Jojo over heaven

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The next seven years I spent at the Joestar household in other words,
the seven years until my plan was detected were of course not enjoyable ones.
Though it was not difficult to don the mask of an excelling student---
Fooling Lord Joestar, Jonathan, the servants and school friends was an easy task
for me after having survived that cutthroat city. Of course, after that first conflict
with Jonathan, he always held some misgivings about me for the next seven
years...... But as those never left the realm of mere misgivings, I was able to make
him trust me. Far from it, Jonathan seemed to feel ashamed of himself for
doubting me. How humorous.
So what was less fun was with the Joestar family--- as well as school and
relations with other humans, things were too bland.
It was too lukewarm.
It was a life with no stimulation.
If I am permitted to exaggerate a bit, I felt like I would nearly go insane.--
- Of course, things being bland would be convenient for me, but beyond that first
glimpse Jonathan got of my true self, they were all so easy to fool, I felt no
resistance at all.
For someone who looked upon nobles with hostility such as myself, that
lack of resistance felt much like swiping at the air. Far from it, I felt like I may
have made some grave, irreversible mistake.
Weren't nobles supposed to be great enemies to me? So why did things
feel so--- lukewarm?
Was I doing something completely useless right now? "Am I wasting my
time?" I thought.
As I was not yet immortal at the time, the idea that I was "wasting time"
made me feel like I was in a living hell.
Sometimes I was even captured with the idea of simply letting go, letting
my emotions explode and making enemies of everyone around me.--- I think