murakami, haruki - Norwegian wood
murakami, haruki - Norwegian wood murakami, haruki - Norwegian wood
"Will you really take me to a porno movie?" "Of course I will." "A really disgusting one." "I'll research the matter thoroughly." "Good. I'll call you," she said and hung up. A week went by without a word from Midori. No calls, no sign of her in the lecture hall. I kept hoping for a message from her whenever I went back to the dorm, but there were never any. One night, I tried to keep my promise by thinking of her when I masturbated, but it didn't work. I tried switching over to Naoko, but not even Naoko's image was any help that time. It seemed so ridiculous I gave up. I took a swig of whisky, brushed my teeth and went to bed. I wrote a letter to Naoko on Sunday morning. One thing I told her about was Midori's father. I went to the hospital to visit the father of a girl in one of my lectures and ate some cucumbers in his room. When he heard me crunching on them, he wanted some too, and he ate his with the same crunching sound. Five days later, though, he died. I still have a vivid memory of the tiny crunching he made when he chewed his pieces of cucumber. People leave strange, little memories of themselves behind when they die. My letter went on: I think of you and Reiko and the aviary while I lie in bed after waking up in the morning. I think about the peacock and pigeons and parrots and turkeys - and about the rabbits. I remember the yellow raincapes you and Reiko wore with the hoods up that rainy morning. It feels good to think about you when I’m warm in bed. I feel as if you're curled up there beside me, fast asleep. And I think how great it would be if it were true. I miss you terribly sometimes, but in general I go on living with all the energy I can muster. Just as you take care of the birds and the fields every morning, every morning I wind my own spring. I give it some 236
36 good twists by the time I've got up, brushed my teeth, shaved, eaten breakfast, changed my clothes, left the dorm, and arrived at the university. I tell myself, "OK, let's make this day another good one." I hadn't noticed before, but they tell me I talk to myself a lot these days. Probably mumbling to myself while I wind my spring. It's hard not being able to see you, but my life in Tokyo would be a lot worse if it weren't for you. It's because I think of you when I'm in bed in the morning that I can wind my spring and tell myself I have to live another good day. I know I have to give it my best here just as you are doing there. Today's Sunday, though, a day I don't wind my spring. I've done my laundry, and now I'm in my room, writing to you. Once I've finished this letter and put a stamp on it and dropped it into the postbox, there's nothing for me to do until the sun goes down. I don't study on Sundays, either. I do a good enough job on weekdays studying in the library between lectures, so I don't have anything left to do on Sundays. Sunday afternoons are quiet, peaceful and, for me, lonely. I read books or listen to music. Sometimes I think back on the different routes we used to take in our Sunday walks around Tokyo. I can come up with a pretty clear picture of the clothes you were wearing on any particular walk. I remember all kinds of things on Sunday afternoons. Say "Hi" from me to Reiko. I really miss her guitar at night. When I had finished the letter, I walked a couple of blocks to a postbox, then bought an egg sandwich and a Coke at a nearby bakery. I had these for lunch while I sat on a bench and watched some boys playing baseball in a local playground. The deepening of autumn had brought an increased blueness and depth to the sky. I glanced up to find two vapour trails heading off to the west in perfect parallel like tram tracks. A foul ball came rolling my way, and when I threw it back to them the young players doffed their caps with a polite "Thank you, sir". As in most junior baseball, there were lots of walks and 237
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"Will you really take me to a porno movie?" "Of course I will."<br />
"A really disgusting one."<br />
"I'll research the matter thoroughly." "Good. I'll call you," she said and<br />
hung up.<br />
A week went by without a word from Midori. No calls, no sign of her<br />
in the lecture hall. I kept hoping for a message from her whenever I<br />
went back to the dorm, but there were never any. One night, I tried to<br />
keep my promise by thinking of her when I masturbated, but it didn't<br />
work. I tried switching over to Naoko, but not even Naoko's image<br />
was any help that time. It seemed so ridiculous I gave up. I took a<br />
swig of whisky, brushed my teeth and went to bed.<br />
I wrote a letter to Naoko on Sunday morning. One thing I told her<br />
about was Midori's father. I went to the hospital to visit the father of a<br />
girl in one of my lectures and ate some cucumbers in his room. When<br />
he heard me crunching on them, he wanted some too, and he ate his<br />
with the same crunching sound. Five days later, though, he died. I still<br />
have a vivid memory of the tiny crunching he made when he chewed<br />
his pieces of cucumber. People leave strange, little memories of<br />
themselves behind when they die. My letter went on:<br />
I think of you and Reiko and the aviary while I lie in bed after waking<br />
up in the morning. I think about the peacock and pigeons and parrots<br />
and turkeys - and about the rabbits. I remember the yellow raincapes<br />
you and Reiko wore with the hoods up that rainy morning. It feels<br />
good to think about you when I’m warm in bed. I feel as if you're<br />
curled up there beside me, fast asleep. And I think how great it would<br />
be if it were true.<br />
I miss you terribly sometimes, but in general I go on living with all the<br />
energy I can muster. Just as you take care of the birds and the fields<br />
every morning, every morning I wind my own spring. I give it some<br />
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