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Serving the <strong>Mid</strong>dle <strong>Tenn</strong>essee LGBT+ Community and its Allies | MAY+JUN <strong>2022</strong><br />
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CONTENTS | MAY+JUN <strong>2022</strong><br />
13<br />
7<br />
8<br />
ASK<br />
10<br />
THEME: FRESH AIR<br />
ALLIE<br />
Am I still bisexual if I’m married to a man?<br />
LGBT ADVOCATE<br />
Meet the co-founders of Nashville’s Gender<br />
& Sexuality Alliance who are working to build<br />
queer community outside of the bar scene<br />
13 COMMUNITY<br />
Birdwatching updates and resources in<br />
<strong>Mid</strong>dle <strong>Tenn</strong>essee. Plus—Black Birders<br />
Week <strong>2022</strong> is coming up!<br />
16 FAITH+SPIRITUALITY<br />
Deconversion book recommendations for<br />
navigating a loss of faith<br />
19 LIFE<br />
Poignant coming out stories from both<br />
halves of a beautiful couple<br />
22 HOROSCOPES<br />
What do the stars have in store for us<br />
this <strong>May</strong> and <strong>Jun</strong>e?<br />
ON THE COVER<br />
19<br />
Barred Owl at Radnor<br />
Lake State Park<br />
photo by Chellie Bowman<br />
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theme<br />
Outdoor public spaces have always been integral to the celebration and activism of our community.<br />
The above photo is from the 2nd Annual Memphis Pride, 1981.<br />
Photo courtesy of OUTMemphis collection, Special Collections Department, University of Memphis Libraries.<br />
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life<br />
Dear<br />
Allie...<br />
Am I Still Bisexual?<br />
by Star McGill Goudey<br />
Dear Allie,<br />
I am a 34-year-old woman in a happy hetero<br />
marriage who has only ever dated men. After going<br />
to therapy to heal some traumas and discover myself,<br />
I have come to recognize that I am bisexual. It is<br />
something that I sensed off and on but filed away as<br />
an impossibility. I love my husband and our life that<br />
we’ve built over the years. He is very supportive of<br />
me. I don’t think I want to pursue any kind of open<br />
relationship although we have discussed it. However, I<br />
feel like a fraud. Am I still bisexual if I've never even kiss<br />
a woman?<br />
Yours,<br />
Am I A Fraud?<br />
Dear AIAF,<br />
I am so happy that you are exploring more deeply<br />
who you are as a human. It’s hard work sometimes to<br />
know yourself! First, I want to assure you that you are<br />
very valid, even if you never physically explore same<br />
sex attraction with another human. You aren’t a queer<br />
imposter! I also applaud you for having the courage to<br />
reach out. I think part of the soul rending struggle when<br />
coming out later in life is recognizing our own validity. I’ve<br />
thought a lot about the word audacious lately. It takes a<br />
lot of audaciousness to own who we are, and to do the<br />
work required to fully embrace it. It sounds like you have<br />
a great start on that since you have been in therapy. With<br />
that in mind, I can offer you some concepts that can<br />
start you on your journey of acceptance. Have you heard<br />
of compulsory heterosexuality? This is what many late<br />
comers to their queer identities have discovered caused<br />
the disconnect between who they are truly and who they<br />
sculpted themselves to be.<br />
Many of us have grown up with compulsory<br />
heterosexuality (comphet), which may be more accurately<br />
described as internalized heteronormativity. We learned<br />
growing up that the only way to happiness and a picket<br />
fenced yard looked like one man and one woman. If we<br />
felt attraction or interest in a human of similar gender<br />
to us we were told that was just how best friends are<br />
with each other. That we were to cultivate relationships<br />
with the opposite gender and if there weren’t sparks<br />
that was okay because its normal not to have a wild sex<br />
life in marriage. But that isn’t the reality of the human<br />
experience. Not when it is removed from the lens of our<br />
cultural norms. When humans are free to be human and<br />
explore their individual desires and needs the outcomes<br />
become a rainbow of possibilities. And this is where I<br />
believe you can find some peace within yourself.<br />
You are bisexual. Even if you never flirt with a woman.<br />
Even if you never kiss a woman. Even if you never talk to<br />
another woman. You are bisexual because you recognized<br />
within yourself the desire and attraction which is a mind<br />
and body function that can’t be faked. This is something<br />
many bisexuals question themselves about. It can help to<br />
meet some of them and converse about experiences.<br />
Finding a community is important, virtually, at a local<br />
club, gay places of business like certain coffee shops.<br />
