C4 antho - Chamber Four
C4 antho - Chamber Four C4 antho - Chamber Four
~138~ The Chamber Four Fiction Anthology Castillo, I think. I would have spent far too much time wondering about how it all worked. But Ricardo? Ricardo wondered if the affliction gave Javier Castillo special knowledge beyond that of travel, if somehow, when in that space between disappearing and appearing, there were answers. But this thought was too complicated and Ricardo, despite trying to formulate the right questions, simply remained silent. What he said to Javier Castillo, instead, was something about dinner. In the dimly lit Italian restaurant, the backs of his arms sticking to the fake leather booth, Ricardo stared at Javier Castillo, smiled, but said nothing. Ricardo thought about ordering pasta, the one that looked like little ears, but he didn’t know what they were called. Javier Castillo ordered that pasta for Ricardo without a single word passing between them. Yes, somewhere in that space between disappearing and appearing, there must have been answers, but Ricardo had no idea how one reached such a place without the affliction. Ricardo worried that one day Javier Castillo would go in search of answers and never return. Ricardo first met Javier Castillo while working his evening shift at LAX. Ricardo worked a second job each evening as a skycap. In the gray space of the baggage claim, in the gray space of the check-in area, Ricardo had watched face after gray face arriving and departing. Javier Castillo was there to see his aunt off. Ricardo watched him the way he watched all people who were at LAX but neither arriving nor departing by plane. Accessories to travel, Ricardo had thought, accessories. They were not really people but means of transportation to or from the airport for these other people who were traveling by plane. Even years later, Ricardo could not explain why he continued to stare at Javier Castillo that night. It was not that Javier Castillo was a handsome man. He was, in many ways, rather ordinary in appearance. Javier Castillo had looked at him and said “Buenas noches.”
The Affliction ~139~ They began to talk. Ricardo noticed the way in which Javier Castillo’s eyes were dark, a dark brown flecked with gray. That Javier Castillo had spoken to him in Spanish didn’t bother Ricardo. Many people spoke to him in Spanish, could tell from his face and dark skin that he was of Mexican descent. They exchanged small talk, nothing remotely exciting. And despite this, Ricardo had felt his heart panic in his chest. Ricardo left the airport with him. He never went back. He never went home. He never called his wife and family. He couldn’t think of what to say or how to explain Javier Castillo to them. He left the airport with him and drove for hours. In a corner of his mind, he believed he was being abducted, but he had not been abducted. He had asked Javier Castillo if he could come with him. And in the sun visor mirror, Ricardo noticed his own eyes were a different color green. His eyes were more of a dark forest green, darker than the usual pale green he had seen in the mirror all of his life. Once, after almost three years of living with Javier Castillo, Ricardo felt the sudden urge to press his hand through him just before he completely faded away. He wanted to see if he would also start disappearing. The affliction. What must it have felt like? Could Javier Castillo actually feel himself dissolving? The hands, finger by finger? But Ricardo knew that when Javier Castillo disappeared, he did so evenly. It was not as if the chest dissolved leaving the heart exposed and beating. He just slowly faded into a shimmer, and then a shadow, and then air. It was gradual. There would be a man, and then a man seen through but still there, and then the dingy, yellowed wallpaper clinging to the wall behind where Javier Castillo had been standing. Dingy and dirty: the wall would suddenly be more sharply in focus, its browning yellow like the nicotine-and-tar-stained filter after smoking a cigarette. And though Ricardo had no explanation, he knew the disappearing happened faster at times,
- Page 87 and 88: Semolinian Equinox ~87~ ‘tether o
- Page 89 and 90: Semolinian Equinox ~89~ in five day
- Page 91 and 92: The Girl In The Glass ~91~ changed
- Page 93 and 94: Peacocks ~93~ of what, growing up,
- Page 95 and 96: Peacocks ~95~ “Instant friends,
- Page 97 and 98: Peacocks ~97~ Rebecca stood up. “
- Page 99 and 100: Peacocks ~99~ then I saw Eric kneel
- Page 101 and 102: Peacocks ~101~ I had little sympath
- Page 103 and 104: Peacocks ~103~ in my discussion of
- Page 105 and 106: Peacocks ~105~ no matter what she s
- Page 107 and 108: Peacocks ~107~ “Is it really poss
- Page 109 and 110: Peacocks ~109~ rent circumstances,
- Page 111 and 112: Peacocks ~111~ “Let’s move this
- Page 113 and 114: Peacocks ~113~ not-knowing would ne
- Page 115 and 116: The Naturalists _____________ by B.
