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EVERYTHING’S A RISK<br />
CARLA’S SMILING AT me like she knows something I don’t know. She’s been doing it all<br />
day whenever she thinks I’m not looking. Also she’s been singing “Take a Chance on Me”<br />
by ABBA, her absolute favorite band of all time. She’s breathtakingly out of tune. I’ll have<br />
to ask Olly the probability that she could miss every single note. Shouldn’t she hit one<br />
just by random chance?<br />
It’s 12:30 P.M. and I have a half hour for lunch before my history tutor comes online.<br />
I’m not hungry. I’m basically never hungry anymore. Apparently a body can exist on IM<br />
alone.<br />
Carla’s not looking, so I tab over to my Gmail. Thirteen messages from Olly since last<br />
night. They’re all sent around 3 A.M. and, naturally, he doesn’t write a subject. I laugh a<br />
little and shake my head.<br />
I want to read them, am dying to read them, but I have to be careful with Carla in the<br />
room. I glance over and find her staring back at me, eyebrows raised. Does she know<br />
something?<br />
“What’s so interesting on that laptop?” she asks. God. She definitely knows.<br />
I draw my chair closer to the desk and place my sandwich on the laptop.<br />
“Nothing.” I take a bite of the sandwich. It’s Turkey Tuesday.<br />
“It’s not nothing. Something is making you laugh over there.” She inches closer,<br />
smiling at me. Her brown eyes crinkle at the corners and her smile reaches the edge of<br />
her face.<br />
“Cat video,” I say through a mouthful of turkey. Ugh, wrong thing to say. Carla lives for<br />
cat videos. She thinks they’re the only thing the Internet is good for.<br />
She comes around, stands behind me, and reaches for the laptop.<br />
I drop my sandwich and hug the laptop close to my chest. I’m not a good liar, and I say<br />
the first thing that pops into my head. “You don’t want to see this one, Carla. It’s bad. The<br />
cat dies.”<br />
We stare at each other in a kind of shocked standoff for a few seconds. I’m shocked<br />
because I’m an idiot and I can’t believe that I said that. Carla’s shocked because I’m an<br />
idiot and she can’t believe that I said that. Her mouth drops open comically, like a<br />
cartoon, and her big round eyes get even bigger and rounder. She bends over at the waist,<br />
slaps her knee, and laughs like I’ve never heard her laugh. Who actually slaps their knee<br />
while laughing?<br />
“You mean to tell me the only thing you could think to say was that it was a dead cat?”<br />
She’s laughing again.<br />
“So you know.”