipovian,mZevlad wayvanilTa nawils xvreten. Semdeg amas gazeTebSi aqveyneben damosaxleobas afrTxileben. ra xalxia es germanelebi! odesRac mec maTvekuTvnodi, Tumca didi xani gavida mas Semdeg, rac hitlerma kanongareSegamogvacxada. qveynad ar arsebobs ufro didi mtroba, vidre amgvargermanelebsa da ebraelebs Sorisaa Camovardnili.anaparaskevi, 16 oqtomberi, 1942Zvirfaso kiwi!uamravi saqme gamiCnda, axlaxan vTargmne erTi Tavi `La belle Nivernaise~-danda amoviwere yvela ucnobi sityva. Semdeg uZnelesi ariTmetikuli amocanagadavwyvite, bolos daviswavle sami gverdi frangulad. amocanebis gadawyvetaar miyvars da davalebas xSirad gverdze gadavdeb xolme. amocanebis gadawyvetamamasac uWirs; zogjer me ukeTesad viyvan, magram mainc gviWirs dadasaxmareblad margos veZaxiT. stenografiaSi yvelas gavaswari. guSindavamTavre `dampyroblebis~ kiTxva, kargi wignia, magram ioop ter heuls arSeedreba.SenTvis bevrjer miTqvams, rom cisi fon maqsveldi SesaniSnavad wers.momavalSi Cemma Svilebma aucileblad unda waikiTxon yvela misi wigni. mamamkerneris piesebi momca wasakiTxad: `bremeneli biZaSvili~, `guvernanti qali~ da`mwvane domino~. kargi mweralia.me, deda da margo isev SexmatkbilebiT vcxovrobT da es yvelafersjobia. guSin saRamos margo CemTan iwva. Zalze viwrod viyaviT, magramaraCveulebriv myudroebas vgrZnobdiT. margom mkiTxa: SeiZleba Seni dRiuriwavikiTxoo — mxolod zogi adgili, — vupasuxe me. Semdeg misi dRiurimovikiTxe. dampirda wagakiTxebo. vlaparakobdiT momavalze; vkiTxe, ra gindagamoxvide-meTqi. am ambavs igi saidumlod inaxavs. me yuri movkari, TiTqosmaswavleblobas apirebs. da me mgoni, asec unda iyos. Tumca amdencnobismoyvareobas ar unda viCende.am diliT peteri sakuTari sawolidan wamovagde da Tavad wamovweqi.peteri gacecxlda, magram me misTvis yuradReba ar mimiqcevia. kacma rom Tqvas,ufro Tavazianad unda mepyrobodes, radgan guSin saRamos vaSli vaCuqe.margos vkiTxe: — rogor ggonia, gonji var? sasacilod gamoiyurebi,magram lamazi Tvalebi gaqvso, mipasuxa man. gaurkveveli pasuxia, Sen rogorfiqrob?naxvamdis!anasamSabaTi, 20 oqtomberi, 1942Zvirfaso kiwi!Tumca mas Semdeg ori saaTi gavida, magram iseTi SiSi ganvicade, romxelebi axlac mikankalebs. saxlSi hkidia xuTi cecxlmqrobi `minimaqsi~. aravisgaufrTxilebivarT, rom maT asavsebad movidodnen. amitom sanam winkaridanCaquCis xma ar momesma, gansakuTrebul sifrTxiles ar vicavdi. megona durgalimovida da gavafrTxile eli, romelic CvenTan sadilobda, rom axla ZirsCasvla ar SeiZleba. me da mama kars ukan CavsafrdiT da yurs vugdebdiT, rodismorCeboda is kaci muSaobas da wavidoda. meoTxedi saaTis Semdeg man iaraRi

karadaze dado da Cvens karze daakakuna. oriveni gavfiTrdiT, nuTu rame SeniSnada gadawyvita Seamowmos, ra imaleba kars ukan. mgoni asec iyo, radgan kakuni,karis gamoweva, jajguri da biZgebi ar wydeboda. kinaRam guli Semiwuxda imisgafiqrebaze, rom Cvens mSvenier TavSesafars viRac gadamTieli aRmoaCens. asemegona, mTeli saukune gavida, sanam baton koophoisis xma ar gavigone: — gaaReT,me var. kari maSinve gavaReT. Turme, saketi, romliTac kari Signidan iketebodada romlis gaReba garedanac SeeZlo saidumloebagandobils, raRacasgamosdeboda, amitom droze ver gagvafrTxiles, rom xelosani movidoda. rocamuSa wavida, koophoisma elis gamoZaxeba gadawyvita, magram mbrunavi kari vergaaRo da xmauri atexa. gulidan uzarmazari tvirTi momwyda. kaci, romelicCvenTan unda Semosuliyo, Cems warmodgenaSi swrafad izrdeboda da bolosuZlevel goliaTad iqca. axla ki SegviZlia vTqvaT, rom bedma ar gvimtyuna,yvelaferi keTilad damTavrda!orSabaTs bevri vimxiaruleT. mipma da henkma CvenTan gaaTies Rame. me damargo ded-mamasTan `gadavsaxldiT~, col-qmars ki Cveni oTaxi davuTmeT.SesaniSnavad visadileT. Tumca am dRes uxifaTod mainc ar Cauvlia. mamismagidis lampaSi mokle CarTva moxda da erTbaSad bnelSi aRmovCndiT.eleqtromricxveli, romelSic mcveli ixraxneba, sadRac sawyobis boloSihkidia da arc ise sasiamovnoa bnelSi xelis faTuri, magram bedma gagviRima dadazianebuli xazi aT wuTSi SeakeTes. axla ukve SeiZleboda sanTlebisaganmowyobili iluminaciis Caqroba. diliT adre avdeqiT. henki cxris naxevarzeunda wasuliyo da gvindoda myudrod gvesauzma. gareT saSinlad wvimda.mixaroda, rom aseT amindSi quCaSi gasvla ar mixdeboda. me da mamam yvelaferimivalageT da franguli zmnebis dazepirebas Sevudeqi. mere vkiTxulobdiSesaniSnav wigns `tyeebi marad mRerian~. mwyins, rom male vamTavreb.Semdeg kviras eli CvenTan gaaTevs Rames!anaxuTSabaTi, 29 oqtomberi, 1942Zvirfaso kiwi!ver visveneb. mama avadaa. didi sicxe aqvs da raRacam gamoayara, rogorcwiTelam icis. warmoidgine, eqimis gamoZaxebac ki ar SegviZlia. deda uvlis.bevri ofli adenina. iqneb sicxem dauwios.diliT mipma gviambo, rom van daanebis bina germanelebs gauZarcvavT.qalbaton van daanisaTvis araferi gviTqvams. bolo dros igi Zalze nervulobsda Cven sruliad ar gvainteresebs saaTobiT visminoT, ra saucxoo WurWeli daZvirfasi aveji darCa saxlSi. Cvenc xom yvelaferi Zvirfasi bedis anabaramivatoveT. Civili am saqmeSi verafers gviSvelis.am bolo dros mec momces ufleba mozrdilTaTvis gankuTvnili zogierTiwigni wavikiTxo. vkiTxulob niko van suxtelenis `evas siymawviles~. kacma romTqvas, me ver vxedav did gansxvavebas am wignsa da gogonebis sakiTxav wignebsSoris. mxolod esaa, rom am wignSi zogjer qalebi sakuTari sxeuliT vaWrobenda ucxo mamakacebisagan bevr fuls iReben. me, albaT, sircxviliT movkvdebi,ucxo mamakacTan marto rom davrCe. Semdeg weria, evas `avadmyofoba~ daewyoo.mec Zalian minda damewyos, radgan vici, raoden mniSvnelovania es. mamamkaradidan goeTesa da Sileris dramebi gadmoiRo da apirebs saRamoobiTxmamaRla gvikiTxos yvelas. daviwyeT `don karlosiT~. dedam mamis magaliTsmibaZa da locvani maCuqa. wigni zrdilobis gamo gadavikiTxe. TiTqos momwonskidec, magram arafers maZlevs. ratom cdilobs deda iZulebiT gamxadosmorwmune?xval pirvelad gavaCaRebT Rumels. albaT, gabolil oTaxSi mogviwevsjdoma. didi xania sakvamuri ar gauwmendiaT.anaSabaTi, 7 noemberi, 1942Zvirfaso kiwi!

deda Zalze nervulobs da es CemTvis saxifaTo meCeCia. nuTu SemTxveviTxdeba, rom Cemi mSoblebi arasodes ar uwyrebian margos da yovelTvis mxolodme mxvdeba? magaliTad, guSin saRamos margo lamazad ilustrirebul wignskiTxulobda. mere zeviT avida, wigni ki gverdze gadado, raTa mobrunebulskiTxva ganegrZo. radgan saqme araferi mqonda, wigni aviRe da suraTebsvaTvalierebdi. margo dabrunda. roca dainaxa, `misi~ wigni xelSi meWira, SubliSeikra da wignis warTmeva daapira. me ki Zalian mindoda bolomdedameTvalierebina. margo gabrazda. dedam miTxra: — wigns margo kiTxulobs daaxlave daubruneo.oTaxSi mama Semovida. Tumca man araferi icoda, magram gadawyvita, rommargos usamarTlod Cagraven da miTxra: — rodisme margoc wagarTmevs wignsda vnaxoT, rogor moiqcevio!me Tavi aRar gamomidvia. wigni davde da oTaxidan gavedi. maT egonaT,guli momivida, magram me arc guli momsvlia da arc Seuracxyofilad migrZvniaTavi. mxolod sevda Semomawva gulze.mama usamarTlod moiqca, roca arc ikiTxa, raSia saqme da ganaCenigamoitana. mSoblebi rom ar Careuliyvnen da margosTvis ar daeWiraT mxari, meufro male davubrunebdi wigns. CemTvis gasagebia, rom deda margos gamoeqomaga,isini mudam erTmaneTs uWeren mxars. me ise SeveCvie am ambavs, rom gulgriladaRviqvam dedis tuqsvas da margos mouTmenlobas. me isini imitom miyvars, romdeda da margo arian. rac Seexeba mamas, — masTan sul sxvagvaridamokidebuleba maqvs. roca mama margos upiratesobas aniWebs, aqebs, yvelafersuwonebs da alersianad eqceva, SigniT raRac mRrRnis, radgan mama CemTvisyvelaferia. mamaa Cemi naTeli ideali da yvelaze metad miyvars amqveynad. magrammamas ar esmis, rom margos sul sxvanairad eqceva, vidre me. margo misTvisyvelaze Wkviani, yvelaze lamazi da yvelaze ukeTesia, magram mec xom maqvsufleba seriozuli damokidebuleba moviTxovo. ojaxis azriT, me jambazi dauqnara var, rac ormag usiamovnebas mayenebs: jer erTi, mudam sayvedurebiTmavseben, meorec, sakuTar Tavs ver verevi. me aRarc zerele alersimakmayofilebs da aRarc egreT wodebuli `seriozuli saubari~; me raRac iseTsmoveli mamisagan, risi mocemac mas ar SeuZlia. ara, me ar veWvianob margoze,arc misi silamaze mWirdeba da arc misi Wkua. me mxolod erT rameze vocnebob:namdvilad, guliT vuyvarde mamas da ara rogorc sakuTari Svili, aramedrogorc adamiani, vuyvarde me, ana.mamas imitom veWidebi ase, rom mxolod igi minarCunebs ojaxisadmisiyvaruls. mamas ar esmis, rom CemTvis xandaxan aucilebelia dedaze laparakida azris gamoTqma. mas ar surs, dedis uaryofiT mxareebs Seexos. am Temazeyovelgvar saubars gaurbis. me ki dedis damokidebuleba mZime tvirTad mawevs.xSirad Tavs ver vikaveb da pirSi veubnebi, ramdenad gulgrili, damcinavi damkacria, radgan marTlac ara var yovelTvis damnaSave.saerTod, me da deda sruliad sxvadasxva adamianebi varT da amitommogvdis xSirad usiamovneba. me ar vmsjelob mis xasiaTze, aq msajulad argamovdgebi, mxolod ise vuyureb, rogorc dedas. magram igi araa iseTi deda,rogoric me mWirdeba. amitom me TviTon unda viyo Cemi deda. me maT sruliadgamoveTiSe Sinaganad da Cemi gziT mivdivar. vin icis, romel napirs mivadgebi?gonebaSi mesaxeba dedisa da qalis ideali, magram am qalsa da im adamiansSoris, visac dedas veZaxi, veraviTar msgavsebas ver vpoulob.mudam vcdilob Tvali avarido dedis uaryofiT mxareebs, minda mxolodkargze gavamaxvilo yuradReba da CemSi ganvaviTaro is, rac mas aklia. magramyovelTvis rodi gamomdis ase. yvelaze cudi ki isaa, rom arc mamas da arcdedas ar surT dainaxon, ra maklia cxovrebaSi da amis gamo Zalze nawyeni varmaTze. nuTu mSoblebs arasodes ar SeuZliaT samarTlianad moepyron sakuTarSvilebs.xandaxan vfiqrob: iqneb RmerTi mcdis? me TviTon unda mividesrulyofamde, yovelgvari misabaZi magaliTisa da daxmarebis gareSe.samagierod, momavalSi Zlieri da amtani viqnebi.

Cems garda vin waikiTxavs odesme am werilebs? vin damexmareba? o, rogormWirdeba daxmareba, da nugeSi. xSirad suliT vecemi da ver vaxerxeb viyo iseTi,rogoric minda. me vici es da yoveldRe vcdilob daviwyo Tavidan, gamovsworde.magram Zalze usamarTlod mepyrobian! erT dRes mozrdil adamianadmTvlian da ufleba maqvs yvelaferi vicode, meore dRes ki Zveleburadmeqcevian: ane jer kidev briyvi batkania, hgonia, wignebidan bevri ram iswavla,magram cxadia, jer araferi esmis. sinamdvileSi me arc ZuZumwovara bavSvi varda arc ganebivrebuli Tojina, romliTac erTobian, Tumca jer ar SemiZlia amissityvebiT gamoTqma, magram me Cemi idealebi, azrebi da gegmebi maqvs. ah, ramdenieWvi mipyrobs saRamoobiT, roca marto var, an dRisiT, roca am gamomwyvdeuladamianebs Sevyureb, romelTac saSinlad momabezres Tavi, radgan arc CemiesmiT da arc is, rac me mawuxebs. amitom bolos isev Cems dRiurs vubrundebi.mudam amiT viwyeb da amiT vamTavreb. kiwi yvelafers iTmens da mec pirobasvaZlev, rom yvelafers gavuZleb, davZlev Cems mwuxarebas da gzas gavikafav,magram ra did siyvaruls momgvrida warmateba, rogor minda mosiyvaruleadamiani mxarSi amomidges, gamamxnevos, momealersos!nu gamkicxav! gamige, rom zogjer SeiZleba mec damekargos moTmineba. anaorSabaTi, 9 noemberi, 1942Zvirfaso kiwi!guSin peteris dabadebis dRe iyo, mSvenieri saCuqrebi miiRo, maT Sorissaintereso saTamaSo, eleqtrosamarTebeli da sanTebela. ara imitom, rommwevelia, aramed aseT saCuqars Tavisi Sno aqvs.magram yvelaze saocari ram batonma van daanma gvacnoba: ingliselebmatunisSi, kasablankaSi, alJirsa da oranSi desanti gadasxeso — es dasasrulisdasawyisia, Tqva yvelam, magram CerCilma, inglisis premierma, romelsac, albaT,inglisSic xSirad smenia aseTi azri, Tavis gamosvlaSi ganacxada:desantis gadasxma uaRresad didmniSvnelovani etapia, magram nuravinfiqrobs, rom es dasasrulis dasawyisia, ufro swored es dasawyisisdasasrulia.didi gansxvavebaa, ara? magram optimizmisaTvis safuZveli mainc arsebobs.germanelebma jerac ver aiRes ruseTis didi qalaqi, stalingradi, romelicager ukve sami Tvea, rac alyaSemortymulia. axla ki yoveldRiur ambebsdavubrundeT: roca Cvens TavSesafarze vlaparakobT, isic unda giTxra, Turogor gvamarageben sursaTiT. Sen unda icode, rom `zemourebi~ namdviliRormucelebi arian. purs gvawvdis Zalze keTili mepure, koophoisis nacnobi.cxadia, imdeni ara gvaqvs, ramdenic saxlSi gvqonda, magram mainc sakmarisia.sasursaTo baraTebs CvenTvis yiduloben Sav bazarze. maTi fasi ganuwyvetlivizrdeba. am pawia qaRaldis naglejSi adre 27 guldens vixdidiT, axla kiocdacamets.saxlSi rom konservebis garda raime maragi gvqondes, viyideT 270girvanqa cercvi da lobio, rac axla tomrebiT hkidia derefanSi mbrunavkarTan. simZimisagan tomrebi ramdenime adgilas gairRva da gadavwyviteTzamTris maragi sxvenze agvetana. tomrebis gadazidva peters daavales. eqvsitomridan xuTi mSvidobianad gadaitana, magram rogorc ki meeqvses mohkidaxeli, qveda nakeri gairRva da kibeze yavisferi lobio wvimasaviT wamovida,wvima ki ara, setyva iyo. Zirs darCenilebma ifiqres, Zveli saxli Tavzegvengrevao. sabednierod, kontoraSi ucxo aravin iyo... peters Zalian SeeSinda,magram roca daminaxa kibis qveda safexurze Tavze lobiogadayrili dakoWebamde lobioSi Cafluli, gamayruebeli xarxari morTo. daviwyeT lobiosakrefa, magram marcvlebi ise patara da ise srialaa, rom TiTebs Sorisgvisxlteba da RreWoebsa da xvrelebSi cviva. axla, roca vinme am kibeze adis,yovelTvis poulobs lobios da qalbaton van daans abarebs.kinaRam damaviwyda umTavresi: mama gamojansaRda.ana

P. S. es wuTia radiom gamoacxada, rom alJiri aiRes. maroko, kasablankada oranic ukve ramdenime dRea ingliselebis xelSia. male tunissac aiReben.samSabaTi, 10 noemberi, 1942Zvirfaso kiwi!ambavi, romelic axla unda gacnobo, epoqaluri mniSvnelobisaa. gvindamerve `iatakqveSeli~ SemovixiznoT. xSirad gvifiqria, rom aq erTi kacisaTvisadgilic ikmarebs da sakvebic. Cven mxolod imitom vikavebdiT Tavs, romkraleris da koophiosis zedmetad Sewuxebas veridebodiT. magram CvenamdeebraelTa gasaxlebasTan dakavSirebis saSineli ambebi aRwevda da mamam scadagaego, ra azris iyvnen Cveni megobrebi. maT Zalian mogviwones ganzraxva: gindSvidni yofilxarT, gind rvani, safrTxe igivea, — daaskvnes maT sruliadmarTebulad. raki saqme aqamde mivida, daviwyeT Cvens nacnobebs Soris iseTimartoxela kacis Zebna, romelic Cveni `iatakqveSa~ ojaxisaTvis SesaferisiaRmoCndeboda. aseTi kacis povna Zneli ar iyo. mas Semdeg, rac mamam uaryo vandaanebis yvela winadadeba — Semogvexiznebina romelime maTi naTesavi, arCevanixvda erT-erT Cvens nacnob kbilis eqims, albert dusels, romlis colisazRvargareT wavida. amboben, sasiamovno kaciao, Tanac Cven da van daanebikeTilad varT misdami ganwyobili. mipi am kacs kargad icnobs da yvelafersgaakeTebs. albert duseli margos adgils daiWers Cems oTaxSi, margo ki Tavisidasakeci sawoliT mSoblebTan gadabargda.anaxuTSabaTi, 12 noemberi, 1942Zvirfaso kiwi!duseli sixaruliT cas ewia, roca mipma uTxra, rom misTvis TavSesafarieguleba. urCia, rac SeiZleba male gadmosuliyo CvenTan, umjobesia zego.duseli yoymanobda. jer erTi, Tavisi karToteka wesrigSi unda moeyvana, meorec,ori pacienti mieRo da yovelgvari angariSebi gaesworebina. yovelive es amdiliT mipma gviambo. Cveni azriT, ajobebda, saqme ar gaeWianurebina. yovelgvarisamzadisi axsna-ganmartebas moiTxovs, Cven ki gverCia, aravis araferi scodnoda.mipma kidev erTxel urCia dusels SabaTs gadmosuliyo, magram man uariganacxada da mxolod orSabaTs gadmova. sasaciloa, rom igi maSinve ar moeWidaamgvar SesaZleblobas. xom SeiZleba SemTxveviT Seipyron quCaSi da maSin verckarTotekas moiyvans wesrigSi, verc angariSs gaasworebs da verc pacientebsmiiRebs. Cemi azriT, mamam tyuilad dauTmo! jerjerobiT axali sxva araferia.anasamSabaTi, 17 noemberi, 1942Zvirfaso kiwi!duseli CvenTanaa. yvelaferi keTilad damTavrda. mipma igi mTavarfostasTan daibara. duseli zustad daniSnul droze movida. koophoisi,romelic mas saxiT icnobda, miuaxlovda da uTxra, TiTqos is kaci, romelmacigi daibara, mogvianebiT mova da manamde mipTan, kontoraSi daicadeTo.koophoisi tramvaiT gamoemgzavra, duseli ki fexiT wamovida da Tormetisnaxevarze ukve kontoraSi iyo. yviTeli varskvlavi rom ar daenaxaT, duselmapalto gaixada, damlageblis wasvlamde koophoisis kabinetSi icdida. cxadia,ar icoda, ra mizeziT alodinebdnen. bolos mipma kabinetSi TaTbiris dawyebamoimizeza da zemo sarTulSi amoiyvana. enaCavardnili duselis win mbrunavikari gaiRo da oriveni SeumCnevlad amovidnen CvenTan.yvelam zeviT, van daanebTan, moviyareT Tavi. axalmosuls yava da koniakidavaxvedreT. mipma igi Cvens oTaxSi Semoiyvana. duselma maSinve icno Cveniaveji, magram azradac ar mosvlia, rom Cvenc aqa varT. mipma yvelaferi uambo.magram man mainc veraferi gaigo. bolos gaognebuli zemoT amoiyvana. duseliskamze daeca, rigrigobiT yvelas dagvaSterda, da mainc sakuTar Tvalebs arujerebda. rogorc iqna, xma amoiRo, borZikiT aluRluRda: — ki magram... ara...

gana Tqven belgiaSi ara xarT? nuTu oficeri ar Camovida? manqana? nuTu gaqcevaver moaxerxeT?..maSin vuambeT, rom zRapari oficrisa da manqanis Sesaxeb TviTonvegavavrceleT xalxisa da gansakuTrebiT germanelebis mosatyueblad, cxadia, imSemTxvevisaTvis, Tu Zebnas dagviwyebdnen. duseli aseTma gamWriaxobam daamunja,xolo roca Cveni moxdenili, eSmakurad mowyobili TavSesafari vaCveneT,gaocebisagan aRar iyo. yvelam erTad visadileT, Semdeg duselma cota daisvena,mere Cai davlieT, da bolos igi Tavisi avla-didebis amolagebas Seudga.duseli male gaSinaurda, gansakuTrebiT mas Semdeg, rac `iatakqveSelTa~Sinaganawess gaecno (van daanma Seadgina).TavSesafris prospeqti da gzis maCvenebeliebraelTa da maT msgavsTa droebiTi sacxovrebeli dawesebulebisSinaganawesi.Riaa mTeli wlis ganmavlobaSi. moxdenili, wynari, utyeo adgiliamsterdamis centrSi. transporti: tramvai #17 da 13, avtomobili davelosipedi, xolo visac germanelebma yovelgvari saxis transportiTsargebloba aukrZales, fexiTac moaRwevs.binis qira. ufaso.cximgaclili dieturi sakvebi.gamdinare wyali: saabazanoSi (abazana ar dgas) da, samwuxarod, zogierTkedelzec.mozrdili sawyobi yovelgvari saqonlis Sesanaxad.sakuTari radiosadguri: uSualo kavSiri londonTan, niu-iorkTan, telavivTanda mraval sxva sadgurTan. radiomimRebi mdgmurebis gankargulebaSiasaRamos 6 saaTidan.dasvenebis saaTebi: Ramis aTi saaTidan dilis rvis naxevramde, kviraobiTdilis aT saaTamde. TavSesafris mmarTvelobis gankargulebiT gansakuTrebulpirobebSi dasvenebis saaTebi SeiZleba dawesdes dRisiTac. sayovelTaouSiSroebis uzrunvelsayofad miTiTeba zustad unda Sesruldes!..ardadegebi: jerjerobiT gauqmebulia.salaparako ena: yvela kulturuli ena... oRond CurCuliT.tanvarjiSi: yoveldRe.mecadineoba: stenografia, kviraSi erTi saaTi (weriTi samuSao),inglisuri, franguli, maTematika da istoria dRis yovel dros.sakvebis miRebis dro: sauzme yoveldRe 9 saaTze, kvira dReebisa dadResaswaulebis gamoklebiT.sadili — 1 15 -dan 1 45 saaTamde.vaxSami — civi an cxeli, sxvadasxva dros. damokidebulia ukanasknelicnobebis gadmocemaze.valdebulebani sursaTiT mommaragebeli komisiis winaSe: mudam mzad undaviyoT kontoris saqmis warmoebaSi dasaxmareblad.tanis dabana: `abazana~ yovel kvira dRes dilis 9 saaTidan yvelamobinadris gankargulebaSia: tanis dabana SeiZleba sapirfareSoSi,samzareuloSi, kabinetSi da kontoraSi — visac rogor urCevnia.alkoholiani sasmelebi nebadarTulia mxolod eqimis rCeviT.anaxuTSabaTi, 19 noemberi, 1942Zvirfaso kiwi!rogorc velodiT, duseli marTla Zalze sasiamovno adamiani aRmoCnda.Tumca gulaxdilad rom giTxra, arc ise sasiamovnoa, roca ucxo kaci SensoTaxSi cxovrobs da yvelafers xels hkidebs, magram keTili saqmisaTvis zogi

am unda daTmo. mTavaria, adamians uSvelo, yvelaferi danarCeni wvrilmania, —ambobs mama da marTalicaa.duselma pirvelsave dRes dawvrilebiT gamomkiTxa yvelaferi, magaliTad,ra drosaa kontoraSi damlagebeli qali, rodis SeiZleba sapirfareSoTisargebloba, sad jobia banaoba. Sen, albaT, gecineba, kiwi, magram TavSesafarSiyovelive amas didi mniSvneloba aqvs. qveviT xSiradaa iseTi xalxi, romelTacCveni saidumlo ar gavandeT da amitom, roca kontoraSi ucxo adamiania,gansakuTrebuli siCume unda davicvaT. Cven viciT, ra dros ra xdeba.dusels yvelaferi mSvenivrad avuxseni, magram gamakvirva mismamousazreblobam. yvelafers or-orjer mekiTxeboda da mainc ver imaxsovrebda,albaT, gaocebisagan jerac ver gamorkveula, magram TandaTan esec mogvardeba.sxva mxriv yvelaferi rigzea.duselma bevri ram gviambo gare samyaroze, romelsac karga xaniamovwydiT. Zalze samwuxaro ambavi gvamcno. uamravi nacnobi da megobari sadRacgarekes da axla sasowarkveTilni saSinel dasasruls elian. yovel saRamosquCebSi mwvane da nacrisferi samxedro manqanebi dahqrian. germaneli `eseselebi~mwvane manqanebSi sxedan. holandiis faSisturi policia ki SavSi da ebraelebsdaeZeben. Tu sadme erTi kaci aRmoaCines, mTel ojaxs apatimreben. yvela karzeakakuneben da Tu veravin ipoves, meore saxls miadgebian. zogjer Tan daaqvT siada vinc siaSia `aRniSnuli~, mihyavT. aravis ar ascdeba es xvedri, Tu droze ardaimala. zogierTs gamosasyids axdevineben. mSvenivrad ician, ra qonebispatronia maTi msxverpli.yovelive es ise gamoiyureba, rogorc Zvel droSi monebze nadiroba.xSirad aseTi suraTi midgas Tvalwin: ramdenime sazareli arseba cemiTa dawamebiT mierekeba wesier udanaSaulo adamianebs, romelTac atirebuli bavSvebimihyavT, mierekebian manamde, sanam muxlebi ar moekecebaT. aravis ar indoben, arcmoxucebs, arc ZuZuTa bavSvebs, arc fexmZime qalebs, arc avadmyofebs da arcxeibrebs. yvela, yvela CauTreviaT am sasikvdilo ferxulSi.Cven ki ra kargad, ra mSvidad movewyveT. mTeli es ubedureba odnavadacar Segvawuxebda, imaTi javri da SiSi rom ar gvklavdes, vinc CvenTvisZvirfasia, vinc Tavs ver uSvela.xandaxan Cemi Tavi mejavreba. me aq Tbil loginSi vwevar, Cemi saukeTesomegobrebi ki sadRac Ria cisqveS qarsa da wvimaSi saSinlad itanjebian da zogialbaT daiRupa kidec. usazRvro SiSi mipyrobs, roca vigoneb imaT, visTanacaxlo urTierToba mqonda, da romlebic axla yvelaze sastik jalaTebsCauvardnen xelSi, jalaTebs, romelTa msgavsi istorias ar axsovs. da mxolodimitom, rom ebraelebi arian!..anaparaskevi, 20 noemberi, 1942Zvirfaso kiwi!marTali giTxra, cota ar iyos, yvelani davibeniT. adre Cvenamde naklebadaRwevda cnobebi ebraelebze, iqneb jobda kidec, rom ase dawvrilebiT arvicodiT yvelaferi. roca zogjer mipi gviyveboda raimes nacnobebis samwuxarobedze, deda da qalbatoni van daani mudam tirodnen da mipma gadawyvita,aRaraferi eambna. magram dusels maSinve uamravi kiTxvebi daayares da imdenisazareli da barbarosuli ram gviambo, rom Zneli mosanelebelia. roca esmogonebani gauferuldeba, nuTu isev SevZlebT sicilsa da udardeladmxiarulebas? magram Tu samudamod davmwuxrdebiT da Cvens TavSesafars Wmunvissavaned gadavaqcevT, verc sakuTar Tavs gamovadgebiT da verc gareT darCenilT.rasac unda vakeTebde, Cemi fiqrebi mudam imaTTanaa, vinc waiyvanes. sakmarisiauzrunvelad gavicino da maSinve SiSi mipyrobs, Cems Tavs vusayvedurebmxiarulebas. magram nuTu mTeli dRe damwuxrebuli unda viyo? me ase arSemiZlia, mgoni uguneboba gamivlis.am sadardebels Cemi piradi usiamovnebac erTvis. marTalia, im didubedurebasTan SedarebiT, razedac es wuTia gwerdi, piradi gancdebi sruliad

araferia, magram mainc minda giTxra, rom am bolo dros saocar martoobasvgrZnob. CemSi sicariele damkvidrda. adre amaze ar vfiqrobdi, garToba damegobrebi avsebdnen Cems fiqrebs, axla ki rTuli problemebi mawuxebs. gavigeisic, rom mamasac ki, romelic yvelaze Zalian miyvars, ar ZaluZs, mTeli Cemiuwindeli samyaros magivroba gamiwios.Sen albaT ggonia, rom Zalze umaduri var, ara, kiwi? zogjer iseTigrZnoba maqvs, TiTqos didxans ver gavuZleb amgvar cxovrebas. gesmodes mTelies saSineleba, gawuxebdes sakuTari sadardebeli da amave dros yvelasTvisxelwamosakravi iyo.anaSabaTi, 28 noemberi, 1942Zvirfaso kiwi!bevri eleqtroenergia davwviT da limiti gadavxarjeT. axla ukiduresimomWirneoba gvmarTebs, Torem SeiZleba deni gamogviTiSon da 14 dReusinaTlod dagvtovon. oTxidan Tu xuTis naxevridan kiTxva aRar SegviZlia,amitom sxvadasxva gasarTobs vigonebT da dros ase vklavT. veubnebiT erTmaneTsgamocanebs, vvarjiSobT sibneleSi, vlaparakobT inglisurad an frangulad,vmsjelobT wakiTxul wignebze, magram gaWianurebuli yvelaferimosabezrebelia. axla me axali gasarTobi vipove, savele binokliT mezoblebisganaTebul fanjrebSi viWvritebi. dRisiT erTi santimetriTac ki ar SeiZlebafardis gadaweva, magram saRamos arc ise saxifaToa. adre ar megona mezoblebiscxovreba Tu ase sainteresoa. zogs sadilobisas vakvirdebodi, erT ojaxSikinofilmi gauSves, mopirdapire saxlSi moxuci kbilis eqimi mSiSara dedabersmkurnalobda.marTla, kbilis eqimis gaxsenebaze! batoni duseli, romelzedacambobdnen, SesaniSnavad eqceva bavSvebs da Zalian uyvars patarebio,dromoWmuli SexedulebebiT yofila savse da mudam zrdilobiani qcevisa daTavdaWeris Sesaxeb qadagebs. rogorc cnobilia, maqvs saeWvo `bedniereba~ am`didad pativcemul~ vaJbatonTan erT oTaxSi cxovrebisa da radgan Cvenimozardi sameulidan me yvelaze uzrdelad mTvlian, mudam imis cdaSi var, romTavidan avicilo dausrulebeli sayvedurebi da Wkuis darigeba, an Tavimoviyruo. magram amas rogorme gavuZlebdi, es kaci rom aseTi `mabezRara~ ariyos da yovel wuTSi maincdamainc dedasTan ar garbodes saCivlelad. jerkidev misi sayvedurebi ver mominelebia, am dros modis deda da cecxlze navTsasxams, xolo Tu bedi gansakuTrebiT mwyalobs, xuTi wuTis Semdeg qalbatonivan daani mibarebs da axla is mebuzRuneba.asea, kiwi! advili nu ggonia, roca cudad aRzrdili arseba mudamkritikulad ganwyobili iatakqveSeli ojaxis dausrulebeli sayvedurebismTavar obieqts — igulisxme, mexamrids warmoadgen! saRamos, roca sawolSivwevar, im uamrav codvebze da danaSaulze vfiqrob, romelTac maweren.saCivrebis siuxve imdenad mabnevs, rom xSirad vtiri, anda vicini, gaaCnia, CemsSinagan ganwyobilebas. Semdeg ki CameZina yovlad WkuisSemSleli fiqrebiT,saxeldobr: iseTi ki ar unda gavxde, rogoric me minda, aramed sul sxvanairi,anda me sul sxvanairi var da ara iseTi, rogoric minda viyo, ise ki ar undagavakeTo yvelaferi, rogorc me msurs, aramed sxvanairad. minda, sul sxvanairigavxde da ara iseTi, rogoric var, radgan me sul sxvanairi var da ara iseTi,rogoric minda viyo...da ai, Senc dagabnie! nu gamijavrdebi! me ar amovSli arafers, rac aqSaviT TeTrze weria. axla, roca ase Wirs qaRaldis Sovna, furclis amoxevaccodvaa! amitom SemiZlia, mxolod rCeva mogce: nuRar waikiTxav ukanasknelwinadadebas da nu ecdebi gaigo, Torem ise daibnevi, Tavs veRar gaarTmev!anaorSabaTi, 7 dekemberi, 1942Zvirfaso kiwi!

wels xanuka 1 ( 1 ebraelTa saSobao dResaswauli (Zv. w. 164 wlis 25.XII iudamakabevelma ierusalimSi xelaxla akurTxa antioqos IV mier wabilwulitaZari)) da wminda nikolozis dRe 2 ( 2 holandielebi wminda nikolozis dResufro zeimoben, vidre Sobas.)) TiTqmis erTmaneTs emTxveva. xanukas aRsaniSnavadmxolod sanTlebi davanTeT da isic aTi wuTiT, radgan sanTlebi axla ZnelisaSovaria, xolo roca simRera gaisma, namdvili sazeimo viTareba Seiqmna!batonma van daanma lamazi xis Sandali gamoTala.magram SabaTs wminda nikolozis dRe meti zeimiT aRvniSneT. Cven Zaliangvainteresebda, raze eCurCulebodnen eli da mipi mamas, roca zeviT amodiodnen.vgrZnobdiT, rom raRacas gvimzadebdnen. da ai, rva saaTze grZeli derefnisgaswvriv kibeze daveSviT da patara gasasvlel oTaxSi aRmovCndiT. me SiSmaSemipyro da mxolod imas vnatrobdi, rom uvnebeli davbrunebuliyavi ukan!radgan am oTaxs fanjrebi ar hqonda, sinaTle aanTes. mamam kedlis didiganjina gamoaRo: — o, ra lamazia, — wamoiZaxa yvelam. ganjinaSi idga didikalaTi Wreli qaRaldiT lamazad morTuli da `Savi peteris~ simboluriniRbiT damSvenebuli. kalaTi mSvidobianad avitaneT zeviT da yvelam TavisisaCuqari miiRo; mas saTanado leqsic axlda. Sen kargad ici, rogori leqsiiwereba amgvar SemTxvevebSi da amitom aq aRar momyavs. maCuqes namcxvris didiTojina. mamam wignis qvesadgami miiRo, dedam kalendari, qalbatonma van daanmatomara mtvris Cvrebis Sesanaxad, batonma van daanma saferfle. yvelas SeurCiessasiamovno saCuqari. Cven pirvelad vizeimeT wminda nikolozis dResaswauli davTvliT, rom premieram warmatebiT Caiara.cxadia, Cveni `qvemoTa~ megobrebisTvisac movamzadeT saCuqrebi imnivTebidan, rac Zveli ukeTesi droidan SemogvrCa. swored dRes gavigeT, romsaferfle baton van daanisaTvis da wignebis qvesadgamebi mamaCemisTvis batonmavosenma TviTon gaakeTa.anaxuTSabaTi, 10 dekemberi, 1942Zvirfaso kiwi!batoni van daani xorcis, Zexvis da sabaylo ganyofilebas ganagebda.firmam igi miiwvia, rogorc am saqmis saukeTeso specialisti. da axla, Cvendasasixarulod, man Tavi gamoiCina, rogorc `Zexvis~ ostatma.Cven bevri saZexve xorci SevukveTeT (cxadia, Sav bazarze), gadavwyviteTSavi dRisTvis Zexvi mogvemaragebina. saintereso sayurebelia:L xorcs jer sakepmanqanaSi gaatareben or-samjer, Semdeg Seaneleben, kargad azelen da bolosmilakis meSveobiT nawlavebs avseben. Cven ukve mivirTviT sadilad SemwvariZexvi kombostos mwniliT. magram Sebolili Zexvi rom damzaddes, kargad undagamoSres. amitom Zexvi WerqveS Zelze gaWimul Tokebze Camokides. yvela, vincoTaxSi Semodis, WerqveS moqanave Zexvebs xedavs da icinis. marTlac sasaciloa.oTaxSi saSineli aurzauri iyo. batoni van daani (colis winsafariSemoexvia da ufro sqeli Canda, vidre sinamdvileSi iyo) TavgamodebiTdastrialebda xorcs. gasisxlianebuli xelebi, gaoflianebuli, alewilipirisaxe da dalaquli winsafari namdvili yasbis iers aZlevda. qalbaton vandaans, Cveulebriv, yvelafris erTbaSad gakeTeba surs: swavlobssaxelmZRvanelodan holandiurs, urevs wvnians, Tvalyurs adevnebs xorcs daamave dros kvnesis, radgan nekni stkiva. ai, ra xdeba, roca pativmoyvare, xanSiSesuli (!!) mandilosnebi sqeli ukanalis gasaxdomad yovlad saxifaTotanvarjiSs mimarTaven. dusels Tvalis anTeba aqvs, mTeli dRe RumelTan zisda Tvalze kompress idebs. fanjarasTan Camomjdar mamas mzis nazi sxividahnaTis. albaT, isev revmatizmi stanjavs, radgan moxrili zis da sacodavisaxiT adevnebs Tvals baton van daanis saqmianobas. peteri daarbeninebs oTaxSikatas (katas muSi hqvia). me, deda da margo kartofils vfcqvniT, magram amsaqmes meqanikurad vakeTebT da monusxulebiviT SevcqeriT baton van daans.duselma, rogorc kbilis eqimma, praqtika ganaaxla. moganiWeb siamovnebasda mogiyvebi, rogor Seudga mkurnalobas. deda auTovebda, roca qalbatonma van

daanma ganizraxa, pirveli pacienti gamxdariyo. qalbatoni van daani Sua oTaxSidadgmul skamze dajda, duselma ki saqmianad da mSvidad amoalagainstrumentebi; sadezinfeqciod odekoloni moiTxova, xolo cvilis nacvlad —vazelini.amis Semdeg qalbaton van daans pirSi Caxeda, ukana kbilebi gausinja.daakakuna, moCxrika. qalbatoni wamdauwum tokavda, TiTqos tkivilisagan suliexuTeboda da yovlad ucnaur bgerebs gamoscemda. xangrZlivi Semowmebis Semdeg— pacients ase egona, Torem sinamdvileSi mxolod ori wuTi Tu gavida —duselma gadawyvita, gamoxruli kbili amoewminda. magram amaze fiqric kizedmeti iyo! qalbatoni van daani veluriviT iqnevda xelebs da wixlebsisroda, ase rom, duseli iZulebuli Seiqna xeli SeeSva kauWisaTvis, romliTackbils uwmendda. qalbaton van daans kauWi kbilSi gaeCxira. axla ki aiwyvitaeSmakma! kbilSi kauWgaCrili qalbatoni aqeT-iqiT awydeboda da cdilobdarogorme amoeZro, magram kidev ufro Rrmad irWobda kbilSi. doinjSemoyriliduseli sruliad mSvidad idga iqve da am speqtakls uyurebda, danarCenebivxarxarebdiT. Cveni mxriv, es simdable iyo: albaT, mec gvarianad viRrialebdi.bolos, saSineli garjis, oxvrisa da kvnesis Semdeg qalbatonma kbilebSigaCxiruli iaraRi amoiZro da duselma isev ganagrZo muSaoba, TiTqos aqaraferiao. muSaobda swrafad. pacients dro aRar rCeboda, raime moemoqmedebina.dusels albaT arasodes ar hyolia amdeni TanaSemwe. me da batoni van daaniasistentebi gaxldiT da yvelani erTad uTuod ise gamoviyurebodiT, TiTqosgacocxlebuliyos Suasaukuneebis naxati `Sarlatanebi muSaoben~.bolos da bolos pacientma moTmineba dakarga da ganacxada, sadils undamivxedoo. erTi ram cxadia: qalbatoni van daani ase male aRar miakiTxavskbilis eqims.anakvira, 13 dekemberi, 1942Zvirfaso kiwi!didi kontoris fanjarasTan myudrod movikalaTe da sqel fardebs SorisdarCenili WuWrutanidan vuTvalTvaleb, ra xdeba gareT. Tumca bindi Camowva,magram, imisaTvis rom Sen mogwero, sinaTle kmara.ucnauri sayurebelia, rogor darbian adamianebi quCaSi! ase mgonia,saSinlad eCqarebaT sadRac da lamisaa sakuTar fexebs gamoedon. velosipedebsise miaqroleben, rom Zneli gasarCevia, vin zis zed, qali Tu kaci.Cveni raioni tipuri muSaTa ubania. umravlesobas siRaribis daRi azis,bavSvebi ki iseTi WuWyianebi arian, rom mxolod sakeciT Tu Seexebi. namdviliwvintliani quCis bavSvebia, romlebic Znelad gasageb dialeqtze laparakoben.guSin, roca me da margo tans vibandiT, aseTi azri damebada: ra kargiiqneboda, rom SemeZlos am patara sazogadoebidan ramdenime bavSvis ankesiTdaWera, zeviT amoyvana, abazanaSi Casma, dabana, sufTad gamowyoba da saTamaSodquCaSi gaSveba, maSin... — xval iseTive WuWyianebi da Camofxrewilebi irbenen, —Semawyvetina margom.gareT sxvac bevria saintereso: avtomobilebi, kaparWebi, wvima. mesmistramvais borblebis RrWiali da aTasgvar ambebs vTxzav. Cveni fiqrebi isevenaklebad icvlebian, rogorc Cven TviTon, mudam erT wreSi trialeben:ebraelebi — saWmeli, saWmeli — politika, xolo politikidan... rakiebraelebi vaxsene, ai ra unda giTxra: guSin, roca WuWrutanaSi vicqirebodi,quCaSi orma ebraelma gaiara. ucnauri grZnoba mqonda, TiTqos me isini gaveciimiT, rom aq vzivar da maT ubedurebas vuyureb.zustad Cveni saxlis pirdapir sacxovrebeli barJa dgas. barJazecxovrobs mezRvauri Tavisi ojaxiT. hyavT patara ZaRli, romelsac yefiTvcnobT da romlis kuds mxolod maSin vxedav, roca qimis gaswvriv darbis.isev dauSva wvimam, adamianTa umravlesobam qolgebs Seafara Tavi. axlamxolod sawvimarebi da aqa-iq kapiuSonebi moCans.

dasanaxi meti arc araferia. me isedac kargad vicnob am qalebs, mwvane dawiTeli makintoSebiT rom Caivlian xolme. gacveTili quslebi, mklavzeCamokidebuli gaxexili CanTebi, SeSupebuli, damZimebuli sxeulebi, radgan sxvasaWmeli ara aqvT da kartofils eZalebian. zogs sacodavi gamometyveleba aqvs,zogs kmayofili, albaT imisda mixedviT, Tu ra xasiaTzea qmari.anasamSabaTi, 22 dekemberi, 1942Zvirfaso kiwi!TavSesaframde sasixarulo ambavma moaRwia: saSobaod yvelas damatebiT100 gram karaqs dagvirigeben. oficialurad naxevar girvanqas iZlevian, magrames exeba im bednier momakvdavT, romlebic gareT Tavisuflad cxovroben, Cven,ltolvilebs ki rva kacze mxolod oTxi baraTi gvaqvs da 100 gramic gvaxarebs.Cven gvinda am karaqiT rame gamovacxoT. me gamovacxob puris kverebs da ortorts. sanam saojaxo saqmes ar movrCebiT, deda arc kiTxvis uflebas gvaZlevsda arc mecadineobisa. neknnatkeni qalbatoni van daani sawolSi wevs, dilidansaRamomde moTqvams da Cvenda uneburad unda movuaroT. waramara kompresebsvadebT, magram mainc sul ukmayofiloa. mirCevnia, fexze idges da sakuTarsaqmes TviTon mixedos. erTi ram unda vaRiaro: igi Zalze Sromismoyvarea, xoloroca sulierad da fizikurad kargad grZnobs Tavs, mxiarulic.is ar kmara, rom mTeli dRe maCumeben `su, su~-o, aqaoda Zalze xmamaRlavlaparakob, axla Cems pativcemul mezobels dasCemda Ramec misisinos. mas romhkiTxo, Rame sawolSi gadabrunebac ki ar SeiZleba. me Tavi ise miWiravs, TiTqosverafers vamCnev, magram dReidan, rogorc ki momaZaxebs `su, su~-o, mec aseTivesisiniT vupasuxeb. isedac gabrazebuli var masze. kviraobiT uTenia dgeba,sinaTles anTebs da varjiSs iwyebs. ase mgonia, TiTqos varjiSi saaTobiTgrZeldeba. amave dros Zalian mouridebelia, waramara ejaxeba skamebs,romelTac sawolis dasagrZeleblad viyeneb, da sabolood mafxizlebs. vdgebi,magram Zili maklia, siamovnebiT daviZinebdi kidev ramdenime xans. xolo roca`siZlierisa da silamazisaken~ mimavali gza iwureba, duseli Cacmas iwyebs.nifxavs dawolis win kauWze kidebs, amitom jer iqiTken midis, Semdeg ki ukanbrundeba. ra Tqma unda, aviwydeba halstuxi, romelic magidaze devs. axla iseviqiT-aqeT darbis, Tanac skamebs ejaxeba. mSvidobiT, Cemo kviris tkbilo Zilo!magram ra azri aqvs sasacilo moxucebze Civils? xandaxan xelebimeqaveba, minda raime oini movuwyo: davuketo kari, amovxraxno naTura, davumalotansacmeli?! Tavs mxolod imiT vikaveb, rom ar minda sanatreli simSvidedavarRvio.oho, me Wkua memateba! aq yvelaferi gonivrulad unda gaakeTo: enas kbilidaaWiro, sxvebs gaugono, zrdilobianad, Tavazianad moeqce, dauTmo da kidevramdeni ram. Wkua, romelic isedac cota maqvs, albaT, aq Zalian CqaraSemomexarjeba da omis Semdgomi droisaTvis aRaraferi damrCeba.anaoTxSabaTi, 13 ianvari, 1943Zvirfaso kiwi!dRes isev sazizRar gunebaze varT, ar SegviZlia mSvidad jdoma damuSaoba. qveyanaze raRac saSineleba trialebs. sabralo xalxs dRe da RamesadRac mierekebian da, garda zurgCanTisa da cotaodeni fulisa, Tan arafriswaRebis uflebas ar aZleven (Semdeg amasac arTmeven).ojaxebs ancalkeveben, bavSvebs ded-mamas aSoreben. zogjer skolidandabrunebul bavSvs Sin mSoblebi aRar egebebian, savaWrod gasul qals binadaluquli xvdeba, xolo ojaxi gasaxlebuli.axla qristianebs Sorisac didi mRelvarebaa. axalgazrdebs, vaJiSvilebs,germaniaSi agzavnian. yvela dadardianebulia!yovel Rame holandiis gavliT asobiT TviTmfrinavi mifrinavs germaniisqalaqebis dasabombad. ruseTsa da afrikaSi yovel saaTSi aTasobiT adamiani

iRupeba! mTeli msoflio gagiJda, yvelgan ngreva da sikvdilia. cxadia,mokavSireebi axla ukeTes mdgomareobaSi arian, magram am ambavs bolo mainc aruCans.Cven ra gviWirs, milionobiT adamianze ukeT vcxovrobT. vsxedvarTCvenTvis mSvidad, saimedod, SegviZlia omis Semdgom gegmebzec vifiqroT,gvaxarebs axali tansacmeli da wigni. ukeTesi iqneboda gvefiqra imaze, Turogor davzogoT yoveli centi da tyuilubralod ar gadavagdoT, radgan undagadavarCinoT yvela, visi gadarCenac ki SeiZleba da daxmareba aRmovuCinoT.Cveni ubnis bavSvebi Txeli bluzebis amara, upaltood, uqudod,uxelTaTmnod datantaleben, fexze xis qoSebi acviaT. kuWi carieli aqvT,stafilos RrRnian, civi binidan svel quCaSi gamorbian (quCaSi qari qris),skolaSi midian da gayinul, nestian klasSi sxedan. holandia iqamde mivida, rombavSvebi quCaSi gamvlelebs puris natexs sTxoven. SemiZlia saaTobiTvilaparako imaze, Tu ra ubedureba moaqvs oms, magram me es kidev ufro metadmaRonebs. Cven isRa dagvrCenia, rom mSvidad da gulmagrad velodoT, rodismiiwureba Savi dRe. elis yvela, ebraeli da qristiani, elian xalxebi da mTelimsoflio da... bevri sikvdils elis!anaSabaTi, 30 ianvari, 1943Zvirfaso kiwi!lamis gavcofde, magram Tavi unda Sevikavo. minda fexebi vabakuno,viyviro, deda SevanjRrio da ar vici, meti raRa vqna im damcinavi mzeris,boroti sityvebisa da braldebebis gamo, romelTac yoveldRe ise mayrian,rogorc isrebs magrad daWimuli mSvildidan. minda vuyviro dedas, margos,dusels, van daanebs da mamasac ki: Tavi damanebeT, momasveneT! gana aseaucilebelia yovel Rame cremliT dasvelebul baliSze dameZinos dasiebuliTvalebiT da damZimebuli TaviT. nu momekarebiT, minda yvelas gagecaloT,Tumca umjobesia saerTod gavecalo am qveyanas! magram araferi gamomdis. maTwarmodgena ara aqvT, rogor warmekveTeba sasoeba, ar esmiT, ra tkivilsmayeneben.maT TanagrZnobasa da ironias sruliad veRar vitan! ise var gamwarebuli,lamis vibRavlo.sakmarisia, piri gavaRo da maT ukve hgoniaT, TiTqos raRaca zedmetivTqvi. roca Cumad var, ecinebaT; yoveli Cemi pasuxi ukmexad eCvenebaT,gonivruli azri — cbierebad, Tu daviRale, zarmacs meZaxian, Tu erTi zedmetikovzi gadmoviRe — egoists. ras ar maweren: mxdalic var, angariSianic, eSmakicda a. S. mTeli dRe mxolod imazea laparaki, Tu ra autaneli arseba var. Tumcame vicini da ise miWiravs Tavi, TiTqos yvelaferi fexebze mkidia, magramsinamdvileSi srulebiT ar aris ase.RmerTs vTxovdi, iseTi xasiaTi moeca CemTvis, romelic yvelas CemswinaaRmdeg ar aamxedrebda, magram vici, rom amas araferi eSveleba. bunebamaseTi Semqmna. Tumca me vgrZnob, rom cudi ara var. maT odnavadac ki verwarmoudgeniaT, rogor vcdilob vasiamovno yvelas. Cemi Rrma mwuxareba romdavmalo, maTTan erTad vicini. ramdenjer mimixlia dedisaTvis pirSi, rocausamarTlod momqcevia: — CemTvis sul erTia, Tqvi, rac ginda, oRond Tavidamanebe, xom xedav, rom gamousworebeli var-meTqi!amis Semdeg meubnebian, Tavxedi xaro da meore dRes zed ar miyureben.Semdeg yvelafers iviwyeben da mapatieben. me ki ar SemiZlia erT dRes adamiansvesiyvarulebode, velaqucebode, xolo meore dRes mZuldes! umjobesia, avirCiosaSualo xazi, Cemi fiqrebi CemTvis Sevinaxo da maT iseve agdebulad moveqce,rogorc me meqcevian. netav ki SemaZlebina!anaparaskevi, 5 Tebervali, 1943Zvirfaso kiwi!

