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Lot’s <strong>Wife</strong> • <strong>Edition</strong> <strong>Five</strong><br />
lot’s wife<br />
EDITION FIVE<br />
In Collaboration with<br />
<strong>MSA</strong> <strong>Women’s</strong> & <strong>MSA</strong> <strong>POC</strong><br />
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Art by Brienna Emily Cover Art by Maria Chamakala<br />
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contents<br />
Analysis<br />
Creative<br />
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I Don’t Want To Dance<br />
By Grace Baldwin<br />
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Lightbox Bodies<br />
By Tingnan Li<br />
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Meet Us At The Intersection<br />
By Maiysha Moin<br />
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Patchwork Woman<br />
By Riya Rajesh<br />
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Getting The Monkey Off One’s Back: Why We Go<br />
Ape Over <strong>Women’s</strong> Body Hair<br />
By Xenia Sanut<br />
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When Charlie Met Her Maker<br />
By Milly Downing<br />
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Gag Orders: A Survivor’s Perspective<br />
By Natalia Zivcic<br />
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Black Girl Magic<br />
By Sumaya. F<br />
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A Letter To My Fellow “Nice Guys”<br />
By Anonymous<br />
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Studies About Domestic Work<br />
By Tatiana Cruz<br />
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The Waiting Room: A Love Letter To My Best Friend<br />
Who Broke Up With Her Nice Boyfriend<br />
By Sarah Bartlett<br />
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The Power of Womanhood<br />
By Meg Ruyters<br />
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For Our Eyes Only<br />
By Greg Hunt<br />
44<br />
One Hour of Outdoor Exercise<br />
By Jessica McCarthy<br />
54<br />
Are We Seeing a New Class Of Investor? And<br />
Why The Story of Tesla’s Stock Should Be One of<br />
Caution Rather Than Wild Success<br />
By Ariel Horton<br />
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The Circus<br />
By Eliot Walton<br />
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We Shall Isolate From The Teachers<br />
By Lordy May<br />
Culture<br />
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Winding Paths<br />
By Cody B Strange<br />
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A Journey Through Feminist Literature<br />
By Isabella Burton and Eva Scopelliti<br />
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Chasing Grasshoppers<br />
By Joseph Lew<br />
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WAP: Is Sexual Pleasure Still Reserved for Men?<br />
By Juliette Capomolla<br />
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An Ode To My Sparkly Pink Diary<br />
By Tiffany Forbes<br />
Lot’s <strong>Wife</strong> is the student magazine of the Monash Student Association (<strong>MSA</strong>). The views expressed herein are not necessarily the views of the <strong>MSA</strong>, the printers or the<br />
editors. All writing and artwork remains the property of the creators. This collection is © Lot’s <strong>Wife</strong> and Lot’s <strong>Wife</strong> reserves the right to republish material in any format.<br />
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Lot’s <strong>Wife</strong> acknowledges the traditional custodians of the land, the people of the Kulin Nations. We pay our<br />
respects to their Elders past, present and emerging. Sovereignty has never been ceded.<br />
elcome to the <strong>Women’s</strong> <strong>Edition</strong> of Lot’s <strong>Wife</strong>,<br />
proudly presented to you by the <strong>MSA</strong> <strong>Women’s</strong> De-<br />
the <strong>MSA</strong> People of Colour Department,<br />
Wpartment,<br />
and the Lot’s <strong>Wife</strong> team. Our pieces in this edition showcase<br />
a diverse range of women’s voices, and we couldn’t be more<br />
thankful for their contributions. They take us from uniquely<br />
intimate and devastating encounters to the celebration of<br />
identity and strength, delivering perspicacious commentary on<br />
the patriarchal power structures that refuse to loosen their grip<br />
on us. Well, not unless we can help it, that is!<br />
Here at Lot’s <strong>Wife</strong> we feel privileged to have these talented<br />
writers and artists share their stories with us and with you, our<br />
readers. Our ability to publish these pieces is testament to the<br />
progress our society is making. Yet, it is abundantly clear (as<br />
some of the pieces so eloquently highlight) that the issue of<br />
gender equality is far from resolved. We hope that publishing<br />
these voices makes a small contribution to creating a world<br />
where women can be heard - truly heard - and believed for<br />
their experiences, thoughts and frustrations, which don’t satisfy<br />
the sanitised version of what tradition dictates their reality must<br />
be. But to do this, we need your help.<br />
You can use Sumaya F’s poem ‘Black Girl Magic’, as a way to<br />
start talking about beauty standards for Bla(c)k women when<br />
you’re sitting around outside, having lunch with your girlfriends.<br />
You can use Grace Baldwin’s personal essay ‘I Don’t Want to<br />
Dance’, to talk about consent and boundaries with your mates<br />
on the back deck, bevvy in hand. Use any of the fantastic<br />
pieces in this edition to discuss issues at the dinner table with<br />
your parents and siblings. These stories are springboards for<br />
conversation and springboards for change, so please, use them.<br />
Talk about it openly, in a way where you’re genuinely receptive<br />
to women’s voices, and put your defensiveness down - even if<br />
just for a day, just for a conversation, just for one piece inside<br />
this edition.<br />
We hope you find the courage, strength, inspiration, and love<br />
to help make this change, as the women who contributed their<br />
stories have done by sharing them with us.<br />
With love,<br />
On behalf of the Lot’s <strong>Wife</strong> team,<br />
Weng Yi Wong and Milly Downing<br />
We have a collective responsibility to change things for the<br />
better. We need to share this writing with the student community<br />
and beyond, not just for us but for the next generation,<br />
so they can usher in this change we need. We urge you to take<br />
up the reins yourself and pass these stories on, pass Lot’s <strong>Wife</strong><br />
on - through a share, a comment, a like - to start a conversation.<br />
Share it widely, with your friends, family, and especially those<br />
whose perspectives may be challenged by it, so that women’s<br />
voices can echo where they previously have not.<br />
EDITORIAL TEAM<br />
Dao, Ryan Attard, Austin Bond, Milly Downing, Weng Yi Wong, Anna Fazio, Charith Jayawardana, Vivien Tran<br />
Co-managing Editors Content Editors Marketing/Communications Editors Visual Editor<br />
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Hello Lot’s <strong>Wife</strong> readers! We are Meg and Eva, this year’s Monash Student Association (<strong>MSA</strong>) <strong>Women’s</strong> Officers. We have had the<br />
honour of leading the <strong>MSA</strong> <strong>Women’s</strong> Department alongside our <strong>Women’s</strong> Affairs Committee, who have shown us what a strong<br />
community of passionate women can achieve both within the department, and beyond. For that, we cannot thank you enough.<br />
The <strong>MSA</strong> <strong>Women’s</strong> Department exists to advocate for women and non-binary people at Monash Clayton campus. As <strong>Women’s</strong><br />
Officers, we have endeavoured to help build a safer environment for students and to foster a sense of community, especially during<br />
the massive shift to online learning this year. Through collaboration with Respectful Communities and Safer Communities Unit,<br />
we have worked to ensure that support channels at Monash are easily accessible for students in need and increase awareness of<br />
available resources, such as counselling and educational tools including the ‘What You Should Know’ booklet. In creating content<br />
and campaigns online this year, we have hoped that the community within our department for women-identifying and non-binary<br />
students feels advocated for and supported.<br />
The mission behind this collaboration with <strong>MSA</strong> People of Colour Department and Lot’s <strong>Wife</strong> is to amplify the voices of women,<br />
particularly women of colour. We have seen a big social shift in 2020, and what may even be considered a breaking point for Black<br />
women, Indigenous women and Women of Colour (BIWOC). We hope that amongst the pages of this magazine, we have been<br />
able to create a space which highlights many different feminist and social issues that this movement has stirred, including the many<br />
challenges BIWOC face in all aspects of their lives, and the toll this can take on mental and physical health. We are incredibly excited<br />
and grateful to be collaborating with the <strong>MSA</strong> People of Colour Department on this edition of Lot’s <strong>Wife</strong>, and hope that amongst<br />
the variety of writing and artworks that women from all backgrounds feel seen, their voices heard, and know that their knowledge is<br />
valued.<br />
Thank you to all those who contributed to this special edition of Lot’s <strong>Wife</strong>! We hope that you find the writing and artwork within<br />
these pages inspiring and empowering, straight from the minds of so many incredible and diverse women.<br />
Eva and Meg<br />
Facebook: <strong>MSA</strong> <strong>Women’s</strong><br />
Instagram: @msa.womens<br />
Email: msa-womens@monash.edu<br />
Eva Meg<br />
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It’s safe to say that this year has been incredibly big for people of colour and our diverse communities, propelling us to put our game<br />
face on as office bearers of the Monash Student Association’s People of Colour Department (<strong>MSA</strong> PoC). To our community, we’re<br />
forever grateful for the continuous contribution and love during this time!<br />
The People of Colour Department is an autonomous department – representing, advocating, and supporting all students of colour.<br />
And our goals for this year have been no exception. As a much newer department, we have been working around the clock to pick<br />
up the pace in reconnecting our communities on campus and revamping the many events brought in by our predecessors. However,<br />
with COVID-19 hitting us and the unprecedented aftermath washing over us like a tsunami, we’ve had our department’s direction<br />
equally as affected.<br />
As we’ve seen in the racism stemming from COVID-19, and the resurgence of Bla(c)k Lives Matter, the multicultural communities<br />
have been heavily feeling the impact of lockdown - these tumultuous, back-to-back events leaving many of us emotionally, physically,<br />
and mentally drained. During this, we’ve had to revisit our direction as a department to reflect these struggles. We’ve focused more<br />
on our policies and trying to ensure that a student of colour has a lively university experience without having to face racism, discrimination,<br />
or any form of marginalisation. Through the help of the Safer Communities Unit and organisations like the Victorian Equal<br />
Opportunities Human Rights Commission, we’ve had the opportunity to curate an anti-racism guide. This contains the information<br />
to assist anyone, student or staff member, that faces, witnesses, or obtains knowledge of racial discrimination. Witnessing the harsh<br />
light and unsuspecting rise in discrimination-related cases at Monash and globally, we hope that this is only the beginning in ensuring<br />
that students of colour - or anyone for that matter - are equipped with the right toolkit to tackle racism.<br />
The collaboration with <strong>MSA</strong> <strong>Women’s</strong> Department and Lot’s <strong>Wife</strong> couldn’t have come at a better time. Curated to amplify the<br />
voices of Women of Colour, Bla(c)k Women and Indigenous women (BIWOC), this edition is for all women, not some. As we’ve said,<br />
2020 has been a big year, particularly for people of colour. As you flick through these dedicated pages, read their stories, appreciate<br />
their artwork, acknowledge their knowledge, you can see this is women telling us their anecdotes. This is their experience of being a<br />
BIWOC woman facing social and feminist issues in 2020. We’re wholeheartedly excited, enthralled, and thankful to be collaborating<br />
with the <strong>MSA</strong> <strong>Women’s</strong> Department in this edition of the Lot’s <strong>Wife</strong> magazine.<br />
This is something not to miss out on.<br />
With love and power,<br />
Sabrin and Ayush<br />
Facebook: <strong>MSA</strong> People of Colour<br />
Email: msa-poc-l@monash.edu<br />
Ayush Sabrin<br />
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I Don’t Want To Dance<br />
Words by Grace Baldwin<br />
I met Noah* when I was fourteen, back when everything was so simple<br />
and so complicated.<br />
The discomfort I experienced around him wasn’t instant. It developed<br />
over the coming months as his inappropriate behaviour continued to<br />
crescendo.<br />
I was fifteen when something broke inside of me.<br />
It was early 2017, a dance in a school hall. I remember that night in flashes.<br />
Disco lights, loud music, bad dancing – the usual. It had started off as fun.<br />
There was a group of us at the dance sticking together so that nobody had<br />
to awkwardly dance alone. I had been playing my usual avoidance game<br />
with Noah, dodging him and doing my best to stay out of his line of vision.<br />
I was used to this. I didn’t enjoy it, but I could handle it.<br />
Then the music changed.<br />
It turned slow, a revolting ballad filling the hall. Couples formed all around<br />
me like magnets, embracing and swaying like willow trees. Noah locked<br />
eyes with me from across the room, his beady gaze pinning me to the spot.<br />
I don’t want to dance with him. I don’t want to dance with him. I don’t<br />
want to dance with him.<br />
My stomach slid out beneath me, and my blood ran cold. I wanted to cry.<br />
Instead, I fled. I made a beeline for the exit, panic overtaking my vision<br />
until I could barely breathe. Nausea was rising in my throat and my lungs<br />
were burning and constricting. I ran out the door, down the hallway and<br />
leant against some lockers in the dim light, breathing deeply.<br />
In through the nose, out through the mouth.<br />
I held my face in my clammy hands, chest heaving and wracking with dry<br />
sobs. And as I stood there alone, listening to everyone dance to a song I<br />
knew, I was hit by a tsunami of hopeless fatigue.<br />
I can’t keep doing this.<br />
I had spent years being chased, avoiding being alone with him, feeling sick<br />
when he approached me. Now, he had physically driven me away from my<br />
friends – a night I should have spent socialising and dancing like a normal<br />
teenager. The dark school hallway loomed over me, reminding me that<br />
nobody had noticed I’d left. I allowed myself to cry.<br />
I suddenly heard someone coming towards me from the direction of the<br />