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Look for local Pride events close to you. You could<br />
explore your curiosity by reading WLW romance novels<br />
and watching movies. Becoming part of a local or online<br />
community is so helpful and aids the sense of belonging.<br />
I know many humans have delved into their attractions<br />
and curiosities on TikTok through the pandemic. It is<br />
where I have been able to hear and interact with more<br />
LGBTQ+ people than I have ever known. People are<br />
putting themselves out there and talking about their<br />
own journeys and emotions and solutions. It is a virtual<br />
community. You just have to get settled into the right<br />
algorithm.<br />
Remember that identifying yourself as bisexual is<br />
to claim yourself as bisexual. Nothing else is required.<br />
What is required is that you are loving yourself and being<br />
true to yourself and that you are being your own best<br />
friend and advocate. Say it! I am bisexual! I am bisexual!<br />
Go outside and scream it to the universe, buy a cake<br />
and blow out candles, and then maybe purchase some<br />
rainbow gear.<br />
Whatever you decide, be audacious about YOU!<br />
Your friend,<br />
Allie<br />
To submit your own question, email Allie at<br />
allie@focuslgbt.com. Focus <strong>Mid</strong>-South reserves the right<br />
to edit letters for length and clarity.<br />
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Building Queer<br />
Community<br />
with Nashville GSA<br />
by GK Gurley<br />
GSA co-founders Michelle Sciarappa<br />
and Lauren Horbal<br />
photo by Emily April Allen<br />
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Queer people need<br />
queer communities. We<br />
need queer spaces of all<br />
shades and varieties, but<br />
for many of us in <strong>Mid</strong>dle<br />
<strong>Tenn</strong>essee, our options to<br />
meet queer people outside<br />
of the internet are generally<br />
limited to a gay bar or<br />
sporadic special events that<br />
are rare and hard to find.<br />
Many areas of <strong>Tenn</strong>essee are<br />
growing, and accessibility to<br />
queer communities need to<br />
grow with them. Because of<br />
the pandemic, creating and<br />
building new queer spaces<br />
has prove challenging<br />
and costly, but two brave<br />
Nashville souls have created<br />
something special: an 18 and<br />
up Gender and Sexuality<br />
Alliance.<br />
Michelle Sciarappa (they/<br />
them/theirs) and Lauren<br />
Horbal (she/her/hers) met<br />
in college. Desperate to<br />
meet other queer peers, the<br />
two of them founded their<br />
university’s GSA chapter.<br />
“It was the most affirming<br />
experience I’ve ever had,”<br />
Michelle said. “GSA was<br />
what I woke up excited<br />
about every day, it was my<br />
life blood, I found myself<br />
and my skills through it. I<br />
also found my best friend.”<br />
Michelle and Lauren have<br />
been best friends ever since,<br />
and as they graduated and<br />
moved on to their careers<br />
in social work and music<br />
respectively, they both<br />
had the itch for building a<br />
GSA that extended beyond<br />
students, adolescents, and<br />
young adults.<br />
Michelle explained that<br />
their vision for Nashville<br />
GSA was the same as that of<br />
their university GSA: “We as<br />
people never stop needing<br />
a community that values<br />
and understands us. GSAs<br />
are an intentional space<br />
for LGBTQ+ people. They<br />
can be critically important,<br />
even life saving.” The only<br />
requirement to participate<br />
in their meetups is to be 18<br />
or older and to identify as<br />
LGBTQ+ in some way.<br />
Beyond being an<br />
organization for queer<br />
people to meet and build<br />
community, Nashville GSA is<br />
intentionally sober. Michelle<br />
and Lauren explained the<br />
need for different types of<br />
queer spaces, stressing that<br />
we cannot solely rely on<br />
night life.<br />
“We are proud of our<br />
local bars and clubs,” said<br />
Michelle, “we know their<br />
legacy is important and<br />
they certainly meet a need<br />
for our community. We also<br />
know that our demographic<br />
struggles with addiction at<br />
remarkably higher rates due<br />
to a variety of factors. In<br />
response to this reality, we<br />
created a space that offers<br />
queer community minus the<br />
atmosphere of substances.<br />
We want to support queer<br />
people in recovery because<br />
we need one another.” She<br />
added a small but crucial<br />
point that the bulk of queer<br />
events in Nashville are late<br />
night events, and there is<br />
an obvious need for earlier<br />
evening options.<br />
While Nashville GSA is<br />
intentionally sober, it is<br />
not a recovery program.<br />
Michelle is an excellent<br />
social worker, but GSA<br />
is centered on making<br />
