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I behaved in an arrogant and disgusting way, and that’s something I’ll have to live with, just like I’ll have to live with losing my career, and
I deserve that.
I know we can’t be together any more, but I hope you can find it in your heart to forgive me just a little, or try to understand.
I’ve told all of this to Internal Affairs. I’m in the process now. They’ve suspended me and I’m under investigation. I’m not allowed to
communicate with you so please delete this after you’ve read it.
Know this though, Jim. I love you. Our times together were amazing and I’ll miss you always. So thank you.
Emma x
When I finished reading I hit ‘delete’. But then I went into my trash folder and moved the email
back into my inbox.
In one of my kitchen cupboards I found a bottle of whisky, a gift from my parents when I moved in,
so far untouched. Normally, I’m not much of a drinker, but that night I opened it. I didn’t bother with
mixers. I drank a large quantity of it, much more quickly than I should have done. It was enough to
make the room tilt before I passed out.