murakami, haruki - Norwegian wood

that there was all hell to pay. And secondly, if I go to bed with a girl,
I'm going to want to do it with her, and the last thing I want is to lie
there struggling to restrain myself. I'm not kidding, I might end up
forcing you."
"You mean you'd hit me and tie me up and rape me from behind?"
"Hey, look, I'm serious."
"But I'm so lonely! I want to be with someone! I know I'm doing
terrible things to you, making demands and not giving you anything in
return, saying whatever pops into my head, dragging you out of your
room and forcing you to take me everywhere, but you're the only one I
can do stuff like that to! I've never been able to have my own way
with anybody, not once in the 20 years I've been alive. My father, my
mother, they never paid the slightest attention to me, and my
boyfriend, well, he's just not that kind of guy. He gets angry if I try to
have my own way. So we end up fighting. You're the only one I can
say these things to. And now I'm really, really, really tired and I want
to fall asleep listening to someone tell me how much they like me and
how pretty I am and stuff. That's all I want. And when I wake up, I'll
be full of energy and I'll never make these kinds of selfish demands
again. I swear. I'll be a good girl."
"I hear you, believe me, but there's nothing I can do."
"Oh, please! Otherwise, I'm going to sit down right here on the ground
and cry my head off all night long. And I'll sleep with the first guy that
talks to me."
That did it. I called the dorm and asked for Nagasawa.
When he got to the phone I asked him if he would make it look as if I
had come back for the evening. I was with a girl, I explained.
"Fine," he said. "It's a worthy cause, I'll be glad to help you out. I'll
just turn over your name tag to the "in' side. Don't worry. Take all the
time you need. You can come in through my window in the morning."
"Thanks. I owe you one," I said and hung up. "All set?" Midori asked.
"Pretty much," I said with a sigh. "Great, let's go to a disco, it's so
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