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Excerpts taken from the May 2020 BBC Update.

Go to www.fhbc.me/ekklesia to read the article in its entirety.


C o n f e r e n c e 2 0 2 1

family

But as for me and my H O U S E

we will S E R V E the Lord

Joshua 24:15

Guest Speakers Include:

Dr. David Sorenson

Pastor Chris Starr

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BUT CONTINUE THOU . . .

by Dr. Randy Starr

2

Timothy 3:14

says, “But

continue thou

in the things

which thou

hast learned

and hast been

assured of,

knowing of

whom thou hast learned them.”

The apostle Paul wrote 13-

14 books (letters) of the New

Testament, the last of which was 2

Timothy. As he is preparing to move

off the scene, his final words are

warnings and challenges. In verses

1-9, he warns them again about

wicked men and what they want to

do. By contrast, he reminds them

of his doctrine, manner of life, and

attitude in ministry (vs. 10). Still, he

tells them that when you do right,

you will face opposition. Paul did

(vs. 11), but he reminds them that

he endured. The Lord delivered

him “out of them all,” and he kept

going.

Paul makes the application that

every person who will live godly will

face opposition. BUT THEN—he

brings Timothy back to the fact that,

even in that evil atmosphere—YOU

CAN CONTINUE in what you’ve

been taught from the Bible. Paul

was saying, “I made it, and so can

you. I endured, and so can you. I

stood for truth in spite of adversity,

and so can you.”

A few days after the tragedy of

the bombing of our Marine barracks

in Beirut in the 1980s, Marine Corps

Commandant Paul X. Kelly visited

some of the wounded survivors in

a hospital in Frankfurt, Germany.

Among them was Corporal Jeffrey

Lee Nashton, severely wounded in

the incident. Nashton had so many

tubes running in and out of his body

that a witness said he looked more

like a machine than a man; yet he

survived.

As Kelly neared him, Nashton,

struggling to move and racked with

pain, motioned for a piece of paper

and a pen. He wrote a brief note and

passed it back to the Commandant.

On the slip of paper were but two

words—Semper Fi—the Latin motto

of the Marines meaning “forever

faithful.” With those two simple

words Nashton spoke for the millions

of Americans who have sacrificed

body and limb and their lives for their

country—those who have remained

faithful.

Likewise, Paul challenged all of us

to have that same kind of metal about

us that, no matter what comes, we

will resolve to be “forever faithful” to

our Lord and His Word.

I think of Fairhaven Baptist

College’s 44 years of training young

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people for Christian service. Anyone

can start something, but it takes

courage, tenacity, and perseverance

through good times and bad to

“continue” to do it year after year and

not quit. It also takes determination

and commitment to Biblical truth

NOT to change what you stand for

and believe to gain a larger crowd

(like so many Bible colleges have

done). Hats off to Fairhaven for its

example of continuing on from a

humble beginning in 1970 (church)

and 1977 (college) to this very day.

There are two other applications

worth mentioning. Every student

who has been privileged to go

through FBC has a responsibility to

“continue thou in the things which

thou hast learned…knowing of

whom thou has learned them.” Every

FBC graduate who is under attack or

discouraged or has fallen on difficult

times, you should keep looking up.

You can make it. The Lord is your

keeper. Continue thou!

Finally, we MUST mention that

the Lord has faithfully guided and

kept Fairhaven Baptist Church and

College through difficult times to

bring them to where they are today.

We MUST be faithful because our

Lord is—Semper Fi.

(Dr. Randy Starr is a local church evangelist sent out

from Mt. Zion Baptist Church in Brogue, Pennsylvania.)

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MEET A FAIRHAVEN STUDENT

Daniel Zdziarski (‘21)

My dad

is the

pastor

of Tabernacle

Baptist Church

in Quincy,

Illinois, where

I was raised

and have had

the privilege of

growing up surrounded by the Word

of God. I was born in Chicago and

lived there for the first four years of

my life. My dad was then called to

pastor in Quincy, and as any good

four year old I followed him there.

