first step 2 A

SOMETIMES TO DO THE IMPOSSIBLE
YOU MUST DO THE
UNBELIEVABLE

Ihaka whanga
If anybody wants to point a bone at me or my book, program , or Whakapapa or do any
Makutu Humbug or do anything negative I asked that Ihoa{god} and my
Tipuna{ancestors} remove them from the earth
IT IS NOT THROUGH MY AROHA BUT THROUGH IHO AROHA THAT MAKE ALL THINGS POSSIBLE I
PARAI CHRISTIE
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P. CHRISTIE

THIS WHAKAPAPA{GENEALOGY} WAS GIVEN TO ME BY MY
FATHER BUT I WAS RAISED BY MY GRANDMOTHER ON
MOTHER SIDE MY GRANDMOTHER NAME WAS
HUIA VIOLET {MUM AUNTI LU }
TE AHO
OF
NGATI PAHAUWERA
MOHAKA
he grea k
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TAMATEA ARIKINUI WAS A RANGATERA ON THE
TAKITIMU WAKA I
KI AU WHAKAPAPA O TE WHAIA I
KA MOE A TAMATEA ARIKINUI KI A TOTO
KA PUTA MAI A RONGOKAKO
KA MOE A RONGOKAKO KI A MURIWHENUA
KA PUTA MAI A TAMATEA POKAIWHENUA
KA MOE ATAMATEA POKAIWHENUA KI A IWIPUPU
KA PUTA MAI A KAHUNGUNU
KA MOEA KAHUNGUNU KI A RONGOMAIWAHINE
KA PUTA MAI A KAHUKURANUI
KA MOE A KAHUKURANUI KI A TUTEIHONGA
KA PUTA MAI A RAKAIPAKA
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KA MOE A RAKAIPAKA KI A TURUMAKINA
KA PUTA MAI A KAUKOHEA
KA MOE A KAUKOHEA KI A MAWETE
KA PUTA MAI A TUTEKANAO
KA MOE A TUTEKANAO KI A TAMATE A HIRAU {E
WAHINE}
KA PUTA MAI A KAUNOHANGA {E WAHINE}
KA MOE A KAUNOHANGA {E WAHINE} KI A
TUARIKI TE RANGI
KA PUTA MAI A KAHUTAPOA
KA MOE A KAHUTAPOA KI A TAMAHIKAWAI
KA PUTA MAI A TUHEMATA
KA MOE A TUHEMATA KI A TE RUAWHARE
KA PUTA MAI A KAUIKA
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{HAVEN’T GOT THE NAMES SO I PUT IHO THERE
FOR THE NEXT TWO NAMES INSTEAD}
KA MOE A KAUIKA KI A IHO
PUTA MAI A HUIANGO
KA MOE A HUIANGO KI A IHO
KA PUTA MAI A KETEWHARANUI
KA MOE A KETEWHARANUI KI A TIAKIHINU
KA PUTA MAI A TAMAREHE
KA MOE A TAMAREHE KI A HINEKAKE
KA PUTA MAI A IHAKA TE AHO
KA MOE A IHAKA TE AHO KI A WHITIWHITI
KA PUTA MAI A TIPENE TE AHO
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KA MOE A TIPENE TE AHO KI A ARAPIRA RANGI
KA PUTA MAI A PAORA TE AHO
KA MOE A PAORA TE AHO KIA MERE TE HEMA
WAIHAPE
KA PUTA MAI A KINGI TE AHO
KA MOE A KINGI TE AHO KI A SOPHIE
HAWKINS
KA PUTA MAI A HUIA VIOLET {MUM,
AUNTY LU} TE AHO
KA MOE A HUIA VIOLET {MUM, AUNTY LU} TE AHO
KIA {
KA PUTA MAI A { }
KA MOE a {
} KI A HIRUHIA HOANI {POPEYE}
CHRISTIE
}
KA PUTA MAI A {
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KA MOE A { } KI A { }
KA PUTA MAI A TAMARIKI O NGA MOKAPUNA O
TE AHO WANO CHRISTIE
KA PUTA MAI A TAMARIKI O
MOKOPUNA O
TE AHO CHRISTIE
I
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TAMATEA ARIKINUI WAS A RANGATERA ON THE
TAKITIMU WAKA I. WHO ARRIVED IN 135O
SOME OF HIS WHANAU HAD ALREADY ARRIVED
CENTURY BEFORE HAND.
KI AU WHAKAPAPA O MATUA KI A WHAIA I
KA MOE A TAMATEA ARIKINUI KI A TOTO
KA PUTA MAI A RONGOKAKO
KA MOE A RONGOKAKO KI A MURIWHENUA
KA PUTA MAI A TAMATEA POKAIWHENUA
KA MOE A TAMATEA POKAIWHENUA KI A
IWIPUPU
KA PUTA MAI A KAHUNGUNU
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KA MOE A KAHUNGUNU KI A RONGOMAIWAHINE
KA PUTA MAI A KAHUKURANUI
KA MOE A KAHUKURANUI KI A TUTEIHONGA
KA PUTA MAI A RAKAIPAKA
KA MOE A RAKAIPAKA KI A TURUMAKINA
KA PUTA MAI A KAUKOHEA
KA MOE A KAUKOHEA KI A MAWETE
KA PUTA MAI A TUTEKANAO
KA MOE A TUTEKANAO KI A TAMATE A HIRAU {E
WAHINE}
KA PUTA MAI A TURIA
KA MOE A TURIA KI HINE KIMIHANGA
KA PUTA MAI A RAUHINA
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KA MOE A RAUHINA KI A TAPUWAI
KA PUTA MAI A RANGITUANUI
KA MOE A RANGITUANUI KI A RATUA ITE RANGI
KA PUTA MAI A MOEWHARE
KA MOE A MOEWHARE KI A TANE TE KOHURANGI
KA PUTA MAI A AIHURANGI
KA MOE A AIHURANGI KI A PARA-WHERO
KA PUTA MAI A TERANGI-HAIRE-A-HIKU
KA MOE A TERANGI-HAIRE-A-HIKU KI A HENI
INOHI
KA PUTA MAI A HINE RUKUHIA
KA MOE A HINE RUKUHIA KI A RAKATO
KA PUTA MAI A APATU O TE RANGI
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KA MOE A APATU O TE RANGI KI A MAATA TE
KAIA MAHAKI
KA PUTA MAI A RAWINIA APATU O TE RANGI
KA MOE A RAWINIA APATU O TE RANGI KI A
WIREMU HUPER KIRIHITI
KA PUTA MAI A TANIWHA
KA MOE A TANIWHA KI A KUAO-PATEHEPA
PAKUKU
KA PUTA MAI A KORO
KA MOE A KORO KI A F ARAPATA
KA PUTA MAI A HAIRUHIA HOANI {POPPY}
CHRISTIE
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KA MOE A HAIRUHIA HOANI {POPPY} CHRISTIE
KI A { }
}
KA PUTA MAI A {
Ka Moe a { } ki a { }
KI AU TAMARIKI O NGA MOKAPUNA
O TE AHO WANO CHRISTIE
I
WHAKAMOMITI KI AU TAMARIKI O MOKAPUNA O
TE AHO CHRISTIE
I
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ARROGANCE IS NOT TO BE MISTAKEN FOR
PROGRESS OR INTELLIGENCE OTHERWISE IT
CONFUSES HISTORY
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TAMATEA ARIKINUI WAS A RANGATERA
ON THE TAKITIMU WAKA I
KI AU WHAKAPAPA O TE MATUA I
KA MOE A TAMATEA ARIKINUI KI A TOTO
KA PUTA MAI A RONGOKAKO.
KA MOE A RONGOKAKO KI A MURIWHENUA
KA PUTA MAI A TAMATEA POKAIWHENUA.
KA MOE A TAMATEA POKAIWHENUA KI A
IWIPUPU
KA PUTA MAI A KAHUNGUNU
KA MOE A KAHUNGUNU KI A RONGOMAI-WAHINE
KA PUTA MAI A KAHUKURA-NUI
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KA MOE A KAHUKURA-NUI KI A RUATAPU-
WAHINE
KA PUTA MAI A RONGOMAI-TARA
KA MOE A RONGOMAI TARA KI A TUPOHO
KA PUTA MAI A AONUI
KA MOE A AONUI KI A TE-TU-RUMAKINA
KA PUTA MAI A HINE TE KAWA
KA MOE A HINE TE KAWA KI A TU-TAKAMAI-
WAHO
KA PUTA MAI A HINE TE ATA
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KA MOE A HINE TE ATA KI A MAKORO
KA PUTA MAI A KOTORE
KA MOE A KOTORE KI A HINE MANUHIRI {2 ND }
KA PUTA MAI A HINEPEHINGA
KA MOE A HINEPEHINGA KI A TE-O-KURA
TAWHITI
KA PUTA MAI A TAPUWAE
KA MOE A TAPUWAE KI A RAUHINA
KA PUTA MAI A RANGITUANUI
KA MOE A RANGITUANUI KI A RATUA ITE RANGI
KA PUTA MAI A MOEWHARE
KA MOE A MOEWHARE KI A TANE TE KOHURANGI
KA PUTA MAI A AIHURANGI
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KA MOE A AIHURANGI KI A PARA-WHERO
KA PUTA MAI A TERANGI-HAIRE-A-HIKU
KA MOE A TERANGI-HAIRE-A-HIKU KI A HENI INOHI
KA PUTA MAI A HINE RUKUHIA
KA MOE A HINE RUKUHIA KI A RAKATO
KA PUTA MAI A APATU O TE RANGI
KA MOE A APATU O TE RANGI KI A MAATA TE KAIA MAHAKI
KA PUTA MAI A RAWINIA APATU O TE RANGI
KA MOE A RAWINIA APATU O TE RANGI KI A WIREMU HUPER
KIRIHITI
KA PUTA MAI A TANIWHA
KA MOE A TANIWHA KI A KUAO-PATEHEPA PAKUKU
KA PUTA MAI A KORO
KA MOE A KORO KI A F ARAPATA
KA PUTA MAI A HAIRUHIA HOANI {POPPY} CHRISTIE
KA MOE A HAIRUHIA HOANI {POPPY} CHRISTIE KI A {
}
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KA PUTA MAI A { }
Ka Moe a { } ki a { }
Whakamomiti ki au tamariki o
Te aho WANO Christie
I
Whakamomiti ki au mokapuna o
Te aho WANO Christie
I
Whakamomiti ki au tamariki o mokapuna o
Te aho Christie
I
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MATHEMATICAL
OPINION
Nikola Tesla was critical of Einstein's relativity work
stating "It's a magnificent mathematical garb which
fascinates, dazzles and makes people blind to the
underlying errors. The theory is like a beggar
clothed in purple whom ignorant people take for a
king..."
En.wikibooks.org/wiki/N...
Tesla was critical of Einstein’s work because he believed the theory had
already been proposed by Ruder Boskovic 200 years before Einstein
released his General Theory of Relativity in about 1915. Tesla thought
Einstein's theory was wrong and a bit faulty due to Ruder's book, Theoria
Philosophiae Naturalis, that he had previously read.
Tesla was never nuts, he was an incredibly brilliant man. In his later
years he faded away like most old people do, but he was never crazy.
Oddly enough Einstein is the one that ended up losing his mind
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INCLUDED
COVER
MY WHAKAPAPA {GENEALOGY}
MATHEMATICAL
{OPINION}
{ONE STEP, THE JOURNEY SO FAR AFTER A }
{STROKE}
AUTONOMOUS PROGRAM
TRYING KNOWLEDGE TOGETHER
LIMITED
TRANSLATION OF MAORI
WORDS
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INDEX
OF BOOK
A PERSON WHO KNOWS WHAT THEY
DON’T WANT
IS BETTER OFF THAN A PERSON
WHO DOESN’T KNOW WHAT THEY?
WANT.
EJTC
Silent growth is more stable than loud progress
EJTC
The warrior of today is not a person who Can fight ten or twenty warriors it’s
the person who can
help the people.
EJTC
A journey cannot begin until the destination is fully understood
EJTC
A GLAZIER IN ANTARCTICA STARTED FROM ONE DROP OF WATER
EJTC
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NEVER LET YOUR IMAGINATION CONTROL YOUR MIND
EJTC
DON’T GET HUNG UP WITH TRADITIONAL EUPHORIA WHEN LOOKING FOR A
PRACTICAL SOLUTION.
EJTC
THE FUTURE CAN ALWAYS BE PREDICTED IN THE PRESENCE WHEN YOU USE
THE PAST AS A TEMPLATE.
EJTC
A PERSON WHO FOCUS ON THE NEGATIVE OFTEN DOES SO CAUSE OF THEIR
OWN INSECURITY.
EJTC
DON’T MISTAKE NATURAL PROGRESS
FOR YOUR OVER ALL
GOAL
EJTC
THE GREATEST GIFT
YOU CAN GIVE YOUR CHILDREN IS THE GIFT OF
INDEPENDENCE AND DIGNITY
EJTC
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I LOOK AT MISTAKES, LIKE ROOTS OF A BIG TREE, TO MANY ROOTS IN THE SUN
AND THE TREE WILL DIE. JUST ENOUGH
AND YOU HAVE A POTENTIAL FOR A FOREST
EJTC
AROHA IS GIVING AND NOT
EXPECTING ANYTHING
BACK
EJTC
WE ARE NATURALLY BORN WITH ALL
THE WONDERS OF THE UNIVERSE
IT IS ONLY WHEN WE GET OLDER
THAT WE SEEM TO FORGET
EJTC
DO NOT REPLACE COMMON SENSE WITH CONVENIENCE.
EJTC
THE FUTURE CAN ALWAYS BE PREDICTED IN THE PRESENCE WHEN YOU USE
THE PAST AS A TEMPLATE.
EJTC
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A PERSON WHO FOCUS ON THE NEGATIVE OFTEN DOES SO CAUSE OF THEIR
OWN INSECURITY.