connections and building<br />
friendships. Lauren’s<br />
vision for highlighting this<br />
distinction was to add a<br />
variety of programming to<br />
their meetups. Before the<br />
pandemic, GSA meetings<br />
could include yoga,<br />
improv workshops, writing<br />
workshops, self defense<br />
classes, cookie decorating,<br />
open mics, etc.—all kinds<br />
of activities to meet the<br />
diverse interests of our<br />
community. Unfortunately,<br />
Nashville’s queer scene<br />
often lacks these types of<br />
events, which are necessary<br />
spaces for all types of<br />
queer people to come<br />
together. Most, if not all, of<br />
these workshops are led by<br />
LGBTQ+ people in these<br />
fields as well.<br />
Like the rest of the world,<br />
COVID-19 impacted GSA’s<br />
programming. Lauren<br />
explained that community<br />
engagement has always<br />
been a pivotal GSA priority,<br />
and after lots of trial and<br />
error during the pandemic,<br />
GSA is developing solid<br />
programming again.<br />
“There are so many<br />
wonderfully talented people<br />
who have been generous<br />
enough to donate their<br />
time and energy to our<br />
group in a variety of ways,”<br />
said Horbal. “Before the<br />
pandemic hit, we were<br />
fortunate enough to have<br />
Carol Improv be guests<br />
at one of our meetings.<br />
We also had community<br />
members lead us in yoga,<br />
meditation, and a selfdefense<br />
course. We look<br />
forward to continuing this<br />
in <strong>2022</strong>! Some things we<br />
have on the books for this<br />
year include a “free market”<br />
(clothing, plants, books,<br />
and household items to<br />
swap!), a potluck at the<br />
lake, and an emergency<br />
preparedness course. Check<br />
out our Instagram account<br />
@nashvillegsa to see a full<br />
schedule of our upcoming<br />
events and feel free to reach<br />
out if you have something<br />
you’d like to share with<br />
us! Everyone has gifts to<br />
share and I look forward to<br />
meeting queer Nashvillians<br />
who are looking to build<br />
community through running<br />
and participating in our<br />
events.” Other upcoming<br />
items on the schedule are<br />
an open mic night and<br />
gathering to walk in the<br />
Pride parade. Follow their<br />
social media and sign<br />
up for their newsletter<br />
for date/time/location<br />
announcements.<br />
Wherever you are in<br />
<strong>Tenn</strong>essee, Nashville<br />
GSA is for all of us, so<br />
take advantage of their<br />
virtual meetups. There is a<br />
consistent member base,<br />
but each meeting they have<br />
hosted has always had at<br />
least one new person, and<br />
your level of involvement<br />
is completely up to you,<br />
no cost or commitments.<br />
Michelle and Lauren are<br />
hoping to host more<br />
outdoor events as we<br />
move into springtime. For<br />
all other inquiries, email<br />
nashvillegsa@gmail.com.<br />
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community<br />
Birdwatching<br />
in Nashville<br />
+<br />
Black Birders Week<br />
by GK Gurley<br />
Ranger Dameon Fontenot handles<br />
a curious Red-tailed Hawk<br />
photo courtesy of Dameon<br />
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Nashville is no stranger<br />
to state parks and nature<br />
reserves. The rolling hills<br />
and riverbanks are lush,<br />
and many locals value their<br />
well-kept gardens. Many<br />
different kinds and species<br />
of birds are drawn to these<br />
landscapes, making <strong>Mid</strong>dle<br />
<strong>Tenn</strong>essee a beautiful place<br />
for birdwatching.<br />
This spring, Radnor Lake<br />
State Park hosts an extra<br />
special bird sighting: a<br />
bald eagle's nest with two<br />
hatched eaglets. Visible<br />
from the main paved route<br />
along the lakeside, the park<br />
first noticed the arrival<br />
of the adult eagles last<br />
January. The pair mated in<br />
December of 2021 and built<br />
their nest in <strong>2022</strong>. This is the<br />
first successful nesting pair<br />
in the park’s history.<br />
<strong>Tenn</strong>essee State Park<br />
Ranger Dameon Fontenot<br />
has gotten to know these<br />
eagles well.<br />
“Throughout the week,<br />
you can catch a ranger<br />
with a scope looking at<br />
the nest on Otter Creek<br />
Road or on Lake Trail at the<br />
Nan Addams observation<br />
deck,” said Fontenot. “My<br />
favorite moment during<br />
these programs is seeing<br />
the visitors’ faces when I<br />
tell them there is a bald<br />
eagle nest right here in the<br />
park. It’s a combination<br />
of excitement and<br />
bewilderment.”<br />
Fontenot explained that<br />
on average, eagles stay in<br />
the nest for ten to twelve<br />
weeks. The park anticipates<br />
that the eaglets will fly the<br />
nest around mid-<strong>Jun</strong>e. If<br />
you miss your chance to see<br />