Cxubsa da kinklaobaze didi xania SenTvis araferi momiweria, Tumca ammxriv araferi Secvlila. batoni duseli pirvelad tragikulad aRiqvamdayovelgvar uTanxmoebas, magram bolos SeeCvia amas da cdilobs ar Caerios.margosa da peterSi `axalgazrduli~ araferia, orive wynaria, Tavs Segawyenen.ra Tqma unda, me maTgan gamovirCevi da wamdauwum mesmis: — aiRe magaliTimargosa da peterisagan, isini arasodes ar iqcevian SensaviT! ra saZaglobaa!unda gamogityde, rom arafris gulisTvis ar minda viyo iseTi, rogoric margoa.Cemi azriT, igi Zalze modunebuli da uniaToa. yvelas gavlenis qveS eqceva,yvelas uTmobs. adamians xom unda hqondes sakuTari azri! jobia, gavCumde da esTeoria aravis gavuziaro, Torem damcineben.sufraze mudam igrZnoba daZabuloba. igi mxolod maSin klebulobsodnav, roca kontoridan stumrebi gvewvevian, romlebic erTi TefSi wvnianisSesaxvrepad amodian CvenTan.dRes, sadilze batonma van daanma kvlav aRniSna, rom margo Zalian cotasWams. — albaT gasuqebis eSinia, — geslianad dasZina man. dedam, romelic mudamTavgamodebiT icavs margos, xmamaRla miaxala: — me veRar vitan Tqvenssulelur SeniSvnebs! qalbatoni van daani WarxaliviT gawiTlda. darcxvenilivan daani ki erT wertils miaSterda.zogjer yvelani bevrs viciniT. amas winaT qalbatonma van daanma Zaliangagvamxiarula. gviambo, rogor arSiyobda axalgazrdobaSi da ra marjved`atyuebda~ mamas. — Tu axalgazrda kaci xelebis faTurs dagiwyebs, marigebdaomama, Sen unda uTxra: `batono Cemo, me wesieri qali gaxlavarT!~ da igi imwamsvemixvdeba, visTan aqvs saqme! — Cven ise vicinodiT, TiTqos Zalze gonebamaxvilixumroba movismineT.Tumca peteri Zalian wynaria, magram zogjer mainc davciniT da amiTverTobiT. misi susti mxare ucxo sityvebia, romelTa mniSvneloba metwilad aresmis da zogjer ise uadgilod xmarobs, rom didi sisulele gamodis. erTdRes kontoraSi xalxi iyo da sapirfareSoTi sargebloba ar SeiZleboda,magram peters gauWirda, moisaqmiana da ar Carecxa. Cvens gasafrTxileblad kikarebze qaRaldi miakra da zed waawera `S’il vous plait, — gazebia!~ cxadia masundoda eTqva `frTxilad, gazebia!~ magram egona franguli ufro zrdilobianadJRers da Cans warmodgena ar hqonda, rom `S’il vous plait~ niSnavs `inebeT, geTayva~.anaSabaTi, 27 Tebervali, 1943Zvirfaso kiwi!yoveldRe veliT mokavSireTa jarebis gadmosxmas. CerCils filtvebisanTeba hqonda, magram axla ukeTaa. gandim, romelic indoeTisganTavisuflebisaTvis ibrZvis, es ukve meramdenejer gamoacxada SimSiloba.qalbatoni van daani gvarwmunebs, rom fatalistia. magram vis acaxcaxebsyvelaze metad srolis dros? ra Tqma unda, mas, petronelas.henkma mogvitana episkoposis mimarTva mrevlisadmi, romelsac sajarodkiTxuloben yvela eklesiaSi. mimarTva didebuli da aRmafrTovanebelia.`niderlandelebo, gul-xeli nu dagikrefiaT! SeiaraRdiT da ibrZoleT xalxisa,Tavisuflebisa, samSoblosa da sarwmunoebisaTvis. daexmareT erTmaneTs,nurafers daiSurebT erTmaneTisaTvis, nu miecemiT sasowarkveTilebas!..~ ai rasqadagebs episkoposi. moitans ki Svebas amgvari qadageba? CvenTvis,ebraelebisaTvis, cxadia, ara.rom icode, ra moxda. Cvenma saxlis patronma saxli gayida ise, rom arcbatoni koophoisi gaufrTxilebia da arc batoni kraleri. erT diliTmoulodnelad gamocxadda saxlis dasaTvaliereblad arqiteqtorTan erTad.madloba RmerTs, batoni koophoisi kontoraSi iyo. mosulebs yvelaferi aCvena,garda saxlis ukana mxarisa. TiTqosda Sida karis gasaRebi saxlSi darCa. maTaraferi ukiTxavT. imedi maqvs, rom saxlis ukana mxaris sanaxavad aRar movlen.CvenTvis es saSineleba iqneboda.

mamam axali kartoTeka gvaCuqa sufTa baraTebiT. amgvarad, me da margoswignebis katalogi gveqneba. Cven viwerT yovel wigns, romelic wavikiTxeT daaRvniSnavT ara marto avtoris gvarsa da wignis saTaurs, aramed CvensSeniSvnebsac. ucxo sityvebisa da gamoTqmebisaTvis calke rveuli SeviZine.am bolo dros me da deda ukeT vewyobiT erTmaneTs, magram namdvilindoba Cvens Soris arasodes ar iqneba. margo sul ufro xSirad miwyreba, mamaki gulCaTxrobili gaxda, etyoba, raRac awuxebs. miuxedavad amisa, igi maincyvelaze ukeTesia.CvenTan SemoiRes karaqisa da margarinis ganawilebis axali wesi.TiToeuls TefSze udeben mTeli dRis ulufas, Cemi azriT, van daanebisindisierad ar anawileben, magram Cems mSoblebs mobezrdaT yoveldRe maTTankinklaoba da arafers ar amboben. me ki mgonia, aseT xalxs samagiero aseve undagadauxado!anaoTxSabaTi, 10 marti, 1943Zvirfaso kiwi!guSin saRamos isev moxda mokle CarTva, sinaTle Caqra, gareT kisazenito qvemexebi quxdnen. verafriT ver damiZlevia SiSi, romelsac CemSisrola da sahaero Tavdasxma iwvevs. TiTqmis yovel Rame mamis sawolSimivZvrebi. iqneb, Seni azriT, aseTi saqcieli bavSvobaa, magram aba erTi TviTongamoscade!qvemexebis quxilSi sakuTari xmac ki ar gvesmis. qalbatoni van daani,Cveni fatalisti, TiTqmis tiroda da CurCuliT ambobda: `o, ra saSinelisrolaa!~ gana ar jobda pirdapir eTqva: `o, rogor meSinia?!~ diliT ise armeSinia, rogorc Rame, bnelSi. akankalebuli, Cemda uneburad vyvirodi,vemudarebodi mamas sanTeli aenTo, magram mama ulmobeli aRmoCnda dasibneleSi dagvtova. uecrad tyviamfrqvevis kakani atyda, rac sazenitoqvemexebis quxilze uaresia. deda sawolidan wamoxta da sanTeli aanTo, pimiZalian gajavrda. xolo roca sayvedurebze gadavida, dedam mtkiced upasuxa:`ane SensaviT nacadi jariskaci araa!~ amiT gaTavda yvelaferi.nuTu ar mogiyevi, ra Savi dRe daadga qalbaton van daans? Sen yvelaferiunda icode, rac Cvens TavSesafarSi xdeba. erTxel qalbaton van daanssxvenidan fexis xma moesma, egona qurdebi ariano da ise dafrTxa, rom qmarigaaRviZa. amasobaSi xmauri Sewyda, baton van daans, mxolod fatalistis gulisZlieri bagabugi esmoda. `ah, puwi!~ (baton van daanis saferebeli saxelia),`albaT, Zexvi da lobio mogvpares. Cveni peteri? peteri cocxalia?~ — `petersaravin moiparavs, nu geSinia, damaZine!~ ris Zili, SeSinebuls mTeli Rame Tvaliar mouxuWavs. ramdenime dRis Semdeg idumalma xmaurma kvlav gamoaRviZa mTeliojaxi. peterma jibis farani aiRo, sxvenze avida da roca gaanaTa, — frrrr! —virTxebis mTeli jogi daafrTxo. amgvarad gavigeT, vin iyvnen qurdebi dasxvenze muSi davtoveT dasaZineblad. daupatiJebeli stumrebi jerjerobiT argamoCenilan, yovel SemTxvevaSi RamRamobiT siwynarea, magram ramdenime dRiswinaT SeRamebisas peteri sxvenze avida (rvis naxevari iyo da jer ar bneloda)Zveli gazeTebis Camosatanad. roca ukan brundeboda, liuks moeWida da xeliise daado ficars, rom arc ki dauxedia... uecrad SiSisa da tkivilisagankinaRam kibeze dagorda. virTxam magrad ukbina xelze, piJama sisxliT hqondamosvrili. mitkaliviT gafiTrebuls muxlebi ukankalebda. gasakviri araferia!gulis asarevad isic kmara, rom virTxas mokido xeli da Tu kidec gikbina... rasazizRrobaa!anaparaskevi, 12 marti, 1943Zvirfaso kiwi!neba miboZe warmogidgino deda franki, axalgazrdebis qomagi! karaqisdamatebiTi ulufa — ai, Tanamedrove axalgazrdobis saWirboroto problema.

deda mudam gveqomageba me, margos da peters da xangrZlivi davis Semdeg Tavisigaaqvs.gagvifuWda erTi qila dakonservebuli ena. muSis da mofis didebulisadili eqnebaT. marTla, Sen jer ar icnob mofis. igi aq iyo `iatakqveSelTa~mosvlamde. cxovrobs kontorasa da sawyobSi, afrTxobs virTxebs. misipolitikuri saxelis axsna ar aris Zneli. adre firmas ori kata hyavda, erTisawyobSi, meore — sxvenze. rogorc ki erTmaneTs Sexvdebodnen, saSineli Cxubiiwyeboda. Cxubis Tavi sawyobis kata iyo, magram gamarjvebuli mudam sxveniskata gamodioda. saxelebic maTi xasiaTis Sesaferi Searqves. sawyobis kata iyogermaneli, anu mofi, sxvenis kata ki ingliseli, anu tomi. tomi viRacisaTvisuCuqebiaT, mofi ki axlac aq aris da, roca Zirs CavdivarT, gveTamaSeba.es-esaa mamam gviTxra, rom metismetad SeSfoTebulia. ra sevdiani Tvalebiaqvs, sabralo mama!ver movwydi ina budier-bakeris wigns `karze dakakuneba~. saojaxo romania,saocrad aqvs aRwerili adamianebis urTierToba. sxva yvelaferi, rasac igiexeba — omi, qalTa sakiTxi, mwerlebi, naklebad momwons da, gulaxdilad romgiTxra, naklebad mainteresebs.bombdamSenebma saSinlad dabombes germania.batoni van daani cud gunebazea. mosawevi araferi aqvs. dava imis Sesaxeb,SevWamoT Tu ara axla bostneulis konservebi, Cveni partiis sasargeblodgadawyda. maRali saTxilamuro fexsacmelebis garda, veRarafers vicvam, saxlSiki ase siaruli Semawuxebelia. erTi wyvili Calis sandlebi erT kviras meyo,mere isev fexSiSveli aRmovCndi. iqneb mipma miSovos rame Sav bazarze. mas Tmaaqvs Sesasworebeli. marwmunebs, ise kargad mkreW, sxva parikmaxerTanaRarasodes wavalo. kargi iqneboda, yursac rom ar vaTlide xSirad.anaxuTSabaTi, 18 marti, 1943Zvirfaso kiwi!TurqeTi omSi Caeba. yvela aRelvebulia. mouTmenlad veliTradiogadacemas.anaparaskevi, 19 marti, 1943Zvirfaso kiwi!sixaruls imedis gacrueba mohyva, rac Zalze usiamoa! TurqeTi arCabmula omSi! iqaur sagareo saqmeTa ministrs mxolod is uTqvams, rom Cvensneitralitets male bolo moeRebao. gazeTis gamyidveli ki damis 1 ( 1 moedanimefis sasaxlis win.) moedanze yviroda:`TurqeTi ingliselebs miemxro!~ase gaCnda es Wori da Cvenamdec moaRwia.500 da 1000 guldeniani qaRaldis fuli gaauqmes. didi zarali naxesspekulantebma da `Savi~ fulis mflobelebma; magram dazaraldnen isadamianebic, romlebic imalebian. roca 1000 guldenians axurdaveb, undadaamtkico, saidan gaqvs, Tumca am kviris bolomde SeiZleba maTi gamoyeneba dagadasaxadebis gadaxda.duselma xelis bormanqana miiRo da male Cems mkurnalobas Seudgeba.`uklebliv yvela germanelis fiurerma~ daWril jariskacebs sityviTmimarTa, Semdeg ki `esaubra~. maTi saubari Semzaravi mosasmeni iyo. magaliTad:— hainrix Sepeli gaxlavarT!— sad daiWeri?— stalingradTan!— sad xar daWrili?— moyinuli maqvs orive fexi, marcxena xelis maja ki motexili!zustad ase gadmoscems radio marionetebis am sazarel scenas. daWrilebiTiTqos amayoben kidec xeibrobiT. aqao da, rac ufro uaresad grZnob Tavs, miT

ukeTesi! erTi kia, roca mas fiurerma CamosarTmevad xeli gauwoda (Tuki xelisaerTod SerCa), ise daibna, rom xmis amoReba ver SeZlo.anaxuTSabaTi, 25 marti, 1943Zvirfaso kiwi!guSin dedam, mamam, margom da me myudrod movikalaTeT. uceb peteriSemovida da mamasTan CurCuli gaaba. me mxolod amas movkari yuri: `sawyobSikasria gadayiravebuli~ da `karebTan viRac faTurobda~. es margomac gaigona,magram me damiwyo damSvideba, radgan, mama myisve peters gahyva, me ki usazRvroSiSisagan carciviT gavfiTrebulvar.visxediT da velodiT, oriode wuTis Semdeg qalbatoni van daanigamocxadda. igi kabinetSi radios usmenda, magram mamas uTxovia, radiogamoerTo da Cumad amosuliyo zeviT. roca Zalian frTxilob, metwiladaraferi gamodis. qalbaton van daans egona, mis fexqveS Zveli kibis safexurebisaSinlad Wrialebda. gavida xuTi wuTi... bolos gafiTrebuli mama da peteridabrundnen da gviambes, rac naxes. jer kibeze Camosxdnen da smenad iqcnen,magram araferi ismoda. uecrad gaigones ori Zlieri dartyma, TiTqos viRacamsaxlSi karebi gaijaxuna. pimi fexis erTi dakvriT zeviT amovarda, peteri kiduselTan Sevida. oTaxidan gamosvlamde duselma gulmodgined Caalaga Tavisibargi-barxana. fexze gavixadeT da yvelani zeviT, van daanebTan avediT.gaciebuli van daani sawolSi iwva. Cven mis sawolTan SevquCdiT da, cxadia,Cveni eWvebi CurCuliT gavuziareT. roca van daani xmamaRla axvelebda, me damisi coli SiSiT vkvdebodiT. viRacas brwyinvale azri daebada, gadavwyviteT,van daanisaTvis kodeini migveca. xvela maSinve Seuwyda.Cven velodiT, velodiT dausruleblad... da radgan karga xans aRaraferiismoda, gadavwyviteT, uTuod qurdebma gamoyruebul saxlSi fexis xma gaigonesda gaiqcnen. saubedurod, skamebiT garSemortymuli radiomimRebi inglisisradiosadguris talRaze iyo momarTuli da yvelas SeeZlo efiqra, romoTaxidan es-esaa gavidnen, xolo Tu karebi Semomtvreulia da haersawinaaRmdegodacvis guSagebi SeamCneven, policias Seatyobineben da amas SeiZleba Zalzeusiamo Sedegi mohyves. miuxedavad avadmyofobisa, batoni van daani maincwamodga, tanze Caicva, qudi daixura da mamasTan erTad kibeze daeSva. petericmaT gaedevna da safrTxisagan Tavis dasacavad CaquCiT SeiaraRda. qalbatoni vandaani, deda, me da margo sulganabulni velodiT. xuTi wuTis Semdeg kacebidabrundnen da mogvaxsenes, rom saxifaTo araferia; SevTanxmdiT, onkani armogveSva da sapirfareSo ar Cagverecxa. magram SiSisagan yvelas muceliastkivda da SegiZlia warmoidgino, ra suni idga erT adgilas, mas Semdeg, racyvelam moisaqma.magram usiamovnebas Cveulebriv kidev ufro meti usiamovneba mosdevs. aseaaqac. jer erTi, vestertumis zarma rekva Sewyvita. me ki Zalian momwonda,TiTqos mamSvidebda am zaris rekva. meorec, Tumca vicodiT, rom batoni voseniguSin saRamos Zalian adre wavida, magram ar vicodiT, misi wasvlis SemdeggasaRebi elim waiRo Tu ara. iqneb daaviwyda karebis daketva. marTalia, rvasaaTidan TerTmetis naxevramde aRaraferi gagvigonia, magram mainc vRelavdiT.roca davmSviddiT, CavukvirdiT am ambavs da sakmaod daujereblad mogveCvena,rom qurdi karebis Semomtvrevas cdilobda ase adre, roca quCaSi amdenixalxia. viRacam gamoTqva varaudi, mezobeli saxlis sawyobSi SeiZleba jerkidev muSaobeno. xolo roca saxls aseTi Txeli kedlebi aqvs, SeiZleba vergaigo, saidan modis xma. ras ar warmoidgens adamiani, roca Zlier Relavs.bolos davweqiT, magram mSvidad aravis eZina. mama, deda da duseli waramarawamovardebodnen sawolidan. SeiZleba cotas vaWarbeb, magram arc me momixuWavsTvali.diliT Cveni mamakacebi qveviT Cavidnen. undodaT gaegoT, gareTa kari Riaxom ar iyo, magram yvelaferi rigze aRmoCnda. mTeli es ambavi, romelmacamdeni SiSi gvaWama, dawvrilebiT vuambeT kontoris personals. Tu fexi

dagicda, dacinvas ar dagakleben, magram roca safrTxe gaivlis, siciliadvilia. mxolod eli Sexvda gancdebs seriozulad.anaSabaTi, 27 marti, 1943Zvirfaso kiwi!stenografiis kursi davamTavre. axla Cven siCqareSi vvarjiSobT da malewuTSi marcvalTa sarekordo ricxvs mivaRwevT. minda ukeT icode, rogorvcdilob drois mokvlas (es gamoTqma specialurad movigone, radgan aqyvelafers mxolod imitom vakeTebT, rom rac SeiZleba metad SevavsoT dro,sanam TavSesafarSi yofna mogvixdeba): gatacebuli var miTologiiT. yvelazemetad ki mainteresebs Tqmulebebi berZnul da romaul RmerTebze. Cvenebifiqroben, rom es droebiTi gatacebaa, radgan arasodes smeniaT, gogonamiTologiiT yofiliyos gatacebuli. keTili! me viqnebi pirveli!batoni van daani gaciebulia, ufro sworad, xma aqvs CaxleCili da amisgamo aliaqoTi atexa. yelSi raRacas ivlebs, gvirilas nayens svams, morenistinqturas icxebs, cxviris, yelis, sasisa da enis malamoebs xmarobs da amavedros... saSinlad Wirveulobs.rauterma, holandiaSi erT-erTma maRali Tanamdebobis germanelmamoxelem, sityva warmoTqva: pirvel ivlisamde germaniis mTeli samflobelodanebraelebi unda aRigavono. pirveli aprilidan pirvel maisamde utrextisprovincia unda gaiwmindos (TiTqos saubari samzareulos wmendas exebodes).pirveli maisidan pirvel ivnisamde — Crdilo da dasavleT holandia. sneulida upatrono pirutyvis msgavsad, garekaven ubedurebs sasaklaoze. jobia,gavCumde. roca amaze vfiqrob, koSmarebi maxrCobs...am xnis ganmavlobaSi sasixarulo ambebic moxda. sabotaJis mizniTgermaniis Sromis birJas cecxli waukides. ramdenime dRis Semdeg kisamisamarTo biuro gadawves. germaneli policielebis formaSi gamowyobilmaadamianebma guSagebi Sekres da mTeli mniSvnelovani kartoTeka gaitaces. aserom, axla germanelebs gauWirdebaT vinmes moZebna da gamoZaxeba.anaxuTSabaTi, 1 aprili, 1943Zvirfaso kiwi!Tumca dRes pirveli aprilia, magram xumrobis xasiaTze ara varT! Cvenzeaxla zedgamoWrilia aseTi andaza: `win wyali da ukan mewyeri~. jer erTi, Cvensmfarvel koophoiss guSin Zlieri sisxlisdena hqonda kuWidan da sul cotasami kvira gaunZrevlad unda iwves; meorec, eli gripiT gaxda avad; mesame,batoni voseni momaval kviras saavadmyofoSi wveba. mgoni kuWis wyluliaRmoaCnda da operacia unda gaikeTos.firmam mniSvnelovani saqmiani molaparakeba unda awarmoos da mamam batonkoophoisTan erTad yvelaferi gaiTvaliswina. kraleris momzadeba dainformireba ase swrafad ar moxerxdeba. mamas acaxcaxebs, roca molaparakebismsvlelobaze fiqrobs.— neta SemeZlos daswreba, — ambobs igi, — qveviT Casvla rom SemeZlos.— daweqi iatakze da yvelafers moismen, TaTbiri xom kabinetSi eqnebaT,— mamas saxe gaunaTda. TerTmetis naxevarze margom da mamam iatakze msmenelTapozicia daikaves. erT wyvil yurs ori wyvili jobia. magram molaparakebasadilobamde ver daamTavres, nasadilevs ki mamam veRar SeZlo iatakze wola,uCveulo mdgomareobam rogorRac moTela. samis naxevarze, roca kvlav mogvesmaqvemodan laparaki, mamis adgili me davikave, male margoc SemomierTda. saubarigrZeli, mosawyeni meCvena da uecrad civ da magar linoleumze gawolilsCameZina. margom ver gabeda xeli ekra CemTvis an daeZaxa, radgan eSinoda, qveviTaraferi gaegonaT. naxevari saaTi mainc meZina da roca gamomeRviZa, swored isdamaviwyda, rac mTavari iyo. sabednierod, margo Cemze yuradRebiani aRmoCnda.ana

paraskevi, 2 aprili, 1943Zvirfaso kiwi!kvlav saSineli codva Cavidine. guSin saRamos, rogorc yovelTvis,velodi mamas, romelic saRamoobiT CemTan erTad loculobs da wasvlisasmeubneba: `Zili nebisa~. magram amjerad movida deda, damijda sawolze damoridebiT, gaubedavad mkiTxa: — ane, mama jer ver mova, ginda erTad vilocoT?— ara, deda, ar minda, — vupasuxe me.deda wamodga, mcire xans Cems sawolTan SeCerda, mere ki nela wavidakarisken. uecrad Semotrialda da saxeareulma miTxra:— ara, ar giwyrebi, ana, siyvaruli ZaliT ar iqneba! — roca oTaxidangadioda, saxeze cremli Camougorda.Tumca gaunZrevlad viweqi, magram imwamsve vigrZeni, ra didi simdableCavidine, roca ase uxeSad vkari xeli dedas. ra vqna, sxvanairad moqceva me arSemeZlo. ar SemiZlia pirferoba. ar SemeZlo, Cemi survilis winaaRmdegwavsuliyavi da dedasTan erTad meloca.mebraleba deda, didad mebraleba, radgan pirvelad vigrZeni, rom Cemidamokidebuleba misTvis sul erTi araa. roca miTxra, siyvaruli ZaliT ariqnebao, mis saxeze sevda da mwuxareba amovikiTxe. Znelia simarTlis Tqma damainc simarTles versad gaeqcevi: dedam TviTom mkra xeli. misi bralia, romCemSi aRarafers iwvevs misi siyvaruli, misi utaqto SeniSvnebi; ra rjida, rocauxeSad masxrobda imaze, ris masxrad agdebasac me ver vitan. o, rogorc memekumSeboda SigniT yvelaferi, roca sastikad meqceoda, aseve mas ekumSeba axlaguli, roca mixvda, rom Cvens Soris siyvaruli gaqra.dedas naxevari Rame tirilSi gautarebia da TiTqmis ar uZinia. mama zedacar miyurebs, xolo Tu Semomxedavs, mis TvalebSi sayvedurs vkiTxulob: `rogorSegiZlia aseTi boroti iyo da dedas amdeni tanjva miayeno~.Cemgan bodiSis moxdas elian, me ki ar SemiZlia, radgan simarTle vTqvida dedas adre Tu gvian mainc unda gaego es ambavi. me mgonia, axla ufrogulgrilad vitan dedis cremlebs da mamis sayvedurebiT savse mzeras. damarTlac es asea. maT mxolod axla igrZnes is, rac me gamudmebiT mawuxebs.SemiZlia TanavugrZno dedas, magram Cveni urTierTobis gamosworeba misi saqmea.me dumils varCev, kvlav gulgrili viqnebi da simarTles ar SevuSindebi. jobs,droze Tqva, rac saTqmelia.anasamSabaTi, 27 aprili, 1943Zvirfaso kiwi!yvela naCxubaria: me da deda, van daanebi da mama, deda da qalbatoni vandaani; yvela gabrazebulia erTmaneTze, sasiamovno atmosferoa, ara? anascodvebis grZel sias kvlav ixilaven dawvrilebiT!batoni voseni saavadmyofoSi dawva, batoni koophoisi ki ukve fexzea.sabednierod, kuWidan sisxlis dena amjerad ufro swrafad SeuCeres, vidre amaswinaT. koophoisma gviambo, rom policiis samisamarTo biuro axlaxan momxdarixanZris dros didad dazaralda. saxanZro razmma, nacvlad imisa, rom cecxliCaeqro, mTeli Senoba wyliT aavso, ramac cecxlze meti ziani miayena amdawesebulebas.karlton-oteli mTlad daingra, cecxlgamCeni yumbarebiT datvirTulmainglisis orma TviTmfrinavma swored am oficerTa klubze miitana ieriSi daveicelstraate-zinelis mTeli kuTxe erTianad gadabuga.RamRamobiT mosveneba aRar gvaqvs. uZilobisagan Tvalebi amomiRamda.sakvebi gauaresda: sauzmeze gamxmari puri da yavis surogati, sadilad, agerukve ori kviraa, xan salaTa gvaqvs da xan ispanaxi, damatebiT oci santimetrissigrZis mowiTalo da tkbili kartofili. visac gasuqebis eSinia, CvensTavSesafarSi unda gadmosaxldes. `zemourebi~ gauTaveblad wuwuneben, magramCven es ambavi tragediad ar migvaCnia.

yvela mamakacs, vinc xuTdRian omSi monawileobda, an mobilizebuli iyo,iZaxeben, rogorc `samxedro tyves~, da germaniaSi agzavnian, rom`fiurerisaTvis~ imuSaon. mokavSireTa jarebis gadmosxmis SemTxvevisaTvis axalgamafrTxilebel zomebs mimarTaven!anaSabaTi, 1 maisi, 1943Zvirfaso kiwi!roca Cvens aqaur cxovrebaze vfiqrob, mudam im daskvnamde mivdivar, romim ebraelebTan SedarebiT, romelTac damalva ver moaxerxes, Cven samoTxeSivcxovrobT. miuxedavad amisa, odesme, roca aqaur cxovrebas gavixseneb, albaT,gamikvirdeba, rogor daveSviT da CaviqnieT xeli bevr rameze. magaliTad, rac aqvarT, jer ar gamogvicvlia magidaze gadafarebuli muSamba da xSirixmarebisagan igi, cxadia, ukeTesi ar gamxdara. vcdilob sveli Cvris, Cvris kiara, ZonZis saSualebiT odnav mainc gavaprialo, magram bevrs verafers vaRwev.van daanebma mTeli zamTris ganmavlobaSi ver moaxerxes gasarecxad miecaTleibis pirebi, radgan sapnis fxvnili cotaa da arc varga. mama SemocveTiliSarvliT dadis, xolo halstuxi mTlad gaecrica. dedas korseti TiTqmisdaeSala, margo ki ori nomriT patara lifs atarebs. dedas da margos mTelizafxulis ganmavlobaSi sami perangi hqondaT, romelTac orive xmarobda, me kiise gavizarde, rom Cemi perangebi Wipamde mwvdeba. jer kidev ara gviSavs, magramsasowarkveTili vfiqrob im droze, roca yvelaferi gagvicvdeba, dawyebuli Cemifexsacmlis lanCebidan, mamis gasasapni funjiT gaTavebuli. rogorRadavubrundebiT Zvel mdgomareobas.dRes isev saSineli srola atyda, gansakuTrebiT RamiT. me mTeli Cemiavladideba SevaquCe da saWiro nivTebi dRisiT Cavalage `gasaqcev CemodanSi~,magram dedam swori SeniSvna momca: `sad apireb gaqcevaso?~mTel holandiaSi damsjeli razmebi daZrwian. yvelgan sabotaJia.SemoRebulia saalyo mdgomareoba. yvelas daakles karaqis TiTo ulufa. asegaugonar bavSvebs sjian!am saRamos dedas Tavi davbane. aq arc esaa ioli saqme. jer erTi, saponiwebovani da blantia, meorec, sqeli Tmis davarcxna dedas uWirs, radgan Cvenssaojaxo savarcxels aTi kbiliRa SerCa.anesamSabaTi, 18 maisi, 1943Zvirfaso kiwi!Cven Tvalyurs vadevnebdiT ingliselebisa da germanelebis sahaerobrZolas: samwuxarod, inglisis ori TviTmfrinavis ekipaJs paraSutiTgadmoxtoma mouxda. Cvens merZeves, romelic harlemidan Sua gzaze cxovrobs,oTxi kanadeli Sexvedria. erTi maTgani Turme Tavisuflad laparakobdaholandiurad da papirosis mosakideblad cecxli uTxovia. uTqvams, Cveni ekipaJieqvsi kacisagan Sedgeboda, sabralo piloti albaT daiwva, maTi meeqvse amxanagisadRac damalula. amasobaSi `mwvane~ policia movida da mfrinavebi daatyvevao.ra saocaria aseTi simSvide da mxneoba, isic amgvari naxtomis Semdeg.Tumca ukve Tbila, magram dRes mainc davanTeT Rumeli. davwviTnafcqvenebi da nagavi. veridebiT damlageblebs da sanagve yuTSi arafers arvyriT. yoveli umniSvnelo daudevroba SeiZleba sabediswero aRmoCndes.yvela studenti valdebulia xeli moaweros gancxadebas, romloialuradaa ganwyobili da saokupacio xelisulebis RonisZiebebs eTanxmeba.mxolod amis Semdeg eZlevaT ufleba swavla ganagrZon, magram 80%-ma ar isurvasakuTari sindisis winaaRmdeg wasvla da rwmeniT vaWroba. protests SedegicmaSinve mohyva. yvela students, vinc xeli ar moawera gancxadebas, germaniaSigzavnian iZulebiT samuSaoze. Tu ase gagrZelda, raRa darCeba holandieliaxalgazrdobisagan?

Rame dedam fanjrebi daxura, kvlav autaneli srola iyo. me pimis sawolsSevafare Tavi, uecrad gavigoneT, rogor gadmoxta sawolidan qalbatoni vandaani, TiTqos gvelma ukbinao, Semdeg Waxani mogvesma... me momeCvena, TiTqoscecxlgamCeni yumbara pirdapir sawolTan Camovarda da avyvirdi: `Suqi, Suqi!!!~pimma amomrTveli gadaatriala, megona sadacaa oTaxSi ali avardeba,magram amis msgavsi araferi momxdara. yvelani zeviT avcvivdiT, gvindodagvenaxa, ra moxda. Turme van daanebs Ria fanjridan cecxlis anareklidaunaxavT. qmars ufiqria, xanZari sadRac Cvens gverdiTaao, colma kigadawyvita, cecxli Cvens saxls ukidiao. roca Waxani gaisma, qalbatoni vandaani sawolidan wamovarda da mTeli taniT caxcaxebda. sanaxavi da gasagoniaRaraferi iyo da Cven isev sawolebs davubrundiT. TxuTmeti wuTis Semdeg isevagruxundnen qvemexebi. qalbatoni van daani im wamsve sawolidan wamovarda,kibeebze Tavqve daeSva da duselTan Sevarda. etyoba, masTan eZebda mfarvelobas,romelic sakuTarma qmarma ver aRmouCina.duseli aseTi sityvebiT Seegeba: `daweqi Cem sawolSi, Cemo patarav!~yvelas saSineli xarxari agvityda da amjerad SiSi gadagvaviwyda.anekvira, 13 ivnisi, 1943Zvirfaso kiwi!mamam dabadebis dRes iseTi SesaniSnavi leqsi momiZRvna, rom ar SemiZliaar gagiziaro. jer imas ajamebs, rac gasul wels ganvicade, Semdeg kiganagrZobs:Sen umcrosi xar ojaxSimagram aRar xar patara,SenTvis Znelia amdeniWkuis swavlebis atana;suyvela imis cdaSia,SegonebebiT gawamos,rogorme, ramenairaddagarigos da gaswavlos:`SeiTviseo — Cvengan!Cven mogvbaZeo marto!Cven ukeT viciT av-kargi,gamocdilebi varTo!~mZimea sxvisi Secdoma,sakuTars vervin xedavs,da fiqrob: saSvels mogcemdnen,dagexsnebodnen netav!sul cota, dReSi aTasiSeniSvna giwevs, Svilo,da yvela girCevs raRacasmaswavleblobas cdilobs,zogSi iqneba styuian,magram aRivse rwmeniT:sjobs cxovrebaSi iaromoTminebiTa SeniT;damjeri iyav, bevri ramSenc gijobs, yurad iRo,tkbilsasurveli mSvidobaTu gsurs ojaxSi iyos...ukanaskneli weli,ukanaskneli xaniSen Zalze wamoizardeda aiyare tani;

evri ikiTxe wigni,kargi swavliT, da garjiTar gaikare mowyena —gulmxiaruli darCi;Tumc, tansacmelze swuxarda SekiTxvebiT gvavseb:ra Cavicvao fexze?!ra Cavicvao tanze?!damimokldao kaba!perangi — Wipze mwvdeba!fexsacmels nuRar ikiTxav —usaSveloda cvdeba...saSinelia, mozards,oriod gojze gazrdils,tani da fexi pirdapiraRaraferSi Cagdis!~ 1 ( 1 leqsebi Targmna murman lebaniZem.)leqsi margomac dawera sxvadasxva saWmelze, magram riTmebi ZalzemoikoWlebs da amitom aq ar momyavs.saerTod, bevri SesaniSnavi saCuqari miviRe. maT Soris sqeltaniani wigni,elinuri da romauli miTologia, — Cemi gatacebis sagani. arc tkbileulobadamakles. yvelam Tavis xeluxlebel marags mimarTa. rogorc iatakqveSelTaojaxis yvelaze umcrosi naSieri, ufro metad gamanebivres, vidre vimsaxureb.anasamSabaTi, 15 ivnisi, 1943Zvirfaso kiwi!axali ambavi bevria, magram zogjer mgonia, rom Cemi mosawyeni titinisakmaod mogbezrda da amgvari werilebis miReba aRar gainteresebs. amitommokled gadmogcem yvelafers. baton vosens kuWis operacia ar gaukeTes. eqimebmagakveTes da kibo aRmoaCnda, romelic, samwuxarod, ise mosdeboda organizms,rom operacia verafers uSvelida. amitom Wriloba daxures da sami kvirismkurnalobis Semdeg gamoweres. Zalian mebraleba, gansakuTrebiT ki is mawuxebs,rom gareT gamosvla ar SemiZlia, Torem xSirad vinaxulebdi da iqneb cotaTigamerTo. samwuxaroa, rom Cveni keTili voseni veRar mogviyveba, ra xdeba daraze laparakoben sawyobSi. SesaniSnavad gviwyobda xels, misi zrunvagulisamaCuyebeli iyo. Zalian gvaklia TvalSi.momaval TveSi albaT radiomimRebis Cabareba mogviwevs, magram batonkoophoiss saxlSi `liliputi-mimRebi~ aqvs da, Cveni didi `filipisis~ nacvlad,am patara aparats mogvitans. samwuxaroa aseTi mSvenieri radiomimRebis Cabareba,magram TavSesafarSi, sadac ltolvilebi Sexiznulan, yovelgvari TavgamodebasaxifaToa da jobia, arafriT miviqcioT `xelisufalTa~ yuradReba. patararadiomimRebs zeviT amoitanen. damalul ebraelebs, romlebic yvelafers Savbazarze yiduloben, akrZaluli radiomimRebic eqnebaT. yvela cdilobs sadmeiSovos Zveli radiomimRebi da sakuTaris nacvlad Caabaros. radio axlaerTaderTi kavSiria gare samyarosTan. roca ganwyobileba `down~ 1 , ( 1 ecema(ingl.).) eTeridan mosuli saocari xma gvSvelis, simxneves gvmatebs,CagvCurCulebs: `aswieT Tavi, kvlavac dadgeba ukeTesi dro!~anakvira, 11 ivlisi, 1943Zvirfaso kiwi!es ukve meramdenejer vfiqrob aRzrdaze. unda giTxra, rac SemiZliavcdilob dauzareli, damTmobi, maamebeli da keTili viyo, ase rom am bolodros sayvedurebisa da darigebebis niaRvarma iklo. magram araCveulebrivadZnelia, kargad eqceode adamianebs, romelTac ver itan. amas ukeT maSin vaxerxeb,

oca vTvalTmaqcob da Zveleburad aRar vaxli yvelas pirSi simarTles (Tumcamas aravin arafrad agdebs).magram zogjer sakuTar Tavs ver verevi. yovelgvari usamarTlobamacofebs da Semdeg mTeli kvira gaiZaxian, ufro uzrdeli gogo qveyanaze armoiZebnebao. nuTu ar gecodebi? kidev kargi, rom sxvebiviT ar vwuwuneb, ToremdaZmarebul gunebaze viqnebodi da xalisiani ganwyobileba gamiqreboda.gadavwyvite, droebiT xeli aviRo stenografiaze. jer erTi, meti drodamrCeba sxva samuSaosaTvis, meorec, Tvalebi mtkiva. sakmaod arasasiamovnoambavia. am bolo dros Zalian axlomxedveli gavxdi da saTvale mWirdeba(albaT, bus davemsgavsebi), magram Sen xom ici, ris ufleba aqvs iatakqveSelebs,an ukeT, ris ufleba ara aqvT...yovel SemTxvevaSi, guSin saubris Tema mxolod Cemi saTvale iyo. dedamgadawyvita, qalbaton koophoisTan erTad Tvalis eqimTan gamgzavnos. roca esambavi Sevityve, Tavbru damesxa. xumroba xom araa: quCaSi unda gavide,warmogidgenia, quCaSi! pirvelad SiSisagan kinaRam movkvdi, mere ki gamexarda,magram am saqmis ganxorcieleba arc ise advilia. jer yvelaferi unda agvewondagvewona,yovelgvari safrTxe da siZnele gagveTvaliswinebina, magram isinstanciebi, romelTac amgvari sakiTxebis gadawyveta evalebaT, male rodiSeTanxmdnen. mips undoda, im wamsve waveyvane eqimTan, me kidec gamoviRekaradidan Cemi nacrisferi palto, magram ise dammoklebia, TiTqos umcros daseTxovebinos. cnobismoyvareobisagan aRar var, marTla wamiyvanen, Tu ara.SeiZleba es ganzraxva gadaidos.amas winaT ingliselebi siciliaSi gadmosxdnen da mama fiqrobs, rom omimale damTavrdeba. eli me da margos Tavis gasakeTebel samuSaos gvaZlevs. CvensiamovnebiT vuwevT am samsaxurs da elis saqmec ukeT midis. korespondenciebisCakereba da saSemosavlo wignis Sevseba yvelas SeuZlia, magram Cven amas ufrokeTilsindisierad vakeTebT.mipi lamis welSi gawydes. mudam sasapalne cxeniviTaa datvirTuli.TiTqmis yoveldRe Soulobs sadRac bostneuls, did CanTas gatenis davelosipediT moaqvs CvenTan. zrunavs imazec, rom biblioTekidan yovel SabaTsxuTi axali wigni gamoitanos. amitom yoveli SabaTis dadgomas im patarabavSvebiviT veliT, romelTac ician, rom saCuqars miiReben. adamianebi,romlebic normalurad cxovroben, verc ki warmoidgenen, ras niSnavs wigniCvenTvis, gamomwyvdeulebisaTvis. kiTxva, mecadineoba da radio — ai, mTeliCveni samyaro!anasamSabaTi, 13 ivlisi, 1943Zvirfaso kiwi!guSin nasadilevs, imis Semdeg, rac mamas nebarTva vTxove, dusels vkiTxe:xom araferi eqneba sawinaaRmdego (zedmiwevniT zrdilobiani viyavi), kviraSiorjer oTxidan eqvsis naxevramde Cvens oTaxSi dadgmuli magida gamoviyeno.axla me mxolod samis naxevridan oTxamde vmuSaob am magidasTan, anu manamde,sanam baton dusels sZinavs, Semdeg ki magida da oTaxi CemTvis akrZalulizonaa. nasadilevs saerTo oTaxSi iseTi xmauria, rom muSaoba SeuZlebelia,garda amisa, zogjer mamasac sWirdeba Tavisi saweri magida. ase rom, moTxovnasruliad safuZvliani iyo da SekiTxvas mxolod formaluri xasiaTi hqonda.rogor fiqrob, ra mipasuxa didad ganswavlulma batonma duselma? `ara~ da`ara~! aRvSfoTdi, ase advilad ver mogeSvebi, gavifiqre me da vkiTxe, ramizeziT meubneba uars. duselma civi wyali gadamasxa:— rogor ggonia, me ara maqvs samuSao? da Tu nasadilevs oTxis Semdegmagida ar damiTmes, rodisRa unda vimuSao. me Cemi gegma maqvs da saqmes imitomki ar movkide xeli, rom ase ucbad mivagdo. Sen xom seriozuls arafers akeTeb!ras warmoadgens Seni miTologia! muSaoba arc qsova da kiTxvaa. ara, magidasver dagiTmob! amaze laparakic zedmetia. — me vupasuxe: Cemi samuSao me

seriozul saqmed mimaCnia. nasadilevs saerTo oTaxSi muSaoba miZneldeba,amitom gTxovT, kidev erTxel dafiqrdeT-meTqi.am sityvebis warmoTqmis Semdeg, Seuracxyofili ana Semobrunda da iseTigamometyveleba miiRo, TiTqos mis winaSe eqimi ki ara, araraoba yofiliyos.brazmoreuls SigniT yvelaferi miduRda, duseli Zalze uzrdel adamianadmimaCnda (da iyo kidec), Cemi Tavi ki zrdilobianad. saRamos, rogorc ki pimixelSi movigde, vuambe, ra Sedegi mohyva Cems Txovnas da movilaparakeT, rogormovqceuliyavi. cxadia, me daTmoba ar mindoda da gadavwyvite, Tavadmomegvarebina es saqme. mamam daaxloebiT maswavla, saidan momevloduselisaTvis da mirCia, erTi dRe Semecada, radgan Zalze gacecxlebuli var.magram rCeva yurad ar viRe da rogorc ki WurWeli davrecxe, maSinvedavudarajdi dusels. mama mezobel oTaxSi ijda da misi siaxlove gambedaobasmmatebda.— batono dusel, — vTqvi me, Cemi SekiTxva, albaT, Tqvens yuradRebas arimsaxurebs, magram me kidev erTxel gTxovT!— incidenti amowurulia, magram mzad var am Temaze gesaubro, —mipasuxa man uaRresad Tavaziani RimiliT.Tumca igi waramara mawyvetinebda, me kidev erTxel gavumeore Cemimosazrebebi: — batono eqimo, roca Tqven aq gadmobrZandiT, Cven zustadSevTanxmdiT, vin ra dros isargeblebda oTaxiT, radgan oTaxi orivesgvekuTvnis. maSin davTqviT, rom sadilobamde imuSavebT Tqven, nasadilevs ki me,magram mTel dros arc axla vTxoulob. dameTanxmeT, kviraSi ori saRamo bevriaraa da amis sruli ufleba maqvs.duseli gvelnakbeniviT wamovarda.— uflebebze Sen saerTod ar unda laparakobde. sad mibrZaneb wasvlas?sxva gza ar damrCenia, unda vTxovo baton van daans, iqneb rame saZaRlismagvari amiSenos sxvenze. yovel SemTxvevaSi, adgili mainc meqneba CemTvis. aqmSvidad muSaobis saSualebas ar maZleven, vxedav, Sen manamde ar moisveneb, sanamgulze ar gaxeTqav kacs. Sen das margos rom eTxova, romelsac amisTvis metisafuZveli aqvs, maSinve davuTmobdi, magram Sen... isev miTologias, qsovasa dakiTxvas gadaswvda, ane Rrmad Seuracxyofili iyo, magram ar SeimCnia es dakvlav duselis sayvedurebs ismenda: — ra unda gelaparako. saSineli egoistixar. Sen oRond Seni gaitano da sul ar genaRvleba, sxvebs ra mouva. CemssicocxleSi ar minaxavs aseTi bavSvi! magram bolos da bolos unda dagiTmo,Torem ityvian, ane franki imitom CaiWra gamocdaze, rom batoni duseli magidasar uTmobda da mecadineobis saSualebas ar aZlevdao.laparakobda ganuwyvetliv, gauTaveblad, rogorc CanCqeri. aRar SemeZlomosmena. jer aseTma azrma gamielva: `kargi iqneba, ise Semovkra, rom es beberimatyuara kedels gaekras~, Semdeg ki gavifiqre: `jobia davmSvidde, es tipiamdeni nervebis moSlad ara Rirs~.bolos, rogorc iqna, laparakiT guli ijera da, roca oTaxidan gavida,misi saxe erTdroulad risxvas da triumfs gamoxatavda. rogorc yovelTvis,jibeebi gamotenili hqonda produqtebiT, romelic mips Cumad mohqonda misTvis.me mamasTan gavedi. mindoda yvelaferi meambna, magram, albaT, TviTon gaigona,rac iTqva.pimma gadawyvita, im saRamosve molaparakeboda dusels da asedac moiqca.saubari naxevar saaTs gagrZelda. mamam dusels moagona, rom erTxel maT ukvehqondaT laparaki am sakiTxze da maSin mxolod imitom dauTmo, rom ufrosiumcrosTan ar gaemtyunebina, Tumca marTali arc maSin iyo. uecrad duselmabrZana, TiTqos me meTqvas, rom daukiTxavad SemoiWra CvenTan da cdilobsyvelafers daepatronos. mamam gadaWriT uarhyo misi braldeba, radgan TviTongaigona yvelaferi da icoda, rom amaze krintic ar damiZravs. ai, ase daobdnen,mama micavda, amtkicebda, rom egoisti ara var da Cemi samuSao sisulele araa,duseli ki ukmayofilod buzRunebda da ilanZReboda. bolos daTmo. gadawyda,rom kviraSi orjer xuT saaTamde magida Cems gankargulebaSi iqneba. amgvaradduseli damarcxda. ori dRe zed ar miyurebda da sakuTari uflebebis

gansamtkiceblad suleli biWiviT iqceoda: zedmeti naxevari saaTi gangeb ijdamagidasTan.Tu 54 wlis kaci aseTi pedanti da wvrilmania, etyoba, bunebas aseTigauCenia da aRarc Seicvleba.anaparaskevi, 16 ivlisi, 1943Zvirfaso kiwi!kviras isev gvestumrnen qurdebi, magram amjerad namdvili! rogorcyovelTvis, diliT peteri sawyobSi Cavida da SeniSna, rom sawyobisa da quCiskarebi Riaa. im wamsve pimTan moirbina. pimi jer kabinetSi Sevida, germaniisradiosadgurze momarTuli mimRebi gamorTo. kari Caketa, mere ki oriveni zeviTamovidnen. aseT SemTxvevebSi Sinaganawesi gvikarnaxebs: ar mouSva wyali, daicavisruli siCume, rva saaTamde yvelaferi moaTave da sapirfareSoSi aRar Sexvide.yvelas gvixaroda, rom Rame magrad gveZina da araferi gagvigonia. batonikoophoisi mxolod Tormetis naxevarze movida da gviambo, rom qurdebs jerquCis kari SemoumtvreviaT, mere ki sawyobis. sawyobSi bevri veraferi aRmoaCinesda gadawyvites bedi Semdeg sarTulze ecadaT. waiRes patara seifi, romelSic40 guldeni da Seuvsebeli Cekis wignakebi iyo. magram yvelaze samwuxaro isaa,rom Tan gahyvaT mTeli Cveni Saqris baraTebi, daaxloebiT 150 kg-is. batonikoophoisi amtkicebs, rom es igive qurdebi iyvnen, romlebmac am 6 kviris winaTkaris Semomtvreva scades, magram ver moaxerxes. am axalma ambavma mTeli CveniTavSesafari kidev erTxel SeaSfoTa. etyoba, sensaciebis gareSe ar gvecxovreba.kidev kargi, rom sabeWdi manqanebi da salaro yovel saRamos zeviT amoaqvT dasaimedod malaven Cvens karadaSi.anaorSabaTi, 19 ivlisi, 1943Zvirfaso kiwi!kviras amsterdam-nordi Zlier dabombes. iqauroba, albaT, saSinladdangreulia. mTeli quCebi RorRis grovebad iqca. didi dro dasWirdeba imaTamoTxras, vinc nangrevebis qveS mohyva. ukve registrirebulia 200 mokluli dauamravi daWrili. saavadmyofoebi gaWedilia. bavSvebi quCebSi daZrwian damSoblebs nangrevebis qveS eZeben. me axlac sisxli meyineba, roca maxsendebayru guguni da gruxuni, romelic ganadgurebis moaxloebas moaswavebda.anaparaskevi, 23 ivlisi, 1943Zvirfaso kiwi!elim kvlav ipova iseTi maRazia, sadac rveulebs da, rac mTavaria,kontorisaTvis saWiro wignebs yidian. es wignebi margos sWirdeba, radgan ambolo dros buxhalterias swavlobs. im maRaziaSi sxva rveulebic iyideba dasasaqonlo baraTs ar Txouloben. magram xarisxze nurafers mkiTxav: qaRaldinacrisferia, xazebi damreci, sul raRac Tormeti gverdia da amave drosusaSvelod Zviria.axla ki minda cota gagarTo da giambo, Tu ris gakeTebas apirebsTiToeuli Cvengani, upirveles yovlisa, roca aqaurobas gaecleba.margo da batoni van daani Tbili wyliT piramde savse abazanaSi Cawvebianda naxevar saaTs mainc inebivreben. qalbatoni van daani maSinve romelimesakonditros miaSurebs da tortiT gamoZReba. dusels mxolod erTi surviliaqvs: naxos coli, Tavisi loTheni. dedas erTi finjani yava enatreba. mamapirvel rigSi baton vosens inaxulebs. peteri qalaqSi gavardeba da kinosnaxavs. me ki?? — bednierebisagan arc ki mecodineba, ra gavakeTo, riT daviwyo.Cemi yvelaze didi survili isaa, rom kvlav Cvens saxlSi aRmovCnde, sadacyvelafris gakeTeba SeiZleba. minda agreTve Tavisuflad viaro yvelgan, sadac

momesurveba, minda damexmaron, xelmZRvaneloba gamiwion swavlaSi, mindawesierad davdiode skolaSi.elis Sav bazarze xilis Sovna SeuZlia, magram fass nu ikiTxav. yurZeni 5guldeni Rirs, xurtkmeli — 70 centi, erTi atami — 50 centi, 1 kg nesvi —gulden naxevari. gazeTSi ki yoveldRe msxvili asoebiT weren: fasebis zrdagadamyidvelebis braliao.anaorSabaTi, 26 ivlisi, 1943Zvirfaso kiwi!guSindeli dRe iseTi mZime iyo, rom mosveneba davkargeT da jerac verdavmSvidebulvarT. Tumca SegiZlia mkiTxo: Tu erT dRes mainc Cauvlia CvenTanmSvidad. roca sahaero Tavdasxmis mauwyebeli sayvirebi awivldnen, CvenvsauzmobdiT. jerjerobiT uSualo safrTxe ar gvemuqreboda, radgangamafrTxilebeli sayvirebi mxolod imas gvauwyebdnen, rom mtris TvimfrinavebizRvis sanapiros uaxlovdebian. sauzmis Semdeg mivweqi. saSineli Tavis tkivilimqonda. mogvianebiT Zirs Cavedi. daaxloebiT dRis ori saaTi iqneboda. samisnaxevarze margom kontoris saqmeebi moaTava. jer wignebic ar hqondaalagebuli, roca isev atyda gangaSi, amjerad ukve namdvili. Cven kvlav zeviTavediT da swored drozec. xuTi wuTis Semdeg iseTi saSineli gruxunimogvesma, rom derefnis kuTxeSi Cvens bombsafars mivaSureT. mTeli saxliqanaobda, cxadad gvesmoda, rogor feTqdeboda yumbarebi. me Cemi `gasaqceviCanTa~ iRliis qveS amoviCare gaqcevis mizniT ki ara, mindoda rames CavWidebodi.sul erTia, aqedan fexs ver movicvliT da Tu ukidures SemTxvevaSi maincmogviwevs gaqceva, quCa CvenTvis bombardirebaze nakleb saxifaTo araa.naxevari saaTis Semdeg sahaero Tavdasxma Sewyda da Cvenebigamococxldnen. peteri sxvenidan, Tavisi sameTvalyureo punqtidan Camovida.batoni duseli did kontoraSi yofila, qalbaton van daans yvelaze uSiSaradgilad kabineti miuCnevia. batoni van daani ki samercxulidan uTvalTvalebdasahaero Tavdasxmas. bolos yvelam zeviT moviyareT Tavi da navsadguris Tavzecxadad davinaxeT kvamlis sqeli bolqvebi. male Cvenamde namwvis sunmacmoaRwia. ase gvegona, TiTqos qalaqs sqeli nisli daawva.saSinelebaa aseTi didi xanZari. Cven kmayofilni viyaviT, rom CvenTvisyvelaferi keTilad damTavrda da TiToeuli Tavis saqmes Seudga. vaxSmobisaskvlav gaisma sahaero gangaSi! kerZi gemrieli gvqonda, magram sayvirebis wivilSimada damekarga. Tumca amjeradac araferi momxdara da TxuTmeti wuTis SemdeggangaSi Sewyda. atyda saSineli srola, Cveni saxlis Tavze uamraviTviTmfrinavi Segrovda. TiToeuli fiqrobda: `RmerTo, es ukve metismetia~,magram fiqri ras gviSvelida. wamovida yumbarebis wvima, axla ukve sxva mxares(Sipholis 1 ( 1 amsterdamis aeroporti.) Tavze), rogorc inglisis radiomgviwinaswarmetyvela. mfrinavebi dabla eSvebodnen, maRla adiodnen, isrodnen,haeri gugunebda. sul imis SiSi mqonda, rom TviTmfrinavs Camoagdebdnen.unda gamogityde, rom saRamos 9 saaTze, roca dasaZineblad vemzadebodi,fexze Zlivs videqi. Rame gamomeRviZa. zustad 12 saaTi iyo. isev TviTmfrinavebi.duseli tanze ixdida, magram amas CemTvis mniSvneloba ar hqonda. rogorc kisrola gaisma, sruliad gamofxizlebuli sawolidan wamovvardi. ori saaTisganmavlobaSi Tvimfrinavebi mouSoreblad dagvtrialebdnen Tavze da memamasTan davrCi. bolos srola Sewyda da isev Cems oTaxSi gadavbargdi. samisnaxevarze CameZina.Svid saaTze gulgaxeTqili wamovvardi. van daani mamasTan iyo. yvelaferigavigone me. `qurdebi~, gamielva TavSi da megona, qurdebma yvelaferi waiRes.magram ara! SesaniSnavi cnoba gadmouciaT, iseTi, rogoric didi xania, SeiZlebamTeli omis manZilze ar mogvismenia. musolini gadadga, mmarTveloba italiismefem aiRo xelSi.gvixaroda guSindeli saSinelebis Semdeg aseTi kargi ambavi da... imedi,ganTavisuflebis imedi! mosalodneli mSvidobis imedi!

es wuTia, kraleri movida da gviTxra, fokeris 1 ( 1 TviTmfrinavebismSenebeli germanuli firma.) qarxana TiTqmis sul daingrao. Rame kvlav gangaSiatyda, uamravi TviTmfrinavi mofrinda. Semdeg isev sayvirebis gamafrTxilebeliwivili. damaxrCo amdenma gangaSma. gamoZinebas ver vaswreb da wesieradmecadineoba aRar SemiZlia. Zils mRelvarebac da imedic gvifrTxobs, iqnebmale, iqneb wels damTavrdes yvelaferi.anaxuTSabaTi. 29 ivlisi, 1943Zvirfaso kiwi!qalbatoni van daani, duseli da me WurWels vrecxavdiT. me Cumad viyavi,rac iSviaTi movlenaa da maTac eniSnaT. cnobismoyvareTa mzera da zedmetikiTxvebi rom Tavidan amecilebina, saubrisaTvis Tavisufali Tema avirCie daSevexe wigns `henri zRvis napiridan~. magram angariSSi movtyuvdi. Tu qalbatonivan daani ar Semomedaveba, duseli aucileblad gamoidebs Tavs. saqme ase iyo:duselma sagangebod gvirCia aRniSnuli wigni. me da margom SesaniSnavi veraferivipoveT masSi. marTalia, Wabuki mSvenivradaa aRwerili, magram danarCeni...jobia, gavCumde. me mxolod Cemi azri gamovTqvi da imwasve maxeSi gavebi. `Sen ragesmis mamakacis sulieri cxovrebis? bavSvze rom iyos laparaki, maSingasagebia! jer kidev patara xar aseTi wignebis sakiTxavad. amis gageba zogierTsoci wlis asakSic ki uWirs~. (Tu asea, ratomRa gvirCia ase saguldagulod misiwakiTxva me da margos?). uecrad orivem aiwyvita!`Sen Zalze bevri ram ici, risi codnac SenTvis jer adrea. cudadgzrdian. gaizrdebi da veraferSi ver hpoveb sixaruls da siamovnebas. maSin kiityvi: ah, aseTi rame me ukve 25 wlis winaT wavikiTxe wignSi. Tu gaTxovebasapireb, an guliT ginda Seiyvaro vinme — iCqare! mere aRaravin mogewoneba.Teoriulad yvelaferi ici, magram praqtikulad yovelive es sul sxvagvaradgamoiyureba~.maT iqneb hgoniaT, rom kargi aRzrda Svilis mSoblebis winaaRmdegamxedrebaa, rasac didi siamovnebiT akeTeben kidec. aseTive brwyinvale meTodiaisic, rom Cemi xnis gogonebs `mozrdilTa~ Temaze ar esaubro, magram aseTiaRzrda xSirad saSinel Sedegebs iwvevs!amgvari sasacilo manWva-grexisaTvis orives didi siamovnebiT gavawnidisilas. ise gavmwardi, rom Tavi aRar maxsovda. netav, rac SeiZleba malegavecalo maT. qalbatoni van daani namdvili... ai, visgan unda aiRo magaliTi!diax, magaliTi imisa, rogoric araviTar SemTxvevaSi ar unda iyo!mas yvela icnobs, icnobs rogorc utifars, egoists. vireSmakas, Zunwsa dayvelafriT ukmayofilos. am qalbatonze SemiZlia tomebi davwero da, vin icis,iqneb davwero kidec. misi garegnuli bzinva male xundeba, misi Tavazianoba daalersi, rasac gansakuTrebiT mamakacebis mimarT iCens, yalbia. dedas imdenadsulelad miaCnia, rom misTvis sityvebs ar imetebs, margo araraobad Tvlis, pimiki ambobs, maxinjiao (rogorc pirdapiri, aseve gadataniTi mniSvnelobiT). memikerZoeba ar mCvevia, magram xangrZlivi dakvirvebebis Semdeg im daskvnamdemivedi, rom yvela Tvalsazrisi sworia da igi aTasjer uaresia. imdeni cudimxare aqvs, rom ar ici, riT daiwyo?anaP. S. Zvirfas mkiTxvels vTxov gaiTvaliswinos is, rom es werili cxelgulze davwere.samSabaTi, 3 agvisto, 1943Zvirfaso kiwi!politikuri ambebi kargad midis. italiaSi faSistebis partia akrZales.sxvadasxva raionSi faSistebis winaaRmdeg xalxi aRdga, am brZolaSijariskacebic ki monawileoben. rogorRa SeuZlia am xalxs, ingliselebs eomos?aqauroba ukve mesamed Zlierad dabombes. kriWaSekruli vamxnevebdisakuTar Tavs. qalbatoni van daani, romelic aqamde gaiZaxoda: `dausrulebel

lodins yvelaze saSineli dasasruli jobso~, Cvens Soris yvelaze laCaria. amdiliT verxvis foToliviT TrToda, Semdeg ki cremlebi waskda. col-qmarimTeli kviris ganmavlobaSi ZaRli da katasaviT Wamdnen erTmaneTs da axlaxanSerigdnen. qmari alersianad amSvidebda cols. am didebuli scenis SemyuresSeiZleboda guli aCuyeboda.kataze gamaxsenda. muSim daamtkica, rom katas marto sargebloba armoaqvs! yvelas rwyilebi dagvesia da Cveni wameba TandaTan Zlierdeba. batonmakoophoisma yvelafers daayara yviTeli fxvnili, magram etyoba, rwyilebsarafers vnebs. yvelas dagvawyda nervebi. yvelgan rwyili melandeba, yvelaferimefxaneba, xan xeli, xan fexi. xan sxeulis sxva nawili. yvela igrixeba,sasacilo pozas Rebulobs, cdilobs patara mwamebeli daiWiros. amave drossxeulis umniSvnelo moZraobac ki mtkivneulia, Cven gavxevdiT, radganac Zaliancotas vvarjiSobT da amave dros Tavs ar vuvliT.anaoTxSabaTi, 4 agvisto, 1943Zvirfaso kiwi!mas Semdeg, rac am TavSesafarSi varT gamoketilebi, erT welze metigavida. Sen ukve sakmaod bevri ram ici Cvens cxovrebaze. zogi ram Zneligadmosacemia. aq yvelaferi Zalze rTuli da sul sxvagvaria, vidre gareT,magram sruli warmodgena rom Segeqmnas, drodadro rames mogiyvebi Cvenicxovrebidan. daviwyeb imiT, Tu rogor vatarebT saRamos da Rames.saRamos cxra saaTze iwyeba gacxovelebuli Zilis wina samzadisi:skamebis midgma-modgma, sabnebisa da baliSebis gadmolageba, loginebis gaSla.im adgilas, sadac dRisiT yvelaferi es awyvia, aRaraferi rCeba. me mZinavspatara Sezlongze, romlis sigrZe daaxloebiT metrnaxevaria, da romlisdasagrZeleblad skamebia saWiro. dRisiT Cemi pliumo, sabani, baliSi da zewariduselis sawolze alagia.gverdiTi oTaxidan ismis damaxasiaTebeli Wriali da WraWuni: margoTavis dasakec sawols Slis da saidanRac sabnebi da baliSebi amoaqvs.Tu ar ici, rom qalbatoni van daanis sawols fanjrisken miaTreven,SeiZleba ifiqro, zeviT quxso. vardisfer Ramis perangSi gamowyobilma `mismaudidebulesobam~ fanjarasTan unda daiZinos da axlo manZilidan isunTqossufTa ozoni Tavisi lamazi, patara cxviriT! saaTis cxraze, roca peteridabanas morCeba, `saabazanoSi~ mivdivar da saguldagulod viban. xSirad Cemibanaoba romelime rwyils sicocxlis fasad ujdeba. Semdeg vixexav kbilebs,vixvev kululebs, viwmend frCxilebs da vewevi sxva wvrilman saqmianobas, racsaidumloebaa... yvelaferi es naxevar saaTSi unda movaswro.aTis naxevari: sabanao xalaTs vicvam. cal xelSi saponi miWiravs, meoreSiTmis samagrebi, bigudebi, bamba, iRliaSi sacvlebi maqvs amoCrili da gavrbivar.magram xSirad ukan mabruneben, radgan pirsabani Cemi mSvenieri Savi TmiTdamimSvenebia, rac Cems momdevnos maincdamainc ar moswons.aTi saaTi: vuSvebT SuqsaniRbav fardebs. Zili nebisa! TxuTmeti wuTisSemdeg ismis sawolis Wriali da damtvreuli, moSlili zambarebis kvnesa.bolos, Tu zeviTa wyvili ar daobs, siCume mkvidrdeba.Tormetis naxevari: iReba `saabazanos~ kari da iatakze sinaTlis viwrozoli wveba. ismis fexsacmlis flatuni. gamocxaddeba uzomod grZel xalaTSigaxveuli duseli, romelic aqamde kraleris kontoraSi muSaobda. aTiode wuTioTaxSi daflatunobs, qaRaldebs aSrialebs, sakvebs inaxavs, saqmianad Slislogins, mere mcire xniT isev ikargeba, sapirfareSodan ki drodadro saeWvoxmebi ismis.sami saaTi: patara saqmis gamo, Cveulebriv, adgoma mixdeba. Tunuqiskolofs, romelsac am mizniT viyeneb, qveS dafenili aqvs fexsafenis naWeri imSemTxvevisaTvis, Tu Jonvas daiwyebs. vcdilob, sunTqva Sevikavo, Tunuqiskolofi ki ise xmaurobs, TiTqos kenWebze wyaro mirakrakebs. amis Semdeg TeTr

perangSi gaxveuli arseba (margos mudmivi dacinvis sagani — `ras gavxar amRamis perangSi!~) kvlav sawolSi miZvreba.TxuTmetiode wuTi isev Ramis xmaurs vusmen, jer erTi, qurdebi xom arSemoparulan, meorec, ras akeTeben Cemi yovelmxriv ganlagebuli mezoblebi.aqedan advilad SegiZlia daaskvna, Tu ra temperamentis adamiania TiToeulimaTgani. zogs magra sZinavs, zogi Zilfxizlobs; Zalze usiamoa, roca batoniduseli Zilfxizlobs. jer ismis SesunTqva, TiTqos Tevzi gaWirvebiT ylapavshaers da ase aTjer mainc, mere enis wklapuniT tuCebs isvelebs, brunavs,borgavs, baliSs awvalebs da ase grZeldeba manamde, sanam myudrod armoikalaTebs. mTeli es procedura mcire SesvenebiT samjer mainc meordeba.bolos batoni eqimi Zils miecema.RamiT, pirvelsa da oTx saaTs Soris, xSirad ismis sazenito qvemexebissrola. jer ver gamigia, ra moxda da mainc naxevrad gamofxizlebuli ukvevdgavar Cemi sawolis gverdiT. zogjer mesizmreba uweso zmnebi da Cems zeviTmcxovrebi col-qmris Cxubi. aseT SemTxvevaSi mogvianebiT vxvdebi, rom kargadmeZina da srolis xma gamomepara, magram ufro xSirad sawolidan wamovvardebi,baliSs da cxvirsaxocs xalaTSi vaxvev da fostlebSi fexgayrili mfarvelobissaZieblad mamasTan gavrbivar. es margom Cemi dabadebis dRis aRsaniSnavaddaweril leqsSi ase gamoxata:rogorc ki RamiT gangaSi tydebada qvemexebis grgvinva mogoravs,gulgaxeTqili wamovardebada mamis sawols eZebs gogona.Tu saSineli srola araa, sanam mamasTan var, pirvel SiSs vZlev.Svids rom TxuTmeti aklia: wkrrr, zeviT maRviZara saaTma daiwkriala.qalbatonma van daanma saaTi gaaCera. qmari dgeba. gvesmis misi xma, igi wyalsuSvebs da pirveli Sedis `saabazano~ oTaxSi. naxevari saaTis Semdeg mas duselicvlis. rogorc iqna, marto davrCi. vdgebi, fardebs vxsni da TavSesafarSiaxali dRe iwyeba.anexuTSabaTi, 5 agvisto, 1943Zvirfaso kiwi!dRes unda giambo, ra xdeba CvenTan, roca kontoris mosamsaxureebiSesvenebis dros sasadilod amodian.pirvelis naxevari: Cvenma virTxebis sorom Tavisuflad amoisunTqa.damlageblebi wavidnen. zevidan mtversasrutis xmauri ismis. qalbatoni vandaani gulmodgined wmends Zvirfas `nivTs~ — xaliCas. iRliaSi wignebamoCrilimargo odnav gonebaClung mowafesTan, duselTan modis, romelic ZneladiTvisebs holandiurs. pims Zalian uyvars dikensi da myudro kuTxes eZebs, raTakiTxviT datkbes. deda zeviT mieSureba, rom niadag mofusfuse diasaxlissmoexmaros. me ki `saabazano~ oTaxSi Sevdivar, saWiroa, iqauroba mivalago daTavi odnav wesrigSi moviyvano.pirvels TxuTmeti aklia: rigrigobiT Semodian stumrebi: van santeni,batoni koophoisi an kraleri, eli da xSirad mipic.pirveli saaTi: sulganabuli vusmenT bi-bi-sis gadacemas. esaa erTaderTidro, roca Cveni TavSesafris binadarni ar daoben, radgan iseTi vinmelaparakobs, visac batoni van daanic ki ver Seubrunebs sityvas.oris TxuTmeti wuTi: meored sauzmis droa. TiToeuli Rebulobs erTfinjan wvnians da, Tu gvaqvs, raime Sesatanebelsac. henk van santeni kmayofilizis savarZelSi, xelSi gazeTi uWiravs, gverdiT kata uzis, win ki wvniani kerZiudgas. yovelive es simyudrovis aucilebeli atributebia. batoni koophoisigviambobs, ra xdeba qalaqSi. informaciis SesaniSnavi wyaroa. kibeze bakabukiTamorbis kraleri, karebze ramdenjerme akakunebs, Semdeg Semodis da xelebs

