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RACHEL Bristol Children’s Hospital smelled of cleanliness and sickness in equal measure. The only times I’d been there before had been to meet John after work. We travelled up from the ground floor in a tiny elevator where Wallace and Gromit’s recorded voices told us to ‘Mind the Doors’, over and over again. Shock-eyed and sleep-deprived parents got on and off, checking the sign in the lift for their destinations, fingers running down a list, stopping at ‘Oncology’ or ‘Nephrology’. Amongst them were a mother and baby boy, she wearing a burqa, even her eyes veiled from the world with mesh. Her baby was in her arms, a tube running up his nose, taped in place, his wide brown eyes staring at the ceiling lights. I wondered how she was able to comfort him when she was confined to that garment, when their eyes couldn’t even meet. Did she rest her uncovered fingers on his cheek? Was that skin-to-skin contact enough for them both here, in this hospital? My heart, hurting for my own son, ached for her too. The elevator disgorged DI Bennett and me onto the fourth floor. The decor was wincingly bright, themed in blue and yellow, and featuring aquatic motifs, but somehow all of that felt hopeful; it made my sense of anticipation swell. In the vestibule outside the elevator doors, where the floor-to-ceiling windows offered us a tumbling, chaotic cityscape view of Bristol, DI Bennett told me that he’d been in the woods with Ben. He couldn’t quite meet my eye, but he held open a door for me and then guided me along the corridor with a light hand on my elbow that was touching if not welcome. I was met in the corridor outside Ben’s ward by two doctors, who politely ushered me into a room. A nurse was there. She offered me a cup of tea. The chink of china was the only sound in the room as everybody waited for her to pour it. Ben had been close to death when they found him, they explained to me, his core body temperature dangerously cold, but they’d warmed him up, and he was stable. Battered and bruised, very weak, but stable. Relief and happiness that he was alive overwhelmed any trepidation I might have felt. They could scarcely hold me back. ‘He’s still in a dangerous condition,’ they wanted to tell me before they let me see him. ‘Do you understand that?’ I said I did. I left the tea to go cold on the table. Do you want me to describe our reunion? I can tell you that a nurse was outside the door of Ben’s room and that her hand reached out to touch mine when I arrived, just brushed it lightly, even though we were strangers. We exchanged no words but she held the door open for me.
JIM By the time we got back to Kenneth Steele House, Woodley and I mud-stained and soaking wet from the woods, Fraser had just gone into interview with Joanna May. They’d picked her up at Bristol Airport waiting for a flight out. We heard everything second hand. The incident room was fairly buzzing with the news. Relief had broken out across everybody’s faces, though there was an undercurrent of muttering that Benedict Finch was seriously unwell, that it was a wait and see job. Nobody was celebrating properly because of that, nobody wanted to. Fraser had left instructions for Bennett to get down to the hospital and for Woodley and me to go and visit Joanna May’s parents at their house. She wanted us to get to the bottom of the alibi they’d given their daughter and find out what else they knew. It was 3 pm by the time we pulled up into their driveway on a quiet street of semi-detached Victorian villas far enough out in suburbia that streetlights were few and far between. When we arrived, two uniforms made a discreet exit, leaving Woodley and me with a couple, in their seventies, who looked as though they wished the ground would open up and swallow them. We sat in their lounge. There was no tea, or coffee. Vast windows inset with a band of decorative stained glass gave us a view of a pair of raised vegetable beds, where bamboo canes protruded from the dark puddle-pocked earth and were tethered into triangular shapes. On an ornate marble mantelpiece a vase of flowers was crowded by family photographs, which spilled over onto adjacent bookshelves that reached from floor to ceiling. Amongst the faces in the pictures was Joanna May. Hanging above the fireplace was a large mirror in a gilt frame, which threw back a reflection of our sorry gathering: Woodley and I standing in the middle of the room, tall and dark like crows, Mrs May sunk into an armchair, a walking stick propped up beside her, dressings visible on her legs underneath thick brown tights; Mr May beside her in a matching chair, wisps of white hair over his forehead, cat hair on his trousers; both of them looking stricken. ‘She was our fourth child,’ said Mrs May once Woodley and I had taken a seat on a rug-draped sofa. Her voice was tremulous and careful. ‘We had five children altogether. Rory died, our eldest son, when he was a toddler, but we were a happy family, weren’t we, Geoff?’ Mr May reached over and took her hand, squeezed it. ‘But she wasn’t right,’ he said to Woodley and me, ‘from the start. As soon as she started interacting with other children, we knew she wasn’t.’ ‘In what way?’ I asked. Mrs May lowered her eyes. ‘She was so manipulative,’ said her husband. ‘She competed constantly for our attention, she bullied her siblings to get what she wanted, and she was always lying. The lying was constant, it was infuriating.’ It was painful to watch Mr May talk. Everything he shared with us stripped another piece of his pride away, and undermined more completely the life this couple had built. ‘If somebody lies to you habitually, Inspector, you can’t ever trust them,’ he said. ‘It erodes relationships, even between a parent and child.’ He ran a trembling hand across the paper-thin skin on his forehead. ‘We knew the way she behaved was wrong, and that she wasn’t what you might call completely normal, but we never dreamed it would lead to something like this.’
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RACHEL<br />
Bristol Children’s Hospital smelled of cleanliness and sickness in equal measure. The only times I’d<br />
been there before had been to meet John after work.<br />
We travelled up from the ground floor in a tiny elevator where Wallace and Gromit’s recorded<br />
voices told us to ‘Mind the Doors’, over and over again. Shock-eyed and sleep-deprived parents got<br />
on and off, checking the sign in the lift for their destinations, fingers running down a list, stopping at<br />
‘Oncology’ or ‘Nephrology’.<br />
Amongst them were a mother and baby boy, she wearing a burqa, even her eyes veiled from the<br />
world with mesh. Her baby was in her arms, a tube running up his nose, taped in place, his wide<br />
brown eyes staring at the ceiling lights. I wondered how she was able to comfort him when she was<br />
confined to that garment, when their eyes couldn’t even meet. Did she rest her uncovered fingers on<br />
his cheek? Was that skin-to-skin contact enough for them both here, in this hospital?<br />
My heart, hurting for my own son, ached for her too.<br />
The elevator disgorged DI Bennett and me onto the fourth floor.<br />
The decor was wincingly bright, themed in blue and yellow, and featuring aquatic motifs, but<br />
somehow all of that felt hopeful; it made my sense of anticipation swell.<br />
In the vestibule outside the elevator doors, where the floor-to-ceiling windows offered us a<br />
tumbling, chaotic cityscape view of Bristol, DI Bennett told me that he’d been in the woods with Ben.<br />
He couldn’t quite meet my eye, but he held open a door for me and then guided me along the corridor<br />
with a light hand on my elbow that was touching if not welcome.<br />
I was met in the corridor outside Ben’s ward by two doctors, who politely ushered me into a room.<br />
A nurse was there. She offered me a cup of tea. The chink of china was the only sound in the room as<br />
everybody waited for her to pour it.<br />
Ben had been close to death when they found him, they explained to me, his core body temperature<br />
dangerously cold, but they’d warmed him up, and he was stable. Battered and bruised, very weak, but<br />
stable.<br />
Relief and happiness that he was alive overwhelmed any trepidation I might have felt. They could<br />
scarcely hold me back.<br />
‘He’s still in a dangerous condition,’ they wanted to tell me before they let me see him. ‘Do you<br />
understand that?’<br />
I said I did. I left the tea to go cold on the table.<br />
Do you want me to describe our reunion?<br />
I can tell you that a nurse was outside the door of Ben’s room and that her hand reached out to touch<br />
mine when I arrived, just brushed it lightly, even though we were strangers. We exchanged no words<br />
but she held the door open for me.