Returning to Goloka

again and somehow that part of me was clearly aware of physical time and
knew exactly when to repeat samyama on the same sutra and when to advance
to the next sutra. This part of me was perhaps 10% of my awareness. The
other part, the 90% part, was in a totally different reality. It was a timeless,
unbounded space that seemed more real than life. My awareness was totally
alive and awake in a way that I had never experienced before. It was an
awareness of the Anandamaya Kosha where I am the Totality of this universe.
I was looking at one tiny aspect of this fabulous realm as if my eyes
were powerful microscopes, able to discern infinitely fine details of a
waveform. I knew I was witnessing the spontaneous response of prakriti to
my samyama. I understood how Lord Brahma performing samyama on the
432,000 mantras of the Rig Veda creates the universe. I was doing exactly that
in a very small way in the dome that day in Fairfield. These were not thoughts
in the usual sense, but instead it was a knowing that was so vast that it would
take many books to record a fraction of what was known to me at that time.
As I remember the experience now, I have to cut short the details for
the sake of brevity. That 90% of me was just Being and accepted all in a very
matter of fact way, no excitement, nothing unusual here. But the 10% of me
that was watching the time in my head and aware that I had just performed
samyama on the first sutra about 2 seconds ago, was totally amazed! This was
more like conventional thinking and the thought “what is going on here!”
came into my mind.
Finally, the amazed 10% knew it was time to perform samyama on the
sutra again so I did and just before I did that, the experience of the first
performance faded away into darkness. I performed samyama a second time
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