Peace in the Face of War
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Bro<strong>the</strong>r John <strong>of</strong> <strong>the</strong> Cross CSWG<br />
6 April 1944 – 12 November 2015<br />
Pr<strong>of</strong>essed March 25 1994<br />
Homily given at his funeral on November 21 2015<br />
Job 19:23-27; Romans 5:1-11; John 6:27-40<br />
The people said to Jesus, What must we do to perform <strong>the</strong> works <strong>of</strong> God?<br />
Jesus answered <strong>the</strong>m, This is <strong>the</strong> work <strong>of</strong> God, that you believe <strong>in</strong> him who<br />
he has sent. (John 6:28-29)<br />
On 7 November 2012, Bro<strong>the</strong>r John <strong>of</strong> <strong>the</strong> Cross had a fall. This wasn’t<br />
unusual, as his walk<strong>in</strong>g had been gett<strong>in</strong>g very wobbly. With help he got back<br />
to his cell but as <strong>the</strong> day went on it was clear that all was not well. He couldn’t<br />
move his left leg, though he wasn’t <strong>in</strong> pa<strong>in</strong>. An ambulance was called and<br />
he and I went <strong>of</strong>f to <strong>the</strong> hospital. He hasn’t been resident at <strong>the</strong> Monastery<br />
s<strong>in</strong>ce <strong>the</strong>n. The condition <strong>of</strong> his legs – peripheral neuropathy – meant that<br />
he felt little pa<strong>in</strong> and as <strong>the</strong> doctors at Accident and Emergency hadn’t seen<br />
him walk <strong>in</strong> his ra<strong>the</strong>r precarious way, <strong>the</strong>ir <strong>in</strong>itial concern was to make<br />
sure <strong>the</strong>re wasn’t a reason for his fall – chest pa<strong>in</strong>, a blackout, dizz<strong>in</strong>ess and<br />
so on. The trouble was that, though John was his usual chirpy self, <strong>the</strong> fall<br />
had clearly jolted him onto ano<strong>the</strong>r level <strong>of</strong> confusion. He answered <strong>the</strong>ir<br />
questions brightly enough but was not, shall we say, very consistent. He<br />
was asked several times if he was <strong>in</strong> pa<strong>in</strong>. ‘No, no,’ he said. Later, when he<br />
was asked if he was <strong>in</strong> pa<strong>in</strong>, he said he was, <strong>in</strong>dicat<strong>in</strong>g areas on his right leg,<br />
when it was his left hip he had broken. Eventually <strong>the</strong> doctor said to me, ‘He<br />
seems ra<strong>the</strong>r confused,’ and did I know anyth<strong>in</strong>g <strong>of</strong> his medical condition<br />
and history. When I reeled <strong>of</strong>f all <strong>the</strong> th<strong>in</strong>gs that were <strong>the</strong> matter with him<br />
and <strong>the</strong> medication he took to keep it all <strong>in</strong> some sort <strong>of</strong> coord<strong>in</strong>ation and<br />
work<strong>in</strong>g order, she looked somewhat stunned. I was to repeat this to various<br />
doctors over <strong>the</strong> com<strong>in</strong>g weeks. I must admit I ra<strong>the</strong>r enjoyed <strong>the</strong>ir amazed<br />
reactions, made all <strong>the</strong> more comic with John usually sitt<strong>in</strong>g <strong>the</strong>re, smil<strong>in</strong>g<br />
happily and largely oblivious <strong>of</strong> what we were talk<strong>in</strong>g about. I can laugh<br />
about it now and I did <strong>the</strong>n, but actually it was <strong>the</strong> unfold<strong>in</strong>g <strong>of</strong> a tragedy. It<br />
was <strong>the</strong> beg<strong>in</strong>n<strong>in</strong>g <strong>of</strong> a slowly dim<strong>in</strong>ish<strong>in</strong>g existence, which was to end <strong>in</strong> his<br />
death on Thursday <strong>of</strong> last week.<br />
After <strong>the</strong> operation to repair his hip, he had no pa<strong>in</strong>, so keep<strong>in</strong>g him <strong>in</strong><br />
bed or <strong>in</strong> his chair became a major problem on <strong>the</strong> ward. No amount <strong>of</strong><br />
tell<strong>in</strong>g him made any difference. He had no sense <strong>of</strong> danger and wouldn’t<br />
stay still. We were told he couldn’t return to <strong>the</strong> Monastery, as it was highly<br />
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