As a boy, I took salvation and the

Bible for granted—attending church

because my parents did and serving

because it was expected. When

only seven years old, I remember my

dad preaching a salvation message

one Sunday night. When my sister

went forward during the invitation, I

went forward because she did. After

praying at the altar for a few seconds,

she told my dad she needed to be

saved. I followed and asked to be

saved as well. Needless to say, that

profession was hardly sincere. I had

only copied my sister without any true

conviction of my sin. It was not until

I was thirteen that I contemplated

the gift of salvation and what it truly

meant. In the early hours of the

morning of November 10, I realized

I could no longer simply think about

salvation, but I desperately needed

to accept it as my own. I went to my

parents and told them that I needed

to be saved. At that moment, I knew

for sure I was saved.

When I was fourteen, I decided on

a career for my future. I was going to

be a pilot. My heart was set on that

for a couple of years. Deep down, I

knew that it was not what God wanted

for my life but that it was what I

wanted to do. I tried to compromise

and allow God to have half of my life.

I told everyone I was going to be a

missionary pilot. That should have

satisfied God, right? Still, God would

not leave me alone. He wanted my

whole life…a complete surrender.

It was not until May 22, 2016, that

I fully surrendered to God and His

will. Former missionary Pat Gordon

preached a stirring message on the

need for missions, and that night

I gave my life to the Lord to serve

Him on the mission field. I decided

that whether I was driving a jeep

on a dusty road, catching a bus in a

crowded city, or flying a plane over a

country, it did not matter because I

was now completely surrendered to

my Lord for however, whenever, and

wherever He wants me to serve Him.

Two years later, God led me to

Fairhaven Baptist College. I am

studying missions and trying to learn

everything I can to become a more

effective servant of Jesus Christ. I

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have had the opportunity to work in

the bus ministry, Sunday School, and

even lend a hand in the Thursday

night Master Club program. It has

definitely been a blessing to work

in these different ministries. I do

not claim to know the exact location

or the exact capacity in which God

intends to use me. However, of this

I am sure—if I stay faithful to God,

pray for His guidance, and remain

involved in His work, it will only be

a matter of time before God reveals

His precise will to me. Until then, I

will just keep serving, learning, and

loving my Lord.

dr. david sorenson

module course

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PITFALLS IN THE PEW

by Dr. Steve Damron

Se v e r a l

years back

the “Merv

Griffin Show”

had for a guest

a bodybuilder.

During the

interview, Merv

asked, “Why

do you develop

those particular muscles?”

The bodybuilder simply stepped

forward and flexed a series of muscles

from chest to calf. The audience

applauded.

“What do you use all those

muscles for?” Merv asked. Again, the

muscular specimen flexed, and biceps

and triceps sprouted to impressive

proportions.

“But what do you use those muscles

for?” Merv persisted. There was a

moment of confused embarrassment

as the bodybuilder sat down in

bewilderment. He didn’t have an

answer to the question other than to

display a well-developed frame. So it

is for us who sit in the pew week after

week and have our spiritual muscles

developed. If we are not careful, we as

believers will be as silly as the mindless

body builder who had no idea of why

he developed his muscles. The apostle

Paul addressed this idea in the book of

Hebrews:

“For when for the time ye ought

to be teachers, ye have need that

one teach you again which be the first

principles of the oracles of God; and

are become such as have need of milk,

and not of strong meat. For every one

that useth milk is unskilful in the word

of righteousness: for he is a babe. But

strong meat belongeth to them that are

of full age, even those who by reason

of use have their senses exercised to

discern both good and evil” (Hebrews

5:12-14).

It is imperative that not only the

pulpit be Biblical in its attention to

doctrinal and heart issues, but that

those in the pew also understand the

Biblical reasons for preaching. This

could be redefined as some “spiritual

weightlifting.” Church members go to

church for the instruction and building

of spiritual muscles so that they will

be equipped to go forth in this dark

world and present the light of Jesus

Christ. Granted, there are some things

that the preachers need to be careful

of, but there are also “pitfalls in the

pew.” May God help us to consider

our hearts as we consider some texts

in this article.