dance. There was nobody I wanted to see, so I turned a corner off the<br />
main hallway and hid, breathing shallowly into my hand. I saw Noah stalk<br />
past, visibly angry. I knew it was me he was angry with. I stood as silently<br />
as I could and he walked right by, missing me completely. He had come<br />
to follow me, to stand too close to me, to ask if I was finally ready to fall<br />
in love with him.<br />
I only let myself exhale when the slam of the heavy doors confirmed his<br />
absence.<br />
The moonlight was beaming through the glass windows, illuminating<br />
my hands with its pale glow. I exhaled deeply again, completely without<br />
hope or light. The evening was ruined, and I sank to the ground.<br />
The exhaustion came crashing down around me like a burning city.<br />
Things never used to be this hard.<br />
After a few minutes, I heard the music change, and I knew the couples<br />
wouldn’t be couples anymore. With the knowledge that Noah wasn’t there<br />
anymore to watch me, follow me, breathe on me or touch me, I turned<br />
around and went back to the dance.<br />
Chin up. Bright smile. Off you go.<br />
***<br />
From the very first weeks of our acquaintance, Noah’s behaviour grew<br />
increasingly disturbing and obsessive. He expressed his affections to me<br />
many times, and I did what I could as a young teenager to communicate<br />
my refusal. He messaged me daily with provocative, graphic updates of<br />
his poor mental health in a bid to get me to message back. He asked me<br />
out on dates regularly. He pestered me for hugs. He always tried to sit<br />
directly beside me so that we were touching. He sabotaged my romantic<br />
relationships. The unrelenting consistency of his behaviour had been<br />
wearing me down for around two years at this stage, and the dance in<br />
2017 was (what I thought to be) my breaking point.<br />
I didn’t yet know that I had a whole queue of breaking points lined up<br />
ahead.<br />
My experience with this boy stretched over five years. I was aggressively<br />
mistreated online and harassed in-person because I did not wish to date<br />
him. It was a textbook response – I didn’t want to date him; therefore, I<br />
was a bitch, I should just kill myself already. These are some of the things<br />
he said to me.<br />
Things escalated rapidly. What had started as a ‘harmless crush’ had<br />
grotesquely morphed into violent threats and abusive speech.<br />
These days when I look back on this time, I observe not only Noah’s<br />
behaviour, but the response of those around me. I am incredibly blessed<br />
with a very diligent and loving family who did everything in their power to<br />
help and protect me. However, the response of Noah’s school, his parents<br />
and the community that we were connected through fell short in many<br />
ways.<br />
Largely, these were not individual failings. I wholly believe that those<br />
informed were genuinely distressed and disturbed by what Noah had done<br />
to me. I have absolutely no doubt in my mind that their horror was real<br />
and authentic. What angers me is the weak response from a disciplinary<br />
angle.<br />
He incurred no punishment except being forbidden to contact me online.<br />
He was still allowed to talk to me in person, he had no punishment from<br />
his school, and his parents were outwardly indifferent. In the end, all that<br />
was said was that they were very sorry it happened to me, and they hoped<br />
it wouldn’t happen again.<br />
The reason boundaries were instilled was due to the unyielding persistence<br />
of my parents. And sixteen-year-old me, uneducated as yet about<br />
the manipulative power and gaslighting tendencies of the patriarchy,<br />
apologised for causing a fuss. I said sorry for being told to kill myself by a<br />
seventeen-year-old boy.<br />
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This is what happens when the concerns of women, particularly<br />
young women, are not listened to and not taken seriously. I had been<br />
communicating my unease for years before things spiralled out of control.<br />
To date, the responses had been vague (if well-intended) and never really<br />
worked.<br />
My self-defence trainer often quotes Einstein’s definition of insanity: doing<br />
the same thing over and over and expecting different results. This is exactly<br />
what was happening. The ‘strategies’ that had been in place to protect me<br />
were not working, yet nobody was changing them. I was a young woman,<br />
I was uncomfortable, I was scared, and I wasn’t taken seriously enough by<br />
those who could do something to help.<br />
I consider that this was my informal introduction to institutional<br />
patriarchy. Institutional patriarchy seeks to systemically (rather than<br />
individually) protect and defend the actions of men, refusing to hold them<br />
accountable for their behaviour. The patriarchy is not ‘men’, it is a system<br />
that allows men to receive an extraordinary advantage in life (often in<br />
tandem with a denial that such an advantage even exists). I have found<br />
that institutional patriarchy is often cloaked in paternalistic politeness,<br />
expressing patronising sorrow when women are angry at injustice, as well<br />
as incredulous and wounded disbelief at any request for change.<br />
Too often, the righteous, powerful, uniting anger felt in the gut of every<br />
woman is framed as a character flaw. A misunderstanding. We’re coming<br />
at it from the wrong angle. You won’t gain support from men if you’re<br />
angry! (Apparently, for feminism to work, women need to present it as<br />
non-threatening to society as it currently stands. We need to convince men<br />
that they won’t need to surrender their privilege and work for justice.)<br />
Now, years later, Noah has been expelled from my life. Yet, I still see<br />
his behaviour impacting and trying to destroy other women. After five<br />
years, nobody will hold this boy accountable. This is an abject example of<br />
institutional patriarchy prevailing over the wellbeing and safety of women.<br />
It is often thought that girls ‘naturally’ mature faster than boys do. I<br />
understand the science of brain development rates between males and<br />
females, but I also understand that men hide behind this science to avoid<br />
accountability. It’s more than science. Women are forced to grow up faster<br />
than men because they are launched into a world of psychological warfare<br />
before hitting puberty. They mature faster because they have to. Girls are<br />
thrust into mature situations, and the patriarchy propels them into a life<br />
where being abused and harassed is their fault. Of course girls have to<br />
grow up faster.<br />
This is why we need feminism. Feminism is a movement that benefits<br />
everybody. Feminism seeks to define, establish and achieve political,<br />
economic, personal, and social gender equality. It seeks to stop the<br />
systemic protection of predatory male behaviour so that social/political/<br />
religious/corporate structures don’t keep destroying women.<br />
It means women are listened to. Taken seriously when they say they don’t<br />
feel safe.<br />
This is something worth fighting for.<br />
*Names have been changed.<br />
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lightbox bodies<br />
• Words by Tingnan Li<br />
art is<br />
spreading pain<br />
out on a lightbox<br />
poking at its insides<br />
then presenting it<br />
like a mounted butterfly<br />
for the world to inspect<br />
art is<br />
the careful science<br />
of pressing against bruises<br />
transforming inky battlefield bodies<br />
into living breathing museums<br />
art is<br />
prising open<br />
the cupboard doors<br />
to your chest<br />
and inviting the world inside<br />
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Art by Kat Kennedy
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Meet Us At The Intersection<br />
Words by Maiysha Moin<br />
We opened our eyes wide with excitement for a new decade. 2020: a new<br />
vision for a new future. Yet, this year seems saturated with more crises than<br />
success. These unprecedented challenges have foregrounded the desperate<br />
need for diverse voices in leadership to develop more nuanced responses<br />
to systemic crises. From an exigency for Indigenous knowledge of fire<br />
management after our bushfires, to consideration of hard lockdowns on<br />
vulnerable public housing communities, leadership as we know it fails to<br />
reflect our multi-faceted and changing communities.<br />
Yet when it comes to diversity, Australian politics is sorely lacking. The<br />
polarisation and deep entrenchment of party lines have dissuaded women<br />
of colour (WOC) from entering traditionally white and male-dominated<br />
political spaces. 37% of our Commonwealth Government is female, and<br />
of 227 seats only eight are held by women of colour. Instead of taking<br />
their rightful places in the chambers of Parliament, many young women<br />
are turning to activism to voice their frustrations and enact tangible<br />
change. While activism does indeed have its merits and influence upon<br />
policymaking, it will undeniably remain peripheral to the ultimate<br />
decision-making in government. Instead we need this demographic of<br />
Australians to step into traditional power structures and shape political<br />
leadership to be more visionary and diverse from the inside.<br />
For many women of colour, the inclusivity of activism and advocacy<br />
groups is the preferred pathway to create the change they want to see.<br />
These spaces create a safe environment for self-expression which, for<br />
those who have experienced discrimination, forms a comforting cocoon<br />
to pursue political change without the rough-and-tumble of a party.<br />
Frequently, I have seen culturally and linguistically diverse (CALD)<br />
women enter, organise, and lead activist movements – whether it be a<br />
climate strike sweeping through the streets of Melbourne’s CBD, or a<br />
grassroots student publication amplifying the WOC experience.<br />
During my own experiences in environmental activism, I have been<br />
encouraged to take up leadership and oratory opportunities by mentors<br />
within these spaces. My experience is not an isolated one: Aisheeya Huq,<br />
a Year 12 student in Western Sydney and former School Strike 4 Climate<br />
organiser, notes that while the ‘inner [city], high income background,<br />
white’ activist archetype is ‘what the face of climate activism has been in<br />
Australia for decades’, the tide is changing. Though she has struggled with<br />
a racial and classist divide, she remarks that mentors with experience were<br />
‘eager and willing to have more representation’ within the movement.<br />
Huq’s sentiments are closely echoed by Desiree Cai, another WOC<br />
working extensively in advocacy spaces. Desiree celebrates that the<br />
‘environment movement is quite diverse’ and that while it has ‘historically<br />
been a middle-class white movement […] it’s moving away from that –<br />
with greater <strong>POC</strong> diversity.’ Both women note the decentralised leadership<br />
and open structure of activism as an attractive avenue for CALD females<br />
to enact social change.<br />
Yet, why isn’t this diversity seen in political parties? While women of<br />
colour take the lead in activist spaces, they are nearly absent from the<br />
youth wings of political parties. Truthfully, it’s frustrating to see women<br />
who advocate passionately and tirelessly feeling repulsed at the prospect<br />
of joining a party. Cai and Huq offer an insight into two salient barriers<br />
which exist for our demographic when it comes to politics: male pugnacity<br />
and a lack of intersectionality.<br />
Cai is no stranger to politics: she’s been the President of the University<br />
of Melbourne Student Union and is a former President of the National<br />
Union of Students. Though universities are notable for being progressive,<br />
the challenges for diverse women are seemingly perennial. She observes<br />
that ‘there are lots of queer people involved [in student politics], but it’s<br />
much different when we consider race as a barrier’. Her remarks highlight<br />
that politics can masquerade as being progressive and inclusive by<br />
adopting epithets of feminism and diversity, but falls short of intersectional<br />
inclusivity.<br />
In contrast to Cai, Huq places greater emphasis on male bellicosity within<br />
these spaces. Rather than underscoring her CALD identity, Huq attributes<br />
the barriers women of colour face in politics to their ‘womanhood’. She<br />
claims her gender has ‘stopped [her] from taking a bureaucratic initiative or<br />
taking spaces which are more official structures’. The intimidation tactics<br />
employed by young men are noticeably observed and experienced. She<br />
remembers ‘that [the political space] was always confronting … I’ve had<br />
experience arguing with [young] men – I don’t take the initiative to take<br />
the space where I would be crushed’. Her words resonate deeply with me.<br />
At events hosted by my national political party, young men fill my ears with<br />
their unsolicited political opinions sandwiched between esoteric economic<br />
jargon and a private-school-curated vernacular. The intimidation tactic is<br />
dualist: overt aggression and unconscious privilege. Huq laments that it’s<br />
the ‘subtle things that grow into a barrier – a psychological barrier’, one<br />
which fosters feelings of inadequacy for a number of WOC who attempt<br />
to join a political party.<br />
The barriers which Cai, Huq, and I have observed, especially those of<br />
race, seem less applicable to men of colour in the political sphere. On a<br />
<strong>POC</strong> Caucus Zoom with my party, it was surprising to find I was the only<br />
woman. Comparatively, at countless environmental and feminist activism<br />
meetings I’ve attended over the last two years, I’ve rarely acquainted a<br />
man of a similar background to me. The contrast would not be starker.<br />
Why do CALD men feel more comfortable joining political parties than<br />
joining forces with activists? Perhaps, a patriarchal milieu has legitimised<br />
traditional power structures as an avenue for men to enact social change.<br />
While I applaud their courage and the diversity they introduce, it is<br />
another subtle reminder of the inherent androcentrism of politics: cater<br />
for diversity, but make it male. The social and cultural implications on<br />
women of colour, outlined above, will remain the same if <strong>POC</strong>-identifying<br />
men uphold the noxious boys’ club attitude which remains rampant in<br />
youth politics.<br />
The path out of this pandemic may be an opportunity for social upheaval,<br />
and an exciting prospect to include more women of colour into political<br />
leadership. Female leaders are known to bring innovation, greater<br />
collaboration and empathy to the table. Additionally, diverse leadership<br />
teams record a 45% increase in revenue due to innovation – a principle of<br />
success which seems rather translatable to policymaking. Diversity allows<br />
for more nuanced, insightful and empathetic decision-making which<br />
translates to greater success. When it comes to breaking down existing<br />
barriers, Cai offers two recommendations to political parties: awareness<br />