EJTC
TO LIVE IS TO PROVE CHILDHOOD
SOCIOLOGY CAN BE IMPROVED
EJTC
THE HIGHT OF ALL INTELLIGENCE IS TO REALISE, THAT THERE IS SO MUCH
MORE TO LEARN
EJTC
RECOVERY IS NOT THE ERADICATION OF YOUR SETBACK IT IS THE
CAPABILITY TO PROGRESS REGARDLESS OF YOUR SETBACK
EJTC
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YOU CAN’T CREATE REALITY OUT OF ILLUSION
BUT YOU CAN MAKE ILLUSION LOOK LIKE REALITY
EJTC
THERE ARE MANY RIVERS THAT LEED TO THE SEA BUT THERE IS ONLY ONE SEA
EJTC
HOW CAN YOU FIND A CURE IF YOU’RE FOCUSSED ON THE SICKNESS?
EJTC
ARROGANCE IS NOT TO BE MISTAKEN FOR PROGRESS OR
INTELLIGENCE OTHERWISE IT CONFUSES HISTORY
EJTC
NEVER LET WHAT YOU CAN’T DO INTERFERE WITH WHAT YOU CAN
DO
EJTC
tktlnz@outlook.com
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My grandmother and people are very positive.
They had been through a lot of hardship in their
life and I reckon if they can survive, so can I. As a
child, I spent a lot of time alone, so I had a lot of
time to waste. We lived close to the Wairoa River,
which was a favourite place of mine. It was
peaceful, no yelling, screaming or swearing. The
river had a strange effect on me, as it would
awaken my imagination. I would imagine that
there were Tipuna {Ancestor’s} in the river that
would say not to give up, and to carry on they
would protect me.
I could talk to them about my home life and they
would tell me to be strong, I could roam through
the trees searching for insects, watching them
live with nature, with its rhythm. I envied insects
for their simplicity, going about their day without
a care in the world. One day I was at the river and
I felt the hair on the back of my neck stand up, I
shivered and felt goose bumps rise all over my
body, it was getting on dark.
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I stopped and turned and looked at the trees, I
could see something, eyes glittering in the foliage,
the intensity froze me to the spot, I wanted to
move, to run for my life, but fear gripped me. I tried
to think of some happy thought at that moment it
was better than just standing there. Home, a place
that nurtures you to fulfil your full potential.
I understand that it must have been a sight to see
a little kid talking to the water at the river.
Learning not to care what people thought of you
was something I struggled with when I was
younger. Most kids do I suppose.
Anyway, I loved the river. I would play in the mud
there. It was so peaceful there.
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I would roam through the trees, search for insects
and watch them exist. I love watching insects go
about their day without a care in the world. The
insects lived with nature, with its rhythm. In many
ways, I envied the bugs. My interest in insects
brought ridicule. Being a very curious child, I was
interested in many things.
Especially shapes.
The curves and squares of
humanity and the countless and vague shapes in
nature.
When I was a little boy, my Grandmother and I
were sitting in the kitchen and it was raining and
stormy outside. All of a sudden, there was a bang,
bang on the door and I thought to myself, I would
go answer the door. I was about five or six years
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A PERSON WHO KNOWS WHAT THEY
DON’T WANT
IS BETTER OFF THAN A PERSON
WHO DOESN’T KNOW WHAT THEY?
WANT.
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When I stood up my Grandmother grabbed the
back of my neck and said you sit down
She sat and stared at the door intently, and then
she got up and went to bed. I got up and opened
the door and there was no one there, but the storm
had passed, and the sky was clear. I would save my
fascinations for when I was at the river, but the
river was always a friendly place for me. I do not
know if it was my imagination but as at times, it felt
like I was not alone.
It was hard to get time to myself at times because
there were always many people around my
grandmother which I liked the only way I could be
free of them was to go off into my own little world,
either alone or as they said I could daydream. My
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grandmother took us to Rotorua one holiday, and I
was left to my own devices.
I mistakenly took the deep end for the shallow end
and jumped in. The realization that I was in serious
trouble struck me hard and I panicked.
Some
people have said that drowning is a pleasant way
to die but I do not believe that for a second. The
body instinctively fights to stay alive and you lose
control for a moment. Your panic takes control.
I cannot remember how long I was under the
water, but I can recall it feeling like a long time.
Someone pulled me out. The surface of the pool’s
edge was rough against my skin and looking up I
could see numerous faces looking down at me.
There was no concern in any of the expressions. I
coughed and vomited water.
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The chlorine tasted ghastly. I heard someone tell
another person to go and get my grandmother
The faces above me left and the sky filled my vision.
My grandmother did not come because she knew
what I now know to see if I was all right and I
realized that the command to go and find her was
not for my benefit.
I sat up after a while. I did not go back into the
water that day.
Back at home a couple of weeks later, we were at
the park with my grandmother’s’ family. Some of
my grandmother’s family were on the swings and
would not get off. I tried to time it,
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I got my timing wrong and the swing struck me on
the head.
It split my skull open.
Time stopped. I was on my back, staring up at the
sky.
For a moment, I thought I was still lying by the pool.
Everyone stood around me. I remember hearing
someone ask if I was okay, but I could not respond
to him or her. They all stared at me.
“Look at his face,” someone pointed.
Apparently, I had a blank expression on my face.
My legs and arms dangled loosely as I could not
control them.
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Whoever carried me took me back to home and my
grandmother asked someone to go over to the
neighbours to ring an ambulance, as she did not
have a phone at home.
Time was still slow for me. People moved around
me in a way that suggested that they had to force
themselves through sludge to get where they
needed to go.
It all seemed in slow motion.
I can remember looking up at the roof of the home
one-minute and then looking up at the roof of the
ambulance the next.
At the hospital, a doctor
recommended that I be transferred to Napier
Hospital. I cannot recall the trip to Napier from
Wairoa, nor can I remember the trip to hospital.
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Snippets of my stay in hospital come to me
sometimes.
There I can remember a doctor
standing at my bedside and he said that there was
something very good about this boy.
I stayed in
for months.
Lying in a hospital bed allows you to do one thing.
Think!
All you can do is to think and think I did. I thought
about a lot of things like the river, the dream about
the skeletons and the pool.
Without sounding too dramatic I felt as though all
those incidents were leading up to something.
I did not know what at the time, but it was
something positive and unusual
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When I was a young, I used to astro dream. One
night I had a dream.
The blankets slowly slid off me as I floated towards
the ceiling.
I felt a strange sensation in my stomach and then
the cold, smoothness of the glass slid across the
soles of my foot. I jerked awake and instinctively
my legs searched for the floor.
The window
opened, and I floated outside. The wind turned
me. I dipped and twisted and floated higher.
Stars winked in the sky above them.
As I floated past the edge of the roof I shivered as
the breeze was cool. I floated over the house, up
and further away. I passed over the river and trees
and then returned back to the house. Those areas
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I floated over were the places where my life
cantered.
At some points during that dream I was happy but
at other times I was sad.
I learnt a lot as I recovered from my cracked skull.
Because I could not do much, I spent time watching
and listening. I learnt when to talk to people at a
very young age. What I mean by that is that I kept
quiet a lot because the things I said to people
brought either verbal or physical ridicule.
I used to tell people about my dreams, but now I
would try and forget them and carry on as if they
did not happen. It was during this time that I began
to hang out with my sister. She is a year younger
than
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me. She is a strong person who I am extremely
appreciative of.
People would try and push her around and hurt her
and they would, but they would never do it again.
My sister gave as good as she got.
Many an
attacker would leave her presence with a bleeding
nose or a black eye.
She was wild when she was young but not in the
sense that she would go looking for trouble.
If trouble came looking, she would not run away
from it.
My sister visited us often when I was growing up.
Sometimes she would stay with us for a while. She
always made me feel comfortable.
She had a
calming influence over me, but like all of us kids at
my grandmothers we were MADE ADJUSTABLE.
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Silent growth is more stable than loud
progress
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When I was growing up there where many family
members that I was appreciative of.
When I was ten, I went to a Health camp. I was
sitting outside at night by myself and an old man
sat down next to me. I looked at him and I turned
around to him and swore at him Who the f*** are
you? The old man just shook his head,
I thought to myself what a strange man. While I
was watching him, he disappeared, and I thought
to myself, obviously I am not ready yet. Now
whether people believe me or not about the story,
I really don’t care. All I know is that it happened.
The second time I saw this man was when I was in
a coma in hospital
I went to go and talk to him was when I woke up
in hospital.
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it was my imagination; but it seems to be a pattern
starting from the incident in my Grandmothers
kitchen.
Can you believe that a sawmill saved me?
I was a very angry sixteen-year-old boy when I
began working at the Waihaha Sawmill. You had
to work very hard there, but I liked it because it
gave me something to direct my anger into and I
was paid well. The head man there was a man you
respected. He was a good, fair man but you did not
muck around with him.
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Orim was second in charge and very similar to the
boss. They treated me like a man and expected me
to work hard. I was an angry and arrogant
young man though at times and would not always
listen to them.
I thought I knew better, and I have to admit that I
was not the easiest guy to get to know.
After a while one of them took me hunting every
now and again.
The foremen and I were hunting one late afternoon
and I were following him. There was movement
ahead and he lifted the rifle and aimed it towards
the sound. We waited and listened. Then one of
his dogs bound out of the bushes.
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He let out a relieved breath and said, “Jeez, dog.
You’re lucky I’m not trigger happy because you’d
be dead.” No sooner had he uttered those words
a pig shot across the path about fifty meters ahead
of us. The dog set after it immediately and Orim
took off after the dog. As he ran off, he placed the
rifle over his shoulder and took out his knife.
I could hear him sticking the pig and I was glad
that I did not see it. The sound was horrible. The
pig was howling.
Orim returned with the pig and he set it down
before me. Blood was everywhere. The smell was
quite ghastly. It was strong and made me a little
lightheaded.
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Another pig ran off behind us. Orim killed that pig
and then another. We had three pigs to carry out.
Luckily, the truck was not far away. I was
exhausted when we got to the truck. Orim placed
the pigs on the bag of the truck. We heard more
commotion from the bushes, and he handed me
the gun.
“If it starts to rain, keep the barrel down,” he said,
“If you see a pig coming at you, don’t fire if I’m
ahead of you.”
I nodded and Orim ran off. I looked at the gun. It
looked so inert and useless.
I accidentally pulled the trigger. The recoil nearly
ripped the gun out of my hands and the boom was
ear-splitting.
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Orim came back out of the trees, “What did you
shoot?”
I said the tree, so he would not think I was being
silly with it. He looked at me angrily, took the rifle
out of my hands and gave me the knife. The dogs
caught the scent of another pig and he ran off. I
did not like the sound the pig made when the dogs
latched onto it.
Its cries became even worse when Orim stabbed
it. He returned with our fourth pig and he dumped
it on the back of the truck. He then whistled for his
dogs and the oldest dog returned almost
instantly. The younger dogs took a little longer, but
they did return. We got into the truck and drove
home.
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“I’ve never seen anything like that before,” I told
Orim and he smiled at me. Being in the bush gave
me chance to feel the ora or energy of the bush. It
was a very spiritual experience. We talked about
the hunting the next day at work and he was keen
to take me out again but only if I stayed away from
the rifle.
He was smiling when he said it, so he was not
angry with me. I was spending a lot of time with
Orim as we worked together at the sawmill.
Sometimes it got really cold in the mill. At times it
was the coldest place I had ever experienced. I
suppose the fact that we worked in an open mill
with no walls.
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We cut all native timbers but mainly Douglas fir.
It got so cold there that one of the first workers to
get there in the morning had to dip a torch in diesel
and light it.
He would hold the torch under the pipes in the
morning to melt the ice inside the pipes. If that
wouldn’t be done, there would be icicles hanging
from the walls in the morning. The tap always had
one hanging from it. The puddles would be icy and
many a worker slipped on them when they were
not paying attention.
My job at the mill was called a Goosie. I had to get
the timber and stack them on the trolley.
And push the trolley out to the yardman and he
stacked them out there. Sometimes I would get
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angry and frustrated if the mill had to shut down. I
was not good at controlling my anger at times. The
mill however was not the most up to date and the
wellbeing of the workers was not in the forefront
of the owner’s mind.
We had a very old truck, one that had a door that
would open itself. The gears would often fall out
the bottom of the truck if the driver did not use
them correctly.
It was a hard job, but I loved it. The workers there
used to make a circle with their thumb and
forefinger and blow through it.
“Why do you do that?” I asked them.
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A journey cannot begin until the destination is
fully understood
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“Because you are going to blow your ring,” one
them said.
I did not blow my ring out and they respected me
for that. The workers were all old school, hard
men. They worked very hard and expected me to
do the same.
I remember one time I stood by the fire too long
and they said I was soft.
“Only stand by it to warm up and then move on,”
they said.
We worked hard and often had to communicate
with hand signals because the mill was so loud.
Earmuffs were not heard of back then and it is
perhaps the reason why I have problems with my
hearing now.
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Much to the amusement of the workers I learnt
how to back a trailer and drive a tractor. It took me
a while, but I did get it. The boss was watching me
do it one day and he was smiling.
When I had finished, he called me over and said,
“You were like him when he started,” The boss was
pointing to another man and continued, “He could
not back a trailer at all. He was terrible at driving
the tractor.” I got angry with him because I thought
he was teasing me, but now that I look back, he was
not. I was too arrogant then.
I loved working at the mill. Another man there
operated the saw, we called him the ‘Saw Doctor.’
The Saw Doctor never complained when the saw
broke down, he just got on with his job, operating
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quietly and affectively. He and I used to talk a lot
and I enjoyed listening to him tell me about life.
I lift the mill and went back to Wairoa. There, I
heard that there was a job going at the
Waikaremoana Conservation Department.
