murakami, haruki - Norwegian wood
murakami, haruki - Norwegian wood murakami, haruki - Norwegian wood
answers they wanted. And so I went from 18 to 19. Each day the sun would rise and set, the flag would be raised and lowered. Every Sunday I would have a date with my dead friend's girl. I had no idea what I was doing or what I was going to do. For my courses I would read Claudel and Racine and Eisenstein, but they meant almost nothing to me. I made no friends at the lectures, and hardly knew anyone in the dorm. The others in the dorm thought I wanted to be a writer because I was always alone with a book, but I had no such ambition. There was nothing I wanted to be. I tried to talk about this feeling with Naoko. She, at least, would be able to understand what I was feeling with some degree of precision, I thought. But I could never find the words to express myself. Strange, I seemed to have caught her word-searching sickness. On Saturday nights I would sit by the phone in the lobby, waiting for Naoko to call. Most of the others were out, so the lobby was usually deserted. I would stare at the grains of light suspended in that silent space, struggling to see into my own heart. What did I want? And what did others want from me? But I could never find the answers. Sometimes I would reach out and try to grasp the grains of light, but my fingers touched nothing. I read a lot, but not a lot of different books: I like to read my favourites again and again. Back then it was Truman Capote, John Updike, F. Scott Fitzgerald, Raymond Chandler, but I didn't see anyone else in my lectures or the dorm reading writers like that. They liked Kazumi Takahashi, Kenzaburo Oe, Yukio Mishima, or contemporary French novelists, which was another reason I didn't have much to say to anybody but kept to myself and my books. With my eyes closed, I would touch a familiar book and draw its fragrance deep inside me. This was enough to make me happy. At 18 my favourite book was John Updike's The Centaur, but after I had read it a number of times, it began to lose some of its initial lustre 36
and yielded first place to The Great Gatsby. Gatsby stayed in first place for a long time after that. I would pull it off the shelf when the mood hit me and read a section at random. It never once disappointed me. There wasn't a boring page in the whole book. I wanted to tell people what a wonderful novel it was, but no one around me had read The Great Gatsby or was likely to. Urging others to read F Scott Fitzgerald, although not a reactionary act, was not something one could do in 1968. When I did finally meet the one person in my world who had read Gatsby, he and I became friends because of it. His name was Nagasawa. He was two years older than me, and because he was doing legal studies at the prestigious Tokyo University, he was on the fast track to national leadership. We lived in the same dorm and knew each other only by sight, until one day when I was reading Gatsby in a sunny spot in the dining hall. He sat down next to me and asked what I was reading. When I told him, he asked if I was enjoying it. "This is my third time," I said, "and every time I find something new that I like even more than the last." "This man says he has read The Great Gatsby three times," he said as if to himself. "Well, any friend of Gatsby is a friend of mine." And so we became friends. This happened in October. The better I got to know Nagasawa, the stranger he seemed. I had met a lot of weird people in my day, but none as strange as Nagasawa. He was a far more voracious reader than me, but he made it a rule never to touch a book by any author who had not been dead at least 30 years. "That's the only kind of book I can trust," he said. "It's not that I don't believe in contemporary literature," he added, "but I don't want to waste valuable time reading any book that has not had the baptism of time. Life is too short." "What kind of authors do you like?" I asked, speaking in respectful tones to this man two years my senior. "Balzac, Dante, Joseph Conrad, Dickens," he answered without 37
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answers they wanted.<br />
And so I went from 18 to 19. Each day the sun would rise and set, the<br />
flag would be raised and lowered. Every Sunday I would have a date<br />
with my dead friend's girl. I had no idea what I was doing or what I<br />
was going to do. For my courses I would read Claudel and Racine and<br />
Eisenstein, but they meant almost nothing to me. I made no friends at<br />
the lectures, and hardly knew anyone in the dorm. The others in the<br />
dorm thought I wanted to be a writer because I was always alone with<br />
a book, but I had no such ambition. There was nothing I wanted to be.<br />
I tried to talk about this feeling with Naoko. She, at least, would be<br />
able to understand what I was feeling with some degree of precision, I<br />
thought. But I could never find the words to express myself. Strange, I<br />
seemed to have caught her word-searching sickness.<br />
On Saturday nights I would sit by the phone in the lobby, waiting for<br />
Naoko to call. Most of the others were out, so the lobby was usually<br />
deserted. I would stare at the grains of light suspended in that silent<br />
space, struggling to see into my own heart. What did I want? And<br />
what did others want from me? But I could never find the answers.<br />
Sometimes I would reach out and try to grasp the grains of light, but<br />
my fingers touched nothing.<br />
I read a lot, but not a lot of different books: I like to read my<br />
favourites again and again. Back then it was Truman Capote, John<br />
Updike, F. Scott Fitzgerald, Raymond Chandler, but I didn't see<br />
anyone else in my lectures or the dorm reading writers like that. They<br />
liked Kazumi Takahashi, Kenzaburo Oe, Yukio Mishima, or<br />
contemporary French novelists, which was another reason I didn't<br />
have much to say to anybody but kept to myself and my books. With<br />
my eyes closed, I would touch a familiar book and draw its fragrance<br />
deep inside me. This was enough to make me happy.<br />
At 18 my favourite book was John Updike's The Centaur, but after I<br />
had read it a number of times, it began to lose some of its initial lustre<br />
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