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successful post-mansion life for myself and I wasn’t going to just hand over <strong>the</strong> reins for <strong>the</strong> chance to<br />
be on a show roughly 40 people would end up watching (okay, maybe a little more than 40). It felt<br />
like I was being used.<br />
Despite sharing a friendship and a common experience at <strong>the</strong> mansion, Kendra and I were still<br />
very much different people. There were times when I was compared to her and encouraged to follow<br />
Kendra’s method, but it just wasn’t me. While she was quite a bit more mainstream than I was, her<br />
“career moves” consisted of things like releasing an old sex tape or coming out with a line of<br />
lubricants. While her tabloid coverage focused on positive things like her wedding and baby her first<br />
year out of <strong>the</strong> mansion, lately her headlines had devolved to negative things like: “Why I Left Hank,”<br />
“Kendra Loses Her Baby!,” “Kendra’s Secret Breakdown,” and “Sex Tape Scandal.” Ummm, no<br />
thanks.<br />
Since she moved into <strong>the</strong> mansion at 19 years old, Kendra had never had to work for a thing her<br />
entire adult life. She went directly from having cameras follow her as Hugh Hefner’s girlfriend to<br />
cameras following her being a football wife. Luckily for her, whe<strong>the</strong>r it was Hef or Hank, <strong>the</strong>re was<br />
always someone around to rescue her.<br />
Were <strong>the</strong>y seriously asking me to simply hand over <strong>the</strong> career I had built by myself so her life<br />
could look more interesting on TV? It appeared so.<br />
“I worked my ass off to promote Peepshow and make it a success,” I continued, firmly and<br />
unapologetically. “The work I put into this production actually means something to me. If I tossed in<br />
Kendra as my understudy, people would see that on TV and think Peepshow is just handed from one<br />
ex-Girl Next Door to <strong>the</strong> o<strong>the</strong>r. It would tear down everything I’ve built to make myself an<br />
individual.”<br />
I was told that it wouldn’t and that Kendra wouldn’t even be able to do <strong>the</strong> show. That she<br />
would think she could do it, but she wouldn’t be able to pull it off.<br />
“The answer is no,” I maintained. “I’ll support Kendra on her show, but I’m not handing my life<br />
over to her. No way.”<br />
They finally conceded, before offering one final plea: “But think about it. It would get you back<br />
on television!”<br />
Did he really think I wanted back on TV that badly? I thought. I couldn’t begin to imagine<br />
Kendra’s Peepshow run. First off, <strong>the</strong>re’s no way Kendra had <strong>the</strong> self-discipline to perform in eight<br />
live shows a week. She didn’t possess that kind of work ethic. And I could never unleash Hurricane<br />
Kendra on my cast and crew.<br />
Sure, we’d been on excellent terms since we left <strong>the</strong> mansion, but I knew for myself what a<br />
nightmare she could be to work with. Her incessant tardiness, endless excuses, and toddler-like<br />
tantrums had become a thing of legend.<br />
After continuing to turn down <strong>the</strong> Peepshow understudy idea again and again (<strong>the</strong>y really were<br />
relentless), I finally agreed to shoot a simple scene with Kendra at her new home—Hank’s NFL<br />
career had ended <strong>the</strong> year before and <strong>the</strong>y had settled outside Los Angeles—for <strong>the</strong> debut episode of<br />
her series.<br />
The plan seemed organic enough: she and I would simply talk and catch up. Producers