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my bunny tattoo as well.<br />
“No one,” he said, pausing for emphasis, “will ever love you as much as I do.” He enunciated<br />
<strong>the</strong> sentence slowly, as if he were making a grand speech. I had no words. Instead, I gave him a<br />
friendly hug in order to avoid actually speaking to him. I know he was trying to sound romantic, as if<br />
he were pledging his undying love, but to me his comment sounded like a slight. I knew I deserved<br />
better—and <strong>the</strong>re’s no way his kind of love was <strong>the</strong> best <strong>the</strong> world had to offer.<br />
Through his vain attempts to intimidate, guilt, persuade, and eventually bribe me, <strong>the</strong> only thing<br />
he succeeded in doing was to convince me that I was making <strong>the</strong> best decision I had made in a very<br />
long time.<br />
During those final few months, I began spending more time in Las Vegas. It was a town<br />
brimming with opportunities! I met with <strong>the</strong> producers of <strong>the</strong> Crazy Horse Paris, a tasteful cabaret<br />
show at <strong>the</strong> MGM Grand. We had discussed me doing a guest run before, but now I was ready to<br />
pursue it. Bridget and I were hired to host a Halloween party in Vegas and were brought out early to<br />
shoot flyers for <strong>the</strong> event. And while my trips were primarily business focused, I was finally single<br />
and free to date whomever I wanted, so I found myself seeing Criss in my spare time.<br />
Though I was cautious to take it slow at first, over time it was clear he really was looking for<br />
something serious and our relationship grew romantic.<br />
When I announced to him that I was leaving Hef and <strong>the</strong> mansion, Criss opened up his world to<br />
me without even a moment’s hesitation. He pleaded with me to move in with him by Halloween<br />
during one of my trips to Las Vegas.<br />
“No!” I giggled. “That’s too soon!”<br />
I didn’t want to rush into a relationship so fast. Honestly, I didn’t see myself settling down with<br />
him quickly. I had big plans, none of which involved living with a man. I hoped to split my time<br />
between L.A. and Las Vegas in order to balance both my job at Studio West as well as performing<br />
regularly at <strong>the</strong> MGM. I had hopes of developing my own spin-off TV series chronicling my new life<br />
in Vegas as a single showgirl.<br />
Unfortunately, my need to feel loved would win out over my need for independence.<br />
DURING MY LAST FEW weeks at <strong>the</strong> mansion, Bridget was back on a break from filming her travel<br />
show. After we discussed <strong>the</strong> upcoming Halloween party, I had to fill her in on how awkward things<br />
continued to be for me under Hef’s roof.<br />
“Hef came into my room <strong>the</strong> o<strong>the</strong>r day and tried ‘reasoning’ with me,” I told Bridget, sprawling<br />
myself out on her large round bed. “He was trying to talk me out of dating Criss and was like, ‘The<br />
media calls him a douche bag!’ I didn’t know what to say!”<br />
Despite everything, Hef hadn’t quite given up yet. A few weeks after that fateful night in Las<br />
Vegas, photos emerged revealing what appeared to be an intimate evening I spent with Criss Angel in<br />
Las Vegas. I remained at <strong>the</strong> mansion for about two months total after Hef and I officially broke up, in<br />
order to fulfill my obligations to <strong>the</strong> TV series. During those eight weeks, as I waited around to see<br />
what sort of final scenes I needed to film for season five, more details began to not so mysteriously