Descent (Black Heart Romance presents Heaven & Hell)

wisely.”
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Calvin orders my dinner, and then he orders dessert.
It feels like I’m being tested in some way. He told me he wanted me to relinquish control to him,
but I don’t think I entirely understood the scale of it.
I’m starting to think his only reason for not letting me have my phone is that I keep asking for it.
Originally, I thought he was worried I would appeal to someone for help. I think I’ve had his motives
and concerns confused, so I’ve been trying to solve this problem in ways that will never work with
him.
I resolve to spend the rest of the night trying to do things his way. I don’t want to be his prisoner.
I don’t want to be his girlfriend, either, but if those are my only two options, one is clearly preferable
to the other.
So, I ignore the notion that it’s mental and start treating him like I would a boyfriend I picked out
for myself.
I thank him for dinner after he pays because I like when a first date doesn’t ask me to chip in. I
know this isn’t actually our first date, but I’m treating it like it is.
When we exit the restaurant and stop on the sidewalk, I reach over and take his hand.
His gaze darts to me, almost startled. He didn’t expect that.
I smile.
He won’t expect this, either.
Then I lean up on my tiptoes and kiss him.
I don’t always kiss on the first date and I never initiate, but on a typical first date, there’s no
chance in hell he would have already been inside me multiple times, either.
This isn’t a typical anything, so I throw out the rulebook and navigate the whole night by instinct
alone.
Once Calvin recovers from his surprise, he slides his arm around my waist and locks me against
his body. A jolt of excitement shoots through me at the rough way he grabs me, then blossoms into
warmth when his free hand comes up to caress my face.
He looks happy when he gazes down at me, and I really like knowing it’s a direct result of my
actions.
I want things to keep going well, so I swallow nervously before I speak. I’m so unsure in these