them, Fontenot expressed<br />
that he imagines they will be<br />
back next year.<br />
“Observing these eagles,<br />
from courtship to now<br />
having two eaglets, has<br />
been one of the highlights<br />
of my time here,” said<br />
Fontenot. He has also<br />
observed hawks, herons,<br />
and a plethora of wildlife<br />
that call Radnor Lake home.<br />
Fontenot has a spectacular<br />
camera and scope, so<br />
be sure to stop by, ask<br />
questions, and see some<br />
remarkable close-ups.<br />
Another remarkable<br />
birding destination in<br />
Nashville is Owl’s Hill Nature<br />
Reserve. With rescue owls<br />
in their care on top of being<br />
an ideal habitat for wild<br />
owls, the views of their<br />
rolling hills and hiking trails<br />
make for excellent birding.<br />
While Radnor Lake is also<br />
a nature reserve, it is a<br />
state park, and Owl’s Hill<br />
is privately owned. It was<br />
initially bought and founded<br />
by the Cheek family and is<br />
a well-maintained nature<br />
sanctuary. Because it is<br />
private, you do have to<br />
pay to enter. A day pass<br />
is five dollars, but I would<br />
recommend the weekend<br />
guided hike for twelve.<br />
Certified naturalists take<br />
you through hiking trails,<br />
discussing local plant and<br />
animal life as they go.<br />
Or, you could attend an<br />
exhibition show featuring<br />
their rescued owls. The<br />
owls’ cages are all next<br />
to the reserve’s main<br />
offices and trail heads, so<br />
regardless of what activity<br />
you chose, you will not miss<br />
Shakespeare the Barred<br />
Owl and his other rescue<br />
friends.<br />
All one needs to start<br />
birdwatching are their eyes<br />
and a sense of curiosity.<br />
From deep forests to creeks<br />
and rivers, a diverse array<br />
of birds can be spotted day<br />
or night throughout <strong>Mid</strong>dle<br />
<strong>Tenn</strong>essee, whether you are<br />
in a park or staring out of<br />
your workplace windows.<br />
There are numerous<br />
ornithological and naturalist<br />
organizations, groups, and<br />
meetups that are great<br />
resources, of course, but<br />
birdwatching can take many<br />
shapes and forms.<br />
It may come as no<br />
surprise to you to hear<br />
that BIPOC folk are<br />
disproportionately profiled<br />
and antagonized in parks<br />
and on hiking trails.<br />
In 2020, after a black<br />
man in New York was<br />
harassed and threatened<br />
while birding, a group of<br />
concerned scientists and<br />
biologists decided that it<br />
was time to bring attention<br />
to Black birders on a global<br />
scale and launched Black<br />
Birders Week.<br />
For a week at the end of<br />
<strong>May</strong> and beginning of <strong>Jun</strong>e,<br />
which in <strong>2022</strong> is <strong>May</strong> 29<br />
to <strong>Jun</strong>e 4, biologists and<br />
experts host virtual events<br />
open to the public. The<br />
creators of Black Birders<br />
Week are Corina Newsome<br />
(@hood_naturalist on<br />
instagram, and trust me,<br />
you want to follow her!) and<br />
the team with her at Black<br />
AF in STEM Collective, a<br />
gathering of Black scientists<br />
in various STEM fields<br />
working to amplify Black<br />
voices in the sciences.<br />
Another notable scientist<br />
in this collective is Nicole<br />
Jackson, founder of Black in<br />
National Parks Week.<br />
Not only are those in the<br />
Black AF in STEM Collective<br />
working to keep parks safe<br />
for people of color, they<br />
are also passionate about<br />
community education and<br />
access. Since Black Birders<br />
Week started after the<br />
pandemic hit, their events<br />
have all been held virtually,<br />
which is something they<br />
plan to continue because it<br />
allows them to engage with<br />
people all over the globe.<br />
For a specific list of Black<br />
Birders Week events, check<br />
their website and Instagram<br />
(@blackafinstem). The<br />
theme for <strong>2022</strong> is “Soaring<br />
to Greater Heights”. On<br />
the opening day, the main<br />
topic is being Black in<br />
nature. Each successive<br />
day discusses the stages of<br />
a bird's life in order: first,<br />
they’ll discuss nesting, then<br />
learning to fly, coming back<br />
to roost, etc.<br />
If you are looking to<br />
learn more about birding in<br />
<strong>Tenn</strong>essee, visit <strong>Tenn</strong>essee<br />
Ornithological Society’s<br />
calendar of events at<br />
tnbirds.org. If you are<br />
looking to take a deep dive<br />
into learning about the<br />
environment around you,<br />
the <strong>Tenn</strong>essee Naturalist<br />
Program is a ten month<br />
course. You might become<br />
one of the naturalists who<br />
lead the Owl’s Hill hikes! Go<br />
to blackafinstem.com for<br />
more information on Black<br />
