The Courage of Children: Boston and Beyond XXX
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Emily Welborne<br />
Independent<br />
Charlotte, NC<br />
I had a physical exam for fourth grade. <strong>The</strong> doctor said, “Touch your toes,”<br />
<strong>and</strong> began to run a h<strong>and</strong> down my spine. “It looks like you have a case<br />
<strong>of</strong> scoliosis.”<br />
I was ten years old. I thought, I’m going to die.<br />
<strong>The</strong> nurse took me to this dark room. <strong>The</strong>re were no lights. All I could see<br />
was this bed, <strong>and</strong> it sounded like a big motor.<br />
<strong>The</strong> nurse smiled. She said, “This is called an x-ray. I promise it’s not going<br />
to hurt you.”<br />
I hadn’t remembered ever having an x-ray before. I closed my eyes as I put<br />
my back to the board.<br />
A few minutes later, we got the pictures back. <strong>The</strong> nurse gave me two<br />
numbers: twenty-six <strong>and</strong> thirty-three. <strong>The</strong>se were the degrees <strong>of</strong> my curves.<br />
<strong>The</strong>y said that scoliosis is simply a spine that has curves to it, instead <strong>of</strong> being<br />
straight. Sco-lee-oh-sis. I couldn’t pronounce it.<br />
“Looking at your x-rays…,” <strong>and</strong> before the doctor could finish, I stopped him<br />
<strong>and</strong> said, “I know. I need surgery.” And the doctor nodded. I hung my head<br />
<strong>and</strong> started to cry. I didn’t say anything. I didn’t want to accept it. I sat staring<br />
at the popsicle sticks <strong>and</strong> cotton swabs.<br />
Everything was still dark. <strong>The</strong> second floor felt haunted almost. All the lights<br />
seemed to be <strong>of</strong>f, <strong>and</strong> it was very quiet. <strong>The</strong> air was freezing, <strong>and</strong> it smelled<br />
like old wood.<br />
I remember shaking because I was so scared. Putting on the hospital gown,<br />
the silver blanket, <strong>and</strong> the hospital hat, I knew that was it. <strong>The</strong>y were going<br />
to cut me open.<br />
<strong>The</strong> doctors, nurses, <strong>and</strong> anesthesiologists wrote on my spine with a Sharpie.<br />
<strong>The</strong>y came in one by one, used h<strong>and</strong>-sanitizer, <strong>and</strong> introduced themselves.<br />
My family said goodbye. <strong>The</strong> childcare nurse stayed by my side. <strong>The</strong>y wheeled<br />
me into the OR, which was cold <strong>and</strong> quiet. I recalled the sound <strong>of</strong> packages<br />
opening. Those are my rods. <strong>The</strong>n paper ripping. <strong>The</strong> screws.<br />
<strong>The</strong>y transferred me from the bed to the operating table. <strong>The</strong> bright light<br />
was blinding.<br />
<strong>The</strong> <strong>Courage</strong> <strong>of</strong> <strong>Children</strong>: <strong>Boston</strong> <strong>and</strong> <strong>Beyond</strong><br />
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