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NEW ZEALAND SPINAL TRUST 4<br />

My rugby coach came to visit, and I don’t know why, but I<br />

was so embarrassed to be seen like that. I guess I was still<br />

coming to terms with what had happened.<br />

Over that year I don’t know how or why, but I made a full<br />

recovery. I feel forever guilty about that. Why me? Why<br />

did my life magically go back to normal? It’s not fair.<br />

When I talk to the many people who willingly share their<br />

stories with the Spinal Network News, I really have no idea<br />

what they have been through. I apologise if I have come<br />

across like I do. Yep, I sustained a spinal cord impairment,<br />

but not like them.<br />

When I’m reading Brad’s book and he is pouring his heart<br />

out, recounting the agony of losing the ability to do the<br />

things he loved, it’s a moment that stays with you. You<br />

have no idea what that feeling is like unless you have lived<br />

it. When that reality is permanent and unforgiving, it is a<br />

devastating b<strong>low</strong>. That feeling of guilt and wanting to pay<br />

back is my enduring motivation to do this magazine and<br />

work for the Trust.<br />

I want to help in any way I can. I am inspired by the<br />

people I meet. I know that term gets bandied about all the<br />

time, but I mean it, I come home from trips where I meet<br />

amazing people and I feel fortunate for that privilege.<br />

I was lucky to spend some time with Jamie Astwood and<br />

her family recently in Hamilton. They are such an<br />

awesome family and they welcomed me into their home<br />

like an old friend.<br />

Jamie, who featured on the cover of our August issue,<br />

broke her back when she was just 11 years old. She is now 21<br />

and living a full and independent life. Her relentless<br />

positivity and smile have been trademarks of her recovery.<br />

Her family have endured the hard times, leaned into their<br />

faith and they have come out the other side stronger<br />

together. That is remarkable.<br />

I was lucky to talk to Bryce Dinneen for this issue. Bryce is<br />

such a good man. In the first few weeks after breaking his<br />

neck, he started to think about how he could help others.<br />

Bryce’s sister gave him some insightful words of advice<br />

and he changed his mindset. It was a turning point for<br />

him and for those in Aotearoa who have a disability and a<br />

passion for fishing.<br />

His achievement to create Wish4Fish, a fully accessible<br />

boat in Tauranga, is the stuff legends are made of. He<br />

—Peter Thornton<br />

When I talk to the many people<br />

who willingly share their<br />

stories with the Spinal Network<br />

News, I really have no idea what<br />

they have been through.<br />

ALL IN THE FAMILY: The Astwood family have<br />

endured the hard times, leaned into their faith and<br />

they have come out the other side, stronger together.<br />

Photo Credit: CatWalk Trust.<br />

never accepted ‘no’ for an answer and Bryce and his<br />

team raised millions to make their dream a reality. That<br />

is incredible.<br />

You get the feeling that Bryce will carry on living that<br />

life—helping others with scant thought or regard for<br />

himself or his own situation.<br />

And then Brad. We have gone big covering his book in this<br />

issue for good reason. It’s a compelling piece of work that<br />

will leave a lasting imp<strong>res</strong>sion. Brad has been widely<br />

praised for his honesty and just how raw his writing is.<br />

And yep, I’m sure his Mum is still getting her head around<br />

his over-sharing of his prolific sex-life. But Brad’s level of<br />

honesty is the magic of Owning It. It will make a<br />

difference to other’s lives because Brad has put himself<br />

second and others first to show what recovering from a<br />

high-level spinal cord impairment is like. It’s a brutal,<br />

lonely and challenging journey.<br />

You need people along the way to help you find hope again.<br />

And there is always hope. Brad has overcome the dark<br />

times to become a positive light. That is hugely inspiring.<br />

Of course, every journey with a spinal cord impairment is<br />

different and unique, but we can all learn from others’<br />

experiences. I want to be more like these people. I want to<br />

make a difference.<br />

It’s 3.30am and I’m still not asleep. I can hear my girls<br />

snoring away, finally, and I’m trying to join them.<br />

I feel guilty again—it’s always there. I can’t do anything<br />

about what happened that day. I’ll never understand it.<br />

But I’m forever grateful. And I will repay that gratitude in<br />

my work for others every day of my life.

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