Let’s look at two well-known texts

that help us understand the gifts God

gives us through pastors to help the

body of believers move ahead in their

spiritual maturation:

“I beseech you therefore, brethren,

by the mercies of God, that ye present

your bodies a living sacrifice, holy,

acceptable unto God, which is your

reasonable service. And be not

conformed to this world: but be ye

transformed by the renewing of your

mind, that ye may prove what is that

good, and acceptable, and perfect,

will of God. For I say, through the

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grace given unto me, to every man

that is among you, not to think of

himself more highly than he ought to

think; but to think soberly, according

as God hath dealt to every man the

measure of faith. For as we have

many members in one body, and all

members have not the same office:

So we, being many, are one body in

Christ, and every one members one

of another. Having then gifts differing

according to the grace that is given to

us, whether prophecy, let us prophesy

according to the proportion of faith; Or

ministry, let us wait on our ministering:

or he that teacheth, on teaching; Or

he that exhorteth, on exhortation: he

that giveth, let him do it with simplicity;

he that ruleth, with diligence; he that

sheweth mercy, with cheerfulness”

(Romans 12:1-8).

“And he gave some, apostles; and

some, prophets; and some, evangelists;

and some, pastors and teachers; For

the perfecting of the saints, for the work

of the ministry, for the edifying of the

body of Christ: Till we all come in the

unity of the faith, and of the knowledge

of the Son of God, unto a perfect man,

unto the measure of the stature of the

fulness of Christ: That we henceforth

be no more children, tossed to and fro,

and carried about with every wind of

doctrine, by the sleight of men, and

cunning craftiness, whereby they lie

in wait to deceive; But speaking the

truth in love, may grow up into him

in all things, which is the head, even

Christ: From whom the whole body

fitly joined together and compacted

by that which every joint supplieth,

according to the effectual working

in the measure of every part, maketh

increase of the body unto the edifying

of itself in love” (Ephesians 4:11-16).

Be Careful of a Complaining Spirit

“Now Korah, the son of Izhar, the

son of Kohath, the son of Levi, and

Dathan and Abiram, the sons of Eliab,

and On, the son of Peleth, sons of

Reuben, took men: And they rose

up before Moses, with certain of the

children of Israel, two hundred and

fifty princes of the assembly, famous in

the congregation, men of renown: And

they gathered themselves together

against Moses and against Aaron, and

said unto them, Ye take too much upon

you, seeing all the congregation are

holy, every one of them, and the LORD

is among them: wherefore then lift ye

up yourselves above the congregation

of the LORD?” (Numbers 16:1-3).

“And the LORD spake unto

Moses and unto Aaron, saying,

Separate yourselves from among this

congregation, that I may consume

them in a moment. And they fell upon

their faces, and said, O God, the God

of the spirits of all flesh, shall one man

sin, and wilt thou be wroth with all the

congregation?” (Numbers 16:20-22).

Other Scriptures to consider

include: Exodus 5:21; Exodus 15:24;

Exodus 16:2-3; Numbers 20:2-4. You

will notice that there are some common

themes in the verses above. They

deal with a group of individuals that

did not like the provisions that God

gave, the leaders that God provided,

or the decisions that God made.

Woe to the church that has pews full

of complainers! This attitude was

prevalent in the Old Testament with

the children of Israel. Sometimes as

you read through the Old Testament,

the impression is that nothing God

would have done for the children of

Israel would have been good enough.

(cont., pg 10)

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This can sadly be true today of many

that attend fundamental Baptist

churches. I have labeled this “the gift.”

I have met many folks who have been

given the “Independent Baptist gift.”

“What is that?” you might ask—the

gift of criticism. There are some folks

who have a natural tendency towards

“negativity.” They can find the wrong in

everyone and everything. They can find

the wrong note, the wrong motive, the

wrong outline, the wrong punctuation,

the wrong wording, the wrong color,

the wrong guest speaker—you get the

point. However, when you confront

this person, then you are judgmental

and do not understand their gift. Also,

they have twisted Scriptures around so

much that they have a justification for

all their criticisms and gripes. This spirit

in the pew is a horrible blight, and as

you find in the Old Testament, God

does not look favorably on it.

So what is the cure for a complaining

spirit? A Complimenting Spirit.