ifSvnets. xan karg xasiaTzea, mxiaruli gamometyveleba aqvs, xanacdamwuxrebuli saxe aqvs da dums, gaaCnia, ra gunebaganwyobilebazea.ors TxuTmeti aklia: stumrebi gvemSvidobebian: yvela Tavis saqmesubrundeba. deda da margo WurWels recxaven. batoni da qalbatoni van daanebidasaZineblad midian, peteri Tavis oTaxSi imaleba, mama wveba, unda cotaTiTvali moatyuos, duselic amas apirebs, me ki vwer da vkiTxulob. saukeTesodroa, yvelas sZinavs. xels aravin miSlis.dusels saxeze vamCnev, rom gemrieli saWmeli esizmreba, magram didxanssacqerad ar mcalia. dro Cqara gadis da rogorc ki xuTs erTi wuTigadascdeba, es pedanti kaci Tavze damadgeba da ukmayofilo gamometyvelebiTmomTxovs, magida gavuTavisuflo.anaSabaTi, 7 agvisto, 1943Zvirfaso kiwi!Cveni cxovrebis aRwera droebiT unda Sevwyvito. am ramdenime kviriswinaT moTxrobis wera daviwye, raRacas vTxzav da es imden sixaruls maniWebs,rom `Cemi kalmis naSierni~ sakmaod momravldnen. radgan dagpirdi, rom Cemigancdebis Sesaxeb yvelafers gulwrfelad da patiosnad giambob. minda vicode:rogor ggonia, moewonebaT Cemi moTxrobebi bavSvebs?fisofiso Cveni mezoblis gogonas hqvia. karg amindSi fanjridan vxedav,rogor TamaSobs baRSi. kviraobiT fisos Rvinisferi xaverdis kaba acvia, sxvadReebSi ki — Salis lurji kaba. fisos aqvs qera, magrad dawnuli, ganzegaSverili nawnavebi da lurji Suqmfeni Tvalebi. deda SesaniSnavi hyavs, mama kiara hyavs. fisos deda mrecxavia, dRisiT xSirad exmareba ojaxis diasaxlisebs,romelTac mTeli saxli aqvT dasalagebeli, saRamos sxvis sarecxs recxavs damere ki daRamebamde TeTreuls fens, sabnebs ferTxavs da tansacmels wmends.fisos hyavs eqvsi da-Zma. yvelaze patara mtiralaa da, roca dedabavSvebs dasaZineblad eZaxis, dis kalTas efareba. hyavs agreTve zangiviT Savikata, romelsac kargad uvlis da yovel saRamos eZaxis: `fiso, fisunia, fiso,fiso, fi…so!~ amitomac daarqves fiso. sinamdvileSi, albaT, sxva saxeli hqvia,magram Serqmeuli saxeli yvelaze metad uxdeba, garda amisa, hyavs ori baWia,erTi TeTri, meore yavisferi. skup, skup, sasacilod daxtian baWiebi ezoSi,zogjer ki saxlis zRurblamdec midian. xandaxan fiso sxva bavSvebiviT cudadiqceva, magram es mxolod maSin xdeba, roca ZmebTan Cxubi mouva. o, ra saSineligabrazeba icis am dros, icemeba, wixlebs isvris, ikbineba kidec! magram Cxubididxans ar grZeldeba. Zmebi Ronier das eridebian. `fiso, gaiqeci maRaziaSi!~,dauZaxebs zogjer deda, magram fiso yurebs TiTebiT icobs, Semdeg ki dedaseubneba, araferi gamigoniao da arc tyuis. fisos Wiris dResaviT ejavrebaraimes sayidlad wasvla. magram arc tyuilis Tqma uyvars. fiso arasodes artyuis. mis lurj TvalebSic Cans. fisos ufrosi Zma, peteri, Teqvsmeti wlisaa,da Segirdad muSaobs. mas Tavis Tavze didi warmodgena aqvs da umcrosebsmbrZaneblurad eqceva. mas fisoc ki verafers ubedavs, radgan sakuTarigamocdilebiT icis, ra ficxia, Tumca isic icis, rom Tu gamgoni iqneba, Zmakanfets miscems. tkbileuloba ki fisosac Zalian uyvars da, cxadia,umcrosebsac.kviraobiT, roca zarebis Zlieri, sazeimo rekva xalxs salocavad uxmobs,fiso dedasTan da patarebTan erTad eklesiaSi midis. fiso jer zecaSi myofmamas avedrebs RmerTs, Semdeg ki dedas, da sTxovs janmrTelad amyofos. mereyvelani saseirnod midian. fiso mouTmenlad elodeba kvira dRes da seirnobs.midian parkSi, zogjer zooparkSic, Tumca zooparkSi seqtemberSi dadian, rocabileTi ufro iafi Rirs. fisos dabadebis dResac SeuZlia zooparkSi wasvla.es misi saCuqari iqneba, radgan Zvirfasi saCuqrisaTvis dedas fuli ar yofnis.zogjer, mZime muSaobis Semdeg, deda daRlilia da tiris, magram fiso mas

anugeSebs da pirdeba yvelafers, razedac TviTon ocnebobs. Zalian unda malegaizardos, fuli iSovos da TavisTvis kabebis, xolo patarebisaTvis peteriviTtkbileulobis yidva SeZlos, amisTvis ki bevri unda iswavlos da didxansiaros skolaSi. deda apirebs meojaxeobis skolaSi miabaros, magram fisosaraviTari survili ara aqvs. ar wava mosamsaxured. urCevnia fabrikaSi imuSaos,im mSvenieri gogonebis msgavsad, romlebic yoveldRe maTi saxlis win dadian.fabrikaSi uamravi xalxia. xmis gamcemi mudam eyoleba. fisos musaifi uyvars.marTalia, igi kargad swavlobs, magram skolaSi zogjer kuTxeSi ayeneben,radgan ena ver gauCerebia. maswavlebeli Zalian uyvars. metismetad Wkviani dalamazia. saSinlad Znelia gaxde iseTi, rogoric maswavlebelia, magram SeiZlebamomavalSi cotaTi mainc daemsgavsos. deda eubneba, bevri ram Tu ar gecodineba,ver gaTxovdebio, rac mas ar moswons. fisos guliT unda bavSvebi hyavdes,magram ara iseTi, rogoric misi umcrosi debi da Zmebia, aramed ufro lamazi,ufro mimzidveli. mis bavSvebs mSvenieri wablisferi kululebi eqnebaT,rogorc keTilSobilebs Seefereba da ara qera. araviTari Worfli, fisosmTeli saxe WorfliT aqvs dafaruli. mas arc imdeni bavSvi eyoleba, ramdenicdedas hyavs, ori an sami kmara; magram jer kidev bevri unda icados, orjer metixnis unda gaxdes! `fiso~, eZaxis deda, `aba Cqara daiZine! sad xar aqamde? isevocnebebma gagitaca!~.fiso Cumad oxravs... ra kargia momavalze ocneba!..katrintekatrinte glexkacis saxlis win did lodze mzeSi ijda da daZabulifiqrobda. Cumi, winsafarafarebuli gogona aravis ar eubneboda, raze fiqrobda,aravis ar uziarebda gulisnadebs, radgan Zalze uSno da gulCaTxrobili iyo.megobrebi ar hyavda, albaT verc iSovida. deda ucnaur bavSvad Tvlida,TviTonac grZnobda, rom sxva bavSvebs ar hgavs. mamamiss, namdvil glexs, bevrisaqme hqonda da erTaderTi qaliSvilisaTvis ver iclida. amgvarad, katrintesakuTari Tavis anabara iyo. martooba mas ar awuxebda, miCveuli iyo.magram zafxulis am mSvenier saRamos, roca Tavi aswia da mindvrebsgaxeda, mZimed amoioxra. ra kargia albaT tolebTan TamaSi! rogor darbian,icinian, rogor mxiaruloben, ufro da ufro axlos modian... ra undaT Cemgan? o,ra borotebi arian, imisTvis mividnen, rom abuCad aigdon. garkveviT esmis,rogor eZaxian metsaxels: `dondlo, dondlo!~. o, rogor ezizReba mas essaxeli! isini ki sul ufro xmamaRla yvirian! o, ra ubeduria! saxlSi Sesvlamainc SeeZlos, magram maSin sul aRar moasveneben... sabralo gogona, esSemTxveva ukanaskneli rodia, jer kidev bevrjer igrZnob martoobas cxovrebaSida bevrjer SegSurdeba sxva gogonebis!— katrinte, Semodi saxlSi, sadilobis droa! — katrintem Rrmadamoioxra da wamodga. urCobas ver ubedavda dedas.— Sexede erTi, ra kmayofili saxe aqvs Cvens qaliSvils, ra mxiarulibavSvia! — wamoiZaxa dedamisma, roca Cveulebrivze ufro moRuSuli katrintenela Sevida oTaxSi.— ra dagemarTa, damunjdi? — uyvira dedam, misi xma ufro uxeSi damkacri iyo, vidre undoda, magram misi qaliSvilic naklebad hgavda im mxiarulda sicocxliT savse bavSvs, romelzedac ocnebobda.— gismen, deda, — Zlivs gasagonad Tqva gogonam.— raRa miWirs. mTeli dRe sadRac daeTrevi, arafris maqnisi ara xar! sadiyavi aqamde?— aqve, maxloblad. — katrintes iseTi grZnoba hqonda, TiTqos yelSixeli wauWires. bavSvis dabnevam deda daaeWva da meti cnobismoyvareobiT dauwyogamokiTxva: — garkveviT miTxari, sad iyavi, minda vicode, sad daeTreodi, gaige?o, ra dondloa, amis atana SeuZlebelia! — rogorc ki dedam saZulvelimetsaxeli warmoTqva, katrintem Tavi veRar Seikava da mwared atirda.

— ra iyo, ra moxda? vis hgavs aseTi mxdali! ar SeiZleba pirdapirmiTxra, sad daeTreodi, iqneb saidumloa?magram gogonas arafris Tqma ar SeeZlo, radgan cremlebi axrCobda.uecrad wamoxta, skami gadaayirava da tiriliT sxvenze avarda. kuTxeSitomrebze damxobili didxans qviTinebda gulamoskvnili... dedamiss Svilissaqcieli ar gakvirvebia, mxrebi aiCeCa da sufra aalaga. misi qaliSvili xSiradiqceoda ase sulelurad da jobda, yuradReba ar mieqcia. sul erTia, misganmainc verafers gaigebs, cremlis RvraSi ki badali ara hyavs. rogor SeiZleba,Tormeti wlis glexis gogo aseTi iyos!katrinte sxvenze odnav damSvidda da Cafiqrda. undoda, dabla Casuliyo,dedisTvis eTqva, qvaze vijeqio da moeTavebina is saqme, romelsac aqamde Taviver gaarTva. deda darwmundeboda, rom uqnara araa. Tu deda hkiTxavs, ratomijda mTeli dRe usaqmod qvaze, etyvis, rom erTi mniSvnelovani sakiTxi undagadaewyvita. saRamos, roca kvercxebs waiRebs gasayidad, dedas axal saTiTesuyidis, lamaz vercxlis saTiTes, romelic didebulad brwyinavs. amdeni fuliki aqvs. maSin deda darwmundeba, rom igi dondlo araa. katrinte kvlavCafiqrda, fiqrobda, rogor moecilebina saZulveli metsaxeli da aseTi azridaebada: fuliT, romelic saTiTis yidvis Semdeg morCeba, erT park kanfetsiyidis da xval skolaSi gogonebs daurigebs. maSin masac daimegobreben,eTamaSebian. yvela darwmundeba, rom masac SeuZlia TamaSi da metsaxels aRardauZaxeben. katrinte moridebiT Camovida dabla, magram derefanSi deda daxvdada hkiTxa: `SegaSra cremlebi?~ katrintem xmis amoReba ver gabeda, ver auxsna,sad iyo am diliT; nacvlad amisa, saCqarod Seudga fanjrebis wmendas, undoda,daRamebamde moeswro.mze Cadioda, roca katrintem xelSi kvercxebiT savse kalaTa aiRo dagzas gaudga. naxevari saaTi irbina, bolos pirvel myidvelamde miaRwia,romelic aivanze idga da xelSi faifuris WurWeli eWira.`momeci, geTayva, 10 cali~, alersianad uTxra qalma. katrintem kvercxebiCauTvala, gamoemSvidoba da gza ganagrZo. sam meoTxed saaTSi misi kalaTadacarielda. katrinte Sevida maRaziaSi, sadac sxvadasxva saqonels yiddnen.lamazi saTiTe da mTeli parki kanfetebi kalaTaSi Cado da ukan gamobrunda.jer Sua gzac ar eqneboda gavlili, rom Soridan dainaxa is ori gogona,romlebic am diliT dascinodnen. yvelafers erCia sadme damaluliyo, magramgulSekumSulma mainc ganagrZo gza.`Sexede, vin modis, dondlo, dondlo, WkuaTxeli~. katrinte SiSisagangafiTrda. saqcielwamxdarma da sasowarkveTilma gogonebs mTeli parki kanfetigauwoda. erT-erTma maTganma parki xelidan gamostaca da gaiqca, magram sanammosaxvevSi miimaleboda, ukan Semobrunda da katrintes ena gamouyo.dardis, umweobisa da martooobisagan guldamwvari katrinte iqve gzispiras balaxebSi Caemxo da tiroda, tiroda daRamebamde, sanam Zal-Rone argamoecala. bolos wamodga, gadabrunebuli kalaTa aiRo da saxlisken gaswia...balaxebSi ki vercxlis saTiTe brwyinavda.anaorSabaTi, 9 agvisto, 1943Zvirfaso kiwi!vagrZeleb Cveni yoveldRiuri cxovrebis aRweras.sadili: kerZs pirvelad baton van daans miarTmeven xolme da Tu moewona,blomadac gadaiRebs. yvelas elaparakeba, yvelaferSi ereva, yvelaferze Tavisazrs gamoTqvams, xolo Tu rames ityvis, veRar gadaaTqmevineb. brali misi, vincmas SeekamaTeba. katasaviT Cxavis da Tu kacma erTxel ukve iwvnia aseTisiamovneba, meorejer frTxilad iqneba. misi Tvalsazrisi yvelaze sworia!yvelaferi yvelaze ukeT icis! marTalia, mas bevri ram unaxavs cxovrebaSi, amasra jobia, magram saocrad qedmaRalia.qalbatoni van daani: jobia, gavCumde. kargi iqneboda, sul ar vxvdebode,gansakuTrebiT, roca ugunebod brZandeba. yovelgvari dava da kamaTi misi

alia, oRond ar gegonos, TviTon daobdes an kamaTobdes. masTan davas yvelaerideba, igi mxolod wamqezebelia. misi xeloba sxvisi wakidebaa! umTavresad ki,qalbatoni frankisa da anesi. mamasa da margos ase advilad ver miudgeba, sababsar aZleven.qalbatoni van daani arc sufraze ibneva, Tumca darwmunebulia, romCagraven, yvelaze dabrawuli kartofili me, yvelaze gemrieli lukma me,yvelaferi, rac gemrielia, me-o, ai, misi devizi. amave dros enas ar aCerebs.misTvis sul erTia, usmenen Tu ara, ainteresebs vinmes misi azri Tu ara. igidarwmunebulia, rom yoveli misi sityva oqrod Rirs da yvelas did siamovnebasaniWebs.keklucad iRimeba, ise iqceva, TiTqos yvelaferi icis. yvelas rCevadarigebasaZlevs, yvelas erTgvar dedur mzrunvelobas uwevs da ase hgonia,yvela moxiblulia misiT. sinamdvileSi ki dids arafers warmoadgens.pirveli — Sromismoyvareoba, meore — mxiaruli xasiaTi, mesame —keklucoba da amasTan erTad sikoxtave da Tavis movla uyvars. ai aseTiapetronela van daani.sufris mesame wevri: misi xma TiTqmis ar ismis. batoni van daani-umcrosimetwilad Cumadaa da aravis yuradRebas ar aqcevs.misi kuWi namdvili danaidebis kasria. sadilis Semdeg, roca uamravsaWmels gadasanslavs, seriozuli gamometyvelebiT amtkicebs, erT amdens kidevSevWamdio.sufris meoTxe wevria margo: cotas laparakobs da CitiviT ikenkeba.erTaderTi, rasac igi ase Tu ise miirTmevs, bostneuli da xilia. van daanebisazriT, `ganebivrebulia~, Cven ki vfiqrobT, rom `haeri da moZraoba aklia~.sufris Semdegi wevria deda: kargad Wams, laparakobs bevrs daxalisianad. masze aravin ar ityvis: ai, am saxlis diasaxlisi, ris xazgasmac aseuyvars sakuTari Tavis mimarT qalbaton van daans. riT gansxvavdebian isini?qalbatoni sadils amzadebs, deda ki qvabebs xexavs da WurWels recxavs.meeqvse da meSvide wevri: mamaze da sakuTar Tavze bevrs arafers vityvi.pimi yvelaze moridebulia, pirvelad imas uyurebs, sxvebs Tu eyofao. mamasarasodes araferi ar unda. Tu raime kargia, bavSvebs. pimi sikeTisa dadidsulovnebis gansaxierebaa, xolo mis gverdiT vzivar me, Cveni TavSesafrisnamdvili nervebis kona.eqimi duseli: kerZs ise gadmoiRebs rom arc ki daxedavs. miirTmevs uxmod.magram Tu saubari aucilebelia, ki batono, oRond laparakobs mxolodsaWmelze. yovel SemTxvevaSi es Tema konfliqtebs mainc ar iwvevs, SeiZlebavinmem cota waitrabaxos, esaa da es. Wama SeuZlia uzomod, araferze ar ambobsuars, sul erTia, moswons Tu ara. Sarvals metismetad maRla iwevs, acviawiTeli qurTuki da Savi fostlebi, cxvirs muqi rqis CarCoebiani saTvaleumSvenebs. aseTia yvelgan: samuSao magidasTan, sufraze, dasasvenebladwamowolili da maSinac ki, roca amoCemebul dawesebulebaSi — sapirfareSoSimibrZandeba.yoveldRe romelime Cvengani oTx-xuTjer mainc mouTmenlad iSmuSnebasapirfareSos karebTan, fexidan fexze inacvlebs da grZnobs, rom metis moTmenaaRar SeuZlia. Sen ggonia, mas es ambavi odnav mainc awuxebs? sruliadac ara.seansebi saaTiviT aqvs awyobili. rvis TxuTmeti wuTidan rvis naxevramde,oridan samis TxuTmet wuTamde, oTxidan xuTis TxuTmet wuTamde da Tormetisnaxevridan Tormetamde. am ganrigs araviTar SemTxvevaSi ar daarRvevs. maSinacki ara, roca karebTan mdgomis marcxis momaswavebeli mudara esmis.nomeri cxra: igi Cveni ojaxis wevri araa, magram Cveni saxlis da sufrismoziarea. elis kargi mada aqvs, saWmels ar arCevs, rasac miawodeb, yvelaferssiamovnebiT miirTmevs. mudam karg xasiaTzea, mxiaruleba uyvars, sandomiani dadauzarebelia. erTi sityviT, SesaniSnavi TvisebebiTaa dajildoebuli.anasamSabaTi, 10 agvisto, 1943

Zvirfaso kiwi!ai, Cemi axali idea. roca sufrasTan vzivar, sakuTar Tavs ufrovelaparakebi, vidre sxvas; amas ori upiratesoba aqvs: jer erTi, yvelakmayofilia imiT, rom cotas vlaparakob, meorec, maTi msjeloba ar maRizianebs.umetes SemTxvevaSi maTi Sexedulebebi sisuleled meCveneba, Cemi ki sworad,Tumca jobs CemTvis Sevinaxo. asec viqcevi. roca iseT kerZs daamzadeben,romelsac ver vitan, varwmuneb sakuTar Tavs, rom kerZi gemrielia daSeumCnevlad yvelafers gadavsanslav. diliT, roca adgomis droa, rac meZalian ar msiamovnebs, sawolidan wamovxtebi da Cems Tavs veubnebi: `aba gabededawola!~ swrafad gadavwev `SuqsaniRbav~ fardebs, odnav SevisunTqav garedanSemosul sufTa haers da iseTi grZnoba maqvs, TiTqos Zili arasodes armomsurvebia. xolo mere, roca logins vasworeb, dawolis araviTari surviliaRar maqvs.ici, deda ras eZaxis amgvar moqmedebas? `cxovrebaSi msaxiobobas~.sasacilo sityvaa, ara?am kviris damdegidan warmodgena ar gvaqvs zust droze. Cveni sayvareli,erTguli vesterturmis zari sadRac waiRes. albaT, gadaadnoben da qvemexebsCamoasxamen. axla Cven arasodes ar viciT zustad, romeli saaTia. imedia, ramesmoigoneben, rac mSvenieri zaris xmas Secvlis da mTel ubans misi dakargviTgamowveul dards ganuqarvebs.sadac unda gavCnde, zeviT Tu qveviT, yvela gaocebiT miyurebs fexebze.axali, moxdenili fexsacmeli macvia. zamSis, Rvinisferi. sakmaod maRali,msxvilqusliani fexsacmeli naxmaria da amitom mipma mxolod ocdaSvidnaxevariguldeni misca. ise davdivar, TiTqos oCofexebze vidge da gacilebiT ufromaRali vCanvar, vidre sinamdvileSi var. guSindeli dRe marcxiani iyo. marjvenaxelis TiTSi msxvili nemsi SemerWo yunwidan. amis Semdeg Cems magivrad margomgafqcvna kartofili. mere SubliT karadis kars davejaxe da ise magrad, romkinaRam kibeebze davgordi. da radganac dajaxebam didi xmauri gamoiwvia,momxvda kidec. Tan Sublze sveli tilos dadebac ki ver movaxerxe, radganwylis moSveba ar SeiZleboda. axla marjvena Tvals zemoT didi kopi mazis.garda amisa, mtversasrutiT moviwewkve marjvena fexis neki. magram imdenadviyavi dakavebuli, sxva usiamovnebebze imdens vfiqrobdi, rom am ambavsyuradReba ar mivaqcie da ugunuradac moviqeci. Wriloba gamimizezda, fexiSemixvies da veRar vicvam Cems mSvenier fexsacmels.duselma misdauneburad kinaRam dagvRupa. man daavala mips (romelsacaraferi gaegeboda amisa), eyida akrZaluli wigni, pamfleti hitlersa damusolinze. TiTqos gangeb, im diliT mips eseselTa motocikleti daejaxa. mipmaTavi ver Seikava da miaZaxa: `ai, Tqve `mamaZaRlebo!~ sabednierod, yvelaferikeTilad damTavrda da mipma gza ganagrZo. fiqric ki mafrTxobs, rocawarmovidgen, ra moxdeboda, mipi rom policiaSi waeyvanaT!anaoTxSabaTi, 18 agvisto, 1943Zvirfaso kiwi!dRes agiwer Cvens erTaderT yoveldRiur movaleobas — kartofilisfcqvnas.erTs moaqvs gazeTi (nafcqvenebisaTvis), meores — danebi (cxadia,saukeTesos TavisTvis itovebs), mesames — kartofili, meoTxes ki — didi,wyliT savse qvabi.iwyebs batoni duseli. fcqvnis uxeirod, magram swrafad. kartofilisetyvasaviT cviva qvabSi, TviTon ki aqeT-iqiT iyureba da amowmebs: yvela masaviTmuSaobs Tu ara? Turme ara!— miyure, ane, xedav rogor miWiravs dana xelSi, vTli zemodan qvemoT,ara, ase ara, ai, ase!— me ase ufro mexerxeba, — vambob moridebiT.

— SeiZleba, magram damijere, rom ase gacilebiT ukeTesia. Tumca rogorcginda, CemTvis sul erTia.ganvagrZobT Sromas. drodadro Cems mezobels almacerad gadavxedav.duseli Tavs aqnevs, me misayvedurebs, magram TqmiT arafers meubneba. vmuSaob,Sevcqeri mamas, romelic Cems pirdapir zis. misTvis kartofilis fcqvna ufrosaiuveliro samuSaoa, vidre garToba. kiTxvis dros Sublze Rrma naoWebiuCndeba, xolo roca kartofilis fcqvnaSi, an cercvis da bostneulisgarCevaSi gvexmareba, irgvliv verafers amCnevs. am dros mas namdvili`kartofilis~ saxe aqvs da manamde ar CauSvebs kartofils wyalSi, sanamuzadod ar gafcqvnis. ar SeiZleba aseTi saxe gqondes da cudad fcqvnide!bejiTad vmuSaob, magram drodadro irgvliv vixedebi da yvelafersvamCnev. qalbatoni van daani cdilobs, duselis yuradReba miiqcios. saxeSimisCerebia, magram dusels Tavi ise uWiravs, TiTqos verafers amCnevs. bolosTvali Caukra. duseli muSaobas ganagrZobs. Tvalis Cakvras sicili mohyva.duseli misken ar iyureba. axla dedac icinis. qalbaton van daans araferigauvida da sxva gasarTobs eZebs.— puwi (es misi qmaria), winsafari aikari, Torem xval Seni kostiumi isevgasawmendi meqneba, — eubneba qmars.— ar davisvrebi. — qalbatoni Cafiqrda.— puwi, ratom ar dajdebi?— me ase mexerxeba, roca kartofils vfcqvni, fexze dgoma mirCevnia.erTxans siCumea.— puwi, xom xedav, SegeSxefa.— ara uSavs, Cemo kargo, frTxilad viqnebi. — qalbatoni axla sxvaTemas eZebs.— miTxari, puwi, ratom aRar gvbombaven ingliselebi?— albaT, imitom, rom cudi amindia.— ki magram guSin mSvenieri amindi iyo da mainc ar mofrindnen.— nu imeoreb mudam erTsa da imaves.— nuTu azrTa gacvla-gamocvla ar SeiZleba?— ara!— ratom? — geyofa, gaCumdi!— roca qalbaton franks surs raime icodes, batoni franki mudam wesierpasuxs aZlevs.baton van daans colis sityvebi ar moswons. es misi aqilevsis quslia. isebrZvis Tavis Tavs, ar unda ukmexi sityvebi wamoscdes, magram mcire xnis Semdegcoli ganagrZobs:— mokavSireebi albaT saerTod ar gadmosxamen jarebs. — qmarisibrazisagan fiTrdeba, amis Semxedvare coli wiTldeba, magram ase adviladxom ver moeSveba.— ingliselebs ki gulxeli daukrefiaT da arafers ar akeTeben!yumbara afeTqda: — daswyevlos eSmakma, bolos da bolos Caigde ena!deda Zlivs ikavebs sicils. me Tvals varideb yvelas. Tu winaswar vermoaswres waCxubeba, ase an amgvarad meordeba yoveldRe. winaswar waCxubebas kiis upiratesoba aqvs, rom Semdeg orive Cumadaa.kartofilis mosatanad sxvenze avdivar. peteri zeviTaa da did saqmesSesdgomia. katas... rwyilebs aclis... rogorc ki gamovCndebi, Tavs zeviT swevsda Semomxedavs. kata grZnobs, rom xeli SeuSves da skup! Ria fanjaraSi xteba.peteri ilanZReba. me vicini da dabla Cavdivar.anaparaskevi, 20 agvisto, 1943Zvirfaso kiwi!muSebi sawyobidan zustad eqvsis naxevarze midian da iwyeba Tavisufleba.Tu am droisaTvis CvenTan eli amodis, es imas niSnavs, rom yvelaferirigzea da Cvenc cxovrebas vubrundebiT. Cveulebriv, eli jer zeviT amyavs,

sadac misTvis mudam gvaqvs Semonaxuli rame gemrieli. igi dajdomasac veraswrebs, rom qalbatoni van daani ukve TxovniT mimarTavs: `o, eli, rom icode,rogor minda...~eli Tvals mikravs, jer ar yofila SemTxveva, romelime zeviT amosulimegobrisaTvis qalbaton van daans rame ar daevalebinos. amitom ar uyvarTmasTan asvla.eqvss TxuTmeti wuTi aklia. eli midis. me ki ori sarTuliT dablaveSvebi, jer samzareuloSi Sevdivar, mere kabinetSi, Semdeg ki muSis vuRebsardafis kars, sadac naxSirs vinaxavT, da virTxebze sanadirod vuSveb. boloskontoraSi vbrundebi da kraleris savarZelSi vjdebi. batoni van daani axalikorespondenciis ZebnaSi yvela ujras da saqaRaldes qeqavs. peters sawyobisgasaRebi miaqvs da muSi mihyavs. pimi sabeWd manqanas zeviT miaTrevs, margomyudro kuTxes eZebs. kontoris saqmeebi aqvs gasakeTebeli. qalbatoni van daaniquraze wyliT savse did qvabs dgams. dedas kartofiliT savse qvabi Camoaqvs.yvelas Tavisi movaleoba aqvs. peteri swrafad brundeba sawyobidan. upirvelesyovlisa, puri unda moitanos, romelsac yoveldRe kraleris kabinetSigvitoveben. dRes rogorRac daviwyebiaT! mas isRa darCenia, mTavar kontoraSigavides da aiRos. garedan rom ar dainaxon, daoTxili micocavs karadisaken,purs iRebs da imaleba, ufro sworad damalvas apirebs, magram amasobaSi muSiTavze gadaevleba da saweri magidis qveS Zvreba. peteri yvela kuTxeSi eZebskatas, bolos dainaxavs, epareba da cdilobs kudSi swvdes. kata Cxavis, peterioxravs. da ai muSi kmayofili zis fanjaraze da pirs ibans. peteri ukiduressaSualebas mimarTavs. katas puris naWers uwvdis da amiT yvelaferi Tavdeba.muSi ankesze egeba. peters kata mihyavs. kari swrafad ixureba.mTel am ambavs WuWrutanidan vucqeri, Semdeg ki muSaobas ganvagrZob.mesmis kakuni. samjer meordeba, es ki imas niSnavs, rom vaxSamze meZaxian.anaorSabaTi, 23 agvisto, 1943Zvirfaso kiwi!ganvagrZob Cveni TavSesafris yoveldRiuri cxovrebis aRweras. saaTirekavs. dilis cxris naxevaria.deda da margo nervuloben.— Cumad, mama... oto, Cumad... pim!— ukve cxris naxevaria, wyali unda davketoT!— Cumad iare!ase afrTxileben mamas, romelic jer kidev ar gamosula `saabazano~oTaxidan. zustad cxris naxevarze oTaxSi unda viyoT. amis Semdeg wylismoSveba, sapirfareSoTi sargebloba da aqeT-iqiT sirbili akrZalulia. saxlSiabsoluturi siCume unda sufevdes.roca qveviT kontoraSi aravin araa, xmauri ufro ismis da, cxadia,sawyobamdec aRwevs.cxris oc wuTze van daanebi kars aReben da iatakze samjer akakuneben:`anes fafa mzadaa!~.me aCqarebiT mivcocav zeviT da ZaRliviT viReb Cems ulufas. SemdegqveviT Camovdivar, vCqarob, yvelaferi unda movaswro: Tmis davarcxna, pot dechambre 1 -is ( 1 Ramis qoTani (frang.).) gadaRvra, sawolebis gasworeba. Cumad, saaTirekavs!zemodan ismis, rogor moipareba fostlebSi fexgayrili qalbatoni vandaani oTaxisaken. ukan qmari mohyveba, Semdeg ki sruli siCume mkvidrdeba.axla SegiZlia datkbe Cveni ojaxuri idiliiT. me vkiTxulob an vwer.amasve akeTeben deda, margo da mama. yvelas gvirCevnia, es wynari naxevari saaTikiTxvaSi gavataroT (mamas, ra Tqma unda, xelSi Tavisi sayvareli dikensiuWiravs). Cumad zis Tavis gasaSlel WraWuna sawolze, romelzedac wesierileibic ki ar agia. leibis magivrobas ori Txeli pliumo eweva: `me arc esmWirdeba, isedac iolad gaval!~, ambobs mama xSirad. rogorc ki wignis kiTxvas

Seudgeba, Tavs aRar swevs. zogjer Cumad icinis da cdilobs raRac waukiTxosdedas CurCuliT. `axla ara, geTayva, amisaTvis ar mcalia~, eubneba deda. pimicota guldawyvetilia, magram cota xnis Semdeg isev ganagrZobs kiTxvas.mogvianebiT kvlav aRmoaCens romelime gansakuTrebiT saintereso adgils dakidev erTxel mimarTavs dedas: `ara, Cemo kargo, Sen es aucileblad undawaikiTxo~!sawolze Camomjdari deda an kiTxulobs, an qsovs, an keravs da amavedros raRacas swavlobs. uecrad rame gaaxsendeba da aucileblad maSinvegvetyvis: `ane, ici ra... margo, aba Caiwere! erTxans siwynarea. anazdad margowigns xmauriT xuravs. mamis warbebi rkalad ixreba da sasacilod miiwevszeviT, Sublze naoWebi uCndeba, magram gatacebiT ganagrZobs kiTxvas. deda damargo CurCuleben. CemSi cnobismoyvareoba iRviZebs da yurs vugdeb, bolospimsac CaiTreven saubarSi... cxra saaTia, sauzmis droa!anaparaskevi, 10 seqtemberi, 1943Zvirfaso kiwi!yovelTvis, roca Sen gwer, raRac gansakuTrebuli unda moxdes, ufroxSirad cudi, vidre kargi.axla ki kargi ambavi unda gaxaro. oTxSabaTs (8 seqtembers) saRamos SvidsaaTze yvelam radios irgvliv moviyareT Tavi da gadacemas vusmendiT: `Herefolows the best news of the whole war. Itali has capitulated~. 1 ( 1 gadmogcemT mTeli omismanZilze yvelaze sasixarulo cnobas. italiam kapitulacia gamoacxada (ingl.).)italiam xeli moawera usityvo kapitulacias!!!rva saaTze `oranes~ gadmocema movismineT.`Zvirfaso radiomsmenelebo! erTi saaTis win, roca Cveni morigi gadacemadavamTavre, SesaniSnavi cnoba miviRe. italiam xeli moawera kapitulacias.moZvelebuli cnobebi udidesi siamovnebiT Cavyare saqaRalde yuTSi.daukres inglisis, aSS-is da ssrk-s saxelmwifo himnebi. radiosadguri`orane~ yovelTvis amxnevebs msmenelebs da amasTanave zedmet optimizmsac ariCens.arc sazrunavi gvaklia. didad gvawuxebs batoni koophoisis mdgomareoba.Sen kargad ici, ra Zlier gviyvars yvelas. miuxedavad imisa, rom xSiradavadmyofobs, bevr tkivils itans, cot-cota unda Wamos, naklebi iaros da TavsgaufrTxildes, mainc mkvircxli, Tavaziani da saocrad mxne kacia.`roca batoni koophiosi oTaxSi Semodis, iseTi grZnoba maqvs, TiTqos mzeamovida~. — Tqva amas winaT dedam da marTlac asea. axla ki nawlavis mZimeoperacia unda gaukeTon da sul cota oTx kviras mainc ver vnaxavT. undagenaxa, rogor gamogvemSvidoba, TiTqos saavadmyofoSi ki ara, raimes sayidladmidioda.anaxuTSabaTi, 16 oqtomberi, 1943Zvirfaso kiwi!rac ufro didxans grZeldeba Cveni aq yofna, miT uaresad veguebiTerTmaneTs. sufrasTan veravin bedavs xmis amoRebas, radgan, rac unda Tqva,mainc cudad CamogarTmeven an ukuRma gaigeben. depresia damewyo. valerianiswveTebs vsvam, magram arafers mSvelis da dRiTi dRe sul ufro cud gunebazevdgebi. aTi patara TeTri abis gadaylapvas erTxel xmamaRla, Tavisufladgacineba ajobebda, magram aq sicils TiTqmis gadaveCvieT. zogjer imisic kimeSinia, sanam es mZime dro gaivlis, davmaxinjdebi. piri mokumuli damrCeba,saxeze ki mwuxarebis naoWebi gamiCndeba.kidev erTi axali ambavi da isic usiamo. sawyobis erT-erT mosamsaxures,vinme m.-s eWvi Seepara, rom saxlis ukana mxares raRac xdeba. Cven amasyuradRebas ar mivaqcevdiT, didad cnobismoyvare da urwmuno rom ar yofiliyo.da, rac mTavaria, ar viciT, ramdenad sandoa. erT dRes kralerma gadawyvita,

gansakuTrebuli sifrTxile gamoeCina. pirvels rom aTi wuTi aklda, qudi dajoxi aiRo da maxlobel saafTiaqo maRaziaSi Sevida. xuTi wuTis Semdeg ukangamobrunda da Cvens kibeebze qurdiviT amoipara, oris TxuTmet wuTze dablaCasvla daapira, magram eli Semoxvda da SeaCera — dabla kontoraSi batoni m.ziso. kraleri zeviT amovida da oris naxevramde CvenTan darCa. bolos fexzegaixada, fexsacmeli xelSi daiWira, windebis amara sawyobis wina karamdemiirbina, frTxilad ahyva kibes da kontoraSi quCidan Sevida. manamde elisraRaca moumizezebia, batoni m. kontoridan gaustumrebia da kralerisgamosaxsnelad CvenTan amovida, magram Cveni `jambazi~ ukve Zirs iyo. rasifiqrebdnen gamvlelebi, roca dainaxes, rom xanSi Sesuli darbaiseli kaci maTTvalwin fexze icvamda.anaoTxSabaTi, 29 seqtemberi, 1943Zvirfaso kiwi!dRes qalbaton van daanis dabadebis dRea. vaCuqeT xorcis, yvelis dapuris baraTebi, garda amisa, erTi qila muraba. qmarma, duselma da CvenmaZvirfasma mfarvelebma, yvavilebis garda, sursaT-sanovagec miarTves. ragaewyoba, aseTi droa.am erTi kviris ganmavlobaSi elis nervulobisagan kinaRam sisxli Caeqca.mTeli dReebi darboda, cdilobda CvenTvis rame eSova da amave dros xSiradukanve abrunebdnen, TiTqos da is ar eyidos, rac saWiroa. roca warmoidgen,ramdeni samuSao aqvs kontoraSi (koophoisi avadaa, mipi gaciebulia da saxlidanver gamodis, Tavad elim fexi iRrZo), amave dros rogor itanjebasiyvarulisagan (Tan saxlSi mama eCxubeba, misi arCevani ar moswons), maSinadvili gasagebia, rom mzadaa Rera-Rera daiglijos Tma. Cven igi vanugeSeT.vurCieT mSvidad da gulgrilad ganacxados, rom ar scalia. maSin davalebaTasia aSkarad Semokldeba.etyoba, van daanebTan kvlav raRac mogvixda. mama ratomRac saSinladgabrazebulia, ase rom, mosalodnelia qariSxali. netav me ar mesmodes yovelivees, neta SemeZlos gavecalo aqaurobas. isini yvelas Wkuidan SegvSlian.anakvira, 17 oqtomberi, 1943Zvirfaso kiwi!madloba RmerTs, koophoisi isev fexzea! Tumca jer kidev ferdakargulia,magram samsaxurSi dadis da cdilobs van daanebis tansacmeli gayidos. Zalzeusiamoa, rom van daanebs fuli gauTavdaT. qalbatons tansacmeli bevri aqvs,magram arafers ar imetebs, misi qmris kostiumi ki Zneli gasayidia, radganZalian Zvirad afasebs. magram qalbatons mainc veraferi uSvelis. bewvis qurqsunda gamoeTxovos! am qurqis gamo `zeviT~ saSineli Cxubi atyda, magram maleSerigdnen da axla wamdauwum isev gvesmis: `ah, Zvirfaso puwi!~, `diax, kerli,Cemo saunjev!~am bolo dros guls mirevs maTi gauTavebeli Cxubi da vulgarulilanZRva-gineba, romelic Cvens wesier saxlSi gaismis. mama kriWaSekruli dadisda Tu vinmem rame hkiTxa, SekrTeba, TiTqos eSinia, kidev xom araferi moxda daCems Carevas xom ar saWiroebeno. dedas mRelvarebisagan wiTeli laqebi uCndebasaxeze, margo Tavis tkivilebs uCivis, duselma Zili dakarga, qalbatoni vandaani mTeli dRe kvnesis da sruliad amovarda kalapotidan. zogjergvaviwydeba kidec, vin vis waeCxuba, vin visTan moaswro Serigeba. erTaderTigamosavali Sromaa da mec TavauRebliv vmuSaob!anaparaskevi, 29 oqtomberi, 1943Zvirfaso kiwi!

`zemourebs~ isev saSineli Cxubi mouvidaT. da ai, risTvis: amas winaTgwerdi, rom van daanebs fuli gauTavdaT. erT dRes koophoisma axsena Tavisimegobari, qurqis ostati. batonma van daanma gadawyvita, colis qurqi gaeyida.bocveris bewviani qurqi qalbatonma van daanma Cvidmeti weliwadi atara daaxla 375 guldenad gayides. es didi fulia! qalbatonma moindoma fuli Seenaxada Semdeg axali tansacmeli eyida. qmarma ris vai-vaglaxiT Seagnebina, romfuli ojaxisTvisaa saWiro. Sen ver warmoidgen, ra Cxubi atyda: ise iginebodnen,rom SiSma Segvipyro. Cven oTxiveni kibeebze videqiT sulganabulni dagadawyvetili gvqonda saWiroebis SemTxvevaSi moCxubrebi gagveSvelebina. aseTiscenebi ise maRizianebs, rom saRamos cremlmoreuli vwevar sawolSi damixaria, rom bolos, rogorc iqna, marto davrCi.batoni koophoisi kvlav saxlSi zis. kuWi isev awuxebs da jer kidevgaurkvevelia, sabolood Seuwyda sisxlis dena Tu ara? ase Sewuxebulipirvelad vnaxeT. gviTxra, Tavs cudad vgrZnobo da saxlSi wavida.me Tumca araferi mtkiva, magram srulebiT ara maqvs mada. waramara mesmis:`ra cudad gamoiyurebi~.unda giTxra, Cveni ojaxi arafers iSurebs imisaTvis, rom jansaRi daRonieri viyo. ras ar vRebulob: xan glukozas, xan safuars, xan kalciums daxanac Tevzis qons. samwuxarod, nervebi sruliad aRar mivarga. kviraobiT amasgansakuTrebiT mwvaved vgrZnob. kvira dRes mTeli saxli moSvebulia,gunebawamxdari, ganwyobileba tyviasaviT mZime. arsaidan araviTari xma.yvelafers gulisdamamZimebeli sevda awevs. am dros iseTi grZnoba maqvs,TiTqos mZime lodi madevs kiserze da Rrma ufskrulisaken meweva.aseT dReebSi mamis, dedis da margos mimarTac ki gulgrilad varganwyobili. davborialob mTel saxlSi, gavdivar oTaxidan oTaxSi, Cavdivarkibeebze, mere isev zeviT amovdivar. Tavs ise vgrZnob, rogorc mgalobelifrinveli, romelsac frTebi SeaWres da sibneleSi galiis wnelebs awydeba.`gareT gamiSviT~, gahkivis CemSi yvelaferi, `menatreba haeri, sicili!~.magram vici, rom pasuxs aravin momcems da dasaZineblad mivdivar. iqneb rogormemovkla SiSiTa da dumiliT damZimebuli dro.anaoTxSabaTi, 3 noemberi, 1943Zvirfaso kiwi!mama mudam imaze fiqrobs, rogor gagvarTos da amave dros swavlisaTvissaWiro pirobebi Segviqmnas. axlaxan erT-erTi dauswrebeli institutisprospeqti gamoiwera. margom ukve mesamed gadaikiTxa es sqeli wigni, magramsaintereso veraferi aRmoaCina. fiqrobs, swavlis fuli TviTon gadaixados,sakuTari jibis fulidan, magram yvelaferi Zalian Zviria. mamam SeukveTasacdeli leqcia: laTinuri damwyebTaTvis. margo gulmodgined Seudga saqmes damTeli kursi SeukveTa. samwuxarod miWirs, Torem mec siamovnebiT viswavlidilaTinurs.mama cdilobs mec gamiCinos saqme da koophoiss sTxova eSova sadmesabavSvo saxareba, raTa axal aRTqmas gavecno.— rao, Sen ginda anes saxanukod saxareba aCuqo? — hkiTxa margomgaocebiT.— minda, magram ara... wminda nikolozis dRes ufro Sesaferia. qristesaraferi aqvs saerTo xanukasTan, — upasuxa mamam.mtversasruti gagvifuWda. amieridan yovel saRamos jagrisiT undavwmindo xaliCa fanjrebdagmanul, Rumelisagan daxuTul, xelovnuradganaTebul oTaxSi.`ara, ase ar ivargebs~, gavifiqre me. da marTlac, haerSi dagubebulmamtverma dedas Tavi aatkiva, xaliCas ki WuWyi mainc ar moscilda. mama gabrazda,saxli daulagebeliao. adamianis xvedri amqveynad umadurobaa!jerjerobiT Cxubi da kinklaoba miwynarda. mxolod duseli emduris vandaanebs. qalbaton van daans duseli aseTi sityvebiT amkobs: `gamosulelebuli

Zroxa~, an `beberi dekeuli~, qalbatoni ki am ucodvel, didad ganswavlul kacs,romelsac yvelaferi swyins, `Sinaberas~ da `damwnilebul berbiWas~ eZaxis.`virma virs didyura dauZaxao!~anaorSabaTi, 8 noemberi, 1943 (saRamo)Zvirfaso kiwi!Tu ki odesme Cems werilebs erTmaneTis miyolebiT gadaikiTxav, mixvdebi,rom sxvadasxva ganwyobilebiTaa dawerili. sisulelea, rom aq, am TavSesafarSi,amdenad var damokidebuli Cems ganwyobilebaze. magram marto me ki ara, yvelaasea. roca iseT wigns vkiTxulob, romelic Cemze did STabeWdilebas axdens,sanam sxvebs davenaxvebode, cota unda davmSvidde, Torem ifiqreben, Seqandao.Sen albaT SeamCnie, rogor mereva TandaTan sevdiani da damTrgunveliganwyobileba. Tavadac ar vici, ratom, mizezi ver gamominaxavs; SeiZlebasimxdalis bralia, rasac drodadro ver gavumklavdebi. am saRamos, roca elijer kidev aq iyo, zaris mkveTri xma gaisma. me mitkaliviT gavfiTrdi, muceliamtkivda, guli amitokda, SiSisagan kinaRam movkvdi. saRamoobiT loginSiyovelgvari saSineleba melandeba. xan sapyrobileSi var martodmartogamoketili, xan gzadabneuli davexetebi, xan Cveni TavSesafari iwvis, xanac RameCvens wasayvanad modian.yovelive amas ise ganvicdi, TiTqos cxadad xdebodes da yovel wuTSiiseTi grZnoba maqvs, TiTqos raRac saSineleba mogvelis.mipi xSirad meubneba, mSurs Tqveni, TqvenTan siwynareao. principSiSeiZleba marTalia, magram aviwydeba, rom Cven mudmiv SiSSi vcxovrobT. me vercki warmomidgenia, rom qveyana iseTive iqneba odesme CvenTvis, rogoric iyo.Tumca xSirad vambobT: `omis Semdeg!~ magram es sityvebi ise JRers, TiTqoshaerovan koSkze an iseT rameze vlaparakobdeT, rac arasodes ar iqcevasinamdviled. xolo Cveni uwindeli cxovreba, saxli, megobari gogonebi, skola,masTan dakavSirebuli sixaruli da mwuxareba, yvelaferi `adrindeli~ isemagondeba, TiTqos es viRac sxvam ganicada da ara me.iseTi grZnoba maqvs, TiTqos Cven, rva adamiani, wvimis bnel RrublebsSoris lurji cis naTel naglejze varT moqceuli. jerjerobiT mSvidad varT,magram Rrublebi sul ufro mWidrovdeba. sul ufro metad ikvreba wre,romelic aqamde moaxloebul safrTxes gvaSorebda. da bolos imdenaddabnelda irgvliv, rom sasowarkveTilni uSedegod vawydebiT erTmaneTs davcdilobT Tavs vuSveloT, gaveqceT aqaurobas. Cven vxedavT, rogor ebrZvianerTmaneTs adamianebi dedamiwaze da vixedebiT zecisaken, sadac simSvide dabednierebaa. magram gzas gviRobavs sqeli, TvalSeuvali farda, romelicgadaulaxavi kedeliviT gvartyia irgvliv da roca dro mova, gagvsress. me isRadamrCenia, vevedro da vemudaro: `o, wreo, wreo, ganerTe da gaiTiSe, gagviSvigareT!~.anaxuTSabaTi, 11 noemberi, 1943xotba Cemi avtokalmisa`in memoriam~ 1 ( 1 mosagonari (laT.).)avtokalami mudam Zvirfasi ganZi iyo CemTvis. didadac vafasebdi, radganoqros wveri hqonda da me mxolod aseTi kalmiT vwer kargad. Cemma kalmistarmaxangrZlivi, saintereso cxovreba ganvlo, amitom giambob mis ambavs.roca cxra wlis viyavi, miviReT (bambaSi SefuTnili) avtokalami,romelsac zemodan ewera `ufaso nimuSi~. es didebuli saCuqari Cemma sayvarelmabebiam gamomigzavna. igi maSin aaxenSi cxovrobda. me gripiT viyavi avad daviweqi, gareT ki Tebervlis susxiani qari qroda. tyavis wiTel budeSi Cadebulisaucxoo kalami maSinve vaCvene Cems megobrebs da nacnobebs. me, ane franki, amkalmis Rirseuli mflobeli gavxdi. roca aTi weli Semisrulda, neba damrTes,

avtokalami skolaSi wameRo. maswavlebelma ki ufleba momca gakveTilebze amkalmiT mewera.samwuxarod, momaval wels Cemi Zvirfasi ganZis saxlSi datoveba momixda,radgan meeqvse klasis damrigebeli moiTxovda, mxolod saskolo kalmebiTgvewera.roca Tormeti wlis gavxdi da ebraelTa liceumSi gadavedi,kalmistrisaTvis axali organyofilebiani bude maCuqes (erTi fanqrisaTvis),romelsac moxdenili `elva~ Sesakravi hqonda. xolo roca cametis Sevsruldi,kalmistari TavSesafarSi wamoviRe da erTgul samsaxurs miwevda Sromasa daSenTan saubarSi. axla ToTxmetisa var da man CemTan ukanaskneli weliwadigaatara...paraskevs, nasadilevs Cemi oTaxidan saerTo oTaxSi gavedi. mindodamagidasTan davmjdariyavi da memuSava. magram mama da margo laTinursswavlobdnen da Seubraleblad gamomistumres. kalmistari magidaze damrCa. anemagidis kuTxeSi unda miyuJuliyo da oxvra-vaebiT `lobio gadaerCia~, ese igi,lobios yavisferi marcvlebisTvis obi moecilebina.eqvss rom TxuTmeti wuTi aklda, iataki gamovgave da nagavi lobiosnarCenebTan erTad RumelSi Sevyare. uecrad Zlieri ali avarda. me gamexarda,rom TiTqmis Camqrali cecxli kvlav gaCaRda. amasobaSi `laTinistebma~ saqmemoaTaves. axla ukve SemeZlo mivjdomodi magidas da mecadineoba damewyo. magramkalami arsad Canda. yvelaferi gadavqeqe, margoc momexmara, bolos deda, mama daduselic SemogvierTdnen, magram Cemi Zvirfasi megobari ukvalod gaqra.`iqneb lobios narCenebTan erTad RumelSi Seagde~, Tqva margom. `o, aramgonia!~ vupasuxe me. kalmistari saRamomde veZieT, versad aRmovaCineT da bolosgadavwyviteT, rom daiwva, radgan celuloidi SesaniSnavad iwvis. Cveni varaudigamarTlda. meore dRes mamam nacarSi kalmistris buniki ipova. oqroskalmisagan aRaraferi darCeniliyo. `etyoba, galxva da nacars Seeria~, Tqvamamam. Tumc ra saTqmelia, magram erTi ram mainc manugeSebs:Cemma kalamma kremacia ganicada, rasac Cems Tavsac vusurvebdi momavalSi!anaoTxSabaTi, 17 noemberi, 1943Zvirfaso kiwi!katastroful mdgomareobaSi aRmovCndiT. elis ojaxSi difteriamZvinvarebs da eqvsi kviris ganmavlobaSi CvenTan ver mova! cxadia,TanavugrZnobT elis, magram Zalze usiamoa isic, rom sakvebi da momaragebamogvakldeba! batoni koophoisi isev wevs, rZisa da fafis mets verafers Wams.kraleri Zlivs arTmevs Tavs saqmes!margom laTinur enaSi davalebebi Seasrula, instituts gaugzavna dagasworebuli ukanve miiRo. etyoba, maswavlebeli Tavaziani da Wkviani kacia.albaT uxaria, rom aseTi niWieri mowafe gauCnda. mimowera elis saxeliTwarmoebs.duseli rogorRac gamoicvala da aravin icis, ratom. daiwyo imiT, rombaton da qalbaton van daanebs xmas aRar scems. es garemoeba yvelam SevamCnieTda, radgan ramdenime dRe gagrZelda, dedam gadawyvita, dusels molaparakeboda,eTxova, ar gaemwvavebina mdgomareoba. xom ici, qalbaton van daans emarjveba,wvrilmanebze mTeli ambavi aagos. duselma ganacxada, rom pirvelad batonma vandaanma ugulebelyo igi da xma ar gasca, amitom mas araviTari survili ara aqvsdaarRvios dumili. guSin, 16 noembers, erTi weli Sesrulda, rac duseliCvenTan gadmosaxlda. amasTan dakavSirebiT dedas yvavilebi miarTva, xoloqalbatoni van daani, romelic yoveldRe eubneboda gadakvriT, aseTSemTxvevebSi saCuqris mirTmeva miRebuliao, uyuradRebod datova da nacvladimisa, rom uangaro maspinZlobisaTvis madloba gadaexada, xma ar gaucia.diliT, roca vkiTxe, mogilocoT Tu TanagrZnoba gamogicxadoT-meTqi, manmipasuxa: CemTvis yvelaferi sul erTiao. deda apirebda, mSvidobis angelozis

keTilSobiluri roli Seesrulebina, magram veraferi gaawyo da yvelaferiZveleburad darCa.`WkuiT didi kaci iyo,saqmeebiT ki patara!~anaSabaTi, 27 noemberi, 1943Zvirfaso kiwi!guSin saRamos, roca daZinebas vapirebdi, Tvalwin naTlad warmomidgalisi. idga Cems win dakonkili, gamxdari, ybebCacvenili. misi didi, sevdianiTvalebi sayveduriT micqerdnen, TiTqos meubnebodnen: `ana, ratom mimatove,damexmare, mixseni am jojoxeTidan!~me ki verafriT davexmarebi, SemiZlia mxolod Soridan vucqiroadamianebis tanjvas da sikvdils da RmerTs Sevevedro, daifaros lisi, kvlavSegvaxvedros erTmaneTs. me mgoni, gasagebia, ratom gamomecxada lisi da arasxva vinme. me masze arasworad vmsjelobdi, bavSvurad, ar mesmoda misi wuxili.lisis Zalian uyvarda Tavisi megobari gogona da eSinoda, ar wamerTmia! rogorganicdida albaT amas, me vici, CemTvis nacnobia es grZnoba!zogjer gakvriT vfiqrobdi masze, magram egoizmi mZlevda da isev Cemssixarulsa da dards vubrundebodi.ra cudad viqceodi, axla ki gafiTrebuli lisi sevdianad miyurebsmudariT savse TvalebiT... o, rom SemeZlos daxmareba!o, RmerTo Cemo, me aq TiTqmis yvelaferi maqvs, rasac ki movisurveb, is kimuxTali bedis anabaraa mitovebuli! mas CemsaviT swamda RmerTi da yvelasaTvissikeTe surda. ratom unda gadavrCe me, is ki sadRac Cakvdes? ra gansxvavebaaCvens Soris? ratom dagvaSores erTmaneTs?gulaxdilad rom giTxra, lisi ramdenime Tvea ar momgonebia, TiTqmiserTi welia, magram arc damviwyebia. ver warmomedgina, Tu iseTi gaubedurebuliiyo, rogorc momevlina.eh, lisi, Tu oms gadaurCi, imedi maqvs, Cven gipatronebT. yvelafersgavakeTeb SenTvis, yvelafers, rac dagakeli.magram roca daxmarebis SesaZlebloba momecema, lisi albaT cocxaliaRar iqneba. netav Tu fiqrobs Cemze? netav ra grZnoba aqvs Cems mimarT?RmerTo didebulo, mixede lisis, nu agrZnobineb, rom yvelam miatova,uTxari, rom bevrs vfiqrob masze, miyvars da mebraleba. iqneb aman Zala Sematos.ara, aRar SemiZlia amaze fiqri. mudam Tvalwin midgas misi sevdiani, Cemskenmopyrobili Tvalebi.Rrmad gaujda lisis rwmena gulSi, Tu mxolod ufrosebma Caunerges? mees ar vici da arc arasdros mikiTxavs misTvis. lis, lis, neta SemeZlos Senidabruneba, netav momeces saSualeba gagiziaro yvelaferi, rac maqvs. ukvegvianaa, Zalze gvianaa, veRarafers vuSveli da veRarc imas gamovasworeb, racdroze xelidan gavuSvi! magram me mas arasdros ar daviviwyeb, RmerTsSevavedreb mudam!anaoTxSabaTi, 22 dekemberi 1943Zvirfaso kiwi!avad viyavi. gripi mqonda, amitomac ver gwerdi regularulad.avadmyofoba aq TiTqmis katastrofaa. roca xvela amivardeboda, sabnis qveSvZvrebodi da vcdilobdi Tavi Semekavebina. amis Sedegad ki xma mexliCeboda damanamde ar gamivlida, sanam Taflian rZes anda xvelebis sawinaaRmdego kvers armomcemdnen. roca magondeba, rogor mmkurnalobdnen, Tvalebi axlac miWreldeba.oflis dena, yelze kompresebi, sveli SefuTvna, mSrali SefuTvna, cxelisasmelebi, gaunZrevlad wola, yelSi gamovleba, yelSi amocxeba, saTburebi,cxeli sabnebi da yovel or saaTSi sicxis gazomva. Sen rogor ggonia, SeiZlebaadamiani ase morCes? magram yvelaze uaresi is iyo, rom duselma eqimis roli

ikisra da pomadian Tavs SiSvel mkerdze madebda: xixini Tu ismiso. jer erTi,misi Tma miRutunebda, meorec, im udavo faqtis miuxedavad, rom igi 30 wliswinaT medicinas swavlobda da eqimis wodeba miiRo, mainc merideboda. ra saqmeaqvs am kacs Cems mkerdTan? Cemi Seyvarebuli xom ar aris! xolo imas, Tu raxdeba Cems gulSi da saRia Tu ara, mainc ver gaigebs. garda amisa, jer kargadunda gamoiwmindos yurebi, radgan Cemi azriT, cota yurT aklia.rogorc iqna movrCi! isev fexze var. erTi santimetriT gavizarde da origirvanqa movimate. Tumca jerac fermkrTali var, magram energia momemata damuSaoba mominda.am xnis ganmavlobaSi CvenTan axali araferi momxdara. marTla, uCveuloambavia, erTmaneTSi yvela SesaniSnavad varT. aravin ar Cxubobs, ager naxevariwelia, rac Cvens saxlSi aseTi simSvide ar yofila.elis jer kidev ar SeuZlia CvenTan mosvla.saSobaod yvelas daurigeben damatebiT zeTs, tkbileuls da jems purzewasacxebad. maCuqes lamazi, savsebiT Tanamedrove ornaxevarcentiani monetisagangakeTebuli gulis qinZisTavi, romelic didebulad brwyinavs da krialebs.duselma dedas da qalbaton van daans torti miarTva, romelic misi TxovniTmipma gamoacxo. esRa aklda SromiT qancgawyvetils. mipisa da elisaTvis mecmaqvs raRac Senaxuli. TiTqmis ori Tvea vagrovebdi Saqars, romelsac fafazemosayrelad maZlevdnen da axla batoni koophoisi am Saqrisagan SaqaryinulsgaakeTebinebs.amindi Zils gvgvris, Rumeli bolavs, saWmeli kuWze gvawveba, rasacnaklebad esTetikuri bgerebi mowmobs.TiTqos omic ar iZvris adgilidan...ganwyobileba nulze dabalia!anaparaskevi, 24 dekemberi, 1943Zvirfaso kiwi!araerTxel miTqvams SenTvis, rom Cven aq didad varT damokidebuli Cvensganwyobilebaze. am bolo dros gansakuTrebiT mwvaved vgrZnob Tavs. ai, Cvenimdgomareobis Sesaferisi gamoTqma: `xan zeciuri aRmafrena momicavs, xan Rrmamwuxareba~. zeciuri aRmafrena maSin momicavs, roca vfiqrob, Tu ra kargadmovewyveT aq sxva ebraelebTan SedarebiT, Rrma mwuxareba ki... diax, aseTiganwyobileba meufleba, roca mesmis, rom Cveni kedlebis miRma cxovreba TavisigziT midis. dRes CvenTan qalbatoni koophoisi iyo da gviambo, rom misiqaliSvili kori sportiTaa gatacebuli, megobrebTan erTad naviT seirnobs,warmodgenebSi monawileobs. Tumca me Suriani ara var, magram roca aseTi rammesmis, udidesi survili mipyrobs, kvlav aRmovCnde megobrebs Soris,vimxiarulo sxvebTan erTad, udardelad da mxiarulad vicino! swored axlaiwyeba saSobao da saaxalwlo ardadegebi, Cven ki vsxedvarT aq, rogorcgankicxulni. simarTle rom iTqvas, me arca maqvs ufleba amgvari ram mogwero.albaT, umaduri mogeCvenebi. amave dros cotaTi vaWarbeb kidec, Tumca, racginda, is ifiqre Cemze... ar SemiZlia, gulSi davitio yvelaferi. amitom erTxelvTqvi da axlac vimeoreb: `qaRaldi yvelafers aitans!~roca quCidan yinvisagan loyebawiTlebuli adamiani Semodis da mistansacmels qaris ganumeorebeli suni asdis, minda Tavze sabani wavifaro, romgaveqce Tavisuflebaze fiqrs: `rodis, rodis gveRirseba, gavideT gareT, sufTahaerze!~vici, damalva ar SeiZleba, piriqiT mamacurad, yoCaRad unda meWiros Tavi,magram sakuTar azrebs ver verevi, tvins miRrRnian. merwmune, roca weliwadnaxevarigamoketili xar, uaresic mogiva, dae, vcdebode, merqvas umaduri, magramgrZnobebs xom versad gaeqcevi. minda vicekvo, vixtuno, davqrode velosipediT,viyo Tavisufali, vixilo qveyana, davtkbe Cemi axalgazrdobiT! magram amasmxolod Sen gwer, sxvebTan ver gamovamJRavneb. yvelam rom wuwuni movrToT dadaRvremili saxiT viaroT, sanamde mivalT?

