murakami, haruki - Norwegian wood

and saying "There there,' and she's got her arms around me and she's
stroking my back, and soon I'm starting to feel very strange, my whole
body is kind of hot. I mean, here's this picture-perfect beautiful girl
and I'm on the bed with her, and we're hugging, and her hands are
caressing my back in this incredibly sensual way that my own
husband couldn't even begin to match, and I feel all the screws coming
loose in my body every time she touches me, and before I know it she
has my blouse and bra off and she's stroking my breasts. So that's
when it finally hits me that she's an absolute dyed-in-the-wool lesbian.
This had happened to me once before, at school, one of the sixth-form
girls. So then I tell her to stop.
""Oh, please,' she says, "just a little more. I'm so lonely, I'm so lonely,
please believe me, you're the only one I have, oh please, don't turn
your back on me,' and she takes my hand and puts it on her breast -
her very nicely shaped breast, and, sure, I'm a woman, but this electric
something goes through me when my hand makes contact. I have no
idea what to do. I just keep repeating no no no no no, like an idiot. It's
as if I'm Paralyzed, I can't move. I had managed to push the girl
away at school, but now I can't do a thing. My body won't take orders.
She's holding my right hand against her with her left hand, and she's
kissing and licking my nipples, and her right hand is caressing my
back, my side, my bottom. So here I am in the bedroom with the
curtains closed and a 13-year-old girl has me practically naked - she's
been taking my clothes off somehow all along - and touching me all
over and I'm writhing with the pleasure of it. Looking back on it now,
it seems incredible. I mean, it's insane, don't you think? But at the time
it was as if she had cast a spell on me."
Reiko paused to puff at her cigarette.
"You know, this is the first time I've ever told a man about it," she
said, looking at me. "I'm telling it to you because I think I ought to,
but I'm finding it really embarrassing."
"I'm sorry," I said, because I didn't know what else to say.
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