The Fake Queen

TABLE OF CONTENTS
Foreword – How They Use Sex and Lies as Weapons of Manipulation
Introduction – some art pieces for a language course
1 – Getting to meet the fake queen – Yared hires an artisan to manufacture his dolls
2 – The first encounter – art pieces delivered at an arts show – she throws charming
subliminal messages
3 – An encounter at the bookshop – the bait is thrown – the fake queen confesses to
Yared her underground aspiration to become a widow
4 – The third fatidic encounter – a stylish and sensual artisan appears – she presents
herself in a tight short black dress
Season I – My Wonderful King! – the idealization phase begins: love-bombing
Season II – The Triangulation – her ex-husband had never actually been discarded
Season III – Time to Breath – trying to figure out what was going on
Season IV – A Baby Princess is Coming – the fake queen is pregnant
Season V – An Impalatable Truth – proof of betrayal
Season VI – Trying to Survive – an emotionally burned-out survivor
Foreword – How They Use Sex and Lies as Weapons of Manipulation
A histrionic narcissist is usually an extremely charming, beautiful, sensual,
intense, provocative and attention-seeking woman.
At first glance, it can be difficult to differentiate between a narcissistic
female and a histrionic one. Both narcissists and those with HPD can be interpersonally
exploitative (narcissists need supply; histrionic crave validation and constant
reassurance), manipulating scenarios to draw the focus back to themselves and their
agendas. Both can be self-absorbed (narcissists are obsessed with maintaining their
superiority and status, histrionics more so with their appearance and sexuality). Both
can appear charismatic and vivacious, naturally persuasive and charming to others. Both
can demonstrate a sense of entitlement; yet while narcissists feel entitled to
belittle, abuse and exploit, histrionic people feel entitled to be the center of
attention at all times.

The histrionic female may present strong values and opinions initially, as well
as great potential as a reliable friend or relationship partner. However, in the long
run, she fails to live up to her so-called morals, standards or beliefs when presented
with the opportunity to uphold them. For example, she may compliment her female friends
in an exaggerated manner, but compete with them for attention. She might call out what
is morally wrong to appear self-important and superior, but her actions suggest an
underlying hypocrisy and failure to see beyond her own nose and take actions to improve
in her own behavior.
Histrionic females often cheat on their significant others (whether emotionally
and/or physically) and flirt with anyone who might give them the attention they so
desperately desire, even in innocuous ways. For example, they may pretend they are
asking for help from a waiter, when really, they are just looking for validation and an
interaction that will fulfill their need to be in the spotlight temporarily.
Female narcissists do not “grow out” of their childhood aggression; eerily
enough, they evolve into even more effective aggressive behaviors in adulthood, using
their manipulative tactics to serve their selfish agendas and to exploit others.
Perhaps one of the most understated qualities of the female malignant narcissist
is the pleasure and joy she takes in bringing down others. She enjoys making covert
jabs and watching gleefully as the formerly confident victim looks crestfallen, shocked
and offended. She displays a lack of empathy when the conversation turns to more
serious emotional matters, engaging in shallow responses or cruel reprimands that
invalidate her victim’s reality.
She is ruthless in her ability to first idealize, then devalue and discard her
victims without a second thought. She cannot engage in healthy, emotionally fulfilling
relationships, so she enjoys sabotaging the relationships and friendships of others for
her own personal entertainment.
The female narcissist may use her affiliation with her target to gain access to
resources or status, but as soon as the idealization phase is over, the devaluation and
discard follows. She then engages in rumor-mongering, smear campaigns and creates
‘triangles’ where she feeds others false or humiliating information about the victim.
She may pit her friends against each other by claiming that they are gossiping about
one another, when in fact, it is her falsehoods that are actually manufacturing
conflict within the group. By subjecting her victims to covert and overt put-downs, she
is able to then confirm her own false sense of superiority. She has an obsession with
her appearance as well as a high level of materialism and superficiality.

