murakami, haruki - Norwegian wood

to the roots of my being. I don't know what to do. I'm confused. I'm
not trying to make excuses for myself, but I do believe that I have
lived as sincerely as I know how. I have never lied to anyone, and I
have taken care over the years not to hurt other people. And yet I find
myself tossed into this labyrinth. How can this be? I can't explain it. I
don't know what I should do. Can you tell me, Reiko? You're the only
one I can turn to for advice.
I posted the letter that night by special delivery.
Reiko's answer came five days later, dated 17 June.
Let me start with the good news. Naoko has been improving far more
rapidly than anyone could have expected. I talked to her once on the
phone, and she spoke with real lucidity. She may even be able to come
back here before long.
Now, about you.
I think you take everything too seriously. Loving another person is a
wonderful thing, and if that love is sincere, no one ends up tossed into
a labyrinth. You have to have more faith in yourself.
My advice to you is very simple. First of all, if you are drawn so
strongly to this Midori person, it is only natural for you to have fallen
in love with her. It might go well, or it might not. But love is like that.
When you fall in love, the natural thing to do is give yourself to it.
That's what I think. It's just a form of sincerity.
Second, as to whether or not you should have sex with Midori, that is
for you to work out. I can't say a thing. Talk it over with Midori and
reach your own conclusion, one that makes sense to you.
Third, don't tell any of this to Naoko. If things should develop to the
point where you absolutely have to tell her, then you and I will come
up with a good plan together. So now, just keep it quiet. Leave it to
me.
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