Returning to Goloka

By this time, I was in meditation or doing pujas nearly 24 hours a day,
only stopping to rest when I could not stay awake. In the room I used for
siddhis and flying I had a picture of the Virgin Mary on the wall. Somehow I
was attracted to the picture at a local bookstore and bought it and just tacked
it up on the wall without a frame. I knew nothing about her, being brought
up in the southern Baptist church. That night the attacks increased in intensity
and I thought I would not be able to survive the night. At one point I lay
down exhausted, feeling hopeless and afraid and noticed the picture of the
Virgin Mary. As I began to think about her, immediately she was there. She
held my head in her lap and asked me if I needed her help.
She said she could help me and wanted to transfer a large block of
accumulated Shakti that was attracting the rakshasas. I agreed to the transfer
of the energy and immediately the attacks subsided and I felt peace.
Over the next few days the accumulated
Shakti was transferred from my physical body to
my subtle body on the vijñamaya plane and that
helped considerably to frustrate the lower level
astral beings. However, it opened up a whole new
realm of issues as I became more awake on the
astral plane and a threat to even more powerful
rakshasas on the higher levels of the astral plane.
A few days later, one morning after a puja to Guru Dev, Lord Shiva
appeared and said “Maharishi is your Guru, do what he says.”
I soon learned that I was being tested for sincerity and that I had
balanced considerable karma so I was ready to become a disciple of an
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