“Let no corrupt communication

proceed out of your mouth, but that

which is good to the use of edifying,

that it may minister grace unto the

hearers. And grieve not the holy Spirit

of God, whereby ye are sealed unto the

day of redemption. Let all bitterness,

and wrath, and anger, and clamour, and

evil speaking, be put away from you,

with all malice: And be ye kind one to

another, tenderhearted, forgiving one

another, even as God for Christ’s sake

hath forgiven you” (Ephesians 4:29-

32).

Henry W. Beecher, the famous

pulpit orator, once had to be absent

and his brother was invited to speak for

him. The church house was crowded,

but when it became evident the

eloquent Henry Beecher was not going

to appear, many started to leave.

Beecher’s brother was not disturbed.

He stood up before the murmuring

crowd, called for silence and said, “All

who came this morning to worship

Henry W. Beecher may now leave. The

rest will remain and worship God.”

Learn to follow the admonition of

the apostle Paul in Ephesians 4 and

try to have your speech filled with

kindness and forgiveness. It will go a

long way to help spread the gospel.

Beware of a Cold Heart

“Unto the angel of the church of

Ephesus write; These things saith he

that holdeth the seven stars in his

right hand, who walketh in the midst

of the seven golden candlesticks; I

know thy works, and thy labour, and

thy patience, and how thou canst not

bear them which are evil: and thou hast

tried them which say they are apostles,

and are not, and hast found them liars:

And hast borne, and hast patience,

and for my name’s sake hast laboured,

and hast not fainted. Nevertheless I

have somewhat against thee, because

thou hast left thy first love” (Revelation

2:1-4).

This disease seems to creep into so

many churches that have been dead

for many years and have experienced

no life and yet keep functioning. The

“cold heart” is a dangerous disease

that starts with a slow progression of

moving away from that first love in the

Christian life, Christ. Some Christians

forget that Christ is the focal point

of the believer’s life. When we move

away from this central theme, we can

become cold and dead in our walk

with the Lord, in our service to the

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Lord, and in our dedication to the

Lord. Note in the text of Revelation

2 that this church labored, and was

seemingly opposed to sin. They were

even aware of apostate doctrine. These

are admirable traits, but they had left

that which is the whole focus, Christ.

Don’t get tired of hearing of salvation,

of hearing of Calvary, of hearing about

the great doctrine of Christology. We

should as Christians be thrilled to sing

whole heartedly, “Christ is all I need!”

So, what is the believer’s cure for

ridding himself of a cold heart?

Remember Calvary.

When we get cold in our Christian

walk, we must pause and take a trip

back to the foot of the cross. It will

be there that we will find our hearts

softened as we see once again our

suffering Savior upon the tree for the

sins of the whole world. But, when it

becomes even more personal and you

realize that it was your sinfulness that

put Christ on the cross, you will once

again have a passion to love and serve

this amazing Savior.

“Sometimes I go to God and

say, ‘God, if Thou dost never answer

another prayer while I live on this earth,

I will still worship Thee as long as I live

and in the ages to come for what Thou

hast done already.’ God has already

put me so far in debt that if I were to

live one million millenniums, I couldn’t

pay Him for what He’s done for me.”

A.W. Tozer

Watch Out for a Carnal Heart

“And unto the angel of the church

in Thyatira write; These things saith the

Son of God, who hath his eyes like unto

a flame of fire, and his feet are like fine

brass; I know thy works, and charity,

and service, and faith, and thy patience,

and thy works; and the last to be more

than the first. Notwithstanding I have a

few things against thee, because thou

sufferest that woman Jezebel, which

calleth herself a prophetess, to teach

and to seduce my servants to commit

fornication, and to eat things sacrificed

unto idols. And I gave her space to

repent of her fornication; and she

repented not” (Revelation 2:18-21).

One commentator says the

following on this passage: “The longest

message was sent to the church in

Thyatira, the smallest city of the seven.

Thyatira was a military town as well as

a commercial center with many trade

guilds (unions). Wherever guilds and

a military presence were found there

was idolatry and immorality. The city

boasted a special temple to Apollo, the

sun god, which is interesting because

in the text the title, the Son of God, is

used. It is the only time in the book

of Revelation that this title for God is

used.”

