Returning to Goloka

waiting to get in. We spent more than an hour with him at that time talking
about experiences; just a few hundreds of us.
That evening in a general assembly someone asked Maharishi when the
next Teacher Training course would be held. Maharishi said we have enough
teachers now; probably no one else wants to become a teacher. “How many
still want to be teachers?” he asked. Without thinking my hand immediately
flew up and on January 12, 1981, my course started in Livingston Manor, New
York.
I arrived at Livingston Manor in January of 1981 and settled into the
blissful routine of the Teacher Training Course. All I wanted was to come to
know Maharishi and all he did was tell us that all glory was to his Guru Dev. He
seemed to constantly be putting Guru Dev in the light while he took the
background. So I naturally switched the focus of my devotion to Guru Dev
while my love for Maharishi grew.
During the course Guru Dev (Swami Brahmanda Saraswati) became very
real to me. One day during meditation as I sat
in padmasana my back ached, my knees felt as
if on fire, my whole body was shaking and
racked with pain. I cried out in consciousness
“Guru Dev, please help me!” and immediately
he responded. All the pain in my body
instantly disappeared and I sat in full lotus
effortlessly for the remainder of the
meditation - about an hour.
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