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MIRROR IMAGE I PULL THE curtains aside as soon as I’m back in my room. Olly’s standing at his window, his forehead pressed into his fist, his fist pressed into the glass. How long has he been waiting? It takes him a second to realize I’m there, but it’s enough time for me to see his fear. Evidently my function in life is to strike fear into the hearts of those who love me. Not that Olly loves me. His eyes roam over my body, my face. He makes a typing gesture with his hands, but I shake my head. He frowns, makes the gesture again, but I shake my head again. He disappears from the window and returns with a marker. I nod. Are you? I mouth. I shake my head. I nod. I nod. I shrug. I pantomime excellent health, existential angst, regret, and an enormous sense of loss, all via a single nod. We stare mutely at each other. I shake my head. A gesture that says: No, don’t be sorry. It’s not your fault. It’s not you. It’s this life.
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- Page 83 and 84: FORECAST OLLY’S ON THE wall again
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- Page 87 and 88: SECRETS MY CONSTANT IMING with Olly
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- Page 91 and 92: OLLY SAYS HE’S NOT ON the wall wh
- Page 93: Olly finds himself getting angry, t
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- Page 100 and 101: my finger in the palm of his hand.
- Page 102 and 103: FRIENDSHIP Later, 8:16 P.M. Olly: y
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- Page 110 and 111: HONESTLY Later, 8:03 P.M. Olly: no
- Page 112 and 113: preparing for a bout. He’s trying
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- Page 124 and 125: I stare at the note, remembering th
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- Page 136 and 137: THE FIVE SENSES HEARING The alarm
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- Page 143 and 144: HAPPY ALREADY “MADS, BE SERIOUS.
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- Page 155 and 156: And, too, the world is in me.
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- Page 161 and 162: eathed the same filtered air for so
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