Beware of allowing “the spirit of

Jezebel” to enter your heart, either as

a church or as an individual. What is this

spirit? The spirit of Jezebel is allowing

the world to infect our worship.

Whenever the ideas of religion and

fornication are combined, it is a

reference to spiritual harlotry. This is the

concept of allowing something else to

come in and replace the preeminence

of God in our hearts. This is what the

carnal spirit and the world desires for

the Christian. The carnal man wants

fewer restrictions and demands on his

life. The worldly man wants to have

the world’s approval and the world’s

system and still be able to be looked

at as a Christian.

(cont., pg 12)

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So, what is the cure for the carnal

heart? Holiness and Godliness.

You will notice in Revelation 2 that

God’s fire once again must burn in

our hearts. His holy fire can burn the

chaff of this world out of our hearts.

We should desire holiness as a church.

The spirit of carnality should not be

“comfortable” in our church. We

should speak the truth in love, yes, but

we must speak the truth. We must be

zealous for this in His church.

“In proportion as a church is holy,

in that proportion will its testimony for

Christ be powerful.” – C. H. Spurgeon

Never Give Space

to a Complacent Attitude

“And unto the angel of the church

of the Laodiceans write; These things

saith the Amen, the faithful and true

witness, the beginning of the creation

of God; I know thy works, that thou

art neither cold nor hot: I would thou

wert cold or hot. So then because thou

art lukewarm, and neither cold nor

hot, I will spue thee out of my mouth.

Because thou sayest, I am rich, and

increased with goods, and have need

of nothing; and knowest not that thou

art wretched, and miserable, and poor,

and blind, and naked” (Revelation

3:14-17).

So, what is the cure for a complacent

heart? Repentance.

You will notice in Revelation 3 that

several remedies are offered to return a

lukewarm heart to godliness.

“I counsel thee to buy of me gold

tried in the fire, that thou mayest be rich;

and white raiment, that thou mayest

be clothed, and that the shame of thy

nakedness do not appear; and anoint

thine eyes with eyesalve, that thou

mayest see. As many as I love, I rebuke

and chasten: be zealous therefore, and

repent” (Revelation 3:18-19).

The “complacent attitude” is very

similar to the cold heart. Their similar

consequences illustrate the power

that a cold and complacent heart can

have. The hymnwriter wrote, “Prone to

wander—Lord, I feel it— Prone to leave

the God I love.” This is true today of the

believer. So, we must repent—change

our actions. Come to the Savior for

counsel and get the true riches. Let

Him give you the riches that are most

important and then let Him clothe you

again with righteousness.

“A church that does not exist to

reclaim heathenism, to fight evil, to

destroy error, to put down falsehood;

a church that does not exist to take the

side of the poor, to denounce injustice

and to hold up righteousness, is a

church that has no right to be.” – C. H.

Spurgeon

In 1976, Vince Papale was a 30-yearold

substitute teacher and bartender in

Philadelphia, Pennsylvania. He and his

buddies spent most Sunday afternoons

in the fall either playing football at

the park or watching the Philadelphia

Eagles play on television. Week after

week they had high hopes, but week

after week they got beat. Then a new

head coach was hired—a man by the

name of Dick Vermeil, who had led

UCLA to a Rose Bowl win the previous

year. Vermeil convinced the owner

of the Eagles to hold public tryouts,

mostly as a publicity stunt to stir up

excitement among the fans, who had

very little to cheer about in recent

years.

About the same time, Vince Papale

lost his substitute teaching job and

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subsequently lost his wife. Vince went

to talk to his father and see what he

thought about Vince trying out for the

Eagles. His father advised him not to

because as he put it “a man can only

take so much failure.” On the other

hand, all of his football buddies and a

few of his co-workers encouraged him

to try out for the team.

Most of the men who tried out

were out of shape “has beens” or

“wannabees.” At the end of the day

the only one to be selected was Vince.

At the age of 30 he became the oldest

rookie in the NFL.

But even though Vince may

have convinced Coach Vermeil that

he could play, he still had to prove

himself to the rest of his teammates,

which he eventually did out of sheer

determination and hard work. He was

named the captain of the special teams

unit and became a local hero and fan

favorite. Eagles fans were crazy about

the idea of a regular working-class guy

coming down out of the stands and

getting into the game.

