Returning to Goloka

part that was so nonchalantly watching the show during the previous sutras
was amazed.
I felt the unconditional love and acceptance coming from Krishna that
I had only felt before, coming from Maharishi. When someone looks at you
with a pure heart of unconditional love and acceptance, you feel as if there is
no difference between the two of you; as if you are looking at yourself in a
mirror and you absolutely love and accept yourself completely, no criticism at
all. Time stands still in this gaze of unconditional love and acceptance and
awareness splits into these same two parts, 10% aware of surroundings and
90% drinking in the Bliss of this momentary encounter that seems unlimited
in its scope.
As I gazed at Krishna, I was filled with a knowing of what was going to
come and how I would be playing a role. Meanwhile, my physical body and
that 10% part of me was lifting up, levitating in the air a few inches above the
foam floor, and then gently falling back under the pull of gravity. It was so
effortless and blissful! And my physical body could not contain the
extraordinary energy and bliss of that moment so I began to make a loud
noise to somehow regulate the incredible bliss. It was as if my body was a
teakettle, full of steam and if I did not vent some of the steam I would burst!
I was aware that my loud noise, a sort of primal scream, was extremely
annoying to the hundreds in the dome that day, but I could not stop; I must
not stop.
There I was, 10% of me aware of the entire ruckus I was causing, how
others were looking at me, even starting to gather around to see “what in the
world is going on with that guy!” And the 90% part was lost in a timeless
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