and action.<br />
The first step towards change is acknowledging the current power balances<br />
that exist. ‘Have an awareness of your actions and how they contribute to<br />
what political space you create’, Cai advises. A practical implementation<br />
of the advice, she suggests, is thinking critically about a meeting you’re<br />
convening – is this predominantly white? And if so, how can you, as a<br />
moderator, leader or individual, elevate CALD voices in the conversation?<br />
The second is when an issue of diversity arises, ‘figure out some tangible<br />
ways to make it better’. She contends ‘there’s a lot of lip service’ in politics<br />
and ‘we have these conversations all the time’, yet these barriers have not<br />
yet been dismantled. For leaders seeking to act on these obstacles, be the<br />
mentor who inspires: encourage women of colour to run for an election, or<br />
have their voice heard at a state conference, or simply show them the ropes<br />
of what you’re doing right now. Just like Huq and I have experienced,<br />
mentors play a pivotal role in opening opportunities to women of colour.<br />
Though a resounding impetus must be given to traditional power structures,<br />
I also encourage CALD women to step out from peripheral activist spaces<br />
and enter political institutions. Activism is an excellent starting point to<br />
cultivate confidence, workshop skills and form networks, but you should be<br />
the change you advocate for. Women of colour like myself are holding a<br />
heavy door open – it’s taking a toll on us to continually justify our place in<br />
political parties. More of us holding the door open would have a rippling<br />
effect across the WOC diaspora. In Huq’s words, ‘those barriers need to<br />
be alleviated a bit by bit’.<br />
We started the decade with vision.<br />
So, let’s meet at the intersection and create a new normal.<br />
Maiysha Moin is a Law/Arts student and youth activist.<br />
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Patchwork<br />
Woman<br />
Words by Riya Rajesh<br />
patchwork woman<br />
grit and wonder<br />
bleed<br />
ing colour<br />
roadmap runs<br />
commas and stops.<br />
intersections,<br />
n<br />
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c<br />
r<br />
i<br />
b<br />
e<br />
d<br />
on body<br />
on tungsten<br />
lips<br />
my murderous purple<br />
thunderclap eyes<br />
fingertips sing<br />
fissures and cracks<br />
world,<br />
stand back<br />
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A Journey Through Feminist Literature<br />
with Bri Lee<br />
Words by Eva Scopelliti and Isabella Burton<br />
Bri Lee<br />
In her memoir Eggshell Skull,<br />
Australian author Bri Lee offers a<br />
poignant and raw account of her<br />
experiences as a Judge’s Associate<br />
dealing primarily with sexual assault<br />
cases, and her journey through the<br />
criminal justice system as she sought<br />
her own justice. Sensitive and exposed,<br />
Lee’s story evokes the troubling notion<br />
that the idealised justice system is notso-just.<br />
Her story questions the efficacy<br />
of our legal system truly delivering justice to sexual assault survivors and<br />
confronts the harsh reality faced by many survivors.<br />
Similarly, her most recent book Beauty confronts tender issues of our<br />
society, with a particular focus on the oppressive regime of beauty<br />
imposed on women.<br />
Lee’s tone and language are relatable, and her stories make us laugh<br />
and cry - it feels as if we are interacting with an old friend or sister. She<br />
fearlessly exposes the truth in a relatable and honest fashion. Ultimately,<br />
the reader is left in a pensive state, compelled to question the structures<br />
of our society.<br />
We had the great privilege of conversing with Lee regarding her books, as<br />
well as her valued insights into feminist literature.<br />
What is one piece of feminist literature that inspires you and<br />
why?<br />
Finding Eliza by Larissa Behrendt has really stayed with me. It’s an<br />
examination of how certain narratives of “savages” and “saviours” didn’t<br />
just help colonists, but were absolutely necessary for the invaders to be able<br />
to create the farce that is terra nullius. The titular character, Eliza, was a<br />
white woman who used a story of her being “captive” to the Indigenous<br />
Australians to gain money and fame, but Behrendt also explains how Eliza<br />
was trapped under the patriarchy of the time and was doing her best.<br />
The book has formed a critical part of my understanding of Australia’s<br />
history and is a potent reminder that although history is written by the<br />
“victorious,” it can be recovered.<br />
If you could recommend a book for young women to read, what<br />
would it be?<br />
Argh, sorry, I can’t. Don’t listen to anyone telling you what to read! Stop<br />
reading the “canon”! Just read widely. Fiction and nonfiction, local and<br />
international. Read books in translation, read the papers, read graphic<br />
novels, read poetry. That’s the most important thing, to read widely.<br />
life and advocacy where I care a lot more about what people do than what<br />
they call themselves. Plenty of people label themselves things, or wear the<br />
t-shirts with the slogans, and don’t lift a finger. Also, plenty of people don’t<br />
identify with labels because these movements can get commercialised and<br />
exclusionary, even though some of those excluded people do the actual<br />
work every day. Actions, people!<br />
Your book Eggshell Skull is a memoir about both your<br />
experience as a judge’s associate, and then finding yourself<br />
on the other side of the courtroom. Was there a particular<br />
moment that prompted you to think ‘I want to write these<br />
experiences into a book?’<br />
It was definitely about a week or two into going to the police for my own<br />
matter. I experienced a huge shift in my perspective when I realised that<br />
the courtroom was only the tip of the iceberg. Not many people have seen<br />
both sides of the law so fully, and it’s a profession built on discretion, so<br />
not many people are willing to jeopardise their careers to speak out about<br />
the problems on both sides.<br />
When writing your book Beauty, did anything strike you in<br />
particular in relation to beauty standards for women that you<br />
did not previously know prior to writing the book?<br />
It was just so disappointing to read The Beauty Myth by Naomi Wolf, and<br />
see how she was fighting against the same things we’re still struggling with,<br />
and that book came out thirty years ago. I got to know more about certain<br />
facets of the media and the beauty industry, and saw how the development<br />
of social media exacerbated things. I suppose it was shocking to see and<br />
realise how harmful women were to each other. Complicity is a tricky<br />
thing to name and an even more difficult thing to confront in oneself.<br />
And finally, in your opinion how can young women today shake<br />
oppressive ideals of beauty and what the ‘right’ mindset to<br />
have is?<br />
Everyone is on their own track with this stuff and it’s a unique journey<br />
for each of us. It doesn’t help for someone like me to swoop in with ideas<br />
about “right” and “wrong”. What I think is most important is to take<br />
these matters – beauty and image and bodies – very seriously. Dismissing<br />
beauty standards and disordered eating as “vapid” or “frivolous” concerns<br />
compounds how damaging they can be. It’s difficult to be strong and<br />
resilient without self-esteem, and self-esteem is a resource deliberately kept<br />
in short supply for certain people. The only thing I would “recommend”<br />
is to, where possible, think about how the standards you have for yourself<br />
are communicated – implicitly or explicitly – to the people around you,<br />
and check whether they are hurtful or helpful.<br />
Do you call yourself a feminist? If so, why?<br />
I do. A feminist is someone who believes in equality and knows there is<br />
work to be done until we all reach it. But I’ve also come to a point in my<br />
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<strong>MSA</strong> <strong>Women’s</strong> Department<br />
<strong>MSA</strong> Book <strong>Women’s</strong> Recommendations Department Book<br />
Recommendations<br />
With the dawn of a new age - an age of transformative gender equality and recognition - women<br />
authors are aplenty. If you’re seeking a life-changing fem-lit piece of work, look no further than this<br />
carefully compiled list of wonderful reads for any woman or ally to enjoy:<br />
Feminist Literature<br />
• Women Don’t Owe You Pretty - Florence Given<br />
• Beauty - Bri Lee<br />
• Invisible Women - Caroline Criado Perez<br />
• The Second Sex - Simone de Bouvoir<br />
• A Room of One’s Own - Virginia Woolf<br />
• The Bell Jar - Sylvia Plath<br />
• The Feminist Mystique - Betty Friedan<br />
• The Witch Doesn’t Burn in This One - Amanda<br />
Lovelace<br />
• I am Malala - Malala Yousafzai<br />
• Feminists Don’t Wear Pink and Other Lies- Scarlett<br />
Curtis<br />
• The Awakening - Kate Chopin<br />
• The Beauty Myth - Naomi Wolf<br />
• Bad Feminist - Roxane Gay<br />
Books about Love written by women<br />
• Everything I Know About Love - Dolly Alderton<br />
• Communion: The Female Search for Love - bell<br />
hooks<br />
• It’s Called a Breakup Because it’s Broken - Amiira<br />
Ruotola and Greg Behrendt<br />
Feminist Literature by Women of<br />
Colour<br />
• Such a Fun Age - Kiley Reid<br />
• I Know Why the Caged Bird Sings - Maya Angelou<br />
• Becoming - Michelle Obama<br />
• We Should All Be Feminists - Chimamanda Ngozi<br />
Adichie.<br />
• Ida: A Sword Among Lions - Paula J. Giddings<br />
• Collected Poems - Rosemary Dobson<br />
Historical Works by Women or about<br />
Women<br />
• Declaration of the Rights of Woman and of the<br />
Female Citizen - Olympe de Gouges<br />
• The Vindication of Rights of Woman - Mary<br />
Wollstonecraft<br />
• The History of the <strong>Wife</strong> - Marilyn Yalom<br />
• She Speaks - Yvette Cooper<br />
• The Radium Girls - Kate Moore<br />
• The Diary of a Young Girl - Anne Frank<br />
• Wild Swans - Jung Chang<br />
• Irena’s Children - Tilar J. Mazzeo<br />
• The Woman Who Smashed Codes - Jason Fagone<br />
• Catherine the Great - Robert K. Massie<br />
Fiction and Non-Fiction Books about<br />
women written by Inspiring Women<br />
• Three Women - Lisa Taddeo<br />
• Eggshell Skull - Bri Lee<br />
• A Lonely Girl is a Dangerous Thing - Jessie Tu<br />
• Girl, Woman, Other - Bernadine Evaristo<br />
• Little Women - Louisa May Alcott<br />
• The Handmaid’s Tale - Margaret Atwood<br />
• Cilka’s Journey - Heather Morris<br />
• Picnic at Hanging Rock - Joan Lindsay<br />
• My Brilliant Career - Miles Franklin<br />
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When Charlie Met Her Maker<br />
Words by Milly Downing<br />
Milly is on the Lot’s <strong>Wife</strong> editorial board and was subject to the same impartial<br />
editing procedures as any other author.<br />
Exactly three months before her mother’s fiftieth birthday Charlie got<br />
an itch. It was in her ‘Unmentionables’ as her mother would call it,<br />
her ‘Special Lady Parts.’ Despite this, she kept a straight face browsing<br />
the dinner-for-one aisle at the supermarket. Her crotch stung, oozing<br />
something hot. Most would’ve applauded her composure as she stood<br />
between the Chicken Noodle Soup and the 99% Fat-Free Lima Bean. She<br />
stuck a hand down there, scratching and pulling. A young man scuttled<br />
out of the isle, basket empty, blushing. Her finger came out burning and<br />
topped with goo, a plump and sickly worm.<br />
Her mother justified this behaviour by saying things like she was just an<br />
extrovert, so full of confidence! Just like her father, takes after his side. She<br />
struggled to prove this the older Charlie got, and now at twenty, she was<br />
well beyond her mother’s capabilities to lie.<br />
Charlie inspected her hot finger topped with sharp, sour slime. It wasn’t<br />
until she got home, heavy with tin cans and discount shampoo, that she<br />
was grinding her thighs together, totally incapable of satisfying it.<br />
Three days before her mother’s fiftieth birthday Charlie’s doctor<br />
explained: it’s chronic. Charlie waited suspended, legs spread and hot<br />
between, drying out under the white lights. There’s nothing I can do,<br />
he said. Get an ice pack. Take a bath. Avoid tight clothes and don’t put<br />
anything inside you. He spoke between her legs, addressing her crotch.<br />
Charlie shoved her baggy pants back up, pushing his head away.<br />
Back at home she continued burning. She got on her bed: legs locked,<br />
head in pillows, breathing hard, not daring to touch. This became her<br />
morning routine. Her roommates, all male, all bloated from excessive<br />
video games and beers, began their days with quick showers and group<br />
breakfasts. Charlie, unable to sit down long enough to eat a meal, accepted<br />
beers only to go to her room and slither them down into her undies. She<br />
could hear it searing against her hot flesh way down there, like it was<br />
crying. Charlie cried too - not that her roommates heard, not that she’d<br />
let them hear.<br />
It was on the day of her mother’s fiftieth birthday that Charlie saw her<br />
again, the first time in a number of years. Charlie had conveniently<br />
forgotten to buy a present, and her mother predicting this, secured<br />
Charlie’s attendance to her girls-only birthday brunch. By design the cafe<br />
was deep in her mother’s territory. Charlie had rocked up in her usual<br />
manner: late, braless and itching. Her mother clapped her hands together<br />
at Charlie’s arrival, wound up in a tight, borderline age-appropriate shirt,<br />
surrounded by a gaggle of shaved legs and whitened teeth. Charlie gave a<br />
pained smile. At least she didn’t look like that.<br />
She sat. Her crotch sizzled on contact. Charlie inhaled briskly. She leant<br />
on the table, her mother simultaneously leaning in too.<br />
“Charlie,” her mother whispered. She smelt like a clown: make-up,<br />
powdered sugar, and something fakely floral.<br />
“Mum,” Charlie seethed and clenched her hole.<br />
“I thought you’d wear a dress? Your tiny waist…”<br />
“What about it?”<br />
“Well, it’s just I remember when I had a waist like yours,” she said<br />
rationally. “Right, ladies?” Her mother called across the table; the girls<br />
cackled, a chorus of breathless agreement. Charlie’s hole quivered as if<br />
squealing.<br />
The waiter approached, and a woman in Lycra and dangly earrings<br />
ordered the smashed avocado, extra buttery mushrooms. The woman<br />
after, with long, whip-like lashes ordered an egg white omelette, no butter.<br />
She was on a diet. Eyes darted between orders. Oh, you’re getting that?<br />
Lycra blushed. The next ordered corn fritters, and hold the toast. Tart<br />
with salad. When it got to Charlie something sharp and deep burst inside<br />
her hole, deeper than she knew it could go.<br />
“So, I hear you’re living with a boy?” Cooed Lycra. Her cheeks were still<br />
bloated and blotchy. Charlie smiled resentfully, twisting in her seat.<br />
“No,” she swallowed, clenching her jaw and clamping her hands between<br />
her thighs. “Boys. I live with three of them.”<br />