I
applied and was successful. I, along with eleven
other workers had to put in a tourist track around
the lake. The first day we arrived, the foreman
stood up in front of us and said that you had to be
tough to survive out her. The water was ice cold
and we got out as quickly as we got in.
The foreman stood on the shore shaking his head,
“You fellas all have to learn the hard way, don’t
you?”
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It was rugged country there. I enjoyed being there,
it reminded me of being alone at the river as a kid.
It was peaceful. We found some caves near where
we worked but we were told by the foreman not to
go in there. It was too dangerous. The foreman
was a good man, he taught all of us a lot. He
showed us how to catch pigeons and fish.
He would point the shotgun at the river and pull
the trigger.
Because the water was so shallow, the blast would
stun the fish and we would jump in the river and
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take the fish out. We did not do it very often. The
foreman told us to wait until the afternoon to catch
pigeons. He said to wait until the big pigeon rested
its head on its shoulder. He also showed us how to
eel with spears. It was fun.
I enjoyed the work and developed a healthy
respect for the area. People who worked the land,
who lived and worked here, were amazing to me. I
respected them.
I asked the foreman a lot of
questions there and he was more than willing to
talk to me.
He took me for a walk and showed me the area.
Where we were going to be working. There was a
lot of scrub and logs there.
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“That all needs to be cleared,” he pointed, “We
need to build a water table too over there. It needs
to be placed alongside the track, so the water can
run down the side.
I was looking forward to the job and I was
determined to show the foreman that I could
handle it. I will handle whatever he could dish out.
The next day we started early we cleared the area
with axes and shovels. We dug the dirt out Other
workers then shifted the dirt and flattened it out.
I was arrogant when I was younger. It is a fault that
I have to accept. Time is different when you are
working out in the bush. It just passes so quickly.
Our hours were different all the time.
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Sometimes we worked to lunch time, other days
we worked until it was dark. As time went on, the
numbers within the working team dropped.
When I first started there were 12 of us but after
a year or so there were only four of us remaining.
There was the foreman, me and two others. One
of them was a strange chap who had to have
everything done his way, regardless if it was right
or wrong. The other guy was involved in the .......
gang from Wairoa. Working up there hardened
you up.
You got used to all kinds of extreme
weather. If it was hot, it was really hot. When it
was cold, it was really cold, but we still worked. For
such an isolated area we sure did run into some
interesting people.
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We were clearing the trial one hot summer’s day,
working in just shorts and boots when a Canadian
tourist and his son came up the path.
“Look,” we heard the young boy say,
“Real Maoris!”
We all laughed.
We carried on working and
eventually finished the water table. We had come
to the base of the cliff and it was impossible for us
to make a track through or over it, so we had gone
around. The foreman said that we would have to
carry in sacks of shingle.
He spoke as if he doubted that we could do it, but
we all said that we could. The track that we had to
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carry the sacks along was about one mile in length.
We all went back to the shingle truck. There was a
man there holding a shovel and we told him to fill
his own bag and carry it back with us.
With another crew there, we had turns working on
the trail and taking the sacks up.
It was hard but very satisfying work. This went on
for about a week and we had only produced one
hundred meters of track. We also faced very heavy
bush. We were not allowed to cut any new trees
down, so the track coiled through the trees
depending what we faced.
We moved ahead
slowly and came to a gap of about ten meters.
We had to build a bridge. The foreman contacted
DOC and they flew timber up in a helicopter. The
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ITS WHEN WE STEP OUTSIDE THE REALMS OF
EXPECTATION
THEN WE BEGIN TO FULFIL OUR TRUE
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ig boss also brought out a jackhammer and he
hung from the helicopter and dug several holes on
the side of the cliff, so we could put braces in it.
We stopped for the day and returned to camp
because we had to move a lot of equipment up
closer to the bridge or we would waste too much
time tramping up there each day. That night, we
all shared our ideas about the best way to build the
bridge.
The next day we were told by the big boss that we
had to build a long drop for when we worked up
there. When we were finished, we would have to
pull it down. We built the long drop, finished the
drop and then was confronted with the how to get
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id of the thing. We were all feeling quite pleased
with ourselves because we had finished the job and
were full of laughing and jokes.
We had taken some guys up there to do some
hunting with and one of the guys started to fool
around.
He faced the long drop and said, “This town isn’t
big enough for the both of us.” He then lifted and
aimed his gun and blew a big hole in the wall of the
long drop.
Since we all had guns, we all blew the hell out of
the long drop. One had a BB gun which did not do
that much damage. Another had a crossbow and
that tore holes in the wood. Someone had a pistol
and there was a shot gun. I think there was a 303
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and a few slug guns. I had a pistol. When I think
about it, we should not have done that because
there was a huge mess to clean up afterwards. We
threw all the timber down the hole of the long drop
and then filled it in. It was smelly work. We packed
all our stuff and went back to camp after a hot
day’s work.
Some of us decided to go for a swim. We jumped
into the lake and just like before we ran straight
back out because it was so cold. The foreman
stayed on the shore again and shook his head.
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We dried off and set up camp, building a fire in the
process. We each had a turn to sit by the fire and
keep it going.
The next day we lay
timber lengths into the crossbeams, so we could
lay another set onto the crossbeams. Then we laid
another set of shorter 4x2 across and these pieces
would make the bridge. After that we had to bring
the camp up to the bridge.
The next day we worked all day, barely having
breaks and took the water table all the way up to
the first tourist cabin.
We took all our gear into the cabin, but it felt
colder inside.
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Once we got the fire going it was quite pleasant.
The next day was just as hot and we had to take
breaks under trees in the shade.
Someone
mentioned that we should all go for a swim in the
lake. The foreman laughed and shook his head. It
was very hot and since we had all worked so well
the foreman suggested that we go for a walk
through the bush to cool off.
We walked up the slope and came to a huge rock.
We climbed on top of it and looked down to the
lake. The foreman must have been there before
because he did not get up there and he told us to
look up. The rock was gigantic, and it hung over us.
I thought it was a lot of rocks, but it was only one.
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Nature always impressed me, it made me feel
quite humble.
The work seemed to be getting harder for some.
Our numbers continued to drop off and I
remember one man refused to come back to work
with us when we had a break in ........ town.
We stopped in at the pub and we sat and talked
about our jobs. He said he could not go back with
us, so we left him there and went back to work.
Back up there, we carried our gear up to camp site.
There the foreman told us to collect wood for the
fire.
It had to be dead wood as we were not
allowed to take any live wood.
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When you are surrounded by nature you start to
develop a different perception of it. I know I did.
We got the fire going and we talked about the man
we left at the pub. I did not know why he would
not want to do it. The foreman reminded us that
there were caves in this area and to stay out of
them. “They are too dangerous,” he said.
We sat and talked that night. The foreman made
us some bread. He mixed up some dough inside an
oven pot and covered the pot with ash. Half an
hour later he uncovered it and the bread was
delicious. The next day we were at it again,
I was working and ended up wandering away from
the working party. I worked away and then looked
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up and realized where I was. I was admiring the
bush when an owl swooped down out of the trees
towards me. I stepped back because I got a hell of
a fright and the owl passed me at chest level. It
flew off away from me. I turned around and
followed it for a few one hundred and walked right
into our camp. I looked for the owl, but I could not
find it.
I wondered if it was an atua or if it was just a
random act of nature. {I recon there both the
same} I kept my little wander to myself and after
that I paid extra attention to what I was doing.
Again, it made me respect nature even more.
When we had finished the job, the foreman said
that we could explore the area if we wanted
because we were not going to be back here for a
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long time. We came across a small lake and the
water was incredibly deep and a crystalline blue.
The lake was in the middle of the bush, so barren
and alone.
Very peaceful place. If you looked at the lake early
in the morning, it looked like a piece of glass. There
were no ripples at all, no wind. The water was
completely smooth. The foreman showed us a
historical place.
“This is Te Kuiti’s chair,” he pointed to the stone
chair,
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A GLAZIER IN ANTARCTICA
STARTED FROM ONE
DROP OF WATER
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He fought against the system and he killed a lot of
soldiers.”
The chair was made of stone and it
resonated within me. Some people saw him as a
rebel, but I thought he was a great man. He saw
his people suffering and did something about it.
We went back to work. Being in the bush had its
good qualities but it was also good to go back to
civilization. It is good to have a break from the
bush just as it was to have a break from civilization.
We had four days off.
At the end of the break, I gathered my things and
waited for the van that went around and picked up
all the workers. We went around to one worker’s
place and his family told us that he did not want to
work anymore.
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We had gone from twelve workers to ten.
We went back to the work site and walked up to
the campsite. I always enjoyed walking back into
the bush, I missed it.
The peacefulness and
solitude. I enjoyed the business of town as well
whenever I went back to town.
In many ways I missed the lake.
It was so beautiful.
I found it peaceful and
uplifting. Being up there had an unusual effect on
me. All my troubles seemed to melt away. There
were no troubles in the bush. We settled in up at
camp and one of the workers had brought up a
motorbike.
The supervisor watched him.
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The foreman was shaking his head. I think he
thought we were all mad. I had my turn and gave
the bike back.
“Watch this Eugene,” he said.
All of us workers watched him shoot off on the
bike. The bike disappeared into a hole. There was
a big explosion of WATER.
We ran over to the hole and dragged him out of
there. The motorbike was flooded and had to push
the bike back to the camp. Luckily, he was unhurt.
The foreman told us that we had to be careful out
here, “Keep your eyes and ears open at all times.”
He then said that he wanted one of us to go ahead
to the next camp site and start preparing it.
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I volunteered for the job.
“I won’t be long,” I told the foreman and took off.
I made good distance before I ran straight into a
log. It sat me on my backside. I walked the rest of
the way. While it was beautiful up here it was also
dangerous. If you got hurt and needed serious
medical attention you could be in trouble.
I now know that all of the healing plants I would
need to survive were growing all around me.
When I got up to the next camp site, I saw that it
was empty. I turned back and headed back to
camp. The next day we worked hard, clearing a lot
of bush. We worked really hard and towards the
end, clearing an area became second nature to us.
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Working as hard as we did make us appreciate time
off. We had another break and lost another worker
in the process. We were down to nine men now.
We moved up to the next area and came across a
different looking landscape. It all seemed so
different. The rocks were different and so were the
hills.
The area was breath-taking. We worked solidly for
ten days and then had another break. This break
was going to devastate the working gang.
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At the end of our break we gathered up our stuff
and went around to pick up the workers. For a
while we got similar messages.
“I don’t want to work anymore,” one said.
I want to do other things with my life.
The working gang of twelve was now four. We, all
four of us, went back out to the bush and reality
set in. The work here at Waikaremoana was going
to end soon for us. A new crew would be employed
to go the rest of the way.
I got quite sad thinking about leaving this place.
I found that when I was here, I was not anger with
the world or myself. I only really felt that when I
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went back to town. We spent a week up there
working. At the end of the week we took some
time to look around for one last time.
It was quite calming for all of us. No one said
anything for a while.
We drove back to Wairoa and we were all
dropped off. That was it. No more bush. I did not
see any of the group again.
I caught a ride to Hastings.
There I met and made friends with a street kid He
told me about a group of people who picked on the
street kids. I took in what he said and was quite
saddened by it but there was nothing I could do. I
began to hang out with some street kids. There
was a building in Hastings that we used to
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hang around. I did not look down on the street
kids. They were good survivors to me. When the
street kids kept getting picked on organization
stepped up their aggression. There was no need
for it.
One night, a friend of mine and I saw a group of
people picking on some street kid by the Flaxmere
gas station.
I said to my friend, “Let’s see what happens here.”
My friend nodded. As we watched the group that
attacked the street kid, they were using
truncheons. I ran across the road to help the kid. I
ran straight into the first person and he turned to
hit me with the truncheon. I went to punch him.
He went to hit me but we both stopped. He looked
over my shoulder. I turned around and saw that a
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lot of street kids had come out to help. Someone
had obviously told them what was going on. There
was a lot of street kids and the advantage of having
sticks and truncheons no longer mattered. There
were a lot of girls on the streets and they were
savage. They took no prisoners.
The people attacking the street kid ran. There
were people everywhere. One of the attackers ran
back to his vehicle and called for help on his CB
radio. Help came from every direction. They were
everywhere. Soon the amount of people in the
area was innumerable.
It was a riot. One of the street kids told the group
that the army was coming. I said to everyone that
we should all split up and run. When we left
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WANT TO SEE ROCK TOP
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severely beaten. We escaped without getting into
too much trouble.
I recon the winner on the night were not the
people who mob that street kid. The grandmother
had to see her grandson grow before she passed
on.
Later, I met a well-known youth worker, His
nephew, and I got on really well.
John was a gifted singer and could play the guitar
really well, but he had a really bad temper. He died
at twenty-one and I remember him looking really
angry in his coffin. After the tangi [funeral], he
took me to his home, and I lived with him and his
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family for a while. I stayed with him for a while and
grew quite comfortable living there.
He supported league and I started to play in the B
team for his club. We trained a lot and had a great
time despite us not winning a game. We all tried
hard though and through this I learnt a lot about
how people have different characters.
After a couple of years, I decided to move out of
the home. I appreciated their hospitality
immensely, but I had to move on.
They understood. I moved to a local marae and
stayed there for a while. I still maintained my
contact and through his help, I got a job working at
Otatara, a well-known Maori pa in Napier. The job
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was within the landscaping group and it was our
job to clear away bush, scrub,
After this I got a job at the YMCA. Here I learnt
how to cook and learned how to serve people
The tutor was great. She was very patient with
me and I appreciated that. I still remember to
serve to the left and clear from the right. At first, I
did not mind it but then it dawned on me that
serving people was not for me.
I did not like
serving people and defiantly did not like people
serving me. lent growth is more stable than loud
progress.
After a couple of weeks of working in the
hospitality industry I decided that it was not for
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me. I knew that I would not last there because I
could not control my temper. I was not keen to be
a servant and reacted loudly and very angrily at the
course supervisor.
