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RACHEL<br />
What happened next was that the attitude of the police towards me tightened, or perhaps I should say<br />
sharpened. It was clear as day to me, even though on the surface they still showed appropriate<br />
concern.<br />
I first realised it when DI Clemo came to see me after the conference and could barely contain his<br />
irritation.<br />
Zhang had brought me yet another cup of tea that I couldn’t drink, and sat my sister and me in a<br />
boxy interview room until my nausea had subsided to a manageable level and I felt ready to travel<br />
home.<br />
When Clemo appeared his eyes were burning. He remained standing, his bulk dominating the<br />
space.<br />
‘Rachel,’ he said, ‘you do understand that things didn’t run entirely to plan at the press<br />
conference?’<br />
He was handling me. I tried to say something, to justify what had happened, but he held up a hand,<br />
even though he’d asked me a question.<br />
‘Let me finish if you will,’ he said. ‘Our primary concern now is that there may be some kind of<br />
backlash against you. We suggest that you keep a very low profile around the press, as low as<br />
possible.’<br />
‘What do you mean by that?’<br />
‘Don’t talk to them. It’s very simple.’<br />
‘It’s for your own protection,’ said Zhang, ‘and Ben’s.’<br />
‘What do you mean by backlash?’ Nicky wanted to know.<br />
‘Precisely that. This is a high-profile case. The press conference was, unfortunately, sensational,<br />
and for all the wrong reasons. The public want to find Ben as much as we do, but unlike us they might<br />
not be looking for evidence before making accusations. Do I make myself clear?’<br />
‘I understand,’ said Nicky. ‘They’re going to say that Rachel did it.’<br />
‘They’re already saying it.’<br />
‘So what do we do?’<br />
‘Go home, shut the doors, pull the curtains, don’t speak to any journalists. DC Zhang will drive you<br />
back.’<br />
‘What about Ben?’ I said.<br />
‘We’re going to continue to do everything we can to find him and we’ll keep you posted on our<br />
progress.’ It was a phrase that was as bland and meaningless as a corporate slogan. If I’d ever had a<br />
connection with him, I felt as if it was lost now.<br />
‘I’m so sorry,’ I said.<br />
At home, Nicky and Laura and I watched in silence as the footage from the conference played on<br />
national TV.<br />
I’d been filmed in close-up. I looked as if I’d crawled out of a primitive encampment after a long<br />
siege. The injury on my head was prominent; it drew the eye like a disfigurement, and livid red spots<br />
on my pale cheeks made me look feverish, and deranged. My eyes sagged with grief and exhaustion,<br />
and roved around the room, restless and jumpy. Every flaw and muscle twitch and emotion was<br />
visible on my face, and the moment when I addressed Ben’s abductor was the worst. There wasn’t a