Birders Week, and say hi to<br />
Ranger Dameon Fontenot<br />
when you go see the<br />
Radnor Lake eagles.<br />
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Caught on Camera at Radnor Lake<br />
Black-crowned Night Heron<br />
photo by Dameon Fontenot<br />
Blue-gray Gnatcatcher<br />
photo by Chellie Bowman<br />
One of the adult eagles<br />
nesting at the lake<br />
photo by Dameon Fontenot<br />
Pileated Woodpecker<br />
photo by Chellie Bowman<br />
Wild Turkeys<br />
photo by Chellie Bowman<br />
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faith+spirituality<br />
DECONVERSION<br />
BOOK RECS:<br />
A Resource List for Those<br />
Grappling with a Loss of Faith<br />
by Tiffany G. Day<br />
Religious deconversion, succinctly defined, is the loss of one's faith in a given religion.<br />
What is left out of the definition, however, is that the circumstances of the loss, the personal<br />
significance of one's faith, and the ubiquity of the religion in one's life mean that the emotional<br />
and psychological effects of deconversion may take myriad, complicated forms: an unmooring<br />
severance, a life-saving escape, a gentle relinquishing, a profound disillusionment, a liminal state<br />
between religions or between types of faith. Deconversion can feel like all of these at once—a<br />
kaleidoscopic experience of grief, anger, relief, indifference, gratitude. For many queer folx,<br />
deconversion can be a necessary first step to coming out. It is always an opportunity to start<br />
anew; it is loss that inspires finding.<br />
Listed below are a few companion titles for a loss of faith, particularly loss of a fundamentalist<br />
Christian faith, which is so prevalent in our region and, unfortunately, a common source of<br />
religious trauma from which many in the queer community suffer. We hope these selections<br />
offer the comfort that comes from seeing your own experiences reflected in that of others' and<br />
guidance for navigating a loss of faith and its myriad, subsequent findings—religious or not.<br />
Empty the Pews: Stories of Leaving the Church<br />
ed. by Chrissy Stroop & Lauren O'Neal<br />
This anthology brings together original and previously<br />
published essays from a diverse group of writers on their<br />
experiences with leaving fundamentalist Christianity and with<br />
religious trauma. Taking a moral stance against the harmful<br />
fundamentalist and authoritarian varieties of Christianity,<br />
the editors chose pieces that also highlight intersections of<br />
queerness, spiritual/religious abuse, faith loss, and courage.<br />
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Leaving the Fold: A Guide for Former Fundamentalists<br />
and Others Leaving their Religion<br />
by Marlene Winell<br />
Leaving the Fold is a self-help psychology book for recovery<br />
from the effects of an authoritarian religion (particularly<br />
fundamentalist Christianity). Written by a psychologist with<br />
over 30 years of experience working with clients recovering<br />
from harmful religious ideologies, herself included, Dr. Winell<br />
is known for coining the term and concept "Religious Trauma<br />
Syndrome."<br />
Leaving Fundamentalism: Personal Stories<br />
ed. by G. Elijah Dann<br />
The personal stories in this collection offer numerous and<br />
varied glimpses into the thoughts and feelings that leaving<br />
fundamentalist Christian churches can entail—the good and the<br />
bad. For many of the contributors, though their deconversions<br />
are still raw, they also describe how their lives are continuing on<br />
post-religious fundamentalism.<br />
Leaving the Witness: Exiting a Religion and Finding a Life<br />
by Amber Scorah<br />
In Leaving the Witness, Scorah describes how her<br />
experiences as a covert Jehovah's Witness missionary in China<br />
ultimately led her to leave the faith she had once so ardently<br />
held. This deconversion created a rift between her and her<br />
family and home community, leaving her to navigate this new<br />
life alone. This rift, along with another subsequent personal<br />
tragedy, prompted a need for more ways to make meaning<br />
without the framework of her religion.<br />
Pure: Inside the Evangelical Movement That Shamed a<br />
Generation of Young Women and How I Broke Free<br />
by Linda Kay Klein<br />
Described as a blend of memoir, journalism, and cultural<br />
commentary, Klein provides an inside look at religious purity<br />
culture, which has its roots in white evangelical Christian<br />
churches, and the harm it has caused. Including her own<br />
account of healing, she offers hope for finding freedom and for<br />
possibilities of sexual and spiritual reconciliation.<br />
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life<br />
Dionne<br />
Millie<br />
by KeOnte Criswell<br />
photo by Alexandsuzannephotography.com<br />
