Snowbound - Harlequin.com

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96 SNOWBOUND He nodded, unsurprised when she said, “Speaking of which, let me go count noses. Again.” Telling himself he didn’t mind some time alone, he went to the freezer and took out bags of the red, highbush huckleberries he’d picked and frozen that summer. By the time he got back, she’d returned and was getting a pitcher of cranberry juice from the refrigerator. “All present and accounted for,” she reported. “Nobody seems to need me.” I do. John was staggered by the fervency of his reaction. Instinctively he rejected it. No. If he needed anything at all, it was solitude. He was attracted to her, enjoying the novelty of having lighthearted conversation with a pretty woman. Need was gut level. It was the next breath, the next meal, the chance to sink into the oblivion of sleep. If he already hated the idea of watching her drive away with her vanful of kids, well, that was a good sign. It meant someday he might want to return to his former life. To live normally again—whatever that meant. He surfaced to realize that Fiona was watching him. Her voice was soft, her tone tentative. “I could go back to my book if you’d rather.” If he were smart, he’d say, Why don’t you do that while I finish up here? Not being unfriendly, but making clear that he didn’t need her, either. “Stay.” He sounded rusty again, as if he didn’t know how to ask for what he wanted. He tried again. “Talk to me. Tell me about…” What? Her life? What she

JANICE KAY JOHNSON 97 expected the ‘right’ man to be like? No. He’d scare her. He was scaring himself. “A movie. I haven’t seen one in a long time. What’s the last one you went to?” She relaxed, as he’d hoped she would. While he measured sugar and flour and put together the cobbler, she told him about a thriller with a huge budget, big stars and an unlikely plot. At one point he glanced at the clock and thought in surprise, They haven’t even been here twenty-four hours. How, in such a short time, had he gotten to the point where he had thoughts like, I need her? He hadn’t kissed her, hadn’t touched her beyond a hand on her shoulder, didn’t know that she felt anything at all for him. He suspected she’d have been just as friendly to the codger who’d owned the lodge before him. Although, she had spent the afternoon reading about the Iraq war. Maybe because of him, maybe not. She’d moved on to talking about other things, an exhibit at the Portland Art Museum, music she liked. John guessed he must have nodded or interjected a word here and there, because he didn’t want her to quit. He didn’t need her; that had been a ridiculous thought. But he wouldn’t mind if snow kept falling for another day or two. And maybe if the state road crew left Thunder Mountain Lodge isolated for a while after that, he’d eventually get his fill and want his solitude back. Just not yet.

96 SNOWBOUND<br />

He nodded, unsurprised when she said, “Speaking of<br />

which, let me go count noses. Again.”<br />

Telling himself he didn’t mind some time alone, he<br />

went to the freezer and took out bags of the red, highbush<br />

huckleberries he’d picked and frozen that summer.<br />

By the time he got back, she’d returned and was getting<br />

a pitcher of cranberry juice from the refrigerator.<br />

“All present and accounted for,” she reported.<br />

“Nobody seems to need me.”<br />

I do.<br />

John was staggered by the fervency of his reaction.<br />

Instinctively he rejected it.<br />

No. If he needed anything at all, it was solitude. He<br />

was attracted to her, enjoying the novelty of having<br />

lighthearted conversation with a pretty woman. Need<br />

was gut level. It was the next breath, the next meal, the<br />

chance to sink into the oblivion of sleep.<br />

If he already hated the idea of watching her drive<br />

away with her vanful of kids, well, that was a good<br />

sign. It meant someday he might want to return to his<br />

former life. To live normally again—whatever that<br />

meant.<br />

He surfaced to realize that Fiona was watching him.<br />

Her voice was soft, her tone tentative. “I could go<br />

back to my book if you’d rather.”<br />

If he were smart, he’d say, Why don’t you do that<br />

while I finish up here? Not being unfriendly, but making<br />

clear that he didn’t need her, either.<br />

“Stay.” He sounded rusty again, as if he didn’t know<br />

how to ask for what he wanted. He tried again. “Talk to<br />

me. Tell me about…” What? Her life? What she

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