“Oh?” Lycra frowned, earrings drooping with her drawn-on eyebrows.<br />
“How do you live with so many men? Must be exhausting!”<br />
The ladies laughed. Charlie grunted, shivering at her thighs, unable to<br />
answer. Where was the food? She poked a finger inside her pants under the<br />
table. She was shaking. Should she go to the bathroom? Her mother was<br />
laughing; tossing what little hair she had left, exposing some missed greys.<br />
Who was she even trying to impress? Charlie wriggled her pinkie over the<br />
fabric of her undies. It was sweaty. She thrust a little deeper. Just an itch.<br />
Just a little itch. Lycra was smiling again at Charlie, an excruciating smear<br />
of lipstick on her teeth. She stared at her. She shoved her finger further.<br />
Past the fabric. Was she saying something? She was bloated. Hot. She<br />
smeared her finger across her hole, and screamed. She whipped her hands<br />
out of her pants. The ladies squawked, cutlery clattering.<br />
“What’s wrong?” Her mother demanded, staring her up and down.<br />
“Charlie? What are you trying to do?”<br />
Charlie held up her pinkie finger, wet and red. A deep bite mark was sunk<br />
into the tip.<br />
“She bit me!” Charlie hissed towards her crotch.<br />
“Oh please, don’t be so dramatic.”<br />
“Dramatic?” Charlie spluttered.<br />
“I told you I wanted a girls-only brunch, and it’s only fair that I asked<br />
her along.”<br />
“Yeah, Charlie,” her pussy chimed in, smoothing down her labia as she<br />
settled on the seat opposite. “She invited me months ago, I kept trying to<br />
tell you. I swear you’re just like a man, never listening.”<br />
The girls all laughed in unison. Charlie stared in disbelief. Her pussy rolled<br />
her eyes, flesh rising and falling. She smelt tangy and warm; it felt familiar<br />
to Charlie, but too distant to really recall how. Charlie continued to stare.<br />
She’d stopped itching.<br />
“Why are you all laughing? Why did you even invite me if you were just<br />
going to ask her instead?”<br />
“Charlie, honey,” her mother began.<br />
“We all thought it would just be easier,” her pussy interrupted. “Now you<br />
can go home, you don’t need to hang out with us.”<br />
Charlie opened her mouth, and then closed it. She looked at Lycra, who<br />
looked away, and then to her mother, staring off to the side of the table.<br />
Finally she stared at her pussy, comfortably rearranging her cutlery on the<br />
napkin. Charlie stood and left without protest, finally not like other girls.<br />
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Getting the Monkey Off<br />
One’s Back<br />
Why We Go Ape Over <strong>Women’s</strong> Body Hair<br />
Words by Xenia Sanut<br />
I have never shaved my legs. For the 20 years that I have been alive, I have<br />
never – not once – put a razor, wax strip, scissors or any hair removal tool<br />
to my legs. After reading that statement, you probably felt a mixture of<br />
shock, disgust, indifference and resistance. I feel that way about my body<br />
hair every single day.<br />
I have a drawer full of leggings and tights because wearing dresses or<br />
shorts in the summer makes me anxious. I still shave my armpits before<br />
I wear a sleeveless shirt or bathing suit because I feel I would be judged<br />
harshly for having visible body hair, and I have. A guy called me ‘Bigfoot’<br />
once after he saw my leg hair. I have a tan complexion but thick, black<br />
hair – it is not easy for me to hide it.<br />
We call this hair, the kind that does not grow on our head, ‘excess hair’,<br />
‘unwanted hair’ or ‘unfeminine’ and we have a billion-dollar industry<br />
dedicated to its removal.<br />
We see smooth and hairless women in films, TV shows, advertisements<br />
and music videos. In fact, I was 14 when I first saw a woman in popular<br />
culture with body hair. It was during a sex scene between Penelope<br />
Cruz and Nicolas Cage in the 2001 film adaptation of Captain Corelli’s<br />
Mandolin. I was not even paying attention to the movie because I was too<br />
busy staring at the hair on Cruz’s armpits. My mind was going through a<br />
million questions a minute. Why did they show her armpit hair? Why am I<br />
so shocked to see her armpit hair? Why do we even care about body hair?<br />
One theory is that our body hair helped keep our ancestors warm until<br />
about three million years ago when the Earth warmed up and having<br />
too much hair became a liability. As a result, we lost most of our hair<br />
thanks to natural selection. Another theory comes from Charles Darwin<br />
in his book Descent of Man, wherein he suggested that those who had less<br />
hair among ancestors were more sexually desirable. However, before the<br />
1920s, few women ever removed their leg, underarm or pubic hair and it<br />
is believed that advertising campaigns and the popularity of photography<br />
in the 1930s made body hair removal the norm.<br />
If you are more concerned about the health benefits of hair removal, it is<br />
a mixed bag. Our hairiest areas carry eccrine glands which are needed for<br />
cooling the skin and apocrine glands which secrete pheromones, a body<br />
odour that causes us to stink after a run but also helps us attract potential<br />
mates. Body hair also regulates body temperature, keeps us warm in<br />
colder climates and protects our body from outside elements. However,<br />
shaving can cause ingrown hair and cuts, waxing can cause inflammation<br />
and infection, laser hair removal can cause discolouration and permanent<br />
scarring, and all can increase the risk of sexually transmitted diseases.<br />
Removing pubic hair protects us from lice, but not removing it protects<br />
genitalia from friction and infection - there is no clear winner here. But<br />
what about the social reasoning behind it?<br />
Many women begin removing their body hair during adolescence as it is<br />
expected and almost unconsciously done. But in doing so, we internalise<br />
many problematic societal expectations of beauty and what is considered<br />
the norm.<br />
Here is what one study has discovered about the perception<br />
of hairy women compared to hairless women. They were described as:<br />
• Less sexually attractive.<br />
• Less intelligent.<br />
• Less sociable.<br />
• Less happy.<br />
• Less positive.<br />
Another study interviewed women who claim that hair removal is a<br />
personal choice because it reduces body odour or feels less dirty, but<br />
these perceptions were often subconsciously projected onto other women,<br />
considering those who do not shave as “look[ing] like a man” or “lazy”<br />
and “not taking care of [themselves]”. However, the views of these women<br />
were influenced by negative comments from their own families and<br />
partners, with a mother calling one of the participants a “dirty Mexican”<br />
if she did not shave her leg hair, a boyfriend saying that she “needs his<br />
permission to grow [her] body hair”, and a man telling a bisexual woman<br />
that it would be difficult to get a girl or a guy if they grew out their body<br />
hair. Different women also have different coloured body hair, bringing the<br />
issue of race and ethnicity into the picture and the debate of whether<br />
having lighter coloured body hair - a Caucasian genetic trait - means that<br />
you are more easily accepted into society.<br />
It is easy to change the topic, to call body hair trivial and say there are<br />
other issues relating to women that we need to worry about. However, we<br />
fail to recognise the discussions that arise when we talk about body hair,<br />
and how it overlaps with not only sexism and racism, but also classism,<br />
ageism and homophobia. These are conversations we need to keep having<br />
and social issues we need to keep addressing, which is why I will be keeping<br />
my hairy legs. My decision might be baffling to you, just like the existence<br />
of Bigfoot, but at least he and I have something in common – we are<br />
always trying to shake the monkeys off our back.<br />
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Black Girl Magic<br />
Words by Sumaya .F<br />
In my mother’s lap<br />
Pain worse than a mousetrap<br />
An expression of Black love<br />
Sweeter than Agave<br />
5 Hours more<br />
Arms excruciatingly Sore<br />
Till each strand from the head<br />
Becomes neat and acceptable, just like mamma said<br />
Just another battle<br />
Of Black girl struggle<br />
Hair such a mess<br />
Worse than a bird’s nest<br />
Looking like a troll<br />
Ingrained into the soul<br />
Never trusted nor respected<br />
Better be straight like the socially accepted<br />
Damaging the coils just to fit in<br />
Hair now straight as a pin<br />
Underneath curls frying, dying<br />
Neglected slowly, becoming horrifying<br />
Better to embrace the natural<br />
Braids, Twists, Cornrows<br />
Afros, Buns, Wash n Go<br />
Black hair is like magic<br />
More versatile than physics<br />
In my mother’s lap<br />
Hair no longer crap<br />
Enjoying Serenity<br />
Embracing my identity<br />
For Black hair is what makes me<br />
Me<br />
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Common Black Women<br />
Hairstyles<br />
BUN<br />
AFRO<br />
BRAIDS<br />
WASH N GO<br />
TWISTS<br />
TWIST OUT<br />
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Gag Orders<br />
A Survivor’s Perspective<br />
Words by Natalia Zivcic<br />
Cw. sexual assault<br />
I was seventeen years old when I was raped. I didn’t even understand<br />
what rape or consent was. I thought rape only happened in dark alleyways<br />
with strange men. I didn’t know that rape could come from someone that<br />
I knew, someone that I trusted. I believed my rapist when he said that no<br />
one would believe me. I thought it was my fault. After all, I was drunk and<br />
dressed provocatively. I never reported my rape to the police. I was scared<br />
that no one would believe me.<br />
It took me seven years of slowly opening up to friends and family to really<br />
process what happened to me. I lost years of my life being scared, helpless,<br />
and voiceless. Only now, at twenty-four years old, can I look back at what<br />
happened to me with total clarity.<br />
On February 7, changes were made to the Judicial Proceedings Reports<br />
Act (Victoria). It is now an offence for sexual assault survivors to identify<br />
themselves and share their story publicly. This applies to abusers who have<br />
been convicted or where charges have been pressed. The premise of these<br />
prohibitions is to protect survivors who do not wish to have their identity<br />
disclosed by media reports. However, the unwelcome side effect is that<br />
these laws have gagged survivors from coming forward and sharing their<br />
own story. If survivors do want to share their story, they have to obtain a<br />
court order; an expensive and time-consuming process.<br />
Sexual assault offences are underreported and rarely result in a conviction,<br />
with only 34 per cent of recorded sexual assault cases resulting in<br />
any police progression at all (Crime Statistics Agency, February 2017). If<br />
survivors don’t have the opportunity to share their story, these statistics<br />
will get worse with time. Without hearing others stories, survivors will be<br />
even further discouraged from coming forward. Unfortunately, the general<br />
consensus is that reporting rape is a traumatising and fruitless activity. If<br />
I had known that reporting the assault would be met with respect and<br />
understanding instead of judgement and blame, I would have handled<br />
things differently.<br />
Reading the stories of other survivors helped me process my trauma. I<br />
followed women on social media with stories like mine. They inspired me.<br />
They gave me strength. I learnt that I wasn’t alone and it wasn’t something<br />
to be ashamed of. I learnt that it wasn’t my fault. Without the opportunity<br />
to read other women’s stories, I would never have had the courage to tell<br />
my family and friends. Sharing my story with my loved ones facilitated<br />
my healing and my growth, without which I would still be a scared and<br />
sad little girl.<br />
We need survivors to be loud. The louder we are, the more we can encourage<br />
other survivors to report their abuse. Sharing your story is hard<br />
enough: I am testament to that. But adding an additional hurdle through<br />
this legislation will make it near impossible for people to come forward.<br />
We will be forced to decide between paying an exorbitant fee or remaining<br />
silent about our story.<br />
As someone who, after years of silence, has only now found her voice,<br />
these gag orders represent the years I lost. It’s disappointing that legislation<br />
which was intended to protect survivors has instead stabbed us in the back.<br />
If a survivor wishes to tell their story - that should be their choice. If they<br />
don’t - that should also be their choice. The legislation is a misguided attempt<br />
to honour this choice, and does not do justice to the rights survivors<br />
should have.<br />
I think, ultimately, the failure of this legislation is a result of obstinate<br />
decision making with a disappointing lack of input from survivors. In trying<br />
to ‘protect’ survivors from having their identity disclosed, the stigma<br />
surrounding rape will be perpetuated.<br />
After my rape I felt powerless, weak and vulnerable. I felt like I had no control<br />
over my life, and I was a shadow of a person. I used to feel ashamed.<br />
There is power in being vocal. It is healing. Speaking out publicly about<br />
this issue has facilitated my growth in a way that I didn’t know was possible.<br />
I never spoke out or pressed charges against my rapist. It turns out that<br />
I’m lucky that I didn’t. If I had? I wouldn’t have been able to tell my story<br />
today.<br />
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A Letter to My Fellow<br />
“Nice Guys”<br />
Words by Anonymous<br />
Dear brothers,<br />
I’m whom some would call a “nice guy”. It’s not something I’m proud of,<br />
and something even harder to admit. I’m not entirely sure why I wrote<br />
this letter. I just felt if I did not speak up, many of us will continue to<br />
go through what we are going through right now. If you do not wish to<br />
associate yourself with me, I do not blame you. But please hear me out.<br />
You can protest and lash at me after you are done reading.<br />
Although the concept of a “nice guy” was never agreed upon, we have<br />
gathered a bad rep. We are known to “finish last” in the dating scene.<br />
A brief search online resulted in mostly negative information about us.<br />
The typical “nice guy” is centred around the main theme that we are not<br />
genuinely “nice”. Urban dictionary’s definition is “people (men or women)<br />
who believe basic social expectations are currency for sex”. Or for my case,<br />
love. This stems from our insecurity. Heartless Bitches International (a<br />
defunct online forum for discussing issues regarding nice guys) summaries<br />
why potential partners found the insecurity off-putting: “They are so<br />
anxious to be liked and loved that they do things for other people to gain<br />
acceptance and attention, rather than for the simple pleasure of giving.<br />
You never know if a Nice Guy really likes you for who you are, or if he<br />
has glommed onto you out of desperation because you actually paid some<br />