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When we don’t have a<br />
shared lived experience with<br />
others, it can cause us to<br />
develop a blind spot. When<br />
that happens, we tend to<br />
lack compassion for the<br />
ways the people around us<br />
are struggling. Until recently,<br />
I’d considered myself to be<br />
very open and accepting.<br />
That made me blind to<br />
how difficult it was for my<br />
LGBTQIA friends and family<br />
to come out and be out. In<br />
an effort to understand and<br />
get educated, I sat down with<br />
one of my closest friends,<br />
Dionne, and her wife, Millie,<br />
and asked if they would share<br />
their stories with me.<br />
Dionne is one of the most<br />
loyal and loving people I<br />
know. In over two decades<br />
of friendship, I’ve never<br />
heard her once say an<br />
unkind word about anyone,<br />
no matter how she felt<br />
about them. Admittedly,<br />
I had no idea during our<br />
time on active duty that<br />
Dionne was gay. I found out<br />
on Facebook after she and<br />
the Air Force parted ways.<br />
Through this interview I<br />
came to understand that<br />
just living life as she is, sans<br />
fanfare or announcements,<br />
is just part of the package.<br />
I’d never met her wife, Millie,<br />
before this interview. I knew<br />
that if Dionne loved her, she<br />
must be incredible. After<br />
speaking with her, incredible<br />
doesn’t even begin to<br />
describe her. She’s a vibrant,<br />
fascinating, and energetic<br />
being that just lights up<br />
whatever room she’s in. I<br />
could not imagine anyone<br />
not loving everything about<br />
her. Little did I know that<br />
once she began her story,<br />
this beautiful stranger<br />
with whom I had no prior<br />
emotional connection, would<br />
take me on a ride that would<br />
break my heart and then put<br />
it together again.<br />
Tell me about how you<br />
came out.<br />
Dionne: I guess I was<br />
attracted to women since<br />
elementary school. Of<br />
course, that was during the<br />
‘80s. I never even thought<br />
about coming out. I didn’t<br />
know what the hell coming<br />
out was. But I had the<br />
feelings. I got to high school<br />
and had my first experience.<br />
I had a couple of girlfriends.<br />
I had this one particular<br />
girlfriend that wrote me a<br />
letter. I brought the letter<br />
home. I don’t know how but<br />
my mom found the letter.<br />
I can’t remember exactly<br />
what it said but I denied<br />
everything. I said I don’t<br />
know why this girl wrote<br />
me that letter, I don’t like<br />
girls. I denied that ****. This<br />
was right before I joined the<br />
Air Force. When I left, I just<br />
did what I did. They didn’t<br />
see it, so it was like, out<br />
of sight, out of mind. But<br />
gradually over the years, I<br />
would bring girls home here<br />
and there. Once you’re of<br />
age, it’s really whatever it<br />
is, that’s what it is. My mom<br />
wasn’t happy about it.<br />
At what point did you finally<br />
tell her?<br />
I never verbally said it to<br />
my mother. She just became<br />
acclimated to it over the<br />
years. With me not living at<br />
home since 19 or so, I didn’t<br />
have to worry about them<br />
(the family). I was just doing<br />
what I did.<br />
Was it difficult for you to<br />
navigate life on active duty?<br />
Because it was “don’t<br />
ask, don’t tell,” I couldn’t do<br />
certain things on base. But I<br />
was still seeing people and<br />
dating people.<br />
Millie, did you actually come<br />
out?<br />
Millie: I didn’t come out, I<br />
was outed. My mom found<br />
out because she saw me<br />
in a car in a compromising<br />
photo by Alexandsuzannephotography.com<br />
position with the girl I was<br />
seeing at that time.<br />
That must have been<br />
awkward.<br />
She didn’t really react<br />
in a negative way. She just<br />
told me to make sure that<br />
whoever I was with treated<br />
me right.<br />
Your parents weren’t<br />
together by that time,<br />
correct? How did your dad<br />
find out?<br />
They weren’t together<br />
then. I was living with my<br />
dad full-time. One morning<br />
as I was sleeping, he came<br />
into my room with some<br />
McDonald’s breakfast for<br />
me. He also had a camera.<br />
At the time, I didn’t put<br />
two and two together. I<br />
was just sitting there eating<br />
my McMuffin. He said he’d<br />
been taking some pictures<br />
and he wanted to look<br />
at them. He said, “I was<br />
scrolling through them and<br />
I saw this one”. It was a<br />
picture of me sitting in my<br />
girlfriend’s lap. I just told<br />
him I was sorry he had to<br />
see that. He asked who she<br />
was, I told him that was my<br />
girlfriend. I never lied about<br />
it, I didn’t deny it.<br />
How did he react?<br />
He didn’t find it amusing<br />
or to be a good thing, at all.<br />