1
Why, when and how everything started
Some art pieces for an English course
September 2017
Y
ared was an English teacher and certified translator by profession. After mourning
almost eight months after his beloved wife´s death to a cancer tumor, which had
consumed one year and a half with hardships with treatment and intense distress,
he was on the verge of a deep depression.
A psychologist friend of his, advised him to start doing something lest he may
get severely sick. As a result of this dialog with the mental health practitioner,
Yared made up his mind to give an English course to a religious community for free as
an occupational therapy for his healing.
His students appreciated his lessons a lot, and he got motivated to expand his
teaching to their students´ children, and planned to develop an English kid course.
Then, Yared had the idea of having a puppet to represent the kid version of his
teaching. He happened to know that one of his students was a handicrafts worker, so he
talked to her if she could make the dolls he intended to use to stimulate and encourage
his future children in the classroom.
This girl was not able to make such dollies, still she knew some other artisan
who was an expert in designing and manufacturing these art pieces.
THE FIRST VIRTUAL CHATTING
On a morning of September 2017 through a WhatsApp conversation, Yared met Ani
Lorac for the first time – a pretty, 38-year-old, red hair woman.
After this very first virtual encounter things would never be the same again over
the course of his whole life.
In fact, Lorac was skilled enough to undertake the job of designing and making
Yared´s pet dolls. Accordingly, he hired her service, and price, payment conditions and
delivery date were arranged between customer and provider.
SEEING EACH OTHER FOR THE FIRST TIME
The delivery day was appointed and Yared, in the company of his younger brother,
who took his girlfriend, drove to an art show to receive his brand-new models.
It was a very small and tight room situated at a touristic area of the nearby
city. There were a lot of art pieces spread on tables all over the place.
Straightaway, Yared could grasp the view of his dolls, which were magnificently
painted and dressed while standing in the center of a table surrounded by other Lorac´s
pieces – a real master-piece! She was not at the place at that moment, but within
fifteen minutes or so, she appeared to Yared´s eyes for the first time.
She was even more beautiful than he had seen on a photo on the WhatsApp
conversation.
She said good-evening in a very polite and smiling way. Yared and Lorac exchanged
cheek kisses and hugged each other.
He thought to himself:
– “It looked as if an energy flow had had its trajectory over our bodies, and
both of us felt this same feeling about which we talked over later on.”
The other couple – his brother and his girlfriend had kept eyes on them, and had
had their own judgement about what was going on within those mere minutes inside that
small art resort.
Yared and his family spent about two hours at the art center. There were food and
drink to buy, music playing around and people were having fun.

Lorac invited them to go upstairs for a dance performance. She guided her guests
to the stairs leading to the show room. She was wearing a short yellow dress, yet she
started climbing while Yared followed immediately behind.
Later on, Yared´s brother told him jokingly:
“I thought to myself. If this woman climbs first, Yared´s gonna fuck her!”
After saying farewell to Lorac, Yared went out to their car, and his sister-inlaw
asked on the spot:
– “Isn´t the solicitous girl coming for dinner with us?”
He replied by saying:
– “How come? She´s still working there, and besides she´s a married woman.”
Both laughed, and my brother added:
– “Be careful so that you yourself don´t make a doll in her!”
For both of them, that energy exchange had become clear, and they spent the whole
rest of the evening teasing Yared about Lorac.
After dinner, they drove him home, and he went to bed. However, he could not
relax at once, and that saying was stuck in his mind:
– “Isn´t she coming for dinner with us?”
He decided to call Lorac up by WhatsApp. He sent her a good-night and thank-youvery-much
message. She replied immediately and said she had just arrived at her motherin-law´s
house. He took the opportunity to check out that question his brother´s girl
had made. So, he sent her this:
– “It was a bit late, and you were still working, but I thought about inviting
you to have dinner with us.”
To his surprise, her answer just confirmed his sister-in-law´s proposal. Lorac
answered him:
– “It would be a great idea, since I need to meet new people and have some
leisure. Next time, who knows?”
His mind dove into a tsunami of thoughts and feelings about the chance to get
closer to that woman.
– “Be careful Yared!” He said to himself.
– “She´s a married woman and has a family. You´re not so crazy to get into their
way, are you?”
In order to pacify his turmoiled elucubrations, he gave a command to his mind:
– “You´re a widower with a stable social and professional status. You´re keeping
up a big family with children and grand-children. And by the way, you´re not a teenager
any more, are you?”
This rational thinking was strong enough to choke his emotional feelings about
that first encounter with Lorac.
Yet, feelings, irrational as they may seem, are strong enough to emerge all the
time, consistently and persistently as our mind relax just a little bit, and stops
exerting its control over us.
Lorac was in his mind. Her memory had never lessened its hold on him, and he had
to face the dilemma – try to get to know that woman better or just forget and run his
life as if he had never met her.
The latter alternative turned out to be an impossible task. Therefore, he
designed a plan of action to conciliate both – approaching Lorac in order to learn more
about her, however disguising it in a possible future professional partnership.
His original and actual intention was to know more about that splendid woman and
check if by any chance he could get closer to her, because at that point in time, he
was completely taken by the idea of having that redhead girl by his side.
The professional partnership proposal was just an excuse to meet her again, and
this idea was able to compensate his moralist mind about his real meaning.
Therefore, while chatting some day on an Internet messenger they happened to
appoint a meeting at a fashionable and well-known bookstore in the downtown area of
their city.
Interesting enough to note, both of them were excited to see each other again.
Each with his and her own interests and intents, yet coinciding with a truth – man and
woman really desired to be together once more.

