Jojo over heaven

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If I am allowed to say something a bit prejudiced, her refinement and
dignity and that piety of hers were at the very least not born out of poverty......
They must have been things born out of a life of luxury. But why would such a
woman marry that father or why she fell into this miserable town, I cannot call
anything but mysteries.
Speaking of which, my father once told me something while drunk.
Something about him eloping with my mother. And, "How's that for love and
romance?" and some worthless drivel like that...... I dismissed it as drunken
nonsense, but I don't know whether or not it was actually really true. I ignored it
as it seemed like an incredibly hard story to swallow, but although I can't confirm
it as true, it may not have been nonsense either.
Perhaps that father of mine said something truthful...... Though there's
no way to find out now.
"Dio, don't blame your father. Your father is really a kind person. He just
shouldn't drink. If he'd only quit drinking, I'm sure your father would work
diligently."
Now this was nonsense, I thought. My mother said such things to me
with a serious look on her face...... It took all I had not to cry out against that. I
wanted to ask how she could possibly be so foolish.
He's really a kind person?
If only he stopped drinking?
How or where could you look or in what way could you try to explain it
in order to think in such a way......? All I could think was that my mother had lost
her mind from being beaten too much.
If one assumed that, one could even say that they were actually a very
well-matched couple. But really, no matter how you thought about it, they were
an incredibly mismatched couple.
Despite living as the wife of that low-life father, for my mother who
made it a principal to do good--- who aimed to go to heaven, must have been
tantamount to torture.
Or perhaps for her, that was the most "charitable" thing she could do.