kind of attention to him.”<br />
I admit this is true for me. I am unconsciously in constant fear that people<br />
around me do not like me, and will try overly hard please or gain their<br />
affection. Agreeing with others had become my second nature. Took me<br />
a very long time to discover it, and a lot more courage to accept that it is<br />
a problem.<br />
I hate myself for being in this predicament. For every girl I had a crush<br />
on, I did my best to cater to her needs, listen to her, and try hard to<br />
compliment her. Everything I can think of. But the relationship I hoped<br />
for will not happen, and all I received for my “kindness” was the pain<br />
of rejection. I would beat myself up and spend the lonely nights crying<br />
myself to sleep, feeling extremely unfair that I was denied the romance<br />
that I had been hoping for despite doing everything I thought was right.<br />
Romantic rejections hit me the hardest and reinforces my low sense of<br />
self-worth, that I am not worthy of being loved. It’s something that hurts<br />
me very deeply because within me sits the fear that I would never find<br />
someone to spend the rest of my life with while my friends start pairing<br />
up and fade out of my life as they spend more time with their partners.<br />
Or worse, my ex-crushes telling me that they wished their current partners<br />
were more like me. I was confused and hopeless.<br />
Sounds familiar? This is what insecurity is. And I know I sounded like<br />
some entitled loser. But I know some of you think this way too.<br />
Yet, to be fair to us, most did not choose to be like this. Through my<br />
understanding and personal experience, I posit that these two conditions<br />
might lead some to become a nice guy. One of them is the anxious<br />
attachment style. Healthline notes that some signs of this condition are:<br />
• low self-worth<br />
• craving closeness and intimacy<br />
• requiring frequent reassurance that people care about you.<br />
The other is childhood emotional neglect, which according to Psychology<br />
Today causes:<br />
• feeling numb, empty, or cut off from your emotions, or you<br />
feel unable to manage or express them<br />
• low self-esteem<br />
• extra sensitive to rejection<br />
• believing you are deeply flawed, and that there’s something<br />
about you that is wrong even though you can’t specifically<br />
name what it is.<br />
Since young, I was taught that my opinions and feelings did not matter.<br />
To be liked, I needed to do what others wanted, which is why I have<br />
this innate, almost desperate desire to please the people around me.<br />
Somewhere within the deep recesses of my mind believes that being nice<br />
to a girl means being “rewarded” with a relationship, even when it is basic<br />
human decency to be respectful to others. And I get really upset when I<br />
don’t get the “reward” that I thought I was promised. That is a false sense<br />
of entitlement, and you should in no way punish someone for rejecting<br />
your romantic advances.<br />
To be fair, everyone has their own insecurities. But it will be overwhelming<br />
for someone to nurse these insecurities for you, because you did not learn<br />
to work on them. We are capable of managing it ourselves. We need to<br />
re-learn that we are worthy of love, so long as we are clear of our identity<br />
and who we are. We should start accepting our negative emotions like guilt<br />
and shame, and getting rejected is not the end of the world. And as cliché<br />
as it sounds, we need to start loving ourselves. Stop being a victim of our<br />
upbringing and accept that we are imperfect mortals.<br />
Antoine de Saint-Exupéry, author of The Little Prince, once wrote: “Love<br />
does not consist of gazing at each other, but in looking outward together<br />
in the same direction.” Love, in this case, should be between parties who<br />
mutually encourage each other to improve themselves, not one party<br />
depending on the other for emotional support.<br />
We need to be responsible for our own positive change, instead of waiting<br />
for a beautiful damsel to change us for the better. Show others that you<br />
are capable of positive change. Even though everyone is worthy of being<br />
loved, we must not act as if the human race owes us a partner and the right<br />
to procreate. Being kind to others is basic human decency, not something<br />
that you should expect something in return for.<br />
Go out there and do things that you yourself would be proud of doing.<br />
Show yourself compassion when things don’t go your way. Pick yourself<br />
up instead of blaming yourself for the mistakes you made. Get therapy<br />
if you think you need it. Start a new hobby, read self-help books, write<br />
gratitude journals, do mindfulness activities. Know that while you have the<br />
right to pursue something, they also have the right not to love you back.<br />
And most importantly, always remember that the more you develop<br />
yourself the more likely you are to find the right person to spend the rest<br />
of your life with.<br />
Good luck.<br />
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Estudos domésticos<br />
Poema de Tatiana Cruz<br />
Studies of Domestic Work<br />
Words by Tatiana Cruz<br />
Forjei o grito de guerra<br />
no inox da panela<br />
no fundo da pia entupida<br />
no barulho da cozinha,<br />
chaleira que chia<br />
comida na pressão.<br />
Soldei a armadura a cada queimadura no fogão<br />
Afiei os punhais,<br />
acarinhando gatos,<br />
alcançando a ração.<br />
Ninando as crianças,<br />
dessosei<br />
o plano de guerra,<br />
com a carne<br />
em um das mãos.<br />
I forged the battle cry<br />
with the beat of a stainless steel pan,<br />
next to the drain of the clogged sink,<br />
surrounded by kitchen noise.<br />
Whistling kettle,<br />
cooking under pressure,<br />
toasting meat,<br />
I wielded the armour,<br />
burning myself on the stove.<br />
I sharpened my daggers<br />
feeding the pets<br />
with cats rubbing against my legs.<br />
Lulling children,<br />
I deboned the war plan<br />
in the flesh.<br />
Provando da pimenta,<br />
dispensando o açúcar,<br />
exagerando no sal,<br />
tanto sal,<br />
mastigando o silêncio a seco,<br />
cozinhei em fogo brando<br />
a rebelião.<br />
Tasting pepper,<br />
discarding sugar,<br />
pinching salt,<br />
much salt,<br />
swallowing hard the silence<br />
in slow-cooking,<br />
I shaped the revolt.<br />
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The Waiting Room<br />
A Love Letter to My Best Friend Who Broke Up with Her Nice Boyfriend<br />
Words by Sarah Bartlett<br />
I am a young woman who is choosing to be single indefinitely. I am okay<br />
with this.<br />
“You’re just closed off right now” is what my mum said to me this morning,<br />
when I told her, “I’m so single, I couldn’t imagine my life with anyone<br />
else.” Reflexively, I retaliated that I wasn’t, in fact, closed off. In hindsight,<br />
I think my mum was right. I am closed off to people. Maybe that’s not<br />
such a bad thing. Maybe it’s an active choice. Actually, it’s something I’m<br />
quite happy to own.<br />
In our patriarchal culture, being single is the waiting room to your eventual<br />
‘destiny’, the time in between partners where you keep your eyes and<br />
heart open until you find someone with whom you can enact your socially<br />
prescribed life-plan. As a young woman, if I am not dating someone with<br />
the eventual hope of marrying them and buying a house with them and<br />
having two children with them, then I exist in a liminal nothingness. I am<br />
in the temporary, never coming to rest in the permanent, inhabiting a void<br />
of ‘somewhere else’. I am unsettled and unsettling.<br />
I am unsettled because the space I occupy as a single woman is transient<br />
and chaotic. I belong nowhere and to no one, and because of this, I can be<br />
anyone. I am not defined by the roles of wife, mother, or girlfriend. Rather,<br />
I define myself by what I want to do, see, believe, and want. When entering<br />
into a monogamous heterosexual relationship, ‘I’ necessarily becomes<br />
‘we’. Indeed, if we are in a relationship – one that is hurtling towards its<br />
prescribed endpoint of marriage, house and babies – then we must take<br />
all these (very significant) factors into consideration when making choices<br />
about our lives. So, when in a relationship with a man, our present and<br />
future choices are no longer solely our own. Rather, they are bound to<br />
the needs and wants of someone else as we find ourselves in a perpetual<br />
dialogue of compromise, falling into our role as a lover, and then probably<br />
as a mother. Having a relationship with a man in a patriarchal society<br />
necessarily chips away at my autonomy. It chips away at ‘me’.<br />
As single women, we are therefore unsettling. We are unsettling because<br />
the space we occupy when unattached to our boyfriend/husband/future<br />
children is a space of radical freedom. It’s a space of self-determination<br />
that was never meant for us. When we hold the freedom of being single,<br />
we disrupt the centuries of patriarchal design which have told women that<br />
we must be compliant to our husbands and our roles as caregivers. To be<br />
single is to be subversive.<br />
Even if, as young single women, we are free to be something other than<br />
a wife or mother (because we are currently neither), we are always told<br />
that this time will soon come to an end. We are told that inevitably our<br />
life will be attached to other lives – that of our husband and children – in<br />
incredibly demanding ways. On the other hand, being single means being<br />
untethered and free to be and do however we please. Right now, I can<br />
shape my life just for me. I do not need to bend and twist it to the will<br />
of anyone else. And shouldn’t I be able to do this? It is my life, after all.<br />
Patriarchy doesn’t want this freedom for us. Men can work harder, earn<br />
more money, pursue their dreams more fiercely, and carry on their legacy<br />
if we love them. This is because the burden of caring for him and a future<br />
family will always fall more heavily on us as women. Our free domestic<br />
and emotional labour are too valuable to both the economy and to the<br />
maintenance of male privilege for it to be acceptable – or even conceivable<br />
– that we would not provide these things.<br />
Of course, feminism has brought many of us far, particularly those of<br />
us who are otherwise privileged. <strong>Women’s</strong> consciousness is ever-growing.<br />
Many of us are vocal about our refusal to be subservient to our husbands<br />
and our agency in deciding whether or not to have a family. However, as<br />
Mandy Lee Catron notes in ‘The Case Against Marriage’, our occidental<br />
culture continues to venerate marriage as the most desirable life<br />
path, and we persist in positioning marriage as the most central form of<br />
relationship. Moreover, women still disproportionately bear the burden of<br />
domestic labour in heterosexual partnerships. Clearly, normative social<br />
expectations for women continue to conform to the expected endpoint<br />
of ‘husband and house’. Even if our progressive bubble cheers on dreams<br />
of independence, such feminist ideas remain radical in the mainstream.<br />
Overwhelmingly, we continue to believe that ‘good’ women are givers,<br />
creators, nourishers and lovers. We are told that a good woman is self-sacrificing.<br />
She is valorised because she always gives her body and her time to<br />
other people over herself. She would do anything for the people she loves,<br />
and she would never ask for thanks, because she doesn’t do it for praise or<br />
validation. She does it because she is a good woman.<br />
This means that we can never be the taker, the one who pursues dreams<br />
which are solely our own, without being demonised or pathologised. The<br />
pursuit of a life which is just our own, on our own, is seen as an insolent<br />
eschewing of the responsibilities of care we owe to our present and future<br />
families. We are ‘bad’ women unworthy of celebration. We are taking<br />
from the places where we are supposed to give. If I am on my own, I am<br />
cold, selfish, damaged, unnatural, wrong.<br />
“You’re just closed off right now,” Mum tells me. But I’ll come around. I’ll<br />
be made right soon when I meet the right man.<br />
“Don’t worry,” she soothes.<br />
Disappointingly, owing to internalised misogyny, other women also do not<br />
want us to be single. They write listicles warning us against the “10 things<br />
that drive guys away”, benevolently informing us of all the ways we must<br />
edit ourselves to remain date-able, fuckable, marriageable. They won’t let<br />
us get our tubes tied because we “might change our mind”. They tell us<br />
we should see a psychologist to work on our ‘attachment issues’. They tell<br />
us to stop eating that, start wearing this, to alter, cut, shrink, to make sure<br />
that we glow from within, but to make sure that our skin glows too. Men<br />
don’t like that, do this instead. You have to, if you want the happy ending<br />
of love, purpose and contentment. We’re reassured that when it happens,<br />
we’ll understand what all the beautification and supplication was for, and<br />
why our singledom was only ever meant to be temporary. There’s always<br />
the promise that something better waits for me outside of the strange abyss<br />
through which I currently float, unattached and uncommitted – if only I’d<br />
open myself up to it.<br />
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But is there something better? In his (in)famous Netflix special, Jigsaw –<br />
which he claims has ended over 34,000 relationships – comedian Daniel<br />
Sloss reminds us that real, true, ‘soulmate’ love is an anomalous miracle,<br />
and it is a harmful delusion to believe that we all should be so lucky. Moreover,<br />
to meet a man who is willing to dismantle his patriarchal socialisation<br />
also seems to be a rarity. I fear that it is more likely I will end up at my<br />
husband’s boots, than by his side in equal partnership.<br />
We as women idealise and pursue ‘husband and house’ because it is easier<br />
than acknowledging an uncomfortable truth: that our freedom as single<br />
women probably has an expiration date. We don’t want to reckon with the<br />
fact that the stories we’ve been told about love won’t always come true. If<br />
we admit that being single is sometimes the better option, we would need<br />
to acknowledge our cognitive dissonance between the idea of romance<br />
and the frequently disappointing reality of heterosexual relationships.<br />
This is why we see being single as the waiting room, a state which necessarily<br />
has an endpoint where my knight in shining armour stands. He’s just<br />
outside of my peripheral vision but he’s there, he’s definitely just around<br />
the corner. He’s ready to carry me to stability, to settle me, to consummate<br />
my ultimate purpose as wife, mother, woman. Finally, I’ll be freed from my<br />
liminal, solitary, chaotic reality. I’ll find comfort and security in the arms<br />
of a man, the walls of a house, the clarity of direction.<br />
Of course, monogamy and children may bring us joy. Perhaps all I really<br />
do want is to find comfort in the suburban ordinary. I also do not want<br />
