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A long time passed. If it had been midnight when the skull-faced man was taken away, it was<br />
morning; if morning, it was afternoon. Winston was alone, and had been alone for hours. The pain of<br />
sitting on the narrow bench was such that often he got up and walked about, unreproved by the<br />
telescreen. The piece of bread still lay where the chinless man had dropped it. At the beginning it<br />
needed a hard effort not to look at it, but presently hunger gave way to thirst. His mouth was sticky<br />
and evil-tasting. The humming sound and the unvarying white light induced a sort of faintness, an<br />
empty feeling inside his head. He would get up because the ache in his bones was no longer bearable,<br />
and then would sit down again almost at once because he was too dizzy to make sure of staying on his<br />
feet. Whenever his physical sensations were a little under control the terror returned. Sometimes with<br />
a fading hope he thought of O'Brien and the razor blade. It was thinkable that the razor blade might<br />
arrive concealed in his food, if he were ever fed. More dimly he thought of Julia. Somewhere or other<br />
she was suffering, perhaps far worse than he. She might be screaming with pain at this moment. He<br />
thought: "If I could save Julia by doubling my own pain, would I do it? Yes, I would." But that was<br />
merely an intellectual decision, taken because he knew that he ought to take it. He did not feel it. In<br />
this place you could not feel anything, except pain and the foreknowledge of pain. Besides, was it<br />
possible, when you were actually suffering it, to wish for any reason whatever that your own pain<br />
should increase? But that question was not answerable yet.<br />
The boots were approaching again. The door opened. O'Brien came in.<br />
Winston started to his feet. The shock of the sight had driven all caution out of him. For the first<br />
time in many years he forgot the presence of the telescreen.<br />
"They've got you too!" he cried.<br />
"They got me a long time ago," said O'Brien with a mild, almost regretful irony. He stepped aside.<br />
From behind him there emerged a broad-chested guard with a long black truncheon in his hand.<br />
"You knew this, Winston," said O'Brien. "Don't deceive yourself. You did know it—you have<br />
always known it."<br />
Yes, he saw now, he had always known it. But there was no time to think of that. All he had eyes<br />
for was the truncheon in the guard's hand. It might fall anywhere: on the crown, on the tip of the ear,<br />
on the upper arm, on the elbow—<br />
The elbow! He had slumped to his knees, almost paralyzed, clasping the stricken elbow with his<br />
other hand. Everything had exploded into yellow light. Inconceivable, inconceivable that one blow<br />
could cause such pain! The light cleared and he could see the other two looking down at him. The<br />
guard was laughing at his contortions. One question at any rate was answered. Never, for any reason<br />
on earth, could you wish for an increase of pain. Of pain you could wish only one thing: that it should<br />
stop. Nothing in the world was so bad as physical pain. In the face of pain there are no heroes, no<br />
heroes, he thought over and over as he writhed on the floor, clutching uselessly at his disabled left<br />
arm.