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NEW ZEALAND SPINAL TRUST 4<br />
My rugby coach came to visit, and I don’t know why, but I<br />
was so embarrassed to be seen like that. I guess I was still<br />
coming to terms with what had happened.<br />
Over that year I don’t know how or why, but I made a full<br />
recovery. I feel forever guilty about that. Why me? Why<br />
did my life magically go back to normal? It’s not fair.<br />
When I talk to the many people who willingly share their<br />
stories with the Spinal Network News, I really have no idea<br />
what they have been through. I apologise if I have come<br />
across like I do. Yep, I sustained a spinal cord impairment,<br />
but not like them.<br />
When I’m reading Brad’s book and he is pouring his heart<br />
out, recounting the agony of losing the ability to do the<br />
things he loved, it’s a moment that stays with you. You<br />
have no idea what that feeling is like unless you have lived<br />
it. When that reality is permanent and unforgiving, it is a<br />
devastating b<strong>low</strong>. That feeling of guilt and wanting to pay<br />
back is my enduring motivation to do this magazine and<br />
work for the Trust.<br />
I want to help in any way I can. I am inspired by the<br />
people I meet. I know that term gets bandied about all the<br />
time, but I mean it, I come home from trips where I meet<br />
amazing people and I feel fortunate for that privilege.<br />
I was lucky to spend some time with Jamie Astwood and<br />
her family recently in Hamilton. They are such an<br />
awesome family and they welcomed me into their home<br />
like an old friend.<br />
Jamie, who featured on the cover of our August issue,<br />
broke her back when she was just 11 years old. She is now 21<br />
and living a full and independent life. Her relentless<br />
positivity and smile have been trademarks of her recovery.<br />
Her family have endured the hard times, leaned into their<br />
faith and they have come out the other side stronger<br />
together. That is remarkable.<br />
I was lucky to talk to Bryce Dinneen for this issue. Bryce is<br />
such a good man. In the first few weeks after breaking his<br />
neck, he started to think about how he could help others.<br />
Bryce’s sister gave him some insightful words of advice<br />
and he changed his mindset. It was a turning point for<br />
him and for those in Aotearoa who have a disability and a<br />
passion for fishing.<br />
His achievement to create Wish4Fish, a fully accessible<br />
boat in Tauranga, is the stuff legends are made of. He<br />
—Peter Thornton<br />
When I talk to the many people<br />
who willingly share their<br />
stories with the Spinal Network<br />
News, I really have no idea what<br />
they have been through.<br />
ALL IN THE FAMILY: The Astwood family have<br />
endured the hard times, leaned into their faith and<br />
they have come out the other side, stronger together.<br />
Photo Credit: CatWalk Trust.<br />
never accepted ‘no’ for an answer and Bryce and his<br />
team raised millions to make their dream a reality. That<br />
is incredible.<br />
You get the feeling that Bryce will carry on living that<br />
life—helping others with scant thought or regard for<br />
himself or his own situation.<br />
And then Brad. We have gone big covering his book in this<br />
issue for good reason. It’s a compelling piece of work that<br />
will leave a lasting imp<strong>res</strong>sion. Brad has been widely<br />
praised for his honesty and just how raw his writing is.<br />
And yep, I’m sure his Mum is still getting her head around<br />
his over-sharing of his prolific sex-life. But Brad’s level of<br />
honesty is the magic of Owning It. It will make a<br />
difference to other’s lives because Brad has put himself<br />
second and others first to show what recovering from a<br />
high-level spinal cord impairment is like. It’s a brutal,<br />
lonely and challenging journey.<br />
You need people along the way to help you find hope again.<br />
And there is always hope. Brad has overcome the dark<br />
times to become a positive light. That is hugely inspiring.<br />
Of course, every journey with a spinal cord impairment is<br />
different and unique, but we can all learn from others’<br />
experiences. I want to be more like these people. I want to<br />
make a difference.<br />
It’s 3.30am and I’m still not asleep. I can hear my girls<br />
snoring away, finally, and I’m trying to join them.<br />
I feel guilty again—it’s always there. I can’t do anything<br />
about what happened that day. I’ll never understand it.<br />
But I’m forever grateful. And I will repay that gratitude in<br />
my work for others every day of my life.