to suggest that many women who are married with children entered into<br />
such a life without agency, or that they aren’t genuinely content. There<br />
are, of course, the lucky ones. But I’m sceptical of this life being framed<br />
as the only desirable or fulfilling option, simply because we do not want<br />
to imagine an alternative. The sky-high divorce rate and epidemic of<br />
poor mental health amongst women suggest that “the problem that has<br />
no name” Betty Freidan elucidated long ago in The Feminine Mystique is<br />
far from vanquished. When I lie in bed next to my husband twenty years<br />
from now, exhausted from balancing parenting, cooking and cleaning with<br />
some kind of half-career (because I surely won’t be able to do it all), will I<br />
feel fulfilled and sleep peacefully? Or will I, like Betty in 1963, turn restlessly<br />
knowing that something is missing? Will I yearn for something more,<br />
something different?<br />
It scares me how uncritically I was sleep-walking into a life that I’m no<br />
longer sure I even want. I am tired of being told that a monogamous,<br />
heterosexual relationship – and the life-baggage that comes with it – is<br />
my unequivocal destiny. We must reject the mandate that our singledom<br />
is liminal, temporary or undesirable. Right now, and indefinitely, I want<br />
to embrace the chaos, ride the exhilarating fear of the unknown, and fall<br />
into the fulfilment of doing<br />
Whatever.<br />
I.<br />
Want.<br />
Art by Kat Kennedy<br />
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This<br />
This feels like courage<br />
Like life falling out from my fingertips in rain<br />
droplets<br />
I<br />
I am the sound of rain<br />
On the earth as it pulsates<br />
Brazen and breathing<br />
Hung up while speaking<br />
and listening<br />
and learning<br />
Learning how to be<br />
how to be woman<br />
powerful<br />
unyielding<br />
In fullness<br />
The Power of Womanhood<br />
Words by Meg Ruyters<br />
full<br />
full<br />
full<br />
I am full of this all<br />
this sunlight<br />
As I lay back in the grass<br />
Green blades on my cheek<br />
Tracing my jawline<br />
The arms of womanhood holding me<br />
pulling me<br />
pulling me<br />
down<br />
down<br />
down<br />
and into its being<br />
unblinking<br />
Eyes wide now<br />
This stage is open<br />
Its walls my arena<br />
Bouncing<br />
bouncing<br />
The voices of womanhood loud now<br />
Measured and brave<br />
unflinching<br />
This<br />
This feels like becoming<br />
like realisation<br />
Realisation of the power of womanhood<br />
of adoration<br />
For the women who yearn<br />
who fight<br />
who love<br />
who triumph<br />
The raindrops are louder now<br />
they echo<br />
they carry weight<br />
My being alive<br />
alive<br />
alive and desirous for more<br />
For being<br />
being<br />
being<br />
is the power of womanhood<br />
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WAP: Is Sexual Pleasure<br />
Still Reserved for Men?<br />
Words by Juliette Capomolla<br />
Cardi B and Megan Thee Stallion’s ‘WAP’ is arguably the most<br />
controversial song of 2020. In case you missed it, WAP stands for Wet Ass<br />
Pussy, an acronym which has caused quite a stir amongst conservatives<br />
and archaic individuals.<br />
Aside from the prudish shock-horror surrounding the lyrics of the<br />
song, fans and supporters of the song have criticised YouTube for their<br />
censorship of the music video. According to a video Cardi posted to<br />
Instagram, YouTube reportedly felt the song was, in Cardi’s words, “too<br />
goddamn nasty”. In the music video, the rappers can be heard saying “wet<br />
and gushy” instead of wet ass pussy.<br />
Despite the controversy, the song has continued to break records since<br />
its release at the start of August. The music video has almost surpassed<br />
130 million views on YouTube. It marked the biggest opening week of<br />
sales by a female rapper and the biggest streaming week by a female artist<br />
this year. It managed to sell over 500,000 units in the US in its first week,<br />
nearly becoming a gold record. WAP is the first female collaboration to<br />
spend multiple days at #1 on the US Spotify Charts, and it is the first<br />
female rap song to top the Australian charts ever – and those are just some<br />
of the records.<br />
It is undeniable that WAP is a ground-breaking song for women and music<br />
in general. So why has it caused so much controversy?<br />
Indisputably, the song is filthy. With lyrics like “bring a bucket and a mop<br />
for this wet ass pussy”, “I want you to park that big Mack truck right in this<br />
little garage” and “gobble me, swallow me, drip down the side of me”, it’s<br />
not hard to see why it has caused a riot amongst conservatives.<br />
Remarkably (but not surprisingly), the song managed to make its way<br />
into American politics. James Bradley, a Republican running for a<br />
Congressional seat in California, tweeted the following in response to the<br />
song:<br />
“Cardi B & Megan Thee Stallion are what happens when<br />
children are raised without God and without a strong<br />
father figure. Their new “song” The #WAP (which I heard<br />
accidentally) made me want to pour holy water in my ears<br />
and I feel sorry for future girls if this is their role model!”<br />
DeAnna Lorraine, another Republican and former congressional<br />
candidate from California, tweeted a similar sentiment, saying:<br />
“Cardi B & Megan Thee Stallion just set the entire female<br />
gender back by 100 years with their disgusting & vile “WAP”<br />
song.”<br />
She followed up a discussion on the topic saying the song should be<br />
banned.<br />
Unsurprisingly, not only did people take issue with two women claiming<br />
their sexuality, but also Cardi and Meghan’s race.<br />
Errol Webber, yet another republican running for California, tweeted:<br />
“That new #WAP song by Cardi B and Megan Thee Stallion<br />
is exactly everything that is wrong with mainstream hiphop<br />
culture. It’s like one big advertisement for promiscuity.<br />
Encourages wild & unsafe sex. Then you wonder why<br />
Planned Parenthood targets Black communities? Sick!”<br />
Evidently, it appears people are taking issue with the fact that two black<br />
women are empowered by their sexuality and are reclaiming it from men<br />
who have used it to their advantage for decades. Since when do politicians<br />
comment on the lyrics and music videos of rap artists? This composition<br />
of two black women discussing their vaginas and sex is surprisingly still too<br />
outlandish and un-ladylike in 2020.<br />
Looking at the landscape of American politics demonstrates that female<br />
sexuality, and perhaps women in general, are still expected to be ‘ladies’<br />
and subdued. We only need to look at the retraction of abortion rights in<br />
2019 across many US states, and the treatment of significant females in<br />
the government such as Alexandria Ocasio-Cortez, to understand how far<br />
we still have to go with women’s rights. I think it’s important to grasp that<br />
the outrage that WAP generated represents a much larger issue than what<br />
some may contend is an insignificant music video.<br />
Like me, Cardi was also surprised by the reaction. In an interview with<br />
i-D, Cardi said:<br />
“I’ve been really surprised by the reaction, honestly. I<br />
knew it was gonna have a big impact, I guess, because of<br />
me and Megan. But I didn’t know it was going to be so<br />
controversial. I never expected that, you know, conservatives<br />
and Republicans were going to be talking about the song. I<br />
didn’t think the song was as vulgar as they said it was, you<br />
know? Like, I’m so used to it. I’m such a freak that I didn’t<br />
think it would be a big deal. I didn’t think people would think<br />
it was so out of this world…”<br />
Truly, this song really isn’t starkly different to what we’ve heard from male<br />
rappers for decades. Lil Wayne literally has a song called Pussy Monster<br />
where he says pussy 27 times - yes, I counted. In Jason Derulo and 2<br />
Chainz’ 2013 hit “Talk Dirty”, the line “her pussy’s so good I bought her a<br />
pet” is not censored in the official music video on YouTube.<br />
Men have been talking about their dicks for decades uncriticised and<br />
praised. Even more, they have been using the word pussy in their songs<br />
without a stir. Why is it that men can use and profit off of female sexuality,<br />
and often the abuse of female sexuality, but two empowered women<br />
cannot do the same? Not only are we much more comfortable with a man<br />
talking about his sex, but they are given the right to talk about female sex<br />
much more readily than women themselves.<br />
Perhaps this idea stems back from what we learn in school – sex is for<br />
male pleasure, and women are simply ‘baby-carriers’. After all, how can<br />
a woman enjoy sex if she’s never been taught that sex is equally for her<br />
enjoyment, too? Thankfully, we haven’t heard much outrage from fellow<br />
artists – in fact, there’s been a lot of support for the two rappers. Yet,<br />
perhaps what this demonstrates is that those in power are still not prepared<br />
for women to take ownership of themselves, their bodies and their agency.<br />
And what about Cardi’s child: what will she think when she grows up to see<br />
this? My response is this – who cares? No one is asking Lil Wayne or Jason<br />
Derulo what their hypothetical children will think of their music. Cardi B<br />
is well entitled to raise her child as she sees fit, especially if she wants to<br />
raise a sexually empowered female. This sort of criticism only perpetuates<br />
the narrative that women should spend their whole lives preparing for<br />
marriage and motherhood, an archetype that is well beyond its due date.<br />
Evidently, the shamelessness and confidence that WAP oozes is still<br />
reserved for men in the music industry, and perhaps in broader society.<br />
Nonetheless, perhaps the surge of female artists embracing their sexuality<br />
like Cardi B and Meghan Thee Stallion, amongst other big names like<br />
Nicki Minaj and Beyonce, represents the beginning of a cultural shift. One<br />
can only hope.<br />
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One Hour of Outdoor Exercise<br />
Words by Jessica McCarthy<br />
Ordinarily, I would walk to the beat of songs in my head<br />
ordinarily...<br />
that hazy old-world reverie<br />
In August 2020, I walk with cotton<br />
delightfully snug on my face<br />
relishing a veil between<br />
the world and I<br />
mouthing the words to songs in secret.<br />
children search enshrouded faces<br />
for signs of life<br />
old men can’t tell me to smile<br />
at this masquerade ball<br />
But then worry<br />
I said hello too quietly<br />
rude, they must have thought<br />
uptight<br />
aloof<br />
unfit<br />
they were looking at you funny<br />
... get over yourself<br />
In August 2020, I walk to rhythms of voices, almost friends<br />
throw myself down the rabbit hole<br />
greedily devour anecdotes<br />
count red flags circling soccer pitches<br />
swell with epiphanies<br />
as I pass my primary school<br />
Netball courts.<br />
old, familiar shame rolls head to toe<br />
an early sting<br />
from the beehive to come<br />
I wonder if I ever left here<br />
In August 2020, I grieve<br />
for the year I was supposed to live with my whole body<br />
for helicopter parenting my youth<br />
for last times unacknowledged<br />
for old habits resurfacing<br />
for closure<br />
becomes tainted<br />
when common interests dare unite us<br />
we’ve stolen back the ammunition<br />
in a year where pleasure is pleasure and guilt obsolete<br />
I surrender to the sounds of anticipated spring<br />
‘Lost in the memory’<br />
I lose myself in the song<br />
my memory is not an abyss<br />
but a museum<br />
alive with visceral cringes<br />
snatching unexpected<br />
see my eyes meadow-wide<br />
through your searing cerulean stare<br />
I was<br />
sincere<br />
guileless<br />
mortifying<br />
‘cause you weren’t mine to lose’<br />
But I painted that tableau<br />
and I can paint it again with<br />
gentler colours<br />
In August 2020, l catch glimpses of myself<br />
through my own gaze, not theirs.<br />
build a roof to block out<br />
that crippling bird’s eye of misogyny<br />
I am my own muse<br />
Aphrodite if I choose<br />
inflorescent<br />
opalescent<br />
brewing cups of magnificence<br />
I follow dry creek beds<br />
chasing dappled sunlight through the trees<br />
wattle sings warmth to<br />
voluptuous eucalypts<br />
and princess prunus blossoms<br />
I hang love letters on clouds<br />
bound for my future self<br />
yearn to float amongst those<br />
rows and flows of angel hair<br />
and reify my daydreams<br />
Arms ache to gather friends<br />
hands burn for a microphone<br />
fingers itch to share hot chips<br />
tears mist, glasses foggy<br />
In August 2020, I listen to ‘august’ by Taylor Swift<br />
every day<br />
I’ve forgotten to pretend.<br />
‘basic’ doesn’t exist without those guys around to be ‘deep’<br />
when anything touched by the feminine<br />
My feet console me with their optimistic stride<br />
there’s always a book on the bedside<br />
flowers to press<br />
letters to write<br />
rain, chimneys and coffee to smell<br />
infinite love to lade upon the souls of my soul<br />
Healing<br />
hope<br />
home again<br />
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An Ode to My Sparkly<br />
Pink Diary<br />
Words by Tiffany Forbes<br />
I’ve always known I wanted to be a writer.<br />
From the moment my stubby little HB pencil hit the page in grade one, to the happiness that now resides<br />
in intricately stringing words together as the world around me completely falls away, I’ve always known.<br />
Whilst my friends walked into school with Bratz dolls and the latest Littlest Pet Shop figures, I clutched<br />
none other than a sparkly pink diary adorned with blocky text that read “DO NOT ENTER”. The pages<br />
that followed were littered with scribbled diary entries and short stories only the hyperactive imagination<br />
of an eight-year-old could manage to conjure.<br />
Back then, writing was a place for words left otherwise unsaid. A place undefined by rules and overthinking.<br />
A place fuelled by my own fleeting thoughts and unbridled childhood curiosity.<br />
When an artist paints, they say a picture tells a thousand words. But when a writer writes, words aren’t<br />
just letters on a page anymore. They’re a canvas of their own: characters coloured with life, a portal into<br />
a different world.<br />
As I grew older, this comfort evaporated. High school made my prose rigid. Social confines left my<br />
imagination battered. And deep-set imposter syndrome made me question the legitimacy of anything<br />
I put to paper. Each piece I wrote swiftly compared to those around me and critiqued until I’d drag it<br />
straight to the trash icon.<br />
Writing wasn’t a solace anymore, it became a chore. Words that once flowed freely were stagnant and<br />
overthought.<br />
Confiding in a friend, I explained how writing began to feel suffocating because my work was never<br />
sophisticated enough, my ideas not original enough, nor my style the same calibre as everyone else’s.<br />
“But Tiff, isn’t that the point?” she deadpanned.<br />
