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Victoria’s husband has been her rock<br />
Two years later, we got married. It was a day<br />
of pure happiness. The darkness was nowhere<br />
to be found and, as we walked hand in hand, I<br />
knew we would never let each other go.<br />
Now, 14 years later, we are still as happy as we<br />
ever were, and have a family of our own. Life<br />
is in a very different place now. It’s not always<br />
buttercups and daisies, but I am in control of<br />
my demons. They are in the darkest corners of<br />
my mind, I am aware of them, and occasionally<br />
they make their presence felt; the darkness still<br />
lingers like an uninvited guest.<br />
After all these years, though I know myself<br />
better now, I accept that when the darkness is<br />
present, and my world feels flat, it isn’t always<br />
linked to anything in particular, it just exists. I<br />
now focus my energy on something positive, I<br />
think about things I may want in life, or dreams<br />
I can fulfil – and although I acknowledge the<br />
depression, it no longer consumes me. My pain<br />
becomes constructive rather than destructive.<br />
Last year, I needed to find myself again. It’s<br />
easy in life, especially when you have children,<br />
to feel a little lost. My youngest was starting<br />
school and I was feeling redundant. I decided<br />
I’d do something for myself, so I started writing,<br />
letting my imagination run away, creating<br />
characters, and escaping into other worlds.<br />
Then I happened across a blog post asking<br />
for submissions for a new book series called<br />
Hometown Tales. I filled pages with childhood<br />
adventures, but then I hit a point in my life<br />
where the joy of nostalgia disappeared. I could<br />
choose to continue on a different track or I could<br />
write my truth on the page. I did just that, I laid<br />
my life bare and it felt good; I never dreamed it<br />
would be accepted for publication so I just wrote<br />
it for me. It was honest and raw.<br />
I wasn’t in control<br />
anymore; the darkness had<br />
introduced me to a new<br />
ally, but it wasn’t my friend<br />
My tale was accepted, and as the realisation hit<br />
that my darkest secrets would be out there in<br />
the world, I was terrified of the judgements. But<br />
writing my truth gave me a newfound strength,<br />
and as the editing process went along, I finally<br />
felt free. I realised how dark my life once was, and<br />
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