I am sure that she was glad to see the back of me.
My next job was with a painting crew that was
redoing the social welfare building. It became very
apparent to the foreman that I did not have a clue
and I only lasted a week before I got the sack. I
went home to the house I was staying at in
Taradale and heard there were jobs at the
tanneries.
I went down there and signed up and one week
later I got a phone call to come in. It looked like a
good job and I enjoyed it. One day I was talking to
my fellow workers about the union and the head
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supervisor overheard me.
I was there for two
months before I was told to hit the road again.
I went back to Taradale and did not work for a
couple of months.
Then I found a job in the
newspaper. A building firm was advertising for
laborers. I learned how to wallpaper in that job,
and I became quite good at it, but I realized that
this job was not for me. I saw other workers there
and they seemed made for the job.
I definitely was not cut out for that type of work,
but I stayed in it for two years before leaving. After
leaving the job I joined up at the YMCA in Napier
and I found out that there was working to do
around there.
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I joined the crew.
The foreman was a good man and easy going. He
and I talked about rugby league and he told me a
lot of things about league that I did not know
about.
He showed me that league is a very
technical game. I can remember a game between
Aotearoa and Australia. What I remember most is
the fight on the side lines between two players.
The Aotearoa player beat up the Australian player
because he had been threatened. Who won I don’t
care; the manna of Aotearoa won? The fight is still
talked about in league circles.
After several years I enquired about a job going not
far from Pandora. The job was about developing
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arts and culture. Since I had some experience from
Otatara I thought I would have a go at the job. I
was successful.
When I got there, I found out that I had to organize
myself because I was the only member.
There were cultural gatherings to organize and
Taiaha Wananga to organize. I met a man with the
initials T H, and he taught me about the Taiaha. I
began training and after a while he said I could go
up to level four.
A well-known tutor with the
initials P S taught T H
I was still an arrogant young man. I had become
quite arrogant over the years, but I’d like to think I
had grown out of it. The foreman I used to talk
about league with said that 25 to 30 is the arrogant
age.
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This is when you think you know everything, and it
has to take a huge fall to make you realize that you
do not know everything. One of my friends Murray
told me that I keep banging my head against a brick
wall while never realizing that there is a door.
I was learning more and more about the Maori.
There was a man within the organization that I
respected quite a lot. He taught me so much about
the Maori culture. I admired him because of the
great tasks he took on and while I do not like
putting anyone up on a pedestal, I do think he
deserves some recognition. When I first met him,
I considered him a true Maori.
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Maori of the past adapted to the environment
and found a way to live with it. They lived in
harmony with the environment.
This is what he did. Through him I understood the
trouble that Maori had to endure over the years.
Maori are still struggling with the system and to me
this is not what true Maoridom is about.
Maori have adjusted to the system, understand it
and become better at surviving it than anyone else.
They should then use this skill to help their family
and other people. That is what true Maoridom is
to me.
I heard a saying once.
A true Maori reminds me of a spud.
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THE FUTURE CAN ALWAYS BE
PREDICTED IN THE PRESENCE
WHEN YOU USE THE PAST AS
A TEMPLATE.
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They are brown on the outside and white on the
inside. I thought that all spuds come from the
earth whether change colour or not, they start in
the earth and end up in the earth.
Within this group I began to learn more about
myself.
That comment resounded in me.
When I was younger.
I was not the type of person who was overly
concerned for my people I belong to. My people
however are both Maori and European. These are
both inside of me. During that time, we were in the
process of establishing a Maori group within the
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Hawke’s Bay. We sent messages out to all the
Maori groups in the Bay and asked if they were
interested in putting a group forward to represent
the area. This was a very good learning experience
for me. I learnt a lot about the system and about
our people.
I must admit though that we
underestimated what it would take to organise
such a group. We organised an event and then I
realised that I had to sort outdoor sales and who
would be toast master or head speaker. Luckily
there was someone on hand who had the skills to
do the job.
We got it done but it was all a bit higgledy piggledy
and if I had the chance to do it again I would do it
in a far more professional manner.
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We did manage to send a group to the Aotearoa
festival and this experience showed me the
difference between a professional set up and an
amateur job. I sat down at the end of the day and
wondered how I was going to get through
something like this again.
I moved on from that experience. This community
group I was involved in was busy. We were to build
a Waka.
To me the three relevant things that happen to us
as an iwi was the Tamatea Airiki nui waka, {canoe}
Whina Cooper, march for iwi independence and
my father showed me our Whakapapa{genealogy}
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I concentrated on organising the carver’s paddlers
behind the scenes.
I found out I was only a token chestier there were
catering organization that had to be paid that
weren’t, instead the funding was given to a Taiaha
teacher which I would have agreed with if I knew
about it. The one saving grace was the Rangatera
{captain}ask me
“Do you want to be a paddler, Eugene?” he asked.
I thought to myself, yeah, I feel a bit
whakama. {shy} All these other kaihoi had spent six
months training and here was me just turning up.
I really wanted to be a kaihoi.
“Yes,” I told him.
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We prepared for Waitangi Day. On Waitangi Day.
The captain of the Waka said, “Right, all of the
extras who did not start with us from the beginning
have to stay on shore.”
I thought that was fair enough because those who
had been there from the beginning worked really
hard. The day before the Waitangi Day the Waka
split.
The team panicked. Luckily, we had people close
who had the skills to fix the Waka and they worked
through the night to get it completed. Waitangi
Day was great fun. After Waitangi Day, we went
from Napier to Wairoa in the Waka on the sea. The
experience is permanently etched into my mind
and I’m sure it is the same with the others. It took
us two days to get to Wairoa, we stayed there for
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a day and then returned by sea to Napier. This was
the highlight of my time in the community group. I
left the group not long after that and returned to
Mohaka and stayed on my grandmother’s land for
a while. I did a lot of thinking there.
I thought about Maoridom and New Zealand.
I believe that we are all one people, we are Kiwis.
Europeans and Maori need each other, and one
cannot move into the future without the other. I
think that we can be a people that the rest of the
world can look at and think, wow this is how an
ethnic race and colonist race can live together.
There are parts of this country where there are
pure Maori and parts where there is pure
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European but there are also other parts where
there are many other cultures.
It is important that Maori and Europeans come
together for the future of this country. Some say
you have to know your history if you want to
know where you are going.
I agree with that
statement. There are people who predict that this
country is going to be dominated by one race and I
say to those people of course it is, it is going to be
dominated by one race, the human race.
In the eyes of God there is no different coloured
skin people, we are all one people.
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This is what God intended for the earth and in my
opinion, this is what will happen in the
continuation of life.
I am often concerned with how the world is going
however I do not put these worries before the
reservations I have about our own country.
I
remember the war in Afghanistan and all the
problems the Aborigines were having in Australia.
This line of thinking however made me think
about a time when I was younger. I was over at the
neighbours helping them to clean up and my
grandmother leant over the fence and said, “You
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should make sure your own backyard is clean
before you worry about anyone else’s, Eugene.”
That has always stuck in my mind
and while I have empathy for those who are
suffering, I now always concern myself with my
own backyard first.
The whole issue of the Maori and European
quarrels is getting boring to me.
I am always
hearing that the Europeans are trying to pull the
wool over the Maori’s eyes. This kind of racism is
getting boring to me but on the other hand it
would not be there if past agreements were truly
honoured.
There are Maori and European radicals and we
cannot disown either side they are both us
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WE ARE NATURALLY BORN WITH ALL
THE WONDERS OF THE UNIVERSE
IT IS ONLY WHEN WE GET OLDER
THAT WE SEEM TO FORGET
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people. I do believe that eventually someone in
the future will bridge the gap between the two
main controlling bodies in this country. We are a
strong people and have so much potential.
Hopefully one day this potential will be unleashed
on the world and those people who are trying to
hinder the future should come together and help
one another. We need to take our life experiences
and share and learn from them. I learnt how to
respect the system more through my life.
I learnt how to be thorough and precise through
my time in the community group. This was an
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introduction to the system for me. I hear that the
system is bad but that is not true.
It is only bad when people use the system for bad
means. The system is like water in a creek, its only
water to look at but it’s only when you jump in that
you get wet.
I got thrown in the deep end and either I learnt to
swim or drowned. I hardly got any schooling, no
apprenticeship there and either I did it or I didn’t.
I never gave up and while I made mistakes, I learnt
a lot. I analysed everything. Where I went wrong
and what I did right.
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I also returned to my first love in Mohaka. Painting.
I love to paint. Once the paintings were done, I
showed a few people.
They said, “That is very unusual.”
I told them that I was an abstract painter. I thought
a lot when I was painting. I considered all the
unusual things that had happened to me in my life.
Every now and again, I would go for a walk in the
hills. One time I stopped on top of a hill and looked
down at the surrounding area.
I thought that Mohaka was a very good place and
I liked the way it looked and felt. The Mohaka River
looked quick and strong.
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There is a section within the river where all of the
local’s swim and my cousins used to swim and hang
out there. I have so much aroha for the place.
I sum up Mohaka men and women with three
words. Quiet, powerful and unassuming. It is a
very spiritual place and sometimes you had to be
careful where you went because some of the local
people did not appreciate your presence in some
places. A story I
Heard when I was a kid, there was this
RANGATERA said that they were to go down to
the pa, get welcomed on and then kill the women.
The RANGATERA and the roaming party were
going to get the shock of their lives. The
RANGATERA and his men planned to kill all women.
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The women killed all of the party, except for the
RANGATERA. He got away.
This is ONE story about Mohaka.
It is a very
spiritual place for me. The men explored a lot
But they always went back home.
I went to a positive wedding once we the {hakari}
supper first.
“Hey, aren’t we here for a wedding?” I asked one
of the guests close to me.
“Yep, we will get to that soon,” he replied.
Another time we were having my grandmother’s
husband’s tangi and I was helping some other men
dig the hole.
An old lady came up to us guys digging and said,
“Don’t dig the hole there.
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We stopped digging and one of the workers said
that someone had better get my grandmother to
help sort this out. One of the guys went and told
my grandmother what was happening up at the
urupa and she came storming up there.
“What’s the story here?” my grandmother asked.
The old woman fired back,
“This is where I’m going to be buried.”
“My husband is going to be buried there,” my
grandmother said, “Not you. You are not from this
marae, you’re from up the road a bit. This is not
your marae so do not come here and tell us what
to do! You leave these boy’s alone.”
The old woman walked away.
My grandmother told the boys to resume digging
and then she walked away. I walked with her and
she was still angry about the old woman. After my
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time at Mohaka, I went back to Wairoa and stayed
with my grandmother for a while.
I went for a walk-up town and heard about a
scheme that had started up.
It was about art. There were different types of
artists there and there was one that worked with
stone. Another was good with wood and another
was amazing at traditional art. I spent some time
there and I became friends with the head man
there who came from Gisborne. The main tutor
was also from Gisborne.
One day the head man asked, “Eugene, would you
like to become part of the group?”
I said yes straight away. I was placed in a group and
we went out to a neighbouring marae. We were
taught how to preserve old carvings that were
falling to bits from a person from the Historic
Places Trust.
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I found it very interesting. On the marae, we had
to restore the front of a particular meeting house.
We had to take off both Amo and Maihi. We also
took the Paipai off. We were shown how to fix
them. We were taught about epoxy resin and how
to inject it into rotting wood to make the wood last.
We were shown how to use a certain paint
stripper. Overall, we spent about six months on
the marae. The group was great, and I was very
fortunate to be placed in it and we did a great job.
We went up to Gisborne after that and I was asked
to go on a course. This course was a real eyeopener
for me. The tutor we had taught me so
much.
He said, “You have to understand the system,
Eugene. You are just a cog in the wheel of
progress.”
I don’t want to be the cog in any wheel, I want to
be the driver I thought. The tutor did not overly
like the classroom and we were hardly ever in it.
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We had a trip away once. It was not far from
Gisborne.
It was like a chateau on the beach. There was an
island not far away from shore and a few of us went
diving for kina and we filled up one and a half sacks
of kina. We filled the other half with crayfish. We
were going to fill a third sack, but I saw a black fin
slice through the water not far from us and decided
that enough was enough.
EJTC
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AROHA IS GIVING AND NOT
EXPECTING ANYTHING
BACK
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We got back into the boat and paddled back to the
shore.
This trip was not the only one we did. A few weeks
later the tutor said we were going, and we would
be staying at his sister’s place. He said that no
matter what you do you must have a Kaupapa
behind it.
We went to a place just outside of and it was just
stunning. It was enlightening. I cannot remember
the name of the place, but it was full of different
types of jade. There was one particular jade that
was three feet tall and about a foot wide. I just
stood there staring at the jade. It was the most
angelic thing I have ever seen in my life.
The next day we went to the Auckland Museum.
As we travelled over the bridge there it was a nice
day, but it soon clouded over. It stormed down. I
looked over the bridge and saw huge waves
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throwing the yachts around. Once we got to the
other side the weather brightened again. We were
allowed to go inside the Museum before it was
open to the public.
“Remember to look at everything and take note of
everything you see,” the tutor said.
The first thing I saw was a huge Waka. I thought to
myself that our people must have been clever to
produce something like this. I was walking around
the museum and went to have a look at some of
the top paintings.
The tutor gathered us all together told us that we
should look at all the old bodies that had been
found by the archaeologists.
“Is there anyone who does not want to go in? He
asked us.
The rest of the group went in, but I didn’t. I did not
want to go in there.
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I had a look round and saw a Patu and a taiaha.
One thing I noticed was that the museum really
identified where exactly the Maori artefacts had
come from. I could not get over the incredible
number of Maori artefacts the museum had
hidden away in the storage rooms. I think that they
were getting rich off them and not just only talking
in
money terms but also in misunderstood euphoria
terms. The manna of our people was unwittingly
being hidden away from us. I saw several Maori
cloaks and the museum was preserving them very
well. I enjoyed the museum visit. On the way back
from Auckland we went down the coast way. We
stopped for a break and there was Tekoteko.