Someone out there will want to read your writing even if it’s not fucking Shakespeare. Someone out there<br />
will want to read your writing because they like your randomly inserted Gordon Ramsay jokes. Someone<br />
out there will read your work for exactly what you want to change about it. Someone somewhere will<br />
resonate with you. And there, in that, lies the beauty of it all.<br />
So here I am bearing my soul, because writing doesn’t always have to be some nuanced carefully strung<br />
narrative, writing doesn’t always have to be a symphony of words joined together in perfect unison.<br />
Writing can be a raw 4am ramble finally coming to fruition, messy thoughts etched out in barely coherent<br />
lines, a love letter stained with tears and one too many broken promises. Writing can be anything you<br />
damn well want it to be.<br />
So here’s to friends who know you better than you know yourself, ditching the toxicity of comparison and<br />
that fucking sparkly pink diary. I owe you one.<br />
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The Circus<br />
Words by Eliot Walton<br />
Come, come, come and see –<br />
welcome to my menagerie:<br />
we’ve got bulls, bears, bats and cats<br />
snakes, drakes and huge mistakes!<br />
That’s our host, that one there -<br />
the clown with the purple hair<br />
painted smile, upturned frown<br />
peaked with a jester’s crown<br />
This is one we could not cage<br />
So, we built for her a stage<br />
The curtains part and forth is she<br />
Incarnation of enmity<br />
Her lips a black, her gown is white<br />
Her locks are dark as absent light<br />
The central spot upon her shines<br />
Marking her in shadowed lines<br />
“I see you there, at the back<br />
I see you and all you lack.<br />
Do you think that you can hide<br />
from that which lives inside?<br />
Do you think that I will go<br />
just because you say so?”<br />
She steps as close as I am now<br />
Hand to your frightened brow<br />
Keep close to me, tonight<br />
never wander out of sight.<br />
Of all the multitudes contained<br />
within the finite width of brain<br />
Hush falls beneath her eyes<br />
as each in the crowd espies<br />
the whitened bone of her hand<br />
reaching for her fleshy band<br />
“I see you now and all you lack<br />
there is no turning back<br />
I see you now and all you say<br />
there is no other way<br />
We find the first by an arrow<br />
directing to a silver sparrow<br />
collecting thoughts to build a nest<br />
Never once is he at rest<br />
He’ll catch a thought by the tail<br />
and pull and pull to no avail<br />
frail thoughts are his prey<br />
desperately he works away<br />
down - down and down once more<br />
until the thoughts are a roar<br />
hide your head between your hands<br />
rock and rock until he lands<br />
then at last you are free<br />
from the spiral Anxiety<br />
Oh - to you this seems a bore<br />
You want something a little more?<br />
Then follow the crowd’s steady flow<br />
it leads to our central show:<br />
Lifting off her outward face<br />
Laying bare her own disgrace<br />
Thumb-thick maggots crawl beneath<br />
her grinning – grey skeleton teeth<br />
A nightmare taken flesh and form<br />
Dysphoria – at last is born<br />
Her viper-hair whips around<br />
To its place the crowd is bound<br />
No magic can keep them here<br />
Nor threat, promise or fear<br />
They choose to stay and to stare:<br />
At the woman with serpent hair<br />
She raises up her arms of bone<br />
And calls out to you alone<br />
Strides across the silent crowd<br />
Then, to you, asks aloud:<br />
I see you know as you will be<br />
I see you in the menagerie.<br />
You cannot hide from me now<br />
No place to run, no oath to vow<br />
You and me on this stage<br />
You and me on this page<br />
You and me here together<br />
Dancing for them forever<br />
So come – come – come and see<br />
Here’s your place in the menagerie.”<br />
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For Our Eyes Only<br />
The Balance between National Security and Press Freedom is Tipping<br />
Dangerously Toward Secrecy<br />
Words by Greg Hunt<br />
Democracy, so say the political theorists, is predicated on a lively Fourth<br />
Estate acting as a critical watchdog of government. The free press, in<br />
holding elected officials accountable to the public they represent,<br />
is the cornerstone and lynchpin of free society. That’s the theory, anyway.<br />
In Australia, the practice is quite different. In Australia, the free press is<br />
under threat.<br />
First, some context.<br />
Dominating the headlines in September was the news that Cheng Lei, an<br />
Australian-Chinese reporter at CGTN, had been detained by Chinese<br />
authorities. Furore also erupted when Hong Kong police raided the offices<br />
of Apple Daily and detained Jimmy Lai, a notorious Beijing critic,<br />
in August.<br />
These events give us cause to reflect on the fact that the same kind of<br />
nebulous charges that justified these crackdowns – undermining national<br />
security – were invoked right here in Australia only last year to justify<br />
the well-publicised AFP raids on Annika Smethurst’s home and the<br />
offices of the ABC.<br />
What we also learned last week was confirmation by AFP Commissioner<br />
Reece Kershaw, under questioning from Senator Hanson-Young in a<br />
Senate inquiry into press freedom, that Dan Oakes, whose reporting<br />
along with Sam Clark on the Afghan Files triggered the ABC raid, may<br />
still face prosecution.<br />
That’s worth repeating. A journalist, on home soil, faces the prospect<br />
of going to jail for doing his job. This is at a time when at least four<br />
individuals – Witness K, Bernard Collaery, Richard Boyle and David<br />
McBride – face lengthy jail sentences for blowing the whistle.<br />
Never mind that the public has a right to know about serious allegations<br />
of war crimes committed by Australian SAS soldiers in Afghanistan,<br />
or plans to extend to the Australian Signals Directorate NSA-like powers<br />
to spy on domestic populations, or rorting of the ATO, or that<br />
Australian intelligence agents bugged Timor-Leste officials to get<br />
leverage in 2004 treaty negotiations.<br />
In the eyes of the government, what matters is that whistle-blowers<br />
and journalists are not above the law and that their conduct was illegal.<br />
Perhaps this attitude from our politicians explains why Australia slid five5<br />
places in the World Press Freedom Index this year (now ranked 26 th ).<br />
How did it come to this?<br />
In the wake of the 9/11 terror attacks and Bali bombings, politicians came<br />
under increased political pressure to fortify national security. Since 2001,<br />
in a climate of “convenient bipartisanship”, an estimated 85 pieces of<br />
National Security legislation have been introduced (an average of one law<br />
every three months for 20 years).<br />
This has led to a proliferation of “secrecy laws”: sweeping provisions<br />
that impose harsh penalties for sharing or receiving “unauthorised<br />
information”. In 2009, the Human Rights Law Commission identified<br />
506 such laws. Examples include Section 35P of the ASIO Act (1979) and<br />
Section 122 of the Criminal Code (1995).<br />
Australia’s burgeoning national security legislation makes it one of the<br />
most secretive democracies in the world, even among the <strong>Five</strong> Eyes<br />
nations.<br />
Arcana Imperii<br />
These laws, we are told, exist to keep us safe. They are necessary to combat<br />
terrorism, foreign interference and espionage.<br />
Whatever the spirit of these secrecy laws, the problem is that they are<br />
being used by politicians to intimidate journalists and whistle-blowers.<br />
And this is having a chilling effect on legitimate public interest journalism.<br />
Not only does a journalist risk going to jail for merely receiving government<br />
secrets, but the authorities can use these laws to secretly obtain Journalist<br />
Information Warrants (JIW). These grant them access to a journalist’s<br />
metadata for the purposes of identifying their sources. This may mean<br />
that, with whistle-blowers deterred from leaking to journalists, important<br />
stories may never make it into the public domain.<br />
While internal avenues for reporting wrongdoing in public administration<br />
do exist (such as the Commonwealth Ombudsman or the Inspector-<br />
General departments), there is no requirement that investigations be<br />
made public, and genuine complaints can be easily be brushed aside as<br />
opposition to genuine government “policy”.<br />
The reason we ought to be worried about all this is that the culture of<br />
secrecy increases the risk that politicians can use sweeping secrecy laws<br />
to conceal or cover up corruption, maladministration or abuse of power.<br />
Let the Watchdog off its leash<br />
Power, as Lord Acton’s adage reminds us, can corrupt those who wield it.<br />
It is for this reason that the unfettered kind of power afforded to our elected<br />
politicians by secrecy laws, justified under the pretext of safeguarding<br />
national security and keeping us safe, is problematic. Designed to conceal<br />
from public scrutiny the inner workings of government, the exercise of<br />
these powers should be subject to oversight. This is why the scrutiny<br />
afforded by “accountability journalism” becomes so vital: press<br />
freedom acts as a bulwark to guard against abuse of office.<br />
Instead, probing into government secrets – even when it’s done in the<br />
public interest to expose illegality or wrongdoing – has effectively been<br />
criminalised in this country.<br />
Of course, balancing secrecy and transparency in government is a delicate<br />
act. Certain types of information, like operational details about military or<br />
intelligence activities that would risk harm or death to individuals if made<br />
public, should be strictly off-limits.<br />
But the police raids last year highlighted what some academics have<br />
been saying for years: that Australia is on its way to becoming a quasipolice<br />
state.<br />
To restore public trust, we need a new regime of openness and<br />
transparency that enshrines the special place of watchdog journalism in<br />
our society. The paradigm shift will take time, but legislating an express<br />
public interest disclosure exemption (rather than defence) for journalists<br />
and whistle-blowers in respect to secrecy laws, and introducing a UK-style<br />
contestable warrant system, would be good places to start.<br />
It is a cliché to say that democracy dies in darkness. But without reform,<br />
our government risks being shrouded in secrecy. And this is a bad thing<br />
for democracy.<br />
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We Shall Isolate From<br />
The Teachers<br />
Words by Lordy May<br />
Even though large tracts of Victoria and many other Australian<br />
states have fallen or may fall into the grip of coronavirus, and the<br />
odious apparatus of lockdown, we shall stay inside till the end…<br />
We shall isolate at home.<br />
We shall isolate on our screens and iPhones.<br />
We shall isolate and maintain one-point-five metres distance when<br />
in pairs.<br />
We shall defend our State, whatever the economic costs may be.<br />
We shall isolate from the teachers.<br />
We shall isolate from the fines.<br />
We shall isolate and stay off the streets.<br />
We shall isolate at the tills.<br />
We shall never be an offender!<br />
And even if, which I do not for a moment believe, this State or<br />
a large part of it were infected with COVID-19, then our health<br />
workers, armed and guarded with PPE, would carry on the struggle<br />
until, in God’s good time, the scientists, with all their knowledge<br />
and expertise, step forth to the rescue and liberate us with a<br />
vaccine.<br />
Art by Shrusti Mohanty<br />
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Are We Seeing a New Class of Inves<br />
Stock Should Be One of Caution Rath<br />
Words by Ariel Horton<br />
Large-scale car manufacturing is one of the most difficult industries<br />
to break into. Most of the well-known car companies are decades old<br />
with thousands of workers, factories all over the world, and Research<br />
& Development (R&D) budgets in the billions. So when Elon Musk laid<br />
out his ground plan for creating electric vehicles, disrupting the entire<br />
automotive industry and doing it by going head-on against every other car<br />
manufacturer in the world, it seemed he was setting himself up for certain<br />
failure. To those in the industry, it wasn’t just David versus Goliath but as<br />
if David was fighting Goliath, Goliath’s family and Goliath’s friends all<br />
at once. It was set to fail, another startup doomed to bankruptcy within<br />
a couple of years. Their predictions were right but they were missing one<br />
thing: the absurdly confident investors of Tesla.<br />
Tesla went public very early and used the stock market to finance its<br />
operations. This meant the livelihood and success of Tesla was, even in<br />
its infancy, tied to the performance of its stock. In simple terms, valuation<br />
can be explained with the comparison of buying a carrot and buying the<br />
farmhouse that grew it. Let me explain.<br />
and airliners alike. The people in the room number in the millions - some<br />
professionals, others doing it for fun, others gambling for that big break.<br />
The stock market is a web of interactions that touches every single person<br />
on Earth, whether they are aware of it or not. But that implies that the<br />
stock market must be this super chaotic place in which no one is really<br />
aware of what drives prices on a day-to-day basis, news or no news. There<br />
are too many people in the room all with their own opinion to get a clear<br />
picture of how much this farm is worth.<br />
But enough of the wider stock market, let’s move onto the curious case<br />
of Tesla. In the financial space, Tesla, otherwise known by its stock ticker<br />
TSLA, is known to be quite the eccentric stock. Its movements are violent<br />
and jerky, with swings of 10% a regular occurrence. These swings are<br />
a rare sight for a stock with a market capitalisation of this size, where<br />
daily change is in the order of a few percent. (Market capitalisation = the<br />
number of shares times its current price.)<br />
Imagine you are in a room with ten other people and you have a table in<br />
the centre with a carrot. Now each of you are trying to buy this carrot but<br />
you don’t know how much you should pay. Perhaps with a carrot you can<br />
make a lovely stew and so the carrot is worth more to you. Or perhaps<br />
you’d look at the cost of production, how much water was used to grow<br />
the carrot, and the land it was grown on for instance. These methods have<br />
been tried and tested ways of determining the value of something for<br />
thousands of years.<br />
A physical good is relatively easy to value but an entity like the farm is a<br />
lot more difficult. Consider a portion of the factors that go into such a<br />
valuation: the farmhouse, the farmer’s skill and labour, the ground, the<br />
costs, the revenue, the contacts and the possibility of the future. It sounds<br />
a bit more difficult, and it is, but we’re not quite at the stock market yet. To<br />
finish this analogy, consider that you are not valuing the farm to purchase<br />