zogjer vfiqrob:`esmis ki vinmes Seni, iqneb ise giyureben, rogorc patara gogonas,romelic mxolod garTobaze fiqrobs? SeiZleba, ar vici da verc veravisvkiTxav, radgan im wamsve avqviTindebi... raoden Svebas vigrZnobdi, erTxel maincrom SemeZlos tiriliT guli vijero! vcdilob, ar SevimCnio es, yovelgvarTeoriebs vTxzav da mainc yoveldRe sul ufro da ufro mwvaved vgrZnob,rogor maklia namdvili deda, romelic gamigebda. amitom, rasac unda vakeTebde,rasac unda vwerde, mudam erTi fiqri mitrialebs — momavalSi CemiSvilebisaTvis viyo iseTi deda, rogorsac CemTvis vnatrob: `dediko~, romelicyovel sityvas tragediad ar gadaaqcevs da seriozulad moekideba yvelafers,rac mis Svils aRelvebs. vgrZnob, rom azri ise ver gamovTqvi, rogorc mindoda,magram sityva `dediko~ yvelafers ambobs. ici, ra movigone! dedas rom rogormedediko davuZaxo? xSirad veubnebi `ged~, aqedan gamodis `gediko~, ese igidamaxinjebuli `dediko~. ra siamovnebiT vityodi marTla dedikos `d~-zemaxviliT. kidev kargi, rom deda verafers xvdeba, Torem guli etkineboda.kmara! daufaravad giTxari, rac CemSi Rrma mwuxarebas iwvevs da mgonimarTlac momeSva gulze.anaSabaTi, 25 dekemberi, 1943Zvirfaso kiwi!dRes Sobis pirveli dRea. ganuwyvetliv vfiqrob pimze, romelmac SarSanTavisi pirveli siyvarulis ambavi miambo. maSin me misi sityvebis mniSvnelobaise ar mesmoda, rogorc axla. netav kidev erTxel melaparakos am sakiTxze,rogorme mivaxvedrebdi, rom kargad mesmis misi.Cemi azriT, pimi maSin imitom iyo gulaxdili, rom `yvelas gulismesaidumlea~ da zogjer masac uCndeba survili, sxvas gauziaros sakuTarigulisnadebi. pimi Cveulebriv Tavis Tavze arafers ambobs da margos albaTwarmodgena ara aqvs, ramdeni ram ganucdia cxovrebaSi. sabralo pimi, verdamarwmunebs, rom yvelaferi daiviwya. aseT rames adamiani verasodes daiviwyebs.ufro TavdaWerili gaxda. minda cotaTi mainc davemsgavso mas, oRond ar mindais gadavitano, rac man gadaitana.aneorSabaTi, 27 dekemberi, 1943Zvirfaso kiwi!Cems sicocxleSi pirvelad miviRe saSobao saCuqari. Cvenma orma megobarmaqalma koophoisTan da kralerTan erTad saucxoo siurprizi mogvimzades. mipmaRvezeli gamoacxo da aseTi ram waawera: `mSvidoba 1944~. elim sadRac naxevarikilo omamdeli namcxvari iSova. garda amisa, peters, margos da me TiTo boTlikefiri mogvarTves, ufrosebs ki TiTo boTli ludi. yvelaferi lamazad iyoSefuTvnili. yvela pakets Sesaferisi leqsi axlda.Sobam swrafad gairbina.anaoTxSabaTi, 29 dekemberi, 1943Zvirfaso kiwi!guSin saRamos kvlav momeria sevda. Tvalwin bebiko da lisi warmomidgnen!bebiko, Cemi Zvirfasi bebiko! ra cudad gvesmoda misi tanjva. mas ki yovelTvisecala CvenTvis, yvelafers xvdeboda, rac Cven gvawuxebda. maSin ukve mZimeavadmyofi iyo, iqneb icoda kidec es ambavi, magram, rom ar SevewuxebineT,arafers ambobda. Cemi bebiko mudam keTili da alersiani iyo. aravin wasulamisgan ise, rom rCeva, nugeSi da daxmareba ar mieRo. maSin me saSineligaugonari viyavi, magram rac unda Camedina, yvelafers mounaxavda gamarTlebas.Cemo bebiko, marTla Zalian giyvardi Tu Senc ar gesmoda Cemi! ar vici,verafers vityvi: Tumca Cven erTad vcxovrobdiT, magram albaT mainc martoobas

grZnobda. diax martoobas, radgan, Tu gverdiT iseTi aravin gyavs, visac qveyanasurCevnixar, SeiZleba bevrs uyvarde da mainc martoobas grZnobde. neta sad arislisi, cocxalia Tu ara? ra dReSia? RmerTo daifare da dagvibrune igi! lisi,me Sens magaliTze vxedav, rogor SeiZleboda warmarTuliyo Cemi cxovreba daCems Tavs mudam Sens adgilze vayeneb. gana amis Semdeg aqauri ambebi aseubedurs unda mxdides, gana im wuTebis gamoklebiT, roca Senze da imadamianebze vfiqrob, romlebsac aseTive xvedri xvda wilad, madlieri,mxiaruli da kmayofili ar unda viyo?magram mxdali da egoisti var! ratom melandeba mudam yovelgvarisaSineleba, ratom vfiqrob amaze imdens, rom mzad var xmamaRla viyviro?imitom, rom CemSi araa WeSmariti rwmena! RmerTma imdeni momca, ramdenic ardamimsaxurebia, me ki yoveldRe vakeTeb raRac iseTs, rac saWiro araa.roca axloblebze vfiqrob, Tvalze cremli madgeba. sinamdvileSidilidan saRamomde unda vtirode. Cven mxolod erTi ram dagvrCenia: vevedroTRmerTs, iqneb saswauli moaxdinos da zog maTgans sicocxle SeunarCunos. da mevloculob, vloculob mxurvaled, mTeli guliT.anakvira, 2 ianvari, 1944Zvirfaso kiwi!am diliT saqme araferi mqonda da Cemi dRiuri gadavikiTxe, aRmovaCineiseTi werilebi, romlebSic RvarZlianad, TiTqmis aRSfoTebiT vlaparakobdedaze. me SemeSinda da Cems Tavs vkiTxe: nuTu es Sena xar, ane, nuTu SenSiaamdeni siZulvili, nuTu es SesaZlebelia?vijeqi skamze gadaSlili rveuliT xelSi da vfiqrobdi: rogor moxda,rom CemSi amdeni RvarZli da siZulvili dagrovda. Sevecade CavwvdomodimaSindel anes da gamemarTlebina, radgan Tu ver agixseni, risTvis wavuyenededas amdeni braldeba, sindisi Semawuxebs. me yovelTvis viyavi da axlac varganwyobis adamiani. mxatvrulad rom vTqvaT, xSirad im myvinTavs vgavar,romelsac wyalqveS yvelaferi damaxinjebulad eCveneba. yvelafers subieqturadvudgebodi da sul ar vcdilvar dinjad gavrkveuliyavi sxvis naTqvamSi. maSiniqneb ukeT gamego mowinaaRmdegis argumentebi da sxvagvarad moviqceodi,daviokebdi Cems ficx xasiaTs da Seuracxyofas ar mivayenebdi sxvebs.me mxolod Cems Tavs vxedavdi, Cem TavSi Cavikete da aravis dardi armqonda, gwerdi Cems sixarulze, dardze, dagrovil geslze da gulsvimsubuqebdi. Cemi dRiuri axla CemTvis uzomod Zvirfasia, radgan mogonebebiswignad iqca, Tumca SemiZlia bevri ram wavSalo, xazi gadavusva da qveSmivawero: `warsuls Cabarda~.xSirad gavbrazebulvar dedaze, xandaxan axlac vbrazob. marTalia, masCemi ar esmis, magram, arc me mesmis misi. Cemi dedaa, nazad da kargad mepyroba,magram xSirad usiamovneba mimiyenebia misTvis da ra gasakviria, Tugamibrazdeboda, ra gasakviria, Tu am ambavma da yvelaferma, rasac igi aqganicdis, nervebi auSala da ficxi gaxada. me amas ver vxedavdi, Seuracxyofasvayenebdi, uxeSad veqceodi da mwuxarebas vmatebdi.aman didi gaugebroba, didi usiamovneba gamoiwvia da orives vnebasgvayenebda, magram axla yvelaferi es warsuls Cabarda.advili gasagebia, ratom ar mindoda arafris danaxva da sakuTar Tavsratom vayenebdi tkivils. Cemi urCoba borotebis gadmonTxeva iyo, magramCveulebriv pirobebSi ganvmartovdebodi da mowmeebis gareSe rogormedavZlevdi am nakls. Caviketebodi Cems oTaxSi, ramdenjerme magraddavabakunebdi fexebs da dedis zurgs ukan movioxebdi guls.wavida is dro, roca deda Cems gamo tiroda. me ufro gonieri gavxdi dadedac cotaTi damSvidda. roca gajavrebuli var, enas kbils vaWer, dedac aseiqceva da gacilebiT ukeT vcxovrobT. me ar SemiZlia miyvardes deda ise brmad,rogorc es bavSvebs sCveviaT, CemSi raRac ewinaaRmdegeba amas, magram sindiss

imiT vimSvideb, rom jobs am qaRaldze vilanZRebode, vidre dedas vuxeTqavdeguls.anaoTxSabaTi, 5 ianvari, 1944Zvirfaso kiwi!dRes or rameSi unda gamogityde, rac, cxadia, did dros moiTxovs. vinmesxom unda gadavuSalo guli da jobia isev Sen, radgan vici mudam, yovelgvarviTarebaSi, dumxar. pirveli dedas exeba. Sen ici, ramdeni sayveduri miTqvamsdedaze. da mainc mudam vcdilobdi alersianad movqceodi. uecrad mivxvdi, raaklia mas Cems TvalSi. dedam TviTon gviTxra, megobrebad ufro mimaCnixarT,vidre Svilebado. amas ra jobia, magram megobari dedis magivrobas ver gaswevs.dedas unda mibaZo, idealad miiCnio. vgoneb margo am ambavs sul sxvanairaduyurebs da ver gaigebs, rasac me aq vwer, mama ki yovelTvis gaurbis am Temazesaubars. Cems warmodgenaSi deda pirvel rigSi unda iyos adamiani, romelsacZalian didi taqti aqvs, gansakuTrebiT Cemi asakis Svilebis mimarT da ar undaiqceodes dedaCemiviT, romelic damcinis, roca vtiri, vtiri ara imitom, romraRac mtkiva, aramed ubralod guli maqvs damZimebuli.SeiZleba ucnaurad mogeCvenos, magram erT rames verasodes vapatieb.erTxel kbilis eqimTan damWirda wasvla. margo da deda Tan wamomyvnen da nebadamrTes velosipediT memgzavra. roca eqimis kabinetidan gamovediT, maT iqvekarebTan miTxres, rom qalaqSi apireben wasvlas raRacis sayidlad Tusanaxavad. axla zustad aRar maxsovs. mec mindoda wavyolodi maT, magramvelosipedi xels miSlida. guldawyvetilma tirili movrTe, maT ki sasacilodamigdes. me ise gavcecxldi, rom quCaSi orives ena gamovuyavi. viRac mdabioqals, romelmac gverdiT Camiara, SeeSinda. saxlSi velosipediT marto wavedida kidev didxans vbRaodi.saocaria magram, sakmarisia gavixseno, ra Zlier gavbrazdi maSin, romtkivili, romelic dedam momayena, isev miaxldeba.Zalian miWirs laparaki meore ambavze, romelic piradad me mexeba. guSinwavikiTxe sis haisteris statia, romelSic aRwerilia, ra mizezis gamowiTldeba adamiani. iseTi grZnoba mqonda, TiTqos me mommarTavda. marTalia, meadvilad ar vwiTldebi, magram statia zustad Cemzea dawerili. avtori ambobs,momwifebis periodSi qaliSvili ufro mSvidia, ufro Cafiqrebuli, TiTqosakvirdeba im saswauls, romelic mis sxeulSi xdeba. am bolo dros asememarTeba mec da margosi da mSoblebis mrcxvenia. Tumca sxva mxriv margo Cemzeufro morcxvia, magram am sakiTxSi ratomRac Cemi ar erideba. me mwvavedvgrZnob garegnuli cvlilebebis saocrebas da kidev ufro metad Sinagancvlilebebs. da radgan veravisTan milaparakia imaze, rac maRelvebs, vcdilobTviTon gaverkve.roca `avadmyofoba~ mewyeba, — aqamde samjer mqonda, — tkivils,usiamovnebas da uxerxulobas ganvicdi, magram iseTi grZnoba maqvs, TiTqossakuTar TavSi raRac sanukvar saidumloebas vatareb. miuxedavad siZneleebisa,siamovnebiT velodebi im dros, roca kvlav ganvicdi amas. sis haisteri ambobs,rom Cemi asakis qaliSvilebi jer kidev ar arian Tavis TavSi darwmunebulni,mxolod mogvianebiT Seicnoben sakuTari arsebobis mniSvnelobas dadamoukidebeli azrebi, ideebi da Cvevebi uCndebaT. roca TavSesafarSigadmovediT, me mxolod cameti wlisa viyavi. cxovrebaze fiqri ratomRac sxvagogonebze adre daviwye da vigrZeni, rom adamiani var, adamiani, romelic Tavsaravis daaCagvrinebs. zogjer saRamoobiT ar SemiZlia, ar Sevexo Cems mkerds daar vigrZno, ra mSvidad, ra saimedod micems guli.jer kidev adre, aq mosvlamde, amdagvari ram vigrZeni. erTxel megobargogonasTan gavaTie Rame. vkiTxe, Cveni megobrobis niSnad xom ar SevexoTmkerdebiT erTmaneTs-meTqi. man uari ganacxada. me mudam msiamovnebda misi kocnada xalisiTac vakeTebdi amas. roca SiSveli qalis, magaliTad, veneras

qandakebas vucqeri, eqstazi mipyrobs, misi mSveneba ise moqmedebs Cemze, romcremls Zlivs vikaveb, ah, neta myavdes megobari gogona!anaxuTSabaTi, 6 ianvari, 1943Zvirfaso kiwi!udidesi survili mqonda vinmesTan mesaubra, da ar vici ratom, avirCiemaincdamainc peteri. zeviT, peterTan mudam vpoulobdi myudroebas, magram igiimdenad morcxvia, rom xelis SemSlelsac ki ver daiTxovs oTaxidan. amitomadre ver vbedavdi didxans davrCeniliyavi masTan, megona moswyindeboda CemsgverdiT yofna.axla ki SeumCnevlad vcdilob, rac SeiZleba didxans davrCe masTan dasaubari gavaba. guSin kargi sababi momeca. am bolo dros peteri krosvordebismaniiTaa Sepyrobili da mTeli dRis ganmavlobaSi mets arafers akeTebs.gadavwyvite, davxmarebodi. da ai, Cven vsxedvarT magidasTan erTmaneTispirispir, peteri skamze, me ki divanze. yovelTvis, roca muq lurj TvalebSiCavxedav da vakvirdebi, rogor dasTamaSebs pirze Rimili, guli saocradmekumSeba. ase mgonia, mis suls vwvdebi da vkiTxulob. saxeze meryeoba, umweobada amave dros Tavisi mamakacuri Zalis Segneba aweria. misi morcxvoba isemaTvinierebs, rom mudam mis Tvalebs veZeb. Zalian minda vTxovo: `nu geSinia,miambe yvelaferi, rac SenSi xdeba~. saRamo miiwura, Cvens Soris ki araferimomxdara. me mas mxolod sis haisteris statia gavacani, vuambe, ratomwiTldebian adamianebi, Tumca ara ise, rogorc Sen mogwere. yovelive amasimitom vambobdi, rom mindoda odnav gaTamamebuliyo.saRamos sawolSi Cavufiqrdi yvelafers da ar mesiamovna, peteriskeTilganwyobilebas rom aseT did mniSvnelobas vaniWeb. sakvirvelia, ras argaakeTebs adamiani, oRond Tavisas miaRwios. nimuSad SegiZlia me gamomiyeno.gadavwyvite, xSirad mivakiTxo peters da vaiZulo, guli gadamixsnas. argegonos, Seyvarebuli viyo, amaze laparakic zedmetia. van daanebs rom vaJisnacvlad qaliSvili hyolodaT, me albaT masac davumegobrdebodi.am diliT adre gameRviZa, Svidi saaTic ar iqneboda. im wamsve cxadadaRdga Cems SegnebaSi wuxandeli sizmari. me vzivar magidasTan, Cems pirdapirzis peteri... peter veseli. Cven ilustrirebul wigns vaTvalierebT. sizmariimdenad cxadi iyo, rom suraTebic ki maxsovs. magram sizmari amiT argaTavebula. Cveni mzera erTmaneTs Sexvda da me didxans vixedebodi mismSvenier Taflisfer, xaverdovan TvalebSi. bolos peterma Zlivs gasagonadmiTxra: `es rom mcodnoda, aqamde movidodi SenTan!~am sityvebma ise amaRelva, rom maSinve piri vibrune. uecrad loyazepeteris loya vigrZeni da raRac saocrad sasiamovno grZnoba dameufla. misloyas gaRviZebis Semdegac vgrZnobdi da ase megona misma mSvenierma TvalebmaRrmad Camxeda gulSi da amoikiTxa, ra Zlier miyvarda da miyvars. magram rocamomagonda, ra Sors iyo Cemgan, Tvalze cremli momadga da guli naRveliTamevso, Tumca sixarulic mewvia, radgan vigrZeni, rom peteri mTeli guliTmiyvars. saocaria, ra cxadi sizmrebi maqvs aq. pirvelad sizmarSi bebia (mamisdeda) vnaxe da ise cxadad, rom mis saxeze naoWebs vamCnevdi. mere momevlinameore bebia (dedis deda) mfarveli angelozis saxiT, Semdeg ki lisi, romelicmTeli im ubedurebis simboloa, rac Cems megobar gogonebs da ebraelebs TavsdaatydaT. roca misTvis vloculob, vloculob yvela ebraelisa da yveladevnili da ubeduri adamianisaTvis.axla ki myavs peteri, Cemi sayvareli peteri, ase cxadad me igi arasodesdaminaxavs, arafrad mWirdeba fotosuraTi. igi Cems mexsierebaSia aRbeWdili daZalian miyvars.anaparaskevi, 7 ianvari, 1944Zvirfaso kiwi!

a suleli var! aqamde azradac ar momsvlia, meambna SenTvis Cemigatacebisa da Cemi Tayvanismcemlebis ambavi.jer kidev sul patara viyavi, mgoni sabavSvo baRSi davdiodi, roca karlsamsoni momewona. mas mama ar hyavda da dedasTan erTad deidasTan cxovrobda.misi deidaSvili bibi, Wkviani, tanadi, Savgvremani biWuna, gacilebiT metadmoswonda yvelas, vidre Casuqebuli da sasacilo karli. garegnobas meyuradRebas ar vaqcevdi da wlebis manZilze vmegobrobdi masTan. Cven didxansviyaviT namdvili, kargi amxanagebi. Semdeg peters Sevxvdi da pirvelma bavSvurmasiyvarulma mTlianad damipyro. me axlac cxadad vxedav, rogor davdiodiTquCaSi xelCakidebulni. peters tilos kostiumi ecva, me — sazafxulo kaba.male igi realur saswavlebelSi gadavida, me ki ufros mosamzadebelklasSi Sevedi. xan is gamomivlida skolaSi, xan me gavuvlidi. peteri lamazi,maRali, tanadi, warmosadegi ymawvili iyoკ da mSvidi, seriozuli, Wkviani saxehqonda. muqi Tma, RaJRaJa, mzemokidebuli loyebi, mSvenieri TaflisferiTvalebi da Txeli cxviri xatavda. gansakuTrebiT miyvarda misi sicili. amdros bavSvuri gamometyveleba hqonda.zafxulis ardadegebze qalaqidan gavediT. roca davbrundi, peteri sxvabinaSi gadasuliyo da masze bevrad ufrosi ymawvilis mezoblad cxovrobda.miuxedavad amisa, isini ganuyreli megobrebi gaxdnen. etyoba im biWma uTxrapeters, rom jer kidev lifsita var da peterma Tavi damaneba. me ise miyvardapeteri, rom didxans ar mjeroda es ambavi, magram bolos vifiqre, devna romdavuwyo `mususs~ damiZaxeben-meTqi da moveSvi.gadioda wlebi. peteri mxolod Tavis tol amxanagebTan megobrobda, mearc ki mesalmeboda, magram mainc ver viviwyebdi. roca ebraelTa liceumSigadavedi, bevr Cems Tanaklasel biWs Sevuyvardi. me, cxadia, nasiamovnebi,kmayofili viyavi, magram maTi yuradReba guls ar ekareboda.mere TavdaviwyebiT Sevuyvardi haris, magram rogorc giTxari, me aRaravinSemyvarebia.amboben: `dro kargi mkurnaliao!~ mec ase megona. TiTqos daviviwye peteri,guli avicrue masze, magram Cems qvecnobierebaSi mtkiced aRbeWdiliyosayvareli saxe da simarTles versad gaveqeci: ise veWvianobdi peteris yvelanacnob gogonaze, rom mis Rirsebas gangeb vakninebdi da vcdilobdi gulidanamomegdo.am diliT ki isev davrwmundi, rom araferi Secvlila. piriqiT, rac ufromemateboda xani da mowifuloba, miT ufro izrdeboda Cemi siyvarulic. axlamesmis, rom peteri bavSvad mTvlida, magram mainc guli mtkiva, rom ase swrafaddamiviwya. me ise cxadad vxedav mas, rom vici: ase veRaravin daepatroneba Cemsfiqrebs.sizmarma Tavgza amiria. am diliT, roca mamam makoca, kinaRam xmamaRlaviyvire: `ratom peteri ara xar!” mTeli dRe vimeoreb CemTvis: `o, petel, Cemosayvarelo petel~!vis SeuZlia damexmaros. minda kvlavac vicocxlo da RmerTs Sevevedro,roca aqedan gaval, peteri mapovninos. igi Cems TvalebSi amoikiTxavs ra Zliermiyvars da metyvis: `o, ane, rom mcodnoda, aqamde movidodi SenTan!~erTxel, roca seqsualur sakiTxze vsaubrobdiT, mamam miTxra: `jer Senver gaigeb, ras hqvia moTxovnileba~. me es maSinac vicodi, axla ki CemTvisyvelaferi cxadia!sarkeSi Cavixede da Cems Tavs davakvirdi. sul sxvanairad gamoviyurebi.Tvalebs siRrme da naTeli moemata, Rawvebi ise Semefakla, rogorc karga xaniaar mqonia, piris moxazulobac ufro nazia. bednieri gamometyveleba maqvs,magram Cems mzeraSi sevdaa Caqsovili da tuCebze Rimils miqrobs. me arSemiZlia bednieri viyo, radgan vici, rom peteri Cemze ar fiqrobs. Tumca isevda isev vgrZnob Cemsken mopyrobil mSvenier Tvalebs da Cems loyaze mis gril,rbil loyas.o, petel, petel, rogor daviviwyo Seni saxe! gana vinc Sens adgilsdaiWers, sacodavi ar iqneba? me Sen ise Zlier miyvarxar, rom siyvaruli gulSi

aRar meteva, cdilobs gadmoiRvaros, da mTeli siZlieriT TvalwingadameSalos.erTi kviris win, ara, guSinac rom vinmes ekiTxa, visze ginda gaTxovebao,vityodi: `ar vici!~ axla ki mzad var viyviro: `peterze, mxolod peterze,romelic mTeli guliT da suliT uangarod miyvars. magram zedmeti Jinianobaar unda gamoiCinos, me mas nebas vaZlev mxolod loyaze Semexos~.dRes sxvenze avedi, fanjarasTan Camovjeqi da masze vfiqrobdi. mcirexans visaubreT, Semdeg ki orive avtirdiT da me xelaxla vigrZeni misi tuCebi,misi loyis uaRresad nazi Sexeba.`o, peter, ifiqre Cemze da modi CemTan, Cemo sayvarelo, Cemo sanatrelopeter!~anaoTxSabaTi, 12 ianvari, 1944Zvirfaso kiwi!ToTxmeti dRea, rac eli CvenTanaa. mipi da henki ori dRea ar gamoCenilan,orives kuWi aqvs aSlili.axali ambavi. gamitaca cekvam da baletma. saRamoobiT bevrs vvarjiSob.cisferi maqmaniani qvedatanisagan dedam Semikera supermodernuli sacekvao kaba,zeviT naoWayrili, mkerdTan SesakraviT, qvemoT ki didi bafTa aqvs mokerebuli,magram Cemi sportuli fexsacmelebisagan sabaleto sandlebis gakeTebaverafriT movaxerxe.Cemi modunebuli saxsrebis gasaSlelad ukeTess verafers movigonebdi.male iseTive moqnili viqnebi, rogoric adre viyavi. ai, erTi kargi varjiSi:iatakze damjdari orive xeliT terfebs veWidebi da swrafad vwev fexebs zeviT.magram Cemi sacodavi kudusuni rom metismetad ar gailaxos, qveS baliSs videb.ufrosebi kiTxuloben wigns: `uRrublo dila~. dedas Zalian moswons.wigni Tanamedrove axalgazrdobis problemebs exeba. me ironiulad gavifiqre:`umjobesia, dainteresde im axalgazrdebiT, romlebTanac erT WerqveS cxovrob~.me mgonia, deda fiqrobs, rom ukeTesi urTierToba, vidre me da margosgvaqvs mSoblebTan, saerTod ar arsebobs da masze ufro aravin ar eloliavebasakuTar Svilebs. simarTle rom iTqvas, es mxolod margos exeba. Cemi azriT,margos arc awuxebs is sakiTxebi da fiqrebi, romlebic me ar masveneben. me arcvecdebi mivaxvedro deda, rom misi erT-erTi naSieri sul sxvanairia, vidre maswarmoudgenia. mas mxolod sadardebeli moemateba, me ki minda, mwuxarebaavarido. amiT mainc araferi Seicvleba. deda grZnobs, rom margo ufro axloamasTan, vidre me, magram amave dros darwmunebulia, adre Tu gvian yvelaferimogvardeba. Tumca am bolo dros Zalian yuradRebiania Cem mimarT, sulsxvanairi, vidre aqamde iyo. qedmaRloba daiviwya, namdvili megobrebi gavxdiT.axla aRar mivaCnivar im umniSvnelo arsebad, romelTanac seriozuliurTierToba SeuZlebelia.sakvirvelia, Cems Tavs zogjer ise vakvirdebi, TiTqos sxvisi TvaliTvuyurebde. aseT SemTxvevaSi mSvidad vaTvaliereb anas da Cemi cxovrebis wignsise vfurclav, TiTqos sxvis mier ganvlili gza iyos. adre, roca Cvens saxlSivcxovrobdiT da amdeni fiqris Tavi ar mqonda, ase megona, dedasTan, margosTanda mamasTan saerTo araferi maqvs, am ojaxis RviZli Svili ara var-meTqi.zogjer Cems Tavs obol bavSvad warmovidgendi da manamde verTobodi amiT,sanam cxadi ar gaxdeboda, rom sisulelea, Sens Tavs ubedur adamianad Tvlide,roca ase kargad cxovrob. amgvari azrebis Semdeg mqonda iseTi periodi, rocavcdilobdi keTili da alersiani vyofiliyavi. yovel diliT, roca vinmeamodioda kibeze, me vocnebobdi, rom es deda yofiliyo, Semosuliyo CvensoTaxSi da `dila mSvidobisa~ eTqva. maSin dedas tkbilad vesalmebodi,mixaroda, rom nazad micqerda. magram zogjer ama Tu im mizeziT naklebalersiani iyo da im dRes gunebawamxdari mivdiodi skolaSi, xolo rocaskolidan vbrundebodi, vcdilobdi gamemarTlebina. masac xom bevri sazrunaviaqvs, vfiqrobdi me da saxlSi mxiaruli da kmayofili Sevdiodi. dRis manZilze

gancdili gulSi ar meteoda, da mindoda yvelasaTvis meambna... Semdeg yvelaferiTavidan iwyeboda da me isev naRvliani da dafiqrebuli mivdiodi skolaSi.zogjer gadavwyvetdi gamomemJRavnebina, rarig gamicruvda imedi, meTqva, rogorgamityda guli, magram saxlSi dabrunebisas imdeni saambobi mqonda, romganzraxva maviwydeboda da undoda Tu ara, dedas mainc yuri unda daegdoCemTvis.Semdeg iseTi dro dadga, roca aRar mainteresebda, ismis Tu ara kibezefexis xma, martoobas vgrZnobdi da baliSSi TavCarguli cxare cremlebiTvtirodi. TavSesafarSi es grZnoba kidev ufro gamZafrda, Sen es ici. axlaRmerTma gaWirvebaSi myofs manugeSeblad peteri gamomigzavna! viReb medalions,romelsac mudam Tan vatareb, nazad vkocni da vfiqrob: `ra saqme maqvs mTel amaliaqoTTan? me myavs Cemi peteli da es aravin icis?!~amaze fiqriT bevr rames gavumklavdebi. aravin icis, ra xdeba qaliSvilisgulSi!?anaSabaTi, 15 ianvari, 1944Zvirfaso kiwi!azri ara aqvs, dawvrilebiT agiwero aqauri kinklaoba da Cxubi.sakmarisia gacnobo, rom erTmaneTs gamoveyaviT. calke vinaxavT xorcs, karaqs,cxims da CvenTvis viwvavT kartofils. am bolo dros mTeli dRis ulufas erTinaWeri puric davumateT, radgan oTx saaTze ise gvSioda, rom kuWi gvewoda daverafriT vaSoSminebdiT. axlovdeba dedaCemis dabadebis dRe. kralermacotaodeni Saqari moutana stumrebis gasamaspinZleblad, qalbatoni van daani kiSuriT gaskda, radgan dabadebis dReze araferi aCuqes. arc ise sasiamovnoa,ismende yoveldRe mis bRavilsa da autanel Rrials. unda gamogityde, kiwi, rommisi mezobloba yelSi amogvivida.dedam ganuxorcielebeli survili gamoTqva: netav or kviras maincmamyofa uvandaanebodo. me Cems Tavs vekiTxebi: nuTu yvela adamianTan mogivaCxubi, Tu erT WerqveS cxovrobT, an iqneb Cven bedi ar gvwyalobs? nuTuadamianTa umetesoba egoisti da xarbia? uTuod kargia, me rom aq adamianisbuneba ukeT gavicani, magram kmara! omi jer isev grZeldeba da aravis arainteresebs Cveni Cxubi, Cveni miswrafeba sufTa haerisa da Tavisuflebisaken.amitom unda vecadoT `to make the best of it~. 1 ( 1 yvelaferSi kargi mxare veZioT(ingl.).)kacma rom Tqvas, ra maqaqanebs? Tu didxans gagrZelda ase, lobiosgamxmar sars davemgvanebi, me ki gacilebiT mirCevnia, namdvili, cocxali gogonaviyo!anaSabaTi, 22 ianvari, 1944Zvirfaso kiwi!iqneb amixsna, ratom xdeba, rom adamianTa umravlesobas eSinia TavisiSinagani bunebis gamomJRavnebisa, ratom xdeba, rom sazogadoebaSi sulsxvanairad iqcevi, vidre saWiroa? vici, rom amis mizezebi uTuod arsebobs,magram mainc gaugebrad mimaCnia, radgan uaxloes adamiansac ki ver endobibolomde.me iseTi grZnoba maqvs, TiTqos im sizmris Semdeg gavizarde, ufro metic,`pirovneba~ gavxdi. albaT, gagikvirdeba, magram axla van daanebzec vmsjelob damaTTan davas da Setakebebs uwindeburad tuCabzekiT aRar vuyureb. ratomSevicvale ase?ici, me bevrs vfiqrob amaze da mgonia, rom Cveni urTierToba sulsxvagvari iqneboda, deda rom namdvili idealuri `dediko~ iyos. cxadia,qalbaton van daanze ver ityvi, zrdilobiani adamianiao, magram deda romurTierTobaSi damyoli iyos da saubris gamwvaveba ar uyvardes, SeiZlebodausiamovnebis naxevari mainc agvecilebina Tavidan. qalbaton van daansac aqvs

dadebiTi Tvisebebi, masTan molaparakeba SeiZleba. miuxedavad imisa, romegoistia da buzRuna, Tu ar gaaRiziane da ar SeuCiCxine, iolad daiyolieb.marTalia, es `Tviniereba~ didxans ar gahyveba, magram Tu moTminebas gamoiCen,SeiZleba Seewyo. kargi iyo, gulRiad da megobrulad gvemsjela masTan erTadCveni aRzrdis, ganebivrebis, kvebis da mraval sxva sakiTxze. maSin avcdebodiTim ukiduresobas, roca erTmaneTSi mxolod uaryofiT Tvisebebs xedaven.vici, kiwi, kargad vici, rasac metyvi.`ana, nuTu es Seni azrebia? nuTu Sen ambob amas, Sen, romelzedac amdenicudi ram uTqvamT `zemourebs?~ Sen, romelsac amdeni usamarTloba ginaxavsmaTgan?~ diax, amas me vambob. minda me TviTon Cavwvde yvelafers, ar msursvicxovro Zveli naTqvamis mixedviT: `rogorc mama-papas sCveoda~... mindadavakvirde van daanebs da gamovarkvio, ra aris marTali da ra gadaWarbebuli.xolo Tu imedebi gamicruvda, mec Cems mSoblebs mivemxrobi. magram SeiZlebacol-qmari ukeTesi aRmoCndes, vidre yvelas hgonia. maSin Sevecdebi ZirigamovuTxaro Cemi mSoblebis araswor warmodgenas maTze da Tu ver movaxerxe,Cemi Sexeduleba da Tvalsazrisi mainc meqneba. yvela saSualebas gamoviyeneb,qalbaton van daans sxvadasxva sakiTxze gavesaubrebi da vecdebi miukerZoebladgamovTqva Cemi azri. tyuilad xom ar meZaxian `froilain 1 ( 1 qaliSvili;germaniaSi ase mimarTaven gauTxovar qals.). yovlismcodnes~.me sruliad ar vapireb Cveni ojaxis winaaRmdeg galaSqrebas, magramamieridan Worebs aRar avyvebi. aqamde mtkiced viyavi darwmunebuli, romyvelaferSi van daanebi iyvnen damnaSave, magram nawilobriv, albaT, CvencmigviZRvis brali. SeiZleba principSi Cven yovelTvis marTali varT, magramgonier adamianebs, — da Cven xom aseTebad migvaCnia Tavi, — moeTxovebaT, romyvela juris adamianebs Seeguon. raki aseTi keTilgonieri gavxdi, imedi maqvs,momecema SesaZlebloba naTqvami cxovrebaSi ganvaxorcielo.anaorSabaTi, 24 ianvari, 1944Zvirfaso kiwi!saocari ambavi SememTxva. aqamde Cvens saxlSi sqesobriv sakiTxebzeidumali gamometyvelebiT laparakobdnen, skolaSi ki uxamsad da sazizRrad.gogoebi mudam CurCulebdnen da Tu rames ver gaigebdi, masxrad agigdebdnen. amsakiTxisadmi aseTi damokidebuleba ucnauri meCveneboda da vfiqrobdi:`ratom laparakoben am Temaze ase farulad, anda sazizRrad?~ daradganac arafris Secvla ar SemeZlo, gaCumebuli viyavi da am sakiTxze Zalianaxlobel megobars Tu davelaparakebodi zogjer. mere, roca TiTqmis yvelaferigavige da zogi ram mSoblebmac amixsnes, dedam miTxra: `ane, minda kargi rCevamogce, nurasodes nu elaparakebi biWebs am Temaze, xolo Tu TviTondagelaparakebian, maSinve Seawyvetine~.Cemi pasuxi axlac kargad maxsovs: `ara, deda, cxadia ara, rogorSeiZleba!~ da amiT gaTavda Cveni saubari.pirvel xanebSi, roca aq gadmovsaxldiT, mama xSirad melaparakeboda iseTsakiTxebze, rac merCia dedas aexsna. danarCeni wignebidan da saubrebidan gavige.peter van daani am mxriv Zalian TavSekavebulia, mxolod erTxel Tqva raRacamdagvari, isic ara im mizniT, rom pasuxi gamoetyuebina CemTvis.qalbatonma van daanma erTxel ganacxada, rom peterTan am Temaze arc masulaparakia da arc mis qmars. man arc ki icoda, ramdenad iyo peterigaTviTcnobierebuli.guSin, roca margo, me da peteri kartofils vfcqvnidiT, saubariCamovarda Cvens kataze, mofize:— Cven aqamde ar viciT, mofi mamalia Tu dedali, — vTqvi me.— rogor Tu ar viciT, mamalia, — ganacxada peterma.— raRa mamalia Tuki dRe-dReze knutebs elis, — gamecina me. amramdenime kviris win TviTon peterma gvamcno, mofi imitomaa aseTi msuqani, rommale knutebi eyolebao. magram mofi, etyoba, naqurdaliT gasuqda da muceli

gamoebera, radgan knutebi jerac ar Canda. peterma gadawyvita TavigaemarTlebina.— SegiZlia wamoxvide da naxo, — miTxra man, — amas winaT veTamaSebodida Cemi TvaliT davinaxe, rom mamalia.cnobismoyvareoba ver davZlie. peters sawyobSi Cavyevi. magram mofismiRebis saaTebi ar hqonda da versad aRmovaCineT. cota xans velodeT daradganac cioda, isev zeviT amovediT. saRamos gavigone, rom peteri qveviTCadioda. gambedaoba movikribe, carieli saxli gavirbine da sawyobSi Cavedi.peteri mofis SesafuT magidaze eTamaSeboda, Semdeg sasworze dasva da undodaaewona.— halo, ginda naxo? — peters sruliad ar moridebia, marjved swvdamofis TavSi, meore xeliT TaTebi SeuboWa, gadaabruna da daiwyo leqcia — ai,sasqeso organo, aq Tma aqvs, aq ki ukana gasavali!uecrad mofi naxevrad Semobrunda da isev TeTr TaTebze dadga. vinme sxvabiWs rom ase eCvenebina CemTvis `mamakacis sasqeso organo~, TvalSi veRarSevxedavdi. magram peteri ise ubralod laparakobda am saCoTiro Temaze, rombolos mec momeCvena, — aq gansakuTrebuli araferia-meTqi. Cven mofisveTamaSebodiT, Tavs virTobdiT, uamrav sakiTxze vsaubrobdiT, mere kiauCqareblad gaviareT didi sawyobi da zeviT amovediT.— xSirad SemTxveviT wignSi wavawydebi imas, rac Zalian minda vicode,Senc ase mogdis? — vkiTxe me.— ratom, me mSoblebs vekiTxebi, mamam bevri ram icis, ganaTlebuli kacia!Cven kibeze videqiT da xmas ar viRebdiT. gogo rom yofiliyo, aseubralod ver davelaparakebodi am Temaze. albaT amas gulisxmobda deda, rocamafrTxilebda, biWebTan aseT saubars erideo. roca sawyobSi gamarTul saubarsvixsenebdi, mTeli dRe rogorRac ucnaurad meRimeboda. Tumca imasac mivxvdi,rom Seni xnis mopirdapire sqesis warmomadgenelsac SeiZleba elaparakogonivrulad, yovelgvari suleluri xumrobis gareSe.nuTu peteri marTla elaparakeba bevr rameze mSoblebs? nuTu marTlaciseTia, rogoric guSin momeCvena.ah, saidan unda vicode!anaxuTSabaTi, 27 ianvari, 1944Zvirfaso kiwi!am bolo dros didad gamitaca gvirgvinosanTa ojaxebis sagvareulogenealogiam. roca kvlevas iwyeb, sul ufro metad eflobi warsulSi da bolosfriad saintereso ambebs awydebi.yvela saganSi gulmodgined vmecadineob. axla ukve SemiZlia movisminoinglisis radiosadguris gadacema ingliselebisaTvis. kviraobiT Cemikinovarskvlavebis koleqciis gadarCevas da daxarisxebas vundebi. koleqciasakmaod gaizarda. batoni kraleri yovel orSabaTs maxarebs da CemTviskinoJurnali moaqvs. Cveni arcTu ise maRali sazogadoebis warmomadgenelimezoblebi amas fulis tyuilubralod flangvas eZaxian da gaocebulni arian,rogor maxsovs gasul wels nanaxi filmis gmirebi. Tavisufal dReebSi elixSirad dadis kinoSi Tavis megobrebTan erTad, SabaTs meubneba, romeli filmisnaxvas apirebs da me maSinve CamovuTvli xolme yvela gmiris saxels damovaxseneb, ra azrisaa kritika. amas winaT dedam Tqva, rom kinoSi siaruli aRardamWirdeba, radgan winaswar vici filmis Sinaarsi, vin dadga da vin TamaSobs.roca oTaxSi myofT sxvagvarad Tmadavarcxnili movevlinebi, yvelagakvirvebiT miyurebs da mekiTxebian, romel kinovarskvlavs vbaZav. Cemimogonilia, vacxadeb me, magram aravis sjera. amgvari siamovneba naxevar saaTzemets ar grZeldeba, me saabazanoSi gavrbivar da isev Cveulebrivad, sadadvivarcxni Tmas.ana

paraskevi, 28 ianvari, 1944Zvirfaso kiwi!am diliT Cems Tavs vkiTxe: xom ar veqcevi kiwis ise, rogorc Zroxas,romelsac Zveli ambebis ReWvas aZaleben da am erTferovani sakvebiTTavmobezrebuli xmamaRla amTqnarebs da ocnebobs: iqneb anam raime axalimiambos. diax, kiwi, samwuxarod, mec vici, rarig mosabezrebelia Zveli ambebi,warmoidgine, ukve mec mirevs guls. Tu sufrasTan politikaze an gemrielsaWmelze ar laparakoben, deda da qalbatoni van daani axalgazrdobis wlebsigoneben, duseli ki raRacas mied-moedeba: xan Tavisi colis saucxootansacmelze laparakobs, xan doRze, xan navebze, romlebSic wyali Sedis, xanvunderkindebze, romlebmac ukve oTxi wlis asakSi icodnen curva, xan kunTebiskrunCxvaze, da xanac nervul pacientebze. saqme iqamde mivida, rom sakmarisiaromelime Cvenganma raRacis moyola daiwyos, meore maSinve CamoarTmevs sityvasda ambavs ganagrZobs. Cven winaswar viciT, riT Tavdeba anekdoti da mTxrobelisgarda aRaravis ecineba. aTasjer gavaqiaqeT Cveni yofili diasaxlisebi,mommarageblebi, yasbebi, vaWrebi, mepureebi da me aRar vici, ra SeiZleba iTqvasCvens TavSesafarSi axali. yvela ambavi grZelwveriania! amas rogorme avitandiT,magram ufrosebs cudi Cveva gamoumuSavdaT: koophoisis, mipisa da henkismonayols aTjer mainc gaimeoreben sxvadasxva sityvebiT da sakuTarigamonagoniT Seavseben. aseT SemTxvevaSi magidis qveS Cems Tavs vCqmet, romgatacebiT molaparakes sityva ar Sevawyvetino. Cemi xnis bavSvebs araviTarSemTxvevaSi ara aqvT ufleba ufrosebs xma gaakmendinon. maSinac ki, rocausircxvilod tyuian da yovelgvar zRaprebs igoneben.koophoisi da henki yovelTvis gvatyobineben, vin daimala an vin gaiqca.maT ician, ra axlo migvaqvs gulTan amgvari ambebi, rogor ganvicdiT davitanjebiT im adamianebTan erTad, romelTac miagnes da rogor gvixariaimaTTan erTad, vinc daWeras gadaurCa.iatakqveS cxovreba da damalva axla iseTive yoveldRiuri movlenaa,rogorc uwin mamis saSinao Custebi, zamTarSi rom RumelTan daxvdeboda.iseTi organizaciebi, rogoricaa `Tavisufali niderlandebi~, yalbmowmobebs amzadeben, saimedo TavSesafars pouloben da TavianT wevrebsfuliTa da sursaT-sanovagiT amarageben, xolo qristiani axalgazrdebisaTvis,romlebic `iatakqveS~ iwyeben cxovrebas, sando mewarmeebisagan samuSaosSouloben, an sawarmoSi awyoben. saocaria, ramden rames akeTeben keTilSobiliuangaro adamianebi, romlebic sakuTar sicocxles safrTxeSi agdeben, sxvebs kiexmarebian da bevric gadaarCines. amis saukeTeso magaliTia Cveni mfarvelebi,romlebic aqamde gvexmarebian da imedia, keTilad migviyvanen bolomde.winaaRmdeg SemTxvevaSi maT im adamianebis bedi unda gaiziaron, romlebicebraelebs mfarveloben. maT sityviTac ki ar ugrZnobinebiaT CvenTvis, Tu ramZime tvirTad vawevarT mxrebze — da es marTlac asea! — arc erT maTgans arwamoscdenia sayveduri imis gamo, rom Cveni gulisTvis amdeni davidarabisgadatana uxdeba. yoveldRe amodian zeviT, mamakacebs politikaze da saqmeebzeesaubrebian, qalebs imaze, Tu rogor gaZnelda sursaT-sanovagis Sovna daojaxis gaZRola, Cven wignebsa da gazeTebze. gamometyveleba metad mxiaruliaqvT, dabadebis dReze da sadResaswaulod yvavilebi da saCuqrebi moaqvT. dayovelTvis mzad arian daxmareba gagviwion. Tumca omSi da mCagvrelTawinaaRmdeg brZolaSi gmirebs ra gamolevs, magram Cven arasodes dagvaviwydebaCveni megobrebis Tavdadeba, megobrobisa da siyvarulis yoveldRiuridadastureba!ras ar gaigoneb, lamis Wkuaze Sevcde da, rac mTavaria, monayolimetwilad marTalia. koophoisma gviambo, gelderlandSi gaumarTavT fexburTismatCi, sadac erT gundSi mxolod `iatakqveSelebi~ TamaSobdnen, meoreSi ki —adgilobrivi policielebi!hilverzumSi axali sasursaTo baraTebi daurigebiaT. `iatakqveSelebi~rom usursaTod ar darCeniliyvnen, adgilobrivma moxeleebma daniSnul droze

maTi `mfarvelebi~ gamoiZaxes da baraTebi dauriges. magram amgvari sagmirooinebi `mofebis~ 1 ( 1 germanelebis damcinavi saxelia.) yuramde rom ar mivides,didi sifrTxilea saWiro.anaxuTSabaTi, 3 Tebervali, 1944Zvirfaso kiwi!uaxloes droSi mokavSireebis gadmosxdomas elodebian. Sen rom aqyofiliyavi, albaT, Senzedac did STabeWdilebas moaxdenda es ambavi; magramSeiZleba, masxradac agegdeT, radgan jer araferi momxdara, Cven ki CvensWkuaze aRar varT. yvela gazeTi amaze wers da, roca kiTxulob, SeiZlebamarTlac SeiSalo:`Tu ingliselebi holandiaSi gadmosxdebian, germaniis sardlobaholandiis dasacavad yovel Rones mimarTavs da Tu gaWirda, datboravs kidec~.gazeTebi aqveyneben holandiis rukebs, sadac moxazulia is raionebi, romelTacdatborva elis. da radgan amsterdamis didi nawilic moxazulia, bunebrivia,CvenTan aseTi kiTxva daisva: ra unda vqnaT, quCebSi rom wyalma erTi metriTaiwios? aqve gaismis pasuxebi, yvela Taviseburad fiqrobs: fexiT anvelosipediT siaruli SeuZlebeli iqneba, amitom, rogorc ki wylis dinebaSewydeba, foni unda movnaxoT.— ara, curviT unda gavideT. sabanao kostiumebiT da sayvinTi qudiTSegviZlia didxans gavZloT wyalSi. veravin SeamCnevs, rom Cven ebraelebi varT.— ra sisulelea! warmomidgenia, rogor icuraveben Cveni qalebi, rocavirTxebi fexebSi swvdebian! (cxadia, romeliRac mamakacma ioxunja, magramvnaxoT, vin ufro adre abRavldeba).— Cven verc ki movaswrebT saxlidan gamosvlas, sardafi imdenaddampalia, rom wylis pirveli mowolisTanave saxli Tavze Camogvengreva.— xumrobis dro ar aris. vcadoT, iqneb sadme navi viSovoT.— ra saWiroa. TiToeulma aiRos sawyobidan Saqris didi yuTi, CajdesSig, xolo niCbad CamCa gamoiyenos.— me oCofexebiT vivli, axalgazrdobaSi Cempioni viyavi.— henk van santens oCofexebi ar dasWirdeba, cols zurgze Seisvams damipi ukve oCofexebze iqneba.ai, kiwi, mTeli Cveni saubari! xumroba advilia, sinamdvileSi kiyvelaferi es sxvanairad moxdeba.ar unda daviviwyoT kidev erTi sakiTxi, romelic agreTve gadmosxmasTanaadakavSirebuli. ra unda vqnaT, germanelebma rom amsterdamis evakuacia daiwyon.— SeumCnevlad gavyveT sxvebs.— araviTar SemTxvevaSi. aq unda davrCeT. germanelebi xalxs wingairekaven da manamde ar moeSvebian, sanam yvela ar daiRupeba germaniaSi!— cxadia, aq davrCebiT. yvelaze saimedo adgilia. koophoisi undadaviyolioT, rom ojaxianad aq gadmovides. tomrebs burbuSelaTi gavteniT damaSin iatakzec SeiZleba daZineba. kargi iqneba, mipma da koophoisma winaswargadmoitanon aq sabnebi. 60 girvanqa fqvils cotas kidev davumatebT. henkma sadmeunda iSovos cercvi. axla saxlSi 30 kilogrami lobio da 10 klogrami cercvigvaqvs. garda amisa, 50 qila bostneulis konservi.— deda, aba CamoTvale sxva produqtebi!— 10 qila Tevzi, 40 qila rZe, 10 kilogrami rZis fxvnili, 3 boTli zeTi,4 qila karaqi, 4 qila xorcis konservi, 4 boTli marwyvis da 2 boTli xiliswveni, 20 boTli tomati, 5 kilo Svriis burRuli, 8 girvanqa brinji, sul esaa!..— marags ara uSavs, magram Tu imasac gaviTvaliswinebT, rom stumrebigveyoleba Sesanaxi, xolo marags yovel kvira akldeba, maSin arc ise bevria.— naxSiri da sawvavi gveyofa, aseve sanTlebic. yvelam unda SevikeroTgulze dasakidi toprakebi fulis Sesanaxad.— unda CamovweroT gaqcevis SemTxvevaSi aucilebeli nivTebis sia daaxlave CavalagoT zurgCanTebSi.

adgan saqme iqamde mivida, urigo ar iqneba, SevqmnaT sameTvalyureopunqtebi, erTi sxvenze, meore — saxlis Semosasvlel karTan.— ra unda movuxerxoT mTel Cvens sursaT-sanovages, Tu uwylod, ugazodda usinaTlod dagvtoveben.— sadils Rumelze movxarSavT. wyals gavfiltravT da avaduRebT. undagavrecxoT ramdenime dawnuli boca da wyali movimaragoT.ai, aseTi saubari mesmis mTeli dRis ganmavlobaSi. gadmosxdebian, Tu argadmosxdebian, kamaToben, msjeloben SimSilze, sikvdilze bombebze,sanTebelze, saZile tomrebze, ebraelTa gadasaxlebaze, sawamlav gazebze da aseusasrulod.Tu ginda icode, ra awuxebT Cvenebs TavSesafarSi, gadmogcem maT saubarshenkTan:Cvenebi: — Cven gveSinia, rom germanelebi ukan daxevis dros amsterdamismosaxleobas Tan waiyvanen.henki: — SeuZlebelia: sada aqvT amdeni transporti.Cvenebi: — transporti? nuTu Tqven ggoniaT, mosaxleobas matarebliTgaamgzavreben? arc ifiqroT. fexiTac kargad ivlian. (per pedes apostolorom 1 , ( 1viTarca mociqulni fexiT (laT.).) ambobs duseli aseT SemTxvevaSi).henki: — SeuZlebelia, Tqven yvelafers Sav ferebSi xedavT, risTvis undaaTrion amdeni xalxi?Cvenebi: — gana ar iciT, ra Tqva gebelsma: Tu ukan daxeva mogvixda,okupirebul teritoriaze arafers davtovebTo.henki: — magaT laparaks ra fasi aqvs!Cvenebi: — Tqven ra, fiqrobT, rom germanelebi metismetad keTilSobilida humanuri xalxia da amas ar gaakeTeben? roca gauWirdebaT, ecdebian yvelaCaiTrion, vinc maTi gavlenis qveS imyofeba.henki: — rac gindaT is TqviT, magram me mainc ar mjera!Cvenebi: — Zveli simReraa. moaxloebul safrTxes aravin xedavs, sanampiradad mas ar Seexeba.henki: — danamdvilebiT Tqvenc araferi iciT, es yvelaferi mxolodTqveni varaudia.Cvenebi: — Cven yvelaferi Cvens tyavze ganvicadeT, jer germaniaSi, mereaq. gana ar iciT, ras sCadian ruseTSi?henki: — ebraelebze me arafers vambob. danamdvilebiT aravin icis, raxdeba ruseTSi. iqneb ingliselebisa da rusebis propaganda iseve gazviadebuliarogorc germanelebis.Cvenebi: — ara xarT marTali. inglisis radio mudam simarTlesgadmoscems. davuSvaT, rom bevri ram gazviadebulia, magram faqtebi xomSemzaravia. Tqven rao, uaryofT imas, rom poloneTsa da ruseTSi milionobiTudanaSaulo adamiani gaziT amoaxrCves da mospes!sxva saubrebis gadmocemiT aRar Segawuxeb. me mSvidad var da vcdilob,rac SeiZleba cota ram gavigono. bolo dros im mdgomareobamde mivedi, romCemTvis ukve sul erTia, movkvdebi Tu cocxali davrCebi. qveyana uCemodaciarsebebs, xolo istoriis gaCereba aravis SeuZlia. mosaxdeni mainc moxdeba,manamde ki vimuSaveb, viswavli da imedi meqneba, rom yvelaferi bednieraddasruldeba.anaSabaTi, 12 Tebervali 1944Zvirfaso kiwi!mze anaTebs, ca uZiro lurjia, sasiamovno sio qris. me ki... isev sevdamipyrobs... yvelaferi menatreba... Tavisufleba, megobrebi... martooba. mindalaparakiT guli vijero, erTxel mainc momeces SesaZlebloba, Cems nebazevitiro! vici, tiriliT guls movioxebdi da Svebas vigrZnobdi, magram arSeiZleba. adgils ver vpoulob, davborialob mTel saxlSi, vCerdebi daxurulfanjarasTan da vcdilob, CarCos WuWrutanebidan Semosuli sufTa haeri

SevisunTqo. vgrZnob sakuTar guliscemas, TiTqos meubneba: `bolos da bolosgamiqarve sevda~.albaT, gazafxulis bralia, vgrZnob, rogor iRviZebs gazafxuli, iRviZebsCems sxeulSi, Cems sulSi. rogorme unda davimSvido Tavi, sruliad moviSale,aRarc kiTxva SemiZlia, aRarc wera da arc arafris gakeTeba. mxolod is vici,rom sevdam Semipyro...anakvira, 13 Tebervali, 1944Zvirfaso kiwi!guSindels aqeT CemTvis bevri ram Seicvala. da ai rogor:danaRvlianebuli viyavi, me axlac naRvliani var, magram raRac mainc Seicvala...swored am diliT SevniSne, — da gulaxdilad geubnebi, am ambavma didadgamaxara, — rom peteri Tvals ar maSorebda, ise ki ar miyurebda, rogorc sxvadros, aramed rogorRac ucnaurad. ar vici rogor, ver agiwer. adre megona,peters margo uyvars, magram uecrad vigrZeni, rom saqme sxvanairadaa. mTelidRis ganmavlobaSi gangeb varidebdi Tavs, radgan Tu Sevxedavdi, isicSemomaCerdeboda da maSin iseTi saamo grZnoba meufleboda, rom ar mindodaxSiri ganmeorebiT daClungebuliyo.o, rogor minda marto darCena, mama CemSi raRac cvlilebas amCnevs,magram me ar SemiZlia yvelaferi vuambo. minda yvelas vuyviro: `momasveneT,marto damtoveT~. vin icis, iqneb odesme ufro metad vigrZno simartove, vidrees sasurvelia.aneorSabaTi, 14 Tebervali, 1944Zvirfaso kiwi!kvira saRamos, Cemsa da pimis garda, yvelam radiosTan moiyara Tavi.germaneli kompozitorebis ukvdav nawarmoebebs ismendnen. duseli waramaraatrialebda aparats. peteri brazobda, brazobdnen sxvebic. naxevari saaTisSemdeg peteri aenTo da gulmosulma dusels sTxova, moSveboda aparats.duselma Cveuli sigoroziT upasuxa: `me vici, rasac vakeTeb!~peteri gabrazda, wamovarda, mamamisma mxari dauWira da duselidaTmobaze wavida. sul es iyo. TavisTavad TiTqos wvrilmania, magram, Cans,peters Zalian moxvda gulze. am diliT, roca sxvenze wignebis yuTSiviqeqebodi, peteri movida da mTeli es istoria miambo, me amis Sesaxeb araferivicodi da, roca peterma SeniSna, yuradRebiT vusmen, Tamamad alaparakda.— gesmis, — daiwyo man, — erTbaSad ver miTqvams yvelaferi, radganwinaswar vici, rom azris sworad gadmocema miWirs, ena mebmeba, vwiTldebi daxSirad sul sxva rames vambob da ara imas, risi Tqmac minda. bolos vCumdebi,radgan sityvebi ar myofnis, guSinac ase momivida. mindoda raRac meTqva, is iyodaviwye laparaki, magram uecrad avenTe. es ki yovelTvis cudia. uwin Zalianuxeiro Cveuleba mqonda, romelsac zogjer axlac siamovnebiT gamoviyenebdi.roca vinmes veCxubebodi, nacvlad imisa, rom sityvebiT mimemarTa, muStebiTvumaspinZldebodi. vici, rom am gziT bevrs verafers miaRwev da amitomaRtacebuli var SeniT. Sen kargi laparaki ici, pirdapir eubnebi xalxs, risiTqmac ginda da arasodes ar ibnevi.— Zalian cdebi, — vupasuxe me. — umetes SemTxvevaSi imas ver vambob,risi Tqmac mindoda Tavdapirvelad, garda amisa, bevr sityvas vxmarob, bevrsvlaparakob, es ki cudia!gulSi Cems Tavze mecineboda, magram mas ar SevamCnevine, ramdenadgaxarebuli var. mindoda meti elaparaka sakuTar Tavze, amitom iatakze baliSidavagde, muxlebmokecilma zed myudrod movikalaTe da smenad viqeci.me didad maxarebs is garemoeba, rom Cvens saxlSi aris kidev erTiadamiani, romelic zogjer CemsaviT gacofebulia. peters aSkarad siamovnebdaCemTan saubari, SeeZlo sakadrisi sityvebiT Seemko duseli da arc imis SiSi

hqonoda, rom gauwyrebodnen. mec SesaniSnavad vgrZnobdi Tavs, radgan amxanagivipove. aseTi ram adre mxolod megobar gogonebTan urTierTobaSi ganmicdia.anaoTxSabaTi, 16 Tebervali, 1944Zvirfaso kiwi!dRes margos dabadebis dRea. pirvelis naxevarze peteri saCuqrebissanaxavad movida da karga xans darCa CvenTan, rac adre arasodes ar gaukeTebia.sadilisaTvis yava movaduReT da Semdeg kartofilis mosatanad gaviqeci.mindoda, weliwadSi erTxel mainc gamenebivrebina margo. roca peteris oTaxSigaviare, man maSinve akrifa kibeze dayrili qaRaldebi da gza damiTmo. vkiTxe,sxvenze rom aval, liuki xom ar davxuro-meTqi.— ra Tqma unda, — mipasuxa man, — oRond roca ukan gamobrundebi,damikakune da maSinve gagiReb. — me madloba gadavuxade da zeviT avedi. aTiodewuTi vafaTurebdi xelebs did kasrSi, wvril kartofils veZebdi, da manamde argamovbrunebulvar ukan, sanam moxrils weli ar metkina da ar Semcivda. cxadia,ar damikakunebia, liuki TviTonve gavaRe, magram peteri Semomegeba daTavazianad CamomarTva didi qvabi.— didxans veZebe, magram ufro wvrili ver amovarCie, — vTqvi me.— did kasrSi Tu Caixede?— rogor ara, saTiTaod gadavarCie yvela.me dabla videqi kibeze, is ki kritikulad dascqeroda qvabs, romelicxelSi eWira. — Zalian didi kartofilia, — miTxra, roca qvabi gadmomca,Tanac dasZina `SesaniSnavi!~ amave dros ise Tbilad da nazad Semomxeda, romgulis siRrmeSi raRac siTbo da sinaze vigrZeni. mivxvdi, rom undoda riTimeesiamovnebina CemTvis, magram saWiro sityvebi ver monaxa da Tavisi fiqrebimzeraSi Caaqsova.me SesaniSnavad mesmoda yvelaferi da didad madlieri viyavi. axlacsixaruls mgvris peteris sityvebi da gamoxedva, roca vigoneb.Cavedi Tu ara qveviT, dedam miTxra, kartofili vaxSmisTvisacdagvWirdebao. maSinve siamovnebiT avedi kidev erTxel zeviT.peterTan Sevedi da bodiSi movuxade, rom xels vuSli. igi wamodga,kedelsa da kibes Sua dadga da undoda ZaliT SeveCerebine.— me aval, — miTxra man. — ara, saWiro araa, axla wvrili kartofilisamorCeva aRar momixdeba, — vupasuxe me. Cemi naTqvami sarwmunod miiCnia da xeligamiSva. roca ukan vbrundebodi, liuki gamiRo da qvabi gamomarTva. sanamoTaxidan gavidodi, vkiTxe:— sainteresoa, ras akeTeb?— franguls vswavlob, — mipasuxa man.— SeiZleba vnaxo Seni davalebebi? — vkiTxe me, xelebi gaviwminde da mispirdapir taxtze Camovjeqi.jer ramdenime sityvis mniSvneloba avuxseni, Semdeg ki saubari gavabiT.miTxra, vest-indoeTSi vapireb wasvlas plantaciebSi samuSaodo. momiyva, rogorcxovrobda saxlSi, melaparaka spekulaciaze, miTxra, arafris maqnisi varo. mevupasuxe, rom Zalze ganviTarebuli aqvs arasrulfasovnebis grZnoba. uecradebraelebze daiwyo laparaki — ramdenad ukeTesi iqneboda, qristiani romvyofiliyavi an omis Semdeg mainc SemeZlos gaqristianebao. davinteresdi, omisSemdeg monaTvlas xom ar apirebda, magram arc es undoda. — omis Semdeg aravisecodineba, qristiani var Tu ebraeli, — miTxra peterma. gulSi raRacammiCxvlita, samwuxaroa, rom mas aqamde SemorCa upatiosnobis raRac nasaxi.Semdeg mamaze, adamianebis cnobis unarze da kidev bevr ramezevilaparakeT. mxolod xuTis naxevarze wamovedi misgan.saRamos isev sasiamovno ram miTxra. Cven erT-erT kinovarskvlavzevlaparakobdiT, romlis suraTic odesRac vaCuqe da ager ukve weliwadnaxevariakedelze ukidia. peterma Tqva, rom suraTi Zalian moswons. me sxvakinovarskvlavebis suraTebi SevTavaze.