He started telling me how<br />
I was taught better than<br />
that and I’d gone to too<br />
many Christian schools and<br />
I know my bible too well<br />
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to be dating girls. He said<br />
maybe he needed to rethink<br />
letting me go to Xavier<br />
because they had too many<br />
gay people as it is. He said<br />
I was going straight to the<br />
pits of hell.<br />
Wow!<br />
I only had my permit at<br />
the time, and he took all<br />
of my driving privileges<br />
away. Now he wanted to<br />
drop me off and pick me<br />
up and during that time,<br />
he would just berate me<br />
and tell me I was going to<br />
hell. I remember one time<br />
I told him I’m not talking<br />
about this anymore. I<br />
don’t understand what the<br />
problem is because I’ve<br />
always been like this. How<br />
photo by Alexandsuzannephotography.com<br />
can you tell me there’s a<br />
God up there, that is all<br />
love, and he would create<br />
millions of gay people and<br />
then hate them and send<br />
them to hell? That's not a<br />
loving God.<br />
Over time, it just became<br />
worse and worse. I tried to<br />
avoid any conversations<br />
about it. But he was not<br />
avoiding anything. It<br />
didn’t matter if it was the<br />
middle of the night, if I was<br />
brushing my teeth, he was<br />
talking about it. And then<br />
he got to the point where<br />
when anything went wrong<br />
in his life, things that didn't<br />
have anything to do with<br />
me at all, he would blame<br />
me being gay. And that's<br />
the reason why everything<br />
was going south.<br />
An incident occurred<br />
that resulted in me packing<br />
up whatever I could and<br />
leaving like a thief in the<br />
night to my girlfriend's<br />
house. We hadn't even<br />
been dating for six months.<br />
I didn't talk to my daddy<br />
for two years after that<br />
happened, which allowed<br />
me to, you know, start to<br />
kind of build a little bit of a<br />
relationship with my mom.<br />
When me and my girlfriend<br />
broke up four years later,<br />
I moved in with my mom.<br />
And when I finally did<br />
start to build a relationship<br />
with my dad again, it was<br />
conditional. We could have<br />
a relationship, but I had to<br />
“not be gay.” So I didn't<br />
really talk about it. When<br />
I finally started dating<br />
someone else, he was a<br />
little bit more accepting<br />
of her because she was<br />
feminine presenting. We<br />
looked like we could be<br />
just two friends hanging<br />
out or two sisters out or<br />
whatever. It didn't bother<br />
him as much because<br />
everybody wouldn't look<br />
at me and immediately<br />
see “gay” because I wasn’t<br />
with someone who “looked<br />
gay.” And he would always<br />
tell me, “I’m going to pray<br />
for your soul like any good<br />
parent would and make<br />
sure I tell you what's right<br />
and wrong and let you<br />
know that what you’re<br />
doing is going to send you<br />
to hell.” We went through<br />
all that rigmarole up until<br />
2019. That year, I sat my<br />
daddy down and told him I<br />
was moving here. And I was<br />
like, I'm moving to DC, to be<br />
with my girlfriend.<br />
Dionne and I got engaged<br />
in October that year. I told<br />
my dad, hey, I'm getting<br />
married. When it was time<br />
for me to invite him to the<br />
wedding, he was like, oh, I<br />
thought you were already<br />
married. Why would I get<br />
married and not invite you<br />
to my wedding... please!<br />
Even though I always<br />
thought my dad isn't<br />
coming to a (gay) wedding,<br />
he is not walking me down<br />
the aisle, I already know<br />
that. That's okay. I had<br />
come to a place of peace<br />
when it came to him not<br />
really being in my life. Little<br />
did I know, he was combing<br />
through his Bible trying to<br />
figure out how he could<br />
make it to this wedding.<br />
So, the night before the<br />
wedding, my daddy<br />
drove 20 hours to DC,<br />
told nobody, and was like,<br />
I'm here. You’re where??<br />
(Recalling this moment<br />
elicited the sweet girlish<br />
giggle of a true daddy’s<br />
girl). He came all the way<br />
to DC from Louisiana to be<br />
at my wedding. We're in a<br />
great place now.<br />
I wish I had the coming<br />
out story that was all<br />
loving and everybody<br />
just accepted me. I wish<br />
it didn't take years for my<br />
coming out story to come<br />
to a completion. But I<br />
was 34 years old. My dad<br />
has finally got to a point<br />
where he accepts me and<br />
accepts Dionne. He calls her<br />
daughter now.<br />
What would you tell<br />
other people who may be<br />
experiencing what you did<br />
before you were out?<br />
You have to learn how<br />
to set boundaries. Also<br />
speak up for yourself to<br />