it from the farmer; instead, the other nine people in the room each own<br />
a portion of the farm and are trying to sell it to you. Each seller has their<br />
own costs, their own goals and their own information. They each have a<br />
different amount of money and they’ve all been educated differently. One<br />
of them knows the farmer, four of them are standing in a huddle talking<br />
about the climate, and the others are all looking through the same financial<br />
documents trying to glean an edge over everyone else in the room.<br />
Now we have a semblance of how the stock market works, but even this is<br />
a simplified example. We’re not just valuing one farm but hundreds, and<br />
not just farms but engineering firms, supermarkets, banks, automakers<br />
What really drives the conversation of Tesla is its ability to defy expectation<br />
and maintain ludicrous growth of its stock. Tesla was first listed on the<br />
New York Stock Exchange (NYSE) in 2010, at $3.40 USD (split-adjusted).<br />
The price right at its stock split, on the 31st of August, was $498 (splitadjusted);<br />
if you bought $1,000 in shares back in June of 2010 when it<br />
was first listed and sold just after the split, then that $1,000 would be<br />
worth $146,450. A stock split, for those unaware, is when each share is<br />
split into several pieces and are individually cheaper as a result. In Tesla’s<br />
case they did a one-to-five split, so if you owned ten shares then after the<br />
split it would be fifty shares. Stock splits are used to allow more investors<br />
to purchase shares, otherwise a single share can be in the thousands of<br />
dollars or in the case of a Berkshire Hathaway Class A share, can put you<br />
back $329,500.<br />
That is unprecedented growth for any stock, especially over ten years. You<br />
might be led into thinking that they must be selling cars like candy and<br />
making billions, but Tesla has never had a profitable year. And yet despite<br />
producing one thirtieth of the cars Toyota makes, and one tenth of the<br />
revenue, it is the world’s most valuable automaker by a large margin.<br />
Unlike the carrot example, where our ten investors have used what they<br />
know about carrots and farming to value the farm, Tesla seems to run on<br />
pure speculation of its future profits and value. With low assets, high R&D<br />
costs, growing debt, constant issues with production and controversies<br />
surrounding their figurehead Elon Musk, the company does not seem<br />
healthy to the financially savvy investor. Most institutional investors were<br />
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and are wary of Tesla as an investment, sticking to less risky and overall<br />
more healthy companies. Tesla does not follow any of the normal stock<br />
valuation techniques, otherwise it surely would’ve filed for bankruptcy<br />
long ago.<br />
They manage to do this by selling more than just a car. They’re selling a<br />
dream. They’re selling camaraderie in a counter culture. They’re selling<br />
you the feeling of doing something good for the planet and at its head<br />
is a somewhat likeable twitter aficionado who acts more like a rock star<br />
than a top CEO. Tesla doesn’t need to fight investors to raise capital for<br />
growing debt repayments. They need only announce a new plan for the<br />
next ten years, with almost no substance, and the stock soars. Musk can<br />
go on Twitter and say that Tesla will be making a joke flamethrower and<br />
the stock will go up. Tesla can say that their production numbers are lower<br />
than their target and the stock will still go up. In many ways, the company is<br />
marketing itself as a product rather than a company that makes products.<br />
Their ad hoc marketing campaign has gone viral, with myriad YouTube<br />
channels, Facebook groups and Instagramers recommending Tesla off the<br />
basis of its future profits, its future production numbers, its future factories.<br />
The way Tesla is spoken about on these platforms sounds similar to a<br />
soccer fanatic raving about their team in a pub. Each proclaimer will flit<br />
around topics but avoid fundamental financial analysis. They often talk<br />
about how good a product each electric vehicle is but almost never talk<br />
about the profit margin nor the issues with ramping production. Estimates<br />
are always highly optimistic and a best-case scenario.<br />
However, this is not to say that the institutional investors were wrong<br />
in their predictions for Tesla. Several times the company scraped past<br />
bankruptcy with only the steadfastness of its investors keeping the<br />
company afloat, a situation where most others would collapse. This would<br />
have led to a scenario where most investors would lose not some, but<br />
nearly all of their money due to the debts of the company.<br />
But what is this new class of investors, these people who like Icarus fly so<br />
close to the sun? To answer this we need to take the focus off Tesla for a<br />
moment and instead turn to a company that a good deal of you probably<br />
haven’t heard of. It’s called Robinhood and it’s one of many newly created<br />
mobile-based trading platforms in the US bringing huge numbers of<br />
young Americans into the stock market for the first time. Mobile-based<br />
trading apps have been coming under fire due to their almost game-like<br />
appearance and lack of education for their users. For instance, it’s very<br />
easy to start trading options on Robinhood which allow the investor to<br />
lever out their money and create scenarios where they go deeply into debt.<br />
Several new investors have gambled (for it is far closer to gambling than<br />
investing) away their savings, some refinancing their home loans to have<br />
more cash, which has been lost due to the very risky nature of option<br />
trading. There have been several stories of new investors going so far into<br />
debt that they will likely be repaying for decades.<br />
Options trading around Tesla only exacerbated the issue allowing<br />
speculators to double or triple their returns over just holding the stock. But<br />
more worrying is when the stock will begin to tip the other way. For a lot of<br />
these investors Tesla can only go up, and they are so highly levered that if<br />
the stock begins to fall they might lose everything they own. As of just after<br />
the stock split, Tesla is not the golden goose anymore. This could be due to<br />
the Fremont plant reopening in contrast to state law and spreading several<br />
cases of coronavirus, or perhaps the cash crunch that’s hitting middle and<br />
lower-class Americans hard, as their unemployment rate stays worryingly<br />
high. Investors also could be getting spooked as they come into their first<br />
recession as an investor.<br />
In any case, this downward trend has caused Tesla to lose a huge amount<br />
of value in the order of approximately 25% in about a week and a half.<br />
Leverage on an options trade varies but 5x is not unusual, so a theoretical<br />
$1,000 bet and Tesla’s 25% drop would mean that you would now be<br />
in debt by $250. There are options trading methods that can increase<br />
this leverage, and worse yet trading apps like Robinhood offer short<br />
term trading loans. For an easy reference as to why leverage like this is so<br />
impactful, the 2008 housing crisis led to a financial collapse due to overleveraged<br />
banks. A trading app like Robinhood and individual investors<br />
will not be able to cause anything of that magnitude, but they can easily<br />
lever themselves into their own financial ruin especially when chasing<br />
losses. To put this in perspective of how successful trading like this can<br />
be, 80% of all new day traders (which is a large portion of these new<br />
investors) will lose money, only 10% will make money and the final 10%<br />
will just break even.<br />
So what does the stock market of tomorrow look like with higher than ever<br />
numbers of young people entering the market on mobile-based platforms,<br />
listening to bad financial advice from a multitude of small influencers on<br />
all their favourite social media platforms, or worse yet a meme? I worry<br />
that too many new investors will be drawn to highly risky stocks like Tesla,<br />
leveraging their cash and ultimately forgetting that stocks do not always<br />
go up. But with interest rates lower than ever, a shrinking middle class and<br />
the allure of getting that one lucky break, examples like Tesla will become<br />
a shining beacon to all those who wish to pay off their home loan, student<br />
debts or just want to get rich quick.<br />
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Winding Paths<br />
Words by Cody B Strange<br />
strange the things one finds inside their navel<br />
curt, frazzled end of unending long string<br />
I haul out yard on yard, not able<br />
to match the yarn in hand as it’s shaking<br />
chamber walls breathe, expand ‘til space pitch-black<br />
guiding cord nowhere in sight, nerves shred<br />
chamber walls breathe, contract ‘til vacuum packed<br />
teeth itch, flee down nearest stony ingress<br />
curt, frazzled end of unending long string<br />
ragged naval, blueish, almost azure<br />
to match the yarn in hand as it’s shaking<br />
I must dig deeper, that much is for sure<br />
ragged naval, blueish, almost azure<br />
tether myself Theseus wrapped ‘round chair<br />
I must dig deeper, that much is for sure<br />
stretch my navel wider, peer in and glare<br />
tether myself Theseus wrapped ‘round chair<br />
inching questing hands into skin-scented black<br />
stretch my navel wider, peer in and glare<br />
forearms swathed as I writhe into my crack<br />
inching questing hands into skin-scented black<br />
head slurped greedy into cavernous mire<br />
forearms swathed as I writhe into my crack<br />
waist gobbled whole, path back spins thinning wire<br />
head slurped greedy into cavernous mire<br />
peach-fuzz light blooms, shingly antre looms<br />
waist gobbled whole, path back spins thinning wire<br />
tilling gaze unearths channels who mushroom<br />
peach-fuzz light blooms, shingly antre looms<br />
hello echoes louder than I did squeak<br />
tilling gaze unearths channels who mushroom<br />
each path dollies as wandering I peek<br />
hello echoes louder than I did squeak<br />
chamber walls breathe, expand ‘til space pitch-black<br />
each path dollies as wandering I peek<br />
chamber walls breathe, contract ‘til vacuum packed<br />
guiding cord nowhere in sight, nerves shred<br />
closing sides break body to crawl afresh<br />
teeth itch, flee down nearest stony ingress<br />
rock-sewn borders give way to lithe-taut flesh<br />
closing sides break body to crawl afresh<br />
pin-hole starlight flashes from out the void<br />
rock-sewn borders give way to lithe-taut flesh<br />
poor form warped and drawn, rendered man uncoiled<br />
pin-hole starlight flashes from out the void<br />
point shimmers to blaze, no other senses<br />
poor form warped and drawn, rendered man uncoiled<br />
what have I become - weeping throat-burned laments<br />
point shimmers to blaze, no other senses<br />
fingers meet ridge lip, no more can heart bare<br />
what have I become - weeping throat-burned laments<br />
eyes meet that blueish string wrapped ‘round my chair<br />
fingers meet ridge lip, no more can heart bare<br />
I crawl out my left eye, shake stuck head free<br />
eyes see that blueish string wrapped ‘round my chair<br />
to pull serpentine wriggling beneath<br />
I crawl out my left eye, shake stuck head free<br />
I haul out yard on yard, not able<br />
to pull serpentine wriggling beneath<br />
strange the things one finds inside their navel.<br />
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Chasing Grasshoppers<br />
An Ode to Childhood<br />
Words by Joseph Lew<br />
If you make your way down to the corner of the street you’ll find our<br />
house. Everything has remained relatively unchanged since the day my<br />
parents bought it – all the way back in 1997 – a remnant of the past<br />
with its bleached weatherboards, battered roller blinds and geraniums<br />
creeping unabashedly over rusty, pink gates. Neighbours have come and<br />
gone, buildings have been torn down and bulldozed over, but my house<br />
remains exactly the same.<br />
Two hundred square metres of neglect sit outback. Weeds and wildflowers<br />
mosaic between the cracked path, and sprawling grapevines and<br />
orchard trees border the fence – plums, nectarines, almonds. It was here<br />
that I spent many summer afternoons, running through the overgrown<br />
grass and clover fields, chasing grasshoppers as they hopped from blade<br />
to blade.<br />
There was something about them with their buggy brown eyes, sleek<br />
green bodies and long spindly legs. They jumped so carelessly, bodies<br />
wildly contorting as they launched themselves in the air, legs splayed<br />
behind them. I hopped after them, laughing as my fingers cupped over<br />
the empty space they occupied moments before. They always just evaded<br />
my reach.<br />
We played a game of endless tag, just me and the grasshoppers. I’d chase<br />
after them for hours upon hours, until even the cicadas stopped their<br />
singing.<br />
*<br />
The transition was subtle –there’s no specific moment in time I can<br />
pinpoint. The trees hinted at it, shedding their leaves as the monarchs<br />
began to make their journey east. Every so often, I heard the chirruping<br />
of the grasshoppers, and scanned the grass for signs of their veracity. But<br />
they too, had started to leave. Eventually, I stopped searching for them<br />
altogether.<br />
This house doesn’t feel like home anymore, not for a long time.The walls<br />
are starting to crack, the paint is peeling. It feels empty, hollow. Swaths<br />
of ivy choke out the plum trees, and the nectarines haven’t borne fruit<br />
in years. There’s nothing left for me here. Hell, even the grasshoppers<br />
know that.<br />
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Special thanks to all<br />
our contributors!<br />
Writers<br />
Anonymous<br />
Ariel Horton<br />
Cody B Strange<br />
Eliot Walton<br />
Eva Scopelliti<br />
Grace Baldwin<br />
Greg Hunt<br />
Isabella Burton<br />
Jessica McCarthy<br />
Joseph Lew<br />
Juliette Capomolla<br />
Lordy May<br />
Maiysha Moin<br />
Meg Ruyters<br />
Milly Downing<br />
Natalia Zivcic<br />
Riya Rajesh<br />
Sarah Bartlett<br />
Sumaya. F<br />
Tatiana Cruz<br />
Tiffany Forbes<br />
Tingnan Li<br />
Xenia Sanut<br />
Artists<br />
Alicia Sach<br />
Chan<br />
Georgia B<br />
Jayden Crozier<br />
Joshua Nai<br />
Kajal K<br />
Kat Kennedy<br />
Katrina Young<br />
Linda Chen<br />
Linzie Joanne<br />
Maria Chamakala<br />
Mel<br />
Rasa Islam<br />
Ruby Comte<br />
Shrusti Mohanty<br />
Tanya Jain<br />
Tatiana Cruz<br />
Yesha<br />
Subeditors<br />
Alexis Bird<br />
Anagha Raviprasad<br />
Anna McShane-Potts<br />
Anvita Nair<br />
Dinithi Perera<br />
Evelyn Chan<br />
Jasmine Tran<br />
Jie Yee Ong<br />
Joseph Lew<br />
Louise Blair-West<br />
Mish Kumar<br />
Olivia Shenken<br />
Ruth Ong<br />
Sanjana Surawala<br />
Sarah Hult<br />
Xenia Sanut<br />
Yanchao Huang<br />
To contribute to <strong>Edition</strong> Six, submit your work to the relevant Google<br />
form.<br />
Written submissions: bit.ly/lwed6wri<br />
Visual submissions: bit.ly/lwed6vis<br />
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