Many in the pew today would

transform a church if they would take

this benchwarmer’s mindset. Today

we need some “Vince Papales” who

will get out of the stands and step

into fulfilling what a Biblical member

should be: a sold-out, studious, soulconscious,

sacrificing, serving, selfless

church member. Oh, that God would

bring to our Independent Baptist

churches members that desire to see

God’s moving in their midst.

“O LORD, I have heard thy speech,

and was afraid: O LORD, revive thy

work in the midst of the years, in the

midst of the years make known; in

wrath remember mercy” (Habakkuk

3:2).

(Steve Damron is the pastor of Fairhaven Baptist

Church and president of Fairhaven Baptist College.)

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MEET A FAIRHAVEN ALUMNI

by Mrs. Tammy Sinz (‘95)

God called my dad to move to

Chesterton, Indiana, to start

attending Fairhaven Baptist

Church, so I, Tammy (Stockman)

Sinz, had the privilege of attending

Fairhaven nursery in 1974 as a one

year old. He found what God’s will

was for his life and did it.

Through my many years of

growing up at Fairhaven, I heard

these words over and over—“Find

God’s Will and Do It!” Doing God’s

will is not a once-in-a-lifetime

decision…it is a daily choice! Every

day, we have decisions to make—

do our choices line up with God’s

Word and His will?

The most important part of the

will of God for our lives is to accept

Jesus Christ as our Savior. In April

of 1988, Dr. Voegtlin preached a

message on hell. This message

was aimed right at me. I remember

sitting in my pew thinking: “I don’t

want to burn in hell, but everyone

thinks I’m saved. I’ve grown up in a

good Christian home; I attend this

good church; my dad is on staff;

what are people going to think?”

But, thankfully, the Holy Spirit kept

nudging me, and I went forward at

the invitation that Sunday morning

and trusted Christ as my own

personal Savior. This was by far

the best decision that I ever made.

This decision set the precedent for

the rest of my life.

A few years later, in my eleventh

grade year of high school, I spotted

the man that God had for me to

marry. I liked him from that first

glimpse; however, he did not get

that same memo until Christmas

Banquet of my senior year of high

school. We were married in 1993.

I am so thankful for my husband

and his willingness to follow God’s

will in every aspect of our lives.

Through the years together, we

have learned a lot about the will of

God.

Finding the will of God and doing

it is not always easy. Throughout

our married life, God has moved

us to work in different ministries.

Sometimes, these moves did not

make any sense to us or others

around us, but we KNEW it was

God’s will, so we did it. Certain

of these moves were extremely

difficult. Our hearts were with the

people in those ministries we were

moved from, and it hurt to leave.

But, as I look back on these moves,

I see how God was preparing us for

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where He has us now.

Doing the will of God is not

always popular. If it was, I believe

we would see many more people

doing it. There were many times

that we were scoffed at, rejected,

and hurt because we followed

God’s will, but God was faithful to

be there and to help us through

those difficult times.

God always blesses those who

are doing His will. I was brought

up in the way that He had for me

at Fairhaven Baptist Church and

bless our church above all we could

ever imagine. He is saving souls

and growing His church.

Living the will of God is the best

life that anyone can have.

“Blessed be the Lord, who daily

loadeth us with benefits, even the

God of our salvation. Selah.”

(Psalm 68:19).

(Tammy Sinz (‘95) has been married to Pastor Scott

Sinz (‘93) for 27 years and serves the Lord faithfully

alongside him at Mountain View Baptist Church in

Challis, Idaho.)

Academy. I don’t ever look back

and wish that I had grown up

differently. This was the will He had

mapped out for me. I am thankful

for all that God taught me and that

He continues to teach me.

Living in the will of God is

the greatest joy that one can

experience. I would not trade living

in the will of God for anything. He

has given me a goodly heritage!

He has blessed me more than I ever

deserve with the best husband in

the world, four children, and two

grandchildren. He has allowed my

husband to pastor Mountain Valley

Baptist Church in the middle of the

Idaho mountains. He continues to

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