2
The couple started getting to know each other
The first appointed encounters
October 2017
T
he D-day and H-hour for their first encounter had arrived.
Lorac had told him if he could manage to afford her with a taxi fare
back home she´d be available to stay with him for 5 hours. That was more
than he expected to discuss professional ideas and plans.
Nevertheless, they both recognized that was just an excuse. Truthfully, he and
she would take the chance to study each other.
On the afternoon of their first meeting she was wearing a long black dress. Her
red hair was held up, and she carried a couple of heavy bags. She had bought a lot of
materials for her handicraft work.
Portraying himself as a gentleman, Yared took her bags. They sat down at a cafe
table and had a long conversation about businesses, her plans for an International Art
Fair to come in the near future, and her will to foster and upgrade her activities.
Yared kept a supportive attitude, and offered her some help, just in case she
wanted him as a partner. Then, they went downstairs the bookstore and he bought a kid
talking English book for her small daughter. She was very appreciative, and he was
optimistic about their approaching within these first hours in her company.
Just before going home, because it was already 8:00 pm, Lorac went to visit the
toilet. When she returned they had their last conversation that evening.
She revealed something veiled or not in her mind.
– "Sometimes, I feel like being a widow!"
He thought that to be weird for a first encounter with a stranger. A wife telling
him she had secret wish that her husband died!
Afterward, he called out a taxi cab, she got into the car, they said goodbye, and
they both went home.
Later in that evening, Yared contact her again through the messenger. She had
arrived home safely, and her daughter had loved the gift. They thanked each other for
the time they had spent together, while her confession still lingered persistently in
his mind.
– "Sometimes, I feel like being a widow!"
That disclosure added to the one of a possible opportunity of having dinner
together was enough for him to conclude she was telling him – she was sending him a
message of a possible relationship for them.
That could not be a mere coincidence, and after all, they´d just met once, and
she´d been carrying a marital life with that guy for quite a long time. They had a kid
girl for upbringing. How come a woman would say such an intimate thing to a strange man
in their very first encounter?
Despite strange as it might have seemed to his rational mind, Yared´s emotional
side decided to ignore any serious outcome an engagement with that woman would bring.
And, all of a sudden, that evening before falling asleep, he came to a
conclusion: if their second encounter ever took place, there´d be no more return.
He was convinced Lorac had waved a green flag towards him, and he took that
message delightfully and willingly.
It ran no more than ten days or so for them to arrange another meeting. The
second date was appointed and there they went.
THE SECOND MEETING
The third fatidic encounter – a stylish and sensual artisan appears – she presents
herself in a tight short black dress
Lorac had some workmen repairing her countryside house just before taking her bus
heading for their meeting place – that same bookstore.
The bus was sluggish and made her late for about one hour. During the journey she
called Yared up two or three times to explain her delay, and he could notice she was
anxious and nervous. He reassured her he´d be waiting as long as possible to see her
again.