The tutor told me to come for a walk with him and
we watched the Tekoteko. I looked at where the
Pakati had been done.
“Wow, that’s some big Pakati,” I said.
“I’ll show you big Pakati, Eugene,” the tutor said.
He showed me some huge Pakati.
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We headed back to Gisborne.
Over the next few weeks we talked about doing
different drawings with different mediums. Our
tutor was a good man and I enjoyed being taught
by him. I was very vocal about what I thought we
needed to learn and experiment with.
The head tutor called me into his office to have a
chat.
“Eugene,” he began, “You are a very stubborn
man.”
I agreed with him.
“There is one boss round here Eugene and you are
not it. your fierd. What I didn,t no is he had ask the
Gisborne museum to hire me for three years as a
assistant curator for old maori artefacts after
about three years
I left the Museum. I decided to establish my own
business and use all the knowledge and experience
that I had gathered over the years.
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I had a talk to a close friend of mine. He was older
than me and he had seen a lot of the world. He
listened to what I wanted to do, and he agreed to
help me. I also spoke to another friend and he
decided to help me as well, but he went off on his
own not long after he started to help me.
We needed money.
I was walking up town in Hastings one day. I
walked past a business that gave out loans. I went
in there and had a talk to the man about what I
wanted to do.
“I can approve a loan for $20,000,” the man said.
I was ecstatic. I told the others and they were very
happy about it.
The next day I thought about what the business
needed, and I came up with a car. I went
downtown with my friends to buy a vehicle. In
hindsight I believe that I was not ready to control
such a huge sum of money. I thought it was
Christmas.
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I also thought that we could fix up maraes.
I soon found out though that you have to have
some form of business training and instruction
formula. All I had was an idea and a great urge to
achieve it. We brought the car and went around
the Hawke’s Bay visiting a lot of groups to see if
they had any work for us. A lot of the
appointments were missed.
I also wanted to re-establish old buildings. Some
of the groups we visited tried to warn me.
“You are heading for a great fall,” one group
warned.
I thought, humbug and carried on doing what I was
doing. History does not recall the people who fall
down, history recalls the people who stand up
again.
We called our business the Triangle Gallery.
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I thought there was going to be more people who
cared about the upkeep of maraes but there was
not. There was a case of some people not liking me
telling them what they needed to do. They have
been doing it for centuries and who am I to come
along and tell them to do this and that.
Through my whakapapa I do relate to every marae.
This whole business venture taught me that I was
not qualified to run it. I needed to get
qualifications.
Or so I thought’ My life’s experience would allow
me to bring more resources to whatever project I
decided to do.
I think Maoridom have survived from the
beginning of time and will keep surviving. It is the
same with me. I heard a saying once; the idea of a
man is not to survive but to live so I say Maoridom
and myself would be able to live. I think for the
past hundred years, since the Europeans arrived,
Maori have just been surviving.
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I think it is time to live. I do not blame the
Europeans and I never will, but I will say this.
MAORI and MANUHIRI cannot go into the future
without each other.
Manuhiri bring technology to the Maori and the
Maori have always maintained a spirituality. I once
said to someone that the
system can control our minds and bodies, but they
cannot control our spirits. It concerns me that one
culture is trying to dominate another culture and I
thought this when I was
trying to establish business
We had been going to different business and had
many meetings.
I was very stubborn though and thought that my
way was the way it should happen. This is the way
it is, and I do not want to hear any more about it. I
still think that the business idea is a good one.
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I have been told by an elder that I respected a lot
that all of the Maori people came for Hawaiiki and
there are brothers and sisters that are all related to
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DON’T MISTAKE NATURAL PROGRESS
FOR YOUR OVER ALL
GOAL
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another canoe so basically all Maori are all related.
More importantly I believe that we all come from
Iho.
My dream however was about to crash and burn. I
went to the bank one day to withdraw some
money and found that there was no money there.
There is something wrong here I thought.
I later found out that the Napier police had
arrested the man that had given me my loan.
Apparently, he was ripping a lot of people off doing
illegal activities. This devastated me. That night I
went to sleep, and my life changed.
I had a stroke in my sleep. I woke up in hospital a
week later and all of my friends were trying to tell
me that the business had failed. I thought oh well
it was my fault for not putting someone in charge
who knew what they were doing. Little did I know
the business was going to be the least of my
worries.
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I had my stroke in 1993. I did not know what the
stroke was in the beginning.
I could not
understand it. When I first went into hospital, I was
blind in one eye and I could not use my arms.
I could not sit up; I could not move my legs. I could
not speak. I slowly got all that back but not to their
original strength.
I really appreciate what all the people at Hastings
Hospital did for me and I thank everyone who
looked after me when I was in my coma.
I
remember opening my eyes and it would be night.
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The next time I opened them it was daytime. I lost
track of time. I cannot remember how long I was
in the coma.
It was either two weeks or two months. I had
strange dreams while I was in the coma.
One dream I remember was quite vivid. I went into
a room filled with old people. At the other end of
the room there was a door with incredibly intense
bright streaming in from every gap. I went to walk
towards it and although all the old people
did not talk to me, they were all staring at me with
worry. It was as if they were warning me about the
door, that I should leave it alone. They all turned
towards the door I had walked through. I
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turned around and looked at the door I came from
and went towards it and walked through it again.
I will never forget that dream.
When I woke, I remember thinking why did this
have to happen to me? Why after everything that
happened to me in the past. I was crying and
feeling sorry for myself. After an hour I decided
that I was not going to feel sorry for myself. I could
just lie there and complain, or I could work towards
solving my problem.
I stood up because I decided that I was going to
walk home. I got out of bed and collapsed onto the
floor.
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The nurse came in said, “You cannot walk, Eugene.
There is something wrong with your legs.”
I looked at the nurse and thought;
I was walking the other day.
Then the nurse
explained to me that I had a stroke.
After two months in hospital I felt like I had been
put into a room to die. I gave the doctors and
nurses a fright when I sat up. I was not meant to
do this, and everyone had told me that I would not
be able to.
I could see through my eye and I could see that I
had an eye patch on.
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When I first spoke, the doctor jumped. I was sitting
in the dining area and a Maori nurse walked up to
me and said that Maori have to learn the system
now, they have to learn computers. That is the
future.
I was angry. I could not talk, and I could not walk
away. I was thinking in my mind that she had
better get away from me before I attack her. I
yelled out at her and told her to! @#% off and for
someone to take me back to my room. I told her
not to ever talk to me again.
Now that I could talk, I asked the doctor,
“Why have I got this eye patch on?”
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“Because you are blind,” the doctor replied.
“No, I’m not,” I said, and I ripped it off. I could see.
I do have some peripheral disability to my right
eye.
I was not supposed to be able to do anything. I was
told that there is a 99% chance I will not recover
and a 1% chance I will.
“You can concentrate on the 99%,” I told the
doctors, “I will concentrate on the 1%.”
I think it helps to have an open mind. Society
believes that you can only go so far but if you
believe you can do better, you will. The stroke
changed me. Before the stroke I was very arrogant
and stubborn, and I would not listen to anyone.
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I had a temper before my stroke but after the
stoke, my temper had faded almost to nothing.
The stroke forced me to look within myself. I think
that is key with life, looking inside yourself and
finding strength there but that is the only place you
can get it. The difficulties you have, and I faced
many, also come from inside and you have two
choices. Talk, or look within.
Talking was difficult in the beginning. Sometimes I
thought I was talking aloud to people, but I was
talking in my mind. Once I began to talk again, the
doctors and nurses were concerned that I could
not move my right arm. My right arm had virtually
no movement in it and sometimes I went
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completely numb and I could not feel it at all.
A doctor poked it with a needle one day.
I grabbed him by the scruff of the neck and said, “If
you do that again, I’ll stick the needle up your
arse.”
When I got into a wheelchair, I kept falling out of it
because I had no control of my equilibrium.
They put a table in front of me, so I would not fall
forward but sometimes I slid down my chair. After
I while thought I was able to sit up by myself. The
wheelchair was a high back one so that my back
muscles would stay inline and to hold my head up.
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There is a very obvious disconnection with some
doctors and nurses. They, not all of them I’ll add,
regard you as a piece of meat. An experiment that
they can do what the wish to. They can be quite
negative as well. I was told that I would never be
able to stand up. It took me a while, but I can now
stand up. When I stood up, they told me that I
would not be able to walk again.
They seem to wait until you achieve something and
then they tell you that you cannot do something
else. I started walking with the aid of bars.
I owe thanks to some of the doctors in Ward 11,
they helped me a lot. I have concluded that the
reasons why I am talking, why my arm is moving,
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THE FUTURE CAN ALWAYS BE PREDICTED
IN THE PRESENCE WHEN YOU USE THE
PAST AS A TEMPLATE.
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why I can stand up and move my legs is because of
them. I have never forgotten them and one day
I’m going to help them. I don’t know how I will help
them, but I will.
I was not also a pleasant patient for them. There
was another nurse who I just clashed with.
I think we were too much alike, like two bulls
meeting in a paddock. I have a lot of respect for
her. She took no crap from me. I used to mimi the
bed on purpose just so that nurses would come in.
When they were changing the sheets, I used to
laugh at them. This nurse had enough of me.
After I had wet the bed one day, she came in and
said, “If you want to keep pissing the bed you can
stay in it all night. I’m not going to change it and
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no one else is going to change it. We’re sick of
changing your bed as we don’t need to as we have
more important things to do.”
That was the best medicine for me. From that
night onwards, I never wet the bed again.
There are some situations that I am very capable of
controlling but sometimes I need someone to grab
the bull by the horns, sit me down and tell me what
is right and what is wrong. After a while I got used
to the doctors and nurses and they got used to me.
I still used to test them though. I would try and get
out of bed by myself. The nurses would growl me.
“You have to wait for us, Eugene,” they’d say, “Or
we will get in trouble.”
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I did not want them to get into trouble. They were
only doing their jobs. I waited for them to come to
me. They did realise that I was the type of patient
who did not want to be waited on.
If I fell out of my wheelchair, I wanted to get
myself back in there by myself at first. I wanted to
try first without help. The nurses soon learnt to let
me try and help myself first and I will be forever
grateful for that.
I was moved down to the rehabilitation unit and
was told that there was a lot of rehabilitation
ahead for me.
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After a short stay in Gisborne, I moved to back to
the Hawke’s Bay. I lived with my cousin and her
two children. This was never going to work, and I
did not want to be a baby sister. I applied to Napier
City Council for a flat. One had been vacated the
day before and I’m still in that flat, 24 years later.
In Napier, there was a physiotherapist there who
used to work me hard. I was made to move all the
muscles in my body that I would need for basic
functioning. While this was good, I realised that if
I was ever going to get out of this wheelchair it was
going to be up to me.
I had been listening to people telling me to do this
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and do that for a long time. It was time for me. I
think it was better if I work myself out. There were
people who said that I was working myself too
hard, but I know how hard I can push myself. I
realised that if I was going to get anywhere with
the physical side of things, I would need to sort out
the mental stuff and that is where the Hawke’s Bay
Polytechnic came in.
The disability officer there at the time, Suzie
Chapman is a very hard worker. She knew her job
well and had the capacity to empathize, not
sympathies and my needs.
It does not pay to
sympathize. We had a good combination. She had
her skills and I had my skills and we bonded
and I flourished.
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I found out a lot about my stroke. It is called a Brain
Stem Stroke. This affected my whole right aide and
my talking. It was strong stroke. I learnt a lot about
different parts of my body.
I took all this
knowledge and put it to the back of my mind and
used to help in my recovery at home.
I caught up with a good friend of mine when I got
home, and he said, “In the end, bro, it’s up to you.
No one else can do it for you.”
I’ve always remembered that. At home I did a lot
of thinking and training. I do not see the stroke as
a negative thing. I see it as positive. Let me
explain.
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If you end up in a wheelchair you start to
appreciate the little things in life and you start to
understand how important they are. Like walking
for example. I learnt to appreciate everything alive
and appreciate being above ground. I started to
observe things around me in close detail. I now
look closely at how I conduct myself around
people. I sit and observe now.
I don’t have the energy to be angry anymore. My
recovery is not impossible. All my life I have faced
impossible odds and I have overcome them.
This is no different. I can’t help being that way; it
is my stubbornness, the way I was born. One
important thing I noticed was that when I got
home, I found that my determination had
increased
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a hundred times. This was because I was away
from people who were overly negative, from
people who are too quick to accept things.
My training at home was going well. I learnt what
muscles to work to aid in my recovery and I
attacked them hard. The Community
Physiotherapist helped me.
She used to come around and ask if I wanted to go
back to the hospital, but I told her politely that I felt
that I would benefit more training by myself.
I just focused on walking and recovering. I needed
to help myself before I could help others. I will not
just laze around and be stagnating. I need to be
moving, physically and mentally.
Writing this book had helped me mentally, it had
taken a lot of my energy. Although it had drained
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me, I want to write another one, because it will
show my progress.
I believe that everybody in Aotearoa has the
potential for progress. I think to finalize things or
to say this is all would be a waste of time. Wasting
time makes Life is short.
HAVING A STROKE IS LIKE BECOMING A BABY
AGAIN. Basically, in the past, and that goes for any
human being, your brain had to learn how to
control your muscles and your muscles had to be
made to co-operate. this lesson must be relearnt
after a stroke. I believe that the exercises taught
to me by the hasting’s rehabilitation unit were
correct but did not go far enough.
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As you grow up and you notice a child that shows
an interest in a certain area, and if that interest
coincides with your belief that I think it is
important that you help that child along by offering
them advice. Recovery from any situation I think
that when adults tell a child that they are this and
that, it hinders their development. I think that
people push their opinions on children too much.