your parents, which is very<br />
hard. Usually your family<br />
is the one who is inflicting<br />
the most trauma and pain<br />
on you with their own belief<br />
system. I need people to<br />
know that you can do it.<br />
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HOROSCOPES<br />
Astrology Readings by Minnassa<br />
TAURUS<br />
Element:w Earth<br />
Quality: Fixed<br />
Ruling Planet: Venus<br />
Traits: Intelligent,<br />
hardworking, kind, honest,<br />
organized, and reliable<br />
New Moon in Taurus:<br />
April 30th (Solar Eclipse)<br />
APRIL 20 - MAY 20<br />
Now that we are full steam ahead<br />
in spring, this is a great time to be<br />
outdoors and to be moving our<br />
body with sports and play. The Sun,<br />
Moon, and planet Mercury are out<br />
and proud and affecting all signs this<br />
month. Taurus season begins with a<br />
Solar Eclipse, and ends with a Lunar<br />
Eclipse. The solar eclipse brings<br />
opportunities for unexpected new<br />
beginnings and new paths. On the<br />
other hand, the lunar eclipse brings<br />
fated endings and the potential for<br />
either breakdowns or breakthroughs.<br />
Honey but that ain’t all. Mercury<br />
will also go retrograde this month.<br />
Hmm... all signs will benefit from<br />
tapping into their inner grounded<br />
and reliable Taurus energy to<br />
manage the communication glitches<br />
and misunderstandings associated<br />
with Mercury Retrograde.<br />
GEMINI<br />
Element: Air<br />
Quality: Mutable<br />
Ruling Planet: Mercury<br />
Traits: Social Butterfly, loyal<br />
partner & friend, open &<br />
honest, daring & bold<br />
New Moon in Gemini:<br />
<strong>May</strong> 30<br />
MAY 21 - JUNE 20<br />
Not to be outdone by all the<br />
solar and lunar magic that<br />
happened in <strong>May</strong>. <strong>Jun</strong>e hosts the<br />
powerful Summer Solstice and<br />
has a Super Full Moon smack<br />
dab in the middle of the month.<br />
It is also a time to celebrate<br />
freedom: Happy Pride & Happy<br />
<strong>Jun</strong>eteenth! Summer garden<br />
parties and freedom celebrations<br />
are wonderful opportunities for<br />
all signs to tap into their inner<br />
Gemini social butterfly energy.<br />
Saturn begins its annual four<br />
month retrograde and gives<br />
us the opportunity to review &<br />
reassess where we are currently<br />
in our lives and to reconnect with<br />
our purpose.<br />
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CROSSWORD<br />
LGBTQ+ FIRSTS ON SNL<br />
ACROSS<br />
1 Circumcise clumsily, e.g.<br />
5 Family group<br />
9 Opposite of heads<br />
14 Earthenware jar<br />
15 First-rate<br />
16 Shrek and others<br />
17 “Brothers & Sisters”<br />
producer Ken<br />
18 Tara portrayer Collette<br />
19 Woody secretion<br />
20 First out lesbian to join<br />
the cast<br />
23 ”Xanadu” band, for short<br />
24 Home, to Dave Pallone<br />
25 Lure into wrongdoing<br />
29 Along the back<br />
31 Hrs. in P-town<br />
32 Charlottesville sch.<br />
33 Hand, when measuring a<br />
stallion<br />
34 First queer host<br />
38 Kahlo's cash<br />
40 Peter Rabbit's sisters<br />
41 Phallic swimmers<br />
42 Duck hunter's boots<br />
44 Deviate<br />
45 First queer musical guest<br />
48 Sodom suffix<br />
49 “Queen of Soul” Franklin<br />
50 Lack of get-up-and-go<br />
54 ___ tai (rum cocktail)<br />
55 First out queer host<br />
58 Breakfast staple<br />
60 Dana of _MacGyver_<br />
61 Errol Flynn's “The Sun<br />
___ Rises”<br />
62 Nightlife district of London<br />
63 Danes of “Romeo + Juliet”<br />
64 Body passageway<br />
65 Part of MIT (abbr.)<br />
66 Rubbers on rims<br />
67 What a computer may spit out<br />
DOWN<br />
1 Made a romantic connection<br />
2 Irving Berlin song.<br />
3 Projection a under the hood<br />
4 Lucci in “All My Children”<br />
5 “Boo!” from the stands, e.g.<br />
6 They aren't everything<br />
7 Lennox of the Eurythmics<br />
8 “No” to a “lesbisch”<br />
9 City of Glad Day Bookshop<br />
10 One who often screws actors<br />
11 Apr. 15 letters<br />
12 Bloomers worn around<br />
the neck<br />
13 Taxpayer's ID<br />
21 CEO's degree<br />
22 Chicken hawk pads<br />
26 Twelve-inch stick<br />
27 St. Teresa's town<br />
28 Family flower?<br />
30 “Oh, shut up!”<br />
31 Bette Davis feature of song<br />
35 Head output<br />
36 Sad ending for love<br />
37 Rita, in a Beatles song<br />
39 Younger daughter of Michelle<br />
43 Tongue that's a little different<br />
44 Banana stalk<br />
45 English king who was a queen<br />
46 Home of Bloody Mary's mom<br />
47 Sounds from a stallion<br />
48 Accustoms<br />
50 Words of empathy<br />
51 ___-Whirl (amusement<br />
park ride)<br />
52 Atlas blow-up<br />
53 Place where a Greek<br />
would speak<br />
56 Weight loss product<br />
57 Home st. of Maupin<br />
59 Karen Walker, perhaps<br />
FIND THE SOLUTION<br />
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