fsiqoanalizis Sesavali
fsiqoanalizis Sesavali
fsiqoanalizis Sesavali
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hansi: “maSin me Caval da daviZineb marikasTan”.<br />
deda: “Sen namdvilad ginda miatovo deda da Caxvide qveviT?”<br />
hansi: “magram me xom davbrundebi diliT yavaze”.<br />
deda: “Tu namdvilad ginda miatovo deda da mama, waiRe Seni qurTuki, sacvali da<br />
kargad!”<br />
hansi iRebs Tavis nivTebs da Cadis qveviT, saidanac mas ra Tqma unda abruneben”.<br />
(am survilis miRma ifareba sxva ram: mas surs, rom marika, romelTanac is atarebs drois<br />
umetes nawils, Semovides maT saxlSi. garda amisa kidev sxva ram. vinaidan hansis ded-mama<br />
iSviaTad, magram mainc iyvandnen mas TavianT loginSi, mSoblebis gverdze wola erotiul<br />
SegrZnebebs aRvivebda bavSvSi, aqedan gamomdinare marikasTan wolis survili erotiul sazriss<br />
Seicavs. hansisaTvis, rogorc yvela sxva bavSvisaTvis mSoblebTan erTad loginSi wola<br />
erotiuli aRznebis wyaros warmoadgens.)<br />
miuxedavad Tavisi homoseqsualuri mixrilobisa hanss dedamisTan Tavi ise uWiravs<br />
rogorc es namdvil mamakacs Sehferis.<br />
aRwerilia misi grZnobebi restoranSi myofi 8 wlis gogo mimarT. rogor wiTldeba da<br />
morcxvobs da a. S. xazgasmulia is faqtori, rom maSin rodesac is agresiulia Sin, aq Tavis<br />
uWiravs rogorc Tayvanismcemeli. SesaZlebelia es dakavSirebulia imasTan, rom masTan saxlSi<br />
myofi gogoebi – soflis gogoebis arian, es ki – kulturuli qambatonia.<br />
imisaTvis, rom hansi ar darCes am gogos mimarT aRzevebli siyvarulis daZabul<br />
mdgomareobaSi, deda patiJebs gogos maT ezoSi saTamaSod, im droisaTvis rodesac hansi sadilis<br />
Semdeg gamoiZinebs. hansi imdenad aris aRgznebuli gogos mosalodneli vizitiT, rom pirvelad<br />
ver axerxebs gamoZinebas sadilis Semdgom. deda ekiTxeba Tu ratom ver iZinebs da isic<br />
pasuxobs, rom fiqrobs im gogoze. amave dros hansma yvelas mouyva gogos mosalodneli vizitis<br />
Sesaxeb da marikas ekiTxeboda: “rogor fiqrob makocebs is Tu ara?”<br />
magram sadilis Semdeg modioda wvima da viziti ver ganxorcielda. hansi ki gaerTo<br />
bertasa da olRasTan”.<br />
deda bans hanss diliT (4 da 4/1 wlis) rogorc yovelTvis da dabanis Semdeg amSralebs<br />
da pudrs ayris. rodesac is frTxilad ayris pudrs peniss hansi ekiTxeba: “ratom ar mexebi<br />
TiTiT?”<br />
deda: “imitom rom es Rorobaa”.<br />
hansi: “ras niSnvas Roroba? ratom?”<br />
deda: “imitom rom es uwesobaa”.<br />
hansi: “magram sasiamovnoa”.<br />
amave dros hanss saintereso sizmari esizmreba, romelic gamoirCeva gambedaobiT dedasTan<br />
mimarTebaSi simamacis gamovlenasTan SedarebiT. misi ganmarteba mxolod da mxolod mamis Sors<br />
mWvretelobiT gaxda SesaZlebeli.<br />
“dRes Rame me vifiqre: erTi ambobda: vis unda CemTan mosvla? maSin viRaca eubneba: “me”.<br />
maSin man unda aiZulos igi gaakeTos wiwi.”<br />
Semdgomi kiTxvebidan aRmoCndeba, rom vizualuri STabeWdilebebi aq ar arsebobs, mxolod<br />
audialuria. aseve es sizmari warmoadgens im TamaSis gadmonaSTs, romelic hansma maspinZlis<br />
bavSvebTan erTad iTamaSa ramodenime dRis win. es aris TamaSis wabaZva, romlis drosac hanss<br />
surs, rom is visac eubnebian ra unda gaakeTos, unda urinirebdes.<br />
ra Tqma unda es procesi hansisaTvis sasiamovno mniSvnelobas iZens. gaseirnebis dros am<br />
samsaxurs hanss uwevs mama.<br />
ori dRis win, rogorc ukve iyo aRniSnuli man dedas kiTxa Tu ratom ar exeba peniss.<br />
guSin rodesac urinirebisaTvis gverdze gaviyvane, man pirvelad mTxova saxlis ukana mxares<br />
gameyvana, rom aravis ar daenaxa da aRniSna: “berta da olRa SarSan miyurebdnen rodesac wiwi-s<br />
vakeTebdi”. Cemi azriT am mosazrebas aqvs Semdegi mniSvneloba, maSin misTvis sasiamovno iyo<br />
gogonebis cnobismoyvareoba, exla ki – ara. eksgibicionisturi siamovneba (sasqeso organoebis<br />
gaSiSvlebis) exla ukve gandevnas eqvemdebareba. es gandevna, warmoadgens imis ganmartebas, Tu<br />
ratom vlindeba es survili sizmarSi. amis Semdeg me davakvirdi, rom mas undoda wiwi-s<br />
gakeTeba yvelasgan farulad”.<br />
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