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about them.<br />
Later that same day, I w<strong>and</strong>ered in<strong>to</strong> an empty rehearsal studio <strong>to</strong> practice some phrases from the<br />
morning’s reper<strong>to</strong>ry class. I moved in<strong>to</strong> the final bars of the most challenging choreography <strong>and</strong><br />
prepared <strong>to</strong> do the ever elusive triple pirouette that marked the end of the phrase—a flourish I’d been<br />
hungering <strong>to</strong> master. Every attempt I’d made before had ended in frustration <strong>and</strong> a double pirouette—<br />
or at the most in a sloppy, overexerted double <strong>and</strong> a half. I prepared once again for the triple. I <strong>to</strong>ok a<br />
deep plié. Then my arms moved in<strong>to</strong> port de bras, encircling my newfound center, <strong>and</strong> in what was<br />
soon <strong>to</strong> become an unforgettable slice of time my head turned <strong>and</strong> my body followed effortlessly for<br />
one, two, then three turns! Gliding gracefully, I finished in fourth position. I had done it!<br />
With that, I unders<strong>to</strong>od for the first time what effortless effort meant, <strong>and</strong> (no pun intended) there<br />
would be no turning back. Considering the results of working my core, the next conditioning class just<br />
couldn’t come soon enough.<br />
That summer, even when I encountered exercises that were harder than I imagined they would be, I<br />
persevered, just as my mother had <strong>to</strong>ld me I should. Because of the nature of the work <strong>and</strong> how<br />
balanced <strong>and</strong> symmetrical every movement was, I couldn’t rely on my old ways: I couldn’t just mimic<br />
a movement by watching it <strong>and</strong> then repeating it, as we did in dance. I couldn’t “cheat,” counting on<br />
my stronger “workhorse” muscles <strong>to</strong> compensate for my weaker ones. In order <strong>to</strong> successfully execute<br />
any movement, my weaker side had <strong>to</strong> participate as well. I had <strong>to</strong> think, <strong>to</strong> really concentrate, <strong>and</strong> I<br />
had <strong>to</strong> do it quickly—dialoguing with my body within a span of seconds <strong>and</strong> asking it <strong>to</strong> comply <strong>and</strong><br />
partner with me. For the first time, employing the muscles I “found” in Pilates, I used my body as an<br />
integrated whole.<br />
As if overnight (<strong>and</strong> that’s the magic of the work, how quickly it reeducates you), I developed an<br />
entirely new interior awareness. I’d been introduced <strong>to</strong> another aspect of the mind–body connection:<br />
how my precise <strong>and</strong> focused, fully conscious efforts affected my body <strong>and</strong> how immediately it<br />
responded. Pilates pulled me in. I couldn’t get enough. Even with my innocent, thirteen-year-old<br />
scope of underst<strong>and</strong>ing, the mental focus <strong>and</strong> discipline it required was mysteriously compelling. I<br />
was awestruck. The Pilates method fascinated me <strong>and</strong> captured my imagination.<br />
Old Tricks No More<br />
It wasn’t until I returned <strong>to</strong> my regular dance schedule in the fall that I was able <strong>to</strong> fully appreciate the<br />
benefits I had reaped. Instead of feeling depleted after a full day of classes, I felt inspired,<br />
invigorated, <strong>and</strong> enlivened. My stamina had increased, as had my focus <strong>and</strong> drive.<br />
Pilates made me feel omnipotent. So much so, in fact, that in all my inflated teenage, selfaggr<strong>and</strong>izing<br />
glory I s<strong>to</strong>pped doing it consistently for a while—just because I thought I didn’t need it<br />
anymore. I thought there was nothing I couldn’t do.<br />
Amazing as it was, the “work” of Pilates seemed <strong>to</strong> work for me even after I <strong>to</strong>ok a break from it.<br />
In my mind it had managed some miraculous rearranging of my cellular biology <strong>and</strong> had remade me