Tryst Six Venom by Penelope Douglas

I blink away the tears, steeling my jaw.
“That I can’t have that. Or that’s not for me, or I’ll never have that life,”
she continues. “A lifetime of being told I’m wrong for your world. Of not
seeing myself in your school hallways and represented in your town.”
“You won’t find what you’re looking for in the back seat of your car
either!” I grit out.
She nods, looking like she has more to say, but deciding that it’s not
worth it. She looks at me, several breaths passing before she drops her gaze
and murmurs, “Or at Marymount, I guess.”
I narrow my eyes. “What does that mean?”
She’s been there almost four years. She’s all of a sudden realizing she
doesn’t fit?
She meets my eyes again, swallowing and sounding calm, her anger
suddenly gone. “It means I don’t have anything to prove. I don’t know why I
ever thought I did. Especially to you.”
Because…because what happened in the locker room wasn’t one-sided.
She felt it, too. “Because you want to touch me,” I tell her.
She scoffs, tears glistening in her eyes. “Is that what this is about?” she
inquires. “Don’t think what happened in the locker room was real, just
because I kissed you back. I was angry and full of a lot of steam to blow off,
and pretty much in fucking shock too, but I don’t want you, Clay.”
No?
“You’re like vanilla,” she says. “I mean, yeah, it’s ice cream, but it’s not
really an option when there are other choices that taste better.”
She turns away, and I grab her, but instead of yanking away from me, she
grabs me back and presses me into the tree, its bark digging into my back.
She glares.
“Don’t say that,” I whisper.
“Why?”
“Because I can’t…” I don’t know how to explain. “I can’t… I can’t…”
I don’t want you. I can’t want you. It’s just…
So I say the only thing that I do know for sure. “I can’t leave you alone,”
I tell her.
That’s all I know. I need to feel it again.
My hair falls in my face, but I can smell the remnants of her watermelon
lip gloss. “Ask me to touch you.”
Please. I want her to want me to touch her. I won’t force her like last