— ara, ara, jobs ase darCes. Sen naCuqar suraTs me yoveldRe vuyureb dais Cemi megobari gaxda.axla ki mesmis, ratom daaTrevs yvelgan muSis da efereba. masac enatrebaalersi. marTla, damaviwyda momewera, ai, kidev ra Tqva:— SiSiT me arafris ar meSinia, magram roca rame mtkiva, vnervulob,Tumca amasac gadaveCvevi.peters arasrulfasovnebis grZnoba saSinlad aqvs ganviTarebuli.magaliTad, igi fiqrobs, rom Cven Zalian Wkvianebi varT, TviTon ki Zalzesuleli. roca frangulSi vexmarebi, aTasjer mixdis madlobas. maleaucileblad vetyvi: `Tavs nu isuleleb, samagierod, inglisursa dageografiaSi Sen Cemze Zlieri xar~.anaparaskevi, 18 Tebervali, 1944Zvirfaso kiwi!roca zeviT avdivar, cxadia, mxolod erTi ganzraxva maqvs. `is~, vnaxo.Cemi aqauri cxovreba bevrad ufro saintereso gaxda, raRac azri moeca,sixaruli Seemata.Cemi megobruli grZnobis `sagani~ mudam saxlSia da metoqeebis ar meSinia(margos garda). ar ifiqro, Seyvarebuli var, ara, es ase ar aris, magram mtkicedmwams, rom Cemsa da peters Soris lamazi grZnoba ganviTardeba, racdagvamegobrebs da erTmaneTis ndobas mogvipovebs. rogorc ki SesaZleblobamomecema, maSinve masTan gavrbivar. axla aRar iqceva uwindeburad, roca aricoda, rogor Semoevlo CemTvis. piriqiT, maSinac ki laparakobs, roca TiTqmisgasuli var oTaxidan. dedas maincdamainc ar moswons, me rom ase xSiradavdivar zeviT. meubneba: — nu awuxeb peters da moasveneo. nuTu ar esmis, rom esCemi Sinagani gancdebia? yovelTvis, roca peterTan avdivar, deda ucnauriTvaliT miyurebs, roca iqidan CamovdivarT, mekiTxeba, sad iyavio. sazizRariCveulebaa, ver vitan.anaSabaTi, 19 Tebervali, 1944Zvirfaso kiwi!isev SabaTia da amiT TiTqmis yvelaferia naTqvami. dilam mSvidobianadCaiara. cotaxans `zemourebs~ vexmarebodi, `mas~ ki mxolod gakvriT gavexmiane.samis naxevarze sabani aviRe da qveviT kabinetSi Cavedi, mindoda magidasTandavmjdariyavi da Tavisuflad mekiTxa da memuSava. mcire xnis Semdeg `momiara~,xelebSi TavCarguli magidaze davemxe da mwared avtirdi. cremlebi RvaradCamomdioda. Tavs Zalze ubedurad vgrZnobdi. ah, neta movidodes `is~ damanugeSebdes. oTx saaTze isev zeviT avedi. kartofili mqonda Camosatani davimedovnebdi, rom `mas~ iq Sevxvdebodi, magram sanam `saabazanoSi~ Tmasvivarcxnidi, gavigone, rogor Cairbina sawyobSi mofisTan. cremlebi veRarSevikave, jibis sarkes xeli davavle da sapirfareSoSi Cavikete. gulmoklulivijeqi da Cemi wiTeli winsafari Camodenili cremlebis muqi laqebiT daifara.`ase verasodes ver movipoveb peteris ndobas~ — gavifiqre me, `iqnebarafrad magdebs. iqneb ar sWirdeba Cemi megobroba, iqneb mxolod sxvaTa Soris,fiqrobs Cemze? kvlavac marto davrCebi umegobrod, upeterod. iqneb maleyvelaferi gamomecalos: imedic, nugeSic da molodinic!~erTxel mainc momeces SesaZlebloba davayrdno Tavi mis mxars, iqnebgamiqarwyldes uimedobisa da martoobis grZnoba. SeiZleba misTvis sruliadarafers ar warmovadgen da yvelas ase alersianad uyurebs. SeiZleba Cemiwarmosaxvis nayofia, TiTqos misi mzera me mekuTvnis. o, peter, rom SegeZlosdaminaxo an momismino. magram me ver avitan simarTles, Tu mxolod gamawbilebs.Tumca cremli jer kidev mdioda, magram imedi momeca da lodinis unaridamibrunda.ana

kvira, 20 Tebervali, 1944Zvirfaso kiwi!rasac sxvebi mTeli kviris ganmavlobaSi akeTeben, CvenTan, TavSesafarSikvira dRes xdeba. roca sxvebi koxtad Cacmulni saseirnod midian, Cven mTelisaxlis dalagebas viwyebT.rva saaTi: duseli angariSs ar uwevs imaT, visac Zili uyvars. zustad rvasaaTze fexzea, jer `saabazanoSi~ Sedis, mere qveviT Cadis, male isev zeviTamodis, Semdeg kvlav `saabazanos~ ubrundeba da iqaurobas wmends da fxeks. amsaqmes mTeli saaTi undeba.aTis naxevari: SuqsaniRbavi fardebi ixsneba, inTeba Rumeli, van daanebidasabanad midian.TerTmetis TxuTmeti wuTi: van daanebi gvikakuneben, `saabazano~Tavisufalia. Cvenma Zilisgudebma mxolod axla wamoswies Tavi baliSidan.magram axla ukve saqme swrafad midis: erTi, ori, sami, margo, me, da dedarigrigobiT vrecxavT `did sarecxs~. Zalian civa da Cven gvixaria, rom grZeliSarvlebi gvacvia. Cvens Semdeg mamas rigia.Tormetis naxevari: vsauzmobT. amis Sesaxeb arafers mogwer. CvenTanisedac bevrs laparakoben Wamaze.pirvelis TxuTmeti wuTi: yvela Tavis saqmes akeTebs. kombinezonSigamowyobili, muxlebze daCoqili mama ise gulmodgined wmends xaliCas, romoTaxSi mtvris korianteli dgeba. duseli sakuTar logins bertyavs dabeThovenis saviolino koncerts ustvens. deda sxvenze dadis, sarecxs fens, vandaani quds ixuravs da dabla Cadis. ukan Cveulebriv peteri mihyveba muSisTanxlebiT. qalbatoni van daani irTveba: Salis Sav jemprs icvams, win grZelwinsafars ifarebs, Tavs Tbili wiTeli TavsafriT ikravs, xelSi sarecxisfuTas iRebs, fexebs kaloSebSi hyofs da mrecxavi qalis kargad daswavlilikniqseniT midis. me da margo WurWels vrecxavT da oTaxebs valagebT.aneoTxSabaTi, 23 Tebervali, 1944Zvirfaso kiwi!guSindels aqeT SesaniSnavi daria da me Cems Tavs ar vekuTvni. yoveldiliT avdivar sxvenze. minda, sufTa haeri visunTqo. aqve mecadineobs peteric.amoCemebuli adgilidan vxedav lurji cis naWers, gaZarcul wablis xeebs,romelTa totebze momcro cvris wveTebi brwyinavs. vxedav Toliebs, romlebicmoxdenilad navardoben da vercxlis feri gadahkravT.peteri Zelze Tavmoyrdnobili idga, me iqve vijeqi, visunTqavdiT sufTahaers, quCaSi vixedebodiT da vgrZnobdiT, rom Cvens Soris raRaca iseTi xdeba,rac sityviT ar unda daafrTxo. didxans, didxans viyurebodiT quCaSi, xolo,roca igi SeSis dasapobad koSkze adioda, me ukve yvelaferi vicodi, vicodi, raSesaniSnavi adamiania. peteri viwro kibes ahyva. mec gavyevi. meoTxedi saaTisganmavlobaSi, sanam muSaobda, xma ar amogviRia. vakvirdebodi, rogormondomebiT cdilobda kargad gaekeTebina saqme da CemTvis sakuTari Zaladaenaxvebina, da amave dros Ria fanjridan gavcqerodi amsterdamis zRvasaxuravebs, gaWimuls horizontamde, romelic ise CaZiruliyo cis laJvardsivrceSi, rom mkafio xazs ver gaavlebdi: `sanam yovelive es arsebobs, sanamsxivmfen mzes da mowmendil cas vxedav da vgrZnob, ufleba ara maqvs mwuxarebasmivece~, gavifiqre me.Tu adamiani sruliad marto, ubeduri an mwuxarea, yvelafers jobia,gavides gareT, wavides sadme iseT adgilas, sadac igi marto iqneba cis,bunebisa da RmerTis anabara. maSin, mxolod maSin igrZnobs, rom yvelaferi iseamowyobili, rogorc saWiroa, rom RmerTs surs, adamiani bednieri ixilosubralo, mSvenieri bunebis wiaRSi. sanam es asea, — da uTuod mudam ase iqneba,— me mjera, rom yovelgvar viTarebaSi yvela ubedurebas eSveleba da mtkicedmwams, rom bunebas bevri dardis gaqarveba ZaluZs.

Cemi fiqrebi: Cven aq bevri ram gvaklia da kidev didxans gagrZeldeba ase.es mec iseve vici, rogorc Sen. me ar vlaparakob materialur xelmokleobaze,Cven aq sakmarisi gvaqvs yvelaferi, marto isa maqvs mxedvelobaSi, rac suliersimSvides gvirRvevs. mec SensaviT mwyuria Tavisufleba da haeri, magram axlamwams, rom rac dagvaklda, askecad agvinazRaurdeba. yovelive es am diliTgavige uecrad, roca fanjarasTan vijeqi da Sinagan gancdebze vfiqrobdi.avxede zecas, vigrZeni RmerTis siaxlove da bednieri, WeSmaritad bednieriviyavi. o, peter, sanam CvenSi bedniereba suldgmulobs, bunebis xilvis,janmrTelobis da bevri sxva ramis SegrZnebis bedniereba, sanam yovelive amasSens TavSi atareb, mudam, mudam bednieri iqnebi! yvelaferi SeiZleba dakargo:simdidre, saxeli, gulSi Casaxuli bedniereba ki mcire xans Sesustdeba, magramSemdeg kvlav aRdgeba da mTeli sicocxlis manZilze gagyveba. sanam SegiZlia,uSiSrad axedo cas, sanam guli wminda gaqvs, bedniereba mudam SenTanaa.anakvira, 27 Tebervali 1944Zvirfaso kiwi!gaTenebidan daRamebamde mxolod peterze vfiqrob. viZineb da Tvalwinmidgas, ZilSi mesizmreba, xolo roca viRviZeb, vgrZnob, rogor SemomcqerisTvalebSi. me mgoni, me da peteri arc ise ganvsxvavdebiT erTmaneTisagan,rogorc erTi SexedviT Cans da minda agixsna ratom: me da peters namdvilideda gvaklia. dedamisi qarafSutaa, arSiyoba uyvars da misTvis, misi SinaganigancdebisaTvis maincdamainc Tavs ar iwuxebs. marTalia, dedaCemi did interessiCens Cemdami, magram dedis gumani da mixvedriloba aklia.orive vebrZviT Cvens grZnobebs. Cven jer gaubedavni, metismetadmoridebulni da mokrZalebulni varT imisaTvis, rom ufleba mivceT vinmes,Cvens Sinagan samyaroSi SemoiWras. xolo roca amgvari ram mainc xdeba, Cemiupirvelesi survilia `Tavis gamoxsna~. magram radgan SeuZlebelia, me CemsgrZnobebs vmalav da vcdilob, ise uxamsad moviqce, rom yvelam inatros: netamale mocildebodes aqaurobaso.peteri ki piriqiT, Tavis TavSi imaleba, TiTqmis arafers ambobs,wynaradaa, ocnebobs da SeSinebuli gaurbis yvelas.magram rodis da sad unda vipovoT erTmaneTi bolos da bolos? me arvici, ramden xans SeZlebs gonebiT Tavisi grZnobebis daokebas.anaorSabaTi, 28 Tebervali, 1944Zvirfaso kiwi!ar vici, ra momdis, mudam mis gverdiT varT da ar SemiZlia mivuaxlovde.Tavi ise miWiravs, rom veraferi SemniSnos, vcdilob mxiaruli, Tavisufaliviyo, maSinac ki, roca sulis siRrmeSi yovelgvari imedi iwureba.peter veseli da peter van daani erT peterad gadaiqca, alersian,sayvarel peterad, romliskenac Zlier mimiwevs guli. deda autanelia, mamaalersiania da amis gamo kidev ufro autaneli, margo ki yvelaze autaneli,radgan ginda Tu ara, gamicineo. me ki minda Tavi damanebos yvelam.amas winaT sxvenze avedi. peteri ar movida CemTan. ratomRac gareT gavidada raRacis keTebas Seudga. CaquCis yoveli dartyma mxneobis raRac nawilsmaclida da ufro metad davnaRvliandi. sadRac kurantebi rekavdnen: `TavimaRla! guli gaimagre!~vici, rom santimentaluri var, isic vici, rom saso warmekveTa dagoniereba davkarge.damexmare! damexmare!anaoTxSabaTi, 1 marti, 1944Zvirfaso kiwi!

erTma garemoebam piradi mwuxareba gadamaviwya. kvlav Semoamtvries karebida gagvqurdes. amdeni gaqurdva mosabezrebelia, magram ras izam, qurdebs aseTdid siamovnebas hgvris Tavisi stumrobiT pativi dasdon `kolen da kompaniis~firmas. es gaqurdva ufro seriozuli aRmoCnda, vidre 1943 wlis 14 ivliss.guSin diliT rvis naxevarze batoni van daani Cveulebisamebr dabla Cavida.kraleris kabinetis Sua (minis) kari da kontoraSi Sesasvleli karebi Riadaxvda. gakvirvebulma kontoraSi Seixeda da gaocda. yvelaferi areul-dareuliiyo.`aq uTuod qurdebi iyvnen~, gaifiqra man da kibe Cairbina. quCaSigasasvleli kari da avtomaturi klite xeluxlebeli iyo.`etyoba, peterma da elim guSin saRamos daudevroba gamoiCines~, gaifiqraman. erTxans kraleris kabinetSi ijda, Semdeg sinaTle Caaqro, zeviT amovida daaRar ufiqria imaze, Tu ratom daxvda kari Ria da ratom iyo kontoraSiyvelaferi areul-dareuli.diliT adre peterma CvenTan daakakuna da arasasiamovno ambavi gvacnoba:quCis kari yurTamde Riaa, xolo kedlis karadidan saproeqcio aparati dakraleris axali portfeli gaqrao.. peters daavales, quCaSi gasasvleli karidaeketa. batonma van daanma gviambo, rac guSin naxa. Cven Zalian SevwuxdiT. esgaremoeba mxolod ase SeiZleba aixsnas: vinaidan karebi Semomtvreuli ar iyo,qurds, albaT, Tavisi gasaRebi hqonda. etyoba, saRamos adre Semoipara, karidaketa da raki batonma van daanma xeli SeuSala, miimala. roca van daaniwavida, qurdi Tavisi nadavliT gaiqca da ise Cqarobda, rom karis daketva vermoaswro. magram vis SeiZleba hqondes Cveni gasaRebi? ratom sawyobSi ar Sevidaqurdi? iqneb qurdi sawyobis erT-erTi muSaa da axla SeuZlia gagvces. cxadia,van daanis fexis xmas gaigonebda da SeiZleba dainaxa kidec. SiSma Segvipyro,radgan ar viciT, apirebs Tu ara qurdi kidev erTxel Cveni karis gaRebas da Tuapirebs rodis? iqneb kacis danaxvam ise daafrTxo, rom aRar mogvekaros?anaxuTSabaTi, 2 marti, 1944Zvirfaso kiwi!dRes me da margo sxvenze avediT. magram masTan erTad zeviT yofna iseTsiamovnebas ara mgvris, rogorc Cems warmodgenaSi mesaxeboda, Tumca vici, rommargo metwilad iseve grZnobs yvelafers, rogorc me.dRes eli dedas da qalbaton van daans WurWlis recxvaSi exmareboda daugunebobas uCioda. ici, rogor anugeSes orivem? dedam aseTi rCeva misca:ifiqros yvelaze, vinc dRes mTel msoflioSi iRupeba. magram ras giSvelissxvis ubedurebaze fiqri, roca TviTon xar sasowarkveTili? es azri mexmamaRla gamovTqvi da aseTi pasuxi miviRe: `nu laparakob iseT rameze, rac argesmis~.ufrosebi xom briyvebi da gonebaClungebi arian. TiTqosda margo, peteri,eli da me maTsaviT ar vgrZnobT yvelafers. aseT mdgomareobaSi mxolodnamdvili dedis, anu uaxloesi megobris siyvaruli Tu giSvelis. magram Cvensdedebs sruliad ar esmis Cveni, dedaCems kidev ufro naklebad, vidre qalbatonvan daans. ra siamovnebiT vetyodi sabralo elis ramdenime Tbil sityvas, iseTrames, rac sakuTari gamocdilebiT vici, rom nugeSis momgvrelia. magram amdros mama movida da me zedmeti aRmovCndi. marTlac, ra sulelia yvela! Cvenufleba ara gvaqvs, sakuTari azri viqonioT! da amave dros TavianTi TaviultraTanamedrove adamianebad miaCniaT. ar gqondes sakuTari azri! SeiZlebauTxra sxvas, gaCumdi! magram azrovneba aukrZalo, ara, ar SeiZleba. aravis araaqvs ufleba, aukrZalos vinmes azrovneba, Tundac igi Zalze axalgazrda iyos.elis, peters, margos da me gviSvelis, siyvaruli, romelic oTxives gvaklia.aravis ar esmis Cveni, gansakuTrebiT ki Cvens mozrdil idiotebs, radgan Cvenbevrad ufro mgrZnobiareni varT da bevrad ufro daxvewili azrovneba gvaqvs,vidre maT warmoudgeniaT.

dedam isev usamarTlod misayvedura. etyoba, eWvianobs, radgan am bolodros qalbaton van daans ufro xSirad velaparakebi, vidre mas.dRes nasadilevs, rogorc iqna, gamoviWire peteri. sul cota, samimeoTxedi saaTi mainc visaubreT. peters uWirs sakuTar Tavze laparaki, magrambolos mainc amoidga ena. miTxra, rom misi mSoblebi xSirad Cxubobenpolitikis, sigaretis da yovelgvari umniSvnelo wvrilmanis gamo. roca amasambobda, Tavs uxerxulad grZnobda. axla me daviwye laparaki Cems mSoblebze.peteri aRtacebulia mamaCemiT, `yoCaRi~ uwoda. vilaparakeT rogorc`zemourebze~, aseve `qvemourebze~. peters gaukvirda, roca gaigo, rom Cvenmaincdamainc ar gviyvars misi mSoblebi.— mismine peter, — daviwye me, — Sen ici, rom me gulaxdili adamianivar, ratom ar unda giTxra yvelaferi. Cven xom viciT, ra nakli aqvT maT. —Semdeg ki aseTi ram vuTxari:— peter, Zalian minda dagexmaro, maZlev uflebas? Sen aq adgils verpoulob da vici, rarig giWirs, Tumca amaze arafers geubnebi.— keTili, me mudam madlieri viqnebi daxmarebisaTvis.— iqneb jobda mamas moelaparako. mama arasodes ar gagcems. SegiZliadaufaravad uTxra yvelaferi.— marTali xar, mamaSeni namdvili adamiania.— Sen xom kargad xar misdami ganwyobili? — man Tavi damiqnia da meganvagrZe: — isic Sendami, peter!peteri yurebamde gawiTlda. Cemma sityvebma ise gaaxara, rom guliamiCuyda.— Sen ase fiqrob? — mkiTxa man.— ra Tqma unda, — vupasuxe, — es araerTxel msmenia misgan!peteri yoCaRia, mamaCemiviT yoCaRi!anaparaskevi, 3 marti, 1944Zvirfaso kiwi!am saRamos sanTlebi 1 ( 1 paraskevs saRamos ebraelTa ojaxebSi sanTlebsanTeben.) aanTes. me isev gavmxiaruldi da davmSviddi. sanTlebis Suqze bebiadavinaxe, romelic mmfarvelobs da CemTvis mudam sixaruli moaqvs.magram... Cemi fiqrebi sxvaganaa, peterTan. dRes roca zemodan kartofiliCamomqonda, man mkiTxa: `ras akeTebdi nasadilevs?~kibeze Camovjeqi da saubari gavabiT. mxolod eqvsis TxuTmet wuTzeCavedi dabla (kartofilis aRebidan zustad erTi saaTis Semdeg).peters mSoblebze sityva ar dauZravs. Cven mxolod wignebsa da warsulzevlaparakobdiT. SesaniSnavi biWia! kidev cota da albaT Semiyvardeba. saRamosTviTon Seexo am Temas. roca kartofilis gafcqvna movaTave, masTan avedi.Zalian Tbiloda da me vTqvi:`me da margo temperaturis sazomad gamovdgebiT: roca civa, fermkrTalnivarT, roca Tbila, loyebwiTela~.— Seyvarebuli xar? — mkiTxa man.— ratom unda viyo Seyvarebuli, — vupasuxe me. Cemi xma sruliadudardelad JRerda.— ratom ar unda iyo, — miTxra man, — magram am dros vaxSamzedagviZaxes. neta ra undoda amiT eTqva? dRes, rogorc iqna, movaxerxe mekiTxamisTvis, Tavi xom ar movabezre laqlaqiT? man mokled momiWra: `piriqiT, Zalianmsiamovnebs!~ ar vici, iqneb uxerxulobis grZnobam aTqmevina es. verafers vityvi.kiwi, me namdvili SeyvarebuliviT viqcevi, romelsac, satrfos garda,araferi axsovs. magram peteri marTlac oqroa! rodis momecema SemTxvevavuTxra es? ra Tqma unda, mxolod im SemTxvevaSi, Tu misTvisac ramed vRirvar.me xom iseTi knuti ara var, romelsac SeiZleba Sen nebaze moeqce. me es kargadvici. mas ki imdenad uyvars martooba, rom arc ki vici, movwonvar Tu ara.

yovel SemTxvevaSi, Cven nel-nela vecnobiT erTmaneTs. magram Cemisurvilia, ufro gulaxdilni viyoT. vin icis, iqneb es dro ufro Cqara dadges,vidre me vfiqrob. yoveldRe ramdenjerme Semomxedavs SeTqmuliviT, mec Tvalsvukrav da orive kmayofilni varT! Tumca sisulelea imis Tqma, rom peteriCemsaviT bednieria, magram ratomRac mgonia, rom isic CemsaviT fiqrobs!anaSabaTi, 4 marti, 1944Zvirfaso kiwi!amdeni Tvis manZilze dRes pirveli SabaTia, roca arc mowyenili var, arcnaRvliani da arc guldamZimebuli. amis mizezi ki peteria.dRes, roca sxvenze winsafris gasafenad avedi, mama iq damxvda (petersamecadinebs yoveldRe) da mkiTxa, xom ar msurs maTTan erTad frangulSimecadineoba. Txovnis ganmeoreba ar dasWirvebia. jer frangulad vilaparakeT,peters zogi ram avuxseni, Semdeg ki inglisurze gadavediT. mamam xmamaRlawagvikiTxa nawyvetebi dikensis nawarmoebebidan da me araCveulebrivad bednieriviyavi, radgan peteris gverdiT vijeqi, mamis skamze.11 saaTze qveviT Camovedi, xolo Tormetis naxevarze roca kvlav zeviTavedi, igi ukve kibeze idga da me meloda. Cven pirvel saaTamde visaubreT. Tuyvelaferi rigzea da yuradRebas aravin gvaqcevs, nasadilevs, roca oTaxidangavdivar, meubneba: `jerjerobiT ane, Sexvedramde!~ah, rogor mixaria! neta, Tu mogwonvar? yovel SemTxvevaSi, SesaniSnaviymawvilia da me vfiqrob, Cven mSvenivrad gavugebT erTmaneTs. qalbaton vandaans uxaria, roca me da peteri erTad varT. dRes ki gasaxeleblad mkiTxa: —Tu SeiZleba gendoT adamiani, roca iq, zeviT, martoni xarT?— ra Tqma unda, — aRvSfoTdi me, — Tqven me SeuracxmyofT!dilidan saRamomde marto is maxarebs, rom peters vnaxav.anaorSabaTi, 6 marti, 1944Zvirfaso kiwi!peters saxeze vamCnev, rom isic iseve bevrs fiqrobs Cemze, rogorc memasze. guSin saRamos, roca dedamisma xumrobiT `moazrovne~ uwoda, saSinladgavbrazdi, peters Sercxva da gawiTlda, me ki mzad viyavi saxeSi vcemodi!ratom ver aCereben adamianebi enas? ver warmoidgen, ra Znelia, rocaxedav mis martoobas da verafers Sveli. me ise cxadad vgrZnob, rasasowarkveTilia, roca xedavs am kinklaobas, am sicarieles, TiTqos Tavadganvicdi. sabralo peter, ra Zlier gWirdeba siyvaruli!guli mtkiva, roca misgan mesmis, rom araviTari megobari ar sWirdeba.cxadia, cdeba! SeiZleba arc fiqrobs ase, magram CasWidebia moCvenebiTgulgrilobas da aRar unda moeSvas arCeul rols, daanaxos vinmes Tavisinamdvili grZnobebi. peter, sanamde unda gagrZeldes ase? iqneb am zeadamianurdaZabulobas saSineli afeTqeba mohyves?o, peter, ufleba rom mqondes dagexmaro! orive erTad rogormedavZlevdiT Cvens martoobas. me bevrs vfiqrob, magram yvelafers ar vambob.mixaria, roca mas vxedav, gansakuTrebiT ki Tu am dros mzec anaTebs.guSin Tavs vibandi da erT ambavSi viyavi. vicodi, rom is gverdiToTaxSia. ra gaewyoba, rac ufro wynari da seriozuli var Sinaganad, miT ufrovyoyoCob. vin gaigebs amas sxvebze adre, vin Seamsxvrevs javSans. kidev kargi vandaanebs vaJi hyavT da ara qaliSvili! megobroba arasodes ar iqneboda ase Znelimosapovebeli, aseTi mSvenieri da gamabednierebeli, sqesTaurTierTmiziduloba rom ar arsebobdes.Sen ici, rom gulaxdilad gwer yvelafers. amitom unda gamogityde:vsuldgmulob mxolod Sexvedridan Sexvedramde. neta vicode, isic Tu asemelodeba! guls miCuyebs misi uxerxuli cda, rac SeiZleba SeumCnevlad

momiaxlovdes. masac CemsaviT unda gadauSalos vinmes guli, albaT, warmodgenaara aqvs, rom me swored misi umweoba mizidavs.anasamSabaTi, 7 marti, 1944Zvirfaso kiwi!roca Cems 1942 wlis cxovrebas vigoneb, yvelaferi ararealuri meCveneba.im cxovrebiT TiTqos sxva ane cxovrobda da ara is, romelic aq ase daWkvianda.diax, SesaniSnavi cxovreba iyo! uamravi Tayvanismcemlebi, ociode megobarigogona da nacnobebi. TiTqmis yvela maswavlebels vuyvardi, mSoblebimanebivrebdnen, fuli sakmarisi mqonda, meti raRa ginda?albaT ikiTxav, rogor movaxerxe amdeni adamianis gulis monadireba. rocapeteri ambobs rom es `charme~ 1 -iTaa ( 1 momxibvleloba (frang.)) gamowveuli,mTlad marTali araa. maswavleblebs moswondaT da arTobdaT Cemi moswrebulipasuxebi, sasacilo SeniSvnebi, mocinare saxe da kritikuli Tvali. es Tvisebebisainteresod da sasiamovnod miaCndaT da es asec iyo. saSineli arSiyi viyavi,kekluci da mxiaruli, magram amasTan erTad dadebiTi Tvisebebic mqonda,romelTa wyalobiT TiTqmis yvelas movwondi, saxeldobr, muyaiToba,gulaxdiloba da gulkeTiloba. aravisTvis damiSlia, gadaewera Cemgan,arasodes ar mqonia didi warmodgena Cems Tavze, yvelas guluxvad vurigebditkbileuls. iqneb am sayovelTao aRtacebas qedmaRali gavexade? iqneb jobia,rom Sua zeimidan gamomiyvanes da erTferovan, yoveldRiur cxovrebaSigadamisroles. magram erT weliwadze meti dro damWirda SevCveodi im azrs,rom CemiT aRaravinaa aRtacebuli.ras meZaxdnen skolaSi? yvela oinisa da eSmakobis `moTaves~. yvelganpirveli viyavi, arasodes ar vwuwunebdi da ar viRrinebodi. gasakviric araa,rom yvelas siamovnebas hgvrida gavecilebine skolamde da Cems mimarTyuradRebiani yofiliyo. uwindeli ane SesaniSnavi gogo iyo, oRond odnavqarafSuta, dRes ki aRaraferi aqvs CemTan saerTo. peterma Zalian marTebuladSeniSna:`adre, roca quCaSi gxvdebodi, yovelTvis ori an sami biWi, anda gogoebismTeli jogi gaxlda, mudam icinodi, celqobdi da yuradRebis centrSi iyavi~.raRa darCa uwindeli anesagan? sicils da moswrebul pasuxebs jer argadaveCvie. iseve kargad, SeiZleba ukeTesadac verkvevi adamianebSi, miyvarskeklucoba... cxadia, roca survili maqvs. minda kidev erTxel, Tundac erTisaRamo, ramdenime dRe, erTi kvira vicxovro maSindeli udardeli da mxiarulicxovrebiT. magram vici, rom erT kviraSi yvelaferi imdenad mombezrdeboda, rompirvelive Semxvedris madlieri viqnebodi, oRond seriozulad damlaparakeboda.arafrad mWirdeba Tayvanismcemlebi, me ufro megobrebi mWirdeba, nu gamoiwvevsaRtacebas Cemi momxibvleli Rimili, oRond daafason Cemi Sinagani buneba daxasiaTi. vici, rom megobarTa wre daviwrovdeba, magram eg araferia, Tukiramdenime namdvili, gulwrfeli megobari SemrCeba.Tumca arc im dros viyavi uSfoTvelad bednieri. xSirad martoobasacvgrZnobdi, magram radgan dilidan saRamomde dakavebuli viyavi, amazefiqrisaTvis ar mecala da rac SemeZlo verTobodi. Segnebulad Tu Seugneblad,vcdilobdi xumrobiT Semevso sicariele. axla minda, Cems uwindel cxovrebasgadavxedo da muSaobas Sevudge. cxovrebis erTi monakveTi aSkaraddasrulebulia: aRar damibrundeba skolis udardeli, uzrunveli wlebi. magramme arc menatreba is dro, aRar Semefereba. mas Semdeg gavizarde. axla aRarSemiZlia, mxolod udardelad vimxiarulo. Cemi erTi nawili xom mudaminarCunebs seriozulobas.Cems arsebobas 1944 wlamde ise vxedav, TiTqos gamadidebeli SuSiTvuyurebde.saxlSi — mziT savse cxovreba, Semdeg 1942 weli, aq gadmosaxleba,mkveTri cvlilebebi, Cxubi, braldebebi. me ar SemeZlo swrafad Sevguebodi

amgvar gardatexas, sayrdeni gamomecala da mxolod kadnierebiT vcdilobdiwinaaRmdegobis gawevas.1943 wlis pirveli naxevari: cremli ar SemSrobia Tvalze, martooba,TandaTan vxvdebi Cems Secdomebs da naklovanebebs, romlebic mniSvnelovania,magram me kidev ufro mniSvnelovani meCveneboda. vcdilobdi yvelaferi amexsna,pimi Cems mxareze gadmomebirebina, magram araferi gamomivida, marto aRmovCndirTuli amocanis winaSe: mindoda ise gadavkeTebuliyavi, rom aRar damWirebodamaTi rCeva-darigeba, rasac sasowarkveTilebamde mivyavdi.amave wlis meore naxevari ukeTesi iyo: wamovizarde, ufro moridebiTmeqceodnen. mets vfiqrobdi, daviwye moTxrobebis wera da im daskvnamde mivedi,rom sxvas araviTari ufleba ara aqvs, burTiviT aqeT-iqiT gadagisrolos.gadavwyvite sakuTari nebiT, Cemive daxmarebiT Camovyalibebuliyavi. bolos imSegnebamde mivedi, rom mama yvelaferSi ver iqneba Cemi mesaidumle. aravis arvendobi ufro metad, vidre sakuTar Tavs. axali wlis Semdeg daiwyo meoredidi cvlileba... gaxsovs, Cemi sizmari, mas Semdeg mivxvdi, rom megobarimWirdeba, magram ara qali, aramed vaJi. mas Semdeg CemSi bedniereba aRmovaCine,mivxvdi, rom Cemi Tavqarianoba, mxiaruleba mxolod javSania. Semdeg TandaTandavmSviddi da sikeTisa da silamazisken ltolva vigrZeni.saRamos loginSi locvas aseTi sityvebiT vamTavreb:`o, RmerTo, madlobeli var yvelafrisaTvis, rac qveynad kargia daSesaniSnavi, madlobeli var siyvarulisaTvis~. am dros CemSi yvelaferi zeimobs.vfiqrob, ra aris `kargi~? kargia, rom Cven gadavrCiT, me rom gamovjanmrTeldi:`siyvaruli~? siyvaruli peteria da is, rac CvenSi jer imdenad nazi damgrZnobiarea, rom Sexebasac ver vbedavT, is, rac odesme mova — siyvaruli,momavali, bedniereba. `SesaniSnavi~? SesaniSnavia samyaro — buneba, xelovneba,silamaze, yvelaferi, rac diadia da mSvenieri.am dros vfiqrob im saswaulebriv mSvenierebaze, rac TavisTavad arsebobsda ara ubedurebaze. ai, raSia ZiriTadi gansxvaveba Cemsa da dedas Soris.damwuxrebul adamians deda ase arigebs: `gaxsovdes, ramdeni ubedurebatrialebs qveyanaze da madlobeli iyavi, rom Senc am dReSi ara xar~. me kivetyodi: `gadi gareT, sufTa haerze, gadi da eZebe bedniereba Sens sakuTarTavSi da RmerTSi. ifiqre, ramdeni mSvenieri ram xdeba Sens sulSi, Sensirgvliv da iyavi bednieri!~Cemi azriT, dedis rCeva swori ar unda iyos, aba ra unda qna imSemTxvevaSi, roca Senc gewveva ubedureba? maSin xom sul daiRupe. me kisawinaaRmdego azrisa var. rac unda ubeduri viyo, qveynad mainc arsebobs raRacmSvenieri: buneba, mze, Tavisufleba da yvelaferi is, rac SenSia. amas undaCaeWido da maSin sakuTar Tavsac ipovi, RmerTsac da wonasworobasacSeinarCuneb.xolo bedniers sxvisi gabednierebac SeuZlia. visac vaJkacoba da rwmenaaqvs, ubedurebaSi ar daiRupeba.anakvira, 12 marti, 1944Zvirfaso kiwi!am bolo dros erT adgilze ver vCerdebi. siamovnebiT vesaubrebi peters,magram mudam imis SiSi maqvs, Tavi ar movabezro. melaparakeba warsulze,mSoblebze, sakuTar Tavze. me ki mainc yvelaferi mecotaveba.mere Cems Tavs vekiTxebi — ra ufleba maqvs meti moviTxovo. adre peteriver mitanda, verc me vitandi. axla me masze azri Semecvala, niSnavs ki es imas,rom masac unda Secvloda Cemze azri?me ase mgonia, Tumca es jer kidev imas ar niSnavs, rom Cven ganuyrelimegobrebi varT. me CemdaTavad mirCevnia, ase iyos, maSin ukeT avitandikarCaketilobas. ar minda, zedmetad gaviRiziano Tavi. isedac bevrs vfiqrobpeterze, Sen raRad unda mogaxvio Tavs Cemi sevdiani fiqrebi.

SabaTs imdenad gamanadgura garedan Semotanilma cudma ambebma, romnasadilevs dasaZineblad wamovweqi. Zili, Zili, rom araferze vifiqro. 4saaTamde meZina, mere mSoblebs mivakiTxe. verc dedas vupasuxe da verc mamasavuxseni, ratom wamovweqi. bolos Tavis tkivili movimizeze. tyuili armiTqvams, Tavi marTlac mtkioda, mtkioda... sadRac SigniT, Rrmad!normaluri adamianebi, Cemi toli normaluri qaliSvilebi ifiqreben,cota Seqanebulia da imitom Civis amdenso, magram saqme isaa, rom yvelafers,rac gulSi maqvs, Sen geubnebi, Semdeg ki mTeli dRe kadnieri, mxiaruli dasakuTar TavSi darwmunebuli var, vcdilob Tavi avarido yovelgvar SekiTxvebs,— arc sxvebi Sevawuxo da arc sakuTari Tavi.margo Zalian alersiania da did yuradRebas iCens Cemdami. albaT,cdilobs Cemi gulis mesaidumle gaxdes, magram me ar SemiZlia yvelaferigavando mas. igi sayvareli, keTili da lamazia, magram cota akademiuri.seriozul sakiTxebze saubrisaTvis ki ubraloebaa saWiro. me seriozuladmeqceva, Zalze seriozulad da albaT, bevrs fiqrobs Tavis Tavqarian daikoze.rac unda vTqva, gamomcdel mzeras momapyrobs da fiqrobs:`TvalTmaqcobs Tu marTla am azrisaa?~ Cven aq viwrod vcxovrobT,erTmaneTs mudam fexebSi vedebiT, me ki mirCevnia, Cemi mesaidumle Sors iyosCemgan.rodis davaRwev Tavs azrTa am qaoss? rodis daisadgurebs CemSi kvlavsimSvide da myudroeba?anasamSabaTi, 14 marti, 1944Zvirfaso kiwi!me ukve karga xania momwyinda amaze laparaki, magram iqneb Sengainteresebs, ra vWameT dRes. am wuTSi van daanebTan vzivar (qveviTdamlagebeli muSaobs) muSambagadafarebul magidasTan da cxvirTannelsacxebliT napkuri cxvirsaxoci miWiravs. surneleba cxvirsaxocs saxlidangamohyva. me mgoni, es mikibul-mokibuli ambavi ufro dagabnevs, amitom Tavidandaviwyeb. vinc Cven sasursaTo baraTebiT da sxva saWiro ramiT gvamaragebda,daiWires. axla aRarc sasursaTo baraTebi gvaqvs da aRarc cximi. mipi dakoophoisi avad arian. eli ki ver iclis da savaWrod ver midis. ase rom,ganwyobileba cudia, aseve saWmelic. xvalisTvis erTi naWeri qonic ki aRargvaqvs, xolo karaqze da margarinze laparakic zedmetia. sauzmeze Semwvarikartofilis nacvlad (Cven amiT puris ekonomias veweodiT) fafa mogvarTves daradgan qalbatons eSinia, SimSiliT ar davixocoT, Sav bazarze mouxdeli rZeayidina. dRes sadilad gvaqvs kasridan amoRebuli lobio!! amitomac mividecxvirze cxvirsaxoci, rogorc sifrTxilis RonisZieba. lobio mTeli welikasrSi ido da raRac warmoudgenlad yars. oTaxSi erTmaneTSi areuli dampaliqliavis, sakonservo sunelis da laye kvercxis mkveTri suni trialebs. fu,roca gavifiqreb, rom es saZagloba unda SevWamo, guli mereva. garda amisa,Cvens kartofils raRac daavadeba gauCnda da `pomme de terre~ 1 -is ( 1 kartofili(frang.).) kalaTidan naxevars sanagve yuTSi vyriT. roca kartofils vfcqvniT,daavadebis diagnozis dadgenas vcdilobT da verTobiT. bolos davadgineT,yvelaze metad gavrcelebulia kibo, Savi yvavili da wiTela. arc ise adviliaiatakqveS cxovreba omis meoTxe wels. male mainc moeRos bolo am ubedurebas.aq rom sxvamxriv cota ukeTesi pirobebi iyos, sakvebis uqonloba amisnaxevradac ar Semawuxebda. magram ZaRlis Tavi swored aqaa damarxuli. amerTferovanma cxovrebam yvelas tvini Segviryia. ai, ras ambobs CveniTavSesafris xuTive ufrosi wevri Cvens cxovrebaze:qalbatoni van daani: `didi xania mombezrda samzareulos ferias roli.roca saqme araferi maqvs, mwyindeba, amitomac vamzadeb kerZs. magram kerZisdamzadeba ucximod SeuZlebelia! cudi suni guls mirevs. vSromob, madlobismagier ki ukmayofileba da sayveduri mesmis. yvelasaTvis me var TeTri yvavi,yvela me madanaSaulebs. garda amisa, darwmunebuli var, rom oms bolo ar

moeReba, SeiZleba germanelebma moigon kidec omi. saSinlad maSinebs is, romSimSiliT davixocebiT. ra gasakviria, Tu mudam karg xasiaTze ara var~.batoni vand daani:`minda movwio, movwio da kidev erTxel movwio. maSin yvelaferi asatania:politikac, sakvebic da kerlis Wirveulobac. xolo roca mosawevi ara maqvs,xorci mainc unda mqondes sadilad. Tu ara da cxovreba autanelia, yvelafersviwuneb da yvelasTan vCxubob, kerli ki saocrad suleli qali mgonia.qalbatoni franki: `sakvebi ar aris mTavari, magram saSinlad mSia daerTi naWeri Wvavis puri menatreba. me rom qalbaton van daanis adgilze viyo,didi xania gadavaCvevdi Cems qmars amdeni papirosis wevas, magram axla momeci,geTayva, erTi sigareti, iqneb nervebi davimSvido... ingliselebs bevri SecdomamosdiT, magram frontze saqme mainc kargad midis. marTals Tu maTqmevinebT,mixaria, rom poloneTSi ara var~.batoni franki: `yvelaferi rigzea, me araferi ar minda. mTavaria simSvide.dro jer wina gvaqvs. Tu kartofils maWmevT, savsebiT kmayofili viqnebi, oRondCemi ulufidan cota elis gadaunaxeT~.batoni duseli: `droze unda davamTavro Cemi disertacia. politika?didebulia! Cven aq aRmogvaCenen? SeuZlebelia!~ me, me, me...anaoTxSabaTi, 15 marti, 1944Zvirfaso kiwi!uh... oh... oh... mTeli dRe mxolod es ismis: `Tu esa da es moxda, namdviligaWirveba maSin naxeT... xolo Tu isic avad gaxda, qveyanaze momxedavi aRargveyoleba... da Tu kidev...~, erTi sityviT, gagrZeleba SegiZlia TviTonwarmoidgino. me mgonia, Sen am xnis ganmavlobaSi kargad gaicani yvela`iatakqveSeli~ da ar gagiWirdeba mixvde, vin ras ambobs.am `Tu, Tu~-s mizezi isaa, rom batoni kraleri Sromis begarismosaxdelad gaiwvies, eli gacivda, mips jerac ar mouxdia gripi, xolo batonkoophioss mZime sisxlis dena daewyo kuWidan da xandaxan guli uwuxdeba.saSineli ambavia.sawyobis mosamsaxureebi xval isveneben da Tu eli Sin darCa, Cven karisgaRebas ver movaxerxebT. TagvebiviT gasusulebi unda visxdeT, rom mezoblebmaaraferi gaigonon. pirvel saaTze henki mova, rom daxedos mitovebulebs da asevTqvaT, zooparkis darajis roli Seasrulos... dRes zogi ram gviambogaresamyaroze. didi xania ar gvsmenia, ra xdeba am kedlebs iqiT; rom genaxa, raxarbad vusmendiT. aris aseTi suraTi `bebias zRaprebi~, imas vgavdiT.jer erTi ambavi ar hqonda moTavebuli da meoreze gadadioda, cxadia,sakvebzec vilaparakeT, bolos mipis mkurnal eqimze SeCerda:`eqimi? eqimze nurafers mkiTxavT! am diliT davureke, rogorc iqna,telefonTan asistenti movida. gripiani avadmyofisaTvis recepti vTxove daiciT, ra mipasuxa: rvidan cxris naxevramde gamoiareT da waiReTo. Tu gripimZime formaSi gaqvs, telefonTan, albaT, TviTon eqimi modis da geubneba: aba,gamoyaviT ena... TqviT a-aaa... yvelaferi gasagebia, yeli gaqvT gawiTlebuli,recepts afTiaqs gadavugzavni, midiT da wamali wamoiReT. naxvamdis! wertilidasmulia. rogor mogwonT amgvari mkurnaloba? momsaxureba telefonissaSualebiT!~Tumca didad ver vusayvedureb eqimebs, bolos da bolos TiToeulsmxolod ori xeli aqvs, axla ki, samwuxarod, pacientebis ricxvi maqsimumsaRwevs, eqimebisa ki minimums. magram Cven mainc TavSeukaveblad vxarxarebdiT,roca henkma eqimTan telefoniT saubari gadmogvca. advili warmosadgenia,rogor gamoiyureba axla eqimis mosacdeli oTaxi. ufaso pacientebs axla zedaravin uyurebs, xolo im adamianebs, romelTac seriozuli araferi sWirT damxolod wuwuni uyvarT, dRes, albaT, aseT rames eubnebian: `ra dagrCenia aq,dadeqi boloSi, jer is unda gauSva, vinc marTla avadaa!~ana

xuTSabaTi, 16 marti, 1944Zvirfaso kiwi!SesaniSnavi amindia, axlave aval sxvenze.axla ki vici, ratom var peterze ufro mousvenari, mas sakuTari oTaxiaqvs, sadac ocnebobs, fiqrobs da sZinavs. me ki oTaxidan magdeben. Cems oTaxSiduseli cxovrobs, amitom verasodes ver vrCebi marto, Tumca marto darCenasaocrad minda. esaa erT-erTi mizezi imisa, rom mudam zeviT gavrbivar. mxolodiq, zeviT, da SenTan saubarSi vpoulob kvlav sakuTar Tavs, kiwi! magram ase arunda moveSva, piriqiT meti mxneoba unda gamoviCino. sabednierod, veravin amCnevsCems gancdebs, mxolod esaa, rom dedis mimarT ufro gulcivi gavxdi, aRarcmamas veqcevi Zveleburad, nazad, margos ki gulaxdilad aRarafers veubnebi.Cems TavSi Cavikete, magram garegnuli TavdaWera aucileblad unda SevinarCuno.aravin ar unda icodes, ra brZola mimdinareobs CemSi, Cems gonebasa da Cemssurvilebs Soris. aqamde mudam goneba imarjvebda, magram iqneb odesmemimtyunos. zogjer meSinia amis, zogjer ki vnatrob!Zalian minda velaparako amaze peters, magram vici, rom pirvelad man undadaiwyos. ra Znelia, roca saubars sizmarSi daiwyeb da gamofxizlebisasgagrZelebis saSualeba ara gaqvs. ra samwuxaroa, rom sizmarSi gancdilisinamdviled ar iqceva. diax, kiwi! Seni ane cotaTi Seqanda! magram me xomaranormalur droSi da aranormalur garemoSi vcxovrob! sixaruls mxolod ismaniWebs, rom Cemi fiqrebisa da grZnobebis gadmocema SemiZlia, Torem suldavixrCobodi.neta peteri ras fiqrobs yovelive amaze? me mainc mjera, rom male amsakiTxze gveqneba saubari. albaT bevr rames xvdeba kidec, radgan ane, romelsacaqamde icnobda, ar moewoneboda. rogor SeiZleba, simSvidisa da siwynarismoyvaruls Cemi daudegari, mousvenari xasiaTi moswondes! nuTu igi erTaderTikacia, romelmac Cemi qvis niRbis qveS pirvelma Seixeda? nuTu dainaxa, raimaleba mis ukan? marTals ambobs Zveli WeSmariteba: siyvaruls xSiradTanagrZnoba iwvevs, xolo bolos orive erTmaneTs erwymiso. mec aseve momdis?xSirad peteri iseve mecodeba rogorc sakuTari Tavi.ar vici, marTla ar vici, rogor vipovo pirveli sityva. raRa qnaspeterma, romelsac Cemze ufro uWirs laparaki. neta miwera SemeZlos! maSin imasmainc gaigebda, risi Tqmac minda, da rac ase Zneli gamosaxatavia sityvebiT!anaparaskevi, 17 marti, 1944Zvirfaso kiwi!TavSesafarma SvebiT amoisunTqa. kraleri gaanTavisufles, eli moeriaTavis surdos da axla Zveleburad Tavs dagvtrialebs. yvelaferi rigzea,mxolod esaa, rom margos da me Cvenma mSoblebma cota Tavi mogvabezres. cudadnu gamigeb, xom ici, zogjer rogor miWirs dedasTan saerTo enis gamonaxva. mamaki, mama winandeburad miyvars. margos erTnairad uyvars orive. magram CvensasakSi TviTon ginda iyo Seni Tavis ufrosi da dedis kalTas moscilde. TuzeviT avedi, mkiTxaven, ra gindodao. minda, kerZs marili davayaro, arSeiZlebao. yovel saRamos zustad cxris naxevarze deda mekiTxeba, gaxdasratom ar iwyebo. yovel wigns, romlis wakiTxva minda, jer TviTongadaaTvaliereben. marTali giTxra cenzura maincdamainc mkacri araa dayvelafris wakiTxvis uflebas maZleven, magram kontroli, uamravi SeniSvnebi damiTiTebebi orives mogvbezrda. gansakuTrebiT me maxasiaTebs bevri ram iseTi,rac Cems mSoblebs ar eWaSnikebaT, magram me bavSvi aRara var. ar minda `aqmakoce, iq makoce~, arc bavSvis mosaferebeli saxelebi mWirdeba. es yvelaferimetismetad daTafluli meCveneba. ase rom, mcire xniT siamovnebiT gaveclebodimoyvarul, mzrunvel mSoblebs. guSin margom aseTi ram miTxra: `pirdapirsasaciloa, sakmarisia, Tavi xelebze daayrdno, maSinve gekiTxebian: Tavi xom argtkiva, cudad xom ara xar~.