Ego is the main cause of that. When a person tells
another person something there are all sorts of
emotions to contend with – such an ego.
My major problem was ego. I was arrogant as
well, which is a bad combination.
Ego and
arrogance are important, as are all the emotions
and I think that each emotion in the human body
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should not be ignored.
All emotions were put
there for a reason and you have to find a way to
control these emotions.
I found the control of my emotions when I had my
stroke. I don’t know if the way I was brought up
and because of the stroke intended to happen but
it taught me one thing. Never give up. One thing
my life taught me was how to survive, even if There
is always something positive in the spiritual place.
I firmly believe that society may be able to control
my body and my mind and change it, but society
can never touch my soul. It will always be Iho’s
domain. My soul will be Maori and that will never
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change, not until Iho changes it. A friend of mine
told me this once.
He said,
“Bro, Maori have died in the past and Maori are
dying now but throughout history Maoridom has
never died and only Iho can remember because Iho
is the one who put us here.”
Before I start sounding hairy-fairy, I want to
stabilize what I have put in this chapter.
When all else starts to fail around you in your life,
turn to your Whakapapa {genealogy}and that will
inevitably lead you to Iho.
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Whakapapa is important.
I have heard some
people call it rubbish but I belief that they are
wrong, and I will explain why. I thought about
what this person says, and I thought that if
Whakapapa was a load of rubbish then who does
this person answer to? He answers to the mayor
of the area, the mayor answers to the Prime
Minister and the Prime Minister answers to the
Queen. Then I thought how the Queen got to her
post and it is through her Whakapapa.
With my newfound acceptance of life’s
differences, I became a calmer person. I was not
as quick to become angry.
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NEVER LET YOUR
IMAGINATION
CONTROL YOUR
MIND
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I began to understand a lot more things.
I am for instance, far more appreciative of the
European influence on the people whether they
are Maori, European, Islander or whatever. Now
whether we Maori agree with Europeans or not,
the reality is that they have brought us other
countries to communicate with. What we do not
have is our own self-preservation. We as a people
can and will survive because of the determination
is with us. I am not just talking about Maori people;
I am talking about all people in Aotearoa. We, the
people of Aotearoa have the capability to be a
leading society in any part of the world.
We as a people should not be dictated by the past.
Firstly, we do not need war.
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Surely, we as a people have evolved to a point
where are intelligent enough to find alternatives to
war. Now, different races are protesting against
their oppressors. In the past, there have been
people who have stood up against oppression. I do
not believe in this. What I believe in is adjusting
within society. This makes oppression a non-issue.
I am positive that we, as people of Aotearoa will
find a way to settle our differences without
violence.
There are certain groups of people I
would say that it would be good to leave any
negative energy in the 1900’s.
We are an
intelligent race but constantly relieving the past is
not intelligent at all.
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Now that I am a bit older, I look back at how I was
when I was younger. I compare myself with the
young people of today. I had a lot of energy when
I was younger, but I wasted it all.
We must teach the youth to use their energy wisely
and more positively.
Maori stress the development of our people but
constant referral to the past is hindering our
progress. There is always oppression in the past,
that was the way humans were back then. Our
people, meaning all our people, everyone in
Aotearoa were oppressed.
Then there is the issue about someone being here
before our people came but I think this.
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Whoever came before us, became part of us just as
we will become a part of people who will come
after us. We, all the people of Aotearoa need to
stop pushing and be as one. We need to go into
the future together, as one people.
Our future is dependent on our children.
As I said at the beginning of the chapter, we must
encourage children. Every child has the potential
to be purely good or to be purely bad and which
way they go is a direct result of presence or lack of
encouragement. Our children are the future. We
must make sure that there are clean, fresh areas of
opportunity for our children.
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In this country there are Tangatawhenua and there
are Kiwis’ throughout the world that have made
themselves well known and this makes me smile.
This must happen. It is incredibly important for all
people of Aotearoa. I pray that our people find a
peaceful resolution rather than an aggressive one
and adjust to the political environment.
I remember a saying. It’s time to put aside the old
ways. This is true, but you don’t put them aside too
far because you never know when you might need
the old ways.
People in the past were very aggressive but some
people of the present are passive and intelligent.
We need to find a balance between the past and
the future.
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We cannot still run around in maro, we wear
clothes. We can no longer travel in a Waka; we
have cars now. There are good things on both
sides, all the negatives in both tangatawhenua and
Kiwi culture must put under control. We should
not keep on disagreeing about the old ways or old
troubles.
We need to go forward with the positives or
Aotearoa. There are people reading this part and
think that I am talking about just
TANGATAWHENUA, but I am talking about KIWI to.
Both WHENUA and IWI
cultures have so much to offer.
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These cultures have the capability to live as
partners alongside one another rather than one
culture dominating over the other. We have a lot
to offer each other. We must work hard for one
another, for our country, for Aotearoa.
For our future.
For our individual futures.
I do not know what the future holds for us I pray
that it is good and everlasting.
I want us to
continue to learn, to grow and develop. I want to
see Aotearoa become a great country for all of us.
I wish for all of us to continue to learn and grow. I
have learnt a lot of the different aspects of
Maoridom over the years.
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I have learnt to respect and appreciate the
different parts. I have learnt to use the taiaha and
am currently on level four. I have learnt a lot about
Maori art and will continue to do so.
We must take heed of ourselves. Remember that
your actions are driven by your thoughts, past
thoughts represent your current performance and
current thoughts represent your future
performance. It is good to know where we come
from and look at where we want to go in the
future, regardless of how frightening it may be. A
favourite saying of mine is, ‘A man who fears
suffering is already suffering from what he fears.’
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In conclusion, we as a people need to take a
serious look at ourselves and honestly assess
where we want to go, how we want to grow, what
country we want to be. We all need to pull out
fingers out. We need to seek happiness, accept
one another as people of Aotearoa and grow as
one and laugh. Happiness is the key. Laugh and
the world laughs with you,cry it,s good but when
you cry to long
you cry alone.
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I LOOK AT MISTAKES, LIKE ROOTS OF A BIG TREE, TO
MANY ROOTS IN THE SUN AND THE TREE WILL DIE. JUST
ENOUGH
AND YOU HAVE A POTENTIAL FOR A FOREST
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modern medical intervention. I am not saying do
not use modern medicine what I am saying is
that there is another option to healing.
Recovering from a stroke to me is more like an
adventure. It is something that is unknown to
modern socity. People refer to a stroke as a
negative thing. I don’t. I look at it as a positive
warning that it is time to start paying attention to
your wellbeing.
What I believe is that all the resources required
to recover from any sickness beset upon the
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human race are here available on this earth. It
is my belief that there are many cures, but it is
up to us as individuals to find them.
The spiritual part of the human makeup is an
area that throughout this book I will touch on
because spirituality holds the mind and the body
together. Meditation is a good way to get in
contact with your spirituality. Now do not get me
wrong. I am not saying that all of a sudden you
should become heavily involved in religions and I
am not knocking them either as they have a place
in life. Meditation calms you down and helps you
to focus clearly. Once you become more focus
you become more aware of what going on
around us. Subliminal messaging is a good way
to advertise positive energy
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SUBLIMINAL
I first became aware of the word Subliminal when I
was reading a book about Subliminal Learning. The
way I understand it is, for example, you are watching
TV for an hour and an advertisement for an apple
appears every ten minutes. The next day you walk past
a corner shop and you see apples advertised. You walk
into the shop and buy an apple, but you do not know
why. That is Subliminal Advertising in action.
The COLLINS COLOUR POCKET DICTIONARY
quotes
“Subliminal”: -
Relating to mental processing of which the individual is
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not
aware
The author believes we have a subliminal future
together as
one people
EXOTERIC
INTENDED FOR OR LIKELY TO BE
UNDERSTOOD BY THE GENERAL PUBLIC
ESOTERIC
Answers.com is the place where I got the information.
It is an online dictionary
intended for or understood by only a particular group:
(“Esoteric," means not generally known or relevant;
private; obscure; or abstruse”)
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My art tutor at the Gisborne Polytechnic, before he
passed
Inspired me, it was the first time I heard the word
Esoteric
MEDITATION
When you learn to meditate start off in a quiet
room breathing in through your nose and out
through your mouth. Do this for approximately
four or five times and begin to relax your whole
body. Close your eyes and what will happen is
that all your thoughts from your past and from
the present will race into your mind. The idea is
not to focus on the many thoughts just let them
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flow when a thought comes into your mind let it
pass through your mind do not think about it.
What will happen is, that over a period of time
you will learn not to focus on those
thoughts coming into your mind and let them
pass. Now this whole process will not happen
overnight but in meditating you must start
somewhere. Once you have control of this
process of allowing thoughts to come and go out
of your mind it
allows you to follow through with “in with
positive energy, out with unusual energy”. For
the rest of your life hold this quote in your mind.
Now it is important to remember that this whole
process of meditation does not come to most
people overnight.
But it does come, it just takes a little time and
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patience basically with you. It is important to
realize at this point you are not the centre of the
universe you are part of the universe. This is an
important thing to realize that you are part of the
environment not the environment being part of
you.
With the process I have just explained, it will
definitely help you meditate. I am sick of reading
all about meditation through mediation books
and they forever talk about the process of
mediation but not how to meditate.
You will notice while you are beginning the
mediation process that your mind and thoughts
will become more controlled. Everything you do
will become clear and controlled all that remains
to do now is just to do it. I was once told to get
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into deep mediation,
meditate from midnight to early in the morning
or till whatever time you are comfortable finishing
at. In the end all meditation process is up to you
the individual, I can show you how to fix once
broken but in the end it’s your decision.
When you have a stroke as far as I understand,
I have talked about before, there are three
components that you need to be aware of. The
Mind, the Body, the Soul. Now, the three
components are quite brilliant actually, because
in order to function properly each component
must be fully receptive, to each component full
potential,
When you break it down the mind is also made
up of three mental components: the conscious
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the subconscious and subconsciousness. The
body is made up of 7 components: spirituality,
mentality, touch, smell, sight, hearing,
centrifugal equilibria balance.
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RECOVERY IS NOT THE ERADICATION OF
YOUR SETBACK IT IS THE CAPABILITY TO
PROGRESS REGARDLESS OF YOUR SETBACK
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SPIRITUALTY, EUPHORIA ASTROPHYSICS
REINCARNATION NATURAL UNIVERSE
You have been ignoring your spiritualty
For so long. In order to look for your spirituality
just hang a string from a high
Branch and steer at it I bet it will move
You see your spirit never leaves you
Even when you ignore it. The euphoria remains
Astrophysics the physical and astronomical
coalition between the universal and the
Physical environment
Reincarnation I call reincarnation a physical
Aspect of genealogy. Through reincarnation and
Genealogy what was here a billion years ago is
here now. But in a different form and still related.
The natural universe. It is important to realise
that you are part of the universe not the
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center. The natural universe does not require
force When a young plant grows and it comes
to a rock block in its path, it does not go
straight through the rock but it goes around it.
Using force to achieve anything in nature, to
me is wrong.You must allow anything to grow
naturally. It is beneficial if you respect the
natural path of nature. In order to understand
the natural process of the universe, you must
first understand how we are all a part of the
natual universe.
MENTALITY
Environmental Influence
Emotions are directly connected to the immune
system when you have a stroke. What happens
is, that all your emotions and environmental
influences are affected. So, the idea is to heal all
the components of the brain, which are
based on your environmental influences. Once
you realise how your environmental influence
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affects you, you can begin to heal from your
stroke. I do not look at a stroke as a negative
thing or positive thing I look at it as a warning.
The word emotion basically I was told by a friend
of mine that the word emotion
breakdown to energy in motion. So when you
have a stroke the energy in the human body is
affected and so in order to recover you need to
reactivate them again like most people aren’t
aware that every human being on this planet has
had a stroke before, when they were a baby,
none of your facilities were working
properly and over a period of time when you train
the affected area, what happens is that area
begins responding, now the human body is made
up of billions and billions of nerves, your stroke
stops certain nerves from working so it’s my idea
that we should reactivate other nerves. As I
explain about the man in the beginning of
the chapter who had a gigantic cancer on his
brain, and all the Drs had done was rechanneled
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all the blood from his heart to another part of the
brain so what happened to the gigantic cancer
blockage was it died because it was no longer
getting fed any energy. So, to me that is also the
same as a stroke you rechannelled your
energy of wherever you had a stroke, you
rechannelled your energy so what happens your
body begins to heal itself.
Of course, this is only a theory, it remains a
theory until you achieve something with your
idea. I have talked in the past about
asymmetrical exercises, along with the physical
exercises. You must be aware that the physical
body is based on exercises that are simplicity. I
learnt off a friend of mine that at the end of the
day that the simplest exercise seems to last the
longest but be the most beneficial for you. When
recovering you can’t help it but be aware of the
mental boundaries, now the mind is made up of
many different emotions, one person
recommended that you push all your emotions
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down, which I don’t agree with. What I say is
that you be aware of all your emotions that come
out and that you rise above it, the thing is with
emotions you must learn that they don’t
control you, you control them. You can only
control them from the position of clarity and the
only way to gain clarity is to rise above it. The
thing is we are made up of many different
emotions the thing is, I do not believe that we
should target any one emotion, we should be
aware we are human beings that have many
emotions and trying to push them down only
allows them to come out at inappropriate times,
and within yourself you may feel you’re in control
of them, but what happens is that you may be in
control of what’s in front of you but all of your
friends will wonder what the hell are you on
about. My point is that you might be able to
rise above everything you can guarantee that
emotions are going to arise at any time in your
life
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and you might be able to rise above it all, it’s like
a stroke, you need to rise above it to recover
from a stroke you rise above it naturally. The
thing is that people need to
realise that everyone on the planet has had a
stroke before except they didn’t know that when
you were a baby you couldn’t control your arms,
legs or even your head. Then eventually these
components become stronger and coordinated
centrifugal equilibrium now centrifugal I need to
break the word down recovery from a stroke I
believe that your centrifugal energy is all
uncoordinated, so firstly you need to understand
what centrifugal energy is (Centrifugal energy is
when you go around a corner in a car & the car
goes up on 2 wheels on the side the point where
the car does not flip & the car falls back onto 4
wheels again that
point is called centrifugal energy).