- Page 117 and 118: The Naturalists ~117~ sights were n
- Page 119 and 120: The Naturalists ~119~ With each pie
- Page 121 and 122: The Naturalists ~121~ “Aww, come
- Page 123 and 124: The Naturalists ~123~ Nature’s Bo
- Page 125 and 126: The Naturalists ~125~ cranny. And I
- Page 127 and 128: The Naturalists ~127~ “Pardon?”
- Page 129 and 130: The Naturalists ~129~ She turned to
- Page 131 and 132: The Naturalists ~131~ As dusk appro
- Page 133 and 134: The Affliction ___________ by C. Da
- Page 135 and 136: The Affliction ~135~ the Los Angele
- Page 137: The Affliction ~137~ overwhelming n
- Page 141 and 142: The Affliction ~141~ would get back
- Page 143 and 144: Bad Cheetah ___________ by Andy Hen
- Page 145 and 146: Bad Cheetah ~145~ to invite us alon
- Page 147 and 148: Bad Cheetah ~147~ summoning a man a
- Page 149 and 150: Bad Cheetah ~149~ suddenly for a cu
- Page 151 and 152: Nothings ___________ by Aaron Block
- Page 153 and 154: Nothings ~153~ Lyndon had a little
- Page 155 and 156: Dragon ~155~ Dawnell stands agape,
- Page 157 and 158: Dragon ~157~ “Not this time, budd
- Page 159 and 160: Dragon ~159~ pitched askew by prair
- Page 161 and 162: Dragon ~161~ traffic light and idle
- Page 163 and 164: Dragon ~163~ “It’s Spanish,”
- Page 165 and 166: Dragon ~165~ second one on his nose
- Page 167 and 168: Dragon ~167~ higher across the widt
- Page 169 and 170: Dragon ~169~ oneers left the cities
- Page 171 and 172: Dragon ~171~ starling lands in the
- Page 173 and 174: On Castles ~173~ century. I went to
- Page 175 and 176: On Castles ~175~ medical profession
- Page 177 and 178: On Castles ~177~ “No, I’m conce
- Page 179 and 180: On Castles ~179~ People would vote
- Page 181 and 182: On Castles ~181~ “I’m going to
- Page 183 and 184: On Castles ~183~ enjoy, being that
- Page 185 and 186: On Castles ~185~ surrounded by the
- Page 187 and 188: On Castles ~187~ laugh inadvertentl
~138~ The <strong>Chamber</strong> <strong>Four</strong> Fiction Anthology<br />
Castillo, I think. I would have spent far too much time wondering<br />
about how it all worked. But Ricardo? Ricardo wondered<br />
if the affliction gave Javier Castillo special knowledge<br />
beyond that of travel, if somehow, when in that space between<br />
disappearing and appearing, there were answers. But<br />
this thought was too complicated and Ricardo, despite trying<br />
to formulate the right questions, simply remained silent.<br />
What he said to Javier Castillo, instead, was something about<br />
dinner. In the dimly lit Italian restaurant, the backs of his<br />
arms sticking to the fake leather booth, Ricardo stared at<br />
Javier Castillo, smiled, but said nothing. Ricardo thought<br />
about ordering pasta, the one that looked like little ears, but<br />
he didn’t know what they were called. Javier Castillo ordered<br />
that pasta for Ricardo without a single word passing between<br />
them. Yes, somewhere in that space between disappearing<br />
and appearing, there must have been answers, but Ricardo<br />
had no idea how one reached such a place without the affliction.<br />
Ricardo worried that one day Javier Castillo would go<br />
in search of answers and never return.<br />
Ricardo first met Javier Castillo while working his<br />
evening shift at LAX. Ricardo worked a second job each<br />
evening as a skycap. In the gray space of the baggage claim,<br />
in the gray space of the check-in area, Ricardo had watched<br />
face after gray face arriving and departing. Javier Castillo<br />
was there to see his aunt off. Ricardo watched him the way<br />
he watched all people who were at LAX but neither arriving<br />
nor departing by plane. Accessories to travel, Ricardo had<br />
thought, accessories. They were not really people but means<br />
of transportation to or from the airport for these other people<br />
who were traveling by plane. Even years later, Ricardo<br />
could not explain why he continued to stare at Javier Castillo<br />
that night. It was not that Javier Castillo was a handsome<br />
man. He was, in many ways, rather ordinary in appearance.<br />
Javier Castillo had looked at him and said “Buenas noches.”