Bare-Faced Messiah (PDF) - Apologetics Index

I cabled: "Can I possibly help? Will nurse if necessary. Have helped him many times before."
Apr 29: Cable from Ron: "Have been very ill. Do not feel I should offer you anything less honorable
than marriage. Should you consider it I must doubly clarify existing status to be sure. Write me care
of Omega Oil Coy Wichita. With all my heart and much love, Ron."
Several hours later: "Better keep our plans a close secret as I do not know what they would try to do
to you if they knew. Be very careful. All my love, Ron."
Apr 30: Letter from Barbara to Ron: "My dearest darling, Why don't you instruct someone to call me
when you are ill? Don't you know my greatest joy would be to stroke your broad heroic brow. Why
else do I have hands? To rest your weary fingers in my own. Why else do I have strength? To kiss
your strained eyes and dear heavy head. Why else do I have lips and gentleness. If your heart
hearts it hurts because it has been broken. Dear dear Ron if love can break men's hearts it can
restore them too. Yours shall be regenerated with my love and it will grow stronger... I accept all of
you completely as no woman has ever accepted known and loved you before. Darling, be at peace.
Together we shall be strong. Devotedly, your Barbie."
June 1: I went to Wichita. I accepted an engagement ring from him but when I got back realised my
mistake.
I didn't know Mary Sue, don't know if she was around at time.
SEX: Conventional. Very gentle, patient and sweet. When he was sane he was a darling, a very nice
man.
I had a BA in psychology. I had gone through all the works of Freud before college. I am sure he
became interested in the whole business of engrams because of his awareness of his flaws and
his attempts to deal with his own problems.
What's remarkable about this man historically is that he had a fantasy of ruling the world by ideas
and he became very powerful, he ruled his own little world. He lived in a world of his own creation.
SARA: Didn't get to know her well. Didn't think she was very attractive.
He told me he first read about the "engram" from a 1915 book by a German.