Shadow and Bone by Leigh Bardugo (z-lib.org).mobi
“You’re not even trying any more!” she shouted. “You’re waiting for somemagical deer to come and save you? For your pretty necklace? You might aswell wait for a unicorn to put its head in your lap, you stupid thing.”When she started railing at me, I just shrugged. She was right. I was tired oftrying and failing. I wasn’t like the other Grisha, and it was time I accepted that.Besides, some rebellious part of me enjoyed driving her mad.I didn’t know what punishment Zoya had received, but she continued toignore me. She’d been barred from the training rooms, and I’d heard she wouldbe returning to Kribirsk after the winter fete. Occasionally, I caught her glaringat me or giggling behind her hand with her little group of Summoner friends, butI tried not to let it get to me.Yet I couldn’t shake the sense of my own failure. When the first snow came, Iwoke to find a new kefta waiting for me on my door. It was made of heavymidnight blue wool and had a hood lined in thick golden fur. I put it on, but itwas hard not to feel like a fraud.After picking at my breakfast, I made the familiar walk to Baghra’s cottage.The gravel paths, cleared of snow by Inferni, sparkled beneath the weak wintersun. I was almost all the way to the lake when a servant caught up with me.She handed me a folded piece of paper and bobbed a curtsey before scurryingback up the path. I recognised Genya’s handwriting.Malyen Oretsev’s unit has been stationed at the Chernast outpost in northern Tsibeya for six weeks.He is listed as healthy. You can write to him care of his regiment.The Kerch ambassadors are showering the Queen with gifts. Oysters and sandpipers packed indry ice (vile) and almond candies! I’ll bring some by tonight.Mal was in Tsibeya. He was safe, alive, far from the fighting, probably huntingwinter game.I should be grateful. I should be glad.You can write to him care of his regiment. I’d been writing to him care of hisregiment for months.I thought of the last letter I’d sent.Dear Mal, I’d written. I haven’t heard from you, so I assume you’ve met andmarried a volcra and that you’re living comfortably on the Shadow Fold, whereyou have neither light nor paper with which to write. Or, possibly, your newbride has eaten both your hands.I’d filled the letter with descriptions of Botkin, the Queen’s snuffling dog, andthe Grisha’s curious fascination with peasant customs. I’d told him aboutbeautiful Genya and the pavilions by the lake and the marvellous glass dome inthe library. I’d told him about mysterious Baghra and the orchids in the hothouse
and the birds painted above my bed. But I hadn’t told him about Morozova’sstag or the fact that I was such a disaster as a Grisha or that I still missed himevery single day.When I was done, I’d hesitated and then hastily scrawled at the bottom, Idon’t know if you got my other letters. This place is more beautiful than I candescribe, but I would trade it all to spend an afternoon skipping stones with youat Trivka’s pond. Please write.But he had got my letters. What had he done with all of them? Had he evenbothered to open them? Had he sighed with embarrassment when the fifth andthe sixth and the seventh arrived?I cringed. Please write, Mal. Please don’t forget me, Mal.Pathetic, I thought, brushing angry tears away.I stared out at the lake. It was starting to freeze. I thought of the creek that ranthrough Duke Keramsov’s estate. Every winter, Mal and I had waited for thatcreek to freeze so we could skate on it.I crumpled Genya’s note in my fist. I didn’t want to think about Mal anymore. I wished I could blot out every memory of Keramzin. Mostly I wished Icould run back to my room and have a good cry. But I couldn’t. I had to spendanother pointless, miserable morning with Baghra.I took my time making my way down the lake path, then stomped up the stepsto Baghra’s hut and banged open the door.As usual, she was sitting by the fire, warming her bony body by the flames. Iplunked myself down in the chair opposite her and waited.Baghra let out a short bark of laughter. “So you’re angry today, girl? What doyou have to be angry about? Are you tired of waiting for your magical whitedeer?”I crossed my arms and said nothing.“Speak up, girl.”On any other day, I would have lied, told her I was fine, said that I was tired.But I guess I’d reached my breaking point, because I snapped. “I’m sick of all ofthis,” I said angrily. “I’m sick of eating rye and herring for breakfast. I’m sick ofwearing this stupid kefta. I’m sick of being pummelled by Botkin, and I’m sickof you.”I thought she would be furious, but instead she just peered at me. With herhead cocked to one side and her eyes glittering black in the firelight, she lookedlike a very mean sparrow.“No,” she said slowly. “No. It’s not that. There’s something else. What is it?Is the poor little girl homesick?”I snorted. “Homesick for what?”
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“You’re not even trying any more!” she shouted. “You’re waiting for some
magical deer to come and save you? For your pretty necklace? You might as
well wait for a unicorn to put its head in your lap, you stupid thing.”
When she started railing at me, I just shrugged. She was right. I was tired of
trying and failing. I wasn’t like the other Grisha, and it was time I accepted that.
Besides, some rebellious part of me enjoyed driving her mad.
I didn’t know what punishment Zoya had received, but she continued to
ignore me. She’d been barred from the training rooms, and I’d heard she would
be returning to Kribirsk after the winter fete. Occasionally, I caught her glaring
at me or giggling behind her hand with her little group of Summoner friends, but
I tried not to let it get to me.
Yet I couldn’t shake the sense of my own failure. When the first snow came, I
woke to find a new kefta waiting for me on my door. It was made of heavy
midnight blue wool and had a hood lined in thick golden fur. I put it on, but it
was hard not to feel like a fraud.
After picking at my breakfast, I made the familiar walk to Baghra’s cottage.
The gravel paths, cleared of snow by Inferni, sparkled beneath the weak winter
sun. I was almost all the way to the lake when a servant caught up with me.
She handed me a folded piece of paper and bobbed a curtsey before scurrying
back up the path. I recognised Genya’s handwriting.
Malyen Oretsev’s unit has been stationed at the Chernast outpost in northern Tsibeya for six weeks.
He is listed as healthy. You can write to him care of his regiment.
The Kerch ambassadors are showering the Queen with gifts. Oysters and sandpipers packed in
dry ice (vile) and almond candies! I’ll bring some by tonight.
Mal was in Tsibeya. He was safe, alive, far from the fighting, probably hunting
winter game.
I should be grateful. I should be glad.
You can write to him care of his regiment. I’d been writing to him care of his
regiment for months.
I thought of the last letter I’d sent.
Dear Mal, I’d written. I haven’t heard from you, so I assume you’ve met and
married a volcra and that you’re living comfortably on the Shadow Fold, where
you have neither light nor paper with which to write. Or, possibly, your new
bride has eaten both your hands.
I’d filled the letter with descriptions of Botkin, the Queen’s snuffling dog, and
the Grisha’s curious fascination with peasant customs. I’d told him about
beautiful Genya and the pavilions by the lake and the marvellous glass dome in
the library. I’d told him about mysterious Baghra and the orchids in the hothouse