Cven orive didad ganvicdiT, roca vxedavT, Tu ra darCa Cveni myudroharmoniuli ojaxisgan. amis mizezi isaa, rom Cveni aqauri urTierTobayovelmxriv arabunebrivia. me imis Tqma minda, rom Cven xSirad ise gveqcevian,rogorc bavSvebs, sinamdvileSi ki Sinaganad bevrad gavuswariT Cvens tolebs.Tumca me mxolod ToTxmeti wlisa var, magram Zalian kargad vici, ra minda,vinaa marTali da vin mtyuani. maqvs sakuTari Tvalsazrisi, sakuTari aRqma,principebi. iqneb mozardis amgvari gancxadeba zedmeti TavdajerebulobiTaxsnan, magram me adamianad ufro vgrZnob Cems Tavs, vidre bavSvad. vgrZnob, romsruliad damoukidebeli var yvelasagan, sul erTia, vinc unda iyos igi.me vici, rom dedaze ukeTesad SemiZlia kamaTi da sakuTari mosazrebebisdamtkiceba, radgan masze ufro obieqturi var da maincdamainc ar miyvarsgazviadeba, masze ufro organizebuli, masze ufro marjve... SegiZlia icino,ramdenic ginda! zogjer vgrZnob, rom dedaze bevrad maRla vdgavar. Tu vinmemiyvars, upirveles yovlisa, minda aRtacebuli viyo misiT, pativs vcemde!yvelaferi kargad iqneboda, peteri rom Cemi megobari gamxdariyo. igi marTlaciwvevs CemSi aRtacebas, saocrad sayvareli adamiania!anakvira, 19 marti, 1944Zvirfaso kiwi!guSindel dRes didi mniSvneloba hqonda CemTvis. gadavwyvite, sanamsadilad davsxdebodiT, gulaxdilad movlaparakebodi peters da CurCuliTvkiTxe: — saRamos stenografiaSi imecadineb?— ara, — mipasuxa man.— salaparako maqvs SenTan.— Zalian kargi!WurWeli davrecxe da zrdilobis gamo cota xans kidev vijeqimSoblebTan. Semdeg peterTan avedi. igi Ria fanjarasTan idga marcxniv. memarjvniv gavCerdi. bevrad ukeTesia naxevradbnelSi saubari, vidre sinaTleze. memgonia, peteric ase fiqrobs.Cven imdeni ram vuambeT erTmaneTs, imdeni, rom yvelafris daweraSeuZlebelia. magram ra kargi iyo, ukeTesi saRamo aq gadmosaxlebis Semdeg armqonia. zog rames mainc gadmogcem mokled. jer vsaubrobdiT Cvenebiskinklaobaze, rasac me axla sul sxva TvaliT vuyureb, Semdeg mSoblebTanSinagan gaTiSulobaze. bevri ram vuTxari peters mamaze, dedaze, margoze dasakuTar Tavze. uecrad man mkiTxa: roca erTmaneTs `Rame mSvidobisas~ eubnebiT,aucileblad kocniT erTmaneTs?— ra Tqma unda, da ara erTxel! Tqvenc, ara?— ara, me jer TiTqmis arasodes aravisTvis mikocnia.— arc dabadebis dReze?— dabadebis dReze ki!Cven aRvniSneT, rom sruli ndobiT ar vekidebiT mSoblebs. van daanebsTurme didad swadiaT daimsaxuron Svilis ndoba, magram peters Tavi ganzeuWiravs. me vTqvi, rom mwuxarebas cremlebiT viqarveb baliSSi TavCarguli, iski Turme sxvenze adis da ilanZReba. vuTxari, rom me da margom namdviladmxolod axla gavicaniT erTmaneTi, magram bolomde gulaxdilni mainc aravarT, radgan sul erTad gvixdeba yofna. raze ar vilaparakeT. TiTqmisyvelaferze da is swored iseTi iyo, rogoric warmodgenaSi mesaxeboda.mere gavixseneT 1942 weli. maSin Cven imdenad sxva adamianebi viyaviT, romaxla TiTqmis veRar vcnobT Cvens Tavs. pirvelad ver vitandiT erTmaneTs.peteri me mousvenar da usiamo arsebad mTvlida. kargs mec verafers vxedavdimasSi. maSin me ar mesmoda, ratom ar mearSiyeboda, magram axla mixaria. miTxraisic, Tu rogor ganudga yvelas. me ki vupasuxe, rom Cems cocxal bunebasa damis simSvides Soris arc ise didi sxvaobaa, rom zogjer mec Zalian menatrebasiCume, magram mxolod Cemi dRiuri maZlevs ganmartoebis saSualebas. Cven

gamovutydiT erTmaneTs: mas axarebs, rom Cemi mSoblebi aq Svilebianadgadmosaxldnen, me ki misi aq yofna mgvris siamovnebas. axla me kargad mesmismisi ganmartoebis mizezi, misi damokidebuleba mSoblebTan da siamovnebiTdavexmarebi.— Sen me isedac mexmarebi, — miTxra man.— mainc riT? — vkiTxe me.— Seni simxiaruliT!ukeTess verafers metyoda! saocrad mesiamovna, peterma ukve iswavla Cemi,rogorc kargi amxanagis, dafaseba da jerjerobiT meti araferi minda. sityvebiar myofnis imis gamosaTqmelad, Tu ra bednieri da madlieri var, magram SenTanbodiSs vixdi kiwi, rom dRes Cemi stili Cveulebrivze uxeiroa.davwere yvelaferi, rac enaze momadga. axla ki iseTi grZnoba maqvs,TiTqos me da peters saidumlo gvakavSirebs. roca Semomcqeris, micinis anTvals mikravs, CemSi TiTqos Suqi inTeba. minda yvelaferi aseve darCes, mindabevri, bevri bednieri saaTi gavataroT erTad!Seni madlieri da bednieri ana.orSabaTi, 20 marti, 1944Zvirfaso kiwi!am diliT peterma mkiTxa, saRamos Tu amoxvalo da Tan dasZina, namdviladaraferSi ar miSli xels, Cems oTaxSi orive Tavisuflad daveteviTo. me kivupasuxe, rom yovel saRamos masTan asvla ar ivargebs, radgan danarCenebsamdeni stumroba uwesobad miaCniaT. nu miaqcev maT laparaks yuradRebas, mirCiaman. davpirdi, SabaTs saRamoTi moval-meTqi da vTxove eTqva, rodis daiwyebamTvariani Rameebi.`aucileblad~, mipasuxa man, `Cven dabla CavalT da iqidan davakvirdebiTmTvares~.magram Cems bednierebas uecrad Crdili moefina. me karga xania vfiqrob,rom peteri margosac SesaniSnav ymawvilad miaCnia. ar vici, uyvars Tu ara,magram me mainc ar msiamovnebs. yovelTvis, roca peterTan var, iseTi grZnobamaqvs, TiTqos margos tkivils vayeneb. margos Tavi SesaniSnavad uWiravs daarafers gvagrZnobinebs. me mis adgilas eWvianobisagan Tavs davkargavdi. margoki meubneba, nu Semibralebo.— me mgonia, lamazi araa, roca Sen CvenTan xelisSemSlel, mesame piradgrZnob Tavs.— me amas SeCveuli var, — mipasuxa man, Tan mis xmaSi mware naRveliigrZnoboda. jer ver vbedav, es ambavi peters vuambo. SeiZleba vuTxra mere,mogvianebiT. axla ki bevri salaparako gvaqvs. guSin dedam Semomkra. es medavimsaxure. miuxedavad mis mimarT gulgrili damokidebulebisa, amdenad maincar unda gavkadnierebuliyavi. vecdebi, ukeT daviWiro Tavi, rac unda moxdes,alersianad moveqcevi, aRar mivcem SeniSvnebs, sul erTia, amas araviTari Sedegiar moaqvs.pimic nakleb alersiania, cdilobs aRar momeqces ise, rogorc bavSvs daamitom metismetad civia. vnaxoT, rogorc wava saqme!kmara! aRarafris Tavi ara maqvs. mudam peters Sevcqeri TvalebSi da gulisixaruliT mevseba!margos sikeTis dadastureba: ai, ra miviRe dRes, 1944 wlis 20 marts: `ane,guSin roca giTxari, ar veWvianob-meTqi, naxevrad marTali viyavi. saqme isaa, romme arc Senze veWvianob da ar peterze, magram guli mwydeba, rom aqamde vervipove da, albaT, verc vipovi iseT adamians, romelsac Cems fiqrebsa dagrZnobebs gavuziarebdi. mixaria, rom Tqven erTmaneTis ndoba moipoveT. Sen aqisedac bevri ram gaklia iseTi, rac sxvebs aqvT da ver amCneven.garda amisa, me vici, rom peterTan arasodes ar meqneboda amgvaridamokidebuleba, radgan adamianTan, romelsac yvelafers eubnebi, Zalian axlosunda iyo. me unda vigrZno, rom mas usityvod esmis Cemi bolomde, igi sulieradCemze maRla unda idges, peteri ki aseTi ar aris. magram Seni da peteris

megobroba gasagebia. amitom, nu fiqrob TiTqos raRacas marTmev, TiTqosmawyenine, ara, ase araa. Tqven ki Tqveni megobroba bevr sikeTes mogitanT!~Cemi pasuxi:`Zvirfaso margo!Seni werili araCveulebrivad sasiamovnoa, magram me mainc ver davmSviddida albaT verc davmSviddebi verasodes.iseT ndobaze, rogorsac Sen gulisxmob, Cemsa da peters Soris laparakicki ar yofila, magram bnelSi, Ria fanjarasTan ufro advilia saubari, vidredRisiT mzis sinaTleze. grZnobebis gamoxatvasac ufro CurCuli uxdeba, vidremTeli qveynis gasagonad yvirili.me mgoni, peteri Senc giyvars daZmuri siyvaruliT da iseTive didisiamovnebiT daexmarebodi mas, rogorc me. miuxedavad imisa, rom Tqvens Sorisar aris iseTi ndoba, rogorsac Cven vgulisxmobT, SeiZleba odesme daexmarokidec, ndoba ormxrivi unda iyos. vfiqrob swored esaa imis mizezi, Tu ratomveRar velaparakebi mamas gulaxdilad.modi nuRar SevexebiT am Temas da gTxov, nuRarafers metyvi amaze. xoloTu raime kidev gaqvs saTqmeli — momwere. mec werilobiT ufro mexerxeba Cemiazrebis gamoxatva, vidre sityvebiT. Sen ver warmoidgen, ra aRtacebas iwvevCemSi. imedi maqvs, rom odesme odnav mainc dagemgvanebiT Sen da mamas sikeTiT.xolo am mxriv Tqven erTmaneTs gavxarT~.anaoTxSabaTi, 22 marti, 1944Zvirfaso kiwi!guSin saRamos margosagan es werili miviRe:`Zvirfaso ane!mas Semdeg, rac Seni guSindeli werili wavikiTxe, iseTi STabeWdilebaSemeqmna, TiTqos roca peterTan adixar samuSaod an salaparakod, sindisisqenjna gawuxebs. magram saamisod araviTari safuZveli ar arsebobs. Cemi ndobismosapoveblad garkveuli urTierTobaa saWiro, amisTvis ki peteri ar gamodgeba.mis mimarT me swored iseTi grZnoba maqvs, rogoric Sen aRniSne. peters TiTqmisise vuyureb, rogorc Zmas, magram... umcros Zmas! Cven rqebgamoSveril lokokinebsvgavarT, romlebic SexebiT cdiloben gaarkvion, eyvarebaT Tu ara odesmeerTmaneTi daZmuri siyvaruliT, magram jer saqme aqamde ar misula.amitom ar unda gebralebode. dastkbi im megobrobiT, rac moipove~.cxovreba ki sul ufro mSvenieri xdeba. ici, kiwi! Cven am TavSesafarSinamdvili didi siyvarulis gancda mogvelis, magram me ar vfiqrob imaze,gavyvebi Tu ara odesme colad, radgan ar vici, rogori iqneba, roca gaizrdeba.arc is vici, Tu gveyvareba erTmaneTi momavalSi ise, rom daqorwinebamovisurvoT. Tumca axla darwmunebuli var, rom movwonvar, magram ar vici,rogor, rogorc kargi amxanagi, romelic enatreba, rogorc qali, Tu rogorcdis magieri, amaSi me jer ver gavrkveulvar.Zalian gamexarda, roca miTxra, rom CemTan erTad ufro iolad itans imayal-mayals, romelic maTTan xSirad xdeba. Cemi azriT, es ukve win gadadgmulinabijia Cvens megobrobaSi. guSin vkiTxe, ras izamda, aq rom aTiode ane iyos dawamdauwum amodiodnen masTan. `yvela Tu SenisTana iqneba, rogorme avitandi~,mipasuxa man.peteri mudam stumarTmoyvarea da me mgoni, Cemi misvla axarebs. bejiTadswavlobs franguls. saRamosac ki, aTi saaTis Semdeg, sawolSi. o, roca SabaTissaRamo magondeba, Cveni saubari, Cveni ganwyobileba, am xnis manZilze mxolodpirvelad var kmayofili sakuTari TaviT. arc erT Cems naTqvam sityvas arvnanob, rogorc es Cveulebriv xSirad xdeba. roca icinis, lamazia, xolo rocawynaradaa, Zalian sayvareli da kargi. Cemi azriT, pirdapir gancvifrebulidarCa, roca mixvda, rom me ara var amqveynad yvelaze qarafSuta gogo, rom mec

masaviT meocnebe arseba var, rom mec iseve ganvicdi yvela siZneles, rogorcigi.Cemi pasuxi:`Zvirfaso margo!yvelafers jobia, davicadoT, vnaxoT, ra moxdeba. ar SeiZleba, didxansgagrZeldes ase, male Cemsa da peters Soris ase Tu ise yvelaferi gairkveva. mear vici, rogor ganviTardeba movlenebi da odnavadac ar vixedebi win, magramerT rames mainc gavakeTeb ise, rom Sen arc ki gkiTxav: roca me da peterinamdvilad davmegobrdebiT, vetyvi, rom Senc mogwons da Tu saWiro iqna,yvelaferSi daexmarebi. ar vici, ras fiqrobs peteri Senze, magram aucilebladvkiTxav. me mgoni, cudi azrisa ar unda iyos, piriqiT! SegiZlia Tavisufladmoxvide CvenTan zeviT da saerTod yvelgan, sadac Cven viqnebiT. darwmunebuliiyavi, xels ar SegviSli, radgan Cven xmisamouReblad SevTanxmdiT, romgulaxdili saubari gveqneba mxolod saRamoobiT, bnelSi. guls nu gaitex! mecmedgrad vdgavar, iqneb Seni droc movides. da ufro malec, vidre Sen fiqrob!~anaxuTSabaTi, 23 marti, 1944Zvirfaso kiwi!nel-nela yvelaferi mowesrigda. Cveni `spekulantebi~, sabednierod,cixidan gamouSves! mipi guSindels aqeT kvlav CvenTanaa, elis xvelam gauara,mxolod koophoiss mouwevs kidev didxans saxlSi jdoma. guSin Cvens TavzeTviTmfrinavi Camoagdes, mfrinavebi gadarCnen, TviTmfrinavi ki skolas daeca.sabednierod, bavSvebi skolaSi ar iyvnen, magram cecxli gaCnda da amboben,msxverplic ariso. germanelebi umowyalod esrodnen mfrinavebs, romlebicparaSutiT eSvebodnen. mosaxleoba gaacofa aseTma laCrulma sisastikem. Cven, mevgulisxmob mSiSara qalebs, saSinlad SegveSinda. Cemi azriT, srolasaZaglobaa.axla me xSirad avdivar zeviT peterTan da mis oTaxSi sufTa haeriTvsunTqav. sasiamovnoa mis gverdiT jdoma da fanjaraSi yureba. roca oTaxidangavdivar, van daansa da dusels ar SeuZliaT, binZuri xumroba ar gamomayolon.`anam meore saxli ipova~, amboben isini, anda: `gana wesia, axalgazrda kacmaaxalgazrda qali saRamoobiT bnel oTaxSi miiRos?~ am `gonebamaxvilur~SeniSvnebs peteri saocari gulgrilobiT Rebulobs. dedamissac ainteresebs,raze vlaparakobT, siamovnebiT gamogvkiTxavda, magram gawbilebis eSinia. peteriambobs, ufrosebs SurT Cveni axalgazrdoba da guli mosdiT, rom yuradRebasar vaqcevT maT xumrobas. zogjer peteri CvenTan Camodis dabla, cdilobs TaviSeikavos, magram sircxvilisagan mainc kibosaviT wiTldeba da xmas ver iRebs.albaT, Zalian usiamo grZnobaa!mama ambobs, vipranWebi, magram marTali araa. me mxolod Zalianpativmoyvare var. aqamde aravis ar uTqvams CemTvis, lamazi xaro, mxolod erTmabiWma miTxra skolaSi, roca icini, sasiamovno saxe gaqvso. guSin petermanamdvili komplimenti miTxra da minda, Cveni saubari gadmogce. peteri xSiradmeubneba: `aba gaicine!~ es me meniSna da vkiTxe: — ratom mTxov, gavicino?— imitom rom momwons. loyebze fosoebi giCndeba, netav risgan?— ara, es ar aris marTali!— rogor ara, me vici rom lamazi gogo ara var, arasodes ar vyofilvarda arc arasodes viqnebi!— me srulebiTac ar vfiqrob ase, Cemi azriT, Sen lamazi xar!— tyuilia!— raki me vambob, SegiZlia damijero.me, ra Tqma unda, vupasuxe, rom isic lamazi ymawvilia. yvela Cvens uecardamegobrebaze laparakobs, magram Cven mSoblebis miTqma-moTqmas yuradRebas arvaqcevT. maTi yoveli SeniSvna uxamsobaa. nuTu Cvens mSoblebs axalgazrdoba

gadaaviwydaT? mgoni, marTlac asea! roca Cven vxumrobT, seriozulad gveqcevian,xolo roca raimes seriozulad aRviqvamT, dagvcinian!anaorSabaTi, 27 marti, 1944Zvirfaso kiwi!`Cveni iatakqveSa cxovrebis istoriaSi~ didi adgili unda daTmobodapolitikas, magram me politika maincdamainc ar mainteresebs da uyuradRebodmivatove. amitom minda mTeli werili am sakiTxs davuTmo.TavisTavad gasagebia, rom am problemis irgvliv sxvadasxva, erTmaneTissawinaaRmdego azri arsebobs. gasagebia isic, rom am Cvens areul, omianobisdroSi gauTaveblad politikaze laparakoben. yvelaferi es logikuria, magram...politikis gamo amdeni Cxubi da dava sisulelea.dae, sanaZlo dadon, icinon, lanZRon, TaTxon erTmaneTi, rac undaT, isakeTon, ra menaRvleba, kiseric utexiaT! oRond nu iCxubeben, radgan amas mudamcudi Sedegi mosdevs. garedan Semosul adamianebs xSirad araswori ambebimoaqvT. Cvens radios jer tyuili ar uTqvams, magram henki, mipi, koophoisi,kraleri da eli movlenebs sakuTari ganwyobilebis mixedviT afaseben, xolomaTi ganwyobileba metismetad cvalebadia, Tumca yvelaze naklebad mainc henksecvleba guneba.Cveni TavSesafris politikuri ganwyobileba mudam erTnairia.gauTavebeli kamaTi gadmosxdomaze, bombardirebaze, ministrebis mierwarmoTqmul sityvebze da a. S. amave dros gesmis sxvadasxvagvari Tvalsazrisi:`SeuZlebelia!..~ `RmerTo Cemo, kidec rom daiwyon, rodisRa gaTavdeba?..~`yvelaferi brwyinvaled mimdinareobs, SesaniSnavad, ukeTess verc isurveb~.yvela dauRalavad gamoTqvams Tavis azrs, optimistebi, pesimistebi, darac mTavaria realistebi. da rogorc yovelTvis xdeba, TiToeuli maTganifiqrobs, rom marTali mxolod TviTonaa. Cveni qalbatoni gagulisebulia, rommisi meuRle didi ndobiT ekideba ingliselebs. misi sayvareli meuRle ki colsujavrdeba, aqaoda, mis saTayvano ers dascinis da abuCad igdebs.am dros arc is axsovT, Tu ras hqvia mowyena. me erTi utyuari saSualebamovigone: minaxavs, adamians nemss uCxvleten da wamoxteba. zustad ase moqmedebsCemi saSualeba. sakmarisia, erTi sityva wamomcdes politikaze da mTeli ojaximaxeSia gabmuli.TiTqos ar kmaroda germaniis sardlobis da bi-bi-sis gadacemebi, am bolodros SemoiRes specialuri gadacema `mdgomareoba haerSi~, rac Zaliansainteresoa, magram xSirad guls gvitexs. ingliselebma TavianTi sahaeroZalebi namdvil konveierad gadaaqcies, mofrinaven dRisiTac da RamiTac (iserogorc germanelebi tyuian dRec da Ramec). radios dilaadrian vusmenT, mereyovel saaTs: saRamos 9 an 10 saaTamde, zogjer TerTmetamdec, rac imasamtkicebs, rom Tumca ufrosebs moTmineba didi aqvT, magram mosazrebis unariakliaT (aris gamonaklisic, magram ar davasaxeleb). me mgoni, savsebiTsakmarisia, mousmino radios dReSi erTxel an ukidures SemTxvevaSi orjer!isini ki jer gadacemis programas ismenen, Semdeg frank filipss `oranes~radiosadgurebi, mere usmenen mis udidebulesobas — dedofals. yvela gamodisrigrigobiT da yvelas hyavs yuradRebiani msmenelebi. Tu Cvenebs ar sZinavT daar Wamen, radiosTan sxedan da saWmelze, Zilze da, rac mTavaria, politikazelaparakoben. o, ra mosawyenia, ase SeiZleba damWknar dedabers daemsgavso!ai idealuri magaliTi. sityvas ambobs uinston CerCili, romelsacyvelani pativs vcemT.kvira, saRamos 9 saaTia, Cai mzadaa da xufqveS dgas. Semodian stumrebi daradiomimRebis irgvliv sxdebian. duseli marcxniv, van daani pirdapir, peterimarjvniv, deda van daanis gverdiT, qalbatoni van daani maT ukan, pimi, me damargo magidasTan. mamakacebi ewevian. peters daZabulobisagan Tvalebi exuWeba.muq grZel xalaTSi gamowyobili deda da qalbatoni van daani kankaleben,radgan miuxedavad CerCilis gamosvlisa, TviTmfrinavebi Tamamad mifrinaven

Cvens Tavze — ruris olqis mimarTulebiT. mama Cais Seeqceva. me da margoxelixelgadaxveulebi vsxedvarT, radgan orives kalTaSi mZinare muSi gviwevs.margos Tmebi bigudebze dauxvevia. me mokle da viwro piJama macvia, irgvlivsruli siCume, simSvide, ojaxuri simyudrove sufevs. diaxac, am saRamos asea.Tumca me yovelTvis daZabuli velodebi, ra moxdeba. ufrosebs moTmineba arhyofniT bolomde moisminon sityva, mouTmenlad afratuneben fexebs. eCqarebaTimsjelon imaze, rac CerCilma Tqva, da iqamde kbenen erTmaneTs, sanam Cxubi dadava ayalmayalSi ar gadadis.anasamSabaTi, 28 marti, 1944Zvirfaso kiwi!SemeZlo meti meambna politikaze, magram dRes bevri ram unda gacnobo.jer erTi, dedam kategoriulad amikrZala zeviT xSirad siaruli, radganhgonia, rom qalbatoni van daani Cemze eWvianobs. meorec, peterma margos sTxova,CemTan erTad evlo masTan. ar vici, zrdilobis gamo, Tu marTla ase surs.mesame, mamas vkiTxe, unda gavuwio angariSi qalbaton van daanis eWvianobas Tuara. mama fiqrobs, rom ara. rogor moviqce? deda javrobs da eWvianobs kideccotaTi. mama kmayofilia Cemi da peteris megobrobiT da uxaria, Cven rom asekargad veguebiT erTmaneTs. margosac peteri SesaniSnav ymawvilad miaCnia,magram grZnobs, rom samSi ar SeiZleba imaze laparaki, rac mxolod ors exeba.deda fiqrobs, rom peters vuyvarvar. gulaxdilad rom vTqva, me vocnebob kidecamaze, maSin Cven Tanabar mdgomareobaSi viqnebodiT da ufro Tamamad dagulaxdilad visaubrebdiT. deda imasac ambobs, rom peteri Tvals ar macilebs.Tumca es marTalia. marTalia isic, rom Cven xandaxan Tvals vukravT erTmaneTsda rom mas Cems loyebze fosoebis gamoCena ainteresebs! rogor ggonia, raSemiZlia gavakeTo aseT mdgomareobaSi?saerTod ki cud dReSi var. deda Cems winaaRmdegaa ganwyobili, me ki miswinaaRmdeg. mamas ar unda dainaxos Cveni usityvo brZola. deda Sewuxebulia,radgan mainc vuyvarvar; me es naklebad mawuxebs, radgan vgrZnob, rom srulebiTar esmis Cemi. xolo peteri... peters veravis davuTmob. SesaniSnavi ymawvilia,aRtacebas iwvevs CemSi. Cven SeiZleba saucxoo megobrebi gavxdeT. ra undaT am`bebrebs~, ras Crian cxvirs yvelgan? sabednierod, me SeveCvie Cemi Sinaganigancdebis dafarvas da ioladac vaxerxeb, ar SevamCnevino maT, Tu ra Zliermiyvars peteri! nuTu arafers metyvis? nuTu arasodes ar vigrZnob misi loyisSexebas ise, rogorc maSin sizmarSi, petelTan? peteli da peteri! Tqven CemTviserTni xarT! maT Cveni ar esmiT. ver gaugiaT, rom Cven imiTac varT kmayofili,roca xmaamouRebliv erTmaneTis gverdiT vsxedvarT, ar esmiT, ra gvizidavserTmaneTisaken. rodis gadavlaxavT mTel am dabrkolebas? da mainc kargia, romraRac gvaqvs gadasalaxavi, radgan bolo ufro kargi iqneba! roca peterixelebze Tavdayrdnobili da TvaldaxuWuli zis — bavSvs hgavs, roca muSiseTamaSeba — Zalze alersiania, roca kartofiliT savse tomrebs an sxva ramesezideba — Ronieri, xolo roca qalaqis dabombvas uyurebs, anda bnelSi dablaCadis, raTa darwmundes, qurdebi xom ar Semoparulan, guladi. magram meyvelaze metad maSin momwons, roca umweo da mouxerxebelia, maSin iseTi saTnoa.me bevrad ufro msiamovnebs, roca is mixsnis rames, vidre roca me vaswavli. raTqma unda, gacilebiT ukeTesi iqneboda, yvelafriT Cemze maRla rom idges.rac unda is ifiqron Cvenma dedebma! oRond ki rame miTxras!anaoTxSabaTi, 29 marti, 1944Zvirfaso kiwi!guSin `oranes~ radiosadguriT ministri bolvenstaini laparakobda. omisSemdeg am periodis dRiurebi da wignebi unda gamovceTo. yvela maSinve CemsdRiurs eca. marTlac, ra saintereso iqneba, omis Semdeg rom gamovaqveyno

omani `TavSesafari~, Tumca saTaurs rom waikiTxaven, ifiqreben, deteqtiuriromaniao.ara, seriozulad. gana omis Semdeg, Tundac oci wlis Semdeg, adamianebidaijereben im ambavs, Tu rogor vcxovrobdiT aq ebraelebi, ras vambobdiT, rasvWamdiT. miuxedavad imisa, rom SenTvis bevri ram miambnia, es mainc Cvenicxovrebis umniSvnelo nawilia. magram Sen ar ici, ra Zalian eSiniaT qalebs,roca qalaqs bombaven, rogorc magaliTad kviras, roca inglisis 350-maTviTmfrinavma naxevari milioni kilogrami dinamiti daayara iumoidens, rocaafeTqebis talRa saxlebs azanzarebs, roca gesmis, rogori epidemiebimZvinvarebs qalaqSi. me mTeli dRe unda vwero, rom yoveli wvrilmaniSegatyobino. adamianebs bostneulisa da, saerTod, yvelafris sayidlad grZelrigSi uxdebaT dgoma. eqimi avadmyofTan ver misula, radgan iparaven manqanebsa(Tuki vinmes SerCa) da velosipedebs. yvelgan Zarcvasa da qurdobazea laparakida me Cems Tavs vekiTxebi: sad gaqra holandielTa saarako patiosneba. rva-TerTmeti wlis mozardebi amtvreven sxvisi binis fanjrebs da miaqvT yvelaferi,rasac moixelTeben. veravin bedavs, Tundac xuTi wuTiT miatovos bina, radgansakmarisia, mcire xniT moscilde saxls da dabrunebuls aRaraferi dagxvdeba.gazeTebSi yoveldRe beWdaven gancxadebebs, sadac patronebi gasamrjelospirdebian imaT, vinc daabrunebs moparul sabeWd manqanebs, sparsul xaliCebs,eleqtrosaaTebs, sakabe da sapaltoe naWrebs da a. S. quCebSi dideleqtrosaaTebs xsnian, jixurebidan telefonebi gaaqvT da mavTulsac ki artoveben.cxadia, SeuZlebelia, mosaxleobis sulieri ganwyobileba kargi iyos.sakvirao racioniT Sors ver waxval. mokavSireebis gadmosxdomas saSveli ardaadga. mamakacebs germaniaSi ukres Tavi, bavSvebi SimSiloben, avaddebian.yvelas cudad acvia da axuravs. fexsacmlis lanCa `Sav bazarze~ Svidnaxevariguldeni Rirs. mewaReebi SekveTas ar Rebuloben, Tu miiRes, ori Tve undaucado, sanam SeakeTeben, amasobaSi SeiZleba dagekargos kidec.Tumca, erTi mxriv, kargicaa: rac ufro cudia kveba, rac ufro mkacriarepresiebi, miT ufro izrdeba sabotaJi okupantebis winaaRmdeg. sursaTsanovagisgamanawilebeli dawesebulebebis momsaxure personali xSiradexmareba damalulebs, magram aris gamcemlobis SemTxvevebic da maSin yvelascixeSi amwyvdeven. sabednierod, mters mxolod niderlandelTa umniSvnelonawili uWers mxars.anaparaskevi, 31 marti, 1944Zvirfaso kiwi!jer kidev sakmaod civa, magram umravlesobas ager ukve erTi Tvea,naxSiri ara aqvs. kargi saqmea, ara? ruseTis frontze gamarjvebam optimisturiganwyobileba gamoiwvia, saqme iq brwyinvaled midis!! Tumca politikur ambebzecotas gwer, magram mainc unda gacnobo, sad arian axla rusebi: poloneTissazRvarze, rumineTTan pruTze gavidnen da oders miadgnen. yoveldRe eliansagangebo oficialur cnobas. moskovSi saluti ise gaxSirda, albaT, mTeliqalaqi gugunebs. ar vici, moswonT rusebs srola, rogorc frontis siaxlovismauwyebeli, Tu sxvagvarad ver gamouxatavT TavianTi sixaruli.germaniis jarebma ungreTis okupacia moaxdines: ungreTSi milionamdeebraeli cxovrobs, maT albaT mospoben.CvenTan gansakuTrebuli araferi momxdara. dRes van daanis dabadebisdRea. saCuqrad ori kolofi Tambaqo da mcireodeni yava (misma colma amdRisTvis gadainaxa) miiRo. kralerma limonis punSi moutana, mipma sardinebi,Cven odekoloni, iasamani da tulipi mivarTviT. aRarafers vambob Jolosa damocxaris murabian tortze, romelic uvargisi fqvilisa da karaqis gamoifSvneboda, magram mainc araCveulebrivad gemrieli iyo.Cemze da peterze Woraobas ukles. Cven SesaniSnavi megobrebi gavxdiT,xSirad varT erTad da qveynis ambebze vsaubrobT. ra kargia, rom Tavis Sekaveba

ar mixdeba, rogorc sxva biWebTan, roca saCoTiro Temaze Camovardeba saubari.magaliTad, amas winaT sisxlis Semdgenilobaze vsaubrobdiT da menstruaciasacSevexeT. misi azriT, Cven, qalebs bevris atana SegviZlia oh, oh, oh, viTomdaratom?Cemi cxovreba bevrad gaumjobesda, RmerTma ar damtova marto da arcmomavalSi damtovebs.anaSabaTi, 1 aprili, 1944Zvirfaso kiwi!da mainc metismetad miWirs. Sen xom ici, rasac vgulisxmob. menatrebakocna. kocna, romelic amden xans ar meRirsa. nuTu igi mxolod ise miyurebs,rogorc amxanags? nuTu misTvis ufro meti ara var. Senc kargad ici da mec,rom Zlieri var, yvela gasaWirs gavuZleb da, saerTod, ar mCvevia, vinmesSemweoba vTxovo. dedas arasodes CavbRauWebivar, magram axla siamovnebiTdavayrdnobdi peteris mxarze Tavs da gavisusebodi!verasodes, verasodes ver daviviwyeb im sizmars, roca loyaze peterisloya vigrZeni, roca yvelaferi momxiblavi da mSvenieri iyo. nuTu mas ar sursigrZnos yovelive es? SeiZleba morcxvoba uSlis xels gamomitydes siyvarulSi?maS ratom unda, rom mudam mis gverdiT viyo. ratom arafers meubneba? ara,jobia, gavCumde, davmSvidde. Zlieri unda viyo, moTminebiT unda velodo dayvelaferi amixdeba. magram... da swored esaa cudi: ise gamodis, TiTqos medavdevde mas. is ki ar Camodis CemTan, mudam me avdivar zeviT. magram es xomCveni oTaxebis ganlagebazea damokidebuli da mas, albaT, esmis. o, mas kidevufro meti unda esmodes!anaorSabaTi, 3 aprili, 1944Zvirfaso kiwi!Tumca veridebi amaze laparaks, mainc minda dawvrilebiT mogwero, rogorvikvebebiT, radgan Wama erT-erT uZneles problemad iqca ara martoTavSesafarSi, aramed mTel niderlandebSi, evropaSi da, saerTod yvelgan.21 Tvis manZilze, mas Semdeg rac aqa varT, kvebis rigi `periodebi~gaviareT. `periodi~ moicavs im dros, roca yovelTvis erTi da igive kerZi daerTi da igive bostneuli gvqonda. erTxans mxolod salaTas vWamdiT, xanSaqarmoyrils, xanac uSaqrod. zogjer damatebiT gvaZlevdnen an kanianadmoxarSul, anda cecxlgamZle qvabSi Semwvar kartofils. amis Semdeg ispanaxisjeri dadga. mas mohyva kolrabi, kitri, pamidori, kombostos mwnili da a. S. daa. S. wlis drois mixedviT. aba, ra sasiamovnoa yoveldRe sadilad da vaxSmadmJave kombosto, magram roca gSia, ras ar SeWam, yvelaze `ukeTesi~ periodiaxla dagvidga, radgan axali bostneuli aRar gvaqvs. Cveni yovelkvireuli meniuaseTia: sadilad wiTeli lobio, cercvis naxarSi, kartofili comis gufTiT,kartofilis piure, zogjer RvTis wyalobiT miwamxala an Sempali stafilo.Semdeg ki isev wiTeli lobio. puris naklebobis gamo kartofils yovel ijrazevWamT. sauzmes kartofiliT viwyebT. wvnians vxarSavT TeTri an wiTelilobiosagan kartofilisa da sayovelTaod cnobili koncentratebisagan:Julienis, sadedoflo da wiTeli lobios wvniani. yvelaferSi wiTeli lobioa,albaT, purSic. yovel saRamos wiTeli Warxlis salaTas vWamT da kartofilsSeTiTxnili sawebeliT. ramdenime sityva comis gundazec unda vTqva. gundas`mTavrobis fqvilisa da safuarisagan~ vamzadebT. raRa Tqma unda, yvelafersewebeba, iweleba da kuWs qvasaviT awveba. araferia, amasac avitanT!ici, ra iyo am kviris yvelaze didi movlena? gulRviZlis Zexvis naWerida povidloiani gamxmari puri. miuxedavad amisa, mainc cocxlebi varT da CvenRaribul sakvebs xSirad gemrielad mivirTmevT.ana

samSabaTi, 4 aprili, 1944Zvirfaso kiwi!am bolo dros aRar vici, risTvis vmuSaob. oms bolo ar uCans,zRaprulad Sorsaa. Tu omi seqtembramde ar damTavrda, skolaSi aRar waval,radgan ori wliT CamorCena ar minda. mTeli dReebi peterze vfiqrob, mxolodpeterze. is mudam CemTanaa, ZilSic, cxadSic, SabaTs ki vigrZeni, rom metisatana aRar SemiZlia, rom saSinlad ubeduri var. jer peterTan vijeqi dacremlebi maxrCobda, mere qalbaton van daanTan erTad limonis punSs vwrupavdida vxarxarebdi, agznebuli, aRelvebuli viyavi, magram rogorc ki marto davrCi,vigrZeni, rom tiriliT guli unda vijero. Ramis perangis amara iatakze davemxe,didxans vloculobdi gulmodgined, bolos TaviT xelebs daveyrdeni dacariel iatakze muxlmoyrili, erTianad mokuntuli vtirodi.gons isev Cemma saSinelma slukunma momiyvana. Cemi xma rom mezobeloTaxSi ar gaegonaT, vcdilobdi, cremlebi Semekavebina. vamxnevebdi, vamSvidebdiCems Tavs, ganuwyvetliv vimeorebdi: `valdebuli var, valdebuli var,valdebuli var...~uxerxulad jdomam gamaSeSa da sawolis kideze daveci. gunebaamRvreulididxans vebrZodi sakuTar Tavs, xolo TerTmetis naxevarze loginSi Cavweqi.yvelaferi gaqra! gaqra ukvalod... imisaTvis, rom ar gamovsulelde, ar CamovrCe,Jurnalisti gavxde, unda vimuSao; Jurnalistoba ki Zalian minda. vici, rom weraSemiZlia. ramdenime moTxroba kargi gamovida, Cveni TavSesafari humoristuladaRvwere, Cems dRiurSic bevri ramaa saintereso, magram... mainc gamosarkvevia,maqvs Tu ara talanti. Cemi saukeTeso zRaparia `evas sizmari~, xoloyvelaferze ucnauri da gasaocari isaa, rom TviTonac ar vici, ram damawerina.`gedis cxovrebaSic~ bevri kargi adgilia, magram mTlianad ar varga.Cemi naweris saukeTeso da umkacresi kritikosi TviTon me var. vici, raaris kargad dawerili da ra ara. visac ar uweria, ver gaigebs, ra sasiamovnoawera. uwin imas vdardobdi, kargad ver vxatav-meTqi, magram axla usazRvrodbednieri var, radgan wera mainc SemiZlia. da Tu sagazeTo werilebis dawignebis dasawerad niWi ar meyofa, ra gaewyoba, CemTvis mainc davwer.minda bevr rames mivaRwio. ver warmomidgenia, rogor SeiZleba isecxovreba, rogorc deda, qalbatoni van daani da sxva qalebi cxovroben,romlebic Tavis saqmes akeTeben, magram amqveynad arafers datoveben daukvalod gaqrebian. me qmrisa da bavSvebis garda, kidev unda mqondes raRaciseTi, rasac mTlianad mivecemi. me sikvdilis Semdegac msurs viarsebo, amitomvemadlierebi RmerTs, romelmac momaniWa Zala ganmeviTarebina goneba da kalmismeSveobiT gamomexata is, rac CemSi suldgmulobs.roca vwer, yvelaferi TavisTavad irkveva, dardi mSordeba, mxneobamemateba. magram CemTvis mainc mTavaria vicode, davwer Tu ara odesme raimemniSvnelovans, SevZleb Tu ara, mwerali an Jurnalisti gavxde? vimedovneb, romSevZleb, mTeli guliT vimedovneb! roca vwer, yvelafris axsna SemiZlia, Cemiazrebis, idealebis, fantaziis. karga xania `gedis cxovrebisaTvis~ xeli armixlia. TiTqos kargad vici, ra unda moxdes Semdeg, magram roca kalamsmokideb xels, nawarmoebi arc ise iolad da swrafad miiwevs win. SeiZleba vercdavamTavro da xelnaweri saqaRalde kalaTSi an RumelSi aRmoCndes. amgvarifiqrebi maincdamainc sasiamovno araa, magram Semdeg gadavwyvite: `ToTxmetiwlis asakSi, roca TiTqmis araviTari gamocdileba ara gaqvs cxovrebaSi,filosofiuri wignis dawera SeuZlebelia!~anaxuTSabaTi, 6 aprili, 1944Zvirfaso kiwi!Sen SemekiTxe, ra mainteresebs, ra mitacebs yvelaze metad da axla mindagipasuxo. gafrTxileb, nu SeSindebi, uamravi ram.upirveles yovlisa, wera, magram es ar SeiZleba Cveulebriv gatacebadCaiTvalos.

amis Semdeg yvelaze metad samefo gvarebis genealogia mainteresebs.cnobebi frang, germanel, espanel, inglisel, rus, norvegiel da holandielmefeebze Jurnal-gazeTebidan da wignebidan amovkrife da bevri ram ukvesistematizebulia. didi xania damCemda, roca istoriuli an biografiulixasiaTis wigns vkiTxulob, mTel nawyvetebs viwer, ase, rom Cemi mesame gatacebaistoriaa. mamam bevri istoriuli nawarmoebi miyida. mouTmenlad veli im dRes,roca Tavad SemeZleba sajaro biblioTekaSi wignebis gadaqeqva.meoTxe — berZnuli da romauli miTebiT gatacebaa da saTanado wignebicbevri maqvs. garda amisa, gatacebuli var kinovarskvlavebisa da saojaxofotoebis SegrovebiT. Zalian miyvars wignebi da mainteresebs yvelaferi, racmwerlebs, poetebs, mxatvrebs da xelovnebis istorias exeba. SeiZlebamogvianebiT musikamac gamitacos. garkveulad ar momwons algebra, geometria daariTmetika. sxva saskolo sagnebi mainteresebs, magram yvelaze metad istoria!anasamSabaTi, 11 aprili, 1944Zvirfaso kiwi!lamis Tavi gamiskdes. ar vici, riT daviwyo. paraskevs (vnebis paraskevs)nasadilevs da SabaTs sxvadasxva gasarTobebiT viqcevdi Tavs. dReebiuferulad, swrafad mihqrodnen. kviras eqvs saaTamde davrCiT maRla. SvidisTxuTmeti wuTidan Svidamde radioTi mSvenier koncerts gadmoscemdnenmocartis nawarmoebebidan, gansakuTrebiT momewona `patara Ramis serenada~. arSemiZlia musikis xeirianad mosmena sxvebis TandaswrebiT, radgan kargi musikaZalian maRelvebs.kvira saRamos me da peteri sxvenze avediT. moxerxebulad romvmsxdariyaviT, Cveni oTaxidan divnis baliSebi wamoviReT da yuTzemovkalaTdiT. siviwrovis gamo yuTebze zurgmiyrdnobilni erTmaneTs vekvrodiT.meTvalyurec gvyavda, muSi Cvens sazogadoebaSi iyo. cxras rom TxuTmeti wuTiaklda, batonma van daanma dagvistvina da gvkiTxa: baton duselis baliSi Tqvenxom ar wagiRiaTo. oriveni wamovxtiT, baliSebi avkrifeT, kata xelSi aviyvaneTda baton van daanTan erTad qveviT CavediT. baliSis gamo mTeli ambavidatrialda. batoni duseli saSinlad gabrazda, Cven Turme misi yurTbaliSiwagviRia. eSinoda, Sig rwyilebi ar dabudebuliyvnen da raRac qeciani baliSisgulisaTvis mTeli saxli Tavdayira daayena. me da peterma gadavwyviteT, SurigveZia da sawolSi ori magari jagrisi CavudeT. o, ramdeni vicineT amintermecos gamo.Cveni siamovneba didxans ar gagrZelebula. aTis naxevarze petermadaakakuna, mamas sTxova, zemoT asuliyo da daxmareboda Zneli inglisuriwinadadebis TargmnaSi.`raRac ambavia~, vuTxari me margos, `aSkarad tyuis!~Cemi varaudi gamarTlda. Turme qurdebs sawyobis kari SemoumtvreviaT.mama, peteri, van daani da duseli swrafad Cavidnen dabla. me, margo, deda daqalbatoni van daani zemoT velodiT. oTx SeSinebul qals aba Cumad ragaaCerebs da Cvenc vlaparakobdiT, sanam qvemodan xmauri ar mogvesma. Semdegyvelaferi miwynarda. aTs rom TxuTmeti wuTi aklda, saaTma dareka. Cven feridavkargeT, uxmod visxediT da Zalian gveSinoda. sad arian Cveni mamakacebi?iqneb qurdebTan Cxuboben? 10 saaTze kibeze fexis xma mogvesma. SemovidagafiTrebuli, aRelvebuli mama, ukan batoni van daani mohyveboda.— CaaqreT sinaTle da wynarad adiT zeviT. SeiZleba policia movides.SiSis dro ar iyo. sinaTle Caaqres. me Jakets davavle xeli da yvelanizeviT avediT.— ra moxda aseTi? gviTxari Cqara!magram sadRa iyo mTqmeli. mamakacebi isev dabla Cavidnen. TerTmetis aTwuTze oTxive zeviT amovida. ori peteris Ria fanjarasTan gaCerda sadarajod.derefnis kari daketes, mbrunavi kari mixures, Ramis naTuras sviteri Semoaxviesda Semdeg gviambes: `peterma ori Zlieri dartymis xma gaigona, qveviT Cairbina

da dainaxa, rom sawyobis kars marcxniv didi Tamasa aklia. Semdeg zeviTamovida, Cveni ojaxis brZolisunariani wevrebi fexze daayena da oTxivenidabla Cavidnen. qurdebs swored maSin miuswres, roca iqaurobas Zarcvavdnen.van daanma daufiqreblad iyvira: `policia~! mZarcvelebi SeSindnen da gaiqcnen.policielebs rom xvreli ar SeemCniaT, mamakacebma momZvrali Tamasa Tavisadgilze daamagres, magram garedan viRacam magrad daartya fexi da isevmoglija. aseTma Tavxedobam oTxives Tavzari dasca. batoni van daani da peterimzad iyvnen moeklaT aramzadebi. van daanma Ronivrad daartya culi iataks dauecrad siCume Camovarda. kvlav ganizraxes momZvrali ficris miWedeba, magramaxla sxva dabrkolebam SeuSala xeli.quCaSi mezoblad mcxovrebi col-qmari idga, jibis farnis Suqi mTelsawyobs anaTebda.`daswyevlos eSmakma~, CailuRluRa erT-erTma oTxTaganma da... uecradrolebi Seicvala — policielebidan qurdebad iqcnen. Cveni kacebi Cumadamovidnen zeviT. peterma swrafad gaaRo samzareulos da kabinetis kar-fanjara,telefoni iatakze daanarcxa da bolos yvela SeniRbul kars ukan aRmoCnda.aseTia pirveli nawilis dasasruli.advili SesaZlebelia, col-qmarma policia gamoiZaxos. es ambavi kvirasaRamos, aRdgomis meore dRes moxda da kontoraSi aravin iyo. samSabaTamdegaunZrevlad unda vmsxdariyaviT. warmoidgine, ra Znelia ori Rame da erTi dReSiSiT iyo Sepyrobili. araferze fiqris Tavi ar gvqonda, visxediT ukuneTsibneleSi, radgan qalbatonma van daanma sinaTle Caaqro, vCurCulebdiT dayovel gafaCunebaze vsisinebdiT: `su, su!~gaxda TerTmetis naxevari, TerTmeti, Cami-Cumi ar ismis. mama da van daanirigrigobiT Semodian CvenTan. uecrad, Tormetis naxevarze qveviT isev xmauriatyda. TiToeuli Cveganis sunTqva ismoda, magram aravin ganZreula. nabijebisaxlSi, kabinetSi, samzareuloSi, mere... Cvens kibeze! yvelas sunTqva Segvekra,rva guls bagabugi gahqonda. nabijebi Cvens kibeze, mere viRac mbrunav karadasejajgureba. am wuTebis gadmocema SeuZlebelia.`axla ki daviRupeT~, gavifiqre me da ukve warmovidgine, rogor mivyavarTamaRamve gestapoSi. mbrunavi karada kidev orjer SeanjRries, Semdeg raRacdavarda Zirs da nabijebis xma TandaTan miwyda. jerjerobiT gadavrCiT. yvelaskankali agvivarda. mesmoda viRacis kbilebis kawkawi, xmis amoRebas veravinbedavda.saxlSi xmauri aRar ismoda, magram moZravi karadis win sinaTle enTo,imitom xom ar aanTes, rom karadam daaeWvaT? iqneb policielebs sinaTlisCaqroba daaviwydaT? uecrad rom dabrundes vinme? yvelam ena amoidga. etyoba,saxlSi aRaravinaa, magram xom SeiZleba Semosasvlel karTan modarajepolicieli idges.SiSisagan akankalebulebs mogvinda... magram vedroebi sxvenze idga daamitom peteris liTonis saqaRalde wavbilweT. pirveli van daani miadga, Semdegmama, dedas moerida da mamam WurWeli oTaxSi moutana. amiT me, margom daqalbatonma van daanma siamovnebiT visargebleT, bolos dedamac. qaRaldzemoTxovnileba didi iyo, sabednierod, jibeSi medo ramdenime furceli.WurWeli yarda, Cven vCurCulebdiT, saSinlad daviRaleT. Tormeti saaTigaxda.daweqiT iatakze da daiZineT!me da margos baliSebi da sabnebi mogvces. margo karadis maxlobladdawva. me magidis fexebSua. iatakze naklebad yarda, magram qalbatonma vandaanma mainc moitana Cumad cotaodeni qlori. garda amisa, WurWels ZveliTavsaburi gadaafares.saubari, CurCuli, myrali suni, SiSi, muclis yuyuni, waramara viRacasuWirs, modi da daiZine! samis naxevarze ise daviRale, rom oTxis naxevramdeaRaraferi gamigia. gamomaRviZa qalbatonma van daanma, radgan Tavi fexebzedamado. `momeciT rame Casacmeli, mciva~, viTxove me da marTlac momces, magramnu ikiTxav, ra. piJamaze gadavicvi Savi Salis Sarvali, wiTeli svitri, Savi

qvedatani, TeTri maRalyeliani da daxeuli mokle windebic Cavicvi. qalbatonivan daani skamze Camojda. axla batoni van daani gaiWima iatakze da Tavifexebze damado. me aTas rameze vfiqrobdi da Tan ise vkankalebdi, rom vandaani ar davaZine. megona, policielebi dabrundebian da Cven iZulebuliSeviqnebiT vaRiaroT, rom vimalebiT. Tu policielebi keTili holandielebiaRmoCndebian, gadavrCebiT da Tu nacistebi movidnen, maSin fuliT undagamovisyidoT Tavi.— damale radiomimRebi, — amoixvneSa qalbatonma van daanma.— sad waviRo, RumelSi Sevagdo?!. Tu Cven aRmogvaCenen, baremradiomimRebic naxon, — upasuxa qmarma.— cxadia, anes dRiursac ipovnian, — Tqva mamam.— davwvaT dRiuri, — Semoitana winadadeba yvelaze mSiSaram CvensSoris. es wuTi CemTvis aranakleb saSiSi iyo, vidre policielebis mier karadisjajguri.— ara, dRiuri ara, Cemi dRiuri CemTan erTad daiRupeba!madloba RmerTs, mamas araferi uTqvams.azri ara aqvs im saubris gadmocemas, romelic Cems gonebas SemorCa. bevriram iTqva. vanugeSebdi SeSinebul qalbaton van daans. vlaparakobdiT gaqcevaze,gestapoSi dakiTxvaze da imaze, rom meti mxneoba gvmarTebs.— Tavi ise unda gveWiros, rogorc jariskacebs, qalbatono van daan!`orane~ mogviwodebs, mtkiced davicvaT dedofali, samSoblo, Tavisufleba,simarTle da samarTlianoba, cxadia, Tuki yvelaferi es gvwams, yvelazesaSineli mainc is iqneba, Tu Cvens mfarvelebs CaviTrevT am ubedurebaSi.van daanma isev gaucvala cols adgili. mama Cems gverdiT dawva.mamakacebi ganuwyvetliv eweodnen, drodadro Rrma oxvra ismoda, mere isevmounda... viRacas da ase gauTaveblad. oTxi saaTi, xuTi, eqvsis naxevari. boloswamovdeqi da peterTan avedi. fanjarasTan Camomjdari ise axlos viyaviTerTmaneTTan, rom erTmaneTis sxeulis caxcaxs vgrZnobdiT. xandaxan oriodesityvas gavimetebdiT da daZabulad vugdebdiT yurs, ra xdeboda irgvliv.mezobeli saxlis erT-erT fanjaras SuqsaniRbavi fardebi moxsnes.Svid saaTze mamakacebma gadawyvites daerekaT koophoisisaTvis dakontoraSi vinme gamoeZaxebinaT. maT Caiweres, Tu ra unda eTqva telefoniT.safrTxe didi iyo, radgan Semosasvlel karTan gaCerebul darajs SeeZlogaegona telefonis zaris wkaruni, magram policiis dabruneba ufro didsafrTxes warmoadgenda, ai, ra unda gadaecaT koophoisisaTvis:`kari Semomtvreulia. saxlSi policia iyo. mbrunav kars moadgnen, zemoTar amosulan.mZarcvelebs etyoba xeli SeuSales. sawyobis kari Semomtvreulia,mZarcvelebi baRSi gadaxtnen da gaiqcnen.sadarbazo Semosasvleli daketilia. kraleri, albaT, meore kariT gavida.sabeWdi manqanebi kabinetSi Sav karadaSia damaluli. scados henkisgafrTxileba, gamoarTvas elis gasaRebi da movides kontoraSi im sababiT, romkatas sakvebi unda misces~.yvelaferi saukeTesod moewyo. koophoiss daurekes, sabeWdi manqanebi(romlebic zeviT amovitaneT) Sav karadaSi Seinaxes. Cven ki magidis irgvlivvisxediT da henkis an policiis mosvlas velodiT.peters CaeZina. me da van daani iatakze viweqiT. uecrad qvemodan mZimenabijebis xma mogvesma. `henkia~, gavifiqre me da Cumad avdeqi.`ara, ara, policiaa!~ momesma viRacis xma.karze daakakunes. mipis stvena! qalbatonma van daanma amdeni veRar aitanada mkvdariviT gafiTrebuli uRonod daesvena skamze. daZabuloba rom kidev erTwuTs gagrZelebuliyo, guli wauvidoda.henki da mipi Semovidnen. Cveni oTaxi saucxoo sanaxavi iyo, marto magidarad Rirda. magidaze ido gadaSlili `filmi da Teatri~, momxibvlelikinovarskvlavebis portretebi, gaTxupnuli murabiT da kuWis aSlilobissawinaaRmdego wamliT. iqve egdo murabis ori carieli qila, naxevari da mTeli

puri, sarke, savarcxeli, asanTi, ferfli, sigaretebi, Tambaqo, saferfle, qalistriko, jibis naTura, tualetis qaRaldi da a. S. yvelaferi erTmaneTSi iyoareuli.cxadia, henks da mips sixaruliT da cremlebiT SevegebeT. henkma karzemomZvrali ficari miaWeda da imwamsve wavida. karis gatexa policiisaTvis undaSeetyobinebina. mipma karis qveS Ramis darajis baraTi ipova, sadac ewera, romkari gatexili daxvda da policias Seatyobina. henks masTanac unda Seevlo.naxevar saaTSi Tavi wesrigSi unda mogveyvana. jer ar minaxavs, am xnisganmavlobaSi rom ase gardaqmniliyo yvelaferi. me da margom iatakze dagebulilogini avalageT, mere sapirfareSos mivaSureT, xel-piri davibaneT, kbilebigavixexeT, Tma davivarcxneT. oTaxi cota mivalag-movalageT da isev zeviTavediT. magida moesufTavebinaT, Cven wyali movitaneT, yava da Cai avaduReT dasauzme gavSaleT. mamam da peterma Ramis WurWeli gaitanes da cxeli wyliTa daqloriT garecxes.TerTmet saaTze henki ukve CvenTan iyo, sufras SemovusxediT da TandaTandavmSviddiT. ai, ra gviambo henkma:`Cveni darajis, slagteris colma miTxra (TviTon darajs eZina), rom misqmars Semovlis dros Semtvreuli kari aRmouCenia. gaqceula, policielimouyvania da masTan erTad mTeli saxli gauCxrekia. samSabaTs kralerTanapirebs misvlas... unda acnobos, rac moxda. policiis ganyofilebaSi jeraraferi icodnen karis Semomtvrevis Sesaxeb, iqve Caiweres yvelaferi da isinicsamSabaTs apireben mosvlas~.ukan gabrunebulma henkma SemTxveviT bostneulis movaWresTan Seiara dauambo, rac moxda.— vici, vici, — upasuxa man mSvidad, — guSin saRamos colTan erTadTqvens saxls Cavuare da davinaxe, rom kari Semtvreulia. cols ar undodaSeCerebuliyo, magram me jibis farniT gavanaTe iqauroba da qurdebmamokurcxles. policiisaTvis aRar damiZaxia, radgan vici, rom argesiamovnebodaT. cxadia, me araferi ar vici, magram zog rames mainc vxvdebi.henkma madloba gadauxada da wamovida. albaT, mimxvdaria, rom Cven aqvimalebiT, radgan kartofili yovelTvis sadilobisas moaqvs, etyoba, kargikacia!henki wavida. Cven WurWeli gavrecxeT da pirvel saaTze yvelanidasaZineblad davweqiT. sams rom TxuTmeti aklda, gamomeRviZa. batoni duseliadgilze ar iyo. namZinarevi saxiT samzareuloSi Sevedi da sruliad SemTxveviTpeters wavawydi. davTqviT, qveviT SevxvedrodiT erTmaneTs. Tavi odnav wesrigSimoviyvane da qveviT Cavedi.`gabedav sxvenze asvlas?~, mkiTxa man. me uari ar miTqvams, baliSi aviReda zeviT avediT... SesaniSnavi amindi iyo, magram male sahaero gangaSi atyda.Cven adgilidan ar davZrulvarT. peterma mxrebze xeli momxvia. mec movexvie daoTx saaTamde mSvidad visxediT. oTxze margo movida da yavis dasalevadwagviyvana.SevWameT puri, davayoleT limonaTi da isev sicilisa da xumrobisxasiaTze davdeqiT. saRamos peters madloba gadavuxade, radgan Cvens Sorisyvelaze mamaci aRmoCnda.arasodes ar vyofilvarT aseT safrTxeSi rogorc am Rames. RmerTmadagvifara. warmoidgineT, sinaTle enTo, Cveni karadis win policia idga damainc ver aRmogvaCines.roca desantis gadmosxma da bombardireba daiwyeba, maSin yvela mxolodsakuTar Tavze agebs pasuxs, magram jerjerobiT saqme exeba Cveni keTiliudanaSaulo mfarvelebis beds.`gadavrCiT, kvlavac dagvifare RmerTo!~ Cven mxolod amas vTxovTRmerTs!am ambis Semdeg zogi ram Seicvala. batoni duseli saRamoobiTsaabazanoSi zis da ara kraleris kabinetSi. cxris naxevarze da aTis naxevarzepeteri mTel saxls aTvalierebs. axla Ramec aRar SeiZleba fanjrebis gaReba.

aTis naxevris Semdeg sapirfareSos Carecxva akrZalulia. am saRamos durgalimova da sawyobis karebs gaamagrebs. yvela daobs: ki — ara! aucilebelia —araviTar SemTxvevaSi! kralerma gvisayvedura, gaufrTxileblad moiqeciTo,henkic ambobs, aseT dros dabla Casvlis ufleba ar gaqvTo. am ambavma kideverTxel Segvaxsena, rom Cven ltolvili, erT adgilze mijaWvuli ebraelebivarT. rom Cven arafris ufleba ara gvaqvs, movaleoba ki aTasi. yvela grZnobaunda daviokoT. mxneoba, vaJkacoba unda gamoviCinoT, udrtvinvelad SeveguoTCvens beds, unda vakeToT mxolod is, risi Zalac Segvwevs da RmerTis imediviqonioT. odesme xom gaTavdeba es saSineli omi, odesme Cven mxolod ebraelebiki ar viqnebiT, aramed adamianebic.vin agvkida aseTi tvirTi! vin gamogvyo Cven, ebraelebi, sxva xalxebisagan!vin gvyo iZulebuli mudam tanjvaSi vicxovroT! Cven RmerTma Segvqmna aseTebida RmerTi gvixsnis. da Tu Cven mTel am tanjvas gavuZlebT, isev ebraelebidavrCebiT. iqneb, rodisme es ganwiruli xalxi yvelasaTvis sanimuSo Seiqnes. vinicis, iqneb Cvenma sarwmunoebam yvela xalxs aswavlos sikeTe. tanjva martoamisaTvisac ki Rirs. Cven ar SegviZlia viyoT mxolod holandielebi,ingliselebi an romelime sxva eris warmomadgenlebi, amasTan erTad Cvenebraelebic unda davrCeT da davrCebiT kidec.iyaviT mxned! saWiroa SevignoT Cveni amocana da drtvinvas moveSvaT,gamosavali yovelTvis moiZebneba. RmerTs arasodes miutovebia ebraelebigasaWirSi! maT yvela saukunes gauZles da cocxalni darCnen. yvela saukuneSiitanjebodnen, yvela saukuneSi mxned eWiraT Tavi. sustni ecemian, magramZlierebi rCebian da ar iRupebian!!!im Rames iseTi grZnoba mqonda, TiTqos unda movmkvdariyavi. velodipolicias da mzad viyavi, rogorc jariskaci brZolis velze. mindoda,samSoblosaTvis Tavi gamewira, magram raki gadavrCiT, axla Cemi udidesisurvili isaa, rom omis Semdeg holandieli gavxde.miyvars holandielebi, miyvars Cveni qveyana, misi ena da minda, aq vimuSao.arafers ar moveridebi, sanam Cemsas ar mivaRwev, Tundac dedofalTan momixdeswerilis miwera.rac dro gadis, sul ufro damoukidebeli vxdebi mSoblebisagan,miuxedavad imisa, rom axalgazrda var, simxneve ar maklia da ufro sworiwarmodgena maqvs samarTlianobaze, vidre dedaCems. vici, ra minda, maqvs mizani,sakuTari azri, rwmena da siyvaruli. momeciT saSualeba, viyo iseTi, rogoricvar da bednierebisaTvis meti araferi minda. me vici, rom qali var, SinaganadZlieri da mamaci.Tu RmerTma cocxali damtova, gacilebiT mets gavakeTeb, vidre dedaCemsodesme gaukeTebia. me ar davrCebi SeumCneveli, me farTo asparezze gaval,xalxisTvis viSromeb.axla me vici, rom cxovrebaSi umTavresia simamace da sicocxlisadmitrfiali.anaparaskevi, 14 aprili, 1944Zvirfaso kiwi!CvenTan jer kidev daZabuli mdgomareobaa. pimi Tavs Zlivs ikavebs.qalbatoni van daani gaciebulia, loginSi wevs, imanWeba da Wirveulobs. mismaqmarma feri dakarga, radgan gamamxnevebeli sigaretebi ara aqvs. dusels myudrokuTxe waarTves da gauTaveblad buzRunebs.yvelaferi moiSala; sapirfareSodan wyali wveTavs, onkanis xraxni gacvda.sabednierod, nacnobebis wyalobiT, erTsac da meoresac male SeakeTeben.Tavad vici, rom zogjer zedmetad mgrZnobiare var, magram... zogjermizezic arsebobs amisaTvis. roca me da peteri erTmaneTs mikrulni,xelgadaxveulni vsxedvarT xis magar yuTze, roca igi Cems kululebs eTamaSeba,roca gareT Citebi WikWikeben, roca vxedav, rogor imoseba xeebi mwvaniT, roca

mze gareT mixmobs, xolo haeri laJvardovani da gamWvirvalea, o, maSin bevriram minda!TavSesafarSi ki Cems irgvliv mxolod pirquSi da ukmayofiloadamianebia. ismis oxvra, Civili, TiTqos uecrad Cveni mdgomareobamniSvnelovnad gauaresda. magram Tu vinme cudad grZnobs Tavs, amaSi TviTonveadamnaSave. TavSesafarSi misabaZ magaliTs aravin iZleva, aq yvelam TviTon undamouaros sakuTar ganwyobilebas: `o, netav Cqara gaTavdebodes yvelaferi!~mesmis yoveldRe.me Cemi samuSao, imedi, siyvaruli da simamace mSvelis. yovelive amaskmayofileba da bedniereba moaqvs CemTvis.magram ici ra, kiwi! dRes cotas `vurev~ da ar vici, ratom. RmerTma uwyis,ra davwere, araviTari kavSiri ar igrZnoba. zogjer arc is mjera, rom CeminajRabni odesme vinmes daainteresebs.`ugunuri batis Wukis aRsareba~, ase daarqmeven mTel am sisuleles.batonebi bolkenstaini da gerbrandi 1 ( 1 holandiuri gamomcemlebis gvarebia.)bevrs verafers ipovnian Cems dRiurSi.anaSabaTi, 15 aprili, 1944Zvirfaso kiwi!erT aurzaurs meore mohyva. netav, rodis moeReba bolo yovelive amas,ekiTxeba sakuTar Tavs TiToeuli Cvengani. warmoidgine, ra moxda. petersdaaviwyda, gamoeZro urduli, romelsac yovel Rame Semosasvlel kars vadebT,meore karis gasaRebi ki moSlilia. amitom kraleri da muSebi kontoraSi verSemovidnen. kralerma mezobeli Seawuxa, iqidan fanjara Semoamtvria da aseSemovida saxlSi. Cveni keTilismyofeli gacofebulia, aseTi sisulele rogormogividaTo. unda giTxra, rom peters am bolo dros TavdaWerilobam umtyuna.sadilad rom visxediT, dedam uTxra, mecodebio da peteri kinaRam atirda.saerTod, yvelani varT damnaSave. Cveulebriv, mamakacebi yoveldRe ekiTxebodnen,gamoaZro Tu ara urduli, magram amjerad yvelas daaviwyda. iqneb mere rogormevanugeSo, guliT minda davexmaro. axla mogiyvebi, kidev ra moxda am bolodros TavSesafarSi...erTi kviris win mofi uecrad avad gaxda. sruliad miknavebuli iyo,TrToda. mipis bevri ar ufiqria, kata TavsafarSi gaaxvia, CanTaSi Caisva daveterinarul klinikaSi waiyvana. eqimma raRac wamali misca, etyoba, mofismuceli stkioda. mas Semdeg mofi Zneli sanaxavia. dRe da Rame sadRac daeTreva,albaT, Tavis SeyvarebulTan.sxvenis fanjaras axla RamiT Ria toveben. me da peteri xSirad vsxedvarTam fanjarasTan.koophiosis da cotaodeni zeTis saRebavis daxmarebiT sapirfareSo kvlavwesrigSi moviyvaneT. xraxngacveTili onkani axliT Secvales. am TveSi rvasasursaTo baraTi SeviZineT. Cveni sasusnavi amjerad pikulia. Tu bedmagvimtyuna, qilaSi mxolod ramdenime kitri aRmoCndeba mdogvis sawebliT.bostneuli sruliad aRara gvaqvs, mxolod salaTa da salaTa. axla Cvenisakvebi kartofilia surogatebisagan damzadebuli sawebliT.qalaqs xangrZlivad da Tanac xSirad bombaven.haagaSi yumbara ratuSas daeca da bevri dokumenti daiwva. holandielebmaaxali pasporti unda miiRon. dReisTvis kmara!anekvira dila, TerTmeti sruldeba,16 aprili, 1944Zvirfaso kiwi!guSindeli dRe arasodes ar damaviwydeba, radgan Cems cxovrebaSiyvelaze mniSvnelovani ram moxda, gana yvela qaliSvilisaTvis didi

mniSvneloba ara aqvs im dRes, roca pirvelad akoceben! hoda CemTvisac asea.saTvalavSi ar miiReba is SemTxveva, roca bramma marjvena loyaze makoca daarc mister uokeris xelze kocna. momismine, minda giambo, rogor makocespirvelad.guSin saRamos, saaTis rvaze, me da peteri taxtze visxediT. uecradmxrebze xeli momxvia.— cota CaviwioT, — vuTxari me, — Torem yovelTvis TaviT yuTsvejaxebi!peterma Caiwia, ramdenic ki SeiZleboda, me mklavqveS xeli gavuyare damivekari. man kidev ufro magrad momxvia xeli. Cven adrec xSirad vmsxdarvarTerTmaneTis gverdiT, magram ise axlos, rogorc am saRamos, arasodes. petermaise magrad mimikra mkerdze, rom guli amiCqrolda. rac dro gadioda, miTufro kargad vgrZnobdi Tavs. peteri sul ufro magrad mikravda gulSi dabolos Cemi Tavi mis mxarze aRmoCnda, misi ki Cemsaze. xuTiode wuTis Semdegisev gavswordi, magram man swrafad momkida orive xeli Tavze da kvlavmimizida. o, ra kargi, ra SesaniSnavi grZnoba mqonda, xmis amoReba ar SemeZlo,mxolod am wuTebiT vtkbebodi. peterma rogorRac uxerxulad momisva xeliloyaze, mklavze, eTamaSeboda Cems kululebs. erTmaneTs mikrulni adgilidanar viZrodiT.kiwi, me ar SemiZlia agiwero is grZnoba, romelic dameufla.araCveulebrivad bednieri viyavi, me mgoni iseTive grZnoba hqonda masac. cxrisnaxevarze wamovdeqiT da peterma savarjiSo fexsacmeli Caicva. saxli undadaeTvalierebina, da amitom sul Cumad unda evlo. me mis gverdiT videqi. Tavadar vici, rogor moxda. magram sanam qveviT CavidodiT, peterma loyaze makoca,sadRac marcxena loyasa da yurs Soris. me ise Cavirbine kibe, rom ukan arc kimomixedavs da... mouTmenlad veli dRevandel saRamos.anaorSabaTi, 17 aprili, 1944Zvirfaso kiwi!rogor fiqrob, moewoneba dedas da mamas, rom biWebTan erTad taxtzevzivar da vikocnebiT, miT umetes, biWi ukve Cvidmeti wlisaa, me ki TxuTmetisacara var jer? Cemi azriT, dasaZraxi amaSi araferia, aq mxolod sakuTari TavisimediT unda viyo. me ise mSvidad, ise saimedod vgrZnob Tavs, roca mismklavebSi vocnebob, rom sunTqva mekvris. saSinlad vRelav, roca loyaze misloyas vgrZnob. ra kargia, roca ici, rom viRac gelodeba!magram am ambavSi marTlac bevria `magram~. dajerdeba ki peteri yoveliveamas? marTalia, me ar damviwyebia misi dapireba, magram peteri mainc vaJia!me kargad mesmis, rom yovelive es CemTvis naadrevia. TxuTmeti wlismxolod axla vxdebi da uecrad aseTi damokidebuleba. me TiTqmisdarwmunebuli var, rom margo arasodes ar akocninebda vaJs, sanam daniSvnaze anqorwilze ar Camovardeboda laparaki. me da peters ki aseTi gegmebi ara gvaqvs.me mgoni, arc dedas ar ukocnia aravisTvis, sanam mamas gahyveboda... rasityodnen Cemi megobari gogonebi, rom gaigon, rogor viweqi peteris mklavebSi,rogor scemda Cemi guli mis mkerdze, rogor medo Tavi mis mxarze, mas kiCemsaze?ah, ana rogor ar grcxvenia, magram marTali rom giTxra, sasircxvilos meverafers vxedav amaSi. Cven aq Caketilebi varT, mowyvetilni mTel samyaros,mudam SiSsa da avis molodinSi, gansakuTrebiT am bolo dros. ratomRa undagavurbodeT erTmaneTs, Tu erTmaneTi gviyvars? ratom unda vicadoT manamde,sanam gavizrdebiT? ratom unda gvawuxebdes amdeni kiTxvebi?me Tavad vikisre yvelaferi da me vageb pasuxs. igi arasodes ar momayenebstkivils, ar gamaubedurebs. da Tu asea, ratom ar unda moviqce ise, rogorcguli mikarnaxebs, rom orive bednieri viyoT. miuxedavad amisa, Sen albaT amCnev,kiwi, rogor vmeryeob. etyoba, Cemi Tandayolili patiosneba ver egueba aseTkekemalulobas. rogor fiqrob, valdebuli var Tu ara, yvelaferi vuambo mamas?

