Bare-Faced Messiah (PDF) - Apologetics Index

One night, in the midst of our affair we double dated, Ron and Sara and Miles and me. Sara must
have known what was going on. She was very hostile to me. We were talking about guns and she
said to me that I was the type to use a Saturday night special. We had dinner together.
I met Miles at the Foundation. After I broke up with Ron I had an apartment of my own in Beverly
Hills on Dale.. Drive. That's where Ron spent New Year's Eve one night. I was only 20 years old. I
had a thing going with Miles - he was very good looking, a very handsome boy.
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He was psychotic, a manic depressive with paranoid tendencies.
When I was in Wichita I don't think Mary Sue [Whipp] was around. I think he must have become
involved with her after I left. Ron put me up at a hotel because Don Purcell opposed me coming out.
He didn't like me. Ron told me he had to keep me coming to Wichita secret, he got $50 from Purcell
to pay for my hotel room. I think I only spent one night there - I was frightened of this man.
He had asked me in a telegram to marry him. He asked me to come to Wichita and offer me
nothing less honourable than marriage. He bought me a ring in Wichita.
I was shocked by his appearance in Wichita. He had visibly deteriorated, both physically and
emotionally. He was extremely unkempt, he lived like a street person. He was extremely
depressed, talked in a monotone, always on the verge of tears. I never went out of the hotel except
when he took me to a jewellery store to buy a ring.
I told him I was leaving - said I felt there was nothing I could do for him and I didn't want to come
between him and his patron Purcell, told him I was going. I felt extremely distanced from him
because he was so strange; he was like a different person.
Mostly when we were together he talked and I listened. He talked about Polly, said she was a
screen writer in Hollywood, liked horses. All the time I was going with him he never once
mentioned he had children by Polly. I never knew he had a son until I read it in the newspapers. He
talked about his grandfather who could really hold his liquor, who had a fiddle with the head of a
negro carved on the end. He didn't talk about family with any affection. He never talked about his
father.
He was a character, it was like watching a fascinating character on stage playing a role. I was never
bored when I was with him. He was a colourful personality and acted out all the unusual things that
were in his mind, that's what made him so fascinating. People who are manic have this enormous
energy - it fueled talking and thoughts. He was charismatic, communicated an energy.
When he went off with Alexis he came by the mansion at Hoover. I was there working and he was in
a depression. I could see the way he walked - his head down, dragging his feet.
I hired a secretary for him but he didn't want her around and he wanted me to fire her. She said she
had just bought a cage bird on strength of her first salary and I felt really bad. I told Ron and he was
quiet and said, "If I had known I would have paid her for the bird."
I had a mustard coloured jacket and he forbade me to wear it. He hated it, couldn't stand the colour,