In order to help time pass by, Yared grasped a book from the shelves and started
reading the cover, as he heard a soft and sensual voice whispering by his side:
– "Hi!"
As he lifted his eyes towards her, he could see an almost top-model instead of
that simply dressed artisan of the last encounter. She was wearing a tight, stylish,
short, sensual black dress, had a sexy makeup on her face, and smiled at him
fancifully.
They talked a little bit in the bookstore, but she invited him to cross the
street and walked towards the bohemian area of the city. And so they went.
Man and woman talked and drank together. Yared had some beers, and Lorac had
three or four caipiroscas – a sweet alcoholic beverage made out of cachaça and lemons.
Two or three hours later, she took her mobile and called a friend of hers.
According to her, a woman member of the same church she attended. They had arranged to
meet late that night.
Yared became a bit disappointed because they could stay longer together,
especially now they had drunk, and their spirits were high.
She said she couldn´t stay any longer, and he offered a hike by taxi as far as
the place she was supposed to meet her friend.
After Lorac had got out of the car, they said goodbye, and he went home.
At about 8 am the other day, she sent him a message via WhatsApp, and posted her
photo. She looked apprehensive and exhausted.
He asked her:
– "Where are you now? Didn´t you go home?"
She replied:
–"No! I´m still at my friend´s house. I don´t feel like going home again. And
after all, I know there´s going to be a big fight!"
Yared counseled her:
– "No! Go home! You have a husband, a small daughter and a house to take care.
Tell your partner you got delayed and couldn´t go back home late in the evening.
Therefore, decided to sleep at a friend´s house. Everything will be fine."
So did Lorac, and later on that day, she sent him another message reporting
everything was calm. As far as Yared was concerned, there were no more doubts left.
Lorac was about to break up with her husband, and she´d be free to start a
relationship with him. That was only a matter of time – a very short time so as to say.

3
Triangulation takes place
Ani Lorac discards her partner to take over Yared
November 2017
T
hough without intimacy, yet with a lot of intensity Yared and Lorac met for
four or five times more. They had lunch and dinner together once in a while.
They danced together, and talked a lot about life, relationships and her
hardships and frustrations in that toxic life she was carrying with that guy.
In fact, Yared didn´t know anything about her, neither did he know any of her
family member or friend. All the information he grasped about her existence was coming
from her own mouth.
As Yared perceived a triangulation was taking shape. So, he had a serious
conversation with her during a dinner date. He told her he wouldn´t embark in a
threesome relationship, he respected the man on the other side, and he didn´t want to
disturb her life, much least his own. For that reason, if she really was about to start
something with him she had to solve her unstable marriage first.
First Discard of Ex-partner
It was a Sunday morning, and Yared was at his mother´s house for lunch. His
brother and his girlfriend had been invited, too. A while before lunch was served they
went down and took their way to the beach. His mobile rang, and Lorac was on the other
side of the line.
– "I´ve made my mind! I´m going to go through this experience with you! I want to
stay with you, there´s no more chance for me to keep this toxic and unhealthy marriage.
It´s driving me crazy!”
She was nervous and crying a lot. Yared told her to calm down and be sure about
her decision. She told him that it was definite. She added:
– "Tomorrow I´m going to tell him we are separating. It´s impossible to go on! I
don´t want to stick to this hellish life any longer!"
Next day, she contacted Yared in the afternoon to tell him that was really the
day she´d convey their separation, and she kept sending him messages until she finally
said:
– "It´s done! It´s finished! I´m free to be yours!
Yared said it was fine, since she was already free, he could take her as his
partner to start a relationship with her.
Immediate Investment for a New Supply
On Wednesday, two days after she´d broken up with the guy, they met at a mall,
had a snack, talked a little, Yared kissed her, and they went to a hotel.
That was their first intimate contact. Yared had been sexually abstemious for
quite a long time, and she had a loud orgasm from a tantric massage he gave her.
On the following day, they both went home for their ordinary routines. But their
lives had changed at that time and forever to come.

Love-bombing Intensified
After that first night sleeping together, Yared and Lorac kept meeting only on
weekends, when her daughter was in the company of her ex-partner. So, they met within a
fortnight´s interval, yet keeping long conversations on the messenger. Once they spent
four hours in a single call, and Lorac sent him lots of nudes!
It seemed he had found a great mate. She was young, beautiful, attractive,
hardworking, an excellent mother, had promising future plans – and especially she was
redhead. That was a physical trait he´d longed for since he was a teenager – that was
actually a strong fetish of his. And there she was – Lorac to be his lover. Yared was
overwhelmed with energy, enthusiasm, encouragement to face life again, and completely
sexually refueled.

