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<strong>paul</strong> <strong>simon</strong> – 1984 <strong>playboy</strong> <strong>interview</strong> small black beetles: the overkill<br />
At first, I was attracted to it. I liked it that somebody was<br />
critical, because I felt that I was someone who was praised<br />
too much. And I thought, Finally, someone who's honest.<br />
But I began not to like it.<br />
Playboy: Depression is a thread that seems to be woven<br />
through your life.<br />
Simon: I didn't realize that until I'd felt it behind. Then I<br />
realized there was a long stretch of time when I wasn't<br />
happy.<br />
Playboy: Beginning when?<br />
Simon: I'd say early Simon and Garfunkel times. That's<br />
when I started to experience it. In 1966, '67. By '69, it got<br />
so serious that I stopped smoking dope. I said, "This isn't<br />
helping; it's making things worse." I didn't smoke another<br />
joint for 11 years.<br />
Playboy: What depressed you so?<br />
Simon: Stuff I don't want to say.<br />
Playboy: That's a surprising answer from one who's been<br />
so candid until now.<br />
Simon: They were feelings about myself that were very<br />
negative. Most people could look at me and wonder, How<br />
could that guy be depressed? And I now feel that people<br />
were seeing a more accurate picture of me than I was. I<br />
eventually realized, Jesus, all I've been looking at is this thin<br />
slice of pie that has got the bad news in it. And I'm<br />
disregarding the rest of the picture.<br />
Playboy: what bad news are you referring to? Being<br />
short?<br />
Simon: Being short. You could say That's bad news. Not<br />
having a voice that you want. Not looking the way you want<br />
to look. Having a bad relationship. Some of that is real. And<br />
if you start to roll it together, that's what you focus on. I<br />
was unable, fundamental, to absorb the bounty that was in<br />
my life. Even when people would say - a simple statement<br />
that I used to hear countless times - "Hey, man, I love your<br />
music," you'd think that I'd begin to feel something good<br />
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