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gripping my neck, and there’s a struggling sound coming from him, as if

he’s trying not to cry.

It takes me back to the last night he hurt me. The apologies he was

whispering as I drifted in and out of consciousness. I’m sorry, I’m sorry,

I’m sorry.

My heart is shattered, because Ryle hasn’t changed at all. As much as I

hoped he had, and as much as I know he wanted to, he’s still the same man

he’s always been. I somehow held on to a sliver of hope that he had become

stronger for Emmy, but this is absolute confirmation that I’m making the

right choices for her.

Ryle is clinging to me like I can make this better, and at one point in time

I thought I could. He’s a broken man, but he isn’t broken because of me. He

was broken before he met me. Sometimes people think if they love a broken

person enough, they can be what finally repairs them, but the problem with

that is the other person just ends up broken, too.

I can’t afford to allow anyone to break me anymore. I have a daughter I

need to be whole for.

I gently press my hands against his chest and urge him back into the

hallway. When I’m finally in a position where there’s enough space

between us to shut the door, I close it and lock it, and then I immediately

call my mother and tell her to put Emmy in the car and meet me at the park.

I don’t want them to be at her house if Ryle still plans on showing up there.

After I end the call, I move with purpose through my apartment. If I stop

and allow myself to get lost in what just happened, I might cry. I don’t have

time to cry right now. I get dressed to go to the park because I need to be

present for my daughter in every way that I can be.

Before I walk out the door, I grab the note Atlas wrote me and tuck it

into my purse. I have a feeling his words are going to be the only bright

spot to this day.

My premonition is coming true. I hear a loud clap of thunder as soon as I

pull into the parking lot of the park. There’s a storm brewing to the east, and

it’s heading this direction. Fitting.

It’s not raining yet, though, so I scan the playground until I spot my

mother. She’s holding Emmy, and they’re going down the slide together.

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