4
The Fake Queen´s Agenda is Put Into Practice
Lorac persuades Yared to move a step further in their relationship
December 2017
A
fter a month or so, while they were having breakfast in their favorite
hotel, Lorac started a conversation concerning Yared´s expenses with their
dates, hotels, and meals among other things. She commented:
– "Yared, you´ve been spending too much money with us. I love it all, but I was
thinking we could stay at my place where we could enjoy more privacy, longer stays and
it can be cheaper for your pockets. What do you think about it?"
He replied:
– "Darling, I´m very happy the manner we are leading our lives. It looks as if we
are on vacation, and besides I don´t plan to start a stable union marital status right
now. We´d better keep things this way. Don´t you agree?"
Without any quarrel, she added:
– “Ok. No problem!” It was only an idea. In fact, I love all this, and I am
delighted with our relationship."
More Love-bombing
Christmas time had just arrived, and the new couple planned to stay together for
their first Santa Claus evening. Therefore, they scheduled to meet on X-mas eve.
Yared had dinner at his mother´s and Lorac went to her ex-husband´s family place
to have dinner with them and leave her daughter, so that they could be together.
After dinner, she called him and said she was heading for his family´s address.
When she arrived, he got another message, went downstairs, got into the car, kissed her
and they went to a hotel he´d booked for that special night.
They stayed together for the 24 th and 25 th of December, after which they both went
back to their own houses.
The enamored couple had another date on New Year´s Eve, and this time she had
dinner with Yared´s family. She met his mother and other family members. They slept in
their favorite hotel located in a coastal area of the city.
The actual Fake Queen´s intention is submitted for a second time
Again, Lorac came with the idea of staying in her place instead of booking hotel
rooms. She used the same arguments – saving money, privacy and longer stays together.
Once more, Yared denied her offer. She didn´t argue, and accepted his decision.

Yared surrendered to Ani Lorac´s Agenda
January of the New Year had started, and Yared went to attend Lorac´s church
facilities. These meetings always happened on Fridays – the day she helped with her
services.
On a certain Friday, after church, she invited Yared to visit her house. This
time he couldn´t resist, and said yes.
She became radiant, and so they went to a big supermarket neighboring the
religious institution. The couple bought a lot of stuff, including wine, shrimps, a new
bed clothes collection, and special candles. Everything was done in preparation for a
very special love night, and so it was.
Lorac cooked the shrimps, Yared opened the wine bottle, lit the candles, and he
had the most sensual dinner ever.
That was the first time Yared got into her place. It was a small and cozy
apartment with minimal furniture and some art pieces hung on the walls.
They made love all night long, and Yared felt as if he was in paradise. At last,
happiness had reached him after two years of suffering and lack of a female company.
In his head, thoughts were that Lorac was right since the beginning. Her house
was the perfect place for their love affair.
Next morning, at the table for breakfast, Lorac asked for financial help. She
said:
“You know, the amount you can save with us here in my house is much more than I
pay for the apartment mortgage and condominium fees. If you could just loan me these
payments for this month, it´d be a great help, darling.”
Yared asked:
“How much do you need?”
She replied:
“It´ll be only six hundred BRL! With this I can pay both bills – the mortgage and
the condominium fees, honey!
He added:
“Ok! Yet, so that you don´t get this money for free, could you please make two
art pieces for me? I´d like to have a Chinese unicorn. It´s name is Ki-lin. And, I´d
also like you to manufacture a toy horse for my grandson. Is it right?”
She said smiling:
“Sure! That´s easy! No problem!
As a result, Yared paid both bills for Lorac in January of 2018, and he was
delighted for having been able to help his new partner.