ogor migaCnia, SeiZleba Cveni saidumloeba vandoT mesame pirs? maSin xom Cveninazi urTierToba gaqreba. gana aseTi gandoba sulierad ufro metaddamamSvidebs. unda movelaparako `mas~.diax, bevri ram maqvs salaparako `masTan~, radgan marto alerssaraviTari azri ara aqvs. saWiroa meti ndoba, yvelafris gaziareba, xolo imisSegneba, rom erTmaneTs vendobiT, kidev ufro Zliers gagvxdis!anasamSabaTi, 18 aprili, 1944Zvirfaso kiwi!yvelaferi rigzea. es wuTia, mamam gviTxra, rom oci maisisaTvismniSvnelovani operaciebia mosalodneli rogorc ruseTSi, aseve italiaSic dadasavleTSic. rac ufro didxans vsxedvarT aq, miT ufro warmoudgenladmimaCnia Cveni ganTavisufleba. rogorc iqna, guSin me da peters Soris gaimarTasaubari, romelsac ager aTi dRea ver movabiT Tavi. me mas Cveni, qaliSvilebis,mTeli saidumloeba gavumxile da ar momridebia Sevxebodi yvelaze intimursakiTxebs. saRamo ormxrivi kocniT damTavrda, TiTqmis tuCebSi. es marTlacSesaniSnavi grZnobaa.iqneb rodisme avitano zeviT Cemi wignaki, romelSic Cawerili maqvsyvelaferi, rac momwons da orive erTad ufro Rrmad CavwvdebiT brZnulazrebs. me ar makmayofilebs marto xvevna. Zalian minda, isic CemsaviTfiqrobdes.zamTris cvalebadi amindebis Semdeg mSvenieri gazafxuli dadga. aprilimarTlac didebulia, arc Zalian cxela da arc Zalian civa, xandaxan wvimacris. Cveni wabli TiTqmis sul gamwvanda, — aqa-iq ukve gamoCnda patarasanTlebi. SabaTs elim didad gagvaxara. mogvitana yvavilebi, nargizebis samikona da CemTvis SesaniSnavi cisferi hiacintebi.naxvamdis, kiwi, algebras unda Cavujde.anaoTxSabaTi, 19 aprili, 1944Zvirfaso megobaro!(ase hqvia erT films dorit kreiseris, ida viustisa da haraldpaulsenis monawileobiT).ra SeiZleba iyos amaze uaresi, roca Ria fanjridan gascqeri bunebas,gesmis Citebis galoba, grZnob loyaze mzis sxivebs da sayvarel ymawvilTanxelgadaxveuli, mikruli, gasusuli dgaxar. ara mgonia, amgvari siaxlove cudiiyos, radgan aseT dros siCume kargad moqmedebs Cemze. o, netav aravingviSlides xels, muSic ki ara!anaparaskevi, 21 aprili, 1944Zvirfaso kiwi!guSin dRis meore naxevarSi viweqi, yeli mtkioda. wola pirvel dResvesaSinlad mombezrda da, radgan sicxe mqonda, avdeqi. dRes mis udidebulesobasiorkis taxtis memkvidres, mefis asuls elisabeds, 18 weli Seusrulda. bi-bi-simgadmosca, rom igi jer ar gamoecxadebinaT srulwlovanad, rogorc es saerTodmiRebulia samefo ojaxSi. Cven sul imis fiqrSi varT, Tu romel ufliswulsgahyveba colad es mzeTunaxavi, magram Sesaferisi veravin aRmovuCineT. SeiZlebamisi da, mefis asuli margaret-roz, momavalSi belgiis ufliswuls boduensgahyves colad.CvenTan ki ubedurebas ubedureba mosdevs. es esaa, Semosasvleli kariSevakeTeT, magram axla sawyobis muSa gamotyvra. rogorc Cans, kartofilisfqvils iparavda da cdilobs yvelaferi elis gadaabralos. cxadia, mTeliTavSesafari Relavs. eli sibrazisagan gaafTrebulia.

minda Cemi zRapari romelime Jurnals gavugzavno. iqneb dabeWdon. cxadia,fsevdonimiT.naxvamds, darling! 1 . ( 1 Zvirfaso (ingl.).)anasamSabaTi, 25 aprili, 1944Zvirfaso kiwi!aTi dRea, rac duseli van daans ar elaparakeba da mxolod imitom, romsawyobis karis gatexis Semdeg sifrTxilis mizniT rigi axali RonisZiebebigamoimuSaves, rac dusels xels ar aZlevs. igi gvarwmunebs, van daanma miyvirao.`aq yvelaferi Cum-Cumad keTdeba~, miTxra man, `mamaSens undamovelaparako~. dusels aukrZales SabaTs nasadilevs da kviraobiT qveviTkontoraSi jdoma, magram mainc Cavida. van daani gacofda. mama duselTanmosalaparakeblad wavida. cxadia, Tavis gasamarTleblad duseli raRacas miedmoedo,magram amjerad mamasTanac ki araferi gauvida. axla mamac aRarelaparakeba, radgan duselma awyenina. Cven ar viciT, ra uTxra, albaT rameZalian cudi.davwere SesaniSnavi moTxroba. davarqvi `bleri, samyaros aRmomCeni~. Cemsam msmenels moTxroba Zalian moewona.ise saSinlad var gaciebuli. surdo margos, mamas da dedasac gadavde,peteri mainc gadaurCes! undoda ekocna CemTvis da `eldorado~ miwoda. ara,Cemo kargo, araferi gamova! da mainc ra kargia!anaxuTSabaTi, 27 aprili, 1944Zvirfaso kiwi!qalbatoni van daani dilidanve cud gunebazea, xan gacivebas uCivis, xanwveTebi ara maqvs, xan cxviris moxocva mombezrdao. dausruleblad wuwunebs:mze ar anaTebs, jarebis gadmosxmas agvianeben, fanjaraSi gaxedva ar SeiZlebada a. S. da a. S. misma Wirveulobam bevri gvacina da, radgan yvelaferi arc isecudadaa, isic agvyva.vkiTxulob `karlos mexuTes~. wignis avtoria gioTingenis universitetisprofesori. 40 weli umuSavia am wignze. xuT dReSi mxolod 50 gverdi wavikiTxe.metis wakiTxva SeuZlebelia. wigni 594- gverdiania da axla iangariSe, ramdenxans movundebi mis wakiTxvas. nu dagaviwydeba, meore nawilic aqvs... magram eskia, rom Zalze sainteresoa!moswavlis saqmianoba araferia imasTan SedarebiT, rasac me erT dReSivakeTeb. jer holandiuridan inglisurad vTargmne nawyveti nelsonisukanaskneli brZolidan, Semdeg Cavujeqi CrdiloeTis oms (1700—1721), axlapetre didi, karlos XII, avgust Zlevamosili, stanislav leCinski, mazepa,brandenburgi, zemo pomerania, qvemo pomerania, dania saTanadoqronologiiTurT. amis Semdeg gadavedi braziliaSi, gavecani Tambaqosplantaciebs, yavis Warb warmoebas, rio-de-Janeiros milionnaxevrianimosaxleobiT, pernambukos da san-paulos, aRarafers vambob mdinare amazonze.wavikiTxe zangebis, TeTrkanianebis, mulatebis, metisebis Sesaxeb, gavige, rommosaxleobs 50% wera-kiTxvis ucodinaria da am qveyanaSi malaria mZvinvarebs.radgan cota dro kidev damrCa, Tvali gadavavle erTi samefo ojaxisgenealogias: daviwye ian ufrosiT, Semdeg mohyva vilhelm ludvigi, ernstkazimiri, hainrix kazimir I-li da movedi patara margareT-franciskamde (daibada1943 wels otavaSi).12 saaTia: mecadineobas sxvenze ganvagrZob. pirvel saaTamde vswavlobreligiis istorias... brrr!or saaTze sabralo bavSvi isev samuSaos Caujda (hm, hm). axlaviwrocxviriani da farTocxviriani maimunebis jeria. aba, kiwi, miTxari swrafad,ramdeni TiTi aqvs hipopotams. maimunebis Semdeg vkiTxulob biblias: noeskidobani, semi, qami, iafeti, mere isev karlos mexuTe. amis Semdeg peterTan

erTad inglisurs vswavlob: vkiTxulobT Tekereis `polkovniks~. petersgamovkiTxe franguli vokabulebi da misisipisa da misuris SedarebiTdaxasiaTebaze vimsjeleT.dReisaTvis kmara, adieu! 1 . ( 1 mSvidobiT (frang.).)anaparaskevi, 28 aprili, 1944.Zvirfaso kiwi!arasodes ar damaviwydeba sizmari peter veselze. sakmarisia, gavixseno daisev vgrZnob misi loyis Sexebas, isev mipyrobs didebuli gancda. aseTi ramaqaur peterTanac ganmicdia, magram iseTi siZlieriT arasodes, — da ai... guSinsaRamos kvlav erTad visxediT taxtze xelgadaxveulebi. uecrad uwindeli anasadRac gaqra da misi daikava. meore anam, romelic arc mxiarulia da arcdidgula, mxolod siyvaruli da alersi unda.vijeqi mis gverdiT, magrad vekvrodi da vgrZnobdi, rogor mevsebodaguli. Tvalze cremli momadga, saxeze Camomigorda da mis kurtaks daeca. arvici, SeamCnia man es Tu ara. ubralo moZraobiTac ki ar gaucia Tavisi Tavi.netav isic Tu imas grZnobs, rasac me? sityva ar dauZravs. icis Tu ara, romgverdiT ori ane uzis. ramdeni kiTxvebia, pasuxi ki ar Cans!cxris naxevarze wamovdeqi da mivedi fanjarasTan, sadac CveulebrivvemSvidobebiT erTmaneTs. me jer kidev vcaxcaxebdi, jer kidev meore ane viyavi,peteri momiaxlovda. me kiserze xelebi movxvie da marcxena loyaze vakoce,xolo roca marjvenaze vapirebdi kocnas, Cemi tuCebi mis tuCebs Sexvda.mivewebeT erTmaneTs tuCebiT, kidev erTxel, kidev erTxel, dausruleblad!rogor sWirdeba peters alersi! is mxolod axla mixvda, ra arisqaliSvili, mxolod axla dainaxa rom am `qajebsac~ aqvT guli da roca maTTanmarto xar, sul sxvanairni arian. cxovrebaSi man pirvelad gaimeta megobrisgrZnoba, sakuTari Tavi. aqamde mas arc vaJi hyolia megobari da arc qali. axlaCven erTmaneTi vipoveT. arc me vicnobdi mas. mec ar myolia Seyvarebuli, axlaki myavs.mawuxebs erTi kiTxva! gana kargia, rom ase mivende, rom iseve savse varvnebiT da ndomiT, rogorc peteri? me qali var da aseTi TavSeukavebloba arSemferis. am kiTxvaze mxolod erTi pasuxi arsebobs: `me didxans mRrRnidasevda, didxans viyavi marto da uecrad nugeSi da sixaruli vipove!~ diliTiseTebi varT, rogorc yovelTvis, dRisiTac, magram saRamos verafriTdagviokebia erTmaneTisaken ltolva. ar SeiZleba ar ifiqro im netarebasa dabednierebaze, romelic yovel Sexvedras moaqvs. saRamos mxolod erTmaneTsvekuTvniT. yovel saRamos, gamosaTxovari kocnis Semdeg, minda gaviqce, aRarvuyuro TvalebSi, gaviqce Sors, Sors, sruliad marto davrCe bnelSi!magram sakmarisia, 14 safexuriT dabla Camovide da sul sxva garemoa:gakaSkaSebuli oTaxi, sadac laparakoben, icinian, raRacas mekiTxebian da me iseunda vupasuxo, rom verafers mixvdnen. guli jer kidev savse maqvs da arSemiZlia erTbaSad daviviwyo is gancda, romelic guSin saRamos dameufla.nazi, damyoli ane iSviaTi movlenaa, magram miT ufro Znelia misi gareTgagdeba. peteri ise Rrmad SemoiWra CemSi, rogorc aqamde aravin, mxolodsizmarSi ganvicade erTxel aseTi ram. peterma mTlianad damipyro da Cemi sulierTianad aaforiaqa. cxadia, amgvari gancdebis Semdeg adamiani unda damSviddesraTa Sinagani wonasworoba aRadginos. o, peter, ra miyavi? ra ginda Cemgan? raiqneba Semdeg? o, axla ki mesmis elis eWvebi, mesmis, radgan Tavad ganvicdiyvelafers. ufro didi rom viyo da peters Cemi SerTva undodes, netav rasvetyodi? ane aRiare patiosnad! Sen mas colad ar gayvebodi, magram vercadvilad moSordebodi! peteris xasiaTi jer Camouyalibebelia, aklia energia,vaJkacoba, Zala, is jer bavSvia da gonebiTac ar dgas Cemze maRla. yvelaferzemetad simSvidisa da bednierebisaken iswrafvis.nuTu me mxolod ToTxmeti wlisa var? nuTu jer kidev suleli bavSvivar, moswavle? nuTu sruliad gamoucdeli var yvelaferSi. magram me mainc meti

gamocdileba maqvs, vidre sxvebs, radgan me iseTi ram ganvicade, rac TiTqmisaravis ganucdia Cems asakSi. meSinia sakuTari Tavis. meSinia, rom male avyvebivnebas da Tu es moxda, rogorRa moviqce momavalSi sxva ymawvilebTan? raZnelia yovelive es, guli da goneba mudam erTmaneTs ebrZvis. yvelafers Tavisidro aqvs, magram var ki darwmunebuli imaSi, rom swored SevarCie dro?anasamSabaTi, 2 maisi, 1944Zvirfaso kiwi!SabaT saRamos peters vkiTxe, rogor fiqrobs, xom ar unda vuamboyvelaferi mamas. peteri odnav SeiSmuSna, magram mainc miTxra, saWiroao. megamexarda. es misi Sinagani siwmindis kidev erTi damamtkicebeli sabuTia.rogorc ki qveviT Cavedi, mamas wylis mosatanad wavyevi da kibeze vuTxari:— mama, Sen cxadia, xvdebi, roca me da peteri erTad varT, erTi metrisdaSorebiT ar vsxedvarT erTmaneTisagan. rogor ggonia, es cudia?mamam maSinve ar mipasuxa, mere ki Tqva:— ara, ana, es cudi araa, magram am viwro sivrceSi frTxilad unda iyo...man kidev Tqva raRac amdagvari, magram amasobaSi zeviT avediT. kviradiliT Tavad damiZaxa da miTxra:— ane, me kidev erTxel Cavufiqrdi yovelive amas — (me SiSma Semipyro),— da mivedi im daskvnamde, rom aq TavSesafarSi, es ar ivargebs! me megona, Senda peteri mxolod amxanagebi iyaviT. peters uyvarxar?— arc ufiqria amaze, — vupasuxe me.— ai, ra, ana, Sen ici, rom me Zalian kargad mesmis Tqveni, magram maincTavSekaveba gmarTebs, zedmetad nu gaaTamameb. nu adixar ase xSirad zeviT.amgvar ambebSi kaci ufro aqtiuria, qals meti TavSekavebis unari aqvs. gareTsul sxvagvari viTarebaa, Tavisuflad cxovrob, sxva ymawvilebsa da gogonebsxvdebi, SegiZlia sadme waxvide, gitacebs sporti da vin moTvlis, kidev ra.magram Tu Tqven aq xSirad iqnebiT erTad, Semdeg ki guli agicruvdeba, maSinyvelaferi bevrad ufro garTuldeba. Tqven xom isedac yoveldRe xedavTerTmaneTs, frTxilad iyavi, ana, nu miitan am ambavs gulTan axlos.— me arc mimaqvs, mama. garda amisa, peteri Zalze wesieri da kargiymawvilia.— marTalia, magram susti nebisyofisaa da advilad eqceva rogorc kargi,aseve cudi gavlenis qveS. imedi maqvs, rom bolomde kargi darCeba, radganZiriTadad mainc wesieri adamiania.Cven kidev bevri vilaparakeT da SevTanxmdiT, rom mama petersacmoelaparakeboda. kviras nasadilevs zeviT viyavi da peterma mkiTxa:— elaparake mamas, ana?— velaparake da Senc gadmogcem yvelafers, — vupasuxe me. am ambavSi igicuds arafers xedavs, magram misi azriT, aq, am siviwroveSi SeiZleba advilad,waveCxuboT erTmaneTs.— ki magram, Cven xom SevTanxmdiT, ar viCxuboT. me mtkiced maqvsgadawyvetili, rom asec iqneba.— mec, peter, magram mama fiqrobs, rom aq yvelaferi sxvanairadaa, romCven mxolod amxanagebi varT. Seni azriT, Cven ukve aRar SegviZlia viyoTamxanagebi?— me mgoni SegviZlia, Sen rogor fiqrob?— mec ase mgonia. mamas vuTxari, rom Sen savsebiT gendobi. marTlacgendobi, peter, gendobi mTlianad, iseve, rogorc mamas. me mimaCnia, rom Senndobis Rirsi xar, xom asea?— imedi maqvs (igi gawiTlda da daibna).— me mjera Seni, mjera, rom kargi xar da cxovrebaSi bevrs miaRwev.Cven kidev bevr sakiTxs SevexeT da bolos me vTqvi:— roca aqedan gavalT, albaT, CemTvis aRar Seiwuxeb Tavs.

igi aenTo: — ara, ane, ara, marTals ar ambob! aseTi ram arasodes ar undaifiqro Cemze!am dros damiZaxes...orSabaTs peterma miTxra, rom mama masac elaparaka.— mamaSens miaCnia, rom amxanaguri grZnoba SeiZleba siyvarulSigadaizardos, magram me vuTxari, rom Tavisuflad SeuZlia gvendos.axla mama Txoulobs, rom vuklo zeviT siaruls, magram me ase ar minda,marto imitom ki ara, rom peterTan yofna msiamovnebs, aramed, imis gamoc, rommamas vuTxari, peters yvelaferSi vendobi-meTqi. diax, me mas vendobi da mindaes davumtkico kidec. rogorRa davumtkiceb, Tu undoblobis gamo qveviTvijdebi.ara, mainc vivli zeviT!amasobaSi duselis dramac damTavrda. SabaTs saRamos sufraze manholandiur enaze winaswar momzadebuli, mSvenieri sabodiSo sityva warmoTqva.van daans maSinve moubrunda guli. etyoba duseli mTeli dRe swavlobda am`gakveTils~. kviras misi dabadebis dRe iyo da mSvidad Caiara. Cven vaCuqeT 1919wels Camosxmuli erTi boTli Rvino, van daanebma (axla maT ukve SeeZloT ramemierTmiaT misTvis) erTi qila pikuli da samarTebeli, kralerma moutanalimonis jemi, mipma — wigni, elim — qoTniani yvavili. is ki yvelas TiTokvercxiT gagvimaspinZlda.anaoTxSabaTi, 3 maisi, 1944Zvirfaso kiwi!jer is axali ambebi, rac am kviraSi moxda. politikur sferoSiardadegebia, araferia axali, sruliad araferi, magram axla ki mjera, romjarebs gadmosxamen. yvelaferi rusebs xom ar unda gaakeTebinon. Tumca axlaimaTTanac araferi xdeba.batoni koophoisi ukve yoveldRe dadis kontoraSi. peters taxtisaTvisaxali zambarebi uSova da amitom peterma avejis gadamkvrelis roli undaikisros, rac maincdamainc ar exaliseba. koophoisma mogvitana rwyilebismosaspobi fxvnilic. ho, marTla, SenTvis ar miambnia, rom mofi dagvekarga?xuTSabaTs aqeT ukvalod gaqra, albaT didi xania katebis samoTxeSia daromelime `cxovelTa megobarma~ gemrielad Sesansla. an iqneb misi tyavisaganbavSvis qudi Sekeres. peteri Zalze damwuxrebulia.SabaTs aqeT meored Tormetis naxevarze vsauzmobT. diliT erTi jamifafis meti araferi gvaqvs. ase rom, erTi ijra mogvaklda. bostneuli ZnelisaSovaria. dRes gvqonda kolrabi, romelic cota Sempala. kolrabi, ispanaxi dasalaTa, sxva araferi gagvaCnia. amas daumate uvargisi kartofili — SesaniSnaviSexamebaa ara?!or Tveze metia, `avad~ ar vyofilvar. SabaTs isev damewyo. Tumca esusiamo da uxerxulia, magram me mainc mixaria, rom yvelaferi ise mimdinareobs,rogorc saWiroa.Sen ar gagiWirdeba imis gageba, rom CvenTan xSirad gaismissasowarkveTilTa RaRadi: `ratom aris, ra saWiroa saerTod omi? ratom arSeuZliaT adamianebs mSvidad cxovreba? vis sWirdeba? vis sWirdeba es saSineligapartaxeba?~ TavisTavad kiTxvebi gasagebia, magram amomwuravi pasuxi aqamdejer aravis miuRia. marTlac, ratom uSveben ingliselebi uzarmazarTviTmfrinavebs, ratom akeTeben mZime yumbarebs da amave dros asawyob saxlebsdangreulTa aRsadgenad? ratom xarjaven yoveldRiurad milionebs omissaWiroebisaTvis, xolo medicinis, xelovnebisa da RaribebisaTvis erTi centicar emetebaT? ratom unda SimSilobdnen erTgan, roca sxvagan sursaTi lpeba?ratom aris adamiani aseTi suleli?ar mjera is ambavi, TiTqos omi mxolod xelmZRvaneli moRvaweebis,mTavrobebisa da kapitalistebis bralia. ara, albaT, patara adamianebic arian

damnaSaveni, Torem mTeli xalxebi ar miiRebdnen omSi monawileobas, adamianSi,albaT, imTaviTve gamjdaria miswrafeba ngrevis, mkvlelobis, Cexvisa damxecobisaken. sanam mTeli kacobrioba ar gardaiqmneba, arc omebi moispoba.yvelaferi, rac aSenda, Seiqmna, gaizarda, yvelaferi gaiTeleba, moispoba dakacobriobas yvelafris Tavidan dawyeba mouxdeba.Tumca xSirad vyofilvar dadardianebuli, magram suliT ar davcemulvar.Cven TavSefarebas ise vuyurebT, rogorc saxifaTo Tavgadasavals —romantikulsa da sainteresos. me erTxel da samudamod gadavwyvite, romsxvagvarad vicxovreb, vidre saerTod gogonebi cxovroben da ar SevizRudavTavs diasaxlisis uferuli cxovrebiT. axlandeli cxovreba kargi dasawyisiada masSi bevri ramaa saintereso, yvelaze saxifaTo wuTebSic ki vamCnevsasacilo mxareebs da uneblied mecineba.me axalgazrda var da, albaT, maqvs gamouaSkaravebeli Tvisebebi. meaxalgazrda da Zlieri var. Segnebulad aRviqvam am uCveulo Tavgadasavals. rasaWiroa mTeli dRe wuwuni? RmerTs bevri ram moucia CemTvis: laRi xasiaTi,sicocxlisadmi trfiali, Zala. vgrZnob, rom yoveldRiurad vizrdebisulierad, vgrZnob, rom Tavisufleba axloa, vxedav, ra lamazia buneba, rakargi xalxi maxvevia irgvliv. ratom unda viyo imeddakarguli?anaparaskevi, 5 maisi, 1944Zvirfaso kiwi!mama ukmayofiloa, egona, Cveni saubris Semdeg yovel saRamos zeviT aRarvivlidi. `xvevna-kocna~ ar gamagonoTo. ver vitan am sityvas! sakmarisia isic,rom, saerTod, am sakiTxze visaubreT. magram ara, aucileblad unda wabilwonyvelaferi. dResve movelaparakebi mamas. margom kargi rCeva momca. momismine, ai,ris Tqmas vapireb:— mama, me mgoni axsna-ganmartebas eli da minda gulaxdilad gamovTqvaCemi azri. etyoba, imedi gagicruvda, Sen xom Cemgan met TavSekavebas moelodi.albaT, ginda, iseTive viyo, rogoric sxva ToTxmeti wlis gogonebi arian, anunda iyvnen. magram cdebi!mas Semdeg, rac aq varT, 1942 wlis ivlisidan ukanasknel dromde ZalianmiWirda. rom icode, ra xSirad vtirodi saRamoobiT, ra marto, ra ubeduriviyavi, maSin gaigebdi, ratom mimiwevs guli maRla. erT dReSi ar xerxdeba imisgakeTeba, rasac me mivaRwie, erTbaSad ver daiwyeb dedis an sxva adamianisdauxmareblad cxovrebas. Cemi axlandeli damoukidebloba Zvirad damijda —bevri brZola da cremli dasWirda. SegiZlia damcino, ar damijero, magram amiTaraferi Seicvleba. me iseTi adamiani var, romelsac TviTon SeuZlia sakuTariTavis dacva, xolo Tqvens winaSe araviTar pasuxismgeblobas ar vgrZnob. memxolod imitom vambob amas, rom ar ifiqro, TiTqos raRac minda dagimalo.yovel Cems nabijze me TviTon vageb pasuxs.roca ukiduresad miWirda, Tqven yvelam, maT Soris Senc, TvalebidaxuWeT da arafris danaxva ar gindodaT. Sen me ar damxmarebixar, piriqiT,yovelTvis marigebdi, uxeSad nu iqcevio. diax, Zalze uxeSad viqceodi, radganar mindoda, Cemi ubedureba megrZno. wlinaxevris manZilze yoveldRiuradkomedias vTamaSobdi, ar vwuwunebdi. nakisri rolisTvis ar miRalatia. da vZlieyvelafers. axla me suliTac da sxeuliTac damoukidebeli var. aRar mWirdebadeda. brZolam gamakaJa.da axla, roca sawadels mivaRwie, roca Cemi gavitane, me minda, Cemi gziTviaro, im gziT, romelic sworad mimaCnia. ufleba ara gaqvs, ar unda meqceoderogorc ToTxmeti wlis gogonas. mZime gansacdelma xani Semmata. Cemi saqcieliarasodes gamixdeba sananeblad da ise moviqcevi, rogorc ufro sworad mimaCnia.Sen ver damakaveb Seni Semwynarebluri gulkeTilobiT. an yvelaferiamikrZale, anda mende yvelaferSi, oRond momeSvi!~ana

SabaTi, 6 maisi, 1944Zvirfaso kiwi!guSin, sanam vaxSmad davsxdebodiT, mamas jibeSi werili Cavude, romelSicyvelaferi ewera, rac guSin gagande. margom miTxra werilis wakiTxvis Semdegmama mTeli saRamo ugunebod iyoo (me zeviT WurWels vrecxavdi). sabralo pimi,unda gameTvaliswinebina, ra Sedegs gamoiRebda es epistole! mama ZalzemgrZnobiarea! me maSinve gavafrTxile peteri, rom aRaraferi hkiTxos, pimsacCemTvis araferi uTqvams. sainteresoa, metyvis rames Tu ara?TavSesafarSi yvelaferi Cveulebrivad mimdinareobs. Znelidasajerebelia, rasac fasebze da gareT darCenil adamianebze gviamboben.naxevari girvanqa Cai 350 guldeni Rirs, erTi girvanqa yava — 80 guldeni,girvanqa karaqi — 35, kvercxi — 1 guldeni da 45 centi. 100 gram bulgarulTambaqoSi 14 guldens ixdian, visac xeli miuwvdeba, yvela spekulantobs, yvelaraRaciT vaWrobs. Cvenma mepurem erTi koWi sakemsi Zafi 90 centad gviSova,merZeves moaqvs sasursaTo baraTebi, mekuboe yveliT vaWrobs. yoveldRe gvesmis,viRac gaZarcves, mokles, gaqurdes, da amas profesionali qurdebisa daavazakebis garda, zogjer policielebic da darajebic sCadian. yvela cdilobs,riTime gaivsos kuWi da, radgan xelfasis momateba akrZalulia, xalxiyovelgvar TaRliTobas mimarTavs.policia Tavs ver arTmevs arasrulwlovanTa saqmeebs. yoveldRe ukvalodikargebian TxuTmeti, Teqvsmeti, Cvidmeti wlis qaliSvilebi, zogjer ki ufrodidebic.naxvamdis! (kacma rom Tqvas, aseTi gamoTxoveba swori araa. inglisisradio mudam ase amTavrebs programas: Semdeg gadmocemamde, me ki unda vTqva:Semdeg werilamde!)anakvira, 7 maisi, 1944Zvirfaso kiwi!guSin mama didxans melaparaka. me saSinlad vRrialebdi, isic tiroda daici, ra miTxra?`Cems cxovrebaSi bevri werili mimiRia, magram amisTana saZageliarasodes. Sen, ana, Sen, romelic ase uyvarxar Sens mSoblebs, yovelTvis mzadarian daxmareba gagiwion, mudam gicavdnen, Sen ambob, rom araviTarpasuxismgeblobas ar grZnob Cvens winaSe da mitovebuli, martoxela xar? ara,ana, Sens mxriv es didi usamarTlobaa. iqneb ase ar fiqrobdi, magram werilSiase weria. Cven amgvari sayveduri ar dagvimsaxurebia, ana!~saSinlad Sevcdi, me mgoni, amaze cudi araferi Camidenia cxovrebaSi. CemimoTqma da cremlebi moCvenebiTi iyo, radgan mindoda mamasTvis TaviSemebralebina. marTalia, me bevri mwuxareba gadavitane, magram pimisdadanaSauleba, romelmac amdeni ram gaakeTa CemTvis da axlac akeTebs,aramzadoba da aramzadobaze metia. kargi qnes, rom miuwvdomeli simaRlidanCamomagdes, Cems siamayes sila gaawnes. kargi qnes, radgan me adre Semeqmna didiwarmodgena Cems Tavze, xolo yvelaferi is, rasac froilain ana akeTebs,sruliadac araa srulyofili. Tuki SegiZlia tkivili miayeno iseT adamians,romelzedac yovelTvis amboben, miyvarso, da isic Segnebulad, es imas niSnavs,rom sulmdabali, uaRresad sulmdabali xar! sircxviliT kinaRam movkvdi, rocamamam sulgrZelad mapatia Cemi danaSauli da miTxra: werils RumelSiSevagdebo. ise alersianad, ise moridebiT meqceoda, TiTqos TviTon iyoraRacaSi damnaSave. diax, ana, Sen jer kidev bevri ram unda iswavlo da jobia,amiT daiwyo, vidre sxvebs zevidan dahyurebde an adanaSaulebde!me bevri gaWirveba minaxavs, da gana yvela Cemi xnis bavSvsac igive arganucdia. me xSirad vfarisevlobdi, magram es Seugneblad momdioda. cxadia,martoobas yovelTvis vgrZnobdi, magram sasowarkveTilebamde arasodesmivsulvar. unda mrcxvenodes da marTlac Zalian mrcxvenia!

ac moxda, moxda. amieridan mainc unda vecado, rom aseTi ram aRarganmeordes. daviwyeb cxovrebas Tavidan, albaT, ufro gamiadvildeba, radganpeteri myavs. misi mxardaWeriT yvelafers SevZleb! axla marto aRar var. me masvuyvarvar, mec miyvars. maqvs wignebi, istoriuli naSromebi, dRiuri, gonji aravar, arc suleli, vetrfi cxovrebas da minda kargi adamiani viyo.diax, ane, Sen adreve icodi, rom Seni werili sastiki da usamarTloa,magram mainc amayobdi amiT. dReidan ki isev mamis kvals unda gahyve daaucileblad gamosworde.anaorSabaTi, 8 maisi, 1944Zvirfaso kiwi!miambnia rodisme SenTvis Cveni ojaxis istoria? me mgonia, ara. ase rom,mismine. mamaCems Zalian mdidari mSoblebi hyavda. babuaCemma TviTon gaikafa gza,bebiaCemi ki mdidari da warCinebuli ojaxidan iyo. axalgazrdobaSi mamac isecxovrobda, rogorc yvela mdidris Svili. yovel kviras mejlisebi, stumrebi,dResaswaulebi, lamazi qalebi, nadimebi, wveulebebi... magram inflaciis dros,romelic pirvel imperialistur oms mohyva, mTeli qoneba dakarges. mamambrwyinvale aRzrda da ganaTleba miiRo da guSin bevri icina: 55 wlis manZilzepirvelad amofxika qvabidan narCenebi.dedac mdidari ojaxidanaa. Cven pirdaRebulni vusmenT, roca gviyvebaqorwilebze, sadac 250 kacisaTvis sufra iSleboda, mejlisebze, nadimebze. axlaCvenze ar iTqmis mdidrebi ariano, magram imedebs omis Semdgom droze vamyarebT.merwmune, me sruliad ar mainteresebs iseTi uferuli cxovreba, romelzedacdeda da margo ocneboben. siamovnebiT wavidodi erTi wliT parizSi, erTi wliTlondonSi, viswavlidi enebs, xelovnebis istorias. aba, miTxari, ra mosataniaamasTan margos survili, palestinaSi wavides da mowyalebis da gaxdes. me mudamvocnebob lamaz kabebze, saintereso adamianebze. minda bevri ram vnaxo, bevriganvicado. me Sen yovelTvis geubnebodi amas. garda amisa, arc isaa cudi,yvelaferTan erTad cota fulic Tu geqneba.mipi qorwilSi iyo dapatiJebuli da am diliT yvelaferi mogviyva.axaldaqorwinebulebi mdidari ojaxidan yofilan da qorwilic mdidruligadauxdiaT. Cven Suri aRgveZra, roca mipma gviambo, rogor gaumaspinZldnen:bostneulisa da xorcis wvniani, Semwvari, puri da yveli, kvercxiT SekmazulisalaTa, rostbifi, namcxvari, Rvino, sigaretebi da amave dros yvelaferiblomad (cxadia, sanovage spekulantebis daxmarebiT iSoves). mipma aTi WiqaRvino dalia. erTi damixedeT am alkoholis mowinaaRmdeges. xolo Tu mipmaamdeni dalia, raRa iTqmis mis qmarze. albaT, blomad ylapa. cxadia, bevriimxiarules. qorwilSi dapatiJebuli hyoliaT qalaqis policiis oriTanamSromeli, romelTac yvelas suraTi gadauRes. etyoba, mips arasodes araviwydeba `iatakqveSelebi~, orive policielis vinaoba da misamarTi Caiwera, imSemTxvevisaTvis, Tu raime moxda da patiosani holandielebi dasWirda. mipmaagviwera gemrieli kerZebi. Cven, romelTac sauzmeze mxolod ramdenime kovzifafa gvaqvs da mere aRar viciT, SimSils ra movuxerxoT, Cven, romlebicyoveldRe naxevrad mouxarSav ispanaxs (vitaminebis gulisTvis) da dampalkartofils vWamT, Cven, romlebic cariel kuWebs mxolod salaTiT, kolrabiTda ispanaxiT vivsebT; ispanaxi, mudam ispanaxi! iqneb amgvari kvebis Sedegadodesme iseTive Zlierni gavxdeT, rogorc popeie 1 , ( 1 cnobili multiplikaciurifilmis gmiri.) Tumca raRac ar mjera.mips rom Cven qorwilSi waveyvaneT, sxva stumrebs, albaT, araferidarCebodaT! rom icode, rogor SemovexvieT mips, rogor vugdebdiT yurs,TiTqos arasodes gvenaxos arc moxdenilad Cacmuli adamianebi da arcgemrieli kerZebi. da es Cven, milioneris SviliSvilebs. rogor airia yvelaferiam qveyanaze.ana

samSabaTi, 9 maisi, 1944Zvirfaso kiwi!davamTavre zRapari `feria elen~, karg qaRaldze gadavwere, saTauriwiTeli melniT gavaforme, koxtad avkinZe da axla mSvenieri sanaxavia. me minda,es zRapari dabadebis dReze mamas vaCuqo, magram iqneb umniSvnelo saCuqaria? arvici. dedam da margom leqsebi daweres.SuadRisas kraleri movida da gviTxra, rom orSabaTidan qalbatoni b.,romelic firmis sareklamo ganyofilebas ganagebs, yoveldRe ivlis kontoraSiswored im dros, roca sxvebs Sesveneba aqvT. Tu marTlac ase moxda, maSinveRaravin amova CvenTan zeviT, kartofili sxva dros unda moitanon, eliCvenTan ver isauzmebs, sapirfareSoSi ver SevalT, ganZrevasac ki ver gavbedavTda a. S. da a. S.yvelani vcdilobT gamovnaxoT raime sababi da qalbatoni TavidanmoviSoroT. van daanma aseTi azri gamoTqva: CauyareT yavaSi kuWis asaSlelifxvnili, iqneb aman gvixsnaso.— ara, — wamoiZaxa koophoisma, — ara, Tu RmerTi gwamT, maSin aRarCamova taxtidan!gamayruebeli xarxari atyda.— taxtidan? — ikiTxa qalbatonma van daanma, — ki magram ras niSnavses?qalbatons auxsnes.— gana ase amboben? — ikiTxa man gulubryvilod.— warmogidgenia, — xiTxiTebda eli, bienkofSi 1 ( 1 univermaRiaamsterdamSi.) rom ikiTxos, sadaa aq taxtio!— Tu am moxdenil gamoTqmas vixmarT, duseli yovel dRe zustadpirvelis naxevarze jdeba taxtze.dRes me Tamamad davwere qaRaldis naglejze:sapirfareSoTi sargeblobis ganrigi batoni eqimisaTvis!diliT: 7. 15-dan 7. 30-mde.dRisiT: pirveli saaTis Semdeg.mere: survilisamebr!qaRaldi karze swored maSin davamagre, roca duseli Sig ijda. kargi iyodamematebina:`kanonis darRvevis SemTxvevaSi kari daiketeba!~Cveni sapirfareSos kari garedanac iketeba da Signidanac. oh, kiwi, raSesaniSnavi amindia, gareT gasvla rom SemeZlos!aneaoTxSabaTi, 10 maisi, 1944Zvirfaso kiwi!guSin nasadilevs zeviT visxediT da franguls vswavlobdiT, uecradmomeCvena, TiTqos Cems ukan wyali Cxrialebs. — ra aris es? — vkiTxe peters,magram man araferi mipasuxa, radgan mixvda, raSic iyo saqme da sxvenze avarda.sakmaod uxeSad daavlo xeli muSis, romelic jamis gverdiT Cacucquliyo daTavis adgilas dasva. atyda xmauri, magram amasobaSi muSim Tavisi saqme moaTavada qveviT gaiqca. Turme muSi myudrod mokalaTebuliyo naxerxze, magram mismier dayenebuli `tba~ ficrebs Soris CamoiRvara da kartofilian kasrs daesxa.kartofilic da burbuSelac, romelic mamam guSin saRamos moitana,saSinlad yarda. sabralo muSi! aba saidan unda gcodnoda, rom torfi ariSoveba.anaxuTSabaTi, 11 maisi, 1944Zvirfaso kiwi!sasacilo ambavi moxda!

peters Tma hqonda SesakreWi, parikmaxeris roli, rogorc yovelTvis,dedamisma ikisra. peteri Tavis oTaxSi gavida da zustad rvis naxevarze TiTqmisSiSveli gamocxadda; trusisa da sasporto Custebis meti araferi ecva.— didxans gelodo? — hkiTxa dedamiss.— axlave, makratels veZeb!peteric Seudga Zebnas da qalbaton van daanis magidis ujra gadaaqoTa.— nu amirie yvelaferi, peter.ver gavige, ra upasuxa peterma, magram pasuxi, albaT, ukmexi iyo, radgandedamisma sajdomze Semohkra. peteric aseve moiqca, qalbatonma isev aRmarTaxeli, magram peteri siciliT gausxlta.— kargi, wavideT, dedabero! — uTxra peterma, magram qalbatoni vandaani adgilidan ar daZrula. maSin peterma Ronivrad CasWida xeli majebSi daoTaxidan TreviT gaiyvana. qalbatoni tiroda, icinoda, ilanZReboda, wixlebsisroda, magram araferi gauvida. peterma tyve qali kibemde miaTria, magram aqukve iZulebuli gaxda xeli gaeSva. qalbatoni van daani isev oTaxSi dabrundada xmamaRali oxvriT daeSva skamze.— sakuTari dedis gataceba, — vixumre me.— ki magram, xelebi matkina!me davxede mis gawiTlebul majebs da civi wyliT davusvele. kibezegaCerebulma peterma moTmineba dakarga da qamarmomarjvebuli mxecebismomTvinierebeliviT Semovida oTaxSi, magram qalbatoni van daani mainc argahyva. sawer magidasTan Camomjdari cxvirsaxocs eZebda.— upirveles yovlisa, bodiSi unda moixado!— keTili, bodiSs vixdi, radgan gviandeba.dedamisma misdauneburad gaicina, fexze wamodga da karisaken wavida,magram uecrad Tavi valdebulad CaTvala, axsna-ganmarteba moeca CvenTvis, e. i.mamisaTvis, dedisaTvis da CemTvis. Cven am dros WurWels vrecxavdiT.— Cven saxlSi aseTi ram ar moxdeboda, Tqva man — erTs ise Semovkravdi,rom kibeze davagorebdi (!); ase Tavxedurad arasodes moqceula, radgan xSiradvcemdi. ai, es aris Tanamedrove aRzrdis Sedegi, oh, es Tanamedrove bavSvebi!rogor gavbedavdi ase movqceodi dedas. Tqven, batono frank, ase epyrobodiTdedas?qalbatoni van daani agznebuli darboda aqeT-iqiT, xan raRacasgvekiTxeboda, xan gvixsnida da zeviT asasvlelad ar ecala, magram bolosmainc mogvSorda. ar gasula xuTi wuTi da gaavebuli isev qveviT Camovarda.vkiTxe, morCiT-meTqi gakreWas, magram man mipasuxa, qveviT meCqarebao daTavawyvetili daeSva kibeze. qveviT ki, albaT, Tavis puwis mklavebSi aRmoCnda.col-qmari mxolod rva saaTze dabrunda. peteri moixmes da daiwyo CveulebrivilanZRva-gineba. Cvenamde mxolod aseTi sityvebi aRwevda: `regveno, umecaro,uxeiro magaliTs... ana xom... margo ase~... meti veraferi gavigone. xval isevsimSvide da siwynare Camovardeba.anaP. S. samSabaTs da oTxSabaTs radioTi Cveni sayvareli dedoflis sityvamovismineT. axla Turme isvenebs, rom ZalRone moikribos da kvlav holandiaSidabrundes. imedi maqvs, es male moxdeba. sxvaTa Soris, aseTi ram Tqva: `roca medavbrundebi... axlovdeba ganTavisuflebis Jami... simamace da mZime gansacdeli...~Semdeg movismineT ministris, gerbrandis sityva, bolos viRaca sasulieropiris locva, romelic RmerTs sTxovda daxmareboda ebraelebs, sakoncentraciobanakebsa da cixeebSi gamoketil patimrebs da germaniaSi gandevnilebs.anaparaskevi, 12 maisi, 1944Zvirfaso kiwi!uamravi saqme maqvs da, Tumca es sityvebi sasacilod JRers, dro armyofnis Tavi gavarTva yvelafers. mogiyvebi mokled, ra maqvs gasakeTebeli:xvalamde unda wavikiTxo galileis biografiis pirveli nawili, radgan wigni

iblioTekas unda daubrunon. daviwye guSin, magram rogorme moverevi. momavalkviras wasakiTxi maqvs `palestina gzajvaredinze~ da galileis biografiismeore nawili. guSin davamTavre karlos V pirveli nawili da saswrafod undadavamuSao yvela amowerili SeniSvnebi da qronologiuri TariRebi. garda amisa,sxvadasxva wignidan sam gverdze amoviwere ucxo sityvebi, da minda daviswavlo.punqti meoTxe: kinovarskvlavebis koleqcia sruliad areul-dareulia, rogormeunda movawesrigo, magram amas ramdenime dRe dasWirdeba, xolo profesor anas,rogorc vTqvi, samuSao axrCobs; ramdenime xans qaosi qaosad darCeba. amisSemdeg rigSi dganan Tezeusi, oidiposi, heleusi, orfeosi, iazoni da herkulesi.maTi sagmiro saqmeebi Wreli ZafebiviT gadaexlarTa erTmaneTs gonebaSi.kavSiri rom ar dairRves, arc mikenoisa da fidiasis daviwyeba SeiZleba.TiTqmis aseTive mdgomareobaSia Svidwliani da cxrawliani omebis istoria.yvelaferi erTmaneTSi ameria. ras izam, roca cudi mexsiereba gaqvs!warmoidgine, ra gulmaviwyi viqnebi oTxmoci wlis asakSi. marTla, biblia! kidevcota da mival im adgilamde, sadac susanas banaobaa aRwerili. ho, marTla, racodva awva sodomsa da gomoras? jer kidev bevri ram unda gavigo da viswavlo!jerjerobiT lizelot pfalcelisaTvis sul ver movicale.Tavad xedav, kiwi, lamisaa davixrCo!da kidev erTi: Sen ici, Cemi didi xnis sanukvari ocnebaa, gavxde jerJurnalisti, Semdeg ki mwerali. dro dagvanaxvebs, ganxorcieldeba odesme Cemiswrafva didebisaken, Tu es mxolod gandidebis maniaa. Tumca axlac bevri Temamaqvs. yovel SemTxvevaSi, omis Semdeg gamovcem wigns saTauriT: `TavSesafari~.ar vici, moxerxdeba es Tu ara, magram safuZvlad Cemi `dRiuri~ daedeba. gardaam wignisa, kidev bevr rameze vfiqrob, magram am fiqrebs mxolod maSingagacnob, roca garkveulad Camoyalibdeba.anaSabaTi, 13 maisi, 1944Zvirfaso kiwi!guSin mamas dabadebis dRe iyo. deda da mama 19 wlis win daqorwindnen.kontoridan yvela wavida, damlagebeli qalic ki. qveviT aravin iyo. wels jerar yofila aseTi naTeli mze. Cveni wabli Ziridan kenweromde ayvavebulia daufro lamazia, vidre gasul wels iyo.koophoisma mamas lineis biografia aCuqa, kralerma bunebismetyvelebisistoria, duselma — `amsterdami wyalze~, — van daanma ki iseTi kalaTa, romsaukeTeso dekoratoric ver gaakeTebda. kalaTaSi ido: sami kvercxi, erTiboTli ludi, erTi boTli kefiri da mwvane halstuxi. Cveni jemiT savse qilaamasTan SedarebiT sacodavad gamoiyureboda, magram, Cemi vardebi mipisa daelis mosakiTxTan SedarebiT saocrad surnelovani iyo. mixakebs suni ara aqvs,Tumca Zalian lamazia. mama didad gaanebivra yvelam. moutanes 50 calinamcxvari. SesaniSnavia! mama yvelas Taflis kverebiT gagvimaspinZlda. gardaamisa, mamakacebs ludi dausxa, Cven kefiri. didebulad vidResaswauleT!anasamSabaTi, 16 maisi, 1944Zvirfaso kiwi!radgan am Temaze didixania ar gvisaubria, gadmogcem umniSvnelo davas,romelic guSin baton da qalbaton van daanebs Soris moxda.qalbatoni van daani: — germanelebma Zlier gaamagres atlantikissangrebi da yvelafers gaakeTeben imisaTvis, rom ingliselebi napirze argadmouSvan. germanelebi uaRresad Zlierni arian!batoni van daani: — o, ra Tqma unda...qalbatoni: — diax, diax!batoni: — Tu germanelebi ase Zlierni arian, unda gaimarjvon kidec, ara?qalbatoni: — SeiZleba asec moxdes, me sulac ara var darwmunebuli, rompiriqiT iqneba.

atoni: — jobia, dageTanxmo.qalbatoni: — magram Sen yovelTvis medavebi, Tavs ver ikaveb!batoni: — Cems laparaks araviTari mniSvneloba ara aqvs.qalbatoni: — da mainc medavebi, ginda damimtkico, rom marTali xar.magram Seni winaswarmetyveleba arasodes ar marTldeba.batoni: — aqamde yovelTvis marTldeboda!qalbatoni: — ara, marTals ar ambob. Seni varaudiT jarebi gasul welsunda gadmoesxaT, fineTTan zavi unda daedoT, italias jer kidev zamTarSimoReboda bolo, xolo rusebs lvovi unda aeRoT, o, ara, Senswinaswarmetyvelebas arafrad vagdeb.batoni: (dgeba) — aba, girCevnia ena Caiwyvito, me Sen dagimtkiceb, rommarTali var, rom Sen araferi gesmis. aRar SemiZlia amdeni bodvis mosmena.kacma cxviri unda Cagayofinos Sensave nabodvarSi!farda eSvebaP. S. Tavi veRar Sevikave, vxarxarebdi TavdaviwyebiT. icinoda dedac.peteri Zlivs ikavebda sicils. ra sulelebi arian ufrosebi. jobia, jerTavianTi Tavi aRzardon da mere mosTxovon bavSvebs amdeni!anaparaskevi, 19 maisi, 1944Zvirfaso kiwi!guSin Zalze cudad vgrZnobdi Tavs. guli mereoda, muceli mtkioda,yovelgvari sisaZagle mWirda. erTi sityviT, uaresis warmodgena SeuZlebelia.saSinlad mSia, magram wiTeli lobios Wamas isev uWmeloba mirCevnia. me dapeteri kargad vewyobiT erTmaneTs. sawyal biWs Cemze metad sWirdeba alersi.yovel saRamos, roca kocniT veTxovebiT erTmaneTs, saSinlad wiTldeba damemudareba, rom kidev erTi kocna gavimeto. iqneb me misTvis kata mofis magierivar? Tumca arc ase vgrZnob Tavs cudad. igi Zalze bednieria, mas Semdeg, racicis, rom viRacas uyvars.me didi gaWirvebiT movipove is, da axla mTlianad Cems xelSia. arifiqro, rom Cemi siyvaruli Sesustda. peteri SesaniSnavi ymawvilia, magram Cemisuli kvlav Caiketa da imisaTvis rom xelaxla gaiRos, Zlieri gasaRebiasaWiro.anaSabaTi, 20 maisi, 1944Zvirfaso kiwi!guSin dabla Cavedi da davinaxe, rom mSvenieri larnaki mixakebianadiatakze egdo. muxlebze daCoqili deda iataks wmendda, margo ki Zirs dayrilCems qaRaldebs krefda. `ra moxda?~ vikiTxe SeSinebulma da guli SemekumSa.pasuxi saWiro ar iyo, isedac kargad vxedavdi, rac moxda. Cemi saqaRalde,romelSic mefeTa genealogias vinaxavdi, rveulebi, wignebi, yvelaferi wyalSicuravda. kinaRam avtirdi. ise vRelavdi, rom aRar maxsovs, ras vambobdi, magramSemdeg margom miambo, rogor vluRluRebdi: `o, ra aunazRaurebeli zaralia, rasaSinelebaa, yvelaferi moispo, yvelaferi daiRupa!~. da kidev raRac amdagvars.mamam, margom da dedam xmamaRla gadaixarxares. me ki tirilis gunebaze viyavi.ramdeni dro, ramdeni Sroma daiRupa. Tumca, roca davakvirdi, aunazRaurebeli`zarali~ arc ise didi aRmoCnda. iatakze damjdari miwebebul qaRaldebserTmaneTs vacilebdi, vasworebdi, Semdeg ki gasaSrobad sarecxis Tokzedavkide. sasacilo sanaxaobaa — karlos mexuTis gverdiT hkidia vilhelmoraneli, xolo mas gverds umSvenebs maria antuaneta.`es aris Rassenschande~ 1 moswrebulad Tqva van daanma. qaRaldebismeTvalyureoba peters davavale da qveviT Cavedi.— romeli wigni gafuWda? — vkiTxe margos, romelic Cemi wignebissaganZuris gadaTvalierebas Sesdgomoda.