Equilibrium is the energy that prevents you from
falling forward or falling back or sideways that
point is called equilibrium, so when I say when
you have a stroke centrifugal equilibrium is all out
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of whack thanks to the stroke, then you need to
put it all back in alignment again. Use
your avenues that you used to use in the past
have all changed now. Not made better but just
made different. The human body has many
nerves that are not being used. Whether or not
they were used for purpose in the beginning of
time I don’t know & I don’t care. All I know and
all I believe is that any sickness that hinders the
human race I believe that there is a cure, now
when you believe in Iho (god of the universe or
the universe or reincarnation, to me I believe that
they’re all right. I believe that they all have a
positive contribution to make to all humankind.
Now the thing I’ve learnt about Environmental
Influences is that your
surrounding affects the way you think, but in the
end, you initially understand that you make the
choice as to which direction in your life you will
take, basically the effort you put into life is the
effort you get back. I’ve always believed that we
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initially make the decision which way your
environmental influence affects you. So,
once you are aware that this is happening to you,
you can now begin to make the changes to your
mind. I look at all the many emotions that
humankind have to deal with which is why you
begin to see why it’s important to rise above it
all, when you push all your emotions down or tied
up by your emotions what’s going to
happen is that you are going to be controlled by
any negative emotions that come your way, so
you see the importance as I’ve said before rising
above it all what is natural is rising above
something that isn’t natural is being swallowed
up by something by your emotion. Once you
understand that, you start to realise that your
mind, body and soul cannot function without
each other, we were born with a mind, body and
soul and when we die science has proven that
the human body all of a sudden loses weight, I
believe the reason it loses weight is the soul
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leaves the body. I’ve had enough of
talking, now to exercises for the mind which I
have put together. I want to prove to everyone
that is reading this book that spirituality is a very
real thing! First hang a piece of cotton from the
roof and make sure there’s no wind or anything
around, and then sit about a couple meters from
it and then stare at it & clear your
mind think of nothing at all and I bet you it will
move!! That is your spirit that is a part of you and
until you die it will always be a part of you. Once
you have established that yes you do have a spirit
then you need to retrain the mind & the body,
you see the spirit is based on belief the mind and
the body are based on mental & physical
attributes.
When people question me about my belief, I
think to myself: I believe America is a good place.
Although I’ve never been there, I believe it’s a
good place, it could be said that spirituality is a
good place although we can’t see it.
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TRAINING THE MIND
I learnt a long time ago about how to clear the
mind, I visited at the lake at the early stage of
my life, and it was a very peaceful calm area that
I went to. One day I woke up about 5am in the
morning and I went to have a look outside my
camp, and I looked at the lake it was a very
calm day and the lake understands look to me
like a gigantic piece of glass, reflecting the sky
and I sat down and watched the lake for about
an hour and the whole time my mind became
clear I was no longer concerned about the past
or the future I was just focused on the present.
This is what I believe to be the thing to do
when you have had a lot of confusion in your life
just sit down and allow all your thoughts to pass
through mind now the only way your thoughts
can stay in your mind is to think about them,
however if you don’t think about them they will
just pass through your mind. Now don’t get me
wrong it doesn’t happen overnight,
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ut it does happen, it takes practice. The thing is
what you start discovering that all of a sudden
the thoughts that have been controlled by you,
while you’re realizing this time goes by you begin
to realise you are actually in control of your
thoughts now this not the time to start patting
yourself on the back you should never
do that. In this case it is very real pride comes
before a fall, so, we now we understand that as
far as mentality goes we are beginning to control
the mind so to see the importance of not pushing
your emotions down the mentality you have to
retrain your mind when you recover from a stroke
the last thing you want to do is
put barriers on your belief system, you see I have
always believed that there is no limit in
limitations, I’ve heard somebody say to me that
that sentence doesn’t make sense that to me it’s
only because they don’t understand what it
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means basically to me if you train the body
correctly and properly that there’s no limit to
what you can or could do. The thing is that the
mind goes in partnership with the body I don’t
believe that one dominants the other when the
body gets sick the mind adjusts when the mind
gets sick the body adjusts, I think the only
setback is we are willing to accept to easily that
the body and the mind have gone far enough
but I don’t agree. You see we are in a wonderous
time where we are learning to stretch our
imagination, I believe that can also happen when
we recover from a stroke.
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After I had the stroke, I was crying for
Months, then one day I just stopped. It’s
Like everything in my life just aligned.
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I BELIEVE IN THE CONSCIOUS,
THE SUB CONSCIOUS
AND SUBCONSCIOUSNESS
THE CONSCIOUS JUST TAKES INFORMATION IN,
IT DOES NOT ANALYSE GOOD FROM BAD INFORMATION
THE SUBCONSCIOUS ANALYSES GOOD AND
BAD IN LIFE WHAT EVER SIDE OF LIFE YOU
DECIDE ON THAT IS YOUR CHOICE.
ALWAYS REMEMBER IN LIFE THERE’S GOOD AND
BAD ONCE YOU ANALYSE THE GOOD AND BAD
JUST LIVE
SUBCONSCIOUSNESS IS WHERE THE CONSCIOUS AND THE
SUBCONSCIOUS MEET AND REALIZE THEIR PLACE IN THE
UNIVERSAL ENVIRONMENT, ALWAYS
REMEMBER YOU ARE A PART OF THE UNIVERSAL
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STROKE ISOMETRIC TRAINING
I was watching television one day and saw a program about
a man who had the doctors overcome his problem of a
gigantic cancerous tumour on the brain. The doctors
operated on this person and by passed the cancerous
tumour so the energy coming from the brain went to the
rest of the body instead. So, what happened was,
because the tumour was no longer getting any attention,
the tumour died. So, I was thinking that this could happen
with a stroke. Why not bypass the affected area and create
exercises that develop muscle strength? Or in other words,
isometric exercises. You don’t develop muscle, you develop
strength. You require muscle in
order to reach the full potential of your strength. When you
build bulky muscle, you get 80% muscle and 20% fat. When
you do isometric exercises, you get 100% strength. But you
must constantly stretch your muscles – stretch your arms
and stretch your legs. Before you attempt recovery first you
need to believe that it is possible, and that belief is your
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very first start of recovery. You see I look at it this way, all
of the information to recover is all around us we just
weren’t paying attention basically we weren’t sick but now
we are. So, recovery is simply being aware of your
environment, now to be aware of 100% of your
environment you need to have the
belief that you can recover now there are going to be
people that are going to suggest that you will not recover, I
look at it like the opposite of positive energy. Recovery is
basically up to you, as for any other energy I really don’t
care. To me recovery from a stroke is focusing on the
positive after your life you have had positive and
negative energy surrounding you. All I’m saying is that
being in treatment in the end it’s up to you as to how far
you recover, like this book I can give you information on
how I’ve recovered but in the end its really up to you!!. In
any exercise it is important to relax first.
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Relaxing
- Relax your brain
- Relax your body in the following steps
start with your toes, then your feet
moving upwards to relax your calf muscles
focus on your knees and everything from your knees to
your toes should be relaxed
Then move up higher and relax your thigh muscles
Move on to the hamstring and the glute muscles
Now think about your side muscles
Move on to the relaxing of your chest muscles, your
abdominal muscles
Now relaxing your arms, starting with your shoulders,
your upper arm muscles like biceps and triceps
Move down to your elbows and forearms
Then relax all your muscles in your wrist, hands and
fingertips
Now relax your spine from your neck down to your
tailbone, along with your back muscles
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concentrate to relax the top of your neck and around
your chin
Move on to your ears and the top of your head.
Imagine now the relaxation of your whole body
Then think again about relaxing your brain and go to your
eyes and nose
Imagine relaxing your entire mouth and your chin
One more thing about your brain
At last, imagine there is a light going around your whole
body and then straight up to the universe! For most of
your life you’ve been ignoring your spirituality, if you
can’t
overcome the setback which I believe you called a stroke,
you’re going to need all three elements of the
astrophysical mental body Intune with each other, the
moment you start to think that what you’re doing is not
beneficial to you, your recovery becomes limited. I’ve
always believed that as a well-known martial artist has
always believed there’s no limit in limitation. One thing
that should be noted about the saying it does not mean
that whatever you do is ok, you need to understand the
difference between common sense and stupidity. Every
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saying has a limit hence forth so does this saying. The
thing is that recovery from a stroke using this method is
a whole new idea, I think that what the religious deity
seems to say as to put your belief in faith and in regard
to recovery from a stroke you have to have faith. I’ve
always believed that Iho (God in English) would
always provide a way but in the end it’s up to you as the
individual. Every recovery from any sickness has a
starting point this is a whole new method of recovery,
and the starting point seem to be faith. We focus on
spirituality long enough now focus on the physical. Sit
on the floor, with your legs apart, lean forward most
people in the beginning they can’t go right down and
that’s fair enough don’t rush it! All you need to do is get
your body used to the new movement. As you progress
you learn to stretch your arms out as far as possible, after
about a week of doing this getting your body used to the
movement the idea is to stretch out
far enough so that your chin touches the floor, do not do
this straight away build up to this. A Hand Massager that
you can buy from various stores which costs about
$20.00 the thing about this contraption you buy you
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need to massage your body after every workout it’s like
tempering steel you need to heat it then let it
cool or better example like a rubber you stretch it out
then allow it to go back to its original shape. Over a
period of time the muscle will become more adjusted to
the stresses that it’s gone through due to your stroke. So,
you see the method I have just talked about is something
to remember when you begin stretching. Now the
second movement is to grab a hold of your foot.
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If you are going to start recovery from a stroke you need to stand
up. On page 174 demonstrates the type of machine you require
now this is the basic idea of the machine, but you can use your
own imagination and find your own way to stand. Basically, if you
are going to recover from a stroke you need to create the idea
where the blood flows throughout the whole body, the more you
stand and exercise and move your legs while you are standing the
benefit you get from standing and moving your legs will
eventually enable you to function properly. Another exercise that
you could do while you are standing is put yourself in a sitting
position lower yourself down and hold for at least 50seconds
stand up and rest if you feel tired have a sit down for a while to
rest. It is no good doing any exercise if you are tired. The third
exercise stand up on your machine and tiptoe and hold yourself
up for 50 seconds basically you also need to grip both handles
with both arms and pull your knees upwards to your chest then
down repeat these 50 times. The Strider Machine you walk
naturally and after doing that for a couple of weeks your legs
become stronger. One thing I’ve learnt to do is to put my
footplate in the cupboard as I don’t use it anymore, I use my legs
to keep the blood flowing.
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HOW CAN YOU FIND A CURE IF YOU’RE FOCUSED
ON THE SICKNESS?
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When I was in hospital I noticed a lot of the patients who had had
a stroke had more of a potbelly stomach, and they weren’t using
their legs, so they would become more reliant on the wheelchair,
and I thought to myself what a load of humbug! So, the idea is to
create an exercise that specifically targets the middle of the body,
The back of the body and the sides of the body. So, I got a
machine that is called an Ab crunch so if you learn to use it
properly I’ve put some pictures of some exercises you need to do,
the exercises are you need to do side pullups which you can do on
the ab crunch machine. The thing that’s good about it is its hard
at first but after a while it actually gets quite easy, and the thing
that’s good about the ab crunch it’s the type of machine once you
learn to use it properly you develop your body into more of a V
shape rather than a D shape. I look at what happened to me as an
adventure to recovery. I gave up being sad about it a long time
ago basically all the equipment is there to recover. I don’t mean
to be stubborn I prefer to be determined and I do believe using
the 2 machines that I just explained to you will help you to
achieve your goal.
People may look at this book and may say, this person is not
focusing on one thing at a time. I disagree, I focus on recovery just
it isn’t in order. I know, what needs to be done in order to
recover. Things may not happen in order but as long as the
information is contained in one book, your recovery is possible.
Throughout the book I touched on different subjects. I believe in
physical, mental and spiritual body. We in the past have focused
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on all tree, but we believe in only two: the physical and mental
and forget about the spiritual.
Having had a major stroke, unknowingly spirituality becomes as
important as the physical and mental body. And in this instance, I
talk about Meditation.
I think that Meditation is as important as the physical and mental
body. Training the physical and mental body you must begin to
learn how to solve mental problems. E.g. I have now taken up
chess, which I play on my PC. Everybody who sees me play says:
You keep losing! My response is that the chess board and PC are
giving me other ways to solve problems. At the end of the day, if it
comes to winning or losing, I am the one who turns off the power.
A friend of mine once said (and I respect his opinion): that on the
chess board the most important piece is the pawn. It’s the only
piece that can be changed for another piece. In my opinion the
most important in the game is the person. Because without a
person there wouldn’t be a game in the first place.
You see, being in a wheelchair, I keep exercising my mind and pit
together physical exercises and I do believe that with this I have
shown you early in the book that my training will give you 100%
strength. I do exercises that differ from those shown to me by
Ather agency.
DIET PLAN
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PEAS AND CORN
(FOR THE WHOLE BODY)
WHITE PORRIDGE / MILK OATS
(LINING THE STOMACH)
CAULIFLOWER
(FOR THE BRAIN AND MEMORY)
BROCCOLI
FOR THE WHOLE BODY AND ESPECIALLY THE BLOODSTREAM)
CORIANDER
(BALANCES YOUR CHOLESTEROL)
MINT
(HEALTHY DIGESTIVE SYSTEM)
CELERY
(MIGRAINE AND KIDNEYS)
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CHAMOMILE TEA
WATER
COLLOIDAL SILVER
LOW FAT MILK
(Recommended to drink as I found it is good for your bones).