5
First Sign of Devaluation
Yared starts being devaluated by Lorac
January-June 2018
Y
ared lived far away from Lorac – about 30 kms, a two-and-a-half-hour
journey. At that time, he didn´t have a car, so he had to take a subway for
17.2 kms, and then complete his voyage to her house by bus and a walking,
around 15 kms more. This trip was hard since both the subway and the bus used to be
overcrowded, and he had to stand from the terminals up to his last bus stop. However,
he did all that sacrifice with joy in his heart, and it wasn´t any nuisance for him
whatsoever. The reward to see his girlfriend again each time was worthwhile.
One January evening, people were waiting the biggest moon of the year to appear.
Lorac had invited Yared to go to her place, take her and her daughter and go the beach,
so that they good have a privileged view of this Nature´s show.
Toward midafternoon the bus was already awfully jam-packed, slow and the trip was
strenuous. Yared was standing amongst dozens of sweated people fretful to get home from
an excruciating work day.
All of a sudden, Yared´s mobile echoed. He answered and Lorac was on the line.
“Aren´t you coming? My king used to be more punctual!”
Yared had had a wearisome labor time, and was exhausted in that bus bursting with
passengers. So he reacted:
“Can´t you understand I´m hung by one arm, crushed on both sides, and trying to
get to you, and you´re diminishing my efforts instead of recognizing them! How come?”
She didn´t say anything else, and hung up.
When he arrived, she cast him a glance of intense dislike, spoke a bit rudely and
gave the stuff she had prepared for the evening picnic for him to carry.
Yared felt a bit disappointed, but the expectation of a good time together was
enough for him to forget that lack of empathy of his new girlfriend. Next, they went to
the beach by tax.
On the beach, Yared saw that Lorac had taken very few eating items, and that
they´d need more food and drink. So, he went to a nearby supermarket and bought a lot
of new stuff, such as soft drinks, cakes, chocolates and mineral water.
He felt another dissatisfaction at Lorac, when he tried to get a small fruit
among the ones she had brought.
She said:
“Hey! These fruits are mine! Eat from your stuff!
He noticed that was not a fair sharing of the things the couple had gathered for
their leisure that beautiful evening.
After they got home, Lorac offered Yared a lot of sex, and that displeasure he´d
felt on the beach just vanished instantaneously.
He had gone through his first rollercoaster ride of that relationship. There was
devaluation, criticism and selfish attitude on the lower part, and a lot of sex on the
higher one.
The First Lie Evidence
By June of 2018, time of the year for Valentine´s day in Yared´s country, he
introduced Lorac to the owner of a gift shop near his house. He intended to help his
girlfriend in selling her art pieces. And, indeed, she got a big job – making small
heart souvenirs for lovers.
On the delivery day, Yared couldn´t go with her, but helped all the way through,
even paying her mobile bill. He had to visit his second grandchild – a girl who had
just been born. That was a Friday, and Yared after saying goodbye to Lorac, said that
he´d call her later when he got home. Yet, that was the replied he received from the
woman:
“No need! I´ll get home very tired. I call you up. Count on me!”
Around 8 next morning Yared called Lorac up. She answered the phone, but as the
conversation had just begun, he could listen her doorbell ringing.
Lorac hurriedly said:
“It´s my neighbor and I have to answer, I´ll call you up later, ok?”
He said:

“Ok! No problem! We can talk later.”
On Sunday, Yared head happily for Lorac´s apartment to celebrate Valentine´s
day. As he opened the door, since he had his own keys, he could see a lot of
paraphernalia that had not been there before. There was another fan, bags full of
things, clothes, a small living-room table, and so on. He just imagined what had
happened – Lorac wouldn´t be able to fetch all that stuff and bring them by bus or
taxi. She might have had someone´s help – and the only possibility in Yared´s mind was
her ex-partner!
He took a breath, had a shower, ate dinner and went to their bedroom. Lorac was
in the restroom, and entered shortly after, when he inquired her:
“Where did all these things come from?”
She replied:
“They´ve come from my countryside house. You know I have another real estate,
don´t you?
Yared reverberated:
“Yes, I do! My actual question is – how could you manage bringing all these
things alone?
She said:
“I did it by bus of course. It took me several trips to finish!”
He got a bit annoyed and spoke to her:
“Please, stop lying Lorac! You know I know you asked your ex-partner´s help. Why
lying about that?”
She was getting her panties from the wardrobe as she turned around and confirmed:
“Yes, you´re right. I asked his help to fetch all this. I had to!”
He commented:
“The problem´s not he helping you, a problem here is that you lied to me! Why?”
She said:
“I didn´t want you to get angry with me. I didn´t want to bother you, honey!”
Yared added:
“It´s better to get angry at the truth than sweet at the lie. Please, the next
time tell me the truth. Ok?”
She amiably answered yes and told him that it would never happen again, and asked
him for apologies. She could turn him calm and reassured when she said:
“It´s you I chose, not him! I left him to be with you my love! I just needed his
car to do me this favor.”
He had gone through his second rollercoaster ride of that relationship. There was
falsehood, on the lower part, and a lot of sex on the higher one.
The roller-coast of emotions – Psychological evidence scientifically explained
Narcissists are the archetypal Jekyll and Hyde characters, one way one moment, one way the next. A rollercoaster
ride for anyone involved with them. When we become involved in a new relationship, a need to bond and
connect with others is usually the main reason, leading hopefully to love. However, narcissists have their own reasons
for connecting with others that has nothing to do with love. The simple reason being they are incapable of love and
normal connection with others. The paradox is that narcissists need others more than anyone. Their sole source of
self-esteem and self-worth comes from the admiration of their victims but they walk the constant tightrope between
needing others and needing to be left alone. They have a massive void within them that can only be filled by sucking
their victims dry. They enter into relationships being completely self-absorbed and not caring about the needs of
others. They do need to make sure, however that someone is always available for them (on their terms) for sex,
admiration or whatever they need before they disappear again, emotionally or physically. Anyone who has had the
misfortune to be involved with a narcissist can probably define three clear phases that repeat themselves over and
over, sometimes in the same relationship and sometimes with new victims.
Stage One: Over Evaluation – The Illusion is Created
Narcissists are very choosy. They choose their victims carefully and their choice is usually based on such
things as status, wealth, influence or ability. The victims are usually attractive and popular. The more of this the
victim has, the greater the value of the supply for the narcissist. Narcissists are great observers at this stage. They
place their victims on a pedestal and make sure that they get everything they need in the way of care, loving and
attention. They idolize, worship them and make the victim feel that they have been waiting all their life for this person
to appear. The victim might actually believe that the narcissist is in love with them, but this is infatuation. The