— algebris saxelmZRvanelo, — miTxra man, magram, Cemda samwuxarod,algebris saxelmZRvanelo didad ar dazianebula. vnanob, rom mTlianad ardalba wyalSi. arasodes ar migrZvnia wignebisadmi iseTi siZulvili, rogorcalgebris saxelmZRvanelosadmi. Tavfurcelze sul cota ocamde gogonas gvariaweria, uwin ,albaT, maTi sakuTreba iyo. wigni sruliad gayviTlebula,gacveTili da aWrelebulia uamravi SesworebiT. odesme cxel gulze nakuwebadvaqcev am sazizRrobas.anaorSabaTi, 22 maisi, 1944Zvirfaso kiwi!20 maiss mamam qalbaton van daanTan sanaZleo waago — xuTi boTlikefiri. jarebis gadmosxma marTlac ar momxdara. Tamamad SemiZlia vTqva, rommTeli amsterdami, mTeli holandia, evropis mTeli dasavleTi sanapiro vidreespaneTamde, dRe da Rame mxolod jarebis gadmosxmaze laparakobs, sanaZlosdebs da imedovnebs.daZabuloba matulobs da TiTqmis autanelia. bevr `karg~ holandielsacki aRar swams ingliselebis. yvelas rodi miaCnia inglisuri `blefi~ nacadxerxad, ara, adamianebs surT dainaxon saqme, didi, sagmiro saqmeebi! sakuTaricxviris iqiT veravin verafers xedavs. aravin fiqrobs, rom ingliselebiibrZvian sakuTari interesebisaTvis, Tavisi samSoblosaTvis. TiToeuls hgonia,rom ingliselebi valdebuli arian, rac SeiZleba male, rac SeiZleba ukeTesadixsnan holandia. magram ra movaleni arian ingliselebi Cvens winaSe; riTdaimsaxures holandielebma is sulgrZeli daxmareba, rasac ase mouTmenladelian? o, nu ityueben Tavs holandielebi. miuxedavad `blefisa~, ingliselebsmainc ar dausxamT Tavslafi ise, rogorc amJamad okupirebulma didma dapatara qveynebma. ingliselebs araferi ar sWirT CvenTan bodiSis mosaxdeli,radgan Tu imas vusayvedurebT, rom eZinaT, roca germania iaraRdeboda, iseveeZina sxva qveynebsac, gansakuTrebiT germaniis mosazRvre qveynebs. siraqlemispolitikiT rom Sors ver wavalT, es inglissac esmis da mTel msofliosac.axla ki mokavSireebi da aseve inglisic iZulebulni arian yoveldRiuradmsxverpli gaiRon. arc erTi qveyana ar moutans sakuTar xalxs msxverpladmeore xalxis interesebs. amas arc inglisi gaakeTebs. jarebis gadmosxmas,ganTavisuflebas, Tavisuflebas odesme veRirsebiT, magram vadebs inglisi daamerika daaadgenen da ara okupirebuli qveynebis xalxebi.samwuxarod, Cvenamde aRwevs xmebi, rom ganwyobileba ebraelTa mimarTSeicvala da axla antisemitizmi iseT wreebSic mZvinvarebs, romelTac uwinamaze arc ki ufiqriaT. Cvenze es garemoeba saSinlad moqmedebs. ebraelebisadmisiZulvili gasagebia, magram amgvari siZulvili dafuZnebulia gaugebrobaze.qristianebi ebraelebs imas usayvedureben, rom ebraelebi germanelebis winaSeTavs imcireben, TavianTi mfarvelebis gacemas ar eridebian da amis gamo bevrqristians mZime sasjeli atydeba Tavs. yvelaferi es marTalia, magram aqac,rogorc yvela sxva SemTxvevaSi, medlis ukana mxaresac unda SevxedoT. ganaqristianebi Cvens adgilze sxvagvarad moiqceodnen? gana SeuZlia adamians, sulerTia qristiani iqneba is Tu ebraeli, gauZlos germanelebis wamebas? yvelamicis, rom es SeuZlebelia. maSin, raRa ebraelebisagan Txouloben SeuZlebels.aralegalur wreebSi CurCuleben, rom holandiaSi emigrirebul da SemdegpoloneTSi gagzavnil germanel ebraelebs holandiaSi dabrunebis uflebasaRar miscemen. holandiam isini Seifara, magram, rogorc ki hitlers gandevnian,isev germaniaSi unda dabrundneno. gesmis yvelaferi es da ekiTxebi sakuTarTavs: Tu asea, raRa saWiro iyo es mZime da xangrZlivi omi? Cven yoveldRegvesmis, rom yvelam simarTlisa, Tavisuflebisa da samarTlianobisaTvis undavibrZoloT. da ai, am brZolis procesSi iwyeba ganxeTqileba da ebraeli isevyvelaze uaresia. samwuxaroa, Zalze samwuxaro, rom ager ukve meramdenejermarTldeba Zveli naTqvami: `Tu qristiani raimes cuds sCadis, TviTon agebspasuxs, Tu ebraeli — damnaSavea yvela ebraeli!~.

gulaxdilad rom giTxra, me ver gamigia, rogor moxda, romholandielebi, es patiosani da samarTliani xalxi, Cvenze ase msjeloben;Cvenze, mTel msoflioSi yvelaze daCagrul da yvelaze ubedur xalxze. memxolod erTi ram maimedebs: Cvendami siZulvili gauvliT da holandielebidagvanaxeben, sinamdvileSi rogorebi arian. imedi maqvs, rom isini arc axla daarc Semdeg ar uRalateben samarTlianobis grZnobas! antisemitizmi kiusamarTlobaa!me miyvars holandia. imedi mqonda, rom samSoblodakarguli aq vpovebdimeore samSoblos. Tumca jer ar damikargavs imedi!anaxuTSabaTi, 25 maisi, 1944Zvirfaso kiwi!yoveldRe xdeba rame usiamovno! dRes diliT daapatimres Cveni keTilimemwvanile, Turme saxlSi or ebraels malavda. es CvenTvis mZime laxvaria daara marto imitom, rom sabralo ebraelebi ufskrulis piras dganan, aramed amsacodavi kacis bedi gvawuxebs.mTeli qveyana gagiJda. wesier adamianebs sakoncentracio banakebSi,cixeebSi, karcerebSi amwyvdeven, xolo moxucsa da axalgazrdas, mdidarsa daRaribs naZiralebi yvlefen da tyavs aZroben. zogs iWeren imis gamo, rom Savbazarze raRaca iyida, zogs ki imisaTvis, rom ebraelebs an iatakqveSelebsmalavda. aravin icis, ra elis xval. memwvanilis dapatimreba CvenTvis mZimedanaklisia. Cvens qaliSvilebs ar SeuZliaT da arc arian valdebulni TviTongvizidon kartofili. Cven mxolod erTiRa dagvrCenia, rac SeiZleba cotavWamoT. vnaxoT, rogor movaxerxebT, amas mere mogwer, magram am ambavSisasiamovno araferia. deda ambobs, diliT sauzme aRar gveqnebao, sadiladmxolod puri da fafa, saRamos Semwvari kartofili, xolo kviraSi orjersalaTa an cotaodeni bostneuli. ase rom, viSimSilebT, magram yvelaferzeufro saSineli mainc is iqneba, Tu aRmogvaCines.anaparaskevi, 26 maisi, 1944Zvirfaso kiwi!rogorc iqna, meRirsa. vzivar Cems magidasTan fanjris win, romelicodnav gamoRebulia da minda yvelaferi, yvelaferi mogwero.ise miWirs, rogorc didi xania aRar gamWirvebia. mZarcvelebis TavdasxmisSemdegac ki ar vyofilvar Sinaganad da garegnulad ase ganadgurebuli. erTimxriv: memwvanilis dapatimreba, ebraelTa sakiTxi, razedac Cvenebidausruleblad msjeloben, gadmosxmis gaWianureba, cudi sakvebi, daZabuloba,naRvliani ganwyobileba, peterze gulis acrueba, xolo meore mxriv elisdaniSvna, stumrebi, cekvis dRe, yvavilebi, kraleris dabadebis dRe, tortebi dasaubari kinofilmebze, kabareze, koncertebze. yvelaze uaresi swored esSeusabamobaa, es saSineli Seusabamoba; erT dRes CvenSi sicils iwvevsyovelgvari situacia, rac iatakqveS cxovrebas Tan axlavs, meore dRes ki kvlavSiSi gvipyrobs da yvela Cvenganis saxeze SegiZlia amoikiTxo SiSi, daZabulobada sasowarkveTileba. mipsa da kralers Cvens gamo uzarmazari tvirTi awevTmxrebze. mipi bevrs muSaobs, kralers ki iseTi didi pasuxismgebloba akisria,rom zojer veRar uZlebs amden nerviulobas da aRelvebas da laparaki uWirs.koophoisi da elic did mzrunvelobas iCenen Cvens mimarT, magram zogjer,ramdenime saaTiT, an ori-sami dRiT mainc vaviwydebiT. maT TavianTi sazrunaviaqvT: koophoiss — sakuTari janmrTeloba, elis ki — jvariswera, rac arc isedaubrkoleblad mimdinareobs. magram dro da dro maT SeuZliaT Tavi daaRwionsazrunavs, wavidnen stumrad da, saerTod, maTi cxovreba Cveulebrivi gziTmidis. maTi daZabuloba droebiT mainc klebulobs, Cveni ki arasodes. ukve oriwelia, rac ase grZeldeba da ar viciT, ramden xans unda gavuwioT kidevwinaaRmdegoba am yoveldRiurad mzard, autanel wvalebas?

kanalizacia gamognesilia, wylis Casxma ar SeiZleba, an ukiduresSemTxvevaSi wveTwveTobiT; sapirfareSoSi Sesvla ar SeiZleba da Tu Sexval,jagrisi unda waiRo Tan; WuWyian wyals minis did qilaSi vasxamT. jer kidevaraferi, magram ra gveSveleba, Tu ostatma dazianebuli kanalizacia verSeakeTa. Cvens ubanSi kanalizaciis kapitaluri remonti mxolod momaval kvirasdaiwyeba.mipma gamogvigzavna qiSmiSiani funTuSa da aseTi werili: `mxiaruladgagetarebinoT sameba~. amgvari sityvebi dacinva ufroa. aba ra mxiarulebazeSeiZleba laparaki, roca saSineli ganwyobileba gvaqvs da SiSiT varTSepyrobilni. mas Semdeg, rac memwvanile daiWires, Cven isev davSindiT. yovelimxridan ismis: `su, su, su~. da yvela cdilobs siCume daicvas. memwvanilespoliciam kari Seumtvria, amisgan arc Cvena varT dazRveulni. vTqvaT da uecradCvenTanac... ara, ar minda davwero, magram arc is SemiZlia, rom amaze arvifiqro; piriqiT: SiSi, romelic erTxel ganvicade, kvlav dameufla da Cems winmTeli saSinelebiT aRimarTa.guSin saRamos rva saaTze marto Cavedi sapirfareSoSi. dabla aravin iyo,yvela radios usmenda. mindoda simamace gamomeCina, magram Zalian gamiWirda. aqzeviT ufro Tavdajerebuli var, vidre qveviT, did mdumare saxlSi; zevidanmomdinare idumali bgerebi da quCidan SemoWrili manqanebis guguni martodarCenils Tavzarsa mcems. Tu ar avCqardi da Seqmnil mdgomareobaze fiqridaviwye, mTeli sxeuli miTrTis da akviatebuli azri ar mcildeba. ganadamalvasa da amdeni saSinelebis gadatanas sikvdili ar jobda! maSin arc Cvenmfarvelebs CavagdebdiT safrTxeSi, magram amaze fiqric ki gvafrTxobs. jerkidev vebRauWebiT sicocxles, CvenSi jer kidev ar CaxSobila bunebis xma, jerkidev vimedovnebT, imedi gvaqvs, rom momavali ukeTesi iqneba. oRond male,Tundac dagvxvriton, magram male moxdes, rac mosaxdenia. gaurkvevlobaze ufroZneli asatani araferia. dae, damTavrdes yvelaferi, damTavrdes avad an kargad,radgan is mainc gvecodineba, gavimarjveT Tu daviRupeT.anaoTxSabaTi, 31 maisi, 1944Zvirfaso kiwi!SabaTs, kviras, orSabaTs da samSabaTs ise Tbiloda, rom avtokalamsxeli ver movkide da amitomac araferi damiweria. paraskevs isev gafuWdakanalizacia, magram SabaTs SeakeTes. naSuadRevs qalbatoni koophoisi gvestumrada bevri ram gviambo korize, romelic iopisTan erTad hokeis klubis wevrigamxdara. kviras movida eli, unda enaxa, kari isev xom ar SemoumtvreviaTo, daCvenTan isauzma. orSabaTs (meore dRes) TavSesafarSi henk van santenimorigeobda. samSabaTs neba dagvrTes, cotaTi mainc gamogveRo fanjara. aseTiSesaniSnavi, Tbili, SeiZleba iTqvas, cxeli sameba iSviaTia, magram aqTavSesafarSi sicxe saSinelebaa da warmodgena rom Segeqmnes, mokled agiwer imcxel dReebs.SabaTi: — ra SesaniSnavi, ra didebuli amindia, — Tqva yvelam diliT. —ra iqneba, rom ase ar cxelodes, — amboben dRisiT, roca fanjrebis daxurvisdroa.kvira: autaneli sicxea, karaqi dneba. mTel saxlSi gril kuTxes veripovi. puri xmeba, rZe iWreba, fanjris gaReba ar SeiZleba. sxvebi gareTdaseirnoben. Cven ki, sabralo gankicxulni, vsxedvarT aq da vixrCobiT.orSabaTi — fexebi mtkiva, sazafxulo Casacmeli ara maqvs, ar SemiZliaaseT sicxeSi WurWlis recxva! — ambobs qalbatoni van daani. marTlac,gagviWirda. sicxes verc me vitan advilad da mixaria, rom dRes qaric uberavsda mzec anaTebs.anaorSabaTi, 5 ivnisi, 1944Zvirfaso kiwi!

Cvens TavSesafarSi axali usiamovneba Camovarda. duseli gvemduris.mizezi sruliad umniSvneloa: karaqis ganawileba. duseli dagvnebda. misi daqalbaton van daanis urRvevi megobroba aRdga. isev pirze kocna, sandomianiRimili, arSiyoba. duseli gazafxulis cieb-cxelebam aitana.mexuTe armiam romi aiRo. qalaqi ar ganadgurebula. ar daubombavT.gvaklia bostneuli da kartofili. amindi cudia. didxans dauzogavadbombavdnen pa-de-kales da safrangeTis mTel sanapiros.anasamSabaTi, 6 ivnisi, 1944Zvirfaso kiwi!`This is D.—day~ 1 , gamoacxada inglisis radiom 12 saaTze da marTalic Tqva!This is the day 2 . jarebis gadmosxma daiwyo diliT rva saaTze. ingliselebmagadmosces: Cvenma TviTmfrinavebma Zlier dabombes kale, buloni, havri, Serburida rogorc yovelTvis pa-de-kale. Semdeg ki mTeli mosaxleobisgasafrTxileblad gamoacxades — okupirebuli raionebis yvela mcxovrebi undaelodes dabombvas sanapirodan 35 kilometris manZilze. Tu SesaZleblobamiecemaT, ingliselebi erTi saaTiT adre Camoyrian gamafrTxilebel furclebs.germanelTa cnobebis Tanaxmad, safrangeTis sanapiroze ingliseliparaSutistebi daeSvnen. bi-bi-sis cnobiT germanelebis samxedro-sazRvao jarebiingliselebis sadesanto jarebs ebrZvian.diliT 9 saaTze TavSesafarSi aseTi diskusia gaimarTa: iqneb sacdelidesantia, rogorc es ori wlis winaT deepTan moxda?aT saaTze daiwyo inglisis radiogadacema germanul, holandiur,frangul da sxva enebze: `The invasion has degun!~ 1 . ( 1 SemoWra daiwyo (ingl.).)ase rom, namdvilad SemoiWrnen! Tormet saaTze inglisis radiogadacemagermanul enaze: sityviT gamovida mTavarsardali generali duait eizenhaueri.12 saaTze inglisis radiogadacema inglisur enaze: `This is D.—day~. generalieizenhaueri mimarTavs frang xalxs:`Stiff fighting will come now, but after this the victory. The year 1944 is the year of completevictory, good luck!~. 2 ( 2 Cven sastiki brZola mogvelis, magram win gvidevsgamarjveba. 1944 weli — sruli gamarjvebis welia! (ingl.).)inglisis radiogadacema pirvel saaTze: 11 aTasi TviTmfrinaviSeusvenebliv haerSia, gadahyavT jarebi, bombaven zurgs. 4000 sadesanto damcire moculobis sazRvao gemebs ganuwyvetliv gadahyavT jarebi da gadaaqvTxmeleTze saomari masala Serbursa da havrs Sors, inglisisa da amerikisjarebi ukve Caebnen sastik brZolaSi. sityva warmoTqves gerbrandim, belgiispremier ministrma, norvegiis mefem da, ra Tqma unda, CerCilma.TavSesafarSi dabneulobaa. nuTu marTla axlovdeba didi xnis nanatriTavisufleba, Tavisufleba, romelzedac amdens vlaparakobdiT. yovelive esimdenad didebuli, imdenad zRaprulia, rom ara mjera, Tu odesme sinamdvilediqceva. mogvitans ki gamarjvebas 1944 weli? Cven jer ar viciT es, magram imediTvsuldgmulobT, Zala da mxneoba gvemateba. diax, Cven vaJkacurad undadavZlioT SiSi, gaWirveba, mwuxareba. axla umTavresia simSvide da simtkice. romar ayvirde, ufro magrad unda Seikra kriWa. tkivilisagan SeiZleba ayvirdessafrangeTi, ruseTi, italia, germaniac ki, magram Cven ara gvaqvs amis ufleba.o, kiwi, ra kargia, roca grZnob, rom megobrebi giaxlovdebian! amsaSinelma germanelebma imden xans gvawvales, imden xans eWiraT dana CvensyelTan, rom megobrebze da gadarCenaze fiqric ki rwmenas gvinergavs! axlamarto Cvenze, ebraelebze rodia laparaki, axla laparakoben holandiaze, mTelevropaze. iqneb seqtemberSi an oqtomberSi isev wavide skolaSi, ambobs margo!P. S. ukanasknel cnobebs dauyovnebliv gadmogcem:Rame da gaTenebisas germanelTa zurgSi Tivisagan gakeTebuli fitulebida manekenebi CauSves, romlebic miwis SexebisTanave feTqdebodnen. daeSvnenparaSutistebic. isini Savad iyvnen SeniRbulni, raTa RamiT ar SeemCniaT. diliT,

mas Semdeg, rac miwaze 5 milioni kilogrami yumbara Camoyares, daiwyo desantisgadmosxma. dRes brZolaSi monawileobs 20.000 TviTmfrinavi. sanam desantisgadmosxma daiwyeboda, germanelebis yvela sanapiro batarea mwyobridangamoiyvanes. Seiqmna momcro placdarmi. Tumca cudi amindia, magram maincyvelaferi kargad midis. armiac, xalxic — `one will and one hope~ 1 -iTaa ( 1 erTisurviliT, erTi imediT (ingl.).) gamsWvaluli.anaparaskevi, 9 ivnisi, 1944Zvirfaso kiwi!jarebis gadmosxma brwyinvaled mimdinareobs! mokavSireebma daikaves baio,sofeli safrangeTis sanapiroze. axla kaienisaTvis ibrZvian. amocana naTelia,— mosWran naxevarkunZuli, romelzedac Serburia gaSenebuli. samxedromimomxilvelebi yovel saRamos gviyvebian, Tu ra siZneleebs awydebian jarebi,da ra zRaprul gambedaobasa da simamaces iCenen aRfrTovanebuli jariskacebi.radioTi inglisSi dabrunebulma daWrilebmac ilaparakes. miuxedavad cudiamindisa, sahaero Tavdasxma grZeldeba. bi-bi-sim gadmosca, rom Turme CerCilsacsurda jarebTan erTad monawileoba mieRo desantis gadmosxmaSi, magrameizenhauerisa da sxva generlebis rCeva yurad iRo da inglisSi darCa. xedav, ramamaci berikacia, axla albaT samocdaaT welsaa gadacilebuli!Cven cota davmSviddiT, vimedovnebT, rom omi am wlis damlevamdedamTavrdeba. droc aris!qalbatoni van daanis metiCroba autanelia. radgan jarebis gadmosxmazelaparakiT aRar SeuZlia tvini gviRrZos, axla cudi amindis gamo gviwyalebsguls. minda, Tavi civi wyliT savse vedroSi Cavayofino.garda van daanisa da peterisa, yvelam waikiTxa `ungruli rafsodia~,kompozitorisa da virtuozis franc listis biografia. wigni Zalzesainteresoa, magram me mgonia, avtori bevrs laparakobs qalebze. listi Tavisdroze ara marto didi da saxelganTqmuli pianisti iyo, aramed 70 wlamdeqalebis didi madevaric. hyvarebia mari dagu, Tavadis qali karolinavitgenSteini, mocekvave lola montesi, pianisti agnes kingvorsi, sofia monteri,Cerqezi Tavadis qali olga ianina. baronesa olga meiendorfi, msaxiobi lila...gvari damaviwyda da a. S. da a. S. bolo ar uCans! magram wignis is adgilebi,romlebSic musikasa da xelovnebazea laparaki, meti interesiT ikiTxeba. vinaraa moxsenebuli: Sumani, klara viki, heqtor berliozi, iohanes bramsi,beThoveni, ioaximi, rixard vagneri, hans fon biulovi, anton rubinSteini,frederik Sopeni, viqtor hiugo, onore de balzaki, kileri, humeli, Cerni,rosini, kerubini, paganini, mendelsoni da sxva mravali.listi kargi kaci iyo. Zalian didsulovani, Tavmdabali, magram saSinladamayi. exmareboda yvelas, yvelaferze maRla ayenebda xelovnebas,Tavdaviwyebamde uyvarda qalebi da koniaki, ver itanda cremlebs. erTi sityviT,namdvili jentlmeni iyo. uariT aravin gaustumrebia, arafrad agdebda fuls,uyvarda maRali sazogadoeba da religiis Tavisuflebas aRiarebda.anasamSabaTi, 13 ivnisi, 1944Zvirfaso kiwi!Cemi dabadebis dRe ukan darCa. TxuTmetis gavxdi. sakmaod bevri rammaCuqes: Springeris xelovnebis istoriis TxuTmettomeuli, sacvlebisgarnituri, ori sartyeli, erTi cxvirsaxoci, ori boTli kefiri, erTi qilajemi, namcxvrebi, dedam da mamam botanikis saxelmZRvanelo momarTves, margom —oqros samajuri, van daanebma kidev erTi wigni, duselma biomalci, mipma daelim rveulebi da tkbileuloba, kralerma wigni `maria-tereza~ da sami naWerinamdvili yveli. peterma vardebis SesaniSnavi Taiguli. sawyali biWi, bevriecada, rame eSova CemTvis, magram veraferi moaxerxa.

miuxedavad saSineli amindisa, jarebis gadmosxma brwyinvaled midis, zRvaZlier Relavs da kokispirulad wvims.CerCili, smetsi, eizenhaueri da arnoldi guSin ingliselebisaganganTavisuflebul frangul sofels ewvivnen. CerCili Camosula satorpedokateriT, romlisTvisac napiridan cecxli dauSeniaT. am kacma, iseve rogorcbevrma mamakacma, sruliad ar icis, ra aris SiSi. o, rogor mSurs!Cveni TavSesafridan verc dainaxav da verc mixvdebi, Tu ra ganwyobilebaaholandiaSi. cxadia, xalxi gaxarebulia, rom `arafris maqnisi~ (!) inglisibolos amoqmedda. erTi magrad unda SeanjRrio yvela, vinc ingliselebszemodan dahyurebs, lanZRavs ingliss, agdebiT ixseniebs mis mTavrobas,ingliselebs mxdalebs uwodebs da amave dros germanelebi sZuls. iqneb maSinmaTi areuli tvini isev dalagdes!anaoTxSabaTi, 14 ivnisi, 1944Zvirfaso kiwi!imdeni survili, azri, braldeba da sayveduri mitrialebs TavSi, romyvelaferi erTmaneTSi airia. kiwi, me marTla arc ise didi warmodgena maqvsCems Tavze, rogorc sxvebs hgonia. me sxvebze ukeT vici, rom uamravi nakli maqvsda usaqcielo var, magram gansxvaveba isaa, rom minda gamovsworde,gamovswordebi kidec, ukve sagrZnoblad gamovswordi. xSirad vekiTxebi CemsTavs: ratom hgoniaT sxvebs, rom didi warmodgena maqvs Cems Tavze, ratommTvlian mouridebel adamianad? nuTu marTlac didi warmodgenisa var CemsTavze? iqneb TviTon arian aseTebi? raRac meSleba, magram am winadadebas maincar amovSli, radgan arc ise areulia, qalbaton van daans, Cems mTavarbralmdebels, yvela icnobs, rogorc uWkuos, pirdapir rom vTqva, rogorcsulels; xolo suleli adamianebi ver ineleben, roca vinme maTze ukeT akeTebsrames.qalbatoni van daani mxolod imitom mTvlis sulelad, rom masaviT Steriara var, imitom meZaxis mouridebels, rom TviTonac utifaria. Cems kabebzeambobs, mokleao, TviTon ki ufro mokle acvia. me Tavdajerebulad mTvlis,TviTon ki mudam eCreba saubarSi da iseT Temebze msjelobs, razedacwarmodgena ara aqvs. erT-erTi Cemi sayvareli andaza aseTia: `yoveli sayvedurinawilobriv simarTlesac Seicavs~. amitom winaswar vacxadeb, rom zogjermarTlac var zedmetad Tavdajerebuli. erTi ubedureba mWirs, Cems Tavs sxvebzemetad me TviTon vakritikeb da vesayvedurebi. yovelive amas xSirad dedisnotaciebic emateba da imdeni qadageba mesmis, rom mgoni, amden Segonebasverasodes davaRwev Tavs. amitom uxeSi da ukmexi vxdebi da uneburad veWidebi`anes~ Zvel sayvarel frazas: `Cemi aravis esmis~. es sityvebi gamjdaria CemSi daSeiZleba umarTebulo geCvenos, magram amaSi simarTlis raRac nawili maincaris. zogjer sakuTari Tavis gmoba iqamde midis, rom manugeSebeli xmamWirdeba, romelic yvelafers aRadgens da Cems sulier samyaros Caswvdeba;samwuxarod, bevri veZebe, magram aseTi adamiani jer ver mipovnia. vici, kiwi, romSen am wuTSi peterze fiqrob! marTalia, mas vuyvarvar, magram ara rogorcsatrfo, aramed rogorc megobari. dRiTi dRe sul ufro meCveva, magram arisCvens Soris raRac idumali, CemTvis gaugebari, romelic orives gvabrkolebs.zogjer mgonia, misi naxvis survils vazviadeb da arc ise menatreba, magramsakmarisia, ori dRe ar vnaxo da ise gamiwevs guli misken, rogorc manamdearasodes. peteri SesaniSnavi sayvareli ymawvilia, magram mainc unda vTqva, rombevri ram masze guls micruebs. uwinares yovlisa, rom belgias mTlianadganudga, meorec, misi laparaki Wamaze da sxva wvrilmanze sruliad ar momwons,magram me mtkiced var darwmunebuli, rom pirobas SevasrulebT da arasodes arviCxubebT. peteri gulkeTili, Tavaziani da damTmobia. igi gacilebiT metSeniSvnas itans Cemgan, vidre dedisagan. mondomebiT cdilobs wesrigi daamyarosTavis ojaxSi. magram ratom aris Caketili sakuTar naWuWSi, ratom ar maZlevsuflebas Sevexo misi sulis simebs? marTalia, igi Cemze gulCaTxrobilia,

magram me sakuTari gamocdilebiT vici, rom yvelaze gulCaTxrobiladamianebsac ki zogjer enatrebaT gulis mesaidumle. me da peterma wlebiTavSesafarSi gavatareT da aq miveCvieT fiqrs. xSirad vlaparakobdiTwarsulze, awmyoze, momavalze, magram, rogorc giTxari, namdvili grZnobamaklia da amave dros isic danamdvilebiT vici, aseTi grZnoba arsebobs.anaxuTSabaTi, 15 ivnisi, 1944Zvirfaso kiwi!iqneb imitom vgrZnob ase Zlier bunebas, rom amdeni xania, karSi cxviri argamiyvia? me SesaniSnavad maxsovs, rom adre CemSi did aRtacebas arc Citebisgaloba iwvevda, arc gaSlili yvavilebi, arc sxivmfeni lurji ca da arcmTvaris Suqi. axla yvelaferi Seicvala. magaliTad, samebas, roca Tbiliamindebi idga, didi gaWirvebiT vikavebdi Tavs, rom ar damZineboda da Tormetisnaxevramde martos mecqira fanjridan mTvarisaTvis. samwuxarod, Cemi msxverpliamao aRmoCnda, radgan mTvare ise kaSkaSebda, rom fanjris gamoReba ver gavbede.meore ambavi ramdenime Tvis winaT moxda. SemTxveviT zeviT avedi da fanjaraRia damxvda. sanam oTaxs aniavebdnen, Zirs aRar Camovsulvar. bnelma, wvimianmasaRamom, qariSxalma da caze mocurave Rrublebma saSineli ZaliT gamitaca,damipyro. wlinaxevris Semdeg pirvelad videqi RamesTan pirispir. im dRidanyovelive amis kidev erTxel gancdis survili ufro didi iyo CemSi, vidrevirTxebiT, qurdebiTa da TavdasxmebiT gamowveuli SiSi. me marto Cavdiodidabla da kontoris an samzareulos fanjridan gareT viyurebodi. bevrs uyvarsbuneba, bevrs Ria cis qveS sZinavs, patimrebi da avadmyofebi cixeebsa dasaavadmyofoebSi, ocneboben im dReze, roca gareT gavlen, datkbebian bunebiscqeriT, magram cota vinmea CvensaviT Caketili sakuTar mwuxarebasTan erTad,ase mowyvetili da izolirebuli yovelive imisagan, rac erTnairad ekuTvnismdidrebsac da Raribebsac. ar gegonos es mxolod warmodgenaa, ara, me marTlacmamSvidebs cis, Rrublebis mTvarisa da varskvlavebis cqera. es bromze davalerianis wveTebze ukeT moqmedebs, buneba maswavlis morCilebas, maCvevs,medgrad Sevegebo bedis ukuRmarTobas.samwuxarod, mtvriani, fardebCamofarebuli WuWyiani fanjrebidan undavuyuro bunebas da isic mxolod gamonaklis SemTxvevaSi. xolo fanjrebidanyureba araviTar siamovnebas ar maniWebs, radgan buneba erTaderTia danamdvilad ver itans veraviTar surogatebs.anaparaskevi, 16 ivnisi, 1944Zvirfaso kiwi!axali problemebi wamoiWra! qalbatoni van daani sasowarkveTilia,mxolod SublSi tyviis daxlaze, sapyrobileze, CamoxrCobasa daTviTmkvlelobaze laparakobs. eWvianobs peterze, imis gamo, rom me ufromendoba, vidre mas. gamwyralia duselze, radgan mis keklucobas yuradRebas araqcevs. eSinia, misma qmarma bewvis qurqSi aRebuli fuli mTlianad argaflangos. Cxubobs, ilanZReba, tiris, wuwunebs, icinis, Semdeg ki isev Cxubobs.aba, ras mouxerxeb aseT sulelsa da mtiralas? aravin ar aqcevs yuradRebas!araviTari Tavmoyvareoba ar gaaCnia: yvelas Tavs abralebs, aqeT-iqiT darbis, —RmerTma icis, ra acvia. yvelaferze cudi isaa, rom amis gamo peteri uxeSixdeba, van daani Riziandeba, dedas ki yvela ezizReba. SesaniSnavi garemocvaa,ara! amgvar SemTxvevaSi kargad unda gaxsovdes erTi ram: yvelaferze icine danuravis gauwev angariSs! marTalia, egoisturad JRers, magram esaa erTaderTigamosavali, im adamianisaTvis, vinc TviTon unda inugeSos Tavi.kralers isev mouvida uwyeba, oTxi kvira unda amuSaon. cdilobs eqimismowmobiT da firmis weriliT Tavi gaiTavisuflos. koophoisma kuWis operaciaunda gaikeTos. guSin 11 saaTze yvela kerZo telefoni gamorTes.ana

paraskevi, 23 ivnisi, 1944Zvirfaso kiwi!gansakuTrebuli araferi momxdara, ingliselebi Serburgs uteven. pimisada van daanis azriT, 10 oqtombers ukve Tavisuflebi viqnebiT! am operaciaSirusebic monawileoben. guSin vitebskis mimarTulebiT daiwyes Seteva. sami wliswin swored am dRes germanelebi Tavs daesxnen am qalaqs.kartofili TiTqmis aRar dagvrCa, vapirebT, gadavTvaloT da yvelasTavisi wili davurigoT. yvelam ise gaitanos Tavi, rogorc SeuZlia.anasamSabaTi, 27 ivnisi, 1944Zvirfaso kiwi!ganwyobileba didebulia, yvelaferi SesaniSnavad midis. dRes Serburgi,vitebski da Jlobini aiRes, tyve da nadavli bevria. SerburgTan xuTi germaneligenerali mokles, ori ki tyved Caigdes. axla ingliselebs navsadguri aqvT dayvelaferi SeuZliaT gadazidon xmeleTze, rac ki sWirdebaT. erTi kvirisganmavlobaSi naxevarkunZuli kotanteni mTlianad ingliselebis xelSi gadavida— didi gamarjvebaa! jarebis gadmosxmis Semdeg, am sami kviris ganmavlobaSi,rogorc aq, iseve safrangeTSi yoveldRe wvimda da qariSxali boboqrobda,magram cudma amindma ver daabrkola ingliselebi da amerikelebi gaeSalaTTavianTi Zalebi da mere rogor! marTalia WUWA-s, (Wunderwaffe) 1 , ( 1 aseuwodeben mfrinav yumbaras (germ.).) germanelTa am saswaulebriv iaraRs, yvelganiyeneben, magram aseT raketebs axla inglisisTvis mxolod umniSvnelo zianimoaqvs, `mofebis~ gazeTebisTvis ki Tavsayreli masala. jer sad arian, ufrometad aukankaldebaT muxlebi, roca TavianTi `mofriki~ SeatyobinebT, rom`bolSevikuri safrTxe~ marTlac axloa.yvela germaneli qali da bavSvi, vinc TavdacviT samuSaoebze argamodgeba, sanapiro raionebidan gahyavT groningenSi, frislandiasa dagerdellandiaSi. musertma 2 ( 2 holandiis nacionalur-socialisturi moZraobisxelmZRvaneli.) ganacxada: Tu aqac SemoiWrnen, samxedro formas Cavicvamo.aqamdec SeeZlo wasuliyo ruseTis frontze! fineTma Tavis droze uari TqvaSeTavazebul zavze da molaparakeba axlac CaiSala. ra sulelebi arian, mereinaneben!rogor fiqrob, ras mogvitans 27 ivlisi?anaparaskevi, 30 ivnisi, 1944Zvirfaso kiwi!amindi cudia, anu: bad weather at a stretch to the 30-th of Juno 3 . ( 3 30 ivnisamde cudiamindia (ingl.).) sworia ara? o, me ukve sakmaod kargad vici inglisuri.magaliTad, vkiTxulob `An udeal Husbend~ 4 ( 4 `idealuri qmari~) (leqsikonisdaxmarebiT). saomari operaciebi brwyinvaled mimdinareobs! aiRes bobruiski,mogilevi, orSa, uamravi tyve Caigdes xelT. CvenTan yvelaferi ol rait,ganwyobilebac ki. Cveni hiperoptimistebi zeimoben. eli Tmas sxvanairadivarcxnis, mipma erTi kviris Svebuleba aiRo. axali sxva araferia.anaxuTSabaTi, 6 ivlisi, 1944Zvirfaso kiwi!guli mikvdeba, roca peteri ambobs, rodisme an borotmoqmedi gavxdebi,anda spekulantio. marTalia, amas xumrobiT ambobs, magram iseTi grZnoba maqvs,rom mas TviTon eSinia sakuTari unebisyofobis. waramara mesmis xan margosagan,xan ki peterisagan: `me rom iseTi Zlieri da gabeduli viyo, rogorc Sen, me romiseTive daJinebiT SemeZlos gavitano Cemi, rogorc Sen, me rom SensaviT amtaniviyo, eh, maSin...!~.

nuTu marTla sanaqebo Tvisebaa rom sxvisi gavlenis qveS ar veqcevi? ganasworia, rom mxolod Cemi sindisis karnaxs vemorCilebi? marTali giTxra, vercki warmomidgenia, rogor SeiZleba kacma Tqvas: `me susti var~ da mainc sustidarCes. ki magram, Tu kacma icis, rom sustia, ratom ar ebrZvis sisustes, ratomar cdilobs nebisyofa gamoiwrTos? peterma mipasuxa: `ase bevrad ufroadvilia~. amgvarma pasuxma, cota ar iyos, damanaRvliana. advili! gana uqnaroba,mudam sakuTari Tavis motyueba, advilia? o, ara, ar SeiZleba ase iyos, marTaliaraa, ar SeiZleba, rom sizarmacem da... fulma ase swrafad garyvnas adamiani.me didxans vfiqrobdi, ra pasuxi gameca, rogor STamenerga peterisaTvissakuTari Tavisadmi rwmena da, rac mTavaria, gamomesworebina. ar vici, SevZlebTu ara amas.xSirad miocnebia, ra kargi iqneboda vinme rom bolomde gulaxdiliyofiliyo CemTan, magram mxolod axla mivxvdi, ra Znelia bolomde Cawvdevinmes da amave dros rame urCio, miT umetes, roca cnebebi `fuli~ da `advili~CemTvis sruliad ucxo da axalia. peteri ukve cdilobs me dameyrdnos, magrames araviTar SemTxvevaSi ar unda moxdes. iseT adamianebs, rogoric peteria,sakuTar fexebze dgoma uWirT, xolo Tu Segnebulad cxovroben, kidev ufrouZneldebaT gzis gakvleva auracxel problemebs Soris. me axla ratomRac erTadgilas vtrialeb. guliT ki minda Cavwvde am sazizRari cnebis Sinaarss —`advilia~. rogor gavagebino peters, rom rac axla advili da mSvenieri Cans,mas iseT ufskrulSi CaiTrevs, sadac arc megobrebia, arc silamaze, arcsayrdeni da saidanac verasodes veRar amoxval.Cven yvelani vcxovrobT am qveyanaze, magram ar viciT, ratom da risTvis.vcxovrobT im mizniT, rom bednierni viyoT, vcxovrobT sxvadasxvanairad damainc erTnairad. Cven samni karg pirobebSi gavizardeT, SegviZlia viswavloT,mivaRwieT raRacas, samives gvaqvs safuZveli, ukeTesi cxovrebis imedi viqonioT,magram... amis ufleba Cven TviTonve unda movipovoT; es ki arc ise advili daioli mosaxerxebelia. bednierebis mosapoveblad Sroma da sikeTisaken swrafvaasaWiro da ara spekulantoba da sizarmace. es SeiZleba sasiamovno geCvenebodes,magram kmayofilebas mxolod Sroma ganiWebs.me ar mesmis im xalxis, romelTac Sroma ar uyvarT, magram peteri arcaseTia. mas ubralod garkveuli mizani ara aqvs. Tavs sulel adamianad,araraobad Tvlis da ar hgonia, rom rames miaRwevs. sabralo biWi, misTvisucnobia is sixaruli, rasac sxvisi gabedniereba iwvevs, magram me amas vervaswavli. mas araferi swams. RimiliT laparakobs qristeze, gmobs RmerTs.marTalia, didi orTodoqsi arc me var, magram guli mtkiva, roca vxedav, ramartosuli, urwmuno da Ratakia.adamianebs, romelTac religia aqvT, unda uxarodeT, radgan yvelas rodiaqvs unari iwamos zebunebrivi Zala. adamians ar unda aSinebdes sikvdilisSemdeg sasjeli. salxinebeli, samoTxe da jojoxeTi iseTi cnebebia, romelTaarsebobaSi bevrs epareba eWvi, magram miuxedavad amisa, esa Tu is religia, sulerTia romeli, WeSmariti gzidan acdenis saSualebas ar aZlevs adamians.umTavresi aq RvTis winaSe SiSi ki araa, aramed is, rom ar dasce sakuTariRirseba da sindisi. ra kargi iqneboda, yvela adamiani dawolis wingaixsenebdes, rac mTeli dRis ganmavlobaSi moimoqmeda da awon-dawonides, raiyo kargi da ra cudi!Tavisda uneburad ecdebodnen dRiTi dRe ukeTesni gamxdariyvnen. amsaSualebis gamoyeneba yvelas SeuZlia, radgan araferi Rirs da yvelasaTvisxelmisawvdomia. xolo vinc ar icis, unda icodes, rom `sufTa sindisi adamiansZalas matebs!~anaSabaTi, 8 ivlisi, 1944Zvirfaso kiwi!firmis mTavari warmomadgeneli, batoni b. bevervikSi iyo da xendroiSova. Camoitana daaxloebiT ocdaoTxi yuTi rogorc CvenTvis, aseve mTeli

kontorisaTvis, xendro sul dasvrili iyo da qviSiT avsebuli. Cven maSinvedavakonserveT rva qila da Svidi qila jemi movxarSeT. mipi xval mTelikontorisaTvis jems moxarSavs.pirvelis naxevarze saxlSi ucxo aRaravin iyo: quCis kari daketes dayuTebi amoitanes. peteri, mama da van daani kibeze daaboteben. anes moaqvs Tbiliwyali titanidan, margo vedroebs moaTrevs, erTi sityviT, yvela saqmianobs.roca dabla, kontoris samzareuloSi Cavedi, mucelSi TiTqos raRaca Camwyda.mipi, eli, koophoisi, henki, mama, peteri — erTi sityviT, yvelas aq moeyara Tavi,ltolvilebsac da maT mfarvelebsac, da isic dRisiT-mzisiT.quCidan veravin dagvinaxavda, radgan fanjrebze fardebia Camofarebuli,magram roca xmamaRali laparaki da karebis jaxuni mesmoda, vkankalebdi. nuTuisev vimalebiT, vkiTxe Cems Tavs. albaT, aseTi grZnoba aqvs adamians, rocakvlav dRis sinaTleze gamodis. qvabi gaivso, aba Cqara, zeviT, ojaxis danarCeniwevrebi Cvens samzareuloSi idgnen magidasTan da xendros recxavdnen. ufromets pirSi iyridnen, vidre vedroSi. dagvWirda kidev erTi vedro da peteri isevqveda samzareuloSi Cavida. uecrad viRacam orjer dareka. peterma vedro dabladadga. da mbrunavi karis dasaxurad zeviT amovarda. mouTmenlad vcqmutavdiTadgilze, radgan naxevrad garecxili xendro banaobas eloda, Cven ki onkanidavketeT; mudam mtkiced vicavT Sinaganawess: `Tu saxlSi ucxo piria, onkanidakete, wylis xmauri saxifaToa~. pirvel saaTze movida henki da gviTxra,fostalionma darekao. peteri imwamsve Cavarda qveviT. wkrr, dareka zarma.marjvnisaken, zurgisaken! me jer mbrunav karTan gavCerdi, vinme xom ar modismeTqi,mere ki Cumad avedi zeviT. bolos me da peteri qurdebiviT gavisuseTmoajirTan da yurs vugdebdiT xmaurs, romelic qvevidan modioda. araviTariucxo xma. peteri Cumad Cadis kibeze, da naxevar gzaze gaCerebuli iZaxis: `eli~!pasuxi ar ismis. kidev erTxel: `eli~! magram samzareuloSi iseTi xmauria, rompeteris xma ikargeba. bolos igi samzareuloSi Cadis, me ki daZabuli vdgavarkibeze da qveviT vicqirebi.`peter, aba Cqara adi zeviT, revizori movida~, mesmis koophoisis xma.peteri oxvriT emorCileba. mbrunavi kari iketeba. oris naxevarze CvenTan amodiskraleri. o, RmerTo Cemo, yvelgan xendroa. sauzmeze xendro, henki Wams xendros,koophoisi pirs itkbarunebs xendroTi, mipi xarSavs xendros, yvelgan xendrossunia. aRar SemiZlia xendros danaxva. avdivar zeviT, magram o, RmerTo, aqacxendros recxaven.xendros narCenebs akonserveben. saRamos ori qila ukve agviduRda. mamasaswrafod xarSavs marmelads. meore diliT — kidev ori qila, dRisiT —oTxi. damnaSavea van daani, radgan qilebs sterilizacia aklia. mama yovelsaRamos xarSavs marmelads. vWamT xendroian fafas, dos, purs, desertzexendro, xendro SaqriT, Saqris fxvniliT. ori dRis ganmavlobaSi yvelganTvalSi mxvdeboda xendro, xendro, xendro... bolos maragi amoiwura, magramcxra qila kidev dgas cxraklitulSi.— gesmis, ane, — miyviris margo, — memwvanilem, romelic aqve kuTxeSivaWrobs, 19 girvanqa cercvi gamogvigzavna! — ra kargi kaci yofila, — vTqvi me.es marTlac kargia, magram muSaoba... oh!— SabaTs dilidanve cercvis garCevaSi momexmarebiT, — ganacxada dedamsadilze. da marTlac, am dilis sauzmis Semdeg, magidaze cercviT savsemominanqrebuli didi Tasi gaCnda. cercvis garCeva Zalze mosawyenia, magram abagausinje gemo cercvis Wots. bevrma ar icis, ra gemrielia Woti, gansakuTrebiTroca Txel kans Semoacli. aqvs kidev erTi didi upiratesoba, SegiZlia cercvzesamjer meti SeWamo. magram `kanis Semocla~ Zalze mosawyeni da sakirkitosamuSaoa. SeiZleba iseTi pedantebisaTvis, rogoric kbilis eqimebi da kontoriswvrilfexa muSakebi arian, amgvari samuSao Sesaferisia, magram CemisTanamozardi, daudegari gogonasaTvis namdvili wamebaa. daviwyeT aTis naxevarze,TerTmetis naxevarze Sevisvene. erTi saaTis Semdeg ki kvlav Sevudeqi muSaobas.sxva rom araferi, yurebi miwivis: yunwi motexe, kani fxianad gaaZre, garCeuli

cercvi TasSi Caagde da ase Semdeg! Tvalebi amiWrelda, yvelgan mwvane, mwvaneWotebi, kanebi, dampali cercvi, yvelaferi mwvanea.gamovSterdi, magram raRaca rom vakeTo, mTeli dRe yovelgvar sisulelesvroSav, yvelas vacineb da amave dros iseTi grZnoba maqvs, TiTqos mowyenilobabolos momiRebs. yovelTvis rogorc ki cercvis kanis gaZrobas viwyeb, sulufro vrwmundebi, rom arasodes, arasodes viqnebi marto diasaxlisi!bolos 11 saaTze vsauzmobT, magram pirvelis naxevridan oris TxuTmetwuTamde muSaoba unda ganvagrZoT. axla ukve guli mereva, TiTqos zRvam mawyina,da ara marto me, yvelas. mZinavs oTxamde, magram Zilis Semdegac ver movsulvargons am sazizRari cercvisagan.anaSabaTi, 15 ivlisi, 1944Zvirfaso kiwi!xelSi Cagvivarda biblioTekis wigni cnobismoyvareobis aRmZvrelisaTauriT: `ras fiqrobT Tanamedrove axalgazrda qaliSvilebze?~ minda dRes amTemaze gesaubro. wignis avtori qalia. `Cveni drois axalgazrdobas~ Tavidanfexebamde akritikebs, magram mTlianad ar uaryofs da arc im daskvnamde midis,rom `arafris maqnisni arian~. piriqiT, igi im azrisaa, rom Tu axalgazrdobamoindomebs, SeuZlia axali, didi da mSvenieri samyaro Seqmnas. mas saamisodyvela monacemi aqvs, magram zerele ambebiTaa garTuli da cxovrebis WeSmaritsilamazes yuradRebas ar aqcevs. me mgonia, calkeuli adgilebi piradad memexeba. da amitom vecdebi bolomde gadagiSalo Cemi Sinagani samyaro da davicvaTavi amgvari sayvedurebisagan.Cemi xasiaTis erT-erTi ZiriTadi Tviseba, rasac yvela Cemi nacnobi amCnevs— TviTkritikaa. Cems saqciels gverdidan vuyureb, TiTqos Cem win ucxoadamiani dgas. yovelgvari mikerZoebis, yovelgvari mogonili Tavis marTlebisgareSe vdgavar am meore anes pirispir da vakvirdebi, kargad iqceva Tu cudad.TviTdakvirveba arasdros ar mwyindeba da sakmarisia raime vTqva, rom imwamsvevfiqrob: `ara, ase ar unda yofiliyo~, anda `ase jobia, ase ufro sworia!~xSirad me Cems Tavs bevr rameSi vamtyuneb da ufro da ufro vrwmundebi, ramarTalia mama, rodesac ambobs: `yovelma bavSvma TviTon unda aRzardossakuTari Tavi~. sxvebs SeuZliaT mxolod rCeva an miTiTeba miscen, magramTavisi xasiaTi adamianma TviTon, sakuTari xeliT unda Camoayalibos. amavedros me vgrZnob, rom bevri energia maqvs, Zlieri, Tavisufali, axalgazrda varda ase mgonia, yvelafris gakeTeba SemiZlia. roca yovelive es pirveladvigrZeni, gamexarda, da ara mgonia, bedis ukuRmarTobam, romelic yvelam undagamoscados, advilad gamtexos, Tumca amaze adrec bevri milaparakia SenTan.axla vayeneb mTavar Teziss: `dedas da mamas Cemi ar esmiT~. mSoblebi Zalianmanebivrebdnen, kargad mepyrobodnen, micavdnen, erTi sityviT, akeTebdnenyvelafers, risi gakeTebac SeeZloT. miuxedavad amisa, didxans vgrZnobdisaSinel martoobas. vfiqrobdi, yvelam mimatova, Cemi aravis esmis. mamayovelnairad cdilobda daewynarebina Cemi mborgavi suli, magram unayofod.bolos me TviTon ganvkurne sakuTar Tavi imiT, rom Cemi saqcielisa dazraxvebis sapirispiro mxare davinaxe. rogor moxda, rom mamam veraviTariSemweoba ver aRmomiCina brZolaSi? ratom aRmoCnda uZluri dasaxmarebladgamowvdili xeli? imitom, rom mamam swori gza ver monaxa, mudam isemelaparakeboda, rogorc bavSvs, romelsac mxolod Tavisi bavSvuri dardiawuxebs. es sityvebi ucnaurad JRers, radgan swored mama iyo yvelazegulaxdili CemTan, swored man Caminerga rwmena, rom me sakmaod bevri mesmis,magram erTi ram mas mainc gamorCa mxedvelobidan: ar ufiqria imaze, rom CemTvisyvelaze mniSvnelovani Cemi brZolaa, brZola imisaTvis, rom zedapirzeamovtivtivebuliyavi. ar SemeZlo aseTi gamoTqmebis gagoneba: `tipurimovlenebi... sxva gogoebi... cxadia, gaivlis~... da ase Semdeg. ar mindodamompyrobodnen ise, rogorc yvela sxva gogos. msurda ane, pirovneba,vyofiliyavi. pims es ar esmoda. saerTod ki me ver vendobi iseT adamians,

omelic Tavis Tavze cotas miyveba; da radganac me pimis Sesaxeb TiTqmisaraferi vici, amitom Cvens Soris namdvili siaxlove ar SeiZleba iyos. pimicxovrebas ufrosi adamianis TvalsazrisiT uyurebs, Tumca Tavis droze masaceqneboda aseTi warmavali gatacebebi. da miuxedavad imisa, rom bevrs cdilobs,mainc ar SeuZlia ise uTanagrZnos umcross, rogorc ufrosma amxanagma, masTanerTad ganicados yvelaferi. amitom Cems Sexedulebebs, bolomde gaazrebulTeoriebs me mxolod Cems dRiurs da zogjer margos vuziareb. mamas yvelafersvumalavdi, yvelafers, rac ki mawuxebda. arasodes ar gamiziarebiamisTvis Cemi idealebi, Segnebulad CamovSordi, sxvagvarad ar SemeZlo. memoviqeci ise, rogorc grZnobam mikarnaxa, moviqeci ise, rogorc Cemi sulierisimSvidisaTvis iyo saWiro. me rom vinmesTvis neba mimeca gaekritikebina esnaxevrad daumTavrebeli muSaoba sakuTar Tavze, kvlav davkargavdi simSvidesda Cemdami rwmenas, rac didi gaWirvebiT movipove. ra mkacradac unda JRerdeses sityvebi, me amaze pimis gulisTvisac ki ver waval, radgan pimi araTu gavriyeCemi Sinagani samyarodan, aramed Cemi TavSeukaveblobis gamo ufro da ufroveTiSebi.es sakiTxi yvelaze ufro mawuxebs: rogor moxda, ratom maRizianebs pimiase? ratom ar SemiZlia masTan mecadineoba, ratom meCveneba misi alersinaZaladevad, ratom mirCevnia, momeSvas manamde, sanam sakuTari Tavisadmi metirwmena ar meqneba? me aqamde mRrRnis sircxvilis grZnoba im werilis gamo,romelic gacecxlebulma davwere da gavugzavne. o, ra Znelia yvelgan dayovelTvis Zlieri da mtkice iyo.magram ufro didi gulacruebis mizezi sxvaa; mamaze metad peterze fiqrimawuxebs. kargad vici, rom me vipove igi da ara man me; me Sevqmeni misgansaocnebo xati, Cems warmodgenaSi igi wynari, sayvareli, mgrZnobiare ymawviliiyo, romelsac alersi da megobari enatreboda. es me mqonda moTxovnilebagadameSala guli cocxali adamianisaTvis, mWirdeboda megobari, romelicgrZel gzaze mxarSi amomidgeboda; da miuxedavad siZneleebisa, mainc mivaRwieimas, rom peteri nel-nela, magram mTeli guliT momendo; xolo roca ismegobrulad ganvawye Cemdami, Cvens damokidebulebaSi TavisTavad Semoiparaintimi, rac axla gaugonar ambad meCveneba. Cven bevrs vlaparakobTsaidumloebiT mocul sakiTxebze, magram imaze, rac gulSi mqonda da axlacmaqvs, aqamde ar gvilaparakia. me jerac ar vici, rogoria peteri; iqnebmorcxvobis bralia, rom CemTanac zedmetad TavSekavebulia? magram erTiSecdoma mainc davuSvi: me ar miveci mas saSualeba, sxvagvarad gamoexata Cemdamimegobroba da vcdilobdi, alersiTa da sinaziT dameaxlovebina. axla ki massiyvaruli swyuria da me vgrZnob, rom dRiTi dRe sul ufro da ufro metadvuyvarvar. misTvis isic sakmarisia, rom Cems gverdiT iyos, me ki ar masvenebssurvili, kidev erTxel Cavwvde mis azrebs, Sevexo im sakiTxebs, romlebzedacase Zlier mwadia saubari. peters arc ki esmis, rom ZaliT daviaxlove da axlaorive xeliT mebRauWeba. jerjerobiT me veraviTar saSualebas ver vxedav, rommourideblad movwyvito Cems Tavs da sakuTar fexebze davayeno. me Zalian malemivxvdi, rom peteri ver gaxdeba Cemi namdvili megobari, da vcdilobdinaWuWidan mainc gamomeyvana; mindoda egrZno sakuTari axalgazrdoba:`sinamdvileSi axalgazrda ufro martoa, vidre moxuci~. es fraza erT wignSiamovikiTxe da, me mgonia, sworia.rogor fiqrob, marTalia is ambavi, rom aq mozrdilebs ufro uWirT,vidre mozardebs? ara, araa marTali! mozrdilebs yvelaferze aqvT Tavisi azrida ician, rogor moiqcnen cxovrebaSi. Cven ki axalgazrdebs, gacilebiT gviWirsdavicvaT Cveni Sexedulebebi da isic iseT dros, roca yvela ideali ingreva danadgurdeba, roca adamianebi yvelaze binZur Tvisebebs amJRavneben, roca yvelaseWvi epareba simarTleSi, samarTlianobaSi, RmerTis arsebobaSi!da Tu vinme daiwyebs imis mtkicebas, TiTqos mozrdilebs ufro uWirT,vidre Cven, mozardebs, etyoba, ar esmis, rogor gvawvalebs Cven uamraviproblema. SeiZleba Cven amgvari problemebisaTvis metismetad axalgazrdebivarT, magram Tavs mogvaxvies da vcdilobT rogorme gadavwyvitoT, bolos

vpoulobT kidec pasuxs, magram faqtebTan dapirispirebas ver uZlebs, radganfaqtebi sul sxvagvarad gamoiyureba. ai, ra aris yvelaze Zneli Cvens droSi:Cven ar gagvaCnia idealebi, ocnebebi, naTeli imedebi da Tu gagviCnda, saSinelisinamdvile maSinve anadgurebs.saocari ambavia, rom me jer kidev ar damikargavs yovelgvari imedi, miTumetes, rom mTeli Cemi imedebi uazro da ganuxorcielebeli meCveneba.miuxedavad amisa, me maT mainc magrad vebRauWebi, radgan jer kidev mjera, romadamiani keTilia. me ar SemiZlia sikvdilze, ubedurebaze vifiqro da yvelaferiamaze avago. vxedav, rogor iqceva samyaro TandaTan udabnod. sul ufro axlosmesmis qariSxlis griali da Weqa-quxili, romelsac SeuZlia mogvspos, vgrZnobmilionobiT adamianis tanjvas da mainc, roca cas Sevyureb, vfiqrob, romyvelaferi ukeTesobisaken Semobrundeba, sisastikesa da daundoblobas bolomoeReba da miwaze kvlav mSvidoba da siwynare daisadgurebs.manam ki maRla unda vataro Cemi idealebi; iqneba momavalSiganxorcieldes kidec.anaparaskevi, 21 ivlisi, 1944Zvirfaso kiwi!isev gaiRviZa imedma, rogorc iqna, yvelaferi isev kargad midis! da merera kargad! gaugonari cnobebi aRwevs Cvenamde! hitlers Tavs daesxnen, da araviRac komunisti ebraeli, aramed keTilSobili germanuli sisxlis generali,grafi da Tanac axalgazrda! hitleri `RvTis gangebam~ gadaarCina da,samwuxarod, didad samwuxarod, iolad gadarCa, mxolod ramdenime ganakawri daumniSvnelo damwvroba aRmoaCnda. misi amalis ramdenime oficeri da generalimoklulia an daWrili. ai, imis damamtkicebeli sabuTi, rom bevr oficersa dagenerals omi yelSi amouvida da siamovnebiT gagzavnidnen hitlersmousavleTSi. misi mospobis Semdeg maT undaT daamyaron samxedro diqtatura,mokavSireebTan zavi dadon, xelaxla SeiaraRdnen da oci wlis Semdeg kvlavomi daiwyon. iqneb gangebam garkveuli mizniT daayovna hitleris sikvdili mcirexniT, radgan mokavSireebisaTvis gacilebiT mosaxerxebeli da xelsayrelia, Tuwminda sisxlis germanelebi erTmaneTs daerevian da mospoben; rusebsa daingliselebs naklebi samuSao darCebaT da ufro adre Seudgebian TavianTidangreuli qalaqebis aRdgenas, Tumca jer saqme aqamde ar misula. ar mindawinaswar ganvWvrito brwyinvale momavali, magram Sen, albaT, gesmis, romyvelafers, razedac me vlaparakob safuZvlad udevs TvalsaCino faqtebi, raRaciseTi, rac orive fexiT realur niadagze dgas. gamonaklisis saxiT aqaRarafers vlaparakob maRal idealebze.garda amisa, hitlerma Tavazianoba gamoiCina da Tavis erTgul dasayvarel xalxs ganucxada: amieridan yvela samxedro piri gestapos emorCilebada yovel jariskacs ufleba eZleva dauyovnebliv daxvritos Tavisi meTauri,Tuki monawileobda am binZur da mdabal TavdasxmaSio.icocxle, datrialdeba ambebi! hans dampfs sirbilisagan fexebi stkiva,meTaurma uyvira. hansi SaSxanas iRebs da yviris: `Sen fiureris mokvla gindoda,xom, ai, risi Rirsi xar!~ SaSxana gavarda da qedmaRali meTauri, romelmacgabeda da sabralo jariskacs uyvira, maradiuli sicocxlis samyaroSigadasaxlda (iqneb, rogorc amboben, maradiuli sikvdilis saufloSi). saqmealbaT iqamdec miva, rom batoni oficrebi SiSisagan Caisvrian da jariskacebsveRarafers gaubedaven.yvelaferi gasagebia. Tu isev abda-ubdas gwer? ras izam, roca vfiqrob,oqtomberSi isev skolaSi vivli, imdenad bednieri var, rom dalagebulad azrisgamoTqma ar SemiZlia. o, la, la, es wuTia vwerdi, ar minda winaswar ganvWvritomomavali-meTqi. nu gamijavrdebi, tyuilad xom ar meZaxian `winaaRmdegobaTakvanZs~.ana

samSabaTi, 1 agvisto 1944Zvirfaso kiwi!`winaaRmdegobaTa kvanZi~. es iyo Cemi ukanaskneli werilis ukanasknelisityvebi da dRevandelsac am sityvebiT viwyeb. `winaaRmdegobaTa kvanZi!~SegiZlia amixsna, ras niSnavs es gamoTqma? ras niSnavs winaaRmdegoba? amsityvasac iseve, rogorc sxva mravals, ori mniSvneloba aqvs. winaaRmdegobameore samyaros mimarT da Sinagani winaaRmdegoba.pirveli, Cveulebriv, imas niSnavs, rom `ar eTanxmeba sxva adamianis azrs,ggonia, yvelaferi sxvaze ukeT ici, cdilob ukanaskneli sityva Sen dagrCes!~erTi sityviT, yvela im usiamo Tvisebas, romelTac me maweren. meores ki aravinicnobs, meore Cemi piradi saidumloebaa.erTxel ukve giambe, rom sinamdvileSi erTi suli ki ara maqvs, aramedori. erTSi moqceulia Cemi aulagmavi mxiaruleba, ironia, sicocxlisadmitrfiali da, rac mTavaria, yvelafrisadmi zerele damokidebuleba. igulisxmeba:ar veridebi arSiyobas, xvevnas, kocnas, orazrovan xumrobas. da es suli mudammzadaa Seaviwroos meore, ufro wminda, Rrma, mSvenieri. magram anas am meorekarg mxares aravin icnobs da amitomac xSirad ver mitanen.marTalia, zogjer erTi saRamosTvis mxiaruli da gamrTobi takimasxaravar, magram Semdeg mTeli Tvis manZilze aRaravis vWirdebi; maSasadame, igivevar, rac seriozuli xalxisaTvis samijnuro filmia: mxolod gamrTobi, mcirexniT TavSesaqcevi, rasac male iviwyeben xolme.SeiZleba es cudi araa, magram arc maincdamainc kargia. amis moyola,cxadia, ar msiamovnebs, magram ratom ar unda giTxra, roca marTalia? CemiTavqariani, zerele suli yovelTvis jabnis meores, ukeTess, da yovelTvisamarcxebs. Sen ver warmoidgen, ramdenjer micdia, damesustebina, mimeCqmala esana, romelic bolos da bolos naxevaria imisa, rasac ana hqvia, magram amaod davici ratom.imitom, rom meSinia, vai, Tu Cemma nacnobebma, romelTac ician, rogorivar, uecrad Cemi meore, gacilebiT ukeTesi da keTili buneba aRmoaCinon.meSinia, rom damcineben, sulelad da santimentalur adamianad CamTvlian,seriozulad ar momeqcevian. Tumca me miveCvie araseriozul damokidebulebas,magram amas mieCvia mxolod `zerele~ ane, mas SeuZlia amis atana, xolo meore,`seriozuli~, amisTvis metismetad sustia. da marTlac, roca kargi anaTxuTmeti wuTiT mainc gamomiTrevia scenaze, ise SekumSula, rogorc mcenare`ukadrisa~, xolo sadac laparakia saWiro, pirvel nomer anas uTmobs adgils,da sanam gamoverkveode, uCinardeba.ase rom, pirveli ana arasdros ar eCveneba xalxs, magram, roca marto var,mTavar rols aspulebs. me zustad vici, rogori var da rogori minda viyo...sulis siRrmeSi. magram, samwuxarod, me mxolod CemTvis var aseTi da albaTamitom vTvli Cems Tavs Rrma, gulCaTxrobil adamianad, maSin rodesac sxvebszerele da gulRia arsebad mivaCnivar. Signidan yovelTvis gzas minaTebs wmindaana, garegnulad ki mxiaruli da xtunia Tikani var.rogorc geubnebodi, yvelafers sul sxvanairad vgrZnob, vidre gamovTqvam,amitomac Seiqmna Cemze iseTi Sexeduleba, TiTqos biWebs davdev, varSiyob,yvelaferSi cxvirs vyof, TavauReblad vkiTxulob romanebs. mxiaruli ane amisgamo icinis, ukmex pasuxebs iZleva, gulgrilad iCeCavs mxrebs. ise iqceva,TiTqos mas yvelaferi fexebze hkidia, magram vai, rom meore ana sul sxvanairaduyurebs amas. da radgan SenTan bolomde gulaxdili var, gamogitydebi, romZalian mawuxebs es ambavi: vcdilob Sevicvalo, ukeTesi gavxde, magramyovelTvis vebrZvi raRac iseTs, rac Cemze Zlieria.SigniT ki yvelaferi mosTqvams: xedavs, ras miaRwie? yvelasTan gaifuWesaxeli, irgvliv mxolod gesliani an SezRuduli xalxia, aravis ar moswonxarda yvelaferi es mxolod imis bralia, rom yurs ar ugdeb kargi anas rCevas. ah,me siamovnebiT davujerebdi, magram ar gamomdis: roca seriozuli da wynarivar, yvela fiqrobs, Tavs vikatuneb da mxolod xumrobiT gamovdivar amuxerxuli mdgomareobidan. ojaxis wevrebze aRarafers vambob, radgan yoveli

maTgani fiqrobs, rom avad gavxdi, maCeCeben Tavis tkivilis wamals, nervebisdasawynarebel abebs, Sublsa da majas misinjaven. iqneb sicxe gaqvs, iqneb kuWiar moqmedebs, mesmis yoveli mxridan, Semdeg ki imis gamo mlanZRaven, rom cudgunebaze var. amdenis atana aRar SemiZlia. roca ase Camacivdebian, jernamdvilad vWirveulob, Semdeg sevda mipyrobs da bolos isev Semovabrunebguls cudi mxridan gareT, kargidan ki SigniT. da vcdilob movnaxo saSualeba,romelic damexmareba gavxde iseTi, rogoric minda viyo da rogoric SeiZlebavyofiliyavi kidec!.. qveyanaze rom sxva adamianebi ar arsebobdnen.anaaq wydeba anas dRiuri.bolosityvaoba4 agvistos `mwvane policiam~ TavSesafari aRmoaCina. daapatimres yvelaltolvili, maTTan erTad kraleri da koophoisic. dapatimrebulebi germaniisada holandiis sakoncentracio banakebSi gagzavnes.gestapom daarbia `TavSesafari~. uwesrigod dayril Zvel wignebsa daJurnalebs Soris mipma da elim anas dRiuri ipoves, ramdenime gverdisgamoklebiT, rac mkiTxvelisaTvis interess moklebulia, dRiuri mTlianaddaibeWda.`iatakqveSelTagan~ mxolod anas mama gadarCa. kralerma da koophoismaholandiis sakoncentracio banakSi bevri tanjva gamoiares da TavianT ojaxebsdaubrundnen.ana gardaicvala 1945 wlis martSi, bergen-belzenis sakoncentraciobanakSi, holandiis ganTavisuflebamde ori TviT adre.mTargmnelis minawerigamoxda xani, oto franki meored daqorwinda, SveicariaSi dasaxlda dabazelSi gardaicvala, mTargmnels wilad xvda pativi masTan da ane frankismuzeumTan amsterdamSi mimowera hqonoda.erT-erT werilSi batoni franki mwerda, anas dRiuris TargmniT Cveniojaxis bedi gaiziareTo. es marTlac asea.n. a.