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182 SNOWBOUND couple in a Lexus SUV, who tipped him when he carried their bags up to their room, then wondered how far it was to the nearest restaurant and whether he had a hot tub. His Web site emphasized the isolation of the lodge, the family-style meals and the rustic rooms and cabins. It didn’t hide the fact that bathrooms were basic and shared. Maybe these two had just looked at the pretty pictures and skipped the fine print. Yeah, and maybe, he thought hopefully, they’d decide to leave tomorrow. It had been weeks since he’d had a really ugly nightmare. He had one that night. John woke to find himself rearing up in bed, his throat raw from his shouted warning that came too late. Even in his nightmares, he couldn’t let himself see the worst parts. The last thing he remembered was knowing he’d been hurt bad, lying with his leg not right, and staring with bewilderment at the mud-brick wall that had provided meager shade while he gathered the boys for a pickup game. Now…God. Before his dazed, uncomprehending eyes, it was splashed with bucketfuls of blood. So shockingly bright as it dripped. His stomach heaved, just as it had that day. Then, after staring dazed at the blood dripping from a soccer ball, he had pushed himself to his knees to puke and seen… He lifted a shaking hand and rubbed his face. No. He wasn’t going to remember. Not that. Thank God he always awakened before he saw anything worse than the blood. He didn’t know why his life had been spared. Maybe the sight wasn’t the point of the nightmares. Sometimes
JANICE KAY JOHNSON 183 he thought it was his shouted warning that came simultaneously with the blast, as if his subconscious wanted to remind him over and over again that he’d been ineffectual. As if he didn’t know? he raged at himself. He was just goddamned lucky that his subconscious didn’t seem to realize that ineffectual was the least of it. In his bumbling naïveté and with his good intentions, he had invited the horror. Sitting there in the dark, still shaking and battling the nausea, he thought, I am the angel of death. Fiona wouldn’t have been so grateful if she’d known. She wouldn’t have trusted him. She wouldn’t so easily have brushed off the incident when he’d seen the boys fall and blood color the snow. What if he’d told her? he wondered, but was shaking his head before he could pursue the speculation. His life goal was to repress all memory of those few minutes. Only once had he described what had happened, when, from a stretcher, he’d had to identify the suicide bomber’s body—the scattered bits of his body. John never intended to tell another soul. Words had power. Stories once told lived on, refusing to be corked inside a bottle. He got up and went to his bathroom. After splashing water that was just this side of freezing on his face, he looked at himself in the mirror. The angry scar stood out like a brand. How had Fiona looked at his face and seen anything but the scar? The fact that she had was a miracle. Miracles were rare and precious. He’d be a fool to turn his back on this one.
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JANICE KAY JOHNSON 183<br />
he thought it was his shouted warning that came simultaneously<br />
with the blast, as if his subconscious wanted to<br />
remind him over and over again that he’d been ineffectual.<br />
As if he didn’t know? he raged at himself. He was<br />
just goddamned lucky that his subconscious didn’t seem<br />
to realize that ineffectual was the least of it. In his<br />
bumbling naïveté and with his good intentions, he had<br />
invited the horror.<br />
Sitting there in the dark, still shaking and battling the<br />
nausea, he thought, I am the angel of death.<br />
Fiona wouldn’t have been so grateful if she’d known.<br />
She wouldn’t have trusted him. She wouldn’t so easily<br />
have brushed off the incident when he’d seen the boys<br />
fall and blood color the snow.<br />
What if he’d told her? he wondered, but was shaking<br />
his head before he could pursue the speculation. His life<br />
goal was to repress all memory of those few minutes.<br />
Only once had he described what had happened, when,<br />
from a stretcher, he’d had to identify the suicide bomber’s<br />
body—the scattered bits of his body. John never intended<br />
to tell another soul. Words had power. Stories once told<br />
lived on, refusing to be corked inside a bottle.<br />
He got up and went to his bathroom. After splashing<br />
water that was just this side of freezing on his face, he<br />
looked at himself in the mirror. The angry scar stood out<br />
like a brand. How had Fiona looked at his face and seen<br />
anything but the scar?<br />
The fact that she had was a miracle. Miracles were<br />
rare and precious. He’d be a fool to turn his back on<br />
this one.