relationship moves quickly based on the promises that the narcissist makes. The victim, being so wrapped up in all
the attention coming their way, happily moves along with it, not believing their luck that this person is in their life.
They have fallen for the illusion created by the narcissist and it leaves them totally unprepared for what is to follow.
Stage Two: Devaluation – True Colors
This is the phase when the narcissist starts to show their true self. Once they are confident that the victim’s
love and devotion has been secured, the narcissist’s false self-portrayed in the first phase starts to disappear and the
true self starts to emerge. Many victims start to wonder at this stage what is going wrong as the narcissist starts to
emotionally and physically withdraw from the victim. The truth is that the narcissist has become bored and the void is
starting to open up again. The narcissist starts to question the victims´ worthiness, blaming them for the moods and
agitation the narcissist displays. The narcissist starts to emotionally abuse their victim, leaving them an emotional
wreck and it often results in the narcissist leaving. The victim usually tries all they can to hold onto the narcissist,
giving them the benefit of the doubt, hoping the illusion will reappear. Unknown to the victim, the narcissist feeds off
the victim’s misery as much as admiration, either emotion keeps the victim hooked. The cruel, uncaring individual
emerges from behind the mask as a true reflection of the narcissist. They will take no responsibility for their actions
and have no compassion for their victim… They simply do not care how their victim is or how they are feeling. Victims
are often at a loss at this stage to understand what happened and even more confusing is when the narcissist
reappears occasionally with the false self in view, hoping to tap into the supply once again. This will continue until it
suits them to stop it. The victim was never anything but an object, to be discarded and thrown away at the
convenience of the narcissist. At this stage, the narcissist is probably already targeting their next victim, ignoring the
previous victim completely or the victim has started to place healthy boundaries around themselves. Either way, the
result is the same.
Stage Three: Discard
Being involved with a narcissist is like having a tornado blow its way through your life. Once it has died down,
you are left with a mess. Emotionally, financially and sometimes physically, the victim has suffered greatly. It is
incredible how quickly a narcissist can leave their victim and pull away, airbrushing the victim out of their lives
completely, separating anything that held them together and completely ignoring the victim. At this stage, victims are
asking “did he or she really love me?” The answer is no. Victims are only a means of narcissistic supply, a resource to
be discarded when spent. Once this happens, the victim is quickly thrown away, abruptly, without warning and with
surgical precision. This is a traumatic phase for the victim who has likely had their self-esteem shot to pieces, been
made to carry all responsibility for the narcissist and usually has to watch the scenario playing itself over again with
the new victim. It is important for victims to realize that they were initially targeted by a con-artist and could not have
done anything differently. The narcissist that breezed in and out of your life will do this with everyone they meet.
They usually have a past full of similar victims and the future will be the same. The one thing that is essential is to
close all doors because the narcissist will always reserve the right to revisit an old source of supply, when it suits
them.
Source: https://theonlinetherapist.blog/the-three-stages-of-narcissist-relationships-a-roller-coaster-ride-2/
GLOSSARY
Narcissistic Supply [NS] – attention, in both its public forms (fame, notoriety,
infamy, celebrity) and its private, interpersonal, forms (adoration, adulation,
applause, fear, repulsion). It is important to understand that attention of any kind
- positive or negative - constitutes Primary Narcissistic Supply.
Source of Supply [SS] - is the person that provides the narcissistic supply.
Explanatory Notes

