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LancaliI Fel in Love with HopeFirst
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This story is for both. It is for a
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Tonight, we argued. We fought like
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He doesn’t hear me. He only hears
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“We’re definitely getting caugh
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as to pretend he’s browsing for c
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C cocks his head to the side. “On
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But it doesn’t stop us from tryin
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are old too, nurses and doctors clo
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“Not when there’s a storm betwe
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“Do you think people will remembe
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I interlace our fingers and move al
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“Hikari,” Neo says, pensive ove
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“Did you steal it?”Hikari is a
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“Well, that sounds like everywher
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“Um-I-sorry.”“Why are you sor
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I gaze at the papers she holds tigh
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around her neck, another looking at
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Although when her mother turns to m
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bring him his dinner tray?” He po
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Neo is a writer.—For the next wee
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He grabs the corner of the tray and
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Neo doesn’t say anything else. He
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“Are there TVs in this place?”I
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can’t do much for him, but I can
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work. It loomsover Neo, although he
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His voice is a chorus of rough note
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“Sorry,” he says. Softly.“Do
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Also, I have a job to do.Neo’s in
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time I pictured her and listened to
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should tell her of our great plans
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“Reading makes me feel,” she sa
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“I’m Hamlet.” Yes, she did cl
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“Not anymore.”“Why?” she as
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I blink. “Huh?”“Since we’re
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The following pages were the result
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“You do hunch. You belong at Notr
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C sighs, his worry audible.“Neo,
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“It’s alright.” I’m incline
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Sony plops down on the bed too. A c
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“Sure,” Hikari agrees, amused,
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This is a darker place than Neo’s
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is a wild girl mercilessly kicking
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“I’m Sony.”Sony.All of Sony
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tells me chocolate isn’t a discov
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I’m not sure what Sony has exactl
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“Grumpy baby.”“Saaamm,” Neo
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Sony rests her head on his shoulder
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“I hate puzzles.”“You adore p
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Neo doesn’t move. He simply looks
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doesn’t want to talk about while
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They’re learning to work around a
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both my pockets.“I shouldn’t.
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much more strained than her husband
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“You should be.”“Why? Because
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“For Sony.” Hikari holds her kn
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People glorify youth. Maybe that’
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We exchange something pure then, so
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“Me?”Eric rolls a bandage aroun
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“You have no idea how nice it was
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“What happened to your eye?” Ne
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Endeared, I point back at the smirk
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Empathy wounds Neo’s face. He cup
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Neo took to Hikari the day he met h
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“Just throw me off the roof.”
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Hikari wakes in the early hours of
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“You’re not Hamlet,” I bite.
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him in his face as she reaches to s
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“You were rude.”“Sam.”“So
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“I-I never beat anyone up,” he
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“I’m sorry.”“Stop apologizi
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Sony and I settle on our usual clou
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“Neo.”“I forgive you, okay?
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For all her unintentional insensiti
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“It’s why he likes reading,”
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Still, Neo couldn’t reach those c
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They got in trouble often. Their te
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Without so much as knocking, he ope
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week later, he messages Neo every s
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But love is not a choice.“Without
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“Can I kiss you?” she asks. Her
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slowly turns to the same darkness s
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“Where do you want to go first, S
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close my fists, try to take up less
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Sony faltered once. If she falls or
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There was a noise, wheels swerving
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Hikari rushes backward when they ar
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“Because it is-”“Sony’s bod
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“Do you love me?” She motions t
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Hikari wipes her nose. She runs her
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screaming to die down. It digressed
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I don’t understand it enough for
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be. He is one of their many patient
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animated by little things. He is mi
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I nod with a pleased hum.We eat tog
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Fire flickers between our palms. It
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“We’re not upset with you,” C
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“You told me when we first met th
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“But it’s okay,” I admit. I s
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“I don’t understand.”“We’
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Sony called Eric ten minutes ago, t
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C stands just below, a hair’s bre
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“I’m not sure what to say,” I
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braced on the doorframe. “Her par
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Your mind is a palace greater than
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I grab the hem of my shirt and star
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can scrounge. I see their shadows f
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There are no string lights or stars
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Sam hums at my question, adjusting
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It takes me a moment, but I do. The
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Laughter can be beautiful, spontane
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“They hurt me.” His voice crack
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He doesn’t. He’s elsewhere, in
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if he hadn’t woken up, I would st
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Her sweater is all that covers the
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It turned out there wasn’t much t
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“I can’t wait to see it on a sh
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Sony stands from the bed, holding t
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“Alright,” she whispers. She sq
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C closes his hand around the should
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“I understand why you do what you
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C makes a noise. “Sam, this isn
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C starts the car.Hikari doesn’t b
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“So are you, my beautiful set of
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Neo nods his chin. “Sup.”“Uh,
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“You. Sit in that chair,” he sa
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“Remember, it’s gonna hurt a li
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“He can’t hurt any of us. Not h
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“Hikari, hold my hand.” C huffs
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same exact tree.” Hikari tries to
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“Sweet Sam,” he whispers. “Sw
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Pessimists. The lot of them, keepin
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They. The children in his past? Som
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“Oh, you filthy little animals!
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Sony smirked, as devils do. She gra
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the far distance.Neo and Hikari wri
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“I can’t believe you kissed Car
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“Hamlet wouldn’t say that.”
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I wake to the sounds of struggle.Ch
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A metronome is all reality leaves b
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“You said that to me the night we
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“Sony.” My voice shakes. “Why
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Time, in a turn of kindness, slows.
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“Goodbye, butter baby,” I whisp
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He simply hauled me along, feasting
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“Hah!” he cheers, throwing his
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that I smell nice, that he wants to
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bouts of shame return with rosy sha
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He can’t be like the people on th
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Hikari is vomiting. I rub her back
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“Cœur, t’es pas censé te prom
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“I’m not allowed to leave,” h
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“It’s okay,” Hikari says agai
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she keeps is the black stone I gave
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“Coeur,” he says.“I want to k
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“Si Dieu me laisse, on sera ensem
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Music became his constant companion
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“Sorry, I’m stupid,” Coeur wo
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Neo looked up from his book. His ga
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“Poor lad’s back in the hospita
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He was mildly aware that his health
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“To my Coeur, ” Neo mocks, “F
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“So great,” Coeur says. “Drug
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All can see me, I think. They simpl
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Love can also be gentle, subtle. A
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frown. He holds in a laugh, his lip
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We’re in the middle of a card gam
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a reason despite the fact that I co
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in the light, his friend was waitin
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putting a hand to their mouths in s
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I thought. Then, he would tell me I
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Because you meant them. You knew yo
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That is the last thing he ever gave
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“I’m not brave,” Neo says, sp
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The door opens with wind. Eric stan
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doesn’t matter.—Dad,Two weeks a
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“Oh, good.” The wind accompanie
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The clouds above us sink, like whal
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Whatever it is in this world that h
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