BANANAS
(x2 per week to replace lose energy).
Lavonda tea and oil helps you relax not rest relax
What I have put together is a meal plan that I have been doing
myself for the past 20 years and it basically everybody is different,
this diet plan works for me. As other people may have a different
diet plan that works for them. The diet plan that I have put together
I think that you need to replace a lot of energy that in the past you
have taken for granted, the diet plan that I have put
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together does 2 things replaces any inefficiencies that you have had
in the past with your diet plan and it replaces the nervous system
relating to the brain and the rest of the body. You see since I’ve
begun my own diet and own training, I’ve started to get a positive
reaction from different nerves in the body, what I mean is the
nerves that were a long time asleep are now awake as I have said
in the past this is a whole new method of healing the body that the
diet plan I’ve put together as I’ve stated is a whole new method,
but I do believe combined with the
diet plan that I’ve put together and the exercises I’ve put together
you’ll get a positive result.
Pull your arm in across your chest holding your arm at the elbow.
Hold for 50 seconds. Repeat exercise with the other arm.
Isometric resistance training without weights.
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Put your right hand on the right side of your head, then push your
head against your hand. This will strengthen the muscles on the left
side of your neck. Hold for up to 50sec. Repeat on the other side.
Place both hands on your forehead and hold, while pushing your
head forward. This will strengthen the muscles in the back of your
neck. Hold for up to 50 sec.
Then place both hands on the back of your head and hold, while
pushing your head against the resistance. This will strengthen your
muscles in the front of your neck.
Exercise not shown:
Put your hands-on top of your head and hold, while pushing your
head upward against your hands. This will strengthen your whole
anatomy.
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Failure is something you see when
You take your eyes off your goal
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TKTL CO-ORDINATOR
My goal is to establish a Tangata Whenua base to help all people disable or not. The
idea is aimed at people who already have their own plan.
The organization does not want to become a part of any Government agency or any
other business
The TKTL are going to promote long-term employment for those registered under
the umbrella of the Board.
The TKTL will give individual groups the resources to establish their own vocation.
I have been in a wheelchair for 25 years due to a stroke and during that time have
formulated a system which I believe has been beneficial to my recovery.
My purpose has been to share this with other people who have similar situations. I
have therefore written a book which is part autobiography and part stroke recovery.
My intention is to self-edit this book with support. I have in the past submitted my
manuscript to an Editor who said the concept was interesting, but it needed work. I
am keen to continue with this project and to develop my business concept.
Other information including my Whakapapa (genealogy) and a template of my
book is on this web site.
tktlnz@outlook.com.
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TKT
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TKTL
PROGRAMME
AIMS
To provide, engage and employ Auditors,
Secretaries, Treasurers, Solicitors, Agents, and
Tradesmen or any other person for carrying out the
Aim\Objectives of the TKTLNZ progmme or Board
To promote long-term employment for those
registered under the umbrella of TKTL.
To provide an economic base for small businesses.
To own venues placed within the geographical
boundary of TKTL.
To guarantee the payments of money based on
performance, obligations and conditions.
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To financially assist or give credit to any person,
persons, or any company, estate, or trust.
To give support of all kinds to those who need it, on
behalf of the TKTL.
OBJECTIVES
To maintain or repair all equipment belonging to
TKTL.
To establish office and administration support for
those registered with the TKTL.
To create a communication outlet for registered
networks, with TKTL this will provide employment
opportunities.
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To establish a base for different groups to network
business ideas.
To establish support for the physically disabled. By
creating a more user-friendly environment within
the TKTL venues.
SHORT TERM GOALS
Form an executive Board, independent from any
agency
Create means of independent funding
Establish private funding contacts
Establish a new independent venue
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The executive will Delegate a manager from the
TKTL executive board
To oversee the day-to-day administration needs of
the venue staff
The manager will prepare weekly reports for the
executive board
To discuss at weekly meetings
LONG - TERM GOALS
The TKTL will establish a functional umbrella where
registered networks can apply for financial funding
assistance.
The TKTL will maintain a high level of business
relations both nationally and internationally.
The individual groups registered with the TKTL will
have established business enterprises with
assistance from the TKTL staff.
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The TKTL will establish a premium bank flow for
Insurance against any loses.
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MISSION STATEMENT
To promote well-being of those registered with
TKTL.
Spiritually! Physically! Mentally!
By creating an opportunity for long term
employment, and a sound base for groups to
establish themselves.
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THE DEED OF TRYING KNOWLEDGE TOGETHER
LIMITED
1. The group will be called TRYING KNOWLEDGE
TOGETHER LIMITED.
2. The TKTL will elect a Board at a special general
meeting;
The TKTL Board shall stand possessed of all TKTL
property in Aotearoa.
3. To accept any gift of property whether subject to
a Trust or any of the
Aims/objectives of the Board.
4. To provide, engage and employ Auditors, Office
Administrator, Treasurers, Agents, Solicitors, or any
other person for the purpose of carrying out the
aims/objectives of the Board
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5. To invest any money of the Board not
immediately required for any of its Objectives in
such manner as May from time to time is
determined.
6. To undertake and execute networks of any
Agency business which may seem directly or
indirectly conclusive to any of the Board members.
7. To accept money from time to time on deposit
with allowance of interest or otherwise in such
terms as the Board in its absolute discretion thinks
fit.
8. To carry on any business activity as directed by
the TKTL Board either alone, or partnership with
other person as the Board in its absolute and
controlled discretion thinks fit. For that purpose, to
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lease, bail, use property as capital in any such
business all such supervisors, Clerical workers, over
seers, Board members and other as the Board from
time to time shall think fit, may borrow money
and/or stock and re-arrange any existing mortgages.
9. To appropriate any property forming part of
TKTL.
10. To settle and determine as the board shall
consider just, all questions and matters of doubt
arising from the administration of the TKTL so that
every such determination whether made upon a
question actually raised, or implied in acts of law
may permit, be conclusive and neither the Board,
nor any person having formerly been a TKTL
member, act done or committed to be done or any
payment made or omitted to be in pursuance of any
such determination as a foresaid not withstanding
that such determination subsequently to be held to
have been wrongly made.
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11. The promotion, formation or reorganization of
Financing of any company for the purpose of
Acquiring any investments forming part of the TKTL
property.
The reconstructing of any companies in whose
securities the TKTL property or any part thereof
shall for the time being been invested.
12. The amalgamation of such company with any
other company.
13. The alteration of some or all of the constitution
program forming the TKTL at a special meeting as
long as there is core of three TKTL executive Board
member present.
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NEVER LET WHAT YOU CAN’T DO INTERFERE WITH
WHAT YOU CAN DO
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14. To do all or any other of the above as principal
TKTL Board, Agents, or otherwise and either alone or
in Conjunction with any other corporation
undertaking or persons and either by, or through
agents or otherwise.
15. To do such lawful things that is conducive to the
attainment of the above aims/objectives
16. The TKTL agency that holds personal information
shall not disclose the information to a person or body
or agency unless the agency believes, on reasonable
grounds.
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TKTL BOARD
TRYING KNOWLEDGE TOGETHER LIMITED
BOARD
RANGATERA
OFFICE ADMINISTRATOR
LAWYER
ACCOUNTANT
(VOLUNTEER COORDINATOR)
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Renaissance kiwi Muse
Mature New Art Gallery
Route Kiwi Travel
Tourism
Auspicious Kiwi Psychology
Future Successful Behaviour
Technique Kiwi Isometrics
Training for the Physically Abled
Ketch Kiwi Motion
Building Sailing Vessels
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Theology Kiwi Thinking
Developing New Ideas
Kilobyte Kiwi Formaldehyde
Information Integrity
RENAISSANCE KIWI MUSE
MATURE/NEW ART GALLERY
TKTL GALLERY PROMOTERS
TECHNIQUE KIWI ISOMETRICS
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TKTL TRAINING FOR THE PHYSICALLY DISABLED
KUGEL KIWI ROUTINE
MATERIALISTIC YOUNG STANDARD
TKTL FASHION DESIGNERS
KILOWATT KIWI TACHOMETER
CHANGING TIMES
TKTL WW11 AND VIETNAM VETERANS
ROUT KIWI TRAVELS
TOURISM
TKTL PROMOTERS
KETCH KIWI MOTION
BUILD A SAILING VESSEL
TKTL VESSEL BUILDERS
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THRENODY KIWI THINKING
DEVELOPING NEW IDEAS
TKTL PAST, PRESENT, ALTERNATIVE HEALING PROGRAM
TENSILE KIWI HYPOTHERMIA
STRENGTHENING BODY PULSATION
TKTL NATURAL HEALING PLANTS
RETRO KIWI TAPESTRY
FASHION DESIGNS
TKTL OVER SEAS FASHION
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RETROSPECTIVE KIWI RENAISSANCE
TKTL TRADITIONAL AND CONTEMPORARY ART
M.K.S. KIWI TANGENT
UNIT OF TIME
TKTL ADJUSTING TO CHANGING TIMES
ANNUAL KITE PRODUCTION
TKTL KITE BUILDERS AND TRADITIONAL USES
THEOSOPHY KIWI HETERODOX
RESEARCH RELIGIOUS BELIEFS
TKTL SUCCESS BELONGS TO THOSE WHO
BELIEVE IN THEIR ABILITY
HEURISTIC KIWI RICHTER
EARTHQUAKE\OIL
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TKTL FRACKING ALTERNATIVES
ASTERISM KIWI MYTHOLOGY
TRUST OUR PAST
TKTL HOW MYTH AND LEGEND RELATE TO TODAY
RUNE KIWI WEB BLOG
UNUSUAL COMMUNICATION
TKTL PUBLISHER AND RESEARCHERS
TOPOLOGY KIWI KARMA
UNAFFECTED FATE
TKTL ADJUSTING TO CHANGE
KILOBYTE KIWI FORMALDEHYDE
INFORMATIONAL DISINFECTANT
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TKTL COMPUTER AUTONOMY
HISTOGRAM
GRAPH IN HEIGHT AND WIDTH
TKTL HOW HIGH IS THE HOUSING SOLUTION
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It takes more than 12month to learn about
Maoridom
THE WHAKAPAPA{GENEALOGY} THAT’S IN YOUR LITTLE FINGER,
MOST PEOPLE WOULDN’T EVEN COME CLOUSE TO YOU
WHITU
NEVER FORGET THE
KAUPAPA{PHILOSOPHY}
Never fight when carvings are being repaired, on a
marae or when there is a tangi {funeral}. The
embarrassment you suffer is nothing compared to
what our Tipuna {ancestors} will do.
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THERE IS GOOD AND BAD
IN EVERYTHING GET OVER IT AND
LIVE
INSPIRED BY IVAN
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WHINA COPPER
WAS A PERSON OF GREAT AROHA FOR THE
TANGATAWHENUA A ESOTERIC SOLUTION IS TO BOTH
RESIGN AND HIRE YOUR WHANAU BY THE WAY WE ARE ALL
RELATED} IT IS TIME TO HIRE THE YOUNG. WHINA COPPER
IDEA IS TO PROGRESS UNDER THE LORE WHINA COPPER
HIKOI DID NOT START AT THE TOP OF THE NORTH ISLAND
IT CARRIED ON FROM KUPE; OVER A THOUSAND YEARS AGO
Basically, I believe what she and our tipuna
believed
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PRACTICAL, APPLICATION + POSITIVE
SUBLIMINAL MESSAGING = POSITIVE
ESOTERIC AND ESOTERIC
RESULTS
THOUGH OUT MY LIFE I HAVE HAD TO OVER COME SETBACKS I AM NOW
FACING ANOTHER SET BACK. I LEFT SCHOOL AT 15 YEARS OLD WORKED IN A SAW
MILL IN THE BUSH AND THEN A GOVERNMENT GROUP THEN I MET A ARTS TUTOR WHO
TAUT ME TO RESEARCH SUBLIMINAL ,EXOTERIC ,ESOTERIC AND THE REAL STORY OF THE
TREATY, AND THE REAL REASON WY IT
HAPPEN I WORKED IN THE GISBORNE MUSEUM ARCHIVE’S FOR THREE YEARS
SO I BELIEVE ANY ONE COULD START UP THERE OWN BUSINESS IDEA
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TUTE TREE
TE KAHU OTE RANGI
RONGOMAI WAHINE
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TRANSLATION
WORDS AND THEIR MEANINGS:
Paepae – a bench in which speakers sit in a Maori meeting house
Roro – brain
Kowhaiwhai – rafter
Koruru – shade
Tekoteko – cable, posturing I MANAGE OF A PERSON
Maihi- (diagonal bargeboards) signify arms, the ends are called raparapa meaning
fingers the tahuhu (ridge beam) represents the backbone, the heke and rafters signify
ribs.
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Pare – shield
Whakawae – collapse
Raparapa – close
Amo- carry
Whatitoka – door
Matapihi – window
Whakapapa – a line of descent from one’s ancestors/genealogy
Ka moe - to sleep
Ka puta mai – to come out
Whakamoemiti – praise, thankful, gratitude Pray
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TO DOWNLOAD BOOK PROGRAM AND WHAKAPAPA PLEASE MAKE A
KOHA{DONATION} OF $20
TO TKTL-03-0638-0431619001
WEST PAC
TKTLNZ Coordinator
PH 06 8451464
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THERE ARE MANY RIVERS THAT LEED TO THE SEA BUT THERE IS
ONLY ONE SEa
IHO MATUA TAMA WAIRUA TAPU ANAHERA PONO
THE BEGINNING
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Inoi Whakamutunga — E Te Mangai, E nga
Anahera-Pono, e te Tokotoru Tapu
Whakaungia matou ki roto I te
Arohanoa, Paiheretia ano matau ki te
rangimarie inga wa katoa, ko te mangai
hei tautoko mai
I
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