People involved in this true account as far as I know, and to the best of my
knowledge while living with FQ.
SS1 – a boy FQ selected among her friends when she was only 16 years old and decided
to lose her virginity – have her first sexual intercourse experience. After a few
sexual intercourses, this guy happened to fall in love with her, and wanted to commit
himself to the relationship and get to know her family, FQ told him: “No need!, It´s
ok! Don´t worry. Let´s stop here!” And so, she discarded SS1.
SS2 – a boyfriend FQ chose to date who in her own words was not her beauty pattern
for a man. This boy´s mother ordered her to leave out her son´s way. The mother told
FQ: “Leave my son alone because you´re destroying his life!” She wrote him a goodbyeletter,
delivered to this boy, and left him, without looking back.
SS3 – a boyfriend FQ had in her teenager years who seemed to be the most durable
affective relationship she held until then. According to her own accounts about this
man: “I cheated on him a several times!” “He was a stupid guy!” “He suffered from
early ejaculation, and I couldn´t come to climax with him!” After more than 20
years, she told me SS3 had found her phone number and called her to see her.
SS4 – Her ex-partner who became the father of her older daughter. She met him while
working in a graphic company, and he was one of her clients when they started to
date. He was a playboy, rode motorcycles, and was addicted to marijuana and alcoholic
drinking. He got a loan from her to buy a new motorbike, got another girlfriend,
didn´t pay her back and disappeared. She became furious at him.
SS5 – The only legal husband FQ has ever had. She was looking for a new job after
breaking up with SS4. She happened to find a position as a call attendant at a Health
Plan selling company. She got involved with the owner of this company, got married to
him, became also owner and chief of her co-workers, and led a 7-year life with him.
As she said, they traveled a lot. She made a lot of nude photographic albums in
motels, beaches and houses especially rented for this purpose. She never even got
pregnant from this man. In carnival time, she used to go out alone with a female
friend of hers, but he didn´t accompany her. He was an evangelist church leader. He
also paid a lot of professional courses and a model course for FQ. After a year, they
went bankrupt. They lost even their car, which they gave to another church trying to
recover, and went to live at her mother-in-law´s house. Then, this man got a very
amount of money from an inheritance. He bought her a tract of land in another city,
far away from everybody else, and built her a small house. FQ has this house until
now, and lives there. She started a divorce sue against this guy, and finally got
divorced. FQ said she celebrated with a cake she cooked herself for this special
occasion.
SS6 – Six months later, FQ, through a social media relationship website got to know
a military man with whom she started a love affair. This relationship lasted only 6
months. She broke up with him while he was driving her home when she provoked an
argument. As the traffic light turned red, she got out of the car, and slammed the
door so badly that it was damaged.
FIRST HOOVERING
As FQ herself told me, by accident she met SS4 in a hospital room, where she was
recovering from a facial surgery to extract a malignant tumor. They started dating
again, and she told me: “This time I´m going to fuck him!” She got pregnant from this
guy, and led a very toxic and abusive relationship with SS4. She almost lost their
first baby girl.
SECOND HOOVERING
After discarding SS4, FQ attracted and hoovered SS5. She got a job as a Beauty
Products representative, and she needed a car for that position. SS5 left the keys of
his car with her. After a while, she quitted this job, discarded SS5 again, and
hoovered SS4 once more. In 2017, the year I met FQ, she had had an abortion. She said
it was because of the heavy suffering she was going through with him.
Me – I met FQ in September 2017, and our true life story began as it is narrated in
this book.

USEFUL VOCABULARY
…his memory has never lessened its hold on her…
…torn between returning to him and staying with their daughter…
…a daring voyage into the dark unknown…
…he thought odd in the circumstances…