From Blood and Ash by Jennifer L. Armentrout

Chapter 21
It took less than twentyy-four hours for me to, yyet again, do something
utterlyy reckless. This time, however, I mayy end up regretting it. Of all the
wayys I’d thought I might die, it had never occurred to me that it could
happen while borrowing a book from the Atheneum.
There were far more dangerous things I’d done in myy eighteen yyears
of life, times where I would’ve been more likelyy to die in the process.
Utter heaps of examples where even I had been a bit surprised that I’d
walked awayy with myy limbs and life intact. But here I was, one wrong step
awayy from plummeting to myy death, clutching the supposed diaryy of one
Miss Willa Colyyns, the book that Loren and Dafina had been talking about.
Obviouslyy, the book would most definitelyy be the tyype of reading material
Priestess Analia would expresslyy forbid. And if I were caught with it in myy
possession, it would be yyet another reason for her to believe that I wasn’t
respectful of myy dutyy as the Maiden.
So, of course, I had to read it. I’d been so veryy bored all dayy.
I’d alreadyy read everyy book Tawnyy had snuck me at least three times,
and I couldn’t bring myyself to read another too-familiar page even one
more time. She had yyet again been commandeered byy the Duchess and the
Mistresses, and I knew I might not even see her the following morning.
So, I had another dayy of staring—uninterrupted except for myy training
with Vikter—at four stone walls. And the longer I stayyed in myy room with
nothing to occupyy myy mind, the more I thought about what Hawke had
said about all the rights that had been stripped awayy from me.
It wasn’t like I didn’t alreadyy know that, but it wasn’t something that
others appeared to even acknowledge. Mayybe it was because theyy were
with me constantlyy, so everyything had become the norm. But to Hawke,
who was new, none of this was normal.
And that was what led me to travel unaccompanied through Wisher’s
Grove to the Atheneum while Hawke stood outside myy chamber door,