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The Shifting Tide: Weathering Change<br />
Ethan Bauschka<br />
When you think of a normal life, what do you imagine? The dictionary defines normalcy<br />
as a state of being usual, expected, or typical. Maybe to some, it is the consistency in the<br />
movements, and the security of all we’ve come to know and expect.<br />
Besides the rise and fall of the setting sun, there is nothing so certain. Life is crazy. The world<br />
changes beyond our control, and we find ourselves off our desired path. To me, this has<br />
always been a struggle; a back-and forth-I have wrestled with.<br />
I’ve been thinking of that subject lately, especially after all that has happened in recent years–<br />
the unrest, political conflicts, diseases, and chaos. These things, common in almost every<br />
generation, crashed upon me like thundering waves. As one who has always wanted that<br />
thing, a way to find inner peace, it was hard to weather the storm when the world I had once<br />
been so familiar with had changed.<br />
I’m a young guy, in his early twenties. For most of my life, I tried to find a steady path. However,<br />
as someone who has dealt with a mood disorder since I was young, I’ve always been<br />
uncomfortably aware of my shaky inner balance. My control of myself and the things I can<br />
change gave me a sense of power in small doses. It was relaxing to have consistency.<br />
Yet, for all it was worth, I had my ups and downs before the pandemic. I had a hard time<br />
being myself because I did not know who that was. With all that focus on self-control and<br />
maintaining some semblance of inner peace, I still had no idea what I liked or wanted in life.<br />
Then came the storm that changed my life. I should have done better during that time,<br />
especially as someone so aware of themself. But hindsight is twenty-twenty, and we all grow in<br />
our own time.<br />
I certainly did during these three long years.<br />
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I remember the way this strange new disease spread across the globe like wildfire. It was scary,<br />
but when you just can’t see those effects straight on, it is easy to see past all that is happening<br />
around you. We were locked down momentarily, and I went to my fast food job at Little<br />
Caesar’s as a mandatory worker. I watched the clock move as no one came to my store. Few<br />
cars passed, and fewer people came. Those early days were painfully slow.<br />
At first, I was not sure how to respond. My family has a history of being immunocompromised,<br />
so I made sure to be absolutely safe. I took precautions and never felt at ease. When I was<br />
alone with my family, I thought I